#|| i have like 180 in my account rn :)

[korolnichevoya]

COMMISSION TIME !

guess who’s back and betta than ever! it’s your boy salem! what’s up let’s go! anyway i live in los angeles and my income doesn’t always support fun things like--- bills. so i’m opening commissions back up! ( ignore that it says ‘soulscatter’ at the top; i didn’t want to make a new graphic uwu ).

PRICES !

PROMOS !

( still ) $20.00 ( gif )  $25.00

ICONS !

( unedited ) 100 - $20.00 200 - $30.00 300 - $40.00 400 - $50.00 500 - $60.00. 1000 - $110.00

( edited is $5.00 for editing per each 100 [ ie. $70.00 for a batch of 400 ] )

BANNERS !

( still ) $12.00 ( gif )  $15.50

THEMES !

( code provided by you ) $40 ( code provided by me ) $45

[blackwoolncrown]

Help me out w 2$ (or more if you can <3)

Okay since enough time has passed that I started talking about where I moved, let me explain a bit further:

I am dealing w three main issues that could use financial support: ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

1- Last year on a 90 day notice I ended up selling off my shit and driving- yes DRIVING- to Mexico to live there w my partner. I paid for a permit so I could cross the border w my car- it lasts 180 days, which is up now.

2- Tourist visas are, as mentioned, 180 days after which you HAVE to leave so I recently had to fly out and come back (so I can have a fresh FMM) which costs $$$$

and NOW I have to drive up to the border to clear my old permit and get a new one, which costs $$$ in gas and non-working time

3- And that non working time is a BIG DEAL because in order to get my residency, which will save me from having to do this back and forth again, I have to have an income of $3,600. Take home. As I am self employed that means I have to MAKE $4,800 A MONTH for 6 CONSECUTIVE months in order to get approved. If a month goes under...the clock starts again.

Last month I had a post like this but sadly I still had to pay  myself with $700 from my savings account to make the necessary $4,800

I only need to keep this up for TWO MORE MONTHS but with all the travel I had to do this month next month’s income might get dinged.

PLEASE SUPPORT! Donate!

I’m a Black Indigenous Femme that had to flee FL last year for multiple reasons (it’s basically ground zero for American Fascism rn) and living out of the US has been a lifesaver but in order to lock in the long term stuff I need community support and/or reparations to make it work!

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[notthemonthbutmarch]

Emilie is ruining me.

I love her design so much, she’s so pretty, her voice is adorable, she has that “cutesy with a dark side” personality I like so much in characters, but she’s a dendro burning support and I hardly EVER play dendro bc I hate how niche it is— but I have plenty of pyro dps characters that I could probably use with her. I don’t even like Kinich or Mualani that much— their designs are good and their mechanics are sick but out of the five star units I like Xilonen and Mavuika the best so what’s the point of pulling for characters I don’t really like just to have them for the new nation when a character I actually like is in 5 days?!

The only character I want from 5.0 right now is Kachina, I like her the best, and odds are she’s gonna be free, so if I spend my freemogems for Emilie I can still get Kachina. And then that makes saving for Xilonen in what could be 5.1.

I just don’t know what I want to do. I don’t want Mualani to get the “Wanderer” treatment on my account (I pulled for Wanderer bc I didn’t want to miss out on the hype but I started loving Yoimiya so I skipped Yoimiya for Wanderer and now I hardly use him bc I was disappointed I didn’t have Yoimiya).

At the same time, I never play dendro and I don’t know if Emilie’s more versatile now or if she’s still heavily locked in burning, because I hate the niche of playing with dendro. I want a team set up with like one dendro unit and a bunch of other units like what I can do with basically every other element. I’m not heavy in the meta but I also want to be able to use Emilie happily! Rn the DPS I use the most is Clorinde and Navia, and Emilie definitely won’t work with Navia or is Emilie on a spread and aggravate team good or do I need to switch back to using Arlecchino?!

I have liked Emilie ever since her drip marketing, I have always thought she was adorable— I know a lot of people wanted that lavender design and that lavender design was absolutely adorable and I wish Genshin broke out of their color palettes more often, but it still doesn’t deter me from liking Emilie’s design. She’s so unique looking, we haven’t had a character that looks like her in my opinion. It also doesn’t help that I really want to lose my fifty fifty and get Dehya too, genuinely love Dehya and have been waiting to lose my fifty fifties to her but she never comes home, it’s always fucking MONA.

At this point I’m considering just rolling until I get a 5 star like I did with Xianyun, but I know my luck in this game. I have not won a fifty fifty since 2023. And I do not mean the 4.1 rerun with Neuvillette, I mean February. It’s been over a year since I’ve won a fifty fifty. In that time I’ve pulled for eight more five stars, all of them lost fifty-fifties. The only one who was a win was Lyney during the House of the Hearth banners because of the said fifty-fifty loss on Xianyun. I have 200 and some wishes, if I go for Emilie I frankly will have nothing left— and school is starting back up. I have a full schedule, I don’t know how much time I’ll have for farming primos in Genshin. I could probably work my way back up to 180 by the time Xilonen comes around— especially since leakers are saying it’s either gonna be her or Chasca, and if it’s Chasca that’s such an easy skip meaning two patches I don’t pull in. There’s also the eventuality of Kokomi’s rerun. I would skip anyone for Kokomi on my account, and I know she’s not coming in 5.0 so that still means that if she possibly shows up in 5.1 then I can maybe grind enough primogems to get her.

Kokomi is on my priorities, but I also am not gonna sit here and miss character after character for the chance to get one copy of her. So AGAIN— Emilie.

Do I get Emilie? Do I pull until I get gold? If I lose my fifty-fifty what happens if I don’t get Dehya? I’ve also been waiting for Diluc to show up! I’ve played this game since 2022 and have not gotten a single Diluc— I only just got Jean in this year. Maybe I just pull for gold and pray it’s Emilie or Dehya so I have a guaranteed Mualani or Xilonen? I don’t hate Mualani and I probably will try to get her whenever she reruns because her gameplay looks sick as hell. I don’t know— I really, really want Emilie and I really want Xilonen and I know the reason I want Mualani is because I’ll feel like I’m missing out on the cool new mechanics but if I just wait for the character I do like them I get to enjoy those mechanics when they do arrive.

SHOULD I JUST SAY FUCK IT WE BALL AND SPEND EVERYTHING ON EMILIE???

DO I LET FATE DECIDE AND PRAY THAT DEHYA IS THE ONE THAT COMES HOME WHEN MY HUBRIS IS SMITED?!!!???!!

DO I JUST BE PATIENCE FOR THE LEPORD WOMAN AND FISH GIRLIE??

SOMEONE HELP ME.

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

hi there, ive been following you for a little bit now and all of your thoughts and wisdoms mean a lot to me, as well as your art and creative things like your photography. ive been wanting to do little confessions about lots of different things over time but im very afraid that the people hurting me will see them and know its me and hurt me more. im very lost & scared & trapped rn and everyone closest to me punishes me for it. idk i just wanted to get it out somewhere.. but it really means a lot to me to see you happy and well. you inspire me and i want there to always be good waiting for you

hi ^^ im sorry u have those feelings i used to struggle immensely w this .. i always kinda posted /this way/ but for most my 20s i only used private accounts cus i was so afraid of ppl irl reading my posts, as well as stalkers, there were incidents of both these things that made me go into hiding for foreverrrr !!!

The only reason i post publicly now is cus when i first came back to tumblr in 2021, it was like a blank slate, all my old oomfies had moved to ig or twitter. So i cld relax more and eventualy over time new ppl came who made sense to be here. And i didnt feel like i had to hide anymore ! it was extremely slow process. like literally took all of my 20s to feel fine doing this

And Ofc im sure tons of ppl who want to harm me read my blog and make fun of me, i know i seem insane to many, but i just....Dont care like.....You need to realize....Anyone who does that to you is SO weak, you are not lost at all compared to them. They're upset because they want to express themselves earnestly too but they feel blocked. Many ppl lash out for this reason..

if ur really afraid u could start by maybe doing a private blog .. i would also recommend doing protection prayers for yourself, i like listening to psalm 91, i have my archangel michael candle lit rn actually, i take a lot of measures to keep my shield up, i really believe in these energies, i ask the angels to send any unwanted energy back to sender, simple as. it has helped me become much more comfortable showing myself, online and irl.

Just dont give up, even if it takes a long time to open up, practice each day to strengthen ur soul, work on the things yu want to work on with the intentions of love in your heart, when u Know ur doing it for the right reasons it becomes really hard to let anyone stop u. But take it slow. no matter how scared u feel rn, know it can be a total 180, even if u dont see the path clearly yet ^^ Thanks for your kind message..i'm here to help!! Stay protected & cherished Anon...PMD9 <3 <3 <3

[butchboromir]

ok so. so. my dorm got renovated over the summer and it has been a Nightmare since then so the stove in the kitchen doesn’t work so they turned off the power on my side of the floor to work on it but also the showers were flooding for Months and i had to go to the other floor to shower and also i had to go to dive practice this am and it was. soooooo cold like 35 degrees maybe? but no snow so basically i am suffering more than jesus rn

also yay max live but also. who is max don’t cancel me for not knowing pls 😔

- j (cold edition)

oh what the hell that sounds so awful. going to a whole nother floor to shower sounds like Hell. i hope that your dorm gets it's shit together!!!! + no snow is good i suppose. md (at least where i am) hasn't had a good snow in years so i am like anxiously awaiting some still LOL. also dive practice :0

+ i don't expect anyone to know who max is LOL. his whole thing is he has an insta account where he sets up a vid like he's gonna explain some sick airplane facts (he is an airplane mechanic) and then he does a 180 into lotr facts. anyways he's been streaming wow on twitch the past week or so and i have been enjoying them :-) (+ i made an emote for the channel and have offered to help with twitch stuff LOL)

[spookyscarydemonbabe]

besties 🖤 i’ve had a terrible fucking day

i slept like shit, i haven’t showered, there’s no food in my house, and someone hacked my etsy account and spent $180 off of my card 🙃 they didn’t change the address tho so it’s still getting sent to me, and they have awful taste because the VANITY they ordered is ugly

i miss Eddie and all i want is him rn…

if anyone has any requests for him (SFW and NSFW) i’d love to get them 🫶

[cyberpxnk]

HELLOOO💖 I discovered you through compromise and I immediately knew you’d be one of my new favorite writers on here!! The way you wrote the dynamic between seonghwa and the reader and omg the way hwa pulled a full 180 bc of yunho.. I was kicking my feet and giggling fr like I understood him completely lmfaoo me too hwa, me too.

Anyways I just started this account to find more authors and hopefully get some inspo to start writing again, and you’ve totally inspired me ! and I’m sorry if it’s obvious, but I’ve never actually sent in a message to someone on here! I was just so impressed that I had to say smth lol. I can’t wait to see more of what you have to share, I will be here with full support <33

oh my god noooooooooooooooo noooo!!!!!!! ur so precious.. i cannot rn 😭 ive honestly been word vomiting all my fics and been wanting to get more involved with the writing community but i have no idea how to go about it... so it's rly... pleasant and heart touching that im even an inspo to u at all !! it feels like im weathering it all by myself.. PLEASE!!! i will be here to support you too!! when and if you start writing again! finding amazing authors here was the same for me. it totally knocked off my writer's block because i wanted to join in on the fun... anyway ur so so so so sweet.. this totally made my day thank u so much 💖

[treesap-blogs]

“The Lesbiana’s Guide To Catholic School” review! this. might be kind of turning into a book account lol

Hello, Tumblrians! While I don’t have a very big following at the moment (only one of my followers is legit, the others are bots)(seriously, leave me alone p^rn bots), and I can’t say popularity is what’s motivated me to continue doing these reviews, my last one was a blast to write so I’m doing one for my most recent read; A Lesbiana’s Guide To Catholic School by Sonora Reyes! 

Equal parts hopeful and gut-wrenching, Sonora Reyes writes what I believe is a truly impactful story about learning to find(and express) your truth, and how difficult that is for a person who is marginalized in multiple ways. This was also one of the first books I’ve read to have the main character completely crush any opportunities of rushed, half-assed third act redemptions for other characters! (Very glad that we didn’t have any of that, especially with the offenses committed by other characters in a story like this! A different piece of queer media, The Prom, really pissed me off with its unrealistically optimistic ending of basically everyone making up after being homophobic to the main character and her girlfriend, and I’m glad they did not do it here.) I’m not really a fan of stories that largely focus on romance instead of having it as a side plot, but here I didn’t mind it! Perhaps it’s because it was queer(in comparison to the heterosexual romance books I’ve read), perhaps it was because of its importance as part of Yamilet’s coming out story. (Also I was like..squealing and stuff at Yamilet and Bo’s relationship they were the cutest!) And although I have never been part of the Catholic nor Christian faith like Yamilet, much less go to a Catholic school, I really resonated with a lot of her internalized homophobia. (Perhaps it was due to having Catholic and Christian beliefs surrounding me during the course of my elementary school years? Huh.) (Saving that dissection for my therapist not Tumblr though.)

-SPOILERS! Tw for discussions of su!cidal ideation and mental health.-

Reyes also writes in their list of content/trigger warnings before the story that they tried to write about all of their subject matter with the utmost care, something that they definitely followed throughout the course of the book. One of these topics was mental health, something that was discussed not overtly in the beginning of the book, but became crucial to the plot once Cesar was revealed to be su^cidal. His struggle was extremely realistic(something that caught me off-guard as someone who also struggles with their mental health), to the point where I found morbid humor in him using lighter vocabulary to discuss finding coping mechanisms when he’s starting to spiral again. While I wasn’t surprised by the reveal of him being depressed (there were signs of it during a particular scene in the book that made me concerned), it probably shook me up just as much as Yamilet because goodness, the fourth-fifth of the book was intense. I literally didn’t want to stop reading it because I was so concerned and I needed to know he got better.

(How much can I talk about that kind of subject matter on Tumblr before I get shadowbanned or taken down?! Shoot, guess I’m about to find out!)

I think that’s all spoilers-related that I want to cover?

-END OF SPOILER DISCUSSION.-

Anyhow, I can’t really name any significant flaws with this book? It didn’t feel like everyone did a complete 180 and supported Yamilet(and, I guess spoilers but not really?, her girlfriend Bo), the book was clear about that being only a portion of the conservative Catholic school she goes to, and the parts of the plot about culture(being disconnected or connected to it), racism, and homophobia felt very realistic. It’s what made this a bit difficult subject-matter-wise but also well-written.

A whopping ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐/5 :)!

(And before I go, I will also need to figure out how to remove my bot followers, even if it will taint my ego.)

Paz, signing off. 👋

(Book trigger/content warnings are listed inside but include: Deportation and immigration, experienced racism, homophobia, self harm, suicidal ideation and the hospitalization of a character.)

[xomoosexo]

I think the aversion to any crit as well was an issue, people were trying to validate their obsession with ccs by saying 'look he's SUCH a good person 😭' like no babe you're not fixated on him cause you think he's an amazing person you're fixated on him cause he's funny makes gay jokes with his male best friend and/or is feminine looking enough that you can wombify him lol.

like when all of your mutuals were bending over backwards to defend someone who has objectively done bad things and barely apologized, and then suddenly did a total 180 and are now talking about how terrible he is and has been this whole time- that would be shocking for anyone.

There's always been criticism of dream that's been extremely valid and when you never acknowledge that- the idea that he could have been 'a bad person this whole time' is horrifying. because this whole time you're justifying your obsession with him in a giant circle jerk with other big Stan accounts validating your love for him.

I do respect everyone who realized their relationship with dream and the fandom was unhealthy and left!!! good for you!!! ultimately I'm in the fandom cause I genuinely like the content these guys make, but I definitely have an unhealthy relationship with them cause I'm socially isolated and extremely ill. this is my lifeline rn.

(and I'm a gossipy bitch)

[keebercad]

Soooo Keebercad here! I’m working on making my own banner and tumblr icons(so I’m not using other people’s stuff y’know) at the moment. WL has been rough, can not lie. To sum it all up, I got in a car wreck(I’m fine, everyone else is fine, car wasn’t) uhhh wasn’t my fault technically. We hydroplaned and I wasn’t the one driving. I was in Wisconsin for three weeks which made it hard to calorie count so I mostly just worked out. I think I’m gonna go on a temporary low cal “binge” just so I won’t feel…so groggy? It’s been so hard to get back into the swing of things and I’m only gaining weight. I got down to 213 but I’m at 217 rn, granted I’m on my period, but still. I wanna be 123 by June of next year and 180 by November, so I gotta start cranking in work outs and lowering my cals. Also gotta start drinking a shiz ton more water cause I wanna prevent loose skin and I heard that helps? Tbh I’m hoping making a tumblr post might help me hold myself accountable, y’know? Like, hey! I’m back at it! Gotta get back in the swing of things! So, here’s a little update post for all my readers(I have zero readers, but I might as well act like I’m talking to someone? Y’know?) I think next I’m gonna make a post about my “activity lists”…you’ll understand what I mean when I post it. That’s all for now. 7/21

Farewell, Keebercad

[oathofkaslana]

updates on my besties genshin accounts that i've been helping to improve:

aiya's account:

new updates: reputation 10 for fontaine and reputation level 7 for inazuma. friendship level 10 for cyno and neuvillette. has like. enough boss drops to 90 everyone on both the teams i got (except for xianyun), got xianyun up to 50.

overall:

officially stopping w this one :3

got reputation 10 in mondstdt, liyue, and fontaine

reputation 7 in inazuma and like. rep 4 in sumeru

finished off the exploration for mond and the 1.0 parts of liyue (including geoculus)

friendship level 10 with: xiao, xiangling, neuvillette, kazuha, cyno. i cant remember if i got ittos or not

helped w building (artifacts, leveled, talents, weapons): xiao, kazuha, xiangling, qiqi, xianyun (very very lightly), neuvillette, layla, fischl

got tasses ragout so their characters dont starve.

i dont remember how many wishes i helped them get srceam. rn they have like 10 though bc they just wished. i think before that was like 70-ish? i dont remember nefor ethat though.

teapot realm level 10!

also got them to like. gi:tcg level 1 or sm i dont remember.

got them to 1000+ hero wits

expeditions o7

[redacted]'s account:

new updates: got them 73 wishes worth of primos! leveled their xianyun to 70 and upgraded some talents

overall:

so so close to reputation 10 in sumeru..

finshed off exploration in mond and in the midst of finishing off liyue :3

friendship level 10 w xiangling and yaoyao

friendship level 9 w ga-ming and lvl 8 w xianyun!

slightly helped w building (artifacts, leveled, talents, weapons): yaoyao, ga-ming, wanderer, xianyun, xingqiu, bennett. <- they did most of it hence the slightly.

tasses ragout

73 wishes o7. they already have like. 22 pity on the event banner too!

200+ cfrystal cores oh my god. AND doubled their mora

level 10 w the teapot.

expeditions

goals:

might ask them who they want to build.. im thinking bennett for ga-ming but i have to see :3 a shield would also be nice for wanderer but the only shield character they have is diona and they dont like using archers..

i wanna get better artifacts for ga-ming and level up the teams artis :3 and wanderer's talents

aiming for 180 wishes to secure a shenhe since theyre on a 50/50

1000 hero wits

[huntedspy2]

gonna scream into the void for a second

trying to be more genuine with myself and others. Reaching out or complimenting people even if I'm scared to do so. opening up to people more, asking for help or setting boundaries. I also want to feel less scared of how I use tumblr. I want to be able to use my main blog without feeling like ill annoy others, or being more open about my kin identities. I often feel cringe for it which makes no sense because this is the "cringe website". like I can and should be myself this is my online experience

I was planning to redesign my blogs' structures before making the Big Switch but I think that's what's holding me back

For about a month now too I've been building a personal website on github purely for my gender hoard, kinlist, and pronoun/name info. It was originally for ponytown (lol) but it's been helping me improve my html and css skills andddd its been making me feel more inspired to make a general personal website

the ideas I have for a personal website would to just make it my place. I want to have info about my ocs on there, thoughts on certain media, random pages with useless shit that are there just because its fun. and I want to include stuff like the gender hoard and kinlist pages on there too because again, I want to be more genuine

I am the most stressed and anxious I've been in so long. my jaw clenching has started up again, I'm getting acne again, I constantly feel tense and my chest is always anxious feeling and tight, I've been losing the motivation to make meals and eat and losing energy. I cant keep up with college and at this point I don't know if I made the right choice in computer science. I have a passion for working with computers, but I realize now that passion leaned more towards the IT side of things and. im in CS. I have no motivation or ideas for doing projects outside of coursework unlike a lot of my peers. I'm closeted so I feel like I'm just fitting their stereotype of "girl cant do cs!!!!!". fuck!!!!!!!!

parents stressing me out and overall not taking into accountability I have disabilities

thats another thing, I haven't been able to get my ADHD properly treated since I got it diagnosed 4years ago. I also know im autistic but I dont want to get formally diagnosed bc of several issues, so speaking up for myself with that disability is impossible when my parents don't think im autistic and don't like self diagnosis

maybe its not too late to finish my degree and do a 180 and get into 3d modeling. I'm sure my passion with art could mesh with my programming skills there or something

I don't know who I am really. I always feel like other people have aesthetics or themes that fit them, and here I am with so many different interests in aesthetics and themes that I cant choose one. hoe do people choose a theme for a website? how do people decorate their profiles with a clear and solid theme? I feel like I always have 20 different themes that I want at the same time, its hard to choose one and have people only perceive that one with you

I have a headache rn

on the plus side i also had the tastiest clementine in possibly my whole life

I always remind myself I am only 21 I am so young in the grand scheme of things. but outside pressure wants me to know who I am at this exact moment. its so hard

fish and aquariums have quickly become a special interest within the last 2 months id say. im debating between a 10 or 20 gallon and what id stock it with. im thinking honey gourami and neon tetras and shrimp, but I love the idea of a betta fish or a crayfish. I've had to take care of a crayfish before they're lively little creatures

I want to be more social with people and make new friends or at least gaming friends, but im always apprehensive because I know ill be masking. need to try to open up more, might play more vrchat to socialize but its hard

[ddontyyoukknow]

a wave

I hadn't realized just how many self improvement challenges i embark myself on until now! I was reading over a letter i was writing to my 30 year old self that is comprise of 3 entrees and in all of them i am doing a challenge and in the first two i didn't actually finish them like i actually gave up of them but i feel like during every attempt at a challenge that i do, rather than getting my entire life together i learn one thing at a time and piece it together little by little and thats whats gotten me to the point where i am rn. i must not fret if i am not completing the challenges as a whole, and i must take it for what its worth, adjust and continue. I am at a point of acceptance and gratitude and appreciation. I am fixated on going on lavish vacations and having a fabulous life. i want to go to japan and hawaii and france and i want to have a walt disney world vacation and i want to live in nyc and i want all my money ( a-lot of it) to come from my art. is that too much to ask. I think i am morphing into that person slowly and i think in this transformation the journey matters more than a transformation bc it will be me doing so many 180's. I have already changed so much in the past couple of months. I have garnered more and more maturity and so much patience and love for myself that my broken relationship with hard work and cleaning has started to heal in big ways- something like this is not accounted for in past challenges ive done and is very telling of why it didn't work out- I am still riding the high of cleaning up and flossing and showering and doing my chemical peel and shaving the other night! god did that feel good. I was feeling so horrible and i still got stuff done. thats something i havent expressed in these terms before but i sometimes feel so bad in my body when my mind is ok and wants to get up to do things and the number one thing i feel it could be rn is the whole way that my brain is structured into victim mode and how it expects everything to go awry. literally everything. i have felt this so deeply that i use to live in constant panic and learning about how untrue it is has been magical. little by little i come into power of myself and i learn that things are not scary or impossible. more and more i step forward to do things i once found scary and more and more i learn that there is nothings i cant do. which then brings me back to the mindset of wanting to start a challenge. its definitely a way for my brain to feel like its taking control of my life and its outcomes by telling it this is exactly what the next 3 months will look like when i know at this point that my spirit will take me on a joyride and will show me and give me wonderful things that i didnt even know i wanted. but yet the challenge will give me some structure to base my days on and at least for the first couple of days while its still fresh it should offer some excitement. i will say as well before talking about this challenge that i have a therapist/ doctor/gym/dentist/lawyer for the first time now! i got a teeth cleaning, a checkup, bloodwork, help with nutrition and i go to therapy every week. just having someone to listen to me has been so healing and nice. another highlight of my life right now has bee finding a community art studio where cool artist hang out to create, they meet every Wednesday. there is also aztec dance class every thursday i really want to go to, and i just went to the art institute with teddy it was so inspirational, i 2 weeks ago got to see the strokes!! and in about a month im going to see ESTERHICKS! when i found out she would be in town i almost had an existential crisis at work. teddys bday is in a couple weeks and idk what he wants to do. there must be something in the star rn. apparently for those of us that pluto in capricorn affected, the waves are leaving us and the astrological new year has happened and everything that we want and everything that we have worked hard for will start to come to us and our lives will 180 this year. its just in the stars. let me see...

[seraphim-soulmate]

having to tell your employer you are not capable of doing all the tasks they ask of you within your working hours 👍 so either I need to work more hours to be able to get those tasks done, or she needs to accept that I'm only handling client communications.

also she set my wage really high and is now complaining about not being able to pay me if I work more and like lol I don't really care about money but girly if the plan was to potentially, eventually, increase my hours, you should have set a wage that you would be able to pay accounting for the increase in hours! Like rn a half day of employing me costs 45€, a full day is 90€. Working 2 full days would put us at 180€, which I honestly do not think is too expensive for a lawyer to pay... which is 720€ a month.

Honestly a bit steep for the work that I'm doing at the moment! But I also don't want to undervalue myself, I have skills that neither of the lawyers have and that other people my age also don't have. The issue is I'm not really able to apply those skills if I'm only working mornings; bcs she wants me to answer the phone, handle client communications (so setting appointments, moving appointments, greeting clients, setting up alternatives with clients, and more!), do tech support for the office, organize client files, learn about the procedures that the lawyers are doing to be able to communicate to the clients better, and other additional stuff when it comes up! Clearly, I cannot do all of those things when I only work 3 hours, 2 days a week.

I might work a bit slowly, but I also work thoroughly and methodically. If I'm handling client communications, I'm responding to every single client and seeing all convos through to the end. Making clients feel like I'm on their side and that I hear the pain and fear that they're going through and that I'm doing my best to communicate the information they need when I have it is also part of the job of "answering the phone", which means I can't rush through client interactions if they want to talk. It's pretty important to appropriately handle client communications so they don't end up spam contacting you, like what her clients are doing RIGHT NOW. Making her workload triple because she isn't making time to respond to clients and then has to handle the billion messages her clients are sending her instead of just responding to them on time and not having to deal with an overwhelming amount of messages!

There are some clients that just want to complain about the lawyer and for those I just politely tell them that I'll get back to them when I have news about their case and that I have other calls I need to answer. But like, my boss also cannot handle client communications any faster than I can! The issue is mostly that she's overworking herself, so she has a warped perception of what people can accomplish within a given time-frame.

So to get back to money, I'm fine with working 13€/hrly for a total of 78€/full day, 156€/weekly, 624€/monthly. I just still have to figure out the contract stuff and how the taxes of that will work...

It's all just very funny bcs she set those hours up so I wouldn't feel too overwhelmed, but now she's giving me a billion other tasks to do and I just literally don't have the time to do all of them!

Also she responded saying that we're just gonna take it slow then, but it's not very clear what that means 😅 I guess that I'll just handle client communications for now?

[pallases]

i think this is genuinely the most worried i’ve ever been abt not getting out of a class with an a

[chainsawbettyloo]

my main account when I’m trying to get Halloween Niles: goes through nearly 200 orbs, gets a shit ton of 4 star duplicates, gets the drop rate up to 4.90% and almost immediately gets ruined by a 5 star who is not even on the banner and not even a character I wanted, leaving me with no orbs to get the drop rate back up

my second account that I don’t ever play on because I have my main account when I’m trying to get Halloween Niles: drops him at 3.00% with only 8 orbs spent