#୨sevika୧

[bnnysweets]

THE MISSING PIECE

sevika x fem!reader

author’s note: english is not my first language! im sorry for the amount of angst. if you went trough anything like reader i feel sorry for you and i truly hope you’re okay.

warnings: mention of past sexual abuse during childhood. mention of blood. a lot of angst and dark themes. reader’s parents don’t care about her. sevika comforts reader. reader is called babygirl, doll, good girl and babe.

“babygirl, i need you to relax for me” sevika said “i am!” you groaned while she tried to put deeper one finger into you, this was the ninth time you were trying to have penetrative sex and didn’t matter how much lube or time making out, you body keeping rejecting sevika, she took her finger out of your warm intimate (that she didn’t even put inside), she looked at you and noticed that you were silently sobbing “doll, don’t need to cry” she cupped your cheek and you leaned in her hand just like a kitten, “i’m so full of this! why this happen EVERY SINGLE TIME” you said between sobs “is there something you aren’t saying to me?”, she asked and you started crying more more and more, she moved from the edge of the bed to cup you in her lap, she hugged you while you soaked her neck with your tears and drool “shh babe, you’re safe now, no one is after you, no one. this is our home, i’m here, nobody gonna to try anything against you. you are safe. look at me, yeah, good girl, you’re such a sweet girl, do you know that? i need you to calm down for me”.

now, looking at her eyes you felt like everything else was pure illusion because you have something that everyone said that you were incapable of have: love. you did your breath exercises and slowly calmed down, sevika stayed with you all the time, holding your hand and whispering sweet nothings when she noticed you were started to getting worked up again. “why when i finally consent to do it i cant?” you said so softly that she almost didn’t hear, sevika was truly shocked, you never told her that, but to be fair, you never told anyone, but when she felt the weight of that words, what they meant, the puzzle was missing less pieces, now it made sense why you refused to leave home alone, why you started to tremble when you’re walking back home at night, why you didn’t left the house wearing some types of clothes that she knows you love, why you held her hand tighter when some man come too close, why you had so much trouble to talk about your sex experience, now it all made sense.

“i’m sorry” sevika said, now with her own eyes filled with water, “i am really sorry for…” “you don’t need to be” you interrupted, “it’s not recent…”, “someone knows?” she asked hesitant, “my parents, but they don’t care…when…uhm…everything happened i came home with blood, like, everywhere, we rushed to the hospital and i couldn’t talk, i was in a trance, when the nurses saw where the blood was coming from they called the cops but it was useless, i didn’t spoke a single word. but the situation was very clear, when we arrived home my parents said that i wasn’t allowed to leave the house alone after 6 p.m., but they never talked to me about it”. you took a really deep breath “i spent a whole fucking month just in my room, it was rare for me to leave, but i spent all of the time crying, screaming, panicking, and the walls were very thin… they definitely listened to everything, but they didn’t care” she hugged you tighter and you felt lighter, it was something inside you for so long and finally you were getting what you wanted when you were 14, comfort, you stayed like this until you both slept, and for the first time in years, you felt your body truly relaxed, truly secure, like you could trust your body in her hands and all she would do to it was take care.

dividers by @bernardsbendystraws