#° 𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔞𝔩 𝔴𝔦𝔫𝔢 𝔞𝔲𝔫𝔱 ; ✞ queue.

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❛   i hid my deepest feelings so well, i forgot where i placed them.  ❜  

𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄 𝐌𝐄. // @salvatoraes + accepting.

𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐞  𝐡𝐨𝐰  𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠  𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲'𝐝  𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧  𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐟𝐨𝐫,  sawyer  still  didn't  feel  it  as  much  as  maybe  she  should  have.  an  aftereffect  of  how  she  abused  the  substance  so  frequently,  her  tolerance  higehr  than  most  and,  unfortunately,  that  meant  some  people  just  couldn't  keep  up.  thankfully,  sawyer  had  managed  to  find  someone  that  night  who  could,  a  stranger  quickly  becoming  friend  and  confidant  with  how  their  conversations  began  to  descend  into  the  philosophical.  sawyer  would  always  tell  people  they'd  be  surprised  how  many  friendships  she  made  on  the  curb  outside  a  random  nightclub.  this  seemed  to  be  no  different. with  her  coat  wrapped  around  her  shoulders,  sawyer  found  reprieve  in  the  cool  night  air,  seated  beside  stefan  with  the  intent  to  eventually  hail  a  cab.  where  that  cab  would  take  them,  sawyer  wasn't  sure,  but  there  was  enough  of  a  mixture  of  alcohol  and  ecstasy  for  her  to  forgo  any  sense  of  care  for  the  evening.               ❛  i  hid  my  deepest  feelings  so  well,  i  forgot  where  i  placed  them.  ❜     sawyer  paused  for  a  moment,  head  turning  towards  stefan  with  a  newfound  sense  of  comradery,  because  damn  if  that  statement  didn't  hit  home.  how  many  years  had  sawyer  been  running  from  her  own  anger,  from  her  own  despair  and  self-loathing?  when  was  the  last  time  she  truly  let  herself  feel  everything  that  she  held  within  her  small  frame?  she  didn't  know  if  she  felt  relieved  or  terrified  at  the  realization  that  she  couldn't  remember.  slowly,  her  gaze  became  distant,  sinking  into  herself  as  the  realization  began  to  hit  closer  and  closer  to  her  heart.  

only  the  sound  of  a  car  honking  brought  her  out  of  her  spiral,  head  lifting  and  meeting  stefan's  face  before  seeing  a  cab  headed  in  their  direction,  ❛  i  think  this  is  us.  ❜    

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𝖙𝖆𝖌 𝖉𝖚𝖒𝖕 𝖔𝖓𝖊.

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tag dump.

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grasp .   run  to  my  muse  &  jump  into  their  arms . + reverse for harley

𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 . // @goldshadows + accepting

𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫  𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠  𝐢𝐭  𝐡𝐚𝐝  𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧  𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞  𝐬𝐚𝐰𝐲𝐞𝐫  𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭  𝐬𝐚𝐰  𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐲  𝐰𝐚𝐬  𝐭𝐨𝐨  𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠.  weeks  had  turned  into  months  of  her  being  on  the  road,  away  from  her  home  and  away  from  all  friends  except  her  bandmates.  though  she  never  got  tired  of  them  (  they  were  essentially  family  by  this  point  ),  sawyer  couldn't  deny  that  there  were  times  that  she  missed  certain  friends  for  different  reasons.  harley  was  one  of  them,  always  finding  herself  thoroughly  fascinated  by  his  passion  for  science  and,  frankly,  learning  far  more  from  him  than  she  ever  did  in  her  public  school  education. thus,  when  she'd  asked  him  to  meet  for  lunch  after  returning  home,  there  was  no  hiding  her  excitement  at  the  sight  of  him,  ❛  harley!  ❜  giddy  in  nature,  her  tone  ws  high  in  pitch  before  she  took  off  into  a  sprint,  arms  out  in  front  of  her,  prepared  to  make  her  next  audacious  move.  in  one  fluid  motion,  the  small  vocalist  all  but  leapt  into  harley's  arms,  her  own  wrapping  around  his  neck  as  her  legs  wrapped  around  his  waist,  holding  him  close  as  a  bright,  toothy  smile  spread  across  her  features,    ❛  i  missed  you!  ❜

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@dollwrote continued from here.

𝐭𝐡𝐞  𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧  𝐡𝐚𝐝  𝐚𝐥𝐥  𝐛𝐮𝐭  𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝  𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦  𝐡𝐞𝐫  𝐥𝐢𝐩𝐬,  not  intending  to  let  true  feelings  come  to  light.  but  it  was  too  late  now,  everything  out  in  the  open  at  a  uncomfortable  level  that  sawyer  felt  every  second  turn  into  hours.  swallowing,  her  eyes  stayed  on  james,  never  letting  them  leave  even  for  an  instant  out  of  fear  that  if  she  looked  back  she'd  be  gone.  but  the  silence  between  them  was  becoming  agonizing,  sawyer  internally  screaming  for  her  to  say  something,  anything.  a  part  of  her  knew  that  the  blonde  probably  didn't  feel  the  same,  didn't  feel  as  though  sawyer  was  more  than  just  a  friend.

when  james  finally  spoke,  sawyer's  stomach  plummeted,  her  fear  coming  to  light  and,  before  she  could  stop  herself,  her  hand  reached  out  to  grab  james'  wrist,  ❛  jamie,  wait  —  ❜  the  tone  of  her  voice  was  pleading,  gently  tugging  her  back  but  if  james  really  wanted  to  she  could  break  free,  ❛  c'mon.  talk  to  me,  please?  ❜

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ɪꜰ  ʏᴏᴜ  ʀᴇᴀᴘ  ᴡʜᴀᴛ  ʏᴏᴜ  ꜱᴏᴡ ᴛᴡɪꜱᴛ  ᴛʜᴀᴛ  ᴋɴɪꜰᴇ  ɪɴ  ᴍᴇ  ꜱʟᴏᴡ ɪ'ʟʟ  ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ  ᴏᴜᴛ  ᴏɴ  ᴛʜᴇ  ꜰʟᴏᴏʀ ɪᴛ'ꜱ  ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ  ɪ  ꜰᴇᴇʟ                                                                                    ɴ ᴏ ᴛ ʜ ɪ ɴ ɢ .

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so  i  take  another  drink .  throw  up  in  the  sink .