#φ mun update

[prxsenceinchaxs]

φ: ...

so this is under a cut because hello and welcome to “magnus’ depression check in because he feels like he should appropriately explain himself”.

firstly, my department at work (i work for the ToGo in a grocery store) was temporarily shut down, company wide for that matter, until the 29th (this coming Sunday) and forced me into a position where i had to return to a department i was exceedingly unhappy in (the front-end, aka the main customer service hub). one of the assistant managers in the department behaves like she does not like me and has not given me any clear reason as to why this is, she’s made me cry two to three times and while she apologized profusely, wheeled right back around and continued to act rude towards me (for some context, i’ve worked at this store for nearly a year now and she’s treated me like this for the entire time) and basically treated me like i’m a) an idiot and b) incapable of performing the duties i was trained to do while still working in the department. so this does a huge number on my self confidence and happiness, for one, putting me in a position where i’m unhappy to be at work but am required to be at work as a member of the current essential work force during this pandemic.

now, while i can come home from workforce hell and relax by playing the new animal crossing game, i feel as though i’m personally missing out because i alienated myself from this blog by posting two separate times in an aggressively depressive context, subjecting people to my poor attitude and thus.... giving people an incredibly poor impression of who i am as an individual. i believe (and i certainly could be very wrong but please understand that this belief comes from a mental state that is... already bad) that this poor impression has caused people to distance themselves from me. which is fair. the things i posted could have been registered as exceedingly attention seeking and very passive aggressive. and i mean... who wants to talk to someone who acts like that, right?

additionally, i believe i am also still very dissatisfied with this blog for an extremely specific reason: i deleted my former shadow blog and remade it into this... when i simply should have remade the former blog and had this movie!AU setting be a verse rather than the blog’s mainstay. so essentially, i believe i made a huge fucking mistake and in the back of my mind, i was angry with myself for my choice, despite claiming that making this blog was the right choice and declaring in my mun page that “scarlet” (aka my former shadow blog) was no more. this realization came to fruition through conversing with my partner, who was taking note of the fact that i was behaving... rather poorly and depressively.

i would like to frankly apologize for poor behavior and heavy amounts of OOC posting, i don’t enjoy flooding dashes with that content (then again, i don’t have a lot of followers, but it’s still incredibly rude even with just a small grouping of individuals) but i also shouldn’t be abusing an RP blog as an OOC vent outlet, unless that outlet is just RPing to move away from frustrations and depressive mentality.

as of right now... i have not decided what i will do with this blog. part of me strongly believes i should follow my instincts and shift the movie!AU focus to a subverse and return to what i was doing originally with shadow. i really don’t know if that would interest people or result in a huge loss of interest (i mean, not to say what i was doing garnered a huge amount of interest, but again, that shouldn’t exactly make a difference).

[mastersmuses]

▒ - Do you need certain things to help you sleep (nightlight, fan, stuffed animal or blanket)?Φ - If you could pick three people on tumblr to meet irl, who would they be?╕ - Things that annoy you on tumblr?╣ - Things that annoy you irl?α - Muse's thoughts on mun?

Munday questions!

▒ - Do you need certain things to help you sleep (nightlight, fan, stuffed animal or blanket)?

OKAY so first off, I’m a pretty massive insomniac so like...what is sleep? But I do still sleep with a baby blanket. Probably will until I get married and hand it down to my kids. WHOOPS. 

Φ - If you could pick three people on tumblr to meet irl, who would they be?

YIKES so honestly i had a pretty bad/weird experience with meeting up with someone on tumblr so I’ve kind of been scarred in that regard and am now a bit weary about ever doing it again. So yeah.

╕ - Things that annoy you on tumblr?

That people seem to be fixated on aesthetic these days especially in the RPC where they seem to disregard quality in the things that truly matter...like...actual roleplaying. Also tumblr just bugs the shit out of me with it’s new updates and glitches.

╣ - Things that annoy you irl?

When people don’t use their fucking blinker like seriously...i am a calm and reasonable person but I DO NOT GET IT. it’s the easiest fucking thing in the world. also when people obnoxiously chew bubble gum OPEN MOUTHED when we’re in a movie theatre... (mom i’m looking at you. this happens EVERY WEEK.)

α - Muse's thoughts on mun?

Spencer is personally a breath of fresh air for me to play because he...is like...NOTHING like me in the ways that he presents himself so it’s sort of therapeutic. I also love him but he drives me insane and for most of my replies that I do for him, I’m rolling my eyes and scolding him but I also have no control because he does whatever the fuck he wants and shows no regard. He surprises me a lot which is probably why I love him so much. 

[prxsenceinchaxs]

φ: Hi everyone, I just wanted to make an official announcement here before I went ahead and deleted this blog. I'm not leaving! I'm just moving to a new blog, where this will be a verse rather than a mainstay focus. Some of you are already aware of this but those of you who aren't, this is the heads up!

For those still interested in interacting, seeing as how the movie verse will be the same there as here, you can find me portraying my personal take on Shadow the Hedgehog, Scarlet, over here!

I'll reblog this a few more times before I officially delete this blog. Thanks for sticking with me! See you all around the bend!

[prxsenceinchaxs]

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