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[lielove]

guy who's going to sparingly write nsfw here now w/ a headcanon --

AI AND HER RELATIONSHIP WITH ROMANTACISM AND SEXUALITY ;

because it's so hard for her to feel romantic attraction, she's got heightened sexual attraction.

as mentioned in a previous headcanon, ai hasn't had any positive forms of affection shown her way... at all, really. and she LIKES the positive affirmations that come with physical affection.

given the innate intimacy that comes with... sex and being with another person, she feels those feelings very intensely. ai was extremely touch starved, so after experiencing those feelings once... she realized how much she liked those feelings, how she wanted to experience them again.

she can't say i love you and mean it, but she CAN make someone feel as good as they make her feel, may it be through sexual intimacy or... general romantic things like kissing.

to continue with this thought --- when she's intimate with someone is probably when she's MOST HONEST. she can't fake what she hasn't ( or has sparingly ) experienced ( and knows she enjoys the feeling of ). she can lie with her mouth, but her body can't lie.

she feels the feelings she's feeling with another person for a reason, she wants to touch them in the way she does for a reason. she can fake moaning an orgasm, but if she's quivering under someone from how they're making her feel.... well, those feelings aren't lies.

and it's something that ai is aware of for any verses that go past the canon / canon au verse since she's... experienced these feelings once before. so naturally... she's not going to be laying in bed with just anyone. allowing herself to be vulnerable like that is... obviously not easy for her.

ty for coming to my ted talk i hope this doesn't sound like jumbled garbo.