#—will kind of always be the forgotten leftovers because of a need to attach labels to everything. and because it’s harder to summarize—

[skypiea]

I do wish sometimes that Top surgery (specifically the removal of breasts) wasn’t so synonymous with term transmasculine. Obviously a lot of people who have top surgery are transmasculine and this is in no way saying that they shouldn’t talk about it or their own experiences lol but it does feel very . . . I don’t know . Isolating. Strange. As a person without gender who has had top surgery, to see all resources for it beforehand labeled with transmasculine language; even as far back as binding days, to have the binders I used be called gc2b (short for girls changing to boys) [<- and once again, not a knock on the company itself; it was founded by a trans man. Just another thing of everything gender affirming for a young genderless person being presented in binary terms]. I genuinely felt surprised when the gender clinic I ended up going with even bothered to mention nonbinary people in their section about breast removal procedures.

From a purely, staunchly binary perspective—sure, the surgery I had “masculinized” my body. That is to say, if we’re adamant on forever committing to the “masculine” body meaning no boobs, and the “feminine” body meaning boobs. Which personally, I am not. I did not have my surgery to masculinize my body. I did it to live a more comfortable life, help back problems, wear clothing more comfortably, and stop binding. I did it to shape my body into the image I fancy. No real good way to end this, it’s just a public diary entry dropped into the void. I guess if I can say anything, it’s that people who operate entirely within the gender binary would do well to think of those who do not, especially when making sweeping generalizations.