#[pacing my room like a maniac] it seems unnatural being born together and dying apart. twins speak a language only god can understand

[foursaints]

i just. cannot stop thinking about the twins. they are born together. they live together. they were supposed to die together, but then evan died first. pandora has the gift of seeing the future of everyone but her and evan. evan can only see the future if it concerns them. can we. can we please talk about evan dying alone, pandora being too late. pandora who refuses to let go of his corpse in her arms. (pandora, who realized that evan knew all along that he would die alone. that this was the only secret he ever hid from her.) the twins. the end and the beginning. not life nor death. they are on my mind 24/7.

I feel perfectly okay and well adjusted, even