#à product of a three step process of Attack Lull Kill or of three different aspects of Hunger Journeying Destruction

[blackvahana]

Watching a thing on a datura trip. If I were still in my otherkin days I'd put the label kin on it. Which. You know. is a sign that that aspect is now rising again. It's always a part of me, but specifically it manifests as venom annnndddd

I'm very much considering attempting to milk and bottle it. Literally my main issues with that are one that's solveable (is it preservable? How well does it preserve? How do I preserve it?) and one that's slightly repulsive (ugh. do I trust anyone that would want to drink My Fluids enough to let them do that) but also... I think I need to be a little less prude and stop assigning the label of sex to things that aren't sex. There's a difference between having sex involving doing shit like that and. being a spirit that produces weird shit and giving it to someone else to use

Actually, last issue. Last time someone tripped/journeyed off this it was explicitly done through breast milk. Woohoo psychedelic breast milk! Not woohoo that I'm slightly.... finally free to be an intersex nonbinary guy with my dick because I finally feel like I'm in a natural humanoid body (for me) in Vahana form and uh. hmm. I never ever fucking thought that I would have the natural instinct of "I actually feel like there's a huge gash in my crotch and someone just stole my dick - wait what this is. this is genitals and not a lack thereof??" but here we are

However... Lev wants me eventually acting as a High Priest here. This physical body has huge ass tits. That provides an excellent bridge between aspects that could convince me to take this physical body's form for long enough to act as A Priest Of The Hallucinated Forest and. get. milk

Which. leaves me with the fascinating task of learning to preserve that.

To be honest though, and not to be crude as fuck but sexuality is a not even Oo Sexy Titillating Topic for me I'm a fertility spirit. I already have a goddamn heavy connection we'll say to fertile fluids in other fucking ways and so maybe I don't need to drag myself through the - I hate that there are, given who I am, actually people who would pay money for this