#· ୨୧ · 𝚍 𝚒 𝚊 𝚕 𝚘 𝚐 ˛ isla sato ෆ .

[lovegates]

｡   ⋆   :   isla to cam.

        terror  is  awestruck  in  the  midst  of  irises  once  she  spots  the  annoyingly  handsome  male  from  across  the  room  ,  walking  into  the  atmosphere  like  he  owned  the  place  ;  and  in  her  mind  ,  he  ran  every  place  he  walked  into  .  would  be  lying  if  she  had  said  her  stomach  didn’t  drop  into  her  bottom  the  second  she  laid  eyes  on  him  ,  but  had  been  steady  in  the  fact  she  had  avoided  his  calls  and  texts  like  the  plague  within  the  past  couple  weeks  .  left  their  relationship  to  rest  on  a  metaphorical  top  shelf  ,  while  majority  of  her  attention  had  turned  back  to  the  boyfriend  that  adorned  her  side  at  the  work  party  .    “    mhm  ,  babe  ..  could  you  please  go  get  us  some  drinks  ?  i’m  thirsty  .    “    she’ll  note  as  arms  snake  around  significant  others'  neck  ,  smile  fading  off  of  plush  features  once  he’ll  move  on  his  way  and  her  gaze  is  averted  back  to  the  elephant  in  the  room  . 

[sunkisseds]

​｡   ⋆   :   isla to ?

        "    were  you  looking  for  this  ?    "

[lovegates]

｡   ⋆   :   isla to ?

" i still don't know how to let it go . "

[lovegates]

｡   ⋆   :   isla to ?

   “    two  years  later  ,  and  you  haven’t  changed  .    “

[lovegates]

｡   ⋆   :   isla to donovan.

      "    so  ,  how  much  longer  do  you  have  here  ?  i  can't  help  but  to  feel  like  this  is  coming  to  an  end  .    "

[lovegates]

｡   ⋆   :   isla to ?

      "    you  are  unfixable  ,  i  can't  break  through  your  world  .    "

[lovegates]

       “     what  are  you  hiding  from  me  ?  you  know  ,  i’ve  told  you  from  the  start�� to  always  be  honest  with  me  ,  and  i  guess  you  can’t  .  start  from  the  beginning  !  or  wherever  you  need  to  .      “

continued from here with beta ♡

     " i didn't mean to cause confusion. it's just– there's something i've been keeping from you and it's been weighing on me. i want to be open with you, but i just don't know where to begin. " @lovegates

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"  i  don't  know .  i  feel  like  every  heartbreak  i  have  i  feel  like  i'm  never  going  to  get  over ,  but  i  mean  it  this  time  with  this  one !  "  words  will  come  out  in  a  covenant ;  though ,  one  would  argue  this  was  just  the  female  leading  with  emotions  and  putting  the  dramatics  into  use .  "  i  say  you  just  quit  med  school .  what's  the  fun  in  it  anyways ?  unless  there's  like  some  hot  doctor  you  want .  "  side  of  arm  is  playfully  pushing  up  against  the  others . 

     " no i totally get that. is this one of those heartbreaks that you think time won't heal ? " and as she says this, she's tugging isla along, heading down the street, " i'm down. especially for the really strong margaritas. think i just need to black out tonight, or else -- med school will be the death of me. "

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   “    not  entirely  different  ,  but  you  would  think  there  would  be  some  growth  there  over  the  course  of  two  years  .  maybe  an  apology  ..  an  explanation  .  whatever  .  i  need  you  to  pretend  we’re  still  together  ,  because  i  told  my  parents  we  still  are  .    “

          *ੈ  ♡ ‧₊˚     "  uh  . . .  ?  "  a  pierced  brow  raises  at  isla  inquisitively.  "  did  you  expect  an  entirely  different  person  ?  . . .  why  are  you  even  here  ?  "

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   twinge  of  convulsion  in  the  depths  of  her  stomach  ,  his  words  coming  together  as  a  confession  that  had  been  entirely  too  true  ;  she  was  running  back  towards  something  she  didn’t  want  in  her  heart  ,  while  her  whole  heart  had  been  standing  in  front  of  her  at  this  exact  moment  .    “    saving  ?  there’s  nothing  to  save  .  you  just  got  in  the  way  of  it  .  actually  ..  he  got  me  a  ring  .    “    will  put  on  a  facade  of  carelessness  ,  fingertips  now  fidgeting  with  the  ring  that  had  seemingly  been  a  new  accessory  that  graced  her  finger  ;  sure  to  flash  it  towards  cam  as  a  signal  of  what  he  had  been  losing  his  grip  on  .    “    i  was  mature  enough  .  sucks  that  you  couldn’t  even  say  anything  when  i  told  you  i  was  falling  in  love  with  you  .  you  are  an  asshole  .    “    as  much  as  the  brunette  wanted  to  wail  at  cameron  ,  will  be  knowledgeable  of  her  surroundings  as  voice  stays  at  a  mere  whisper  .    “    can  you  not  start  any  shit  here  ,  cam  ?  spill  all  the  secrets  that  you  want  .  but  you’re  going  to  be  kicked  out  for  disturbing  the  party  ,  and  i’ll  think  you’re  even  more  of  an  asshole  .    “    abhorred  his  threats  ,  wondering  where  this  side  of  his  personality  had  came  from  with  all  of  their  months  of  knowing  the  most  secretive  parts  of  the  other  .  eyes  will  flash  over  to  her  significant  other  as  he  once  again  joins  her  side  ,  drink  in  hand  and  beady  eyes  on  cameron  as  isla  will  let  out  a  sapped  sigh  . 

🍥  …  ♡  ʾ  ౿ 𓈒     the   bitterness   aimed   his   way   is   so   unlike   her.   it's   the   first   thing   he   notices   and   it's   a   trait   he'll   never   get   used   to.   he   isn't   doing   a   good   job   at   hiding   his   own   annoyance,   allowing   a   scoff   to   exit   parted   brims.    ❛    so   you're   in   a   good   place   once   you   go   completely   silent   on   me   ?   i'm   happy   for   you,   really.   it   takes   a   lot   of   maturity   sacrificing   what   you   really   want   to   try   saving   a   lost   cause.    ❜    words   are   feather   light   as   they're   spoken   but   there's   no   denying   the   edge   to   his   timbre.    ❛    sucks   you   couldn't   be   mature   enough   to   have   a   conversation   with   me   before   deciding   i   was   an   asshole.    ❜    fingertips   pinch   at   the   skin   of   his   forearm,   a   sign   of   the   anxieties   he   harbors   coming   to   surface.   a   nervous   habit   she'd   pay   mind   to,   if   circumstances   were   different.    ❛    i   should   be   asking   you   that.   really   wanna   leave   your   boyfriend   unattended   while   i'm   here   ?   i   think   he   and   i   could   bond   over   some   secrets.    ❜  

[lovegates]

" yeah but what if i don't want to heal or move on ? this is the stupid part ! " slight roll of her eyes due to the matter that life could be so unfair ; how love could be so cruel . " maybe we should get some tacos and really strong margaritas . "

     " but you have to. isn't that part of the healing process ? " jiali pouts, scanning isla's sullen features. " okay, what's going to help cheer you up ? should we grab something to eat ? drink our worries away ? "

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      excitement  can  only  be  contained  within  the  confinements  of  her  chest  as  she  acknowledges  brunette  sauntering  across  the  flooring  and  over  to  her  personal  bubble  ,  arms  crossed  amongst  her  own  thorax  as  eyes  will  roll  into  back  of  her  cranium  hearing  the  smug  remarks  come  from  cameron’s  lips  ..  one’s  that  she  missed  pressing  her  own  onto  .    “    we’re  in  a  good  place  now  ,  and  i  decided  i  would  bring  a  plus  one  to  the  party  .  you  think  i  would  just  lie  about  having  a  boyfriend  ?    “    last  word  seems  to  be  elongated  to  further  drive  home  the  fact  of  reality  ,    “    and  i’m  still ignoring  you  .  which  brings  me  to  my  next  question  ..  what  are  you  doing  over  here  talking  to  me  ?    “    eyebrows  will  crease  together  to  indicate  her  distress  ,  basket  of  emotions  overflowing  in  the  pit  of  her  stomach  that  she  would  try  her  best  to  mask  considering  the  brave  face  she  would  have  to  put  on  for  significant  other  . 

🍥  …  ♡  ʾ  ౿ 𓈒    boy   was   a   stranger   to   self  -  preservation   ;   from   scraped   knees   in   childhood   to   a   lack   of   control   around   illicit   substances,   his   tendency   to   dive   straight   into   the   deep   end   without   so   much   as   a   second   thought   leads   him   to   situations   like   the   one   unfolding   before   him.   as   glances   are   exchanged   between   himself   and   the   infamous   boyfriend,   he   swears   he   can   feel   the   vexation   prick   the   surface   of   his   skin.   in   truth,   he's   not   entirely   sure   what   he   feels   and   detests   the   way   his   chest   beats   a   hollow   drum   as   vision   catches   sight   of   the   girl   he   can   only   silently   call   his.   it's   ironic,   really,   to   become   the   side   character   in   a   scene   so   desperately   avoided   all   this   time.   when   other   male   steps   out   of   vicinity,   he   wastes   no   time   before   approaching   isla,   rehearsed   grin   displaying   pearls,    ❛    is   that   the   boyfriend   ?   some   of   us   were   starting   to   think   he   didn't   really   exist,   since   you   never   brought   him   anywhere.   think   i   wouldn't   notice   he   shows   up   the   second   you   start   ignoring   me   ?    ❜