#| &. chats / love our permanent chase and the bite of our bark

[ashtonfletcherxo]

for a moment there, i thought i was really losing it. i got a giant amazon package delivered and for the life of me, i could’ve remember ordering it. i’m not much of an online shopper and as a rule, i try not to give into over-consumerism. however, ashton on weed clearly doesn’t agree. i’d ordered all the usuals; tapestries, incense, crystals and... a stripper pole? oh, one of these is not like the others. i was going to return it but i got such a mocking from my mates that i’m keeping it out of pure spite. brb, going to google all the exercises i can do on it. what’s been your worst spur of the moment online purchase? or, what’s something that you’ve bought on a whim and it turned out to be the best thing ever? gimme all of your wildest shopping stories, while i try figuring out how to get ready for swimsuit season with my new stripper pole. / @gonehollywoodstarters​

[monochromemedic]

This isn’t finished and probably wont be but i wrote alot so

Benny Benny Benny Benny BENNY I shifted the revolver in my hands, moving it from hand to hand as I moved with Arcade and Boone, trying to track down Benny after I tried to let him go.   Forgive and forget.  Be the bigger man. Turns out Benny was a lying asshole and sent in his cronies as he left for god knows where. And when raided the Legion I saw him tied up with the asshole in charge himself but when I went to get him after it all he disappeared.   It was becoming a trend.  I see him, Benny fucks me over and runs away. When I saw him in the Tops I noticed how he talked, how he walked, how hot he thought his shit was when actually he seemed like a dork. I joked about it with my friends, trying to cover the anger and frustration I felt but we all knew how upsetting it was.  But we always seemed to find his trail.  Then again it wasn’t that hard since he constantly kept his checkered suit on. And now we were following the trail again. After everything in Vegas... after Hoover dam, we still hadn’t found him. And so I took my two best friends, and traveled with the Followers of the Apocalypse, abandoning them for a moment at the sound of a smooth talker in a checkered suit.  Usually Arcade would stay with the Followers, trying to guide the group or halt them until I came back. Or guiding them to where I heard Benny had went. After all, America was fucked and they could use help everywhere, so it didn’t take much persuasion. Meanwhile Boone and I ran ahead, the urge of vengeance driving us both. Why Boone was so pissed off as well was weird, since it was my problem, but it seemed like he was just as eager to put a bullet in his head as I was. But this time... the trail was strong. Arcade was getting sick of us chasing ghosts and wanted to end it as much as I did and followed us. Benny was hold up at some... pleasure house. One for real fancy rich folks and had been there for a while under some alias but slipped up one too many times with saying his real name.  It was enough for me but when we learned that he kept favoring one girl in the club and took up a more permanent room we knew it was our chance. He’d be there for a while or at least planned to. We needed to move when he was settling down The three of us stood in the lobby of the hotel, women and men walking by in seductive get ups, some lounging on couches and beds beckoning a few of us to join in for the right amount of caps. I walked to one of the men who, rolled his hips seductively to the low music playing from a jukebox not too far away, a smile on his lips. “Hey baby, you looking to relieve some tension? Those boys of yours not fufilling you’re needs? I got you... Name’s Johnny Flood. You wanna know how I got that last name?” I cleared my throat and stared at Johnny, concealing the small revolver in a pocket. “Not today, but I do need you for some information.” “Hmm and what would man like me know?” I looked over Arcade who stepped up beside me. “Do you happen to know a man of Danny that’s been staying here recently? Black hair, strange way of talking like he’s trying too hard to be cool. Owns a black and white checkered suit?” “I’m sorry but that’s the Temptation Palace’s secret, we can’t give out that kinda information to just anyone.” Johnny teased “What if we paid you?” “Well... maybe i’d be willing to let my lips squeak out a bit of info...”  I pushed my hands in my pocket and held out a bag of caps to Johnny, shaking it slightly so he knew that it was legit. “200 caps. Just for anything you know about the guy.” Johnny’s eyes widened as he took the bag and opened it, smiling at the sight of the shiny caps within before pocketing it and begging us with a finger to follow him. He lead us to a spare bedroom, closing the door behind us as he sighed and sat on the bed, his flirtatious facade fading a bit. “I do know a bit about him. Not alot but, i’ll be an open book about what i know baby. What’s he to you? He’s your husband?” I shook my head and eyed the room, checking to see if it was really secure. Boone was already doing the same, so I knew that he’d keep a look out while me and Arcade chatted him up. “No... he might as well be with the amount of times he’s fucked me.” “Can we not say that joke in front of strangers?” Arcade interjected before I continued. “He did some bad things to some people, and I just wanna talk and settle the score. I don’t want him hurting anyone else.” Johnny face fell a little, rubbing his face nervously. “Damn... well... alright. What I know about Danny is that he’s been hanging around Peaches way too much.  I mean I was happy for her that she was getting a steady job but now that your saying that I guess I have noticed he’s a bit weird. I wear i’ve seen a gun on him but I always thought it was just for a little protection but It’s kinda big.” “Is it engraved?” “I couldn’t tell you, I never got that close. Just sort of seen the handle peaking out of the hem of his pants at times so I just assumed it was a gun in his pants and not his dick.” I looked at Arcade who, gave a tired sigh before continuing “Is he still here?” “Danny? I think so. Then again it’s hard to tell who comes and goes when you’re in and out of bedrooms. But he does seem to have a little room to himself that he rented. Only hardcore costumers do that so, I’d assume he planned on staying for a while longer. If you wanna talk to him he’s on the 3rd floor, I think it’s room 307. You might need a key to get in if you wanna... do anything.” I gave a slight nod and headed for the door, giving Johnny thanks for his information. Boone already had the door open. He got the information he needed. “W-wait.” I turned to Johnny, who became a bit nervous. “Listen I don’t know what you’re gonna do to him, probably nothing good but... this place is good and Peaches is a good girl. Make sure she’s safe and... if your gonna ... kill him then try not to be so loud. The Temptation Palace is suppose to be a place for people to relax and murder is one thing that turns alot of people off.” Boone only gave a quick, “No promises” as he left as I gave a more helpful answer. “I’ll keep her safe. And believe me, i’ll be as quiet as a mouse.” I stood outside with Arcade and Boone at my side as we kept silent, walking up the stairs to the third floor with one mission in mind. Even though we didn’t speak, we know we didn’t have to. There wasn’t anything to talk about that wasn’t what we already from talking about the situation night after night. I felt the goosebumps begin to form on my skin, and a shutter of adrenaline fall over me.  I wonder if he could feel it too. The dread... the anticipation. When we got to the door it was locked but a few tries with a bobby pin caused it to open, a small creak from the hinges as we entered the dimly lit room, seeing Benny in his underwear, drinking at a small bar full of liquor. I could feel the scar begin to ache at the irony of it all, how similar this all was seeming. Just like the first time. “You’re like a damn cockroach you know that babes? I keep on stomping you out but you just keep on coming back no matter where I head.” Benny’s voice seemed to echo in the darkness. I raised my pistol at him, anger filling my mind and my body. All I wanted was to pull the trigger and end it, but I forced myself to stop. I still had questions. I always did. “Hard to hide when you never change your look from that dumb suit you wear. You really gotta try harder, it’s like you wanna be found.” “Maybe I do... maybe I do.” He took a swig of what was left in his glass and began to poor a half empty bottle of whiskey to refill it, before turning to me. As soon as he turned Boone and Arcade raised their concealed guns as well, causing Benny to chuckle. “Damn baby, you  got that whole gang back together. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t flattered about the reunion but you caught me in my birthday suit.  I wouldn’t go and try to chum me up or else I might just start turning red.” “Jesus can you shut up already. Jenna take the shot and just end this.” Arcade barked out “We have him, we can’t let him get away again, just end it.” “Arcade stay out of this.” Boone growled back, “You don’t know what it’s like?” “What wanting to shoot an idiot? Because if that’s the case then you’re mistaken because I want to do that every day.” Benny sipped his whiskey and laughed, placing the glass on the counter with a smarmy grin on his face “I always love to see two broads going at each others throats... all just for me, i’m flattered.” “Shut up Benny” They both barked back, turns fixating back at the man I walked forward, inching closer and closer to Benny’s body until I was just a foot away. He looked a little weathered but otherwise the same.  It seemed that running away from the constant mob of people chasing him was taking it’s toll. Good. “Why? I gave you a chance back at the Tops and you threw me under the bus. You think I wouldn’t be good for it? You never thought that sometimes people can be the bigger man and forgive? Now look at you. Alone, no casino, no chip, in a random sleezy hotel miles from home because you couldn’t accept the fact that I wanted to give you a second chance. Now i’m all out of chances Benny and i’m pretty fucking pissed.” “No one gets out scott free, not you, not me, not no body. I couldn’t take the chance of a backstab when I had the cards in play. It was just precaution, nothing more. You think too hard, i’m surprised that you haven’t broken that head of yours with all that thinking you must be doing, thinking there’s some bigger meaning. It’s a dog eat dog world, and sometimes killing friends is the best way to insure the dog’s don’t bite the hand that feeds, you dig? You’d probably do the same if you were where I was sittin.” “‘Maybe Khan’s kill people, but I ain’t a fink, you dig’“ “Dirty. Using my own words against me like that.” Benny said, a bit of venom in his tone. “So now what. You gotta pull the trigger and put me in a shallow grave? Cause you better do it quick or i’ll finish this entire bottle of whiskey while you’re mulling it over again.” My finger that hovered over the trigger began to quiver as I pushed it down against the smooth metal of the gun. Just a simple reaction, a little push and it’d be over. Benny would be dead in front of me. So why the fuck couldn’t I do it? I tried to force my finger down but the more I tried the more my hand tensed up, the harder I felt it getting to swallow. He ruined my life, my memory, everything who I was before the bullet.  He deserved it right?  “Come on doll face, just do it.” He urged, making me try again only to no avail. I took a step back, my head aching and my eyes beginning to tear up. I couldn’t speak, it all felt so wrong, so... bad. I was so tired of chasing but so tired of the blood constantly on my hands.  “Jenna...” I turned to Boone, a look of concern on his face. “C...craig.” I whimpered back, shame overcoming me as Benny gave a somber exhale. “Can’t even do it. That’s sad pussycat, real sad.” Benny muttered, starting to get up only for Arcade to jump forward and hit him with handle of the gun, causing him to yelp and fall against the ground, a stream of blood coming from his temple. “Stay down or I will put a bullet right between your eyes.” Arcade growled, keys focused on Benny. He gave a cautionary glance at me before speaking. “We can’t play this game forever Jenna. You either have to be the one to do it, or we will. I don’t know how it’s difficult for you since this guy is a major pain but... it needs to be done. It’ll be better for everyone if we just bookend this.” “You can’t just take that away from her. You either let her do it, or let her decide who gets to.” Boone told Arcade

[ashtonfletcherxo]

hey. so, i wanted to reach out and see if you’re in LA or back in London filming Wicked? i still got some stuff at your place and i was hoping i could come pick it up? i could drop off the keys at the same time. or if you would prefer, i could get it while you’re not there and just leave the keys behind. i know we haven’t talked in awhile but i hope you had a wonderful Christmas and a fun new year. | @aricnasgrande​

[ashtonfletcherxo]

this is honestly a brilliant timing for this question. i grew up with dogs but since i’ve been on the road so much, i’ve never had one as an adult. or any kind of pet, tbh. i wouldn’t call myself an expert but i’ve followed a few local animal shelters for awhile and how can you not wanna bring one or thirty home, when you see them like that?? i love beagles, our family still has one but gotta say, i’m super drawn to sausage dogs. they’re just cute as hell and full of personality. do your kids have fave breeds? 

So, I'm thinking of getting a dog, now that my career has slowed down a little. But I have no idea what breed to get, it needs to be one that's good with kids. Any suggestions? Maybe it doesn't have to be a dog, do you have any pets?

[ashtonfletcherxo]

i started daisy jones last night and i couldn’t stop watching. god, i’m so proud of you, sweet face. doing big things, conquering the world and still being the loveliest person i know. when can i drag you off to vegas or anywhere for a little adventure time? it’s been so long since we’ve done anything crazy wild together. miss you, congratulations, it’s your moment. 🖤 / @cmilamorrone​​

[ashtonfletcherxo]

hey, i wanted to say thanks for asking me to hang with the dogs the other day. i missed them and it was blast getting to see them again. so, if you ever need a dogsitter again and i happen to be in town, i’m your man. how’s london? filming going okay? / @aricnasgrande​

[ashtonfletcherxo]

i’ve been catching up with stranger things lately on my holiday break and i’m just absolutely obsessed with the 80′s aesthetic. the big hair, the acid-washed denim and the music, good stuff. do you ever get to keep any of nancy’s outfits or accessories, or do they make you return everything? because you look really good in them, you’re a proper trendsetter. when are you heading back to film season five? / @gonedyer​

[ashtonfletcherxo]

hey, so i know we were talking about doing something soon and i just wanted to ask if you have tons of plans after easter? one of my friends rented and paid for a stay in a glass lodge in iceland, but he’s unable to make it, so he suggested i take his booking. wanna spend two days in reykjavik in a cabin, where you can see the northern lights? i know you’re busy, so i totally get it if you can’t but i thought i’d ask. uh, the cabin has two bedrooms too, so you would have your own space and i promise, i have no ulterior motives like that. / @aricnasgrande​

[ashtonfletcherxo]

i got a weird question for you, did they really spray paint a dress on you in the middle of a fashion show? because that sounds both awesome and absolutely nuts, tbh. how does that even work? don’t mind me being curious as hell, since the concept feels very out there lmaooo. probably shows how little i actually know about the fashion world, tbh. / @bellzgone​

[ashtonfletcherxo]

aubsplazs·:

Let’s cut to the chase: do you brush your teeth in the shower or were you half asleep during Sesame Street and gave zero fucks about Frank the Fish and the environment? I’m Aubrey Plaza and I’m here to remind you to never let the water run. I’m a blast at parties. @gonehollywoodstarters

as an aussie who’s never seen sesame street, my excuse for brushing in the shower is getting two things done at the same time and possibly giving myself five more minutes to scroll through tiktok. everyone wins, including the environment. hello aubrey, i’m ashton and i’m obsessed with parks & rec and being fun at parties is overrated in my opinion. 

[ashtonfletcherxo]

since i got sober a few years ago and i don’t drink anymore, can i vote option three and say weed? because that kicks butt and it’s always my choice vice to use for relaxation.

Serious question--wine or bourbon? Yes this is important and yes our friendship depends on it. @gonehollywoodstarters

[ashtonfletcherxo]

gonedobrev·:

damn, now i feel awful for mentioning it when you’re trying to stay away from it. of course! everyone has their own vices, and if that’s what helps you relax, by all means, use it! and can i just say congrats on getting sober? that’s not an easy feat to accomplish, so i applaud you endlessly.

aw, you don’t need to feel bad about it at all. i’m in a really good place with it, and i’m not bothered by other people enjoying themselves. i never wanna make people feel like they need to walk on eggshells around me. i have family history with alcoholism and it was just a cycle that needed to be broken. oh and happy belated birthday lovely. did you have a good one? how did you celebrate?