#{ i swear i did one of these recently and idfk which one }

[lifenconcepts]

🎱 ⇢ post your AO3 total stats  No it’s rather pathetic and by that I mean abandoned

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction? Need more angst

🌵 ⇢ share the link to a playlist you loveFUCKKK I CANT! It’s a physical copy cuz I download music

🕯️ ⇢ on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that? 10 because I don’t do it.

🛼 ⇢ describe your latest wip with five emojis!!!!!!!!!! 🏚️🚪🧪🧿🛠️

🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help? Uhhhmmmmm @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph :)

🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love THE MAN DOWNSTAIRS I won’t link it BUT OG MY GODH THE gravity falls fandom can go wild.

💌 ⇢ how many unread emails do you have right now?  About 2 :) not counting my other email which has 4,000.

🌻 ⇢ tag someone you appreciate but don't talk to on a regular basis @primalshane I need your existence in every waking second of the day.

🐇 ⇢ do you prefer writing original characters, reader inserts, or a mix of both?  All of the above and more!!!! 🧃 ⇢ share some personal lore you never posted about before. about.. me? Or characters?? Oh fuck it have both- I write in my journal a lot of I/Me/My but on character ai strictly he/they/the man/it (shut up I know A.I. sucks but I can’t help myself.

🎲 ⇢ what stops you from writing more in your free time? The voices /hj

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings. Sherlock secretly is touch starved and John was very gently reintroduced touch into his main diet and constantly seeks out to occasional give pats or hugs of encouragement and Sherlock just internally freaks out but has gotten used to it.

🧸 ⇢ what's the fastest way to become your mutual? Compliment me and give me attention. Litterally you don’t understand how wild I go for this 🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now. I’m maturing at a good rate and pace, my future seems clear, I’m content with now.

📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app? uhhh let me check:

I slept so damn nice on the 10th and even tho I only got 4 hours, my dreams were so colourful (metaphorically) and intriguing!!

The amount of nutrients will affect the growth of things. Spores are the way mushrooms reproduce.

🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character. John Watson isnt soft but docile.

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project? Guns :) and I’d say this ain’t weird but I don’t think the fbi agent likes me opening 20 tabs of gun info. Didn’t even get to use any of the shit I learnt. 🦷 ⇢ share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on. THE KISS OF THE DIVINE WILL ALLOW YOUNTO CREATE POETRY UNLIKE NO OTHER AND YOUR HAND WILL NOT BE YOURS BUT THE WORDS WILL BE! Or do you mean in general oh god I presumed you meant writing.

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best? IDFK MAN IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR YEARS ☹️☹️☹️☹️ 🌿 ⇢ give some advice on writer's block and low creativity 🙂 KILL YO- ahem. Just don’t write. Simple as. you have high expectations but that gets you nowhere, allow yourself to relax.

🥐 ⇢ name one internet reference that will always make you laugh. I guess we doing —— now.

🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work? A psychoanalysis of how I wrote it.

🍦 ⇢ name three good things about a character you hate. Idk man. No one comes to mind.

🥝 ⇢ do you lie a lot? what's the most recent lie you told? That I would kms, but in reality it’s just the only way to express the depth that I am pained by in a way that properly reflects other people’s kindness idfk

🦋 ⇢ share something that has been on your heart and mind lately. Fuck oh duck oh fuxk oh duxk oh fuck!!!! Uh umh hnh uhhhhhm I really wanna experience more mortal pains, both psychological and also temperature wise and also blood.

🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing?  SHERLOCK HOLMEs, ILY ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE!!!!!

🍅 ⇢ give yourself some constructive criticism on your own writing. Fuckkk uhhh.. I’m perfect ! Okay but maybe take into consideration how much I ACTUSLLY stay on topic, which is nice for stories if I stray but in reality a bit annoying to read.

🐚 ⇢ do you like or dislike surprises? Depends on the execution.

🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here. later

☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username? well my ao3 I went by something like LifeNdeath “life and death” and then changed to LifeNreality and now I just have a habit of making usernames start with LifeN and just whatever the site is for, so here, I am a concept :)

🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them. Fuckkk idk man uhhhhh @primalshane best creature on earth that I deeply care about and wish for goodness to seek them out yipppeee.

🌸 ⇢ do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them. I do!

I love to bully him

🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it. Too many answers for this so I got no answer for this.

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately? Any sort of kink or fetish although I’ll turn a blind eye if it’s blood/knives/sadism/masochism.

Writers Truth & Dare Ask Game

🎱 ⇢ post your AO3 total stats  🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?  🌵 ⇢ share the link to a playlist you love 🕯️ ⇢ on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that? 🛼 ⇢ describe your latest wip with five emojis 🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help? 🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love 💌 ⇢ how many unread emails do you have right now?  🌻 ⇢ tag someone you appreciate but don't talk to on a regular basis 🐇 ⇢ do you prefer writing original characters, reader inserts, or a mix of both?  🧃 ⇢ share some personal lore you never posted about before 🎲 ⇢ what stops you from writing more in your free time?  🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings 🧸 ⇢ what's the fastest way to become your mutual? 🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now 📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app?  🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character 🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project? 🦷 ⇢ share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on ❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best? 🌿 ⇢ give some advice on writer's block and low creativity 🥐 ⇢ name one internet reference that will always make you laugh  🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work? 🍦 ⇢ name three good things about a character you hate 🥝 ⇢ do you lie a lot? what's the most recent lie you told? 🦋 ⇢ share something that has been on your heart and mind lately  🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing?  🍅 ⇢ give yourself some constructive criticism on your own writing 🐚 ⇢ do you like or dislike surprises? 🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here ☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username? 🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them 🌸 ⇢ do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them 🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it 🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

[auxcourant]

𝗔𝗡𝗦𝗪𝗘𝗥  𝟭𝟬  𝗤𝗨𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦  &  𝗔𝗗𝗗  𝟭𝟬  𝗕𝗟𝗢𝗚𝗦  𝗬𝗢𝗨  𝗪𝗔𝗡𝗡𝗔  𝗞𝗡𝗢𝗪  𝗕𝗘𝗧𝗧𝗘𝗥 .

NICKNAME : kota, captain dakota boobie butthead, banana, waffle, chunk, kiwi. STAR  SIGN :  gemini :) HEIGHT  :    5′5″ FAVOURITE  MUSIC  ARTIST :   i don’t wanna say i have a favorite because i tend to only listen to no more than 10 songs from an artist, but the only two people that i have multiple albums of are Demi Lovato and Idina Menzel. LAST  TV  SHOW  YOU  WATCHED :   spartacus lmao WHAT  KIND  OF  STUFF  DO  YOU  POST :    memes & rp stuff DO  YOU  HAVE  ANY  OTHER  BLOGS :   dunkindanvers & obsidianxo, which has a bunch of sideblogs off of it that i’m too lazy to list ;) WHY  DID  YOU  CHOOSE  YOUR  URL :  it means “of current” in french and i thought it sounded nifty HOGWARTS  HOUSE : slytherin through & through POKEMON  TEAM :    i can’t remember the name but it’s the red team, always the red team FAVOURITE  COLOUR :    lime green HOW  MANY  BLANKETS  DO  YOU  SLEEP  WITH :   in the summer, just one (if it doesn’t get kicked onto the floor in my sleep) over me. in the winter, typically my comforter & electric blanket. i’ve got my captain marvel fleece blanket for snuggles and Karat Danvers in the corner of my bed to protect me from all the bad things in life

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[obislittleone]

None Other Than You (Tadashi Hamada x Reader)

Sup whores... i wrote something... enjoy, or don't idrc i wrote it for me.

Series Summary: When tragedy strikes, and nothing can be done to stop it from happening, you often feel powerless entirely, however when it comes to picking up the pieces, you're able to have a say in the way things go.

Chapter warnings: mentions of death, fire, concealment of self harm, angst... whoof

Word count: a lot idfk

Rating: T

• Part 1/?

I'm not tired, I haven't been all day. I only pretend to be near sleep as I lay rested on the bed of the younger Hamada. The reason for this? Tadashi laid sprawled out on his own bed, directly in my line of sight. I didn't want him to catch drift of my constant staring, so I clutched a pillow, holding it close and nearly covering my face to block myself from his gaze.

It wasn't out of the ordinary for me to fall asleep while visiting the two brothers, neither was it out of the ordinary for me to sneak gazes at the older of the pair, although if I had been caught doing the latter, it would put a bit of a damper on the current relationship I possessed with Tadashi.

He and I met at SFIT, although he worked in robotics, and I was more into electronic projection - specifically hologram tech-, we had gotten along fairly well. The day I first met him, he had his arm slung around a pretty blonde girl. They looked as though they were an item, but later on I learned they were just friends, which is why I still told myself to look at him in that capacity when he would do the same with me, simply draping a lazy arm over my shoulder as we would walk from place to place.

I met Hiro not too much later, maybe a few months at most. It was the night that Tadashi and I had nearly stayed up all night in the nerd lab to try and help each other with our projects. We were definitely burning the midnight oil by the time we even made a dent in our work. With Tadashi passed out face down on his desk, his San Fransokyo Ninjas hat barely hanging off his head, and me barely able to keep my eyes open while sat on the bean bag chair in the corner of the room, we didn't have a single thought about finishing an ounce more of work for the night. When we both finally awoke the next morning, we decided we could cram all the rest of the work into the morning if we were able to get enough caffeine pumped into our systems.

He insisted he knew a place with an unlimited supply of free coffee, and obviously I wasn't going to turn that offer down. He took me to visit his aunt's café, and that same morning I met Hiro, who to this day swears he's a closer friend to me than Tadashi.

Still hugging Hiro's pillow close to my face, the hour started to pass, and it was getting late. I broke myself out of my trance as I realized what the time must be.

I sprung up from the bed and glanced at the clock, reading the time of 10:08 PM.

"Geeze it's late, I should probably head home so I'm not dying of exhaustion tomorrow." I alerted the two of my leaving, but neither of them actually intended to let me leave.

"You can't walk home this late, it's not safe." Tadashi peered at me from behind his book, giving me a look I unfortunately knew too well in this case.

"I did it last week..."

"I wasn't there to stop it last week." He argued.

Tadashi was nothing if not a gentleman. He was kind and gentle to nearly everyone who crossed his path, and also somewhat protective over the ones in his life that were closer to him. I hadn't realized I fell into that category until recently, but I found it rather endearing, and sweet.

"Hiro, go get the pillow for the pull out." Tadashi said, his gaze falling back to his book while I stood there with a big huff of my shoulders.

"Why can't you do it? Clearly I'm more busy than you." Hiro sassed back to his brother, spinning his chair back around to the desk once more to finish some embellishing last touches to the neural transmitter.

"Dashi, I can walk home, I'll be fine." I tried to reason with the boy, nearly making it out of the room before he stopped me.

"Fine, I'll get the pillow for the pull out." He pulled me back into the room before going out into the hallway and opening one of the cabinets there. I heaved a breath and turned to face Hiro's back as he tirelessly worked away on his invention.

"Why's he always so stubborn?" I furrowed my eyebrows together, knowing that Tadashi was going out of his own way to make sure I wouldn't have to leave. I was probably bothering Hiro too. He needed the focus and concentration for his big day tomorrow.

"Your guess is as good as mine." He replied, squinting at the microscopic wires he just twisted into place.

Tadashi came back a moment after, holding with him the pillow that was designated specifically for me when I spent the night. He tossed it at me before walking over to his bed and kneeling down, pulling out the bed beneath it. He made sure the sheets were in place, then turned to me and held his hands up like he was ready to catch. I threw the pillow in his direction and he set it nicely at the top of the bed.

"Lemme get you something to change into..." he trailed off, turning to his drawer and digging through it quickly.

I went ahead and kicked my shoes off into the corner with the rest, and collected the clothes from Tadashi. One look at what he'd given me and I got a bit nervous.

"Got anything long sleeved?" I asked quietly, sure not to distract Hiro from his work again.

"Um.. yeah lemme check." He seemed confused about it for only a split second, but then continued to dig through his top drawer until he found something suitable to my request. "This might be a little big on you.."

"It's fine, big clothes are comfier anyway." I tried to laugh it off, but really the way he'd held the shirt up in front of me to compare it to my size was endearing. I swore I could see a smile on the edge of his lips for the thought of me wearing his shirt, but I shook it off, knowing that my brain was more susceptible to nonexistent happenings due to my state of yearning.

I took the long sleeve baseball tee, along with the basketball shorts, and headed to the bathroom down the hall. When I returned, clad in a much more comfortable attire, I was able to see Tadashi take a small glance my way. An unmistakable smirk appeared on his lips, one I didn't soon miss. I knew I had seen that one, and not imagined it.

I dropped my other clothes on the ground by my backpack, walking over and plopping myself down on the bed by Tadashi's.

He wasn't focused on me at this point, and had yet again returned to his book, so I took the time to pull the sleeves of the shirt just a bit farther down my arms, making sure everything down to my wrist was covered.

It wasn't that I didn't trust Tadashi to see the pink lines that littered my forearms, and it wasn't the fact that I was too ashamed of them either. The main reason I usually kept that side of me from people I got close with was plain and simple. I didn't like the attention it got me. Good or bad, attention is attention, and for a reason like that I would just rather it not be given.

"Hey Hiro, she look's like she's about to pass out... I'm gonna close this now." Tadashi said, beginning to pull the separation shade across his corner of the room. "Don't be up too much later. You might have to finish it tomorrow."

"I'll keep that in mind... Goodnight guys." Hiro mumbled from his side of the room.

"You too little brother." Tadashi finished pulling the shade closed, falling back into his bed and just staying still for a moment.

"Night, Y/n..." he mumbled into his pillow.

"Night, Dashi."

(•-•)(•-•)(•-•)(•-•)(•-•)

Man, why did I have to pick such a complex version of my hologram platform for this presentation? The smaller one was just as effective, the only downside was that it wouldn't project as big of an image in the air. I was struggling to stand up the platform the way it was supposed to be stood, and realizing it was too heavy to lift by myself, I went looking for Wasabi, knowing he was just a few spaces down from me with his lazer tech.

"Hey Sabs," I started, not understanding how silently I had creeped up behind him until he jumped in his place. "Sorry, I thought you heard me coming..."

"It's cool, what's up?" He calmed down, setting one if his tools into it's outline on his organization mat.

"I may or may not be having trouble standing up my platform..." I rocked back and forth on my heels, waiting for him to comply. He turned back towards me and smiled.

"So little miss 'I'm stronger than most people' needs my help lifting something, huh?" He crossed his arms, watching as I slightly rolled my eyes and sighed.

"Yes, now will you help me or not? I need to start working on the reflector soon." I didn't let him drag out any other form of poking fun at me, and he nodded, letting me lead him down to my exhibit square.

"Alright on three..." he and I both grabbed the sides, squatting down to get a better grip. "One, two, three."

As it went up, I felt an instant weight off my shoulders knowing that I was back on schedule for the evening. The student showcase was always an exciting event of the long year, and gave everyone the opportunity to show off all the hard work they put in. For me, it wasn't any less exciting, however, it became rather stressful sometimes, especially when I was falling behind.

Now that Wasabi had helped me to stand up the large platform, I could relax for a minute before beginning the next stage of my system set up.

"Thanks man, I thought it would take me a lot longer to get this up...." I told Wasabi, patting his shoulder as he waved me off.

"No worries. Let me know if you need help again."

"I don't think I will, but thanks again Sabs.." I said as he turned to head back to his own setup.

I got myself everything I would need, laying it out and beginning to piece it together. Someone from the exhibit next to me stole my chair, so I simply looked like a small child sitting on the ground, playing with legos or something. Not legos, but a very high tech, rare piece of technology was being put together as I sat in the corner of the room.

I stood to my feet when I was finished, tilting the object a bit to make sure I left no stone unturned. When I was sure that I had not, I slid the large disk into its place on the side of the platform. Almost instantly, the colorful, realistic looking hologram appeared directly above the projection circle, playing the short 3D video I had prepared ahead of time.

I stepped back for a minute, admiring my hard work, dusting off my hands and crossing my arms. I smirked in satisfaction of how well everything turned out, then reached forward and flipped the switch off, being sure to save energy for the actual showcase.

My phone buzzed in my back pocket, and when I pulled it out, I saw Tadashi's name pop up. I smiled a rosy smile and swiped up to answer the call.

"Hey, what's up?"

"Where are you?" He began, sounding like he was confused. His voice also echoed a little. He was definitely in the same building.

"I'm in the corner by the bathroom." I said with a small chuckle.

"Okay, hold on just one second." He said. I could hear the shuffling of feet through the phone and then the phone disconnected. I soon heard the same shuffle of feet right behind me, but got stopped before I could turn around, a pair of hands covering my eyes childishly.

"Guess who?"

"Hmmm... give me a hint."

"Only the best person you've ever had the pleasure of meeting."

"Hiro?" I peeled his fingers from my face and turned around, my face of excitement falling to a fake frown. "Aw man, it's you."

"Nice to see you too." He laughed, rolling his eyes playfully. He stood beside you, looking at the latest and greatest version of an invention he'd helped you with one too many times. "Looks heavy."

"Wasabi helped me get it up, if that's what you're getting at." I joked, crossing my arms again before raising a question in my curiosity. "What are you doing here anyway, I thought you and Hiro weren't coming till later?"

"We're not. I had to come get my hat, I left it in the lab last night." He replied, as if that was anywhere near true.

"You rode all the way back here for a hat?" I asked suggestively, raising an eyebrow in disbelief.

"Maybe.... and maybe I wanted a preview of upcoming attractions." He nodded towards my hologram platform.

"As much as I would like to make you wait, I suppose just this once I'll bend the rules." I walked over and flipped on the switch. Tadashi came closer to the 3D figure, waving his fingers through it, just to make sure it wasn't real.

"Well, I'm speechless." He spoke, turning his head to me and watching as I smirked in victory.

"Never thought I'd see the day." I joked in return, earning a small elbow against my arm. "So you like it?"

"I love it."

"As you should."

With a few more seconds, I reached out and turned it off again, knowing that he should probably get going.

"Hey, you should go spend time with Hiro, he's probably scared out of his wits." I suggested.

"Yeah. He keeps saying he's not, but he also keeps playing with the zipper on his jacket."

We both turned and began heading for the exit. I figured I would walk him out, maybe catch a glance or two more of his hair, barely sticking out from underneath his baseball cap.

"That bad, huh?"

"That bad..." he stopped when we reached the door, turning to me just a bit and giving me the sweetest smile. He paused for a moment, looking so deep into my eyes that I nearly lost self control. "I'm so proud of you. You know that, right?"

"Thanks, Dashi."

(•-•)(•-•)(•-•)(•-•)(•-•)

I flicked on the inside projector, letting it run while people started to pour inside of the large exhibition building. I smiled as the first batch of curious classmates came towards my station.

Explaining the science behind my invention was always so soothing to me, and despite the fact that other found it intimidating, I thrived on the questions people would ask, giving answers loaded with as much detail as I could muster. Everyone always left my corner of the room well informed, and it was nice to be able to show off my knowledge of everything in this specific field.

I had seemed to be talking for just about forever, when I heard Hiro's voice come over the speakers. My eyes directed towards the stage, seeing the younger Hamada stumble over his words.

I turned off my hologram, running over to the stage and finding Tadashi and aunt Cass, along with the rest of my friends. I tucked my hands into the pockets of my jacket before leaning against Tadashi.

"Just in time." He whispered, trying to stay quiet so that everyone would pay attention to Hiro.

"Is he okay?" I managed to get out softly, keeping my eyes on the stuttering boy on the stage.

"He's okay..."

Hiro looked in the direction of Tadashi and I, and looked like he was about to pee his pants. I offered him a warm smile, and Tadashi mouthed the words 'just breathe' to him before he seemed like he was no longer nervous. He began the presentation with a smile on his face.

"Atta boy, Hiro..." I trailed off.

Hiro's invention caught the eye of almost every single attendant, and participant in the showcase. By the time his speech was over, everyone was cheering and clapping in the audience.

"Mirco Bots!" He finished off, smiling wide from ear to ear. He had done such a good job. My heart swelled with pride for the little Hamada, and so did Tadashi's.

As soon as he made his way off the stage, we all ran to surround him. We all had not even the slightest doubt that he would win the SFIT scholarship, which he rightfully deserved. While I wrapped an arm around him, Tadashi ruffled his hair. The others were also proud of him as they continued to spew off compliments.

"They loved you! That was amazing!" Honey Lemon drabbled on with the rest of them.

"Yes." A strange voice sounded from across the way, and we all turned to see who it belonged to. "With some development, your tech could be revolutionary."

"Alistair Krei..." Hiro let out, immediately recognizing the man for how much of an entertainment presence he was in San Fransokyo.

"May I?" The man held his hand out to Hiro, as if beckoning something to him.

Hiro pulled out a mirco bot from his pocket, allowing Krei to take possession of it.

"Hmm. Extraordinary..." Krei was seemingly rather amazed at what the toung boy had accomplished. "I want your micro bots at Krei Tech."

"Shut up..." Hiro gawked, merely in awe of the fact that the most influential voice of technology in the city wanted what he had.

"Mister Krei is right." Professor Callahan chimed in, waltzing into the conversation. "Your mirco bots are an inspired piece of tech. You can continue to develop them, or you can sell them to a man who's only guided by his own self interest."

"Robert." Krei greeted our professor with a bland tone. "I know how you feel about me, but it should not affect-"

"This is your decision Hiro, but you should know that he has cut corners and ignored sound science to get where he is." Callahan tried to persuade the young Hamada in any way he could.

"That's simply not true." Krei interjected with a suave tone, not even showing an ounce of frustration in the situation.

"I wouldn't trust Krei Tech with your micro bots, or anything else." Callahan said firmly. I knew how he felt about the billionaire Tech seller, and so did all of his other students. Krei had done some pretty shady things, and made some wrong choices with people in the past, and the professor always wanted to try and explain it to us that he shouldn't be trusted. He always wanted what was best for us.

"Hiro, I'm offering you more money than any fourteen year old could ever imagine." Krei began his attempts again, causing me and Tadashi to take a step forward and each place a hand on Hiro's shoulder. It was definitely his decision, but whatever it was we wanted him to know we supported him.

"I appreciate the offer Mr. Krei, but they're not for sale." Hiro decided. I searched his face for hesitation or regret, but there wasn't any.

"I-" Krei tried to gather himself after realizing he didn't get what he wanted. "I thought you were smarter than that.... Robert." He addressed the professor and adjusted his cuff links before beginning to stalk away.

"Mr. Krei?" Tadashi stopped him from walking, making me and Hiro furrow our brows before he spoke. "That's my brother's."

"Oh... right." Krei dug into his pocket, pulling out the micro bot and throwing it in Hiro's direction before leaving for real this time.

Callahan stepped forwards with a smile, handing Hiro a campus brochure and acceptance letter.

"I look forward to seeing you in class." He mused, watching as we all started to freak out as some sort of celebration in Hiro's honor.

We were so excited to be able to have Hiro on campus with us all. I had known him longer than the rest of our friends, but even still, Tadashi and I would always miss him when we were at the school.

We all headed towards the exit, wanting to go somewhere to really celebrate.

"Alright geniuses, let's feed those hungry brains! Back to the café, dinner is on me!" Aunt Cass said, pointing to herself for emphasis.

"Yes! Nothing is better than free food!" Fred chimed, while everyone headed to Wasabi's van for the ride.

Aunt Cass had offered me a ride since I had been dropped off earlier, so I would be going with her and the boys. Or at least I thought I would be. Tadashi tugged me by the hand and pulled me along with him and Hiro.

"Hey Aunt Cass, we'll catch up, okay?" He said, making the woman swarm the two of them with me standing awkwardly by.

"Okay! I'm just so proud of you! Both of you!!" She squealed before letting them go.

Once they'd headed towards the parking lot, the three of us had stalked over to the garden ledge. It was so quiet and peaceful here, and there didn't seem to be another soul present.

Tadashi leaned on the railing, looking over at the laboratory building. The way the moonlight relfected off him was beautiful, and as cliche as it seems, I began to stare yet again. I wanted to pour out everything to him, to tell him about all the sleepless nights I spent thinking about how he would lean hunched over his desk when he was focused on a circuit board, his tongue slightly peeking out of his mouth as he licked his lips before biting them.

I wanted to tell him everything. Tell him how I was entranced with every fiber of his being. That I wanted to wrap my arms around him and never let go, and if I absolutely had to, that it would only be momentarily, and right after I would soon be back in his arms.

Now was not the time. Now was the time to celebrate Hiro. Maybe if I were able to get a moment alone with Tadashi later, then I would muster every word to fully express what I thought I never could.

"I know what you're gonna say. 'I should be proud of myself for finally using my gift for something important'." Hiro joked around in what he thought was the best impression of his older brother.

"Nah, I was gonna tell you your fly was down for the entire show." Tadashi retorted, bringing me out of my trance. I leaned forward on the same railing they were as I chuckled.

"Ha ha. Hilarious..." Hiro trailed off, but then selfconciously looking down to see it was infact true. "What?!?"

The sound of a zipper echoed before Hiro let out a sigh.

"Really? I've given up on Tadashi, but Y/n? I expect more from you..." he shot me a narrowing gaze to which I raised my hands in defense. "You should have told me..."

"By the time I got there you were already on stage." I smiled as I took the moment in. These two made me happy just being in their presence. After the laughter died down, the silence was thick, so Tadashi spoke up.

"Welcome to nerd school....nerd." He leaned into Hiro playfully, seeing as how I was directly next to him, he leaned into me. Like dominos.

"We're really proud of you, Hiro." I placed a gentle hand on his shoulder, trying to convey the meaning of my words more.

"I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you guys... so, thanks for not giving up on me."

It was a sweet moment. It should have lasted. It did not.

The blaring sounds of the emergency sirens echoed behind us, and we ran to the exhibition building as fast as our legs could carry us.

Fire. Everywhere. Leaking out of every window and door of the building. There was still a clear entry point by the front, but it would surely be dangerous to try and get into.

I started to take off towards the side exit, knowing that the fire safety system was right by the door next to my hologram tech station.

"Where are you going?" Hiro asked while Tadashi tried to hold me from leaving.

"I'll be back, I know what to do." I pulled from Tadashi's grip, even though I wish I didn't have to. I started to run down the strip of side walk a little more before I turned back, seeing if people were still coming out. Though no one came out the doors, I saw Tadashi run in. I hoped and prayed he would be okay as I turned the corner, about to commit the same stupidity. I nearly made it to the door, but a giant explosive blast sent me flying backwards and into the brick wall behind me. As soon as my head hit the wall, it all went black.

(A/n: tags are open on this one ladies and gents... also pls like and share if you read it means a lot! Feedback of any kind is welcome too!)

[blindedguilt]

5

What is an aspect of your muse’s canon material or canon existence that you never had the opportunity to explore but really want to?

//Ooooh I think about this a lot,,, SO IM GONNA GO OFF OKAY

//, so if we go based off of ONLY what's seen in the game/novels/etc. It sounds a bit generic but I'd most DEFINITELY wanna explore the whole Ending D thing from when Manah was killed to his ending. Since Leonard can't really see the grotesqueries that'd also be REALLY interesting to write about,,, like he knows they make baby noises, are insanely powerful and feel humanish? and just,,, the team dynamics till his parting. No doubt he'd be keeping an eye on Seere, but like Caim and Arioch???? Would they really even be able to come up with words to say to each other or would it be like a loose every man for himself situation where they're just focused on staying alive and MAYBE sticking together????

//I think ALSO I may have done this???? I don't know, I don't think so but among him meeting Caim/Seere (Since there's not a scene where he specifically meets Arioch, bummer. I'd love to write that too though lmao), I'd also like to write a bit more on how badly he got fucked up post-Leonard's Regret chapter, like,,,, though it's canon status is LOOSELY loosely debatable from a timeline standpoint rewatching it I just get bummed it wasn't touched on more. Because like and I only RECENTLY thought about this, not only is seeing and having to kill children shortly after your brothers were killed fucked up, but also???? LET'S NOT FORGET HOW LEONARD HAD TO HEAR A DYING CHILD THAT SOUNDED JUST LIKE HIS BROTHER GET MURDERED AGAIN. like especially if he doesn't even have his sight to keep him from seeing his brother there like,,, like after hearing the absolutely RAW Japanese reaction where it sounded like he was about to start throwing up and crying? mmmmmmmm so like writing the whole cool down after that where Leonard's reasonably traumatized and probably needs a moment before he can even start thinking about functioning would be good. maybe some stuff gets spilled/confirmed (I don't like how the game did it in either version lmao). maybe he ends up getting ill for a time idfk

//Another thing I'd like to do that's in canon material is write his meeting with caim. I SWEAR they're deadass having another conversation via pact the player can't see because the way his spoken lines skip around is as if they wrote Caim's parts in the conversation and then just cut it out lmao. what were they saying??????

//This is a good fade-in point to go to canon existence which is just,,, yeah general Lenny stuff that happened. I'll just list it off since it's a lot more straightforward

1. Like Caim, his initial meeting with Arioch/Seere. seriously I think there's ONE scene where all the allies are on screen together and they ALL clearly share some kind of dynamic and the fact we never see that again makes me :( I get the player might not have all the characters but uuuuugh

2. I want to write more about him being a normal man and then like,,, his whole process finding out about his paedophilia and his initial denial of it, until it just,,, becomes too apparent and he turns from a relatively chill guy with a nice life ahead of him to like the depressed hermit we all know and love(?) I don't know if I have the guts to go as deep into the whole ordeal as I want, but by god am I willing to try XD I wrote something like this once before I believe but not exactly. It was more the snapping point where he decided he was that much of a threat if he didn't get out

3. I don't know how I'd do this really well outside of drabbles/hdcs, but I'd like to write of his life in the forest before his brother's came along and he was just,,, kinda living day to day. How he got around, the kinds of thoughts he had, did he make lots of animal friends and become a depressed Disney princess? I like to think so lmao

4. I'm still in the process of sorting it out but OFC I'd love to write about his whole DOD2 going's on, like...... my guy we had so much going for us. why are you a dialogue cameo girl come back-

[golbrocklovely]

the chosen daughter // colby brock - chapter one

A/N: READ FIRST!! AHH IT’S FINALLY HERE :) I’m so exicted for yall to read this story. I haven’t written a vampire story in a long time, so hopefully this goes well. That being said, it is similar to the one shot it is based off of, HOWEVER, you need to read this chapter. Things aren’t all the same from the one shot, so please read this otherwise you will be confused. I know it’s long, but that’s because there is a lot of backstory to give first. I’m posting the next chapter tomorrow and then I will be posting once a week. All right, without further ado, here’s The Chosen Daughter ;)

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taglist: @far-to-many-bands , @idfk-tbh-oops

trigger warning: backstory (but necessary), cursing, mentions of blood/fighting, mentions of sexual assault, death

word count: 3260

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Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought vampires would be real. Yet, here we are: 2019. The year of the blood sucker. Everywhere you turn, vampires were to be seen.

I relaxed back against my couch, watching the news while I ate breakfast.

A news anchor appeared on screen, a graphic next to them reading ‘Vamp News’. “Today’s top story involves another vampire killing. Last night, outside of the popular club Bloody, two vampires murdered a young female. Police have not released the name of the victim. Eyewitnesses say that the two vampires in question had been harassing the girl during the night. Police ask that if you know these two vampires, to please call in at the number on your screen and if you see them in public, call the authorities immediately.”

Two blurry images from a surveillance camera came on screen, showing the vampires in question.

“How the fuck is anybody gonna know who those two are?” I mumbled out loud, taking another bite of cereal.

I sighed, changing the channel. I hated hearing vampire killings first thing in the morning.

My whole life, as of recent, revolved around vampires. And I guess, a lot of other peoples did too now.

I stood up and walked to my kitchen, dropping my bowl into the sink. I glanced around my apartment.

Empty… very empty.

I’ve always enjoyed being alone. I’ve been alone my whole life. I was born into foster care, my parents dying right after my birth. The only thing I had left to remind me of them was a crystal necklace that I never took off. After bouncing around from family to family, I never got to settle down. When I turned eighteen, I was able to get away and move to Los Angeles. Now I live here in my own little apartment, working at a vampire bar called Vampiro.

Growing up, I was interested in the supernatural. I always liked the idea of vampires existing.

‘Be careful what you wish for’ was a bit of an understatement for me.

When I was in eighth grade, vampires came out to the public. It was… weird to say the least. At first, people didn’t believe they existed – chalking it up to some strange, elaborate prank. But it became apparent very soon that vampires were real. There was a lot of violence, but it calmed down after a while. A good number of ‘powerful’ vampires (celebrities, politicians… you get the gist) came out with a PSA letting everyone know that vamps were harmless, only wanting to be treated just like humans.

They were tired of hiding and wanted to be out and proud.

It took until now for things to feel normal, almost as if vampires always did exist in our culture. However, there was still animosity towards vamps. Some states, especially in the more ‘religious’ areas, hated vampires. They believed they were demons, dressed in the bodies of humans. But that wasn’t the case. But nonetheless, these states didn’t want them, so they banned almost all vampires. Because of this, other states took this as an opportunity to be the sanctuary for these tossed out vamps.

Enter stage left… California. In particular, Los Angeles.

LA was the hub for all things vampy. It was almost the vampire capital of the world. We had sections, stores, bars just dedicated to vampires and the tourism it brought here.

The bar I worked at, Vampiro, was a non-exclusionary vampire bar. Vampires and humans could mingle as they pleased, and no one minded. However, we weren’t the most popular out of all the clubs and bars. Because of this, our human-to-vampire ratio was a bit slacking.

But Bloody, the most prominent and well-known, catered heavy towards tourists and vacationers who wanted a ‘vampire experience’. It was extremely hard to get into, mostly because it was packed every night.

Another famous club, The Trapp Haus, was a ‘vampire only’ place. One night a month they would have a human and vampire night. Those were the nights our bar had its lowest patrons.

I had never planned to work in a bar that’s mostly filled with vampires. But it was one of the only places that would hire me. Originally, I was hired because I was human, which would attract more vampires. My best friend and coworker Ronnie and I were the only two humans in the whole place. I had planned to only stay at this bar for a bit, get enough money to be alright, and then find a better paying job.

But because of this place, I was able to learn something about myself.

One of the reasons I was never able to stay at a foster home for too long was because I was deemed ‘special’. When I look at vampires, I can see an aura around them. It’s always in a different color, and this color depends on the vampire’s power and how they use it.

Oh yeah… vampires have powers.

Vampires’ powers ranged all over the place: from the scariest (mind control), to the least frightening (super hearing). Depending on how old the vampire was, their power could be extremely strong or barely noticeable. This is why certain states believed vampires were demons. No one knew what powers a vampire had or how strong they were unless they told you. And none of them really ever did.

I was able to tell though.

When a vampire would use their power, an aura appeared around them. Every vampire had a different aura, even if they had the same power as another vampire. Their aura was based off them and how they used their ability.

Because I would see these auras, but didn’t know vampires existed, I thought I was crazy.

And so did my foster parents.

Years later, this all makes sense. But as an extra added bonus to me being able to see these auras is that vampire powers don’t affect me. Vampire powers work on everyone, except vampires. And me.

I’ve never told anyone this. Mostly because I don’t have anyone to tell. But also, because it would be too dangerous for me. I try not to let vampires know, but that can be hard when you work at a bar that vampires frequent at.

I get by… but I feel like that’s gonna change soon.

~ \/ \/ ~

“Jade, you’re late again.” Roger, my boss, berated me.

I groaned. “I’m sorry. I tried getting here early, but traffic getting into the city is crazy. The Trapp Haus must be having human night early.”

“Didn’t you hear?” Roger raised his eyebrows. “They’re changing it to two nights a month.”

“Cool… so I’m gonna be late twice a month.” I smirked.

He sighed. “Why did I hire you?”

“Because her blood smells good… apparently.” Ronnie chimed in, walking behind the bar with a tray of empty glasses.

“Veronica! Did you get to table two yet?” Roger asked.

She shook her head. “I thought Jade could get them.”

“Jade’s mending the bar while I go take a break. Go on now.” Roger stated, waving his hand and heading into the back of the bar.

Ronnie rolled her eyes. “I swear if he wasn’t a vampire, I would fist fight him.”

I laughed. “Even as one, I might still.”

She chuckled, grabbed her notepad, and walked over to table two.

The night slowly became a blur. Hours passed. I bartended while Ronnie waitressed, and when the night began to slow down, three vampires strolled in.

You could tell they were vamps. They had a certain confidence that only immortal beings could have. They were all dressed nicely, a little too nice for a bar. Each had different hair colors; black, brunette, and blonde. Blondie and Brownie went to a table, while the black haired one walked up to the bar.

I wiped down the counter as he called to me. “Yo! Can I get ten shots of jäger? And a pint of blood? B positive?”

“Of course. Since you asked so kindly…” I replied, a tight-lipped smile falling to my face.

I typed in the drinks at the register. Looking up at him, he waved his card at me, smiling with his fangs out. I swiped his card, glancing at his name for a second.

Cyrus Gladstone… interesting.

I handed it back to him with a nod as he went back to his friends.

Grabbing the jäger bottle, I poured out the shots. Going to our mini-fridge, I pulled out a bag of blood and emptied it into a cup. Placing everything on a tray, I glanced around for Ronnie. She was over with another set of patrons, talking and getting orders. I shrugged, picking up the tray and walking over to the vampires.

I set the tray down, sliding all the drinks onto the table. “Ten shots jäger, one pint B positive for Cyrus and co.”

“You know his name? She must have feelings for you.” The blonde haired one joked.

“Right... Anything else I can get you guys?” I questioned, my hands resting on my hips.

“Why don’t you relax, get to know us a little better? My name is Jasper.” Blondie smiled innocently.

“Lovely. Unless you guys need anything, I kinda need to go back to the bar.” I stated.

Blondie lightly grabbed my wrist. “You know, I’m not really into B positive. What blood type are you? You smell like O positive, maybe AB?”

“My blood type is actually super rare. You might have heard of it? It’s F.U.” I deadpanned.

He stood up quickly, gripping my arm tightly as I tried to pull away. “I think you should be a bit nicer to me. I am a paying customer.”

“I’m pretty sure Cyrus is the one that paid. Also, get your hands off me.” I grunted, glaring up at him.

“Why don’t you say that looking into my eyes, sweetheart?” He hissed, pulling me into him, making me stare into his eyes.

The way vampire powers work is first, the vampire must make you look into their eyes. It draws you in, making whatever power they have connect to you immediately.

I could see his pupils dilate and shrink. Suddenly, a deep purple aura appeared around him. It ended at his fingertips, where he was touching me.

In a split second I could tell what he was trying to do to me, an almost vision-like image came to my mind. He was manipulating me, trying to make me feel sexual feelings for him.

“I think you’re feeling apologetic for being a bitch to me. Maybe you want to say sorry to me by giving me just a bit of your blood. And of course, sex.” He whispered. He nodded his head to the rest of the boys at the table. “I think we could all have a turn. Don’t you agree?”

Oh my God, what an absolute douche.

In most situations like these, I would just go along with what the vampire wanted. I didn’t want anyone to know about my powers, but this was too fucking far.

Fuck hiding it.

I smiled, still staring into his eyes. “I... can’t do that for you. Besides, if I say I’m sorry, that would make both of us idiots.” I ripped my arm away from him and took a couple steps back.

His mouth was slightly gaped for a moment. He hid his surprise, immediately glaring at me.

I sneered. “Do anything like that again and I’ll call the cops on you. And let me tell you, they ain’t as nice as me.”

I rolled my eyes and walked back to the bar. I could hear the vamps whispering to each other as I got back to work.

“What was that over there?” Ronnie nudged me as she strolled behind the bar.

I shook my head. “Nothing. Just a couple vamps being dicks to me once again. I think I attract them like a magnet.”

“Sucks to be you.” Ronnie joked.

“That’s not a lie.” I mumbled, starting a new cocktail order.

~ \/ \/ ~

“Night, Ronnie! See ya later!” I yelled, exiting the back door of the bar. Ronnie waved as she walked to her ride, getting in and leaving.

I sauntered towards the employee parking lot, where my car was parked.

A chill ran up my spine. The air wasn’t cold; August in California never reached a temperature below 70. I could feel goosebumps rise all over my skin. I could feel eyes on me.

Suddenly, a gush of wind flew past me. And then another. Another. Another. I looked in every direction hastily.

What the fuck is that?

I ran to my car, keys in hand ready to unlock it. Right as I was opening the car door, it slammed shut, a hand pressing it closed. I was then spun around and pressed against my backseat side door.

“Hello bartender. We meet again.” Blondie smiled, holding me against my car.

“What the fuck do you want?” I snapped, trying to shove his hands off me.

He pushed me harder into the car. I could feel the handle press harder into my lower back, causing me to wince. “I want to know how you did it.”

“Did what? Make such a fine cocktail?” I jeered.

“How did you ignore my power?” He insisted, getting close to my face. “I can make anyone want me with just a single touch. Except you…”

“Guess I’m lucky. What type of asshole has to use his powers to get girls to fuck him? Must be small, huh.” I hissed.

He chuckled darkly. “Saying shit like that really isn’t gonna keep me from getting what I want…”

His hands tightened their hold on my waist. I started punching his chest, trying to shove him away. He just kept grinning down at me, not a single hit phasing him.

“Let her go.”

My movements stopped as Blondie turned around to the deep voice that spoke.

The man stood a few yards back. His body was relaxed, but his face was tense. He was dressed in all black; a fitted tee, ripped jeans, and vans. His hair fell over his forehead and almost covered his eyes. The front of his hair was an icy blue, almost matching his eye color.

He was beautiful.

“Who the fuck are you?” Blondie demanded.

The figure shrugged. “I don’t think that matters. Just let her go and there won’t be any problems.”

Blondie laughed. “Is she your bitch or something?”

“Fuck you.” I fumed.

He turned back to me. The smirk on his face fell. “You know, that is the exact reason why you’re in this predicament.” He opened his mouth and showed his razor-sharp fangs at me. “But you know what? I’ll do one better.”

Blondie grabbed my face, twisting it to the side and slammed his fangs into my neck. I screamed out in pain, feeling his teeth sink into my skin. But before he could drink from me, his mouth was yanked away.

The dark figure had grabbed Blondie and ripped him away from me. They began to fight. The dark figure threw punch after punch, blocking all of Blondie’s moves. Blondie might have been fast, but the dark figure was faster. Stronger.

The dark figure wrapped his hands around Blondie’s neck and snapped it, the loud crack echoing through the lot. Blondie’s body fell to the ground with a loud thud. Then, the dark figure pulled a stake out and slammed it into Blondie’s heart.

My eyes met the dark figure’s. I could feel myself get lost in them, almost like he had me entranced. I pulled myself away suddenly, pressing my body against the car, shaking.

His presence was suddenly behind me. I was turned around abruptly, the dark figure now directly in front of me. His hands rested exactly were Blondie’s had been. The gentle touch of him was surprising, given his overall demeanor. I glanced down at his hands. He noticed and pulled them away softly.

“Are you hurt?” He asked calmly, staring at my neck wound.

I placed a hand over my bite. “No. I… just like to casually bleed from my neck.”

He raised an eyebrow at me, smirking. “You don’t gotta be a smart ass. I did just save your life.”

“I had it under control.” I groaned, running my other hand through my hair.

“Right. My bad.” He chuckled, taking a step back. “So, being cornered up against your car was part of the plan?”

I rolled my eyes at him, not saying a word.

“What was his problem anyway? What did you do?” He inquired.

“Why do you assume I did something?! Motherfucker tried to assault me and I’m the one to blame?! On the news, there’s a new vamp attack every night. I highly doubt they’re all to blame too.” I argued.

He smiled lightly. “And they’re just the ones they tell you about.”

“How would you know?” I stared at him for a moment.

He cocked his head to the side. “Do you really think a human could have taken down that vampire?”

“…You’re a vampire?” I responded, leaning back from him.

I could see his fangs stick out while he talked. “Don’t I look it?”

“Without the fangs, I would just assume you’re emo.” I shrugged.

He bit his lip, hiding a smile. “You know, you’re not the first person to say that to me.”

“It’s because you look like you work at Hot Topic.” I smirked. “Who are you anyway?”

“I’m… X. What’s your name?” He stuck his hand out.

I shook his hand politely, our eyes meeting. “Jade.”  

A blue aura appeared the moment our hands touched. He stared at me for a moment, but suddenly his eyes widen. I tried to pull my hand away, but he held onto it.

“What the fuck?” He whispered, staring at me. The aura intensified in color.

“What?” I gasped, trying to yank my hand away.

X stepped closer to me, his eyes bore into mine. “How can I not see into you?”

“What the fuck are you talking about?” I exclaimed.

He ripped his hand away, the blue aura evaporating. “I’m able to read people. I can see their whole life by a single touch. How can I not see yours?”

“…Let’s just say I’m immune.” I answered.

X stepped back, stunned. “That’s impossible.”

I shook my head. “Not in my world.”

He backed away for a moment. “That’s why he was attacking you.”

“Not the only reason… I may have also said his dick was small which is why he had to use his powers.” I mumbled.

A light breath left X’s mouth as he shook his head. "Um... I have to leave now. As long as you're safe..."

"Yeah, I'm fine.” I bit my lip nervously, “Thank you, X... for saving me."

He nodded his head slightly, and then within the blink of an eye, he was gone. And so was the body of Blondie.

I sighed, finally somewhat relaxed as I realized I was alone. As I went to get in my car, I saw a white piece of paper on the ground, something that wasn't there until X had disappeared.

I reached for it, picking it up and looking at it. Scribbled on it was a phone number and a name of some sort.

 XPLR Services

(555-0157)

 “What the hell is this even for?” I wondered, gazing around at the empty parking lot.

CHAPTER 2 >>

[sstarkiid]

do all of the lovesick asks bitch. expose urself

wow, ok.

read more thing bc this is long and embarrassing

1: Do you have a current crush?

Two actually but who's counting

2: How long has your crush lasted?

Uhh a few months n then the other one is weird i can't answer that lmao

3: 5 songs that you have associated with your crush?

I'm……..not that sappy I can give u like one

Ice prince : Runaways by ATL

Space boy : Stars by Fun.

4: Do you think they've ever liked you back?

I mean. It's very likely.

5: Will you ever reveal your feelings to them?

Yea probably

6: What’s holding you back from making a move?

It's not that I haven't made a move but like. I am Fear.

7: Are you frightened by your feelings for them?

A lil

8: Do you think they could ever love you?

Maybe???? but i’m kind of an optimist

9: Do you love them?

Lol next question

10: Have you ever had a crush on someone you really shouldn't?

DEFINITELY. I CAN'T NAME ANYONE SPECIFICALLY BUT THE ANSWER IS PROBABLY YES.

11: Do you think anyone currently has a crush on you

...IT'S VERY LIKELY.

12: Ever had a crush on what you thought was a platonic friend?

Hi Jared

13: What would you do if your crush revealed they felt the same?

I'd probably need a second to process it but like probably hug ‘em idfk

14: Has your crush ever hurt you?

Nope!!!!

15: Have they made you cry by breaking your heart?

Nope!!!!!!!!!

16: Why do you like them?

Ice prince is fun to tease idk we go back n forth a lot but he's also a softie n listen he's dramatic enough to keep up w/ me

Space boy tells u like it is and he seems kinda scary or not,, nice at first maybe but he's actually also soft !!

They're also both hot as hell oh my god

17: Do you think you'll ever get over them?

I mean. If I had to I would but...  I don't WANT TO.

18: Do you have 1 specific song that is strongly associated with a certain memory or interaction with them?

Mmm not really?? Not yet?? It'll happen dw

19: The moment you knew you had feelings for them?

We both got scared of the firework finale on the 4th and I squeaked and he like held onto me n it was really funny n cute n I was just like “ok this is a thing now great”

Uhh I was doing the typical girl thing where I send screenshots of a conversation to a friend only the friend is his sister so………..i blame her it’s literally all her fault

20: What would they have to do for you to stop liking them?

Murder someone probably

Or y'know

Something equally as shitty n illegal

21: Have you ever fallen asleep with them?

Yea. Both. Napping is cool.

22: Held their hand?

Mmhm! Both but like that's not that weird

23: Kissed their cheek?

Yup. Both.

24: Kissed them on the lips?

Yeah. Both. Actually.

25: Gone down on them/ they've gone down on you?

N O P E

26: Had sex with them?

Nuh-uh.

27: Where on your body have they touched you?

This is…. A weird question I don't like it

28: Does their touch set your skin on fire?

Fire.

Ice prince.

Fire.

HM.

29: Do you get butterflies when they touch you?

Ok maybe

30: Do they make you smile like no one else can?

Y e a

31: Does their presence calm you?

Mmhmm.

32: Does it make you go crazy being around them and not 'being with' them?

Not… until recently but---

33: Are you friends with your crush?

Both of ‘em!

34: Have you always been friends?

Uhh I guess w/ Ice prince yes but not the other one

35: Last thing they messaged you about?

One was abt a dog, other one was abt coming over to hang out

36: Best phone call with them?

Hands down any call when I've been driving so I make my brother talk to them instead those are always fun

37: Last time you hung out with them?

I. I literally started answering this in one of their houses.

38: Ever been drunk together?

I DON'T DRINK

39: Fondest memory of them?

The fireworks show n then probs a few days ago when we just drove around n talked abt stuff

40: Ever made a mistake with them?

Mistake??????????? i don’t make those

41: Regretted not making a move?

Every day of my life but also I have literally kissed both of them so which is the truth

42: If you could go back in time to that moment, what would you do?

Nothing ‘cause I'm a big baby

43: Do you think that would change your current relationship with them?

Nope

44: If you could get a 100% honest answer from them, what 3 questions would you ask?

ok first FUCK THIS QUESTION

Ice prince

Do u. Actually wanna date or am I just the most gullible person ever

.......................so how do you feel about polyamory

Do u actually hate the puns or do u secretly enjoy them I need to know.

Space boy

Are you aware that you can literally text me for anything at any time?? Bc u should be

Were you ever afraid to talk to me?

Will you promise to talk to me before doing stupid shit so that at the very least i can tell u that ur an idiot,,, but like. affectionately.

45: Did they wish you Happy Birthday on your birthday?

My birthday is in like another month and I didn't know either of them really last year so they better

46: Have they ever tried to make a move?

?????????

Idk tbh

47: If so why did you miss it?

‘Cause I'm clueless as hell

48: Have they ever been infatuated with a friend of yours?

Don't think so

49: Are they single?

Lol yeah they're definitely single

50: Where were you when you felt the most for them?

IT'S ALWAYS WHEN THEY'RE SLEEPING they both just look so cute n peaceful n I get all mushy n wanna protect them but I'm weak as hell so

51: Any specific place you associate with them?

Mmmm not really

52: Films that make you think about them?

Disney films in general

Marvel movies for Ice prince bc NERD

53: Have you picked up a habit because of them?

I don't think so but it's also not unlikely

54: What was your first impression of them?

Ice prince seemed antisocial and idk abt space boy we were like 5 yrs old technically so who knows man

55: Has it altered since then?

LMAO YES

56: Do you remember the first thing you talked about?

Probably musicals bc I can't shut up ever and he was confused

And uhhh no unless u mean like when we started hanging out bc it was candy

57: First time they touched you?

COLD

HE DID IT TO SPITE ME AND IT WAS FUNNY BUT IT WAS SO COLD HOW

And I'm 99% certain I made him high five me before we ever spoke bc I'm a nuisance

58: Have they ever lied to you?

Not that I know of

59: What are their eyes like?

Ohhhhh my GOD

really......clear?? that’s not like. a good way to describe em but u know when u look up at the sky and it’s like. wow there are no clouds!! n then u feel the breeze and it’s kinda cold but it’s not unpleasant it’s?? p nice??? like. that.

cool as FRICK like what the hell i’m actually jealous they’re a rly pretty nice shade n then suddenly it’s!!! different!!!! and it’s like!!!!!!!!!!!!! a surprise a v good surprise which is fitting u just gotta look a lil and he’s full of lil surprises

60: What are you most attracted to about them?

well,, for one they’re both hot as hell, so. that. in general.

if u know anything abt me i’m a sucker for pretty eyes

i also like the “soft but pretends to not be” because i think it’s cute they’re also really good to cuddle with

61: Can you see a future with them?

well i can’t see one without ‘em so something’s gotta give here right?

62: Have you sabotaged things between you two?

i freaking hope not

63: Why? What were you afraid of achieving? Love? Happiness? Content? Disappointment?

why does this thing assume you said yes to the above question that’s kinda rude

64: Could they make you happy?

already do

65: Do you dream about them?

if we’re friends and you haven’t appeared in one of my dreams and done smth weird or random are we actually friends??

side note does daydreaming count LOL

66: What's something that only you two do?

i don’t think i “gently bully” anyone nearly as much as i do ice prince also the only one who actually can cuddle w/ me properly in the summer i’m js

uuuummmm go on random drives in the middle of the night so tht zoe can make out w/ ppl instead of texting our sorry asses

67: Does liking them make you feel vulnerable?

you. have. no idea.

68: Have they ever given you anything?

food has definitely been exchanged and shared. i’ve stolen sweaters. uh.

69: Have they ever used you?

.........not that i’m aware of??

70: Have they abused and manipulated you due to your feelings for them?

nO WHAT TH E

71: Have you ever spent quite literally all day and night thinking about them?

that’s......a bit much i might be pathetic and somewhat desperate but like i do kinda have a life

72: Have you ever accidentally nearly walked into moving traffic cause you were thinking about them?

no but i’ve walked into walls because i was tired and thinking abt stuff so that’s a thing i probably have done

73: Ever worn anything knowing it would draw their attention to you?

YEAH LMAO I DO THAT ALL THE TIME IN GENERAL i like attention fight me

74: Have they ever made you feel so safe and content everything else slips away?

y e ah

75: Ever held you so close you could feel their heartbeat?

mmhmm

76: Truthfully do you think you belong together right now?

[taylor swift’s you belong with me playing in the distance]

77: Have they ever seen you completely vulnerable?

um. no.

78: Do you trust them?

i would trust all of my friends with my life

79: When you see them what feelings are strongest?

i just get?? really happy n i turn into a little kid i swear to god how does he put up with me

n he makes me feel really calm n content n just. good. u know.

80: Are they in love or interested in someone else?

d e a r l o r d i h o p e n o t

81: If they asked you to kiss them, would you?

in a heartbeat

82: Will they be in your life a year from now?

they BETTER BE

83: A moment where you so nearly gave into your feelings for them and did something about it?

i have literally kissed both of them and not because of dares what kind of,,

84: Do they know you have feelings for them?

i’m not exactly,,, subtle

85: Do you have a favourite picture with them?

no but i have favorite pictures of them

86: Your ideal date with them?

hey. concept. a double date. but like. instead of 2 couples it’s just me w/ both of them wow

87: What's their name?

it’s rly obvious that i’m talking about porter and connor fuck you

88: Have you ever been in their room?

i’ve been in connor’s but porter n i mostly chill other places

89: Shared a secret with them?

yeah but it’s not a secret if i tell the internet now is it?

90: Have they ever made you a promise and broken it?

don’t think so

91: Have they ever disappointed you?

nope!

92: Whats the most problematic thing about them, which you overlook due to your feelings for them?

uh. idk. porter’s kinda closed off to other people at first i guess that could be problematic. i’m patient w/ that shit so it doesn’t bug me as much idk

general relationships or lack thereof w/ other ppl tbh for both of them i think 

93: Have you ever had to compete for their affection?

no

94: For as long as they're in your life could you handle just being friends?

that’s what i do with p much everyone else but another way to approach this is if u couldn’t be together would u shut them out and the answer is no?? bc that’s kinda shitty

so yes

95: Ever looked for a sign to make a move?

every?? single second of every day but once again i have literally kissed both of them uh

96: What's standing in your way from being with them?

general anxiety

a single conversation

...lmao

97: Would you let them use you for sex?

this implies that,, they don’t care abt me and only themselves n they’re not really?? like that so?? it wouldn’t happen like that??

realistically knowing myself i wanna say no but i probably would which is Not Good i know

98: Ever had a bad feeling about them that's screaming for you to get out while you still can?

no. like. literally the opposite. wtf

99: If you could go back in time, would you avoid ever meeting them?

NEVER

100: You have 1 wish about them, what would you wish for?

that porter finds someone who makes him feel warm n fuzzy on the inside even if it’s not me

n for connor that one day everything is stable and everything is ok

anyway hey jared U SUCK

[tophbiefong]

❤ Shoutout to my hunnis @beliamyblakes& @bellxmyblakes for tagging me ❤

Rules: you must answer these 83 statements and tag 20 people

Under the cut bc its pretty long soz 

Last… 1. drink? lemon lime sparkling water (that sounds so boujee but its actually not) 2. phone call? my mom  3. text message? I sent my bosses a meme lmaoo  4. song you listened to? I Want It That Way - Backstreet Boys (I just recently bought a ‘BSB Greatest Hits’ cd and its all I’ve been listening to) 5. time you cried? a couple hrs ago for absolutely no reason Have you ever… 6. dated someone twice? lmao nah 7. kissed someone and regretted it? hells yah 8. been cheated on? nope 9. lost someone special? yes 10. been depressed? 4 sure 11. gotten drunk and thrown up? I’ve got a puking-phobia so I’ve figured out how to get hella fucked up and not puke favourite colors: 12. blue 13. grey 14. pink in the last year, have you… 15. made new friends? so so many, and I’m so happy about it!! 16. fallen out of love? nah 17. laughed until you cried? aw hell yeuh 18. found out someone was talking about you? idk for sure but probably 19. met someone who changed you? oui  20. found out who your friends are? I’ve known that shit since a week after I graduated high school  21. kissed somone on your facebook list? ew yes (~regret~) 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? almost all of them, except distant family members who’ve added me  23. do you have any pets? two dogs  24. do you want to change your name? I will forever wish my first name was my middle name bc Brooke is gross (both the name and the person ayyyeee) 25. what did you do for your last birthday? went to a boujee restaurant wit my fam and had my first legal drink (it was a mojitio and I hated it bc mint is gross) 26. what time did you wake up? 9:21 am bc my ma was calling me askin about oranges 27. what were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping, which literally never happens   28. name something you can’t wait for: moving to van with Danni ( @beliamyblakes​ its gonna happen i s2g) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom? literally 2 seconds ago 30. what are you listening to right now? Supernatural on the tv 31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom? ew yes, my mom works with a douchey guy names Tom and I hate him sm  32. something that is getting on your nerves? being an adult 33. most visited website? probably netlfix or youtube 34. hair colour? dirty blonde wit a red streak (I didn’t copy a fictional character wtf r u talkign abt ??) 35. long or short hair? I love my long hair, but I recently cut it all off for the summer 36. do you have a crush on someone? no one irl but bob morley 4ever n always 37. what do you like about yourself? lmao nothing ?? i suck ?? 38. piercings: 6 on my ears and my nose  39. blood type: does anyone actually know this ???? 40. nickname: B, kate calls me Brooketh, my mom calls me Ethel 41. relationship status: single (BUT SOMEONE PLS TAKE ME) 42. zodiac: Leo  43. pronouns: she/her 44. favourite tv show: the 100, b99, this is us, the office, parks and rec, bob’s burgers, gravity falls is a new one, teen wolf (even tho it pisses me off so fuckin much) 45. tattoos: the ‘I solemnly swear’ HP quote on my right foot, and I want like 12 more 46. right or left handed: right 47. surgery: I had my appendix taken out when I was 6 48. sport: I used to swim competitively, and I wish I still did  49. vacation: I’ve literally never gone on vacation, but I go up my grandparents cottage a lot in the summer 50. pair of trainers: blue nikes if we’re talking actual running shoes, but I prefer flip flops in the summer and uggs in the winter 51. eating: nothing rn 52. drinking: lemon lime sparkling water still  53. im about to: start working on a special sth 4 my bbs 👀👀👀 54. waiting for?: someone to love me  55. want?: the motivation to actually do the shit I say I’m gonna do  56. get married?: yes, but imma be single forever so it doesn’t matter  57. career?: IDFK 58. hugs or kisses?: both, but kisses more  59. lips or eyes?: eyes (mine are blue, but i love brown eyes so much) 60. shorter or taller?: taller 61. older or younger?: older, bc ppl my age are idiots  62. nice arms or nice stomach?: for me ? stomach  63. hook up or relationship?: relationship 64. troublemaker or hesitant?: hesitant, I worry waaaay too much & am therefore v cautious   65. kissed a stranger: nah 66. drank hard liquor: oui oui  67. lost glasses/contact lenses: nah bc im v cautious 68. turned someone down: yes (and deeply regretted it after) 69. sex on the first date: no thx 70. broken someones heart: i really don’t know 71. had your heart broken: yes  72. been arrested: IM V CAUTIOUS 73. cried when someone died: yes ?? obviously ?? 74. fallen for a friend: yes do you believe in… magic 75. yourself? lmao no  76. miracles? not really  77. love at first sight? maybe  78. santa claus? nah 79. kiss on the first date? If the date was good and I like the person 80. angels? nope 81. current best friend’s name? Alexandra, Danni, and Kate  82. eye colour: blue  83. favourite movie: The Little Mermaid 

tagging: @starboybellamy @clarkegryphus @bellammy @the-princess-and-the-king​ @griffinnblake​ @as-inevitable-as-morning​ and anyone else who feels like it

[francel]

rambling;

i have nothing good to post, so i thought it might be fun to compile some answers to various ffxiv- and rp-related memes and questionnaires i’ve done on my private accounts! please enjoy my screaming.

8. Is there a character that embodies your good traits, or traits you wish you had? Several characters? Which ones and what traits?

i wish i was handsome and suave like all my characters thanks

13. What’s something you’ve never thought about your character?

a certain someone recently decided to remind me that francel's house has no bathroom... and i had honestly never considered, in two whole years of playing him, where he goes to pee?

"do you mean poop" francel is a delicate maiden i will not consider this

(we figure there’s probably an outhouse... somewhere...)

3. What’s something that surprises you about your canon?

Wiltswys: You think me cold? Well, fie on what you think! I wanted something better than tilling salty fields and spilling small fry out the nets, and occasionally taking a passing sailor into my bed for more o' the same!

LISTEN THIS IS THE MOST VULGAR LINE IN THE GAME I SWEAR TO GOD

i have done this quest at least... 4 or 5 times now and it never fails to make me scream. and every time i do it i have to zoom in on her and look at her face because she is a really cute roe girl, so i wonder what her taste in sailors is...

19. Give me an appearance-related headcanon of your choice.

LAUGHS OK hmm what have i never said before...

i have definitely mentioned that i don’t think francel likes his appearance very much — he especially wishes he had lighter-colored eyes like stephanivien and aurvael...

i personally want to think that chlodebaimt looked very different from francel BUT, although i have never datamined the necrose knight (i really should), a friend of mine took screenshots and his eyes at least look like francel's eyes

...but they might very well have just used a generic house haillenarte knight model for that, so who knows what chlodebaimt looked like?

i also like to think that baurendouin (francel's father) persists in the belief that his youngest son will do great things because he at least superficially resembles driancoin de haillenarte (the haillenarte founder you see in the haldrath flashback scene). i mean, i doubt portraits of driancoin survived or anything, given the nondescript statues of thordan's knights, but i’m sure comments about him did?

"he was fair of face and fair of hair" idfk some shit like that

5. What do you hate about your canon?

i am always, ALWAYS so tired of hearing people complain about how “no one ever” treats the wol like they’re “a normal person” ah, yes no one no one ever has treated you nicely never mind the fact that people regularly apologize for turning to you in their hours of need, and for asking you to kill things, and you usually just dismiss their applogy no one!!! has ever!! been nice!! to the wol!! i know the entire arc of my francel writing career has been bitching about similar things but at least i find new ways to do it

ok wait i have to vent more about how people still persist in the NO ONE WAS NICE TO THE WOL BUT HAURCHEFAAANT!!!!! delusion like tataru fucking made you clothes recently IS THAT NOT THE ULTIMATE EXPRESSION OF LOVE? YOU'VE FINALLY BEEN REWARDED WITH SOMETHING PHYSICAL AND TANGIBLE!! STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW YOU DON’T HAVE FRIENDS!!

24. What’s a song that reminds you of your character?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1B7VKiJhU_s “Dear Jack,” by Jack’s Mannequin.

lately, i’ve been listening to this... i don't like every part of this song, but lyrically, it is such a perfect francel song

dear jack, i write you as a friend dear jack, i write for fear the end is coming soon to you it's not so clear it's clear to me it's clear as glass

dear jack, wherever you are, hold tight wherever he is, shine light right there be strong i dare

i had songs for you i had all your music written out the words came when i heard you screaming i had plans for you until the plans fell through now there is no turning back, my dear jack

11. Something you like to look at.

i have complicated feelings about haurchefant these days, but sometimes i go and look at this mug and cry about his handwriting

like from a lore perspective i know he can't be writing in english because they write in eorzean but until then, my friend...

14. When writing for specific characters, is there anything you have to do to get in the specific mindset?

yes! but it depends on the character. for ramza... i either read shakespeare (for real — i have lifted quotes wholesale from hamlet and the tempest) and/or listen to "rather be" by clean bandit? seriously, that is my most strong ramza association... which is weird because the song and the game are like 20 years apart? or i listen to the FFT ost...

for francel i have a whole playlist, but most importantly i either go on twitter and look at wolchefant fanart or read bad wolchefant fanfic on ao3... (don’t judge me; it keeps the bitterness alive)

18. Is there anything you really wish you could do that you feel is outside your current ability? A concept that you wish you could pull off but are uncertain about?

UMMM... hmmmmmmm...

i dont know... i don’t really think any plots are outside of my current ability, but i admire my friends for being so consistent and on the ball with their dignified prose? i can be dignified too, but at some point i'll crash and start writing intensely silly tags

i would like to do more plots where francel is a badass for whatever reason, but that’s just wish fulfillment

17. Which character is the easiest to write? Why do you think that is?

francel is the easiest to write because he has the ugliest emotions

ramza is the hardest because he is always so virtuous

everyone else has varying levels of self control, but with francel i can usually succumb to base impulse reactions. i like his unguarded nature...

6. When writing a character, do you find it easier to work on their external or internal ticks first? oh, internal, definitely. i think my tags suffer from the fact that i often don’t describe what my characters are doing or what is around them? just... just assume on my behalf lmao.... so IF FRANCEL IS CAUGHT UP IN INTERNAL TL;DR there's a 90% chance he's doing that kicked-puppy stare at the floor

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you? XIV, hard mode: no Haurchefant/WoL.

LMAO THAT HARD MODE...

xiv's fandom has rarely "ruined" pairings for me, as in "i liked them before but i hate them now solely because of fandom"... that said, i think i kind of liked the idea of zephirin and aymeric as a rivalry ship, but i hate when fandom takes the "oMG ZEPH RAPED AYMERIC WHEN HE WAS HELD CAPTIVE" route...

i think this perception of zephirin as this horrible awful evil man comes from the fact that the information on the ward happened after the game was released, so... in the span of time between "zephirin killed haurchefant" and "wait actually zephirin is a virtuous man," people formed their opinions, you know?

but it's still really annoying, and to some degree the misconception persists...

i was also okay with guydelot and sanson at first, but i’m a little annoyed by them now, too... it’s not for any particular reason — i just think the fandom is annoying in the "THEY'RE SOOO MARRIED!! EVEN THE OTHER QUEST NPCS SAY THEY'RE LIKE A MARRIED COUPLE!! THEY’RE SO CANON!!!" way and i’m like Please Shut Up. that said, i guess it’s mostly jealousy because none of my pairings are ever canon, but whatever...

so i guess i'm going with zephirin/aymeric, guydelot/sanson... and oh btw like. urianger/moenbryda to a degree? i remember when the wind-up moenbryda item came out and the english item description was like "you don't want to know what urianger did to this" or something like that, like, i just took it as — like urianger probably dressed it up in a little maid outfit and had it serve him tea or something equally otaku-like?

but the entire fandom was like OMG HE JERKED OFF TO IT OR USED IT AS A SEX DOLL OR SOMETHING and i was like ... okay. like if that's how you're determined to see it, fine, but fandom always takes the worst possible interpretation of something i swear to god

13. Unpopular opinion about XXX character?

LAUGHS WELL I GUESS MY USUAL TIRADE: i don't think of haurchefant as the perfect cinnamon roll angel and actually he annoys me a little...

my friend just finished running coerthas quests on her balmung alt and like... even she commented on how brusque and condescending he seems to francel? and she has no reason to be tainted by my perception of him, it's just... it’s just that he is brusque and condescending.

back when i liked haurchefant/francel, i told myself that it was just how he acted in the heat of the moment and i was sure he was gentler later... but now we’ve seen so much of haurchefant that from the way he treats francel it really feels more to me like francel was just a friend of convenience. i don’t know. i’m bitter. maybe i’m just bitter because it’s easier to cope that way.

14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom?

um... well, i think everyone in the ffxiv fandom also agrees that the fandom is annoying...

something i sometimes worry about, but which is not exclusive to ffxiv, is like... people who rp wind up with such a different impression of things than people who just play the game? 

i'm not judging either side on this but... i have rp friends, and i observe the rp community on tumblr/balmung, and i also have friends that are just gamers? and you know, like. sometimes rpers get carried away and invent all these narratives, like i know some tumblr rpers had a bunch of "plots" where a murder mystery happened in ishgard and it was all full of like noble OCs and intrigue or something?

but my gamer friends will sometimes be like, “ishgard is so boring.” so they... see it differently? you wind up viewing the game differently based on what you do in it.

there's also the divide between the english version of the game and the rest of the world, which i bitch about a lot but

just as an example, in english the nobles of ishgard are kind of broadly characterized as being unintelligent and shallow and foppish, whereas the other versions of the game really take a much more neutral approach?

or well i can really only speak for the japanese, but in general the german and french versions of the game are loyal to the japanese, however, 2.0 content was often based on the english...

so, for example, 2.0 content was EN->FR, but ever since 3.0 most of the patches have been JP->EN/DE/FR

however, the EN version continues to make changes, whereas DE and FR don't really change many things!

so i worry a lot about the different perceptions people have of the game, and what that means, like, when i write fanfic...

does my interpretation of coerthas align with other peoples' interpretations of coerthas? probably not. that’s something that’s deeply distressing, as a writer and as someone who prefers to have control, but i don’t know...

17. Instead of XYZ happening, I would have made ABC happen...

STARES INTO THE VOID it's it's too late for any of this

2 years ago i would have told you without hesitation that i wanted haurchefant to be alive and for him and francel to have eloped together, but now i just...

i've learned to play with the cards i've been dealt

[caepaecaesurae]

> Last week sometime...

caepaecaesurae ... I apologize for the #tyrian/ tag, by the by.  My moirail has trouble wvith your alternates, that he is still wvorking through. brackishbarracuda so i noticed i didnt mean to start shit caepaecaesurae You havwen't, and he holds no animosity.  Only memories. brackishbarracuda i cant reely say shit tbh w u i used to have the same problem w certain cronus alts i aint gonna go into it but im betta than i was

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Last Wednesday at 2:44 PM

caepaecaesurae I sympathise.  Interpersonal conflicts of that nature are... Awvkwvard at best. caepaecaesurae Pardon for disappearing on you. brackishbarracuda nah shit happens u aight caepaecaesurae > Caesurae looked at that question, blankly, for over a minute before he could bring himself to quietly facepalm, sigh, and gather his words. Sleep came unexpectedly, that's all. brackishbarracuda count ur blessings i had to watch cats the musical before i could get my wrigs to fall the fuck asleep caepaecaesurae You havwe wvrigglers? I feel like I should havwe knowvn, sorry for the inobservwance. brackishbarracuda i dont talk aboat them much naut publicly anyway brackishbarracuda too much shit can go wrong but yeah i got five a them caepaecaesurae It's easier to protect something no one knowvs about. 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If you havwen't ended up lusus-bonding wvith them yet you might be able to get them lusii in a timeline somewvhere.  I suspect you havwe though, by the sound of it. brackishbarracuda loz would raise from his fuckin ashes and haunt my ass if i ever got rid a them especially now brackishbarracuda theyre mine caepaecaesurae I'm glad you care for them. I'm...familiar wvith the concept from Beforus, and from my moirail's family.  It's not something I'vwe personally evwer wvanted, but I'm glad it suits you. Are they young, still ? brackishbarracuda it aint someifn i ever personally wanted either tbpfh w u little shits grow on u yeah caepaecaesurae Has Arlequin met them yet? brackishbarracuda ach is the oldest and shes under five sweeps and ayas the youngest and shes in a coon rn i think we planned on it but it aint happened yet brackishbarracuda lotta shit goin on rn caepaecaesurae I suspect he'd enjoy it quite a bit.  He adores spoiling wvrigglers. brackishbarracuda yeah i can sea that lmao hes a big cod damn nerd brackishbarracuda hey i got a question caepaecaesurae Aye? Fire at wvill. brackishbarracuda do u no anybody youd trust w a needle pike tattoos do u think arlequin would kno anybody in the church oar caepaecaesurae I knowv Porrim has a studio here, though I'd havwe to gently feel out howv she feels about seadwvellers.  I'm sure Arlequin knowvs howv to apply tattoos in the old wvay, wvith hand-made tools and ointments rather than wvhat one wvould vwisualise in a modern tattoo parlor. I'm sure Nadaya wvould knowv someone, and could ask, if that wvould be of use. brackishbarracuda idk if i trust his evaluation of i trust u naut to kill me while u do this but yeah if u could ask around so i got options id afishiate it tbh isle still probubbly sea what arlequin can do seein as i already trust him caepaecaesurae Arlequin I wvould trust completely to do blackwvork.  If he specifically says he can do brilliant colors and gradients, I'd believwe him on those too. I trust Nadaya not to put other people into stupid situations.  He tries plenty of things himself he wvould not consider for others. brackishbarracuda thats fair caepaecaesurae I'll see if I can put together a list for you -- and I'll mention wvho each recommendation came from, as wvell. I'vwe been somewvhat tempted to look into it myself, I just havwen't been able to think of a design I wvanted. At least anything that wvasn't somewvhat trashy. brackishbarracuda hell let it be trashy caepaecaesurae References to the Kraken brackishbarracuda lMAO caepaecaesurae A tramp stamp, if I could bring myself to it brackishbarracuda PLZ I N-E-ED T)(IS caepaecaesurae Haha Gods.  Maybe. brackishbarracuda oh my shi t absofuckinlutely i am behind this and behind u so i can stare at it caepaecaesurae I appreciate the vwote of confidence. "This side up" brackishbarracuda im la ughign i swear to fuck man embrace that shit caepaecaesurae On the one hand, yes. On the other, if I don't, I can fake being a vwery dignified older man at wvill. And people wvho don't knowv me wvill believwe it. brackishbarracuda i mean thats fair but u can do that w some paint an sealer caepaecaesurae ..Oddly true.  Of course, I could put on a vwariety of different tramp stamps at wvill in the same wvay. brackishbarracuda embrace ur inner trash prince caepaecaesurae You are a terrible influence, but I'm almost intrigued enough to put together a selfie. brackishbarracuda i am tho caepaecaesurae This Side Up is the best one I can think of.  Maybe a reference to the Gunshowv WVhat are some other good ones, vwisible from the front? I am preparing something. brackishbarracuda suns out guns out has alwaves been a personal fav isle ahab ur crosshairs idfk visual pun put ahabs on ur bicep caepaecaesurae Oh, perfect brackishbarracuda i am all for this please dear cod also ur attractive just fyi caepaecaesurae Thank you, I appreciate that.  You as wvell, from the pictures I'vwe seen. brackishbarracuda the reactions ur getting are worth this shit alone caepaecaesurae Oh, aye, I need to do this more often. brackishbarracuda u reely do i almost wanna reblog the dam thing again caepaecaesurae One feature of tumblr that I personally appreciate is the ability to schedule posts to go off at pre-determined times years into the future. brackishbarracuda oh my shit ohhh my shit caepaecaesurae And you look at your dashboard, and you ask yourself "WVhen did I reblog that --  Oh.  Ohhhhhhhhh right." brackishbarracuda i am here for this brackishbarracuda plz at least keep the gun caepaecaesurae Hah.  I don't knowv.  The tiny one? brackishbarracuda yeah i mean its easily hidden w sleeves an its a good ice breaker caepaecaesurae It is at that. If I did, I'd probably ask Arlequin to apply it for real.  Things I imagine into place are easy to imagine awvay again. brackishbarracuda i nearly said id imagine so and stopped myself wtf me caepaecaesurae I can imagine it, and I wvouldn't havwe caught it. brackishbarracuda hes doin aight if ur currious thats my rails caepaecaesurae I'm glad he is. brackishbarracuda i get over excited about the bouys so i apologize in advance caepaecaesurae Hah.  Both vvic and his brother? Enthusiasm is a blessing, enjoy it. brackishbarracuda yeah f reel tho they aint get out much so im over here wavin a lil flag when they talk to ppl on their own caepaecaesurae I havwe a fewv friends like that. Thankfully theyvwe started getting along wvith one another, wvhich is nice. brackishbarracuda tru tf to that

Last Wednesday at 6:44 PM

brackishbarracuda are u sugestin arlequin is a wrong choice caepaecaesurae No, I just knowv Arlequin wvell and don't knowv if he knowvs him. Arlequin making more positivwe social contacts is good. brackishbarracuda (that was a joke ) tru af tho caepaecaesurae I'm not that great at jokes if the punchline is someone being offended, if I'm honest. brackishbarracuda aight fair caepaecaesurae Sorry, chief. brackishbarracuda nah u aint got anyfin to apologize for

[earthtoalexaa]

All of the questions o.o

DAMMIT AMBER >_>

lmao jk i dont mind. 

Here we go lol

1. Youwoke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

this is really awkward lol 

2. What’sgoing on between you and the last person you kissed?

We’re dating

3. Ifyour boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

Yes, only because we both know people that struggle with addiction and its heartbreaking

4. Isyour last name longer than six letters?No it is exactly 6 lol

5. Wasyour last kiss drunk or sober?

Sober 

6. Haveyou ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?I suppose so lol at the time i wanted him, but it was a mutual fucking up. looking back, im glad it didnt work out

7. Whatdoes your last received text say?“Just her email address is okay, but if she want to be in the group, add her! :)”-My cousin

8. Howmany times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

uh a lot idfk lmao

9. Wherewas your last kiss at?

by the door

10. Whenis the last time you saw your sister?

i dont have one

11. Whatdo you drink in the morning?

coffee or milk

12. Wheredid you sleep last night?

my bed lol

13. Doyou think relationships are hard?

Definitely. They’re not “hard”  but all relationships, both romantic and platonic, have their own little quirks and struggles that make them challenging

14. Ifyou could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

yes

15.You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

no lmao why so many kissing questions

16. Wouldyou rather it be sunny or rainy?

rainy. i love rain. 

17. Doyou know anyone with the same middle name as you?

Yes. I thought Rae was so unique and then i met like four other people with it and i was like bruh

18. Areyou wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

leggingggsssssss my dude

19. Doyou think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

i hope so? idk

20. Doesanyone like you?

i mean i sure hope so because ive only been dating him for 5 years lol

21. Haveyou ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

no 

22. Isthe last person you kissed gay?

lmao one more kissing question and i swear to god.

no

23. Isthere a person you CANNOT stand?

YEAH BUDDY

24. Haveyou ever considered getting a tattoo?

yes several

25. Inthe past week have you cried?

lol only like twice a day

26. Whatbreed was the last dog you saw? 

pitbull

27. Doyou dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

tf. wherever i please lol i dont pay attention

28. Haveyou ever kissed a football player?

i quit. 

yes.

29. Doyou think you’re old?

yes…..lol esp when half of the people in groups im in on the internet are like 15

30. Doyou like text messaging?

more than talking, yes.

31. Whattype of day are you having?

pretty alright

32. Haveyou ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

already do lmao

33. Doyou prefer warm or cold weather?

cold like my soul

34. Isthere a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

yes lmao several

35. Wouldyou prefer a relationship or a fling?

relationship

36. Areyou a simple or complicated person?

im pretty complicated lol

37. Whatsong are you listening to?

none at the moment

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

always39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

yes there is!40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

I thought he was funny. Turns out he was a giant trouble maker and not funny at all but that’s okay because i love him (hi dan im sure you’re reading this)41. When did you last receive a text message?

last night i think42. What is wrong with you right now?

I dont think this is enough room to speak of it lol 

43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

fairly well. shes my oldest cousin so44. Does anyone disgust you?didnt we go over this one 

45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?no46. Are you in a good mood right now?no47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?My classmate Sarah48. What color shirt are you wearing?Red49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?yeah50. Anyone you’re giving up on?No51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?no lol hes a pain in my butt but hes a good person

52. Haveyou ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?Oh yes53. Do you like rain?  Love it54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?No because 95% of the time we’re drinking together55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?  Yeah lol 56. Do you like to cuddle?Not really. I get claustrophobic57. Are you shy?  Hell yeah i am58. Do you get along with girls?For the most part59. Have you dated the person you texted last?  no lol 60. What do you carry with you at all times?  my phone, lipstick, a tervis cup (i have over 65 of them and i just love variety so)61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed hauntedhouse, would you?no because i am a baby and would probably die 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?((my longest yeah boi ever)) 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?  Yes.64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?Yes, but again whY SO MANY KISSING QUESTIONS65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

Yes, my niece got her first pictures taken :)

66. Howold are the last three people you kissed?uhm. Dan is 23. Tyler 1 is 21, Tyler 2 is 21 too i think?

67. Wouldyou rather pay to get your nails done or do themyourself?    myself. 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopardprint?    Leopard69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    yes, several

70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    Luke Bryan. 71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    Android72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    uhhhhhh73. Do you like diet soda?    only diet mountain dew but i gave up pop for lent so i cant drink it lol74. What color are the walls in your room?    lime green75. Are you 16 or older?    yes i am twenty one76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    nope77. Do you have a job?       I sure do78. What are your initials?    ARJ79. Did you ever have braces?    Yes lmao oh good lord i had them for like 4 years80. Are you from the south?   

no 

81. Whatdoes your last status on facebook say?    uhmmm good question. let me check

Two sweatshirts, heat on, standing in the sun and i am still freezing -_-82. Do you still talk to the first person you everkissed?    No lmao fuck that guy83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    momma84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    no85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    Deadpool!86. Do you smoke?    No i do not87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    Well considering i cannot walk in high heels, probably flops88. Is your phone touch screen?    yeppppp89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    homeless90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    no i am good child91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    pool. I hate rivers and lakes because there are fish and its deep and just no92. Have you ever made out in a car?    yeah93. …Had sex in a car?    no because first of all ow?94. Are you single or in a relationship?    relationsheep95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    lmao having a panic attack because my computer froze at 1:58 and i had to submit a paper by 11:59..96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    hmmm,…..Snowfest97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    ‘tsnot bad98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    Yes and it was a terrible decision dont99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    no lol 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actuallyhate?    yes hahaha101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    yes102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    I FUCKING LOVE THE HAROLD SONG DONT GET ME STARTED103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    no im pale104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?    

yes, i frequently do.

[lightadarttomendyourheart]

So I can’t fully 100% tell anyone about this rn cause Spenny is sleeping and Pati isn’t around so HERE GOES PREPARE YOURSELVES FOR THE STORY OF THE YEAR

So like ykno Alex the French/Spanish guy that I’ve been after for like 2 years but we only ever really spent 1 night together until this year because he stopped replying cause he was a dick and then I moved to London and then HE MOVED TO LONDON TOO and we met up once for drinks once but it was so incredibly innocent and just drinks. And then I moved back to Warsaw and so did he like 6 months later. Well it’s been going much better recently, we’ve been seeing each other more in general like going with separate friend groups to the same places and just saying hi and then when I’m drunk I text him to get his “shift” together and come over HAHAHAHAHA drunk Jamie is unstoppable. 

Anyways, last night I was at this techno club Smolna with my close friends from uni (our last hoorah) and low and behold who fucking texts me at 7pm asking if I had plans tonight? Alex of course. But the thing is he texted me 2 days before asking what I was up to, so of course I’m like alright, momma gonna get her sugar tonight. But what does he do? He stops replying after the second message. Literally CLASSIC ALEX. There is not a more Alex move to pull. So last night when he texted me I was like k fuck u, I want you obvs but f u. So I reply after a while saying Smolnaaa, and he goes “hum” which is supposed to be “hmm” but Alex is a fucking weirdo so. So anyways I go “lol why whats up” and hes all “i’m home...” and i’m like “okay...” ahahhahahahahaha literally dead i love myself. And he goes “come over :)”. So at this point I’m still going to Smolna but he says to come over after (which is obvs at like 4am or something). So we go to Smolna and it’s all fun, raining a bit on the patio but no one gives a fuck.

So we’re dancing and having a good time and there was this guy who spilled his drink on my friend and he didn’t notice but then he did and was SOO apologetic and of course I realize right away he has a British accent. My British radar is impeccable I swear. So I can tell right away he’s pretty fucked up, drunk or whatever he is. He said he’s on a stag do with his buddies so I ask where his friends are and he didn’t know so I said to stay with us. So the night goes on and he goes off on his own nothing special, but then I see a group of these British guys and they’re all speaking in an accent so I go up to one and tell him that I saw this guy earlier that was part of a stag do but he couldn’t find his friends! And this guy (who is incredibly handsome might I add) says yeah yeah he’s with us! And he was the only guy in the whole group that didn’t look completely wrecked so I kept talking to him. And we introduced ourselves, his name is ARCHIE. How fucking adorable is that. I don’t think there is a more adorable name I swear. AND HE’S BRITISH. ugh. So anyways, Archie and I chill and dance and talk and we get to know each other a tad, he lives in London (thank fucking jesus I love London). But as the witching hour approaches I’m thinking Alex is probably going to go to bed soon so I either go now or never. 

I call Alex and he’s still up, this is around 230am. I leave around 330am, my phone on very low battery but I made it! He’s staying in his brother’s old place so I didn’t know where it was exactly. And oh my god. This is where the night just keeps getting better and better.

Before last night like.. I’m obvs obsessed with Alex cause he’s so fucking attractive, but I thought that we didn’t have much to talk about really. Like he can be kinda negative and a dick and he knows it but that’s him. But last night was a COMPLETE 180. He didn’t go out so he was 100% sober which has not happened ever when we meet late at night. I got there and he was in bed chillin and I was still high so I was chatty af. So we were talking and honestly we talked for about an hour about everything and whatever came to mind and it was great. Like.. really really great. He was so cute in his boxers and T laying there while I was bouncing around the flat ahahhahaha. And I was making fun of him and we were laughing and just.. it was really really nice. So finally I calmed down and laid down and of course you guys know the rest. I slept alright cause the high but he snores but honestly it didn’t bother me that much, I think that’s when it means something. When you think their snoring is cute. One of the things I really like about him is although he can be a  dick sometimes, he is the biggest teddybear I swear. He gained weight recently this year but honestly it doesn’t even bother me. He’s hairy head to toe literally chest, back, EVERYWHERE HAIR. Which of course if you know me then you know I’m totally into that (ya the back hair not necessarily that much but it doesn’t bother me;)). So he’s quite literally this big teddy bear. And he cuddles so nicely. Like we didn’t cuddle much during the night cause it was hot af and just cause but in the morning he comes over to me and puts his arm around me and he’s just really sweet when he wants to be. So obvs then this morning you guys know the rest, but damn. One thing I will say is that drunk sex SUCKS DICK and oh my god if Alex and I were always sober when meeting up I think it would’ve been a way more frequent thing cause HOT DAMN he knows his shit. Ugh. I feel like I’m glowing.

 And then after he was considering buying more stock on some weird internet currency idfk I have no clue, and I was laying on the bed and he was at his desk and we were just chatting and he was talking to himself but also to me kinda ahaha but I love that cause I literally do that ALL THE TIME. And yeah. It was just really good. And at the end I was leaving and I was poking fun and it was just horrible cause he’s a mean man but he’s really not. I know it might sound like he’s a huge dick but he’s just honest and he knows he’s not the nicest person ever but he’s okay with that and honestly as long as he’s not hurting me then it’s okay. And we will never ever date (I FUCKING WISH WHYYY) cause I won’t live here anymore and I don’t think he would be interested in dating me (who knows?) so it’ll just stay this way and I’m totally good with that.

Ugh guys. He’s legit the only guy since I left Canada that I’ve been this enthralled by. I wish there was some sort of way it could or had a chance to become something more but I know my destiny isn’t here in Warsaw, it’s in Edmonton. But fuck it was great having him around, especially this last year. I’m gonna miss him. I am a woman in love.