#[under the cute includes: current events- future events- how to interact w murmur in these tr y i n g t imes ]

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bro idk what to do lately. it’s not just the blog, it’s my whole laptop, i just cannot bring myself to sit down at my laptop and focus on one website for an extended period of time. i reblogged that psa to admit to the natural reaction of finding it hard to focus when the worlds in chaos, but there are specifics i have wanted to talk about on here ! i wanted to make a nice update post ! maybe with art ! but my brain won’t cooperate, meds or no meds. so i’ll just make a SLOPPY UPDATE for now. Things.... on my mind.

Current Events: 

I live across the river from Portland & every day its the sound of sirens, firecrackers and revving engines in my neighborhood. I got friends protesting out there and I refresh the news almost every hour. I want to do my part to show support, but it’s also hard to focus on how to do that, with everything else on top of it.

Still livin in an immunocompromised household, now with cases booming from the 300 when it started to the 1500+ we got now just in our COUNTY, I don’t go outside more than once a week at this point and I’m losin inspirational mojo. 

My dads been bedridden for like a month & it’s really, really, really, really, really, really really reallyreallyreallyREALLY upsetting to me, he says it’s fine & he just needs to get his oxygen count up like his doctor said but I’m having a micro panic attack every time I pass his bedroom. 

After two months of FINE weather, it’s officially getting hot & we have no A/C, just a buncha fans pushing around hot air. I wake up in pools of my own sweat every hour, so the sleep isn’t great. 

Due to future events, I’m doing a lot of cleaning up around the house. But there’s also a lot of supplies I’m missing at the same time. And space for storage. And knowledge of HOW to clean and organize on my own. It’s a slow, day by day, waiting for extra resources, drag of a job. 

Still unemployed! But I got that unemployment moneys! So I can finally pay for my own beans. I really, really need to upd8 my Kofi & any old donation posts. 

Future Events: 

My dad got me on call for a puppy. I’m getting a puppy in September, maybe October. It’s probably the best thing that’s ever happened to me (sad), but it hasn’t happened yet, so I’m constantly having heartache from yearning, anticipation and dread, worried I might not get my puppy or some other disappointment. I can’t properly wait for things, I have to distract myself from thinking about it, or my hype will overstimulate and upset me. 

In October, my dads church may have found us a house. Is this religious privilege ? Or is having a genuine community who actually cares about you just this nice ? AH ? But it’s TWO MONTHS OUT. ANOTHER WAIT IN PAIN ? It’s also not permanent. We’ll basically be housesitting for maybe four years. But it’s a fUCKIN HO USE. AHHHHH. I haven’t lived in a house since I was 12. I crave it. 

My dads B-Day is in two weeeeeks (it’s August 14th). 

Alternatives to Roleplaying: 

If you still wanna hang with your buddy Murmur, no doubt I will return one day for my Jack muse still clings strong, but there are other options. 

Play video games with me ! I got--- Minecraft ! Left 4 Dead ! WoW ! UHhHhHhh but I’m bad at videogames so just gotta accept that videogames is just another form of hanging out to me. Never any competition to know more about the game or understand the controls better, cAUSE THE WINNER WILL NEVER BE ME. Suggesting other games that are good for co-operative play would be appreciated. 

Talk to me about your day and your life. It is not boring to me. I find the perspectives of lives other than my own incredibly worthwhile. My hyperfixation is sociopsychology, knowing how you grew up & how you live now & how it all shapes your views, is beautiful to me, and I enjoy offering my perspectives in return. Though you don’t gotta go that deep if you just tell me u got a cat named Corn I’ll love regardless. 

Talk to me about your muse ! Our muses ! Passion projects ! I’m here to support ! And be interactive when I can. 

I was considering starting a discord ebook club for Ascendance of a Bookworm by Miya Kazuki. Each ebook is only $6, and I’d probably pay for a copy for anyone who can’t get it themselves, that’s how much I love the book. But it’s a lot of set-up still, and I’d have to find people interested, but *clenches fist* an idea.

Also under consideration: a discord D&D club, but also like, ic.... I’ve never DM’d in my life but it’s on my bucketlist & is therefore, under consideration. 

Oh hay I have a personal blog @heylinfanclub​ & Jack has an aesthetic blog @basementvillainy​.

If you can ASK, you can HAVE: My Discord, Snap, (close friends) Phone Numby. You gotta ask cause, bro I can’t assume who wants it, I can’t have that responsibility. 

No Denying that I SHALL RETURN, but uhhhhh it’s quiet uptown for now.