#| ★ GLITTER QUEEN SPEAKS ( OOC )

[darehearts]

i want to wish my tiny corner of the rpc aka you beautiful beloveds a happy new year  !  THANK YOU  for sticking with me and my Jim despite my overall sporadic presence especially in the second half of the year.  i appreciate that i am in a crowd of people who understand that real life should be my number one priority.  writing Jim is, in fact, one of my biggest sources of happiness.  THANK YOU  for contributing to my happiness. 🤧💛

i will get a little personal here so if you want to dip out,  feel free. there is a point to this part though.  in the last ten years,  every new years eve was overwhelming for me.  because things were awful,  or i was in a fight with a loved one,  or i was ashamed of the person i was  NOT  becoming, feeling stuck and lamenting about the past.  i spent most of my new years countdowns quietly crying. i am saying this because i want you all to know that i know how bad things can get.  you know what i learned this year,  though  ?  as important as it is to have a support system around us, ultimately,  no one is going to come save you.  ONLY YOU CAN DO THAT.  the first part of 2024 was rock bottom for me ( i'll spare the details lol ),  but i realized that  life is difficult anyway,  so fuck it.  i'll do something about it.  there's barely anything we are in control of in our situations.  i'm experiencing that firsthand ( losing my job in a month, actually, hello... ),  but  WE CAN CONTROL OUR PERSPECTIVE. 

a lot of people say this year sucked. it did,  but for me,  the second half of it was  AMAZING  because i made a choice to actively work on making it better for myself and stopped feeling like a victim. every, single, day, i tried to do something to better whatever about myself was bothering me. i had a pretty damn good half of the year because i singlehandedly worked my ass off to build that reality. confidence or hope doesn't just rain down from the sky,  beloveds.  we need to stack  EVIDENCE  against our bad thoughts telling us bad things.  doing,  little by little,  WILL  change your life. 

so if you had a bad year,  i'd like to leave you with these thoughts.  i hope that all of you find peace,  love and just everything you ever wished for in the new year.  know that you do have the power to go towards a better life. you'd be surprised to see how strong you are  🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻