#— how will you hear my words and pleas; ooc / psa.

[sarishim]

if i’m on a lot less or my posts are a bit more ooc / emotional this month, please don’t take it personally. may 16 is the one year anniversary of my best friend since middle school, passing away.

[sarishim]

btw if you get a follow or softblock & then refollow from me 1. i’m sorry if you noticed it & you’re hurt.. 2. i’m gonna be transparent, idk what i’m doing. i’ve been shifting between wanting to move accounts or just keeping this account and dwindling down the numbers of followers / etc to a comfortable size. and its extremely difficult to figure out who to ‘keep’ and who to not, when i love y’all & read most of my mutuals posts like a morning newspaper.

[sarishim]

gonna take a little hiatus just to clear my head & let myself process emotions. i never can stick to these hiatuses but… i’m just so angry & betrayed about all that’s happened over the past few days. plus i just don’t want to clog the dash with my anger about all this. i feel like i’ve done it enough already.

discord below the cut & feel free to plot or message me any time. <3

[sarishim]

also psst. since i’ve seen people mention spn verses & such — i’m not technically in the supernatural rpc / fandom. he just takes some inspiration from that gabe — mostly personality & attitude towards certain things. but mostly he’s my own interpretation of the tanakh’s writings & jewish scripture.

[sarishim]

for gabe, your muses are free to know who he is tbh. he doesn’t really hide it & hasn’t ever.

[sarishim]

debating getting stricter on the people i follow because i actually now get super bitter every time i see any mention of h/arry p/otter.

[sarishim]

by the way, regarding my stance on anything, if it bothers you or you have questions — you can simply ask me about it, in private. the way my rules are written is to avoid unnecessary drama & potential problems/assumptions, and to avoid non-rpc attention. there is a reason for why i say/word things how i do; i am fine with explaining those reasons. please don’t try to piece together what you think i might believe. it is as simple as that. thank you. <3

[sarishim]

at this point… if i hardblock, i don’t hate you or anything. literally just can’t see us interacting or its some other reason & it saves the hassle of both of us trying to remember if we interacted, or a glitch happened. plus i’ve had two separate people follow me everywhere for the past year or so (that i’ve hardblocked before, bc dog trigger) so i’m just exhausted about refollows.

[sarishim]

one thing i hope changes in 2024 is that we, as a community, all try to go a bit easier on ourselves & to stop putting pressure on ourselves. we gotta remind ourselves that rp is and shouldn’t be somehow deadline-based. it isn’t school or work, it’s just a hobby. we are allowed to have bad days, have no energy, have writers block — it is okay!

not even saying this for myself but.. most of us have kids, spouses, family.. work, you name it. we shouldn’t be putting the same pressure that we had on ourselves when we had more free time. it’s just impossible.

[sarishim]

concerning how i feel about duplicates bc two other gabes have followed me;

tbh its not jealousy or anything its just.. my chuck & gabe specifically are so.. very?? mine and personal to me, that i can’t really see myself interested in writing/interacting with another version of them; or really trusting anyone with not stealing interpretation ideas (but it’d very easily brand them as stealing from me i think bc of how jewish it is lmfao) bc i’ve seen so many other muns on this site stolen from (so this is just a general fear, not an accusation.)

like the other versions i’m sure they’re lovely and etc i just mmm. nothing against the muns at all. we all love one messenger archangel. but i just would rather not interact, personally (and of course, you can interact with them too. its not something i’ll judge other muns for.)

[sarishim]

also put some rules (more like aggressive suggestions) about people working on their own a.ntisemitism & myths about judaism / jewish people (like with racism, etc) bc im just tired of antisemitism & all that shit everywhere

[sarishim]

and to add to that last post.. all of our self-imposed deadlines are usually only known to ourselves. you aren’t telling your rp partner “hey i NEED to reply to this by tuesday”. if you did, you know they’d immediately be like “what? no you don’t??” we give each other the benefit of the doubt & are forgiving on reply times, why can’t we try to do it for ourselves?

[sarishim]

also. i need to add a rule that if you use the tetragrammaton (aka the hebrew word for g-d starting with y)… don’t write it in posts or threads with me. names in hebrew (ESPECIALLY names for g-d) are very sacred. you may think you’re being intellectual or descriptive or something, but that word specifically, is so sacred that when the temple was around, it was only said once a year, on a very specific day, by the high priest. and we still don’t ever say it in prayer or anything else. we say adonai, instead. even if that specific word is in the prayer, or the text we are reading.

okay? thank you.

[sarishim]

ADINAH’S (UPDATED) BLOGROLL.

@g-dlaughs / REBOOTING, LOW ACTIVITY. indie c.huck shurley aka g-d from spn, with a lot of jewish views on g-d / from the tanakh, thrown in. username taken from the proverb “people plan, and g-d laughs.” fc: m.andy p.atinkin from y.entl.

@sarishim / LOW ACTIVITY, MOST ACTIVE. indie archangel gabriel, a mishmash of tanakh & spn like chuck, but much more emphasis on tanakh over here. username means prince (of) flames in hebrew. fc: d.ev patel.

[sarishim]

since i have xmas off, i’m gonna maybe be on here and softblock/send plotting ideas to people because i’ve gotten so many new followers while i haven’t been able to check things thoroughly (like rules, info) bc of my lack of energy. i’ve just been following back and skimming through orz

[sarishim]

two things, while i’m back for a few: feel free to fill out my interest tracker. <3 & also i might try to use queue for threads, this week. i’m starting my new job tomorrow and idk how much energy (if any) i’m going to have.