#— kaomoji anonie (u❍ᴥ❍)

[definitelynotcesia]

And yes I'm dating, he is older, has long hair, pretty much a nerd and he cooks well so I felt a crush lmao.

And yes don't worry about him not treating me well, I know How to make bad man infertile (in Case you need It as well Just say a word →_→)

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

oooooohhhh he seems interesting !! im so happy that you found someone that makes you happy right now, babe aaaaaaahhhh that's so cute of you !!!!!!

but like i said, if incase (which i reaaaaaaally hope would not happen) he didn't turn out to be the guy he originally said he was, run as fast as you can AWAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA kidding aside,,, please love yourself more than him oki!! in that way you'd know if you deserve whatever he is giving you atm.

why am i giving love advices??? this isn't me kfbdksj

[yunhohours]

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

Omg I just saw that you wrote my request thank yooou 🥺🥺❤️ first of all I loved it so much!!???! Probably the headcanon style was better than the reaction one so thanks again!

Second of all I'm nearsighted as well and I always lose my glasses (even though I'm wearing them all the time?) and they always get dirty so I feel represented haha

Thanks again and have a nice day, remember to drink lots of water and eat well sweetie o(^▽^)o

Omg, of course! I was happy to write it for you! I'm so glad you liked it fsjssdkf that makes me feel like it was so worth it <3

Ugh, I know the struggle! I don't lose mine too often because I try to always take them off in the same places but having to clean them drives me crazy! Or when I get dressed and in the car and then realize I don't have them on... pain

I hope you're having a lovely day and have been taking care of yourself! Water, good meals, time to rest... make sure you're getting it all for me, please <3

[definitelynotcesia]

Hello Cesia how are you?? First of all I miss you, I promise I'll read those recent updates as soon as my uni stops filling too much on my plate hahaha

I was mindlessly scrolling on Tumblr and I saw your recent post about ADHD. I wanted to speak a little about it since I do have it and it sucks honestly. So I'll probably get too excited, if you don't want to read it I totally understand, you don't even need to post it, do whatever feel comfy for you sweetie I mean it ( ˘ ³˘)♥. - Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

So the thing is, doesn't matter if you are diagnosed or not, you'll suffer from people's prejudice either way, because of misinformation, both from neurothypicals and ADHDers themselves. But having a diagnose helps you and those around you understand yourself better, if the right information is spread.

The first thing we think we hear about ADHD is in the name, Attention deficit and Hyperactivity (no shit Sherlock), and that's all most people know about ADHD, they can't focus, can't sit still, are impulsive, in other words, disruptive behavior, these behavior are often mistaken as character flaws, that's why they say "oh you're not trying hard enough", "why can't you sit still?" , "If you cared about it you would remember" witch is understandable because you know... misinformation...

So I want to point out two important points

1- ADHD is caused by a biochemical imbalance: we lack two neurotransmitters, noradrenaline and dopamine. The first one is responsible for concentration and alertness, as well as memory, creative and cognitive processes, if you lack those (especially in your frontal cortex) you can't focus on one thing only and have a poor working memory (the capacity to keep and manipulate info during tasks for example). Dopamine is for pleasure and motivation, if you lack these, you can't keep motivated, specially in boring tasks and you seek for constant stimulation. And all that in the frontal cortex, the CEO of the Brain Enterprises.

2- There is a lot more to ADHD than just not paying attention, being restless and impulsive, because it's more about executive function issues than anything else. I'll list a few signs so you can understand better. Remember that every mental health problem are different for everyone, my advice is to know what describes you better:

Bad object permanence: What is out of sight is often out of mind, explained by bad working memory. That's why we forget important stuff.

Hyperfocus: It's only been talked about more recently, we sometimes spend hours doing something that gives us dopamine so we forget to eat, drink water and other basic human necessities (right now I'm very hyperfocused, just left a pratical test, have online class rn, have to study for lots of stuff and haven't shower or had eaten all day, but this text needs to be perfect because It gives me dopamine haha).

Emotional disregulation: When we feel things we FEEL things, like or I'm so happy and life is all unicorns and rainbows or I've never had a happy day in my life. (Also can we please talk about more about normal female hormonal stuff and ADHD in woman?? Please I need info on that)

Rejection sensitive dysphoria: This is bad honestly, lots of us are so scared of judgement that we may develop social anxiety and depression.

Sleep problems: insomnia or hypersomnia are common in ADHD

Sensory issues and there's a lot more

A fair amount of us learn trough life that we are basically born for failure, especially in today's society that demands focus, motivation AND COMPETITION to be successful. So lots of ADHDers may work even harder to get the same or worst results, leading to frustration, lots of us may give up and start believing what society says, leading to low self esteem. For me it was better to blame myself than my disorder, so I didn't work, I would get bad results either way, that's why today, even working very hard and achieving great things, I can never feel proud of it, and it hurts.

In conclusion, if you think you may have ADHD, do research, get a diagnosis, get to know your symptoms, know what works for you (work smarter not harder). There's a lot of tips on reddit, it's worth it to search there and try things out to see if it's right for you. With the right method and with self knowledge everyone's ADHD can be controlled, and for that to happen you HAVE to prioritize your mental health, you're allowed to feel.

And please DO NOT believe in any misinformation, or lack o information about you, having a disorder doesn't make us lazy, a bad person, a failure or any other bad character trait given.

"You are not born for failure, you just can't expect a fish to climb a tree" - it's a metaphor on how neurodivergents can't be expected to fit in the neurothypical norms. Just so you know "a fish can swim like nobody else can" - Michael Phelps is a great example of that, figuratively and literally (I wanted to do that joke so bad, I was waiting for that moment)

Phew I talk too much I'm so sorry, but honestly it was worth it, I felt comfortable to do so, hopefully not too comfortable haha (´-﹏-`；)

omg my kaomoji baby!!! first of all, oh my gaf i miss you so much :<<< i miss reading your very lively asks and i'm so glad to get one now hihi. second, you don't have to worry so much bby. i know how hectic uni can get so take your time. my asks is always open for your reactions if you finally have time to read it (but you also don't have to send one if you don't feel like it, its totally fine!!). third, don't ever say sorry for getting "too excited". i'm even more thankful, and genuinely enjoyed reading every bit of information you added!!

honestly this feels like a dsm5 review for me (and the funny thing was that i was reviewing neurodevelopmental disorders right before i came to tumblr today!!), so i'm really happy that you sent this one. and it's even more interesting to read these information from your point of view. it's like reading facts and all your personal inputs help me understand the disorder better. so really, thank you for sharing this!!! im so happy TT

i also love the quote you left. it just ties the explanation a lot more. so again thank youuuuu@!!!!

to those who are curious of the ADHD post (if there's any), it's this!! it's a reminder that even when you have mental disorders or not, it's important to educate ourselves so we know how to be respectful and kind in any way we can.

[definitelynotcesia]

No but like Jake (U❍ᴥ❍) and THIS ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ is so cute omg a doggie (ᵔᴥᵔ) Idk what this is but it's cute ( ˊ̱˂˃ˋ̱ ) lol it kinda looks like a fish haha

ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ <are these cute bear friends?? or is this a caterpillar???

( ˊ̱˂˃ˋ̱ ) i thought this is a chick?

look at this too anonie,,, くコ:彡 A SQUID!!!!!!! OH MY GOD?? *dying in cuteness*

[definitelynotcesia]

I wanna fight this Sofi ヽ( ｀0´)ﾉ she has such a dumb dumb looking brain, I can't even comprehend how a person can lack so many braincells. There is a little bit of my pent up anger towards her, thanks for coming to my tedtalk

Also I found out I had kaomojis on my phone and now I'm never using anything else ( ^ω^ )

i can definitely sense the pent up anger right here kdnsdjvs

and omg aren't kaomojis just the cutest??? i've been using them for a long time already but some people didn't really like it so i got used to using the yellow ones too :<

like where else can you find smth as cute as this: ( ˶ ❛ ꁞ ❛ ˶ )

or smth as expressive as this: (ノ•̀ o •́ )ノ ~ ┻━┻

look they're about to hug (つ･ω･)つ⊂(･ω･⊂)

it's jake!!! (U❍ᴥ❍)

and it even has a rat wth …ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ

[definitelynotcesia]

I only know a couple that ever went on a salad date and both of them do crossfit, but they gave up and went to a hamburger place right after (I was there thirdweeling oof). In conclusion Sofi and Taehyun are weird and Y/N is so much better!! if Tae won't date her I will ~_~;

Also thanks for updating Sweetie, I wonder what the extended daycare is plotting 🤔

- Kaomoji anon (U❍ᴥ❍)

HEYYY SWEETIE!!! my cute kaomoji anon, how are you????

please,, salads, they're healthy and all that, but on a date??? i can literally imagine how sad you must've been third wheeling over that choice of food ndksbakshjs good thing they went for burger afterwards 💀

[definitelynotcesia]

I'd love to be kaomoji anonie thanksss ( ◠‿◠ ) so that means you are giving me free pass to sneak in your asks anytime? hmmm interesting ( ˊ̱˂˃ˋ̱ ) (yes it makes sense this is a chick, and it looks like it's ploting something)

Also YOU are cute bye

yay!! free pass to sneak in my asks??? bby take my card, i'm paying you to stay ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ💳

and pleaseeee, the chick is plotting something sinister like taking your bread away from you kshsksnd

[definitelynotcesia]

OMG OMG I TOUGHT THAT WOULD BE THE MOMENT OF THE TRUTH DANG IT!!!!

O can only imagine how heartbroken Tae would feel when he knowledges the truth, how his best friends lied to them (hid the truth), How Sofi and Y/N lied as well, and all for what?

Damn you really made me immersed in this plot sweetie aaaaaaaaaaaa

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

my lovely kaomoji anon!!! sorry for keeping your hopes up and leaving it there for a long time huhu but i promise, i'll try to pick up the pace from here jdbsksbbdk

i also want to give my two cents about tae's feelings but im afraid i might give a spoiler hahahahaha im so bad at this 😭😭

but thank you as always, baby. you're insanely so cute :<<

[definitelynotcesia]

Ok First of all OMG A THYPHOON? Are you ok???? Do you need anything I can help you with? (If so I'll dm you here not a single problem)!!! And Hopefully you'll get better soon from this fever, remember to drink lots of water and eat well honey

Also CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 50% SWEETIE I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! YOU GOOOOOO (ﾉ≧∇≦)ﾉ ﾐ ┻━┻ (☞ﾟOﾟ)☞

For me I just started dating this guy, It's been a month now and It's fun, and uni starts today as well, I'm kinda nervous since It's not online anymore and well ✨social anxiety✨ But I'll be fine lol

Hope your febuary is going to be better than your january tho, It seemed to be really tough

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

hello hello kaomoji cutieeee!!!

you don't have to worry about me, sweetie. we're already safe and i would say we're very blessed to not be affected that much. and as for the fever, i'm all well now!! just got a little to attached to my bed so even when im not sick anymore, i still like lying around hahahaha. and thank you !!! internship was really tiring so finishing even half of it is very very satisfying.

okay on to the more juicy part, YOU'RE DATING??? OMGGGG THAT'S SO CUTE IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUU!!! i hope he's treating you well though or else i'll kick him where it hurts most (and if i can't, please make sure to do that for me!!!). tell me more about this guy, if you're fine with it hihi

don't worry much about uni, love. i know you'll do just fine. it's completely fine to get nervous on your first day back, you'll eventually meet good people!! enjoy your offline uni adventures (＾∇＾)ﾉ♪

please don't forget to drink vitamins and stay hydrated too. especially now that you're interacting with more people. stay safe baby ♡

[definitelynotcesia]

CESIAAA YIU'RE BACK I MISSED YOOOU (つ≧▽≦)つ

How have you been?? How was your holidays season?? OMG I'M SO HAPPY ヽ(｡◕o◕｡)ﾉ.

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

hey hey my beloved kaomoji anonie!!!

to be honest, january has not been so good to me. the year started with us having to cope with the aftermath of a huge typhoon, which includes very limited mobility of literally everything on top of the quarantine guidelines. i'm also in and out of fever lately (it's not covid tho thank God!!).

but on a brighter side, i'm like 50% done with my internship, which is a veryyyy very big achievement for me. never thought i'd get to this point 😅

anyway, what about you love? what are you up to lately??

[definitelynotcesia]

BABY YOU ARE ALIVE YEEESS!! \(ϋ)/♩

Don't worry sweetie, I can't imagine How hetic your life is right now, I just want you to take care of your mental and physical health love (*＾3＾)/～♡

I'll wait as much as necessary ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ

- Kaomoji anon ◖⚆ᴥ⚆◗

hello my kaomoji baby !!!! yes, i'm still alive hahahaha

first of all, thank you for reassuring me all the time, especially whenever i needed it the most :<< secondly, thank youuuuu for waiting despite the veeeery long hiatus. i love and appreciate you so much ^^)/ please take care of yourself too, eat snacks and take breaks, love.

[definitelynotcesia]

OMG OMG OMG!!!! I just read those last 3 chapters and OMGGGGGG

First of all someone please protect Y/N from Sofish and herself!!! I'm going to cry ಥ╭╮ಥ

Second of all, WTH I FIGHT IS BREAKING OFF??? YEOJUN X TAEHYUN?? PLease DOn'T cliFfghaNg us LiKe ThaY!!! ｡:ﾟ(;´∩`;)ﾟ:｡ I'm getting emotions bye 💀

Honestly I'm kinda hoping for a Sofi character development at the end of it all, also a Y/N too, when she starts allowing her friends in

Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

MY KAOMOJI BABYYYYY, HOW ARE YOU?? I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!! i hope you enjoyed your holidays and keeping your self safe and healthy and happy ~~

sorry for the monthsss long cliffhanger :(( life happened and i have to deal with it first. i just hope that you're still interested with what will happen next though :<

[definitelynotcesia]

Hiii!!! Honey you'll get trough your case study fightingggg (☝︎ ՞ਊ ՞)☝︎ . Hopefully you'll get to rest well after it's over, projects can be hella stressful! Remember to eat and drink lots of water sweetie, you will MURDER this case study I just know it

Also here is blue haired Soobin I was owing you, I hope this cute prince bunny cotton candy hair boy can cheer you up (=^x^=)

https://twitter.com/SoobinBrasil/status/1313138334777192454?s=20

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

kaomoji babeee, im sorry this was answered so late huhu but i already got the results on that case study and i can't say i 'murdered' it but, i did good hehe thank you for the well wishes, love (^∇^ )

AND THAT BLUE HAIRED BABY BOY LOOKS SO PRETTY BLUE HOUR CONCEPT PHOTOS WILL NEVER NOT MAKE ME CRY PLEASEEE :<

[definitelynotcesia]

Yaaaaaay Cesia is baaackk! I just think is ilegal that you cliffhanged us like that honestly (._.)

But we still love you and I personally can't wait for the next chapter aaaaaa. Thanks for writing this smau for us sweetie ❤️

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

my kaomoji cutieee i really missed you fr :<

next chapter will be up in a few, so please take it as an apology for the cliffhanger ٩(^ᴗ^)۶

and pleaseee, i should be the one thanking you for reading helpline. it means so much to me !!! i hope you're doing well, my love.

[definitelynotcesia]

Oh please! Ilysm already you're so cute \(//∇//)\

I'm glad you're doing what you like, since collage is already really hard, the last year then I can't even imagine lol, but your hard work will pay off I just know!

I wanted to send you blue haired Soobin, you know, for good health, but tumblr won't let me do it on anon ಠ_ಠ

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

well, you're cuter and i love you more (づ｡◕‿◕｡)づ

yep, it's getting kinda hectic. but it's fine!!! thank you for saying that, cutie!!

you can add a link so i can see it!!! or turn off anon if you like kksbajhs just kidding, do whatever makes you feel comfortable babe 💗

[definitelynotcesia]

CESIAA (what a beautiful name btw, seems like a fairy name) don't worry about flooding our dashes! I do not mind at all ^^

I'm doing fiine! How about you? Has today been treating you well so far?? - If not I'll personally have a fight with it (つД`)ノ💀

- Kaomoji anonie (U❍ᴥ❍)

hello my cute kaomoji baby!! thank you for reassuring me, i love you sm (｡ﾉω＼｡)

although you asked this yesterday im fine, love. i can finally feel the 'final year in college' pressure. tasks just keep getting hard and it's taking more time from me tbh. but don't worry, it's fine since i really like what i'm doing.

and please don't fight anyone from me, i can't let you get hurt :<