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fluffy white nimbus clouds. dark grey cumulonimbus clouds. rain clouds. a hurricane. light spring breeze. a sherbet-colored sky at sunrise. hazy yellow skies. deep blue ponds of fresh water. blankets of sparkling snow. tornado winds. monsoon flooding. rich, orange sunsets. soft, purple clouds at dusk. heavy hail. the rumbling of thunder.

icy sleet. gentle snowfall. moss-dusted tree bark. pink sunset clouds. grey winter skies. navy blue skies in the daytime. cool mist in the morning. leaf-bare trees. giant ocean waves. the full moon. a cracked, dry desert. rolling hills of prairie grass. sweeping waves of briny seawater. rocky, steep ravines. rippling canyon walls. spindly, cave stalactites. creeping, green ivy. lush canopies of leafy trees. dense, white fog. a peaceful creek of clear water.

flowering cacti dusted with dew, catching light in the morning sun. a bubbling, hot pool of volcanic sulfur. sharp, grey mountainsides. fossils nestled in chunks of rock. a white sand beach. deep imprints of animal tracks in the dirt. soft, squishy moss. uniform rows of birch trees in winter. delicate mushrooms popping up in spring from beneath the decay on the forest floor. tumbleweeds jerking in the faintest wind across the desert landscape. light rain.

summer wildfires. a mixing of hot and cool air before a storm. silent lightning in the static of summer heat. a windy blizzard. thick flakes of snow tumbling down from the sky. a tree standing alone in a barren, yellow field. a desert of loose sand and tall, orange dunes. a pure blue sky. a river of molten rock. a grove of flowering trees. twisting, mangled roots sticking up from the muddy ground. a fire twister amidst a smoky skyline.

bitter, cold winds. tumultuous skies of stormy clouds. branches of lightning ripping across the sky. a foggy swamp. the tree-bare foothills of a mountain range. sandy brown cliff sides.rocky coastlines. the violent shaking of an earthquake. the mysterious sound of ethereal trumpets in the sky. the lights of the auroras borealis and australis.

a black sand beach. a lone tropical island in the reef of shallow, aqua waters. underwater volcanic vents. a herd of migrating mammals. tree branches growing heavy with ripe fruit. light streaming down through the clouds. a field of lush grain wading peacefully in the summer breeze. the sound of insects and frogs teeming in the night. natural diamonds nestled in coarse desert sands. a frozen lake. snow capped peaks.

tagged by: no one, but I stole it from @porcelainlost

tagging: DO IT MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE

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// Stinky Pete emotionally manipulated Jessie and Bullseye during their time at Al’s and you can’t convince me otherwise. Especially as I’m rewatching the second movie and watch him do just that to Woody. That’s definitely taken its toll on Jessie and very likely hasn’t helped her anxiety and claustrophobia any.

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Even though Jessie is very enthusiastic about all of the holidays, including Christmas, she has a harder time around Christmas every year. It is surrounded by many mixed feelings. Of course she loves the atmosphere that the holidays create, the time spent with her friends and the kids and the genuine joy in the air.

She does have a hard time with this holiday because this was when she was given to Emily. What makes it even harder for Jessie was the fact that she was Emily’s favorite toy that year and, subsequent Christmases, she was always there front and center to celebrate with Emily.

Christmas was her favorite holiday, it was Emily and her family’s favorite too. There was so much joy in the their home that Jessie looked forward to it ever year. Then came the years that Emily forgot about her. She could hear them all downstairs but never dared to even peek. As she was forgotten she merely stayed where she was.

Of course Jessie didn’t think Christmas time could get worse. Then there was the time spent with Al. Al hated Christmas because of his line of work. She heard his ever annoyance and rantings even though she was boxed up. Even Stinky Pete had no real love of the holiday, being that he was bitter about never being picked even as a Christmas gift. 

Only Jessie and Bullseye even cared about the holiday and, once when they tried to celebrate it, it sent Pete into a tizzy. After that Jessie found she no longer wanted anything to do with the holiday.

Her first Christmas at Andy’s was tough but after a while, between Andy and Bonnie, she’s learned to love it again but there’s always that twinge of pain in the back of her head.

Not that she’d ever ruin the other’s fun times by admitting that.

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Friendly Reminder:

Jessie could have gotten up at any point in all those years that she was under the bed

Emily obviously was not in her room 24\7

Jessie could have got up and walked around when she was out of the room.

Jessie could have left at any time, since it was obvious to her that she was forgotten.

Jessie instead chose to lay under the bed, without moving for years hoping that Emily would remember her and hold her again.

She didn’t bat an eyelid about it.

Jessie waited. She waited so long dust gathered on her. She didn’t move even slightly or else the dust would have been disturbed.

She didn’t just go back to being a toy, since, as a toy, she would have been wide-eyed and smiling.

She just let her depression and loneliness consume her, she let it stay plainly on her face. She didn’t move for years. She suffered and watched and waited all that time, perfectly aware of what was happening around her. Jessie didn’t even move her eyes to watch Emily’s feet. 

She just. Waited. Hoping Emily would hold her again but with each passing year, I imagine that her hope waned. 

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Jessie does not swear. Ever. Heck and darn-it\dang-it are about as close as she will get. This is, in part due to the fact that she is a child’s toy and was created in the 50s where that type of talk would never be seen on television.

And, belonging to children with mostly responsible parents, Jessie would never have heard those types of words. That’s not to say that Al didn’t occasionally use them, but she’d been wise enough to know that kids don’t say those words. And she shouldn’t either.

Even in verses where she is not a toy, Jessie finds that she has no reason to ever swear. Not even a little. 

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It comes as no surprise, but Jessie really really likes to dance. Not just dancing with Buzz and his Spanish mode, but really just any type. Anywhere. Sometimes she tries to square dance with Buzz, usually it ends up being Woody though. But she doesn’t always conform to one style of the other. If there’s a good catchy song playing nearby you can bet your boots she’s dancing along. 

There doesn’t even always have to be music for the cowgirl to start dancing either. More than once she’s been caught too.

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Okay hang on, this is about to get long...

I just can’t stop thinking about Jessie’s relationship with Stinky Pete prior to Woody’s appearance. I mean its very obvious that she’d been abandoned by Emily for a long time (after all we see the 60s\70s era posters in Emily’s room but even when she finds Jessie again, she’s not a grown adult). If we take the events of Toy Story 2 and assume they were set in movie’s actual time period (1999), then it’s safe to say she’s been abandoned for between 20 to 35 years (holy shit!) and Jessie gives no inclination that she was ever ‘adopted’ by another kid after being donated. 

So we can assume she was on her own for a long time and in storage just as long, reminiscing over Emily and the fact that she was unwanted. How much that must have eaten away at her; destroy her confidence and her hope.

I know that it’s purely speculation on my part but, from a collecting standpoint, I have a feeling that the Prospector toys were a little easier to come by as they wouldn’t have been as popular with the kids so I honestly believe that Stinky Pete would have been the first toy that Al would have found. Bullseye and Jessie would be a little harder to find (I would think probably equally as much). At first I thought maybe Bullseye might have come before Jessie but based on his relationship with Jessie, I think he might have come after Al found Jessie. He just doesn’t seem as “in” to Pete but never really leaves Jessie’s side. But again that’s purely speculation.

So, in my headcanon at least, I think that there was quite a bit of time where it was just Jessie and the Prospector. I never really considered their relationship much until reading this post. I mean it appeared in Toy Story 2 that he had talked Jessie through her panic attacks plenty of times, enough so that she did get into the box when he promised that she’d come out. Jessie trusted him that much at least.

But Jessie, who we know to be a pretty confident little cowgirl, was so full of doubts and fear. At first I chalked this up to the fact she’d been abandoned and, I still believe that’s mostly true. But why was she so eager to go to the museum? Sure, in the infamous words of Lotso “no owners mean no heartbreak” but I think that Jessie would have risked that again. I really do.

So, I really agree with the linked post. I think that the Prospector was much more “stinky” than originally thought. He had convinced Jessie that she would never find that kind of love again or that she was going to always be abandoned until she ended up in the trash (which would make Toy Story 3 even more freaking heartbreaking!). But if she were to go to the museum she wouldn’t have to worry about that again. Children would still love her but without the risk. After all she was just an old doll that no one would want.

And seeing that the Prospector was never loved, and knew what it was to feel unloved (we know that’s how Jessie would have felt after Emily left her), he was able to sneak that doubt into her head to the point where she honestly didn’t think she was worth anything unless hundreds of children could love her. Even if it were only behind glass. 

I think that’s why she was so afraid of going to Andy. She told Woody that she didn’t know about going with him initially. And then again she questioned if Andy would even like her once the two of them were on the plane. She was so freaking excited when Andy wrote his name on her and Bullseye’s feet.

Of course I don’t think even now Jessie realizes this about Pete though. To her he’d been the only one that cared. He’d been the only one that seemingly wanted to help. But I think in the long run he’d actually purposefully tried to make that fear worse. Remember, her fear of being left and trapped did get worse even after she was away from Stinky Pete (see Toy Story of Terror). It might not seem connected but I believe it is (story time! I’ve come from an abusive and manipulative relationship and my anxiety and fear only got worse when it was finally over). 

I honestly think that’s why she gets so defensive when Woody accuses her of lying. I think that the Prospector employed some gaslighting\brainwashing techniques as well which would have further twisted her own perceptions of herself and what happened with Emily. She fights back against Woody because she knows she was telling the truth and wasn’t about to hear that from the toy that was going to leave her alone again. He was actually a safe person to lash out at.

And the more I think about it, the more this isn’t all that far-fetched. After all we can clearly watch the Prospector employ these methods with Woody in order to get him to stay in Toy Story 2. “How long will it last?” “Did this Andy break you?” “Why were you in a yard sale?”

Which makes Jessie’s story even more heartbreaking (I didn’t think it was possible!)

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Okay so I was going to post this last night but since my other headcanon post was so freaking long I decided to wait until later to post it :P (This one is much shorter).

While in Al’s possession, Jessie and Bullseye fast became friends once Bullseye was brought into the collection. He was there all the time when Jessie would succumb to panic attacks while they were in storage. Since he was the only one of the three that could physically comfort her ( Stinky Pete being in a box and all ) he found that she seemed to settle down just a tiny bit faster when he just rested his muzzle on her face. 

He wouldn’t push and if she tensed too much he backed off, but more often than not the horse’s presence and the weight of his head on her shoulder had a calming effect on her. Often he would nicker and continue to nuzzle her gently as the panic subsided. And, once it had, he made sure to continue to be a presence for her, even letting the cowgirl rest on him as she is often very physically exhausted afterwards.

There were plenty of times when they were in storage that Jessie fell asleep on her trusty steed.

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In a non-toy verse, Jessie is a bit on the taller side; about 5′11″ tall. Woody still has about 3-4 inches of height on her, but she is taller than Buzz by a few inches. Naturally this has resulted in a wide assortment of comments ( if she hears ‘how’s the weather up there’ one more time....) 

Overall, though, she embraces and loves the fact that she’s taller than average

( Obviously as a toy she is more like a foot and a half :P ). 

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{Which means that, at the very least Jessie, Woody, Bullseye, and Stinky Pete are, as of Toy Story 3, are about 53. And that would be if all of them were produced around the end of the show’s run. If they’d been made at the beginning of the show’s run, they’d be about 61. And this is based on Toy Story 3′s run in 2010...not today.}

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{That moment when you realize that Jessie (and probably Bullseye) is the only toy in the main group that has any idea what it feels like to be completely abandoned by her owner (and by abandoned I mean left completely alone and not gifted to someone else).

Buzz was a brand new present for Andy. He’s only known his kids to be Andy and Bonnie right after.

Woody, it was mentioned, is a family heirloom. Which means he’s been passed down from one kid to the next. Sure, there were likely periods of time where he probably felt abandoned but only for a brief period of time. He’s also probably the toy with the most experience with children.

Bo Peep, well she’s technically a lamp. Since other inanimate objects (except toys) remain inanimate in the series, I just assume she never “came to life” until Andy began routinely playing with her as though she and her sheep were toys. 

And it seems Andy was the type of kid to get brand new toys and not second hand\hand-me-downs, we can hazard a guess that all the rest of his toys were new when he received them. (Mrs. Potato Head came as Molly’s Christmas present at the end of Toy Story 1 for example so for sure she was new.)

Stinky Pete, the Prospector, was never technically opened so therefore he never had an owner (which is confirmed when he mentions watching every other toy getting picked while he didn’t at the end of Toy Story 2). 

Bullseye, it’s unclear what his origins are before Al. I would assume, since he was not in packaging that he did have an owner at some point. How he ended up with Al remains to be seen but I would think his circumstances were probably similar to Jessie’s.

It’s hard to know the origins of Bonnie’s toys as we don’t have a complete movie with her as the toy’s owners yet so I can’t speculate on that yet. Anywho...don’t mind me, just spitballing here.}