#“What if you do smth to your body that you can't reverse?”

[nervocat]

I want to present masc so bad but with my parents and family as a whole it's near impossible rn

[murdrdocs]

Can I req smth with the bottom side of Hazel I think it would b funny 2 see ( no I don't I am just always horny)

bottom hazel = fucking her w the strap (i will never shut up abt this strap) smut 17+

she's swearing, almost running away at first, squirming and looking at you with wide eyes. its silly for a second. "this is what I do to you?" spoken with slight fear, but she sees your laughter and she calms down a little. she truly calms down when you tease her, "i get fucked like this all the time and you cant even handle a minute of it?" spoken with an extremely condescending pout. she senses that you're goading her, trying to tease her into submission, and she doesn't want it to work. but it does.

"fucking fuck," murmured under her breath, and then she's giving in. she's relaxing enough for you to bottom out, the sting of her nails digging into your wrist lessening enough for you to start to fuck her gently without resistance, and that's when she sees the fun it it.

her face relaxes, her eyes roll back just a little, lids fluttering as her lips part. "baby, oh my god." you nod, a small smile on your lips as you slide a hand up to fondle hazel's tit.

"i know, haze. feels good doesn't it?"

her answer is immediate. "'s so good."

hazel bottoming is cute. she lets out little whines you've never heard before. she's loud, a moaner, and you're glad that you have the house to yourselves otherwise you would've had to force her panties between her teeth to shut her up. or maybe your panties instead. it's a thought you toy with for a second; hazel holding your pretty lacy panties between her lips, drooling all over them.

you groan, hips snapping into hazel's with an increased speed with just the thought. this, in turn, spurs her own. her hips lift more, encouraging you to grip them and angle the faux cock deeper. she keens when you reach that spot, a startled sound that blends into possibly the prettiest moan you've ever heard.

"god, haze, you sound so pretty," you tell her, hand sliding down her thigh to lift around your lower back. she quickly gets the memo, having been in your position more times than either of you can count. she easily helps you assemble the position you're used to having reversed, her legs wrapped around your hips, feet hooked behind your back to pull you closer to her. your hands press into the pillow beneath her head, a smirk on your lips with this change.

the position allows you to press your lips to hazels. you're kissing her when you feel her hand slide down to her clit, the friction of her knuckles against your pelvis as she rubs herself to completion alerting you. you pick up the pace a little, sacrificing depth for speed, all with intentions to get hazel over the edge.

and when she cums, she moans into your lips, only separating when she can't hold it anymore, body twitching and back arching and head lolling back with the force of her orgasm.

in a word, it's pornographic.

[kivaember]

for the choose violence ask game: #2, 15, and 18!

Answers under the cut! Bc I know some ppl may not want to see criticism of things they may like... so if you click the read more you agree to read opinions that may run counter to yours!

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom.

oh man I'm like, switch rights all the way dfhhdffh I don't think I'm bothered about any of my faves being top or bottom? For Armored Core 6, I definitely have a preference for 621 being dom with Rusty being sub, but I'm happy with it being reversed too. I'M TOO LAIDBACK... IM SORRY...

tbh, this actually links to my earlier ask where I said I left the P5 fandom. People got waaaaaaaay too invested and militant about top/bottom positioning in a ship and I find it extremely off putting. It's perfectly fine to have a preference and avoid that which you don't like, that's fine, that's curating your fandom space, but you get some people who take it to the extreme and try imposing their views on others (or being really belligerent about it).

the top/bottom shipwars, the discourse... I'm too old for that now... I've done my time in the shipwar trenches in the early 2000s...

anyway tl;dr, switch rights all the way and Rusty is definitely a sub. OKAY NEXT.

15. that one thing you see in fanart all the time

hmm, well, admittedly, I am a bit nitpicky when it comes to scarring in ac6 character designs. I know people use it as a shorthand to say "THIS PERSON'S BEEN IN SOME WARS... THEIR BODY IS DAMAGED...." and visually they do look very cool and nice! I do enjoy a good scar showcase, but I suppose on the other hand, I feel like a lot of the time they seem very... window dressing.

How did they get those scars? Why do they have them? What're their feelings about them? Idk if it's bc I'm a writer so I think a bit too much about these things, but an example would be with Rusty where I gave him very extensive burn scars and these play a foundational role in his personality and backstory, even if Rusty himself doesn't think overly much about them. When you get characters that have scars kinda. there. i usually sit there and wonder how they got them, their thoughts and feelings, if they feel nothing? was it traumatic? etc

BUT PEOPLE CAN DO WHAT THEY WANT. They can make their characters scar city I'll lap it up all the same. It's more of a nitpick than an outright criticism, because I make judicious use of the block/mute/unfollow button whenever I encounter fanart stuff I dislike, so I geniunely can't think of anything that stands out to me as smth I see often that I dislike or have criticism towards :ua

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

the possibility of a c-wave body snatching an augmented human's body via the augmented human suffering a "death of the self" and the c-wave managing to take over by their coral implants but the c-wave not realising this bc the whole experience was very traumatic so the c-wave thinks they're the human and anyway i think that's a very interesting scenario don't you think (kicks apv under the bed)

[sapphire-weapon]

Sending this so you have smth to answer that isn't racist children (as a black girl,,,,man these people are too comfy online)

ANYWAY i can't get the idea out of my head for a fic from Ashley's pov where she's incredibly lonely and doesn't trust that anyone actually wants to be around her for her but rather for her status/who she is, and that's why she's super distant with Leon to begin with.

And throughout the game her and Leon start bantering and getting closer and she's like well okay maybe he actually likes me for me, he's already got status, but she's not fully trusting

and then they get flirty and shes like oh god oh fuck i LIKE this guy???? and is like mildly panicky about it (im imagining she's never had an actual relationship bc of the trust issues, slept with people but never anything more) so she like awkwardly flirts back while freaking out about this + the whole, you know, mutant thing

and she convinces herself he's not actually into her and is just trying to keep her mind off everything/insecurities flare up UNTIL we get to the bit where Leon breaks free of Saddler's control for a second and drops to his knees trying to stop him touching Ashley. and she's like ?!?!!!?! oh god this is real he actually cares but it's too late now to do anything bc we're gonna DIE and she thinks all this while unable to move and watches him get thrown into the pit.

if i were to actually write this I'd make it SO angsty and maybe end it at that point lol I love to put my faves in Situations. i probs won't write it so here's an idea if ur interested lol <3

Anon we must be plaga'd or something, because I have had a very similar fic idea in my head for DAYS, only with the roles reversed. Because like... I was thinking about how many times Leon whiffs with his attempts at flirting with Ashley throughout the entirety of the game (he really doesn't actually "crack the code" so to speak until the dining hall convo), and I was like

When was the last time Leon actually got laid?? Why is he so rusty at this, why is he so bad at it at the start when he clearly has game once he, like... remembers how? Why's he out of practice?

And then I started thinking about my headcanon of how Leon probably went out with other guys from the army to pick up girls and stuff and how that probably stopped within a year or two, and I realized... the last time Leon got laid, he probably looked completely different. He was probably still, for the most part, his lean but cut RE2make self, and there's a non-zero chance he has a really minor sense of body dysmorphia because of how much he's changed physically in such a short window of time.

And I was like... you know, there's a shitton of fics of Leon helping Ashley cope with the aftermath of what happened, but I don't think I've ever seen it the other way around. I've never seen a fic where Ashley looks at Leon and goes "you're crazy for thinking no one would want you or want to be with you." And have the whole thing sort of tie back to how Ashley brings out his RE2 self again, and make it so that she helps him just feel like a person again.

And now I get your ask and I'm like

What if I combined these ideas?

What if there's issues on both sides for them to work out together? Ashley's trust issues + Leon's self-worth/self-image issues.

I actually did want to try to explore my initial idea through fic this upcoming weekend (today is my Friday! So I have the next two days off) and now having this to flesh it out more is like 👀👀👀 maybe I got something here.

I'll try to keep u guys posted!!

[kumiaku]

Wait but these are so good tho!!

Kidnapping the mafia boss, either completely accidently and by coincidence and it being kind of a meet cute or having like a serial killer protag meeting w a mafia boss completely accidently and then toxic but hot relationship ensues

Other idea for that is a potential bodyguard for the mafia boss is rejected then they kidnap the mafia boss to show how good they are at their job which makes the mafia boss lowkey increased then boom bodyguard romance

Okay all romance ideas but I'm still popping w ideas

Dating your enemy's sibling completely accidently

Like imagine this in say something like a semi traditional isekai where the mc accidently get together w the demon king's sibling and then uses that to end everything peacefully

Like that would be such a cool comedy anime/slice of life twist

The two love interests getting together is a favorite of mine, like cmon you have that rivals to lovers element but then they realize they have so much in common and just forget the original one who they were fighting over

Lowkey reminds me of the anime kiss him not me but not really.

Soulmates who are fated to kill each other, omg that's like so perfect. But are they still soulmates as in they are romantic interests or just fated to kill one either, what if they are soulmates in that one dies the other dies and they have been the leaders of rival factions and one kills the other then dies himself. What if actually the aftermath where no one knows how the second one died and it is gradually revealed as other soulmates die at the same time.

Doing smth different with the too hot to cuddle antitrope, hear me out, one is human and warm blooded the other is like inhuman and colder, instead of cuddling for warmth it's cuddling for cold.

Alternatively one of my ocs, Ianthe, actually can't physically cuddle bcuz her body is kind of damaged by her ice powers so anyone who touches her essentially gets frostbite.

Love interests ceo bimbo/himbo could absolutely be like a "NO NEPOTISM" message too which is great. But hear me out, it's a story where the mc is like either a gold digger or financially struggling and deliberately chooses to take advantage of their love interest to pay for what they want. Both get kind of a reverse character arc which makes them worse, they hit rock bottom, become enemies, and either get better separately, or work together to become better people and build their life up again.

Anyway those are the ideas I came up with (sns abt the length and kind of taking over the post) 🤷‍♀️

REVERSE TROPE WRITING PROMPTS

Too many beds

Accidentally kidnapping a mafia boss

Really nice guy who hates only you

Academic rivals except it’s two teachers who compete to have the best class

Divorce of convenience

Too much communication

True hate’s kiss (only kissing your enemy can break a curse)

Dating your enemy’s sibling

Lovers to enemies

Hate at first sight

Love triangle where the two love interests get together instead

Fake amnesia

Soulmates who are fated to kill each other

Strangers to enemies

Instead of fake dating, everyone is convinced that you aren’t actually dating

Too hot to cuddle

Love interest CEO is a himbo/bimbo who runs their company into the ground

Nursing home au

[hwajin]

#! — 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐭𝐬 ..

genre: FLUFFFF

pairing: skz x gn!reader

wc: 1.3k

warnings: romantic fluff you might start wishing for a partner if you don't have one already

note: i might post a bit slowly and only drabbles for a while, i gotta get used to uni and working time BUT i have smth somewhat big planned for my next milestone soooo stay tuned ehehehehe pretending that my blog isn't dead LMAO

not my pics, credits to owner!

ᴄʜᴀɴ

he's one to be gently touching you at all times without his knowing, subconsciously. when he sees that something upsets you, or when you get excited, nervous, tired - quite frankly, any emotion you show towards chan makes him want to reach out to you and hold your hand, caress your thigh, squeeze your shoulder and nape. he'd leave you little texts and messages throughout the day, too! since you know how busy he can get, even a simple 'i love you, hope you have a good day!' or 'omg i miss you sm, can't wait to get home :(' will show you that he always very much cares, no matter how deep he gets caught up in his job. simply loves to make you feel loved <3

ᴍɪɴʜᴏ

cooks for you!! and a lot too, for that matter. he particularly loves spending the time together in the kitchen while he's preparing your favourite dish, from time to time running over to you all cutely with a spoon for you to try if the amount of salt and spices is enough or too much, and the excitement he has whenever you say he did a good job is just SO endearing for you to watch. THIS MAN will also treat you like his 4th cat, will boop your nose and squish your cheeks and pat your head and laugh at you when you only shoot a confused look his direction at his antics, because yes, you can bet that he will come up to you randomly while you're studying, cleaning, reading and just *squish* your face without a warning and running off all giggly like some teenager with a highschool crush.

ᴄʜᴀɴɢʙɪɴ

feeds you!!! like he's not a good cook but sometimes he WILL wake up earlier than you and try to somehow make a somewhat decent breakfast (will end up only toasting bread or ordering in something entirely, but the thought is there 💪🏼), and before you've even fully awoke he's sitting by the edge of the bed, a piece of fruit or bread in his fingers, ready to LITERALLY feed you like a baby, this HUGE grin on his face because he finds you adorable munching on whatever he prepared all tiredly? also for some reason loves your complaining right before he shoves the food into your mouth, about how you only just woke up, how he didn't have to cook, how you could have helped him with it and how you don't need to be feeded and can perfectly eat yourself, it all very much meets deaf ears though <3. in general, he'll love to just put up his chopsticks to your face when you're having lunch or dinner together and letting you try his food. other than that, he'd be one to share basically everything with you, up to his work, in a way. when he's home late and STILL has stuff to do after coming back, his favourite thing is explaining you what exactly he's making, how he's coming up with lyrics, melodies, how he's recording stuff. loves to see your interest in him and it works reversed as well, he will want to know EVERYTHING about your profession.

ʜʏᴜɴᴊɪɴ

it is such a random thing but he will help you remove your jewelery. if you were out with friends, or on a date with him, basically anywhere where you put thought and effort into your outfit, necklaces and earrings and bracelets accentuating your body - hyunjin will be next to you in the evening, fiddling with the opening of the chains around your neck, or taking one off your earrings off while you work on the other one. he wouldn't know a reason if you asked him why he had that habit, but you couldn't complain if you were honest, your heart melting at how attentive his actions felt. boy will also doodle you constantly!! you'd be sleeping or napping in his bed and he'd take a pic - for teasing purposes - before his pencil and notebook are out and he's creating a sketch of the way you're laying in his sheets - this time simply out of adoration, because anything you do seems to be so endearing to him that he wants to hold onto it in more ways than just a simple picture.

ᴊɪsᴜɴɢ

WILLLLL PAINT YOUR NAILS!!! no matter if you normally wear or like nail polish he WILL ask you to please please paint them. especially when he sees you painting your nails already anyways; would come up to you and pout until you give into him and hand him over the brush. you'd be surprised at how he always does a fairly decent job too, the paint smudged only rarely. he's always giving you a kiss afterwards AND WILL NOT STOP BRAGGING about what good of a nail artist he is, though it doesn't need much talent to simply put on one coat of color, he will not stop admiring his work lmao. also loves lazying around together! for him spending quality time together isn't necessarily actively doing something together, it's enough for him to simply lay in bed together all day and cuddle or doze off or talk about everything and nothing.

ғᴇʟɪx

similar to jisung, he loves helping you to put on make up! he doesn't even need to convince you much because he's miraculously good at it anyways, and by how much fun he has painting your face with the brushes, it pains you to ever say no to him. when you don't have anything to get ready for he'll love experimenting lots with like- eyeliner looks and stuff you normally wouldn't wear, simply for the giggles of it, and would let you paint him up as well! loves the feeling of the brush against his skin and the time you spend together giggling and laughing. is a natural cuddle bug too, will come up to you randomly whenever you do basically anything and just snuggle against you, leaving butterfly kisses all across your skin until you're too distracted to continue your activety from before, your whole attention on your boyfriend now <3.

sᴇᴜɴɢᴍɪɴ

HUGE flirt. like he'd always be teasingly and jokingly flirtatious towards you, winking and wiggling eyebrows and saying stuff he KNOWS will make your heart flutter juuust the right amount and he's so good at it for it to only be a joke? but you know he does it simply to tease because he will go out of his way with the flirting when friends are around, only to make you that much more flustered, because he can and is evil. he always has a laugh at how you roll your eyes at him while simultaneously blushing like crazy, making everyone in the room laugh as well. bro also just serenades you all of a sudden? like he'll be practicing some heartbreakingly romantic song for some cover, and the moment he's home he's NOT stopping to sing it for you, specifically. again, it's more a joke than anything, especially the way he dramatically gestures and closes his eyes while singing, but since he's not one to say 'i love you' too often, you make out his antics to be somewhat deeper and more meaningful than they seemed.

ᴊᴇᴏɴɢɪɴ

bro loves to go shopping with you!!! he's obviously big on fashion and one thing he LOVES doing with you is being on the look out for cute couple outfits to wear together hehe. even if you're not super into fashion yourself! i feel like he'd find it adorable to somewhat look for stuff for you and spend hours in the dressing room, judging each others clothes, how they fit you, how they suit you, best quality time for him. oh also! wipes food from your face when you're eating, but in a jokingly annoyed manner. like when you're eating together and he sees a bit of food on your chin he takes some tissue and is tsking at you, funnily scolding you in that voice he has when he's pretending to be a grandma lmao, he knows it makes you laugh and he likes to show his affection towards you subtly that way.

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[angrelysimpping]

i’m the anon who asked for the reverse au hcs,, and yes!! that’s exactly what i’m talking abt!! sorry for not elaborating further,, i saw a few fanarts a couple of months ago in the subreddit basically like a concept of a reverse au or smth and i’d really like to know ur personal thoughts or hcs abt it!! the fanarts only consists of the school trio tho so there’s really not much we can work with :[[

Thoughts!

Alex terrorizes Remy's farm, trying to expand further and further, wanting to show up all their siblings with their successes. Tries to make excuses to keep you on the farm.

Avery desperately looking for love. Not sex, not control. Love. You could do just about anything to them if you can convince Avery that you love them.

Bailey is a good caretaker. Doles out a weekly allowance. Sets a curfew, makes you do chores if you break it.

Eden still lives in the forest but they only forage things. Not a vegetarian, exactly. They just can't stomach gutting and cleaning what they catch. Gentle giant. Still very horny, but they're put off by sexual acts. As a result, they are constantly sexually frustrated and on edge. You have to initiate things until they get comfortable around you, then they become insatiable. Starts using their spare garden plot as a flower garden after you show up. Likes adorning you with flowers.

Great Hawk taking you to their tower and demanding you be their mate. Has to be bribed to teach you how to fly.

Kylar flat-out ignores you. Makes you beg for their attention. A loner who doesn't want anyone to talk to them, at all.

Leighton is a giant softie. Gets embarrassed by how turned on they get when they have to punish students. Does amateur photography and it's actually quite innocent. Blushes behind their camera if you take things further.

Remy, all sweet and gentle. Takes such good care of their cattle. Punishments are mind-melting orgasms. You just have to stay on their farm and be a good beastie, they'll take such good care of you.

Robin forces your head between their legs and demands you give them head while they play video games. Pays you back at the most inopportune times. Tries to guilt trip you into giving them things.

Already corrupt Sydney? You have to bring them back into the folds of the temple? Or as a delinquent? Uses their status as a teacher's kid to get away with all sorts of shit.

Whitney is still popular, but they're not a bully. Quiet, a bit reserved. Hardcore sub with a small dominant streak. Sees you and falls hard. Wants you to absolutely wreck them. It is not sex if Whitney isn't marked up. Probably gets your name tattooed onto their neck of something without telling you first v

Wren's known for their way of brute-forcing things. Takes and takes and takes and never gives back.

[Bonus]

Briar fiercely protective of their workers.

Darryl turns a blind eye when people harass their employees.

Doren catches you jogging at night, pressing their body up against you and inviting you to their apartment.

Landry taking the seat in the booth next to you, presses into your side, hand high on your thigh. You later find their phone number slipped into your pocket. Don't text them? That's fine, Landry has a way of finding your number.

Mason tugging you into their lap at the pond, sliding their hands under your swimming clothes despite your protests. They see the way people look at them, how you look at them, and they like it. They use it to their advantage. You're not the first student they've fucked, but you are the first they showed this pond.

[barsformars]

SOULMATES AU!ATEEZ

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req: hiii, idk if you are still accepting requests, but im trying anyways. How about an headcanon of ateez as types of soulmates bonds/ which type of soulmate bond will suit them? Bye have a nice dayyyy

a/n: this one is kinda just like what soulmate aus remind me of them & what i think would wanna write if it was soulmates au and them hehet i hope i interpreted the request properly lmao

ot8 / w.c 1.1k / t.w none

seonghwa 

reincarnation soulmates au

look ik everyone has been hyping up the seonghwa's first life thing so it's my turn to talk about it

the soulmate au where one is immortal and the other is mortal

seonghwa is the latter

and you just watch him from afar everytime he reincarnates, only talking to him once he is of age

and isn't the thought of being with him from his first life to his,, maybe 100th life,, just so,,,, bittersweet

bittersweet because damn obviously it hurts everytime he goes

hongjoong

dreaming of your soulmate au

you're in every dream of his and his in yours anytime the two of you are asleep at the same time

dreams with each other in it always feel so warm and fuzzy and you're always having a good time with each other

and sadly, nightmares when the two of you are not together in the dreams

but thing is you always wake up remembering everything except how he looks like and what his name is; same thing goes for him

*cue draw&draw lyrics*

he misses you and he wants to 'draw' you but he doesnt even know who you are physically

yunho

you can hear your soulmates thoughts au

but when you make eye or physical contact, you can't hear those thoughts

so imagine the two of you are seated across each other on the train and the thoughts go like

"omg they have nice shoes"

"why are his hands so pretty"

and those kinda thoughts just keep going and the both of you are just laughing internally at your soulmate because like "honey, im your soulmate, not whoever you're probably drooling over right now"

and then "wait im also drooling over someone else right now,,,"

and then the both of you just decide to lift your heads to meet each other's eyes and suddenly everything is quiet!!!!!!

also imagine later on when youre in a relationship with him and the two of you are just sharing a romantic moment and it's like:

"come on, you have to say it out loud because i can't hear you right now" AND THEN BEING ALL SHY BECAUSE OF THE NON-EXISTENT DISTANCE WHILE SAYING SMTH CHEESY

yeosang

your soulmate’s face is blurry to you au

this can be kinda sad because you will never really know how each other looks

but i think the sweetness lies in that the feelings you have for each other is genuine and purely because of their personality and all

and of course physical attraction is still important to a certain extent but think this:

the both of you are so familiar with each other through touch and a lot of experiences that you just know exactly where his lips are so you can kiss him pretty effortlessly

you know exactly where his nose ends so you know how to tilt your heads when you kiss so as to not bump noses

AND because you just are that familiar with him, you can kind of form a picture of each other's faces in your heads, like you have a rough idea how big his eyes are, how widely spaced, what his eye shape is etc.

idk but that just sounds really beautiful to me despite all the inconveniences that could arise

PLUS its so easy to spot each other in crowds because only one face is blurred to you lmao

san

you have a mark wherever your soulmate first touches you au

you are very disturbed because like half of your body is marked

like so much so that it's definitely not like an accidental bump on the streets or smth

so you're just there thinking "who in the right mind would touch a stranger to this extent and why!"

until one day you're minding your business while walking around and someone runs up from behind you and literally just engulfs you into a hug while resting their head in the crook of your neck

and of course, because you're panicking, you turn your head back to look who the hell it was

AND how coincidentally,,, your lips made contact with their brow bone

he releases you when he realises that you were not the friend he was supposed to meet around here

and because your long sleeves rolled up a little, you see the mark slowing fading away, and it just clicks,, he was the one

"this is truly unfair, i gave you a cute little mark and you give me that big ass mark"

mingi

you see your soulmate's memories when you touch something they have touched before au

and fate is cruel because it always seems like one of you is always a little later than the other

like if you or him walked a little bit faster and reached the same place a little earlier, maybe the two of you would have met

until one day maybe one day mingi is keeping the change after paying at the cashier and he drops some coins

and you're behind him so you help him pick it up and you suddenly get flashes of his memories

and so does he when you hand the coins back to him

fate is so stupid sometimes but it's cute ig

wooyoung

whatever you write on your skin shows up on your soulmate's skin as well

and wooyoung being wooyoung, loves to share things that makes him happy and things that he wish you would try out as well

and so you can expect his own food recipes, or maybe some lyrics that he's been trying to write, or like ideas for his vlogs and all

let's be real, it's 2021, the two of you could really just share social media handles and meet irl easily but both of you just love the comfort of anonymity

and knowing that someone out there is always listening, or rather, reading, whatever you want to say

jongho

when your soulmate gets hurt, flowers bloom at the same exact location

i think this one's kinda cute even tho it can be scary at times i guess

like imagine both of you just wanting to bubble wrap each other up because

"I HAVE A PERFORMANCE TOMORROW YOU CAN'T GET HURT"

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN ONE OF YOUR BUTT CHEEKS IS BLEEDING, HOW AM I GOING TO SIT NOW"

STOP BITING YOUR LIPS I DONT WANT FLOWERS ON MY LIPS"

i think it is the beauty of taking care of someone as much as you would take care of yourself or reversely, taking care of yourself as much as you wanna take care of someone else

[witchysleepingbeauty]

Hi, Reversed✖️ here. I really would like to hear your opinion on how to sort out this difficult and sad situation

I can't deal with it alone anymore, especially to analyze it objectively

So um my parent, in front of a guest, took out their anger on me ie screaming, totally losing it, cursing me out coz I took a half min to fetch smth (I was already doing smth else for them) aka huge, nasty reaction. This was def not coz of the delay in the errand btw

Started ranting real ugly, getting louder and angrier (in front of the guest yay me right?😄) Ik my parent (P) has underlying issues (pain in their body which they always refuse to get treated for at a hospital whenever I suggest so (and if I offer to massage or bring an Ice pack I get passive aggressive snide remarks for 'pretending to care and be helpful'))

Any way screw that. My point is Law-related. so in this ugly rant (in which ofc parent brings up shite about me, personal effing shite), they shouted how I have 'no goal' in life bla bla among other things

Per EIYPO, is this a reflection of their own limiting beliefs/issues (eg lately all they do is complain with venom abt how things never turn out okay and how 'everything's messed up' etc. So it definitely could be how they feel)... OR is the, somewhat humiliating rant, an indicator of my inner reality and deep buried assumptions?

Tbh l want to cry, especially coz ik they're being like this coz of bodily pain, and ik they're not feeling great being like this either

Sadly, I'm getting triggered. Up until last year, I used to be in a very dark place. I'm working on my self now, and for the most, I'm better equipped to deal with my personal issues (the Law helped me realise how assumptions, thoughts could help me see a point in living; aka it gave me hope). Now even limiting time with P isn't enough. I tell myself idc what they keep saying about me, but I can't stop them (I mean if I talk back, it gets worse yk? If I try to explain, I hear this classic one "Oh so YOU'RE perfect right? You're the only perfect person in the world"... Yeah, it gets old real fast)

It's lame, upsetting. I don't wanna fall in the deep end again. Btw I've always been the one who's listened to P when they want to vent or wanna discuss their interests (even if I'm not that interested, coz ik what it's like to not have anyone interested in ur likes lol). Point is, is their behavior (the screaming outbursts and insane cussing + sometimes I do shudder at their scaring-the-yk-what outta-me expressive hatred of my existence - which they themselves have acknowledged btw aka I've heard them tell others how I've made them negative and unhappy... 😐), So is their behavior reflective of their own assumptions about me OR is it MY deep-buried assumptions reflecting in them?

I don't get it. On many damn occasions they've told me I'm the one who's at fault for 'everything' and, you'll like this one, "how I deserve being treated like this"... I've even asked them what I've done to them, but my P has communication issues (which I've taken as smth to learn for myself so I'm happy I could be mature enough to realise what's healthy and unhealthy communication, work on this and be better), which means, unfortunately, it's tough to get a straight answer back other than defensiveness, accusing me of criticising them bla bla nvm that's the old story (and by old I mean literally old), so idk

Like... Eff it all huh? I try to focus on myself and different aspects of my life, minimize confiding stuff about me, learned to not rely on them too much but idk. It's starting to affect me a lot, you understand right?

As I type this, I realise I'm REALLY hurt by P's shouts and their tone of NOT love. I forgive them for their rants, but how can I feel it in my heart that they don't hate me?

Working on your self concept and learning to love yourself after years then being treated like this insanely messed up my mind. What's the point? I'm getting all those old feelings back. It was so hard to yk, stop living in the dark. Eff me ig. Anyway, EIYPO, mb I gotta persist more on setting boundaries? Allow myself my feelings then move on?

Thanks so much, love

Reversed✖️

Please, nothing abt moving out. I already have distanced myself, unconsciously I now realise, from them. I'd really appreciate it if I could understand how to feel better regarding this situation by changing my concepts, or assumptions or at least understand why I'm so affected

First of all I am so sorry you have to go through this every day, I know you’re a beautiful person and it’s not your fault and you do not deserve it.

Now let’s talk about the law. Everything you see in your reality is a reflection of your own inner world. You create everyone and everybody, nobody can have a belief that you haven’t created them to have.

Also I see a lot of limiting beliefs in you “my parent is in pain and they take it out on me”, “my parent has communication issues.”

I know it’s not the easiest thing to deal with but if you want to change the situation you need to stop attaching these labels to your parent and instead changing them to something positive.

I am not going to tell you it will be easy because we are talking about years of trauma and abuse, however I do want to encourage you to not allow them to treat you like that, physically speak up and also to really consider moving away from that person.

I hope this clarifies some things and I wish you the best. If there’s anything else I can help you with feel free to message!

[cherryobx]

list b, if you’re comfortable answering them x also these are a lot so take all the time you need! I just want to know we much we I can about you hihi 💜

1. What do you crave in a psychological sense? Intimacy, passion, purpose, belonging, social interaction, etc.?

2. What kind of emotions do the stars evoke for you, if any? The ocean, the sky, the moon?

3. Are you pretending to be something you're not?

7. Would you cannibalise a dead body in a life-or-death scenario? Does your answer change depending on whether they're a loved one or not?

8. In reverse, would you give permission for someone to eat you if they would die otherwise?

9. Do you know a lot about politics? Do you think it's important to be educated on them?

12. What's your most controversial opinion? Would you state it publicly? What's the most controversial opinion that you would publicly support, if it's different?

13. Do you have trust issues?

15. Is there a song, book, movie, or other piece of media that has drastically altered your life? What was it, are there multiple?

19. In general, is there any historical event you desperately want to witness?

20. Do you think about your past or future more?

22. Do you want children? Why or why not?

24. Does your name suit you? Do you think you "look" like your name?

25. A classic - would you rather know the date of your death or the way you die? Would you rather know when you die or when your closest loved one dies?

26. Is marriage an important institution for you? Do you want to get married? Why or why not?

28. What has influenced your taste in music?

29. How do you want your body to be treated after your death?

44. What's your pettiest "dealbreaker" in a relationship or friendship?

50. What qualities do you find charming?

56. What (or who) do you daydream about? *wink wink* sjk

62. What topic(s) have you drastically changed your opinion on?

64. Do you feel like you know yourself very well?

66. If you are queer, did you struggle to accept your sexuality? Would you change it if you could?

67. What did you need to hear as a child?

68. What's the best advice you've ever been given?

72. Who did you last say "I love you" to? Who last said it to you?

74. Do you believe in karma? Do you think someone can "deserve" bad things?

75. What is your favourite fairytale?

80. What scars do you have, if any?

81. What's the worst crime you think you're capable of committing?

84. What do you think is waiting for you after death, if anything? Does the idea of dying upset you? Why? Can you imagine nothingness?

94. Who is the first person you tell good news to? Is is the same for bad news?

1. there's a lack of each and every one of these but rn i really need a hug and i have no one to turn to so that sucks, so i really just need close friends or smth idk

2. stars remind me of my childhood mostly bc i live in the countryside and the stars shine very brightly here and i used to look at the stars and search for different constellations, i also had those glow in the dark stars in my childhood bedroom and i just recently put some above my bed so that's very nostalgic for me. the ocean scares me tbh but at the same time every body of water does.

3. so sad to admit but every day, i feel the need to fit in with my current friends bc they don't like the same stuff as i do but i also don't want to be alone so i can't just ditch them, there are very few people who understand me and like me for who i really am and it's so freaking hard to find the right people to be with

7. probably yes but id have to be at the brink of starvation/passing out, it would take me a very long time to even consider doing it. i would not eat a loved one tho, id rather die

8. yes, if it means they survive

9. no and yes

12. i don't think i really have any or at least i can't come up with any rn haha

13. yes.

15. probably the pjo movies tbh, when i saw them for the first time i was obsessed, i obsessively watched both of them every day for like 2 weeks straight, and i still love them (that could be my controversial opinion haha), i like to think that they started my fangirl era

19. not a specific event but attending an 18th century ball would be cool

20. rn, past

22. yes bc they're cute and bc i want to grow them into actually decent people

24. hmm maybe, sometimes when i introduce myself i get insecure that i don't match my name or smth and then they think of me weird

25. if i had to pick one then probably how and when a loved one dies

26. i want to get married but if it doesn't happen then im not sad either

28. my dad has influenced it the most i think

29. cremated and then buried next to my loved ones/cremated and turned into a little diamond(s) for my loved one(s)

44. when they vape (it's fine occasionally but if they have to do it every second of the day then absolutely not)

50. when they actually like me

56. mostly about fictional characters, sometimes you ;)

62. i used to be a bit homophobic but now im bi so... but i think it was bc of my family's views and being told from a young age that it's wrong, sometimes i still struggle with internalised homophobia

64. nope, i know nothing about myself

66. i used to but it wasn't really hard for me to accept bc i realized very slowly over the years and one day i was just like fuck it and put a lable on it. but i wouldn't change it, i love being bi <3

67. i love you

68. nothing matters in the long run so do whatever you want, ur just a tiny little dot on this planet

72. you <3 (for both)

74. yes absolutely

75. hmm probably snow white

80. fun fact all my scars are on my face, i have one on my chin (from when i fell on concrete), eyebrow (most of the time u can't even see it,unknown reason) and cheek (this one looks really cool, it's a perfect circle and i got it when i had chicken pox as a kid)

81. maybe hitting someone ?!?! idk honestly

84. i like to belive that people are reborn as new people bc i can't imagine just nothingness and not being able to do and think anything ever again, and yes it upsets me

94. probably my family or you