#{{ either his vamp verse or angel verse i guess }}

[amanandgoodatit]

“Nothing’s changed, I’m still me-!”

[vampire-in-a-trench-coat]

Q: How are Game of Survival and A Drop in the Ocean doing?

Chapter 9 of Game of Survival is currently at 3.7k words, and it’s still at the very early stages of drafting/writing, but I’ve got the entire thing outlined and planned out already. It’s a very exciting chapter—and it has a pretty good amount of angst in it as well. Also, I’ve got two scenes written in advance for chapter 10, which is nice. I’m very excited about the next few chapters, especially chapter 12. It’s an important one. 😉

Also, I had this little breakthrough last week about one of the storylines for Game of Survival that I’d been wrestling with for a few of months now, and I finally figured out how to make something work, so that was super nice. :)

Chapter 30 of A Drop in the Ocean is currently at 4.3k words, so it’s also at the very early stages of drafting/writing, but it’s also entirely planned out and outlined. We’re getting pretty close to getting the Mark of Cain off of Dean, so that’s pretty exciting. 😊

Right now I’m trying to figure out whether or not I’m gonna write seasons 14 and 15 into the story. I’ve already outlined everything that I’ll either keep in the story or cut out of it from seasons 11-13, but I need to decide whether or not I’ll make Chuck go full psycho, before I get too far into season 11, because that’ll change things. The way they did it in canon (with Jack being the catalyst to Chuck snapping) won’t work for me, so I’m still not sure if I’m gonna go down that route or not. I have a possible solution for that, but... well, I haven’t decided if I really want to take that leap yet.

Honestly, though, I haven’t written much for either of those stories over the past couple of weeks, because I’ve been trying to finish writing the next chapter of Coming Home. I’m hoping to finish drafting that one sometime this week, so that I can start editing it over the weekend, and then I can focus on drafting the next chapters of my other stories.

But I’ve got the next chapters for those two entirely planned out in detail, so it shouldn’t take too long to write them! Also, out of those two, my guess right now is that Game of Survival will probably get updated first, then A Drop in the Ocean will be next.

Q: Will the baby have wings in A Drop in the Ocean?

Yes! The baby will have a pair of adorable, fluffy little wings. 😍 I just haven’t decided what color their feathers will be yet, though.

Q: What’s a WIP?

A Work In Progress! Meaning—the multi-chapter fics that I’m working on right now, which at the moment are A Drop in the Ocean, Game of Survival, Coming Home, Love Me Like You Do and When It All Falls Down.

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A Drop in the Ocean (AO3)

Rating: Explicit

Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Chapters: 29/?

Word Count: ~871k words (WIP)

Relevant Tags: Destiel, Canon!verse, Mpreg, Pregnant Dean, Wingfic

Summary:

After a witch hunt gone terribly wrong, Dean calls Castiel in a desperate attempt to save Sam's life, but the angel's help comes with a very high price. With Cas' borrowed Grace burning out faster every day, the Mark of Cain being more active than ever and a bottle of whiskey to top it all, a confession from Castiel sends Dean's entire life spiraling out of control.

Set after 10x10, "The Hunter Games".

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Game of Survival (AO3)

Rating: Explicit

Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Chapters: 8/?

Word Count: ~225k words (WIP)

Relevant Tags: Destiel, Alternate Universe - Supernatural Hunters, No Apocalypse, Creature Castiel, Creature Dean Winchester, Vampires, Werewolves, Hybrids

Summary:

For years, life was simple. Saving people, hunting things—the family business. It wasn’t as easy as it sounded, of course, but it wasn’t complicated, either. Monsters killed people, and Dean killed monsters—simple as that.

Only one day, that changed. All it took was one second, just a fleeting moment of distraction during a hunt, for Dean to lose everything he’d ever had, for him to become a cursed creature like the ones he’d spent so many years of his life trying to rid this world of.

But perhaps that’s not such a bad thing, after all.

~Vamps ♥️

[sole-cuore-amore-e-droga]

Tel Aviv 2019: Straight outta Montenegro to Eurovision with 6 young souls

(this is a pre-vamp review so take this whole thing as “something I wanted to publish but my schedule was withholding until it was specifically time for them to be reviewed”, therefore, this is a bit of a retrospective review. Will tackle on its revamp later!)

Montevizija, which finally has an official Twitter account (we all should forget the times some dude named Vasilije pretended to having made one), offered us another batch of 5 songs for another year, actually revealing all of them beforehand this time and not just the snippets! Joy to the world I guess.

You gotta love Montevizija for it being the most underrated ex-Yugoslavian national final btw. Granted, it only lasted for 2 editions as of now, and it will take years to grow bigger as a thing, but so far, for us the NFs that are ingrained to our brains more are Dora, EMA and Beovizija (and even Skopje Fest when THAT was used to pick an act and not just served as a festival like it originally was meant to be), therefore Montevizija seems more shunned. But what do you expect when the lineup of 5 for two years in a row is not exactly as stellar as hoped for? Well, there are gems here and there, but they haven’t really won on either years (or at least not on the 2nd year if you call Vanja’s song a gem too), and yet somehow they find someone who call them great. But for me this Montenegrin entry is not. :L

And who is up there to be colossally blamed for its existence? None other than this group of 6 refering to themselves as D mol (with “mol” decapitalized for whatever reason... they used to have hyphen separating the ‘D’ and ‘mol’, but now they scrapped it altogether, an anime death I’ll never forget). Worth noting that I, as a 19 year old, have this particularly ugly feeling I must get rid of, and that’s the one of “feeling old”, already at my age. And this is how I felt seeing that the band whose song I am not fond of today is made up by members that are of 16-17 to 21-ish years old!!! So my heart insists that I shouldn’t go too hard on these poor younglings, even if this is just me, currently tackling the brethren of my age. Prepare as I’ll go to shred their composition they’re going to Tel Aviv with, “Heaven”, to bits.

Although, what I call “shredding to bits” is merely just nitpicking the reasons the original version (keep bearing in mind that I haven’t heard the revamp yet) sucks imo, and idk, the new “Heaven” miiiiiiight just grow on me, but I heavily doubt about it because I never cared for it in the first place (youhouuu, they were my last in Montevizija ‘19 for a reason), and I’m rather looking forward for the new faves from the 8 songs I haven’t listened to yet rather than those that were already chosen. And even the Eurofans were not quite fond on the revamp, as some think the additional ethno sounds made it sound worse (and of course there are some that kinda like it or think of the song as their guilty pleasure). So why shouldn’t I? :O

Anyway, old “Heaven”. The first sounds on here to grace my ears on this song consist of one light piano note being tapped to an exact rhythm and a confused baby girl stuttering. And I’d’ve maybe enjoyed this more ironically at some point if it weren’t for the latter sound effect being re(ab)used later in the song!! Ugh I hate it. The lyrics are fine I guess... though isn’t it ironic the only English song in Montevizija’s lineup this year won?? It’s like the Montenegrin people were openly cringing when being the only ones to understand Vanja comparing his life to cat’s and mouse’s and calling his heart “the most expensive toy” in his song and then they were like “you know what? Let’s let the WHOLE Europe understand how terrible our lyrics are! ^_^” (no but for real, who still uses “I’m in heaven, falling straight into your heart” as a pick-up line? Did they travel through time from 1998 to 2019 or something???)

Speaking of the 90s, the whole song smells like a dated cliché of that period. You know, the kind of “the high school prom song from that 90s teen sitcom’s who you’re forced to watch when your elderly aunt is in the house with you and there’s nothing else on TV” dated. Dated even more than “Chain of Lights”. Seriously though! It includes the pathetic “wah wah” bassline, mid-tempo beats, the boy/girl-group harmonies... catch me puking sugar-coated cheese to this, no thanks. Oh and if you already read my “Zero Gravity” review (which you probably never even bothered to after seeing how much text would you have to read), I definitely mentioned that I’m not a fan of those “two verses-two choruses” songs, and especially those kind of ones that aren’t sounding like something suited for radio (e.g.: Poland 2018, “Light Me Up”)... this obviously sounds like something from the radio of the times the at-the-time senior highschoolers are currently over 30 or slightly over 40, and that should be 4 and a half minutes long. These verses could just not be more ridiculously dragged out for the choruses to prevail and get stuck in our brains... fucking welp [sic] me already.

Well, if there are any brownie points I could give this, it’s pleasant, it’s harmless if I don’t take into account the cheese vibes this emits, and all this bunch are made up by up-and-coming talented singers that clearly deserved a better song...

And the staging concept in their NF was cool tho (illustrating their power of D mol), and I applaud the couple chemistry I guess

Oh and this below is one of the most underappreciated memes this Euroseason:

*stares into your soul in Montenegrin*

So yeah. Oh and the Rizo(tto) guy who is self-aware of his hotness and the hotness of the much older Eurovision guys this year, but he’s not doing it for me so that I could be in heaven falling, so he’s getting a hard pass.

All in all - a nostalgia cash-in made to appease the housewives from Podgorica to Skopje, from Novi Sad to Štúrovo, and nothing quite else, sung by a cool bunch of people that if anything are deemed this year’s "great people with an unfortunately too dated song and a shitty draw” by me. I don’t know much of their personalities but I do believe that even if they like what they’re singing, they’d be much better off doing a better sounding throwback, at least. So that even the disappointed-by-”Heaven” Eurofans could at least call it “so dated but a BOP!”. And hey, I’m aware of those fans that will likely be pissed at me for not bopping along to this, but I said what I said about it and yet again, if revamp changes my mind, I will change my opinion, but right now I’d not prefer to. Grumpy Adio.

Approval factor: Hell with the no. I would like Vanja back instead. At least he made himself a somebody to be cared about even if the Eurofans didn’t quite adapt to his song in return.

Follow-up factor: somehow, both “Inje” and “Heaven” were/are seen by the masses as instant NQs, so it somehow doesn’t sound like Montenegro is following a great path so far. And after this year anything that audience favours and wins can be seen as a way better follow up after something meh coming after something wrose.

Qualification factor: For the n-th time, I’m yet to check the revamp out to state where this will actually go, but being put 2nd in the draw is a massive stab in the knee, as demonstrated by even the national finals this year (Electric Fields in Australia Decides, Aly Ryan in Unser Lied für Israel, Lisa Ajax in Melodifestivalen final... the only glaring exception is ZENA in Eurofest but is it me or these producers did this just so they could be all like “heeeey we put a winning song on 2nd just to show that a NF song can win from ANY draw! ANY DRAW!!!” lol nope), and from it only a few lucky souls have crawled out victorious (Nathan Trent for example, the draw might have pushed him down in the semi but he got up again!). D mol, for as young and developing in talent as they are, don’t seem to be such. You can be young and pitied for your personality, but you always can at the same time have a song that completely crushes your chances to do well and sweeps up the last shards of hope right in front of your eyes despite being an angel worthy of protection (Ari Ólafsson, anyone?). Unless the D molians work all their magic and the random ethnic vibes into their favour for some reason, but for now it ain’t gonna work.

NATIONAL FINAL BONUS

And even then, what was so interesting about Montevizija 2019?? Let’s see...

• First off, let’s address one meme of the beginning of 2019 that Facebook may or may have not used purposefully to upgrade their automatic “facial recognition” skills - the 10 years challenge. Our first one of this season is the sassy maneater who spent her ESC stint by trying to unlove a guy so hard that he just couldn’t oblige - Andrea Demirović. Her decade-later A-game happened to be this one song she sang in her mother-tongue: “Ja sam ti san” (I am your dream). Now, I wasn’t particularly into it - I enjoy some electro tracks out there (like hello, “Igranka” is one of my favourite Montenegrin entries, and 2013 entries overall as well) but this one just ended up being the right amount of cool AND overbearingly unsettling for me to not really fancy it. Kinda like “Red” by HyunA - I can only bop to this if I don’t care about the fact I actually hate it, oops. (Or maybe it is just because Andrea once again used a composition done by one of those “rent-a-NF-songwriter” people. Which is at least better than collabing Ralph Siegel who’s stopped being relevant ever since starting to work with San Marino, or even since the hilarious attempt of a peace song sung by the original common framework, six4One. But since Michael James Down has co-contributed to one of the better Montevizija songs last year, I will not allow myself to think it’s thanks to those kind of songwriters.) Nevertheless, the Eurofans actualy kind of loved this song, but sadly, Montenegrins and the international jury did quite not, and she didn’t land on to the superfinal 2 (as opposed to a superfinal 3 last year, to which she could have easily qualified if it still were a 3). Here’s her song to y’all anyways (and the performance too, which just needed to include some random monster dudes dancing around... why? Because Eurovision! ^^):

• Speaking of Andrea, during the results part there was this one shot of hers where she was pictured just casually chilling on her phone, not giving a damn that she’s being underrated on the scoreboard. Not only she was badly rated, but this moment was such an universal #mood!

• In between the finally final results announcement (which I didn’t really know when exactly was it taking place because the winner wasn’t really said out loud before the event I will describe next was taking place??) there was this lottery going on of who would be the lucky two audience observers that’d win tickets to Tel Aviv... hilariously enough though, it somehow malfunctioned and there were some sort of errors regarding the announcement of the RIGHT winner <3 but the winners happened and I hope they’re getting to go to Tel Aviv at some point during the Eurovision events! Hope they don’t feel startled by the lack of taken seats this year.

• Unlike Eesti Laul, Montevizija this year took up the job of showcasing tweets of Eurofans, and somehow this fellow fella ended up seen by a handful of Montenegrins AND international viewers. Take a wild guess which of them know what a daddy Serhat is.

• And who could not forget the magic flying envelope for to announce the winner of the NF:

there must have been some Harry Potter magic in there :O

As for what touches the other songs, well there’s the last year’s fan fave Nina Petković with another song, but it’s no “Dišem”, so don’t even bother. Or bother, but imo it’s just okay-sounding, nothing that groundbreaking or pleasant enough to be competitive. The other few songs were also nice but I’d like not to make this longer as my other write-ups, to be fair. Sucked to be Mr. Kállay-Saunders who, as the international juror chosen for this national final, had to rank its songs... as that NF happened right on the same day his second A Dal 2019 performance was taking off. Not that the international jurors were supposed to be present in Montenegro on the day of this NF, anyways...

Anyway, despite all this goddamn criticism (that could’ve flown more smooth had my computer not restarted in the middle of me doing paragraphs for this review), I’m fare welling the D mol-ians and would like to wish them a heavenly Eurovision experience. ^_^

[vampire-in-a-trench-coat]

Fanfiction Update

Chapter 27 of A Drop in the Ocean is currently 22.8k words long, and it's in the last few stages of editing. My guess is that this one will end up around 30k words, and I'm hoping to post it very soon! ;D

Next, I'll be posting chapter 3 of Game of Survival, which is currently 15.7k words long. I'm still writing it, though, and there's still a lot to be added to it, so that word count should rise considerably still.

And after that, I'll finally post chapter 5 of When It All Falls Down. I had a few problems with this chapter, and I had to change basically everything in it about three times, but I'm finally happy with the plan I have for this one now. I started writing it again last week, from scratch, and the current word count is 5.8k

About my fics:

A Drop in the Ocean (~740k words, WIP)

Rating: Explicit

Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Chapters: 26/?

Relevant Tags: Destiel, Canon!verse, Mpreg, Pregnant Dean, Wingfic

Summary:

After a witch hunt gone terribly wrong, Dean calls Castiel in a desperate attempt to save Sam's life, but the angel's help comes with a very high price. With Cas' borrowed Grace burning out faster every day, the Mark of Cain being more active than ever and a bottle of whiskey to top it all, a confession from Castiel sends Dean's entire life spiraling out of control.

Set after 10x10, "The Hunter Games".

Chapter 1 | Chapter 26

Game of Survival (~46.6k words, WIP)

Rating: Explicit

Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Chapters: 2/?

Relevant Tags: Destiel, Alternate Universe - Supernatural Hunters, No Apocalypse, Creature Castiel, Creature Dean Winchester

Summary:

For years, life was simple. Saving people, hunting things—the family business. It wasn’t as easy as it sounded, of course, but it wasn’t complicated, either. Monsters killed people, and Dean killed monsters—simple as that.

Only one day, that changed. All it took was one second, just a fleeting moment of distraction during a hunt, for Dean to lose everything he’d ever had, for him to become a cursed creature like the ones he’d spent so many years of his life trying to rid this world of.

But perhaps that’s not such a bad thing, after all.

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2

When It All Falls Down (~80.9k words, WIP)

Rating: Explicit

Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Chapters: 4/?

Relevant Tags: Destiel, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Supernatural Elements, Parent Dean Winchester, Ghost Castiel, Slow Burn, Angst with a Happy Ending

Summary:

Dean Winchester is unhappy. Nothing in his life has turned out quite right up until now. It all started way back in his childhood, when his parents got divorced, and from then on nothing he's ever done has gone according to plan. He didn't go to college. He still has the same job he's had since he was 14 at his pseudo-stepfather's garage. He's not even thirty yet and he's already divorced with a son he only sees on the weekends, and now his ex-wife is getting married again.

Oh, and his apartment might be haunted.

Chapter 1 | Chapter 4

~Vamps ♥️