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@cagesings said : don't make yourself an island.

     JOHANNA WAS so kind , and deserved a friend who wasn't just a shell of a person . someone who was real , and not just a girl stuck in time , trying her hardest to blend in . rosalie deserved to not have to say goodbye , but sometimes the things that were most deserved were the hardest to actually get .      ❛ i could say the same to you ,  ❜ she snapped , words like poison . it always had to end this way , rose cutting off the people she had accidentally made a connection to , before they moved on . over time , the pain of doing so had eased , but it was never easy . this time , though , it felt wrong . johanna had always been so kind , nestling her way into rosalie's life despite her unintentional , and purposeful , coldness . ❛ maybe you could focus on fixing your own miserable life before you comment on mine .  ❜

[roshale]

     SHE SHOULD at least pretend to be offended , and maybe some part of her is -- but the mutual understanding that her fiancé could be a bit of a boar is comforting . he couldn't help it , of course , he was a man . really , she should keep her mouth shut about it ; the wedding was quickly approaching , and then she would be happy . royce would be satisfied , and so would she .      they would look perfect together , everyone would envy and adore them . rosalie would move up in the world , subject to the admiration of the entire city , no , the whole state or country .      ❛  no one can hear us in here , so your thoughts are safe , ❜ she concluded , smoothing out the fabric of her dress , then clasping her hands together in front of her . ❛ though i should be more careful , too . he is to be my husband , as i'm sure you've realized , but at times he can come on a bit strong . out of love , yes , but it can be overwhelming for me .  ❜

Royce King the Second. Francesca knew the name immediately, remembering her conversation with him earlier that night -- He was charming, she supposed, but there was something about him that did not sit right with her. Much like most of the men in attendance if she truly thought about it.

Scoffing, the brunette stopped herself from making a rather terrible joke once she realised who the woman before her was to him, smile fading instantly as it was replaced with a sheepish humiliation. "Forgive me, I did not mean..." You have truly put your foot in it now, Frannie. "I suppose it serves me right for being such a cynic."

[purrincess-chat]

"Cat, where the hell you been, loca?"

What can I say? Existence is a prison. Anywho, I will likely be busy for a while between real life and the Era's event, so my queue is gonna be running for a while. I may pop in here or there when I have time, I have been slowly working on my s5 breakdown/thoughts/analysis, so that may come out eventually. But it's likely yall won't see much of me until December, BUT I will have fic to post when I come back for the Era's event, so look forward to that. I'll also try to comment on or live blog the Paris special at some point this weekend. We will see.

Anyway, I'll be back around the beginning of December. ✨️

[d0esntheownashirt]

i definitely think one of the major reasons why so many ppl find the twilight saga so safe and comforting is its exceptionally accurate representation of the awkwardness and stupidness of teenagers. like the public school of twilight might just be the most relatable portrayal of teens i’ve seen

[roshale]

@wysteriafaded said : “you’re not patching this up alone. let me help.” (from emmett!)

     SHE WAS annoyingly stubborn , even to herself . at the mere offer for help , rosalie felt a visceral reaction to refuse it . something within her was attacked by the insinuation that she needed help . not to mention , she didn't want to be touched right now . the wound was too fresh , too sensitive .      it was rare for a vampire to get hurt , but one wrong step while hunting had sent her straight to the ground , her knee now a mess that wasn't quite bloody . she should get help , but still wanted to refuse .      ❛ i think i'll be fine ,  ❜ rose snapped , rolling her eyes , perhaps with a bit too much emphasis . she turned on her foot , and took a step to get out of the woods , before her knee buckled in on itself . instinctively , she grabbed onto his bicep . ❛ just give me your arm , and once we're home i'll be fine .  ❜

[roshale]

     SHE HAD never questioned the term coven before , though really it didn't make much sense , considering they weren't quite witches -- in another time , rose suspected some of them would be confused for them , alice in particular , but that was a consideration for another day .      ❛ there's seven of us . unusually large , i know , but we really are more like a family than an affiliation . the word coven , i suppose , makes us sound more intimidating . we aren't witches ,  ❜ rose explained , wrapping her arms around her chest , starting to feel a bit of anxiety . it was more an interrogation than anything , which was never welcomed . ❛ you're not human . what are you ?  ❜

The brunette couldnt help the snort. "Sorry- coven? Like witches?" You cant blame her shes never had a family of vampires to learn the terms.

Clearly the doppelganger wasn't interested in answering Rosalie's questions, she was more interested in getting hers answered- but that's just Katherine for you.

"So you and this.... coven.... how many of you are there?" The doppelganger idly looked around what she could see of the house as she stepped further into the abode.

Fancy, as she'd noted before but it looked very modern, all the way through. Vampires usually had SOMETHING old as shit in their possession, if not just for nostalgia's sake. Finding it might give her a better idea of how old they were and if she was stronger than them should she need that leverage.

[horrorlesbians]

helena where the hell have you been loca

yeah sorry my queue ran out and around the same time i decided to put myself in tumblr posting timeout bc i was falling down that spiral of 'actually everyone hates you and no one likes you and it's all pity' so i just took myself offline for a few days

[roshale]

@feltferal said : i don't need your help.

     JASPER WAS reserved , in the same ways that she was . assistance equaled weakness in his book , in the same vein that it meant that for her . rosalie understood it , she did , but it was clear that he needed something , despite the desire to remain independent . support was nothing to be ashamed of .      it was ironic , considering if the roles were reversed , rose most certainly would be acting the same way .      ❛  i know that you don't , ❜ she nearly whispered , hoping that the acknowledgement would help him to warm up to the idea . ❛ but wouldn't it be much easier if i did help ? if it were me struggling , you would want to help .  ❜

[roshale]

     THROUGH HER own hazy brain , which was growing more and more foggy by the second , she saw the animal on the ground , losing blood quickly . it was only a small fox -- or taking the form of one -- which meant she had likely done damage . rosalie picked herself up , feeling a bit dizzy , but nothing too unmanageable , and scooped the fox up without warning .      ❛ no , no yarrow powder ,  ❜ she replied , her mouth twisting strange on the sound of the unknown substance . ❛ but i'll take you to my father .  ❜      if anyone would know what to do , it would be carlisle . quickly , she darts back out of the deep woods , dodging thick tree roots , lush falling vines , and the occasional deer ( she really should have just settled for one of them ) .      ❛ you'll get treated here . we'll try to help you ,  ❜ rose explained , entering her home , sure that her family was already somewhat aware of what was happening , given their powers . ❛ carlisle --  ❜      her words were cut short by a sudden wave of nausea , a sensation she hadn't felt since she was human . rosalie stumbled backwards for a few moments , sitting back onto the couch slowly , trying to center herself . her head spun , and her vision became clouded . heat felt trapped in her face , like she was running a fever -- another ancient feeling .

She hadn't thought the bite would actually work, but blessedly, the porcelain beast leaped back. The next breath she pulled into her lungs was sweet, and it produced an eruption of thousands of miniscule stars that twirled and danced against the cloak of shadows so deep below the canopy. Her throat burned and she kicked, ripping up little clods of moss and pebbles as her paws uselessly pedaled. A cough ripped violently out of her and she hadn't even finished before her entire body recoiled at the pain it caused. Slowly, blink by agonizing blink, the world came back into focus. At its edges everything tried to lazily melt together like sugar and butter in a pan, but Beck forced herself up onto her paws.

Her legs trembled traitorously, threatening to buckle, and her stomach lurched as she righted herself. Even if she hadn't lost so much blood, even if more still wasn't pouring from the wound to clot in her fiery fur, this creature had already outrun her once. Running would only waste more of her energy. Beck looked over at the creature---the woman. She was painfully beautiful, her skin glittering in the dim light that managed to pierce the canopy. Was that the blood loss talking? She couldn't be sure.

"I'm so relieved-" The fox muttered dryly, and even though the words weren't coming from her lips, the effort of talking still made her stop to pant noisily. "That you're alright. That was---right at the top---of my worries. Christ you hit like a--like a truck. Fuck me."

She had to sit back down. More and more blood was dampening her coat, weighing it down along the scarlet trail where it ran. She didn't need to see it; she could feel it. Was this how she died? After all the idiotic shit she'd gotten herself into, was an accidental vampire attack the end of her?

"You don't happen to have any---any yarrow powder on you? I need to---fuck. I gotta stop the bleeding."

[roshale]

     SAVING HIM was impulsive , yet rosalie couldn't bring herself to regret it . emmett was the exact opposite of her . he was the sun , and she was the moon . if she was every negative and self - loathing decision , he was every clap on the back and laugh shared between friends . the thing that they shared was an ego .      despite this , emmett had proven to be apologetic , something which rose often attributed to guilt , for some reason . he must feel sorry for her , being trapped in an existence she despised . that , or he was just a decent man ( which were much harder to come by , though her instincts did suspect it ) .      ❛ i know ,  ❜ she replied , rubbing the bridge of her nose with her fingers . ❛ i just . . . hate moving , you know ? i mean , before i became this i'd never moved before . i was going to , i mean , when i got married -- but that's different .  ❜      stability was important to her , ever since she was little . rosalie adored how her mother was so on top of things , always keeping her and her brothers in line , sticking to a routine . not only did it look good for their reputation , but it made life easier .      ❛ i worry , you know ,  ❜ rosalie continued , treading lightly on what she was about to say . ❛ our family , per se , is growing bigger . i don't know what carlisle plans to tell people . lately , he's been keeping me in the dark . you know how he is , always prioritizing edward .  ❜

he wants to laugh at her , dismiss her concern . she was overbearing and he had been careful enough . but , her worries were understandable . none of the others seemed to enjoy having to relocate and he would be lying if he said he didn't care about upsetting them . carlisle in particular . he had become what emmett had wished his own father could be like and he didn't want to let him down or be kicked out . so he tried to listen to her as best he could without becoming sarcastic . which was hard to do when he felt like she hated his guts . ' hey - I'm sorry . ' he finally admits , feeling it is best to be contrite here . ' I'll go out later and clean up so it looks as if nothing happened . ' and then , because he can't stay serious for long the boy holds up his hand as if taking an oath . ' scout's honor or whatever . ' he gives her a boyish grin . ' I'm not actively trying to make your life miserable ,  you know . ' he adds , almost frowning as he wonders yet again why she seems to dislike him . after all , she was the one who brought him here . women . it made no sense .

[leahclearwaterdefensesquad]

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"[Rosalie] has earned degrees in electrical engineering, business, and astrophysics, and has studied medicine..." 🌠🌌✨

The Official Twilight Illustrated Guide

[roshale]

     FOR A few moments , and a few moments only , rosalie was content to stay inside and watch the other vampire from behind a window . it was where she belonged , staying inside , away from people . yes , they were in the countryside , out of immediate eyesight of most -- but there were still people who went on strolls , or came to take a glance at their newest , most mysterious neighbors . rosalie was a liability , not just with how recognizable she was , but with her new abilities ; she could not yet control how fast and unnatural she moved , nor could she rid herself of the foul red that stained her eyes .      she watches for just a minute , before making the decision to follow esme , practically stomping out the door . it was childish , she knew , but necessary . maybe getting her hands dirty was what she needed . maybe it would make her feel like herself again .      and feeling like that , like a human was absolutely vital . rose had felt like a stranger in her own body , always on edge , always waiting for something to happen . why , she didn't even have her own clothing anymore , and had been borrowing dresses of esme's ( her one outfit was absolutely destroyed and had been properly disposed of ) .      slowly , she approached esme from behind , though is now aware that beings like them can hear every sound -- she wasn't trying to scare her , or anything .      ❛ i don't mean to be cynical . if you need help , i can help you . you've done enough for me ,  ❜ rose timidly muttered , tucking her hair behind her ears . she had let herself go , no longer caring to do anything fancy with her hair , and letting it just cascade down her back . there was no point , she wasn't going anywhere -- no one would see it . ❛ i used to help my mother in her garden , though usually i just planted the flowers in the best arrangements i could . i'm a fast learner though .  ❜

it is as if she is awakened out of a deep slumber the moment esme speaks . it worries the redhead , her heart is sympathetic towards all . but she also knows all too well what it is like to be drowned in your thoughts and emotions . and being a vampire . . . well , everything is amplified to the nth degree . she couldn't imagine going through what she had emotionally after losing her son after she had turned . unlike rosalie , esme had taken easily to her new life . but then again , she had already chosen to end her life before she was taken to carlisle . waking up to something new had seemed more like a second chance . unlike rosalie , esme hadn't had anything left to lose . ' ah you misunderstood me . ' esme smiles kindly , leaning against the walls as she taps her gardening gloves against her thigh . ' I was hoping you'd get your hands dirty . the weeds have been something terrible this year . ' she's not being truthful , she had wanted the companionship . it was lonely , sometimes , with the boys . but she knew better than to push . ' of course you are not obligated . you know where to find me . ' finished , the vampire turns and goes to head out of the door to her left . right before going around the corner she pauses and without turning to look back at rosalie speaks once more . ' for what it is worth - you are not insufferable . '