#[also i think it's kinda sexy of me not to be ashamed of any of these. does therapy work? maybe so]

[the-invisibility-bloke]

001 Sirius/Harry

Have a nice day😃

Oh you're gonna regret this. XD (But I hope you have a nice day too!)

When I started shipping it if I did: 2004? I think they were my first HP ship.

My thoughts: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

What makes me happy about them: THEY SAVE EACH OTHER'S LIVES ON THEIR FIRST AND LAST NIGHTS TOGETHER, RESPECTIVELY. TELL ME ANYTHING MORE ROMANTIC THAN THAT. Also, found family in a sense, but better yet, they were given to each other by James and Lily, and their chemistry from the very beginning is everything, they are so utterly devoted to each other, so thrilled to be in each other's lives, so love-starved and touch-starved, they are each other's links to their past as well as each other's hope for the future. All they want is to care for each other, it's so fucking beautiful it hurts, and the reason it's so fucking hot and just the right amount of sweetly toxic is because they have no fucking boundaries, Harry was raised in abject neglect (so was Sirius, in his own way) and Sirius spent those years in prison so they suffered on parallel timelines and now here they are, a collision of orbits, perfect complements, where Harry was forced to grow up too fast and Sirius' life stopped at 21 so the power imbalance is skewed and fucky and all the lines get blurred because they simply need so desperately, the hunger and yearning, but also the fact they just get each other. They tick each other's boxes, fill all the voids, the need to protect, to be protected, and it's no secret this man was Harry's sexual awakening, a not-father figure but the first man to step up and fill those role model shoes, with his tattoos and his recklessness and his general sexiness/coolness making him unlike any adult who's ever shown Harry affection, not to mention the yummy angst of Past Prongsfoot™, so extra guilt for Sirius there, but more significantly, he very quickly comes to see Harry as his own person. I think he's the first one to see that the similarities to James are less than the differences, and more beautiful for that, and I think it would be a bit terrifying for him to realize he's fallen for Harry as himself and not as a replacement, because now he has no excuse, he can't write it off as an inevitability of loving James. ...Anyway.

What makes me sad about them: HE FUCKING DIES.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: I'd share in DMs, but as someone with the world's lowest self esteem, I never want to discourage anyone from writing what they love.

Things I look for in fanfic: I love canon-compliant or canon-adjacent, desperation and codependency, Harry being first ashamed and afraid of rejection, then when he knows he's got him, shameless about what he wants. I love Sirius being tortured by his own guilt until the explosive breaking point where he loses all self control. OOTP era is my favorite because they're in close physical proximity and there are Opportunities, okay, OPPORTUNITIES. Late-night fireside chats (snogs), Harry slipping into Sirius' room under pretense of nightmares, come on, it fucking writes itself. I'll read the occasional Sirius Lives (just wrote one, in fact), but part of me kinda loves that he dies, because it enables all my OTPs to exist in tandem, case in point...

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Sirius? No one. He's gone for that boy and he dies loving him. But 20 years later, Harry falls for Teddy and is wracked with the most delicious guilt. Is he projecting the godfather-godson dynamic he so brutally lost with Sirius? (No, but the guilt is fun!) I also like the premise of Harry and Draco falling into each other post-divorce, better late than never, but after a lifetime of competing for Teddy's attention, godfather vs cousin, turns out the boy's kind of in love with them both, so H/D/T OT3 is my jam.

My happily ever after for them: Sirius lives, obviously. But I want to write a fic where, after the war, Harry obsessively dedicates himself to working out the mysteries of the veil and getting Sirius back. He succeeds some 20 years later, right after he finally decides to leave the past behind and embrace the present, where his own lovely godson has been madly in love with him for years. So basically he gets Sirius back right after he and Teddy begin a relationship, thus it ends up Sirry+Teddy OT3, but this is where multishipping hits a brick wall because what about Draco. OT4?

who is the big spoon/little spoon: I'm dully traditional and default to whoever's bigger (Sirius), but I think they wake up fairly often with Harry clinging to his back, all nestled in like a cute little parasite.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: Motorbike rides, pickup Quidditch, Muggle video games, and I think they like to travel. Harry never did, growing up, and after all those years in Azkaban... yeah. Gay cross-gen wizards take on the world.

[meiliarotten]

Lingerie Headcanons (All Mercs!)

🔞Minors DNI🔞

The Masterlist

👟 Scout 👟

Honestly I see scout as the kind of guy that gets worked up if you just happen to wear a bra and panties that match.

He just likes the idea that you put thought into what you were gonna wear for him

If you really wanna play to a fantasy though…

Playboy Bunny suits

It’s stereotypical, but people find those outfits sexy for a reason, so can you really blame him?

Favorite colors- he would claim to like the typical red and black, but I honestly think he has a soft spot for pink.

And he definitely doesn’t know shit about lingerie styles (tbh, neither do I. I’m looking at charts and cosmopolitan articles as I write this) so a simple bra and panty set suits him just fine

🦅 Soldier 🦅

Just dress up as the Statue of Liberty, he’ll be all over you

Ok, I’m kidding. Kinda. On to the serious stuff.

I think less is more with Soldier. I’m thinking vintage pinup aesthetic really gets him going

I know it’s not technically lingerie, but hear me out

Wear a dress or top that shows off your chest or “accidentally” drop something only to bend over in a skirt that’s conveniently just a bit too short

Bonus points if your wearing some actual lingerie beneath that skirt, flashing a bit of lace

Tease him, see if you can crack that strict drill sergeant demeanor he tries so hard to maintain

Once you're in private just know he’s not going to hold back on you.

favorite colors are red white and blue. No, I will not be backing down on this.

🔥 Pyro 🔥

the more colorful, the better with this one!

That goes double for frills.

Honestly the two of you could probably make a whole day out of you trying on different outfits and strutting around like a runway model, much to their delight

Pyro is like your own personal cheerleader

May also enjoy sexy costumes (nurses, French maids, etc), but I don’t see them as being much into roleplay, so those are probably more for fun

The fashion show usually ends when an outfit is just too hot for them to resist 😏

Because Pyro fucks and I will die on that hill

Their favorite colors for lingerie would be shades ranging from fire red to pastel pink

Favorite style is either babydolls or rompers. They just think you look so cute in them!

💥 Demoman 💥

He probably has the most ‘traditional’ lingerie tastes of everyone

Nothing too fancy, just a silk chemise or a pair of lacy black panties will do just fine

He definitely loves being surprised with it now and then. Undressing you to find that you’re wearing something special is always a turn on

Sometimes he’ll even save up to buy you a pair for special occasions like anniversaries.

He always gets super flustered when giving it to you, though. It’s really freaking cute

That said, if you really want to get him going, wear a pair of his boxers

You know those guys who think it’s hot as fuck when their partners wear their boxers or briefs?

Yeah, Demo’s one of those guys, 100%

Plus, you get to wear comfy, loose underwear. It’s a win-win!

🥊 Heavy 🥊

Heavy doesn’t have any need for fancy lingerie

Honestly he’s kinda terrified of tearing it. That stuff is expensive!

That said, he does enjoy the way you look in a teddy.

When he learns the name of the garment he’ll call you his “little bear.” It quickly becomes his favorite pet name for you

Favorite colors- doesn’t really have any. He thinks you look pretty in any hue.

That said, one thing that gets him even more worked up than lingerie?

Is when you wear one of his shirts- obviously way to big for you, fitting you like a nightgown- and nothing else.

🔧 Engineer 🔧

this is gonna be stereotypical as hell

And honestly he’s very aware of how stereotypical it is and he’s a little ashamed of it

But if you wore a sexy cowgirl costume he would be on you in a nanosecond

But let’s run with that- I think Engie likes costumes

This man has a secret knack for roleplay, I’m telling you

Naughty nurses, feathery show girls, a college student with a low cut blouse who would do anything for a passing grade

He does have some more vanilla tastes as well though. For example I think he loves the simplicity of a camisole or nightgown

Favorite colors would include white and baby blue

🏥 Medic 🏥

I will PERISH on this hill- Medic is a thigh man.

He LOVES the way stockings hug your legs. (In fact I’ve written a fic about this exact scenario)

He would also go feral over a sexy nurse outfit. Is it stereotypical? Yes. But it is also very hot. (I have also written a fic about this)

He’s definitely bold enough to just outright ask you to wear something for him, perhaps a blood red bustier and some matching garters (to play into that thigh kink I mentioned)

However he leaves it up to you when you will be wearing said thing, maintaining some element of surprise.

Once he actually sees you in it, perhaps waiting for him in his private quarters after a long day of work, he will take his time to admire you, making you do a little spin for him

He’ll definitely tease you and refuse to undress you until you're begging for his touch on your bare skin.

🦘 Sniper 🦘

Sniper is not a picky man when it comes to sex

That said, lingerie is always a welcome surprise

His only preference comes down to the style of the lingerie- he prefers crotchless designs.

He doesn’t see the point of wearing something sexy if he has to take it off to fuck you

Styles where the bottom of the panties can be easily pulled to the side also work for this

I think he also enjoys silkier textures.

He’ll run his hands over the fabric both during and after sex, almost as a way to soothe himself and come down from the high

Neither of you really know why this calms him down so much

🌹 Spy 🌹

Spy has sugar daddy energy and will probably buy lingerie for you

Expect the fanciest, silkiest garments that money can buy.

Chemise, robes, and negligee (which is basically the “wealthy widow whose husband died under mysterious circumstances” robe, according to the internet)

Most often they would be in traditional black, but I feel like a deep violet or midnight blue could also be appealing to him.

Oh and get ready to be teased to hell and back.

Spy likes to take his time, especially when you’re wearing something nice for him. After all, what’s the point if he just strips it off of you immediately? (plus this stuff is expensive so he’s gotta get his money’s worth out of this.)

He loves teasing you

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

Hello! I saw an ask someone made about the skellies reacting to their S/O walking in on them changing and what their different reactions were and it got me curious about what the skellies think of their own bodies. I mean, if they have a good view of themselves, if they're insecure about something specific or everything. I'd like to know how they feel about their own bodies and how much trust it would take to let their S/O see them in a such a vulnerable state as being naked is!

The post Anon is referring to is this one.

Undertale Sans - He's a lot more insecure than people see. Like many depressive people, Sans ignores how he looks like. He just doesn't care, leading to him not seeing himself anymore. He barely looks up in the mirror when he has to clean his teeth and that's it. The fact that he accepted his true gender in his teenage years helped a bit with the process, but Sans stays deeply traumatized from everything and feels a lot like his body: invisible. The first time he puts a little effort into dressing up and you say he slays, he's genuinely shocked.

Undertale Papyrus - Papyrus quickly overgrown his friends at school and got mocked for it growing up. He had some phases when he got pretty insecure about his height, but Sans is an amazing big brother who helped him accept himself (mainly so Papyrus doesn't spiral down like him....) and now he's outstanding in his boots. He knows he has big qualities, he gives himself encouraging speech in the mirror and he is definitely aware what effect he has on his S/O.

Underswap Sans - He is still frustrated he's so small, but growing up, he learned it had some advantages, especially the speed. It helped he had Alphys as a role model Underground. Alphys was mocked for being the shortest Captain ever, and she proved them all wrong by being the best of them all. She always encouraged Blue to not care about the criticism and to prove them wrong by being better than them. Blue has no problem with his body today. He accepted all of it and he likes to look cool and sexy for his S/O. He is very self-aware he's hot as hell, even maybe a little too much.

Underswap Papyrus - He's fine with how he looks. He never had much problem growing up. What's bothering him is how weak his body actually is. Honey developed a lot of health problems growing up, starting with how he faints to protect himself from any little thing. He's also very shy when people stare at him for so long, which is why he's struggling so much with other people. He's fine with how he looks, but he's definitely not fine with how people look at him. It's mainly caused by his anxiety, and he's working on it really hard.

Underfell Sans - He kinda resigned to accept how he looks. Red wanted to be a big, tall, and scary monster, but... Uh... Yeah. That didn't really happen, right? Malnutrition is actually a big part of why, as Red and Edge starved a long time younger, and Red sacrificed what little food they had for his brother. He's insecure mostly with how much weight he gained Underground with regular access to food. He's not even overweight, but he doesn't know, it just feels wrong, like he doesn't deserve it. Red is fine playing with his appearance to flirt with his S/O, but he can get defensive if you joke about him being round. He doesn't like it.

Underfell Papyrus - He seems really confident about how he looks, but push a little and you realize it's all a facade holding up by some kind of miracle. Edge doesn't like how he looks, and that's even worse since he became captain of the royal guard. Even if it's better on the surface, there was a time where he was so ashamed of what he was doing he couldn't meet his own eyes in the mirror. He covers his body all the time because he doesn't want people to see all of his scars. He's also a bit insecure about his height. A lot of people find him shorter than what people say, and like Red, that's mainly because of how he lacked food growing up. He compensates with incredible strength, but he still doesn't like he's not as tall as Undyne, and worse, that she's teasing him constantly because of this. However, with his S/O's praise, Edge tends to grow better with everything. He just needs a bit of support.

Horrortale Sans - It's complicated. The first few months, Oak jumped all the time he looked at himself in a mirror. The big hole is quite impressive and not easy to miss, you know. He accepted it better on the Surface. Willow and his friends really don't mind what he looks like, even if he can sometimes catch his brother staring in pure guilt (even though it's not even his fault...), and that helped him to feel better over time. He's kinda happy he grew bigger though, that's a nice change to be able to look down the humans. However, he still struggles a lot with how people he doesn't know stare at him sometimes. He knows it's mostly just curiosity, but it makes him feel like he's some sort of circus beast. It's even harder when it comes from kids. He loves kids, really, and it hurts him every time one of them gets scared of him. With his S/O, he might be a bit defensive at first, but he quickly doesn't care like with his friends.

Horrortale Papyrus - OH BOI where do I start. Willow already struggled with his body before the famine, it only got worse when he had his growth. It's a natural phenomenon, all skeletons gets taller and bigger around their 50 years old, but it can happen quicker if the body has to adapt to sudden extreme conditions, which is the case here. But that growth can also become an enemy if too premature, as Willow also started having back problems around that time. While Underground, Willow did all he could to not see himself because he hated what he was becoming, especially after his brother forced him to eat human meat. But Underground, he could still have some control, as all monsters were more or less in the same boat. However, the first time he met humans and that they ran away in fear when he just wanted to be friendly, that's when he hit him that he was scary now. Willow completely shut down in the first months on the Surface, worrying sick both his brother and Toriel who tried their best to cheer him on. But that didn't get better. He covers all mirrors, he refuses to wear clothes that show his bones even a little when he loved that before, and being constantly in pain for sure didn't help either. Toriel managed to convince him to see the same therapist that followed her. Willow was extremely reticent at first, but one hour with that lady changed literally everything. He never thought he could cry in front of someone again and yet he swears he cried an ocean because the therapist told him she didn't think he was the horrible monster that he described to her, but that he just had been horribly hurt Underground and had to learn to live again. Willow is slowly getting better with each session. It's a long process and he knows by now that he will keep physical and mental scars probably his entire life, but he's more inclined to accept the idea. He still doesn't like his body, but he doesn't hate it anymore. He still has to grow the courage to look at himself in mirrors, but he knows he has a family to support him when he feels down. His S/O will have to take things little step by little step. Willow won't accept to show a bit of his bones before a very long time, and he won't agree right away to being touch. The best is to let him come by himself, little by little, and be patient. Willow is an amazing guy, he just doesn't know it.

Swapfell Sans - Another one who is still struggling with his appearance. Nox never tells anything, so it's hard to tell, but if you pay attention, you'll notice there is no mirror in the house and that's for a reason. Nox was told day and night Underground that he was a horrible and cruel person with no empathy and that he should be ashamed of doing what he was doing. It didn't help that one day Toriel treated him like some kind of god, and the next day not better than a dog. Because Nox was so young when he joined the Royal Guard, he ended up believing each and every little comment about him, and it stayed. Nox thinks he doesn't deserve happiness because he's just a cold-blooded murderer executing innocent people for the Queen without feeling anything about it. He can't look at his reflection in a mirror because of the guilt. He hates himself, he hates his job, but he has no exit door so he buried everything inside of him and chose to never mention it again. However, he can open about this quite quickly once he's trusting his S/O enough. It's not hard to see the man is craving for affection but just doesn't know how to ask for it.

Swapfell Papyrus - He has no problem with his body, but maybe he's a little bit too overconfident. Rus likes to show his bones in a provocative way, and can even sometimes randomly go naked either to flex or completely out of spite after someone got mean to him. He has no shame, which can be a problem sometimes. He's not the best at taking showers though lmao, which can also be a problem. He doesn't mind his S/O staring. Say one word and he gets everything off.

Fellswap Gold Sans - The time when he wasn't comfortable with his body is far away. Since he became captain of the Royal Guard, Wine decided he wouldn't let anyone walk on his feet. He completely accepted who he is and even more. That's on the Surface though that he reached his maximum potential when he discovered what it means to be genderfluid. He is now unstoppable, looking constantly to be even more provocative so everyone talks about him. Wine loves being praised for his choice of clothes and expects his S/O to do it at least once a day lol. He will pout if you don't.

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - Coffee is shy, but that has nothing to do with his body. He doesn't really care if people find him cool or not. Wine did a good job encouraging him to accept how he looks and Coffee is actually pretty confident about his body. His anxiety comes mainly from the fact he grew up in a lockdown and his non-diagnosed autism. He's still struggling to understand his way of thinking is not everyone's way of thinking. He doesn't understand how people work at all actually and that scares him. But he's fine with his body, so it's at least that!

[hyunsvngs]

hey baeee

so im def a stonerslut and im glad we have established hanji as the designated stoner of skz, maybe felix too w his special brownie recipes lol,

but i was wondering if we’ve established any other stoner hc’s for any of the other boys? one of mine is definitely hyun, mostly taking place in a college au (dare i say stoner hyunsung roommate bffs) LMAO bro def sparks up and finishes his art projects in the dead of night <33

oh felix and his special brownie recipes. i'm also a stonerslut getting stoned tonight actually and i know this has been sitting in my inbox for a while but it feels RIGHT answering it right now.

so because i'm delusional and a stoner ANYWAy. (also please please send me more stoner skz asks because i really want to write more about these) and thank to bby mayu @jyu037 for helping <3

chan who definitely smokes regular joints and is a fucking master at rolling them. has the fun coloured papers and swears to god that weed makes him make better music. he also swears it makes blowjobs better so obviously you have to give him one everytime you're both high despite the cotton mouth LOL. likes to bottom when he's high!! always cums so quickly but he just keeps going, he just wants more. not too loud, quiet little whimpers here and there.

minho who smokes in his room to destress at night and definitely ends up jerking off. when you two get together, you both hit the bong together and fuck stoned regularly and it changes your lives. he'd have a stupid little smile on his face and just be grinning at you like a freak. soft giggly sex with minho when he's high and he'd be moaning so loud like a fucking pornstar because it feels so good! hyper focused on your ass. smokes strains that make him kinda lazy so he just likes to lay there and use lots of toys on u <3

changbin who would just be so fucking sexy smoking man. like imagine him sat relaxed in a tight fitting t-shirt smoking a j? no i'm literally clenching. i can imagine him with one of those cute little pipes too and i also think changbin could be a bong man. definitely wants you on his lap when you smoke so he can put the joint to your lips and also smoke you out lol. probs shoves his hand up your skirt while you sit in his lap with that sexy little downturned smile. definitely hits it from the back while he smokes his joints and probably rolls FAT blunts too

hyunjin who yes 100% does get high and finishes his art in the middle of the night. i see hyunjin with a small little glass bong orrr a crystal pipe? and he likes to get high and finish his paintings because in the morning it's probably just a bunch of colours on the page but he swore it was a masterpiece the night before. definitely gets all giggly and blushy too! and gets extreme munchies. also high hyune who paints on you because he likes the colours. drools all over you when he fucks you high and gets so sloppy, keeps cumming inside and just can't stop fucking you

jisung who's a horny high. can't roll for shit and makes chan pack the bong for him too lol. he weirdly knows everything about every single fucking strain and would love to grow a few plants of his own just for personal use because he somehow knows everything about that too. CERTIFIED STONER. probs palms his cock unashamed in the studio when 3racha get high and chan and changbin r just used to it. if you two got high together he'd NEED to eat you out, not above begging for it and gets so pussy drunk!! if you fucked high he would cum two pumps in and not even be ashamed, groaning all "that's what good pussy does." and continues to fuck you senseless LMAOO

felix with his weed brownies yeah!! he'd probably make weed cookies too, or like little weed red velvet cupcakes?! he's so cutie. i honestly think he prefers edibles to actual joints or smoking it in general, but if changbin's got a joint going he'll steal a few tokes. maybe changbin smokes him out too lol idk (i'm going fucking crazy). likes to watch cute little cartoons and disney films when he's high and get all bundles up in blankies :( alsooo usually not horny but then he tries a strain like wedding cake and gets so hard. just starts rocking ur shit and won't stop until ur shaking and empty minded and he's still hard. it's like viagra

seungmin who is definitely a very chill stoner. definitely does it to de-stress and everytime you piss yourself laughing over something he just does a little chuckle he's not bothered. and he definitely talks about the meaning of life and conspiracy theories. meeeean sex like he's usually mean but when he's high he's so much more condescending. takes it as far as stepping on you and spitting on your face. miiiind blowing sex and then the aftercare is him asking you how you think stonehenge got there

jeongin who is confused at first but an absolute menace after you smoke him out a couple times. you teach him how to roll if not only just to watch his hands and his tongue when he does it. definitely a pre rolled joint type of guy and only rolls when he's with you because you see it as foreplay. flirty, says the nastiest fucking shit when he's high and probably fucks your throat while smoking a pre roll, maybe even finishing it when he's got you on all fours for him... (might put it out on your asscheek). so loud, sloppy, messy. when the horny subsides he's got the munchies and begs you to make him instant ramen and then probably spills it on himself and burns himself with the soup

[spectrechosts]

Vandalize My Heart - Chapter 5

Grace has some regrets, and Azaerixia puts her single braincell to work.

Full Series

"Hi new girl! You summoned me again!!!" Azaerixia said, tail already wagging with excitement. "It's okay! Summoning circles are hard, I can help again!"

"No, I summoned you on purpose." Said Grace, tired and disheveled. "I have questions for you."

"Aw man, I'll probably get them wrong." The succubus said, scratching her head. "Are you sure you don't want to have sex?"

"No, it- You can't get them wrong, I just want to get your take on some stuff. And in exchange I'll tell Lilith you helped me again."

"You will?!" Azaerixia gasped, her tail swishing into overdrive before she grabbed it and held it close to her chest. "I, um, Mistress said not to let you pay for bargains with that again, because you aren't actually giving me anything you're just making her do it. Also she said you never actually told her I helped, and were kinda mean to me? Sorry. Can you tell her anyway? You do kinda owe me, from last time."

Grace put her hand to the back of her neck, ashamed.

"Yeah, I can tell her anyway. What do you want for questions and… maybe cuddling."

"Well, cuddling is free! And questions are, uh…" The succubus trailed off. "Are they sexy questions?"

"…No."

"Hmm. Usually I just do stuff in exchange for eating the lust generated by the request, plus a bit of your life or your soul or whatever. But I feel like I shouldn't touch either of those in your case? Ummmmm…"

Grace waited patiently for the succubus to think. She didn't feel like she would sleep tonight anyway, and she'd rather not be alone with her thoughts.

"… Do you know how to get people to follow your onlyfans?"

"What? No."

"Ugh, neither do I! The other girls keep telling me that it's a great way to build a 'passive income' of lust and so I made one and then they're telling me to post 'thirst traps' and I'm like I can't just be sexy at a phone I don't know what it's into-"

"Yeah I don't, I don't do any of that. Because I'm a nun."

"Oh! But sometimes I see nuns doing stuff like that in like, skimpy versions of the nun outfit?"

"Those aren't nuns, they're wearing costumes."

"Ohh."

Grace clicked her tongue.

"When Lilith did this, we just took turns asking eachother questions."

"Okay! That sounds good!"

"Okay. You can leave the circle, too."

Grace laid down in her bed, and Azaerixia settled in on top of her, wrapping her arms around her shoulders. She sighed happily, and Grace found her weight comforting as she held her.

"Okay, um, you start."

Grace inhaled slowly through her nose.

"Are you happy?" She asked.

"Oh, yeah totally!"

"Why?"

"Well, um, I dunno!" Said Azaerixia. "I basically do whatever I want and everybody is really nice to me, and even if a human asks me to do something I'm not into I get a yummy meal out of it!"

"But how do you know you're doing what you should be?"

"Um…"

"Like how do you-" Grace pinched the bridge of her nose. "How do you choose what to do, if you can do anything? How do you know you picked right?"

"Uh… Because, um….. I…. Like it?" The succubus answered, seemingly unsure if she was correct. "Is it my turn?"

"Yeah."

"Ooh! Okay, um, what's something you like about me?"

"Uh…" Grace said, taken aback. She had expected something more… pointed. Like Lilith had done. "I think… I think it's really cool how positive you are. I don't know if I could be like that."

"Sure you can! It's easy!"

"I don't think it is easy for me." Grace sighed. "Like, you were so happy to see me and eager to help again, even though Lilith told you I was a bitch to you behind your back. I don't think I would do that."

"Why not?"

"I don't know. I think I just, assume people are trying to screw me."

"So do I?"

"That's- I mean it in a different way."

"Ohh. Do you have another question?"

Grace pulled her in closer.

"…Why are you in Hell?" She mumbled. "You seem so nice."

"That one's easy! I asked Mistress if I could come live with her and she said yes!" Azaerixia said, tail wagging in delight at knowing the answer.

"But why? Why would you choose to go to Hell?"

"…Because it's fun?"

"But what about Heaven?"

"Oh, I dunno about Heaven. It sounds like there are a lot of rules? I probably wouldn't have gotten in, anyway. Most people don't, I think?"

"Most people go to Hell?"

"Yeah. Mistress says it's an unfair system, that people go to hell for all sorts of things that don't even matter. But she says that even if she could go to Heaven, she wouldn't want to. She says Heaven wasn't made to be a paradise for people like her."

"…Yeah. Me either, I guess."

"Really?"

"I mean. If I got into Heaven, would I be allowed to be gay there? And if not, then like, would I just spend eternity in fear of getting kicked out, like I do now? Or, would I just not be gay anymore? And then, did I even get into Heaven at all?"

"Woah. That's a lot to think about."

"Yeah." Grace sighed. "It is. You go again."

"Ummm, what's something else you like about me?" Azaerixia asked, eyes sparkling.

"Uh… You're… Very cute?"

"Omigosh I ammmmmm thank you for noticing!" She said, nuzzling into Grace happily. "Okay you can go again!"

"Am I a bad person?"

"Um."

"I feel like I am, sometimes. I look down on others to feel more righteous. And now I, now I don't even know if I believe in being righteous anymore. I don't know what the point is."

"Uh…"

"My whole life I just accepted that God was right and I just had to follow his teachings and that made me a good person. And now I feel like maybe it just made me a rude person, who tears down everyone else because if she does that enough then nobody will see her own shortcomings, not even God. And now I've seen Hell, I've seen what I fear awaits me, and you look so… free."

Tears streamed down the sides of Grace's face as she stared at her ceiling.

"It sounds like you probably aren't?" Azaerixia said, sitting up a little and wiping Grace's tears away.

"How can you say that, after everything I just said?" Grace asked.

"Oh, well, um, you seem pretty upset about it? And I think if somebody is trying to be a better person, that's really all you can ask?" She said, shrugging. "Nobody's perfect."

"But aren't demons supposed to like, punish me for my sins, or whatever?"

"Oh yeah! Totally!"

"…So?"

"We just don't!"

"…You just don't?"

"Yeah! We decided we don't wanna!" She said, sitting up straight and pumping her fists, with a wagging tail and a fire in her eyes. "Sin is stupid! We don't agree with it! How are you going to make us subsist off of making people act lustfully, and then we have to punish them forever for doing so? That's stupid!"

"It… It kinda is stupid, isn't it." Grace said, chuckling.

"Right? Like, is our whole species just some weird test so you don't have to let as many people in your stupid club? That's fucked up to do to us!" Azaerixia crossed her arms. "So we're on strike! Until, uh…"

She tilted her head to the side.

"I don't actually know when we're going to stop striking? This all went down before I became a demon."

"When was that?"

"Um, I think you guys call it the bronze age now?"

Grace's chuckle grew into a full blown fit of giggling.

"What? What's funny?" Azaerixia asked.

"Nothing. Thank you, Azaerixia. Talking with you helped a lot, I think." Grace said, smiling. "You're really smart. I misjudged you."

"Oh! Thanks!" The succubus said, cuddling into her again. "So I got the questions right?"

"…Yes, you got all of them right."

"EEEEEE!!! YES!"

[acourtofthought]

What are your thoughts on Azriel as a character and a love interest (if he gets his own book)?

I feel kinda bad for him, but he’s also giving me Joe Goldberg vibes atm 😭

I've always loved the slightly psychotic hero with a moral code.

That's why we ended up naming our 11 year old dog Dexter (from the show Dexter) 😂

Az is pretty dark but is on the side of the good guys. He throws himself into every dangerous situation so he can be the hero yet doesn't mind sitting there carving people up. He knows when to be polite based on his observations of the people around him (remember, he probably had no idea how to behave until he was about 11 when he met Rhys and Cassian, he had no parent teach him socially appropriate behaviors).

What's fun about the crazy anti-hero is those guys often feel "above" relationships (which is why it's entertaining to see a woman finally bring them to their knees). That's not the case for Az though and something I'm not enjoying. He definitely gives off Joe Goldberg vibes with Mor and the fact that we've never seen emotional growth from him in the way of his acknowledging his past with her but instead started a fixation on Elain (simply transferring those past feelings) is problematic. As a result of all that, it's a bit painful to be in his head. Sure, his POV could be considered sexy if there was any proof that he actually liked Elain as an individual (he has never said a single thing that makes her special to him). But everything is "it's so wrong" and "I'm a horrible being" and "I'm tainted" and "this is my dirty secret". It's all very "woe is me" and "no one will ever love me" compared to say, Nesta and Cassian's Bonus Chapter where he couldn't stop talking about how Nesta was making him feel because of who Nesta was as an individual. Az spends no time thinking of how Elain as a person makes him feel and spends his time thinking of how he's a bad man who hates himself 🤦

He's a bit creepy at the moment. Which is why I feel so much better about him when he's around Gwyn. Their interactions completely remove the heaviness and it feels healthy. No, they're not romantically interested in one another just yet but I'd much rather a hopeful start than him being a year into his obsession with Elain and being a complete drag 😂

I honestly hope that when Gwynriel happens, he learns to embrace his darkness. I feel like he's so ashamed of himself that he hides behind formalities and socially appropriate behavior because he thinks that's how people want him to behave. That's why when he explodes or acts out, some readers say, "where did this come from?!" To me, he's always that person but he tries so hard to keep himself on simmer that he eventually loses control. Rhys is unapologetically himself and I'd like to see more of that from Az.

But I imagine when Gwyn and Az are around each other, they'll constantly be challenging and trying to best one another. They'll have their soft moments for sure but I can't imagine their go to love language won't be playful battles.

[onlyshestandsthere]

Holy fucking shit. That chapter was amazing!!!

All the Jade guilt and inner turmoil was really well done. I know she made her decision to get Kit away no matter what, but the weight of her thoughts when it came to the alliance, all those involved, the possible repercussions, her own moral boundaries, baby gay Jade with Kelina and her family (my poor heart) and mostly her trying to suss out how to get Kit away, and the disgust, anger and the frustrated helplessness she felt in those moments about Kit's treatment, damn, all of that was intense.

And I got teary eyed when Jade caught on that Kit was ashamed. Knowing Jade was seeing her like that compounded the heartbreak I felt each time Kit was being tortured. I kept thinking of that fox you wrote about who preferred to gnaw off its own leg and die free rather than be trapped. Kit mumbling at the end though about Alavesh being mad was really sad and disturbing to see just how far gone she is.

ALSO, JADE CUT OFF ALAVESH'S ARM!! (I realise as I type this, it seems like I'm telling you breaking news when you obvs wrote it. Sorry, I just get excited lol). My heart was pounding throughout that entire ordeal. Full on semi hyperventilating and everything. And I gotta admit, that was morbidly satisfying. Not the hyperventilating, but the Alavesh's arm bit. Also not just the fact that it was a limb being hacked off but that Alavesh was knocked on her ass by Jade down a ravine and she no longer has that evil bracelet. HA!! YOU GOOO JADE!!! I do wish that Jade had finished off Alavesh somehow though, because that character freaks me tf out, she's already psychotic and now she's gonna be even more evil and rabid on the torture if she ever gets her hands on them. I'm actually scared for both of them if/when she ever finds them.

And I love Lavan so much! She is all sorts of precious and so smart. I was snickering when she sneakily took advantage of Jade's inattention to go back in line and then tried to find apples lol. It was kinda grounding to be reminded of something so sweet and wholesome with all the terrifying shit happening around them.

So they'll potentially have months travelling back together now huh, that sounds like months to unravel their issues and fall deeply in love. Once Jade stops bleeding and generally dying. Oh yeah, YOU MADE JADE GET STABBED!!! 😱 And I know Kit has been through hell but I'm really looking forward to seeing her take care of Jade too and to finally have the upper hand for once.

Is she gonna think about just ditching Jade though, even if it's just for a split second, considering what she's been through? Also, is there gonna be any sexy sparring later on? Like when they've recuperated and had all the therapy in the world, do we find out who pins who? As always, I totally understand if you can't confirm or deny, I'm just having a blast with this fic, thank you!!! ��

Dang these are some very complimentary words. Thank you!

Yeah, Kit is super ashamed for 'giving in' sometimes even though she was wearing a literal magic torture collar and had zero other options. And having Jade (and the others, to a lesser extent) see it was a big blow, so a lot of going forward is about Kit sort of regaining her confidence and self worth, which will be hard because this is Kit 'Mental Health Who?' Tanthalos. A physical injury, she'd give herself some grace, but PTSD? She should just be able to get over that right away, right? Otherwise she's weak and pathetic. But having to take care of Jade will help a little.

And yay for Alavesh getting her arm cut off and shoved off a cliff!

And my god I'm so excited for Lavan’s journey in this fic she is such a good horse.

There will be sexy sparring, but I'll say no more. And Kit will absolutely think about ditching Jade. She needs to get away and helping Jade means stopping.

[cloudyscreams]

i have things to say about star twinkle!

i understand why people might dislike the season, its definitely more on a humorous and lighhearted note (although hugtto started similarly imo) but honestly, i feel like its the strength of the season

in hugtto the tone jumped all over the place, since star twinkle doesnt attempt to tackle the same serious topics the humor kinda becomes the star (pun not intended i swear) of the show and i still think they bring back or even bring some new good things into the franchise

singing during transformation aside, i like that the monster of the week formula was a little bit toned down! its kinda cool to see the generals actually fight instead of standing still for 15 minutes and then do the "if not for you kids and your meddling dog" speech to just dissapear

i also kinda like the theming of the villains?? no idea why they decided to go with yokai in a space themed show but the idea itself is hilarious imo i dont think the designs are outstanding or anything but they are definitely funny enough to get the message across (please kappard has me rolling since ep1). im ashamed it also took me a bit too long to figure out tengu's mask design but once i did it was kinda good?? like yes sexy fallic mask lady go on, do your thing (i dislike eyeone with a passion tho, both her and bakenyan are kinda...tacky ig also its conterproductive to have a rich girl charcter with THE weird laugh as a gag chara and then have a villain who does the same, booooo)

i also adore the cerberus scene so much, it was very predictable and expected but it still lives in my head rent free since last week

blue cat is also a kinda interesting addition since literally all mid-season cures since forever were either enemies (out of own will or otherwise) or just 100% friendly characters, i like her grayness in terms of relationship to the team

finally, im on the episode about hikaru's mom and thats probably ironically something that should have been in hugtto?? i cant remember any other mom who wasnt absent (and/or dead) in precure who had a development episode and its kinda cool that she is not established despite her age, just because she is an adult and a parent doesnt mean she has everything figured out and i would love to see this exact sentiment in hugtto (also because they kiiiinda reduced even working moms to just moms without identity outside of motherhood)

overall so far (im on ep 18) the season is not even half as bad as i expected it to be judging from people's opinons online but then again maybe thats what got me with hugtto since it wasnt as great as people desribed it (in my opinion and blablabla, i honestly enjoyed all precure seasons ive watched except fucking doki doki)

[kimmysurveyblog]

33

Has anyone ever made fun of your taste in music? Maybe?

What’s your favorite season of the year? Autumn.

Do you have pop-tarts in your house right now? Nope.

Is anyone’s birthday coming up? Kinda. My daughter is beginning of April.

Does someone owe you over twenty dollars? No.

Do you remember who you liked in grade eight? No I don't.

When was the last time you burned any part of your body? Not badly but today I burnt my finger on a frying pan.

Have you ever overflown a bathtub? No.

Are you dressing up for Halloween this year? I might.

Have you ever called somebody dollface? No.

If I gave you ten dollars, what would you spend it on? A cold brew.

Have you ever thrown food at a stranger in a movie theater? Nope.

What are you most excited about right now? Taking my Grandma out for dinner on Saturday.

Does / did either of your parents serve in the military? No. My mom's brother and father did.

Are you somewhat of a perfectionist? Not really.

Do you like sour candy? Yes.

Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? I just asked my boyfriend and we discussed it. Iceland!

Do you have Verizon? No.

What do you do to stay awake when you’re tired? Coffee.

Are all nighters something you have grown used to? Absolutely not. Those days are behind me lol!

Do you usually wear sunglasses when you’re driving? I don't drive.

Do you wear your shoes around the house? Nope.

Is there ever a time that you enjoy cold showers? Nooo.

What clothes are you most comfortable in? Baggy sweater/tshirt and sweatpants. I'm a SAHM so I live in that attire.

Is there anybody you’re not ashamed to tell anything to? My boyfriend and one of my best friends.

What has changed most about you in the past year? Two really bad things have happened to me in the last year. I think what changed is that I've become a stronger person than I ever dreamed possible. I'm also feeling very confident in my abilities as a mom.

Are you good at painting nails? Nope.

Smoothies or slushies? Smoothies.

Are you good at filling silence in awkward situations? No.

Ignoring nutrition, could you live off veggies for the rest of your life? No. I like carbs.

Elaborate on a way you have volunteered? I've not done much of that.

Do you use a full length mirror daily? No. Special occasions only. We have one tucked away behind my daughter's bookcase.

Can you walk in heels, or do you feel awkward in them? I don't feel awkward.

Any TV shows you sit down weekly to watch? Nooo not anymore.

Does anybody know about your sex life other than your partners? Not really? I'm sure I've discussed it with girlfriends.

Even if you don’t like politics, do you still have opinions on the issues? Yes!

Are you one to sneak food into movie theaters? I have done it but don't anymore.

Will you tell someone if there’s something in their teeth? Yes.

Do you ever actually make your bed? I do not.

Do you make an effort to eat healthy? I've been making more of an effort lately. We're 1.5 months into 2024 and I'm kinda keeping up with my resolutions.

How are things between the person you like / love / are with? Wonderful! We're doing really well lately.

Where did you sleep last night? In my bed.

The last time you kissed someone, what color of shirt were they wearing? Black.

What kind of booze did you last take shots of? Whiskey.

What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall? Books for my daughter, always.

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you that you were sexy? Yes.

If you could see any musician live, front row, who would you choose? Paul McCartney.

If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret? Money.

Are you taller than your mom? Yes.

Have you ever been around someone who was high? I was a stoner for several years. Definitely yes.

Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning? Afternoon.

Think back to June. Were you in a relationship? Yup.

What’s so special about what you’re wearing? Nothing at all.

Do you have any ‘naughty’ photos on your phone? Yes.

Could you handle living with a male roommate? My boyfriend lol.

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning? Going for a walk with my daughter.

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? He's beside me changing the water in one of our fishtanks.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I know they do.

What do you miss the most about your past? I've lost a lot of loved ones. I miss them being alive.

When is the next time you will kiss someone? Later tonight.

Has anyone taken their shirt off in front of you? Yes.

Plan on getting drunk or high tonight? No.

In the past week, have you cried hysterically? Yes.

Do you think you’ll actually live a happy life with somebody? For sure.

Are you on birth control? No.

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? No.

Last time you were really happy? One month ago.

Do you tend to fall for players? Nope.

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex? Ancient history.

Have you ever asked a boy for advice? All the time.

Are you wrapped in a blanket? Nope.

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? I think so.

Have you spoken to your mother today? Father? Both of them have passed away. I lost my mom just a month ago. It still truly doesn't feel real. I talked to her every single day.

[triviareads]

I'm happy people are still reading Harlequin and Mills & Boon. I read my mom's old paperbacks when I was younger and they get a bad rep. Or maybe I thought they were good because they were spicy and I was young. Do you have any newer M&B Harlequin suggestions?

I love that! I think Harlequins were probably the first adult romances I read back in the day and honestly, the dream would be to write something for them someday (it has been... a slow work in progress). So from my understanding Mills & Boon is the British romance imprint of Harlequin so idk how much overlap there is for the books I'm gonna recommend. I've sorted them by author mostly, and they all fall under Harlequin Dare (super hot, now defunct 😔), Harlequin Presents (the fun international ones inevitably with some kinda billionaire/prince/sheikh), or Harlequin Desire (mostly rich Americans):

Caitlin Crews: Here is a list of my absolute favorites by Caitlin, and to add to that, The Secret That Can't Be Hidden (ft. my favorite insta-sex scene during which he basically beckons her forward and fingers her on the spot... no conversation necessary), Crowning His Lost Princess (warlord touches down in a field in.... Kansas? and tells a farm girl she's a lost princess and he's gonna marry her), and Her Deal with the Greek Devil (he has hella beef with the heroine who's his stepsister so he makes her go around his house naked— don't ask me how he gets to that point but it makes for some great tension).

Jackie Ashenden: On the Harlequin Dare front I'd recommend, King's Ransom (ft. the world's biggest kidnap girlie who also has sex for the first time after she's caught sniffing her kidnapper's clothes), Dirty Devil (A heist story that takes a delightful "can I seduce him into letting me free?" turn), Sexy Beast (the only kind of friends-to-lovers I condone, namely the kind that begins with her taking him up on his offer to give her an orgasm) and In the Dark (brother's best friend except she's filling in for her escort friend and he's the client). On the Presents side, I really like Promoted to His Princess (he's a playboy prince and she's the elite soldier meant to guard him).

Naima Simone: Naima writes diverse romances with really hot sex scenes. My favorites include Black Tie Billionaire (they have anonymous sex during a blackout and it turns out he wants to ruin her brother... by getting fake engaged to her), Secrets of a One Night Stand (another anonymous encounter, and it turns out he's her boss, and she's pregnant), and Vows in Name Only (they're both blackmailed by her dad into marrying each other and the hero is suuuuuper resentful of her... until he isn't). Honestly, I'd recommend everything Naima has ever written, even outside Harlequin.

Tara Pammi: Tara writes great Indian-forward Harlequin Presents. I'd recommend Claiming His Bollywood Cinderella and The Secret She Kept in Bollywood. This post has a more in-depth description of both.

Lauren Hawkeye: Lauren wrote a modern series based on Little Women under the Harlequin Dare imprint. They're all pretty good but my favorites are Beth's book, Playing Dirty (she's a mechanic, he's a rich man who's *ashamed* of his bedroom proclivities) and Meg's book, Sweet Temptation.

Jadesola James: She writes lovely Harlequin Presents set in Africa; Here is me gushing about The Royal Baby He Must Claim, and that heroine's sister has her own book in The Princess He Must Marry (ft. marriage of convenience... until they actually need to be together).

Miscellaneous:

The Greek Billionaire's Innocent Princess by Chantelle Shaw: She's a princess but she's so "frumpy" he thinks she's waitstaff, but then he sees her skinny-dipping and they have sex in a cave on the beach.... and the next time he sees her, surprise! she's a princess.... and she's pregnant. This one was basically my Harlequin awakening.

The Prince's Forbidden Virgin by Robyn Donald: The first vineyard-based book I ever read; he's the king of a small Mediterranean country and she's his cousin (at least they think.... until the near-end) who's back to rescue the vines from blight.

The Cost of the Forbidden by Carol Marinelli: The first Russian hero to really do it for me; she's his PA and she's given her notice (because she's too attracted to him) so now he basically thinks she's fair game. What a smooth man.

Hold Me by Anne Marsh: The greatest and most seamless roleplaying I've read (until very recently). Here's a hint at what it includes.

Pure Satisfaction by Rebecca Hunter: I'm a sucker for a shame-boner because "she's too young for me" and this book really delivers (especially when she makes him say "you're too young for me" while she's in his lap with her top off lolol).

[eohachu]

Post pictures of your first ever (fictional/celeb) crush to the latest one and tag five others to continue the game.

Ali tagged me, thanks. I guess 😘 @lanzhansmiles​

A’ight so I’m simply taking this as an opportunity to show off my frankly impeccable taste 😌 *coughs into the crook of my elbow with my mask on and from a safe distance* More under the cut, godspeed!

I’m tagging uhh I really don’t want to expose anyone but uh. @morifinwes​ @ttaechwita​ @sunshine304​ @treemaidengeek​ @flamingwell​ no pressure tho!!

Since 2006

Janina Fautz: Die Wilden Kerle, anyone?? Tbh i had a crush on quite a lot of the characters/actors but in hindsight Janina was and is the most influential one. Also probably my first ever girl crush (again, in hindsight bc it took me until 3 years ago to finally find out i’m queer lol)

Eva-Maria May: Yeah well I’m not gonna talk about where I know her from let’s say it was an incredibly bad soap opera my mom used to watch. She was one of the reasons why I went Yeah I Have Always Been Into Girls. I was pretty obsessed with her to the point where mini me secretly printed out a photo of her to look at lmaooo the signs have always been there and it’s truly amazing how I had been missing them for years

Amy Adams: Her as Amelia Earhart in Night at the Museum was also definitely a huge Thing to young me. Again, I had been completely oblivious about this crush for years

David Luiz: HAH! This is the point where we do NOT get into my football/soccer crushes bc this list would get WAYYY too long hahaha. I had to cut loads of people from my list for this post bc I develop a new celebrity crush every 5 minutes basically but yeah. David Luiz was definitely my biggest football/soccer crush out of..... everyone else

M*rvel

I don’t have a lot to say about any of them since I’m not into m*rvel anymore TFATWS makes me want to stick the tip of my toe back into m*rvel waters but otherwise NO THANKS

Sebastian Stan was, if my judgement of my archive is right, the longest highkey celebrity crush I’ve ever had. Mostly because I love Bucky a lot and he was so amazing in Captain America: The Winter Soldier. I must’ve had a crush on him for as long as I had been in the m*rvel fandom

Recent Past

some celeb crushes from last year that were all more or less short-lived tbh

Ester Expósito: As it often goes I didn’t find her spectacular in the beginning but as Élite went on I started to develop a huge crush on her. I still find her pretty hot but I’m not invested in Élite so yeah..... I have no object permanence

Mina El Hammani: Got to know her through Élite, too. She’s so incredibly beautiful. Had a hard time choosing a photo of her bc I’d stare at every single one for ages. Wow.

Danger Days!Gerard Way: Hah! The ones of you who’ve been following me for longer might remember my posts about wanting to dye my hair neon red. Well, him’s the reason and also clinical depression. Ended up with natural red/ginger bc my hair is too thin for bleaching lel. ANYWAY

Maxence Danet Fauvel: Pretty short-lived crush from my Skam days

Ramy Moharam Fouad: So Ramy has a brother, Tamino-Amir Moharam Fouad, who makes INCREDIBLE music. Ramy made some of his music videos (directed them? not sure), that’s how he came to my attention. Idk man he’s just so incredibly beautiful.... gives me a hint of genvy, too......

Janelle Monáe: Became a fan when Make Me Feel came out, listened to the entire album for days and eventually inevitably crushed on her

Lera Abova: Saw her in ANИА and fell in love. I screamed to my friends for weeks about how she was the most beautiful human being I’d ever seen etc etc. Eventually my crush went away mostly, but I still think she’s stunning

Keiynan Lonsdale: Keiynan said FUCK gender and I said 😍😍😍 and that’s all you need to know.

Current

*deep breath* alright let’s gooo

Bright (Wachirawit Chivaaree): Crushed on him for as long as I watched 2gether/Still 2gether lmao. I still like him a lot and sometimes lose my mind over him but I’m not exceptionally Thirsty™

Tul (Pakorn Thanasrivanitchai) and Max (Nattapol Diloknawarit): If you search either of them on tumblr you will have to scroll for a long, long time to find seperate photos of them. However, I’m not patient enough so here we are. Re: Tul, actually I want to copy/paste what Ali said bc DAMN a man who is confident about his masculinity and sexuality really is kinda hot. Same goes for Max tbh. Also Max’ lips look so soft I [redacted]

Lukas von Horbatschewsky: Also known as Lukas Alexander. He did an amazing job in Druck and he’s just a person I admire in general. As one of the few out trans actors in Germany, he had a main role as a trans boy in Druck and also co-wrote Druck’s seasons 5 and 6. He’s just a huge role model to me and, apart from that, Big Crush Material (h i s  e y e s)

Li Wei: Someone suggested him as Hua Cheng for the TGCF live action and my life hasn’t been the same since. While I’m open for whoever will get that role in the end, I could look at his face for hours and not get bored. Major Genvy, too.

Li BoWen and Liu HaiKuan: I will have to deal with these two in one paragraph bc LanLan bc they have the exact same effect on me which is. that they’re not 100% my type but I WILL go absolutely feral about them at regular intervals, if you know what I mean

Song JiYang: ohh honey. oh honey.......... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I have a natural affinity for aquarius ppl and this one lives in my heart rent free. I’d even make him soup if he’d ask.

Wang YiBo: WELL HOLY SHIT. listen. LISTEN! the hype around him is 100% justified imo he really is That Bitch and I love him so so much for it. Fucking ICON

Honorary Mentions: Gender Envy

Here’s to the People I Thought I Had A Crush On But Not Quite until I learned the word Gender Envy:

Zhu YiLong: Man, this is the person who’s mainly responsible for me finding out AT ALL about not being entirely cis. The POWER he holds!!! His performance as Ye Zun in Guardian was like a breakthrough point for me which. certain people witnessed in real time hahaha oh I love this fandom!!

Zhu ZanJin: HIM. AAAH!! He’s literally so beautiful and whenever I see him I just go ZANZAN!! in my head and in the tags bc. well. hIM.

Xiao Zhan With Long Hair: Look, Xiao Zhan is always amazing but BLESS the person who made these manips. I can finally rest.

Wang YiBo: uhh what’s he doing here again?? Tbh YiBo is one of the few, if not the only person that gives me Major Gender Envy that I would also [redacted] if they asked. Do I want to be him or be with him? The answer is Yes.

I skipped the fictional characters bc I tend not to crush on them 👉👈 Instead I will just directly crush on the actors/actresses lol!

Thank you for bearing with me. As a prize, you can choose between a ladder supported forehead kiss, or a bowl of homemade soup. ❤

[itgirlification]

supermodel | jjk

the last three months have been hell for you, but Jungkook seemed to be living his best life.

pairing: ex-bf!jk x thick!reader

warnings: explicit mentions of body image and insecurities, infidelity, anal sex, oral (male receive), foul language (kinda), etc.

now playing: supermodel by sza

part two part three

Exactly three months ago, your and Jungkook’s 2 years relationship officially ended. Unofficially, it ended about 5 months ago. And for about one month now, Jungkook’s been seeing someone else.

Your heart and mind told you not to do it but you couldn’t help calculating. Three months ago, you were still dating, two months later, he started dating someone else. That must mean he’s known her for a while. Did he cheat on you with her? Well, it’s not like it matters now anyway, does it?

Her name was Yuki, an undeniable Japanese beauty. You were still in college, studying music and she was a famous model who appeared in internationally known magazines. You assumed she met Jungkook during a photoshoot since he was a professional photographer who often worked for companies like Vogue and Playboy. You couldn’t help but compare yourself to her.

It wasn’t the fact that he moved on so quickly that hurt you the most. It was the fact that he knew all about your low self-esteem and how you lack confidence. Especially about your body. And he still went and dated a model, of all professions in the world. He was definitely over you.

If you didn’t know any better, you’d think he did it on purpose. But thankfully, you knew better, he looked too happy for that to be even considered. He forgot about you.

You’re making yourself sadder by remembering all the times he assured you you were beautiful and your body was nothing to be ashamed of. The times he let his fingertips run over the lines of your stretch marks, whispering in your ear how much he loved them and how they reminded him of Tiger stripes. The times he caressed your jiggly thighs and told you how sexy he thought they were.

Then your mind would drift back to the phone in your hand, the Instagram page of Yuki Sakurai opened, careful not to accidentally like anything and expose yourself. Not that she’d notice anyway, she had 3.7 million followers, while you had a private one with 500 followers and no posts, and she gets around 300 to 700 thousand likes on each post, depending on whether she posts random photos or pretty pictures of herself. Or newly, your ex-boyfriend, Jungkook. Oh, how crazy everybody goes whenever she posts him. People love them together. You couldn’t blame them. Two attractive people? Of course, they’re gonna look great together.

Fucking great.

That the end of your relationship with Jungkook would look like this was semi-predictable from the beginning. He did admit to you that he never thought he’d date someone that looked like you when you first dated. And your heart broke a little. But he also made up for it in those two years, it was a beautiful relationship nonetheless.

While you weren’t exactly his ‘ideal’ type, he was definitely yours. You always heard from other women ‘when in a relationship, the man always has to love the woman more than she loves him. Otherwise, it won’t work.’ You never really got the saying until your breakup with Jungkook happened. It was the fact that you clearly loved Jungkook more than he loved you that lead to this.

“Oh my goodness!”, your roommate, Jane, dramatically exclaimed. “Will you stop feeling bad for yourself and do something? That’s not what hot girls do, sis.���

Jane was a lovely girl with a not so lovely temper. She always means well and you got along perfectly as soon as you met. Which was around 3 and a half years ago.

She looked over your shoulder to see what you were looking at. You obviously didn’t want her to see you snooping around your ex-boyfriend’s current girlfriend’s Instagram but it was too late.

“Seriously, yn?”, she took your phone in her hand and threw it on the bed. “Let’s go somewhere, you can’t do this to yourself anymore. I’m not letting you.”

Jane was clearly worried about you at this point. The only thing you did these last few weeks was eating, shower, cry, sleep and miss a whole bunch of classes. This wasn’t good at all.

“Where?”, your question was short.

“To the mall? Or the nail studio? Anything that’ll get you out of this fucking dormitory.”, Jane sighed, pulling the blanket off of you, making you whine a little. “C’mon, go put on some cute outfit and we’ll go.”

You felt bad since she was trying hard to make you feel better. But it didn’t really work.

You nodded, standing up from the bed, nonetheless. You picked out a cute two-piece dress, that brought back blurred memories of the time you went on a date with Jungkook, wearing the same two-piece. Bet Yuki would look cuter in this...

‘Shut your petty ass up, yn. It’s embarrassing, the way you’re stuck on a taken guy who wants nothing to do with you’

You wish you could change the way you think, even if it’s just for an hour or two. You wish you would stop imagining Jungkook judging you when he saw you naked or when you told him that you wished you could cut off some of your fat with a pair of scissors.

You were beyond ashamed of yourself. Why wasn’t it easy for you to just stay by yourself? why were you so desperately in need of Jungkook by your side to the point where you’d lock yourself in your room for a month just because he isn’t there?

You needed Jungkook. You became so attached to him in those two years, because you always saw him as a permanent, a forever. Not just a temporary, not just a distant memory. You already saw him as the father of your children, as the man you’re gonna marry.

You were so blinded by the fact that you had him, that you forgot you could lose him anytime.

“I’m done, let’s go.”, unenthusiastically, you announced to Jane, who was already waiting for you.

“Let’s get the fuck outta here!”, In contrast to your spirit, hers seemed to be all roses and daisies. “Lord knows you need it...”

__________

“Look at this cute ass skirt, girl”, Jane pointed at a chic, wine mini skirt she was holding. “You know, when I saw it back there I wanted to have it, but it’d look so much better on you”

You took a few seconds to admire Jane’s beauty. She was about 3 cm taller than you, had a great posture, and almond, dark brown eyes that suited her dark skin tone perfectly. Her body leaned more towards the slimmer side.

“Shut up! No, it would not”, you let out a small giggle. “It would look gorgeous on you, buy it.”

She smiled a little at your laughs. She was happy to see you at least a little cheerful again. “Yeah, but I think it’d look better on you. I’m entitled to my own opinion, am I not?”

You knew this debate was gonna go back and forth, because of her stubbornness. “Let’s both buy the skirt.”

You ended up doing so, added by a bunch of bags full of clothing. This may’ve turned into your new coping mechanism. Who needed therapy when you can go on a shopping spree?

Two hours were spent in boutiques and clothing stores and Jane decided she was tired, wanting to visit the local spa.

“No, seriously, these Riverdale seasons just keep on getting worse and worse. Netflix needs to step up their game ASAP”, Jane ranted, making you laugh at how serious she takes it. “It’s getting embarrassing. I’m being for real.”

The two of you were sitting in the whirlpool at the spa, relaxing your whole bodies a little.

“Yeah, yeah, whatever, I don’t watch these new Netflix shows anyways. Been stuck on the vampire diaries for the last 7 years”, you chuckled, knowing you hated trying new things. “Can you pass me one of those magazines?”

Jane nodded, grabbing a random one from the table next to her and handed it to you, without looking at it.

The cover of it caught your eyes immediately. How could it not, when your ex’s new girl looks absolutely dazzling on the front page of it.

‘Supermodel Yuki Sakurai talks summer fashion tips, struggle with self-love and most importantly, her hot, new boyfriend the media is going crazy over’ was the headline of the Harper’s Bazaar Magazine cover.

You felt your stomach getting sick and your breath getting heavier, but you still flipped the pages until you found the one with her interview. You began reading it, skipping the boring parts.

‘Int: so, we see you have a new boyfriend. Tell us, how did you guys meet?

Yuki: Yeah, he’s an amazing guy. We actually met about six or five months ago at one of my photoshoots, since he’s a photographer and we exchanged numbers and stuff, and then we made it official mid last month.’

About six or five months ago? You were with him back then, but her answer was too unclear to find out if he cheated or not.

“Woah, yn, you okay?”

You entirely forgot about the fact that you were with Jane, let alone somewhere other than your bed.

Before you could react, Jane snatched the magazine out of your hand.

“You really can’t escape them, huh?”, She sighs, taking you in her arm. “It’s gonna be okay, baby. In a few months, you’re gonna look back to this and think wow I really was stuck on a guy who’s scared of microwaves and cried like a bitch when Iron Man died.”

You laughed, punching her arm playfully. “You know, I actually love these things about him. Shows his sensitivity and the way he perceives things.”

Jane looked at you as if she didn’t believe you were actually saying that stuff. “Girl, you’re overanalyzing this. Let’s just throw this shit in the trash, okay?”

She put the magazine aside.

“I just don't know what I did wrong.”, You murmured. “I know we weren't the best, but we didn't even fight that much. We could’ve talked it through.”

Jane pursed her lips and cooed. “You know, relationships are complicated sometimes. The reason why he broke up, to begin with, is probably not your fault.”

“Well, what if it is? I mean what if I was too fat or too ugly for him?”, you asked. “If he wanted a skinny girl so bad, I could’ve lost weight for him, I don’t get it.”

Jane looked at you like you lost your mind entirely. “I can’t believe you just said that! Even if that was the reason, which it wasn’t, you shouldn’t make yourself suffer because of it. That’s his loss. You’re beyond gorgeous and you have an amazing body.”

“You’re just saying that.”, tears slowly started coming up in your eyes. “But the thing is Jungkook knows all about my insecurities. Why would he do that to me? I know he knows that I’m still not over him.”

You usually didn’t like crying in front of other people, but you didn’t really care at the moment, besides that was Jane. You trusted her with your life.

“Girl, men are trash, I can’t believe you’re crying over one right now, seriously.”, she wiped your tears and held your face between her hands. “You know, honestly, I’ve read so many articles about how models actually hate themselves and have like the lowest self-esteem so in conclusion, no matter how miserable you are, his new girl is even more miserable.”

You knew Jane didn’t mean it in a harmful way, but it sounded harsher than needed. “I don’t hate her, she probably doesn’t even know about me. I’m just really insecure. He upgraded from me. He’s dating a whole model now.”

The situation just felt like a deja vu of these last few weeks laying in your bed, even though you were at the spa with your friend. You were supposed to have fun, yet you didn’t feel like having any.

“Why would you feel insecure when all you’ve seen of her are Instagram posts and red carpet pictures? She’s supposed to look beautiful, it’s her job.”

To a certain extent, Jane was right, but that didn’t really help your situation, you still felt bad about yourself. You stayed silent.

“C’mon, this isn’t fun anymore. Let’s leave.”, Jane mumbled.

_______

it’s been two days since the incident at the spa and you felt a little bit better now.

Those days were spent reading the same three book series you’ve read your entire life, overthinking, hot Cheetos, Indian takeout, and Netflix. It really wasn’t as miserable as it sounded.

You were just taking a little rest before term break ends and you have to go back to the shithole college again.

Jane was using the time until college starts again, but in different ways than you were. She was planning on going to some frat party in an hour and forget about the world’ for a minute. Or till 4 in the morning, where she will most likely drunk call you and ask you for a ride back to the dorms, because the friends she went to the party with were shit-faced as well and were in no way capable of driving anywhere without the cops stopping them.

Going out partying on a Friday night was a Jane tradition. In the past, you’d sometimes go with her, but you mostly spent your time out with Jungkook doing something more fun than partying could ever be. Now you can’t do that anymore, but laying in bed is more ideal than a party for you at the moment.

“How do I look?”, Jane twirled around to show off her black cocktail dress. She looked beautiful.

“You look beautiful.”, you responded to her question. “Are you leaving now?”

“Hm”, she said, to which you nodded. “You sure you don’t wanna come with me? It’s gonna be really fun.”

You shook your head no.

“Alright”, she shrugged, making her way out of your bedroom. “But I told you, it’s gonna be fun.”

You chuckled, rolling your eyes. “I’ll stay here, I have shit to do.”

“Yeah, right, like binge-watching the vampire diaries and taking 5-hour naps”, she said in a sarcastic tone. “Anyway, bye-bye, Vic’s already waiting for me in the car.”

Victoria was perhaps one of the most obnoxious people you know, yet she was too much of a nice person for you to talk shit about her. The voice of your intrusive thoughts couldn’t help but to, though.

“Alright, bye, take care and say hi to Vic from me.”

After Jane left, an hour went by like it was just a couple of minutes. You were starting to get real bored and decided to watch some regular tv in hopes to find something you enjoy. You ended up not finding anything fun, but you still watched it, because you didn’t have anything else to do.

A few moments later, the doorbell rang and you were suddenly worried. Either this is a serial killer or Jane forgot something.

But to your surprise, it was neither, but it was none other than

“Jungkook?”, truly, those were the only words you were able to mutter out at your shocked state. “What are you do-“

At the speed of light, you were interrupted by your ex-boyfriend pressing his lips to yours. He didn’t say a word.

You weren’t expecting him. Not knowing how you were supposed to feel at the moment, you just let it happen. You were sure your mental state couldn’t get any worse than that, no matter how this will affect you in the end.

“Is Jane home?”, for the first time in 3 months, you’re hearing his silky voice again.

Jungkook knew Jane always had some type of special hatred for him with her killing stares and her bitter comments. You didn’t notice either though.

He also knew she must hate him even more after your breakup. Or maybe she liked him more now since she was able to get rid of him without killing anyone.

“No”, your answer was short and it made a weight fall from Jungkook’s shoulders before he continued kissing you.

It wasn’t anything you haven’t done before, yet it felt like it’s been ages since it last happened. Your mind drifted to the thought of Jungkook and his model girlfriend. You were asking yourself what their sex life was like, if she was tighter than you or if she had stretch marks and scars.

Jungkook’s lips were moving south, giving your neck wet kisses, while you were wondering why he broke up with his model girlfriend. Or if he even did. You felt selfish for not caring.

Removing your clothes one by one, you were left in your underwear, while Jungkook only had his boxers on.

This body was yours. You knew it inside out. Where he liked to get touched and where he preferred not to. You knew him better than anyone else. You were sure.

You already moved to your bedroom, since Jungkook effortlessly carried you there. You were sat on his lap, facing him and your hands were in his messy hair. His hands were around your waist, he was slightly smiling into the kiss, as you started grinding on him. He loved how easy it was for him to turn you on. You were still his.

Cutting off the kiss, he looked you in the eyes, while his hand was on your cheek. “Say aah.”, he said.

You widened your mouth obediently, which was followed by him collecting as much saliva as he could in his mouth and spitting it into your mouth.

“Swallow.”, demanding, he spit on your face, his eyes become darker with every passing moment. You did as he said.

You looked at him with big eyes. He knew you loved it. You’ve always had a thing for him degrading and humiliating you during sex.

He started grinding on you almost desperately. You knew exactly what he wanted.

Getting out of his grip, you dropped to your knees and freed his hard dick from his drawers. You reached for it and started pumping it, and licking it. Your spit was leaking down his dick as you used it for lubrication. Then you started sucking on it, just the way you used to.

Jungkook’s groans and satisfied sighs were enough to make you even wetter than before. You enjoyed giving more than receiving.

Your mouth was wet and warm around him, giving him a feeling of familiarity. You lick over the tip a few times, then proceed to fully take him into your mouth.

The bulge in your throat could be seen and the way your eyes were tearing up a little wasn’t bothering you at all. You loved giving.

Jungkook started thrusting in and out of your warm, welcoming mouth, his tip hitting the back of your throat multiple times.

“Fuck”, a throaty moan left Jungkook’s mouth, giving you hints that he was about to cum. And he did, releasing in your mouth before you swallowed it. “Shit, baby, that was so good.”

You felt your face heat up and a sheepish smile made its way to your face. Your throat was sore.

The two of you were on the bed again. To you, it felt like it was the times before your breakup again, when you’d purposely start an argument just for the makeup sex because Jungkook wasn’t giving you any anymore. It was like sex was the only thing to look forward to.

You felt attached to Jungkook to a point where it was dangerous. You weren’t okay when he wasn’t around. He affected every part of your life and God knew it wasn’t always a positive thing. Maybe it was the fact that he took your virginity. Maybe because he was your first boyfriend, the first guy that made you believe you were worthy of love and that someone was actually capable of loving you. One thing you knew was Jungkook had an expansive influence on your life.

While you were practically drowning in your own thoughts, Jungkook was busy taking off your underwear.

“You okay?”, Jungkook calmly asked you, looking at your riddled face.

“Huh? Yeah, I’m okay.”, you sounded distracted, Jungkook wasn’t sure about asking you what it is though. He didn’t feel like getting personal.

So he shrugged it off and started kissing you again, his dick was unsurprisingly hard again as he played with your tits. He drew lines over the stretch marks of your thighs and kissed them.

“Can I fuck your ass?”, Jungkook’s raspy, tired-sounding voice casually asked, to which you quickly nodded, knowing that Jungkook’s favorite position had always been anal. He was massaging and gripping your ass firmly.

“This is gonna hurt at first, but I promise it gets better.”, He warned calmly into your ear, while putting some lube on his dick and just went right into your ass, slowly thrusting so you don’t feel as much pain.

He was right, it did hurt a lot when he first put it in, but the pain just changed into pleasure in a matter of time and his slow-paced thrusts helped with the adjustment.

“Fuck, I missed this ass”, he practically growled into your ear, as he kept on thrusting in and out, steadily gripping your wide hips with his big, veiny hands. “It just doesn’t feel right when I’m inside her ass.”

You knew your confidence shouldn’t rely on Jungkook bringing his girlfriend down, but you couldn’t help but feel good about your body when he said that. It’s been a while since you felt even a tiny spark of confidence. You weren’t so fond of him mentioning her while he was inside of you.

Your soft moans rang through the whole room like sirens, while he watched your ass jiggle against his pelvis, thrusting in and out faster every second. He missed this.

You had always thought you were indecisive, but you knew exactly what you wanted. You just couldn’t have that, so you’d eventually have to settle for less.

Jungkook wasn’t to blame for it, you just couldn’t concede your shortcomings. The movie’s villain wasn’t always the real villain.

Your hands traveled to your pussy to make sure you’d orgasm as well, when you heard Jungkook’s breathing getting heavier and his thrusts getting gentler than before, indicating that he was gonna cum soon. You were certain he could make you cum with just anal, but you wanted to cum with him.

With furrowed eyebrows and drops of sweat dripping down his body, Jungkook looked down at your arched back. The whole scene was sticky, especially when Jungkook presses his upper body to your back, whispering sweet nothings into your ear and kissing the spot.

It was kinda odd, having sex with your ex-boyfriend you were crying over just a day ago. There was a certain intensity to it though. Like your long-lasting nostalgia was finally fulfilled.

You’ve realized you couldn’t imagine yourself being intimate with anybody else. Jungkook already knew your body, how it looked without the material protecting it, the strawberry skin, the slightly sagging breasts you swore you’d surgically remove once you had the chance to but didn’t. He knew where you liked being touched, he was the first one to even touch you in those places.

You were unsure what you’d do with yourself when he leaves.

Jungkook’s thrusts slowly started stopping and you too felt the familiar sensation in your stomach.

Suddenly, you two were nothing but desire, fear, and pleasure. And faster than you could process, you came together.

For minutes after your orgasm, you were just laying on the bed, thoughtless. Maybe a little regretful. Not you, but him.

You weren’t facing each other, but you could hear each other’s breathing. Your stomach was filled with something you’d describe as post-sex melancholia.

All of a sudden, Jungkook stood up from the bed, startling your resting self a little, but you decided to keep quiet, wanting to see what he was going to do.

He made his way to the door to leave what he thought was your sleeping body laying there. You couldn’t keep quiet anymore.

“Where are you going?”, your soft voice suddenly rang in his ears. “Don’t you wanna stay?”

He didn’t know how exactly to tell you. You’ve always been a gullible little girl, you were the type of girl to think fucking equals love. Little did you know that wasn’t the case at all.

“Yn.... you know I can’t”, Jungkook responded, you knew it wasn’t gonna be good when he said your name like that. “I got a girl at home and I don’t wanna mess shit up with her.”

There it was. Your suspicion was corroborated. He was still going out with the model and you were a certified home wrecker. Great.

You physically felt your heart breaking. “Bu- but why are you here then?”

You were incapable of being mad at him at the moment. It was your fault for letting him in, again. After breaking your trust and your heart.

“This was a mistake”, he declared, not looking into your eyes. “I’m sorry, yn...”

He’s moved past your room now, already at the exit of your dormitory. He was about to leave.

“You already ruined shit with her when you came here and fucked me.”, your voice was small, but your words were heard.

Without looking back, he left.

And you went back to your room, standing in the middle of it for a minute in silence before your brain fully processed what had happened and your tears started pouring.

[bakulova]

Resident Evil Characters w/ a chubby S/o

Alcina Dimitrescu: 

I think because of her chest size and her thickness she herself would be a little chubby. She’d probably have a belly love pouch . So she would definitely  understand you if you were insecure about your body. But I also think she would help you love your body like she love on yours. When you are feeling very insecure about your body she will make sure to comfort you by kissing you everywhere and I mean everywhere stomach, legs, anywhere your stretch marks reach. Also when you try to go on a diet she will support you all the way but when she starts to notice its taking a toll on you, she stops you. she doesn’t want you to get hurt. She panics anytime you do that, she can’t help it. She definitely scolds you and shows her vulnerability after scolding you. Tearing up and holding you in her arms is a must. After that you kinda use that as a motivation to love yourself more. 

She walks into you guys bedroom to which she finds you crying. Tissues spread all over the bed. You mid blow. She takes off her hat and her gloves. She sits in the side of the bed and worriedly holds your hand. “My dear? What’s wrong” Your head held down “Nothing” She moves closer and holds you face with her hands. “Clearly something is wrong” you try to move away, feeling ashamed. “No don’t move away from me love. Please tell me what is wrong?” you sigh and look her dead in the eye “Some maidens were talking about my eating habits and... my looks, wondering how I could be with someone so beautiful like you...” her heart almost burst with rage. Eyes in flames wanting find this maiden and kill them. “Who was it my dear?” she caresses your face with her thumbs. You weakly say “the one with a big birthmark under her left eye” Alcina immediately knew. Her daughters were always telling her about this maid doing something stupid but she was her favorite maid because she got the work done. I guess the praise got to her head. Time to take care of the problem but for now comforting you is the top priority. She climbs all the way in bed and tucks you in, getting comfortable. she sighs and smells in your scent. She kisses the top of your head and runs her hands through your hair. “Don’t worry love she’ll be taken care of by tonight. Pay no mind to what any maids in this castle have to say. You are the most beautiful person in the whole world, don’t let worthless beings make you think otherwise.” You smile and look up at her and nod becoming more comfortable and less sad. Alcina now feels successful in the comfort part now she needs to finish the rest. 

Bela Dimitrescu:

Now with Bela, seeing as she is calm/quiet and the sister with the brains. She would see your struggles and silently observe. She secretly follows where you go seeing how you act by yourself. When she sees you crying to yourself in front of the mirror is when she’s had enough observing and more action. she dissipates into flies and appears next’s to you in a flash. She holds you from behind and puts her head on your shoulder, staring at you intensely.

“What?” you whisper weakly while sniffling. “Why must you do this to yourself? you’re perfect my love.” “You think so but I don’t” you snap back. She sighs and turns you chubby cute face towards her. Looking at your cheeks pushing your lips up reminds her of a fish, a cute one at that. She softly grins and kisses your soft lips. “Don’t cry my love. All that matters is that I find you delicious and hopefully nobody else or they’re gone.” she widens her smile. You nod and notice the blood on her face and quickly look back at the mirror and gasp “Bela this is disgusting” you say while wiping it off frantically, she starts giggling.You turn around and wet the rag you were using and start cleaning her to rid of the blood. She backs you to the sink (btw your in the bathroom and the door was open prob should’ve mentioned that before but oh well) her arms on either side of you, towering over you, licking her lips. You gulp at her sudden change. She leans in and kisses you deeply to which takes you by surprise by the passion in it. She pulls away leaving you wanting more and says “Please don’t tear yourself down my love, you’re beautiful as is...” you nod “as long as you keep kissing me like that forever” you both laugh and she takes hold of your waist and takes you to her bedroom for proper cuddling. 

Cassandra Dimitrescu:

OK with Cassandra she’s kinda in the middle yk. She can be a sadist but also caring but in a ‘I don’t show you I like you but trust me I do’ . She keeps tabs in you during the day. Checking up on you to see what you’re doing before going back to doing her thing. Whenever catching you feeling insecure she makes sure to try her best at showing her affection for you. Feeding you extra, kissing you, forcing you to cuddle with her. She just wants you to go back to normal. She doesn’t like to see you vulnerable. I’d also say she struggles to comfort you considering she likes to just kill, torture and mock her victims everyday so comforting is a change.  

You were just simply sitting in the library reading while having hot chocolate considering how cold it was outside. Some maidens were cleaning the dust near you. You took a split look in case you were in the way and you couldn’t help but see how skinny and beautiful they were compare to yourself. You look back at your book trying not to tear up. You shake your head and close the book, leaving the hot chocolate not feeling confident to continue the day. Walking in the halls trying to keep yourself from crying. You suddenly hear flies buzzing, knowing already who it was you paused trying to stop the tears from getting ready to overflow. “Hello my prey~~” Cassandra hooks her left arm around you shoulders and whispers into your ear “whatcha doin?” You shake her off and run off hiccuping crying. It didn’t help because she just followed you all the way to the shared room. You collapsed onto the bed, face buried into the pillows. The fly buzzing returns as disappears just as quick  as it came. You continue crying for some time, so long you thought she was gone. You sit up and look around seeing that she was standing there frozen. You stare in confusion. She then makes eye contact and moves forward and takes her cloak off for more comfort and climbs on top of your legs and kisses you deeply it shocked you. She pushes you back onto the pillows and continues kissing you. Once she’s satisfied with the make-out session she pulls away to admire her work. “So hot seeing you under me all flustered like that” you look away “No I’m not” she tilts her head “I’m not hot” you say annoyed. She gives you a stank face “You ARE HOT” emphasis on hot. You roll your eyes and try to cover your face but she caught your hands right before. “Don’t I wanna see your sexy face” “ugh Cassandra enough” she pauses for a second still holding your hands. she squints her eyes at you then just plop on you with her 6′4 self. “shut up YOU ARE SEXY and HOT. YOU ARE ALL OF THE ABOVE DEAR” it was so amusing to you that you started laughing and trying to push her off but to no avail. she stayed until she felt like you were feeling better. she sits up and grins down at you. “feeling better?” she raises an eyebrow. she admires you out of breath and stares to thing on 18+ things and grins widely. “if not I have an idea” her hands start creeping up under your shirt and that’s where we move on folks.

Daniela Dimitrescu:

Now Daniela is delusional right? so I don’t think she would notice until a maiden or someone said something bad about you. she wouldn’t even notice when your in a bad mood. She kinda clings to you wherever you go so nobody says anything to your face. but you can feel the judgey gazes. They look at you in disgust but daniela doesn’t see them blinded by you and your beauty. After a while of you pushing her away constantly you blow up. 

“DANIELA STOP LEAVE ME ALONE” she stops trying to cuddle you and her attitude changes. “w-what?” your eyes widened “I’m so sorry” you back away from her and run away while she stays still frozen staring at where you once stood. Her sisters gather behind her “Dani what’s going on? what was that?” Bela asked. She shrugs and starts to tear up not expecting that. she swallows the lump growing in her throat and excuses herself following fast after you. she finds you sitting outside under the gazebo in the courtyard... in the cold . she wants to run after you she can’t. she tries banging on the window careful not to break it but you ignore it. She curses and looks around and sees a nearby maiden and tells her to go out there a tell your ass to come back in but to bring a blanket. The maid instantly complies grabbing the needed blanket and bravely walks out into the freezing cold to you. she wraps the blanket around you and persuades you to come inside. You come in and immediately gets swooped up and brought into a room. A very familiar room in fact. You try to disappear into the blanket but nonetheless its torn from you and there is Daniela looking like a kicked puppy. It makes you feel so guilty. She pulls you in and sighs turning into a sob. one hand cups your head and the other your back. You both just sit on the ground holding each other. It felt like eternity before either of you spoke. “I’m sorry” you both say at the same time. You both giggle. She continues “I’m sorry for pushing your buttons my dear” she pulls away and caresses the hair out of your face considering it was windy and gross outside. You tiredly smile “no no this was my fault I was insecure and then blew up on you and worried you like crazy.” she purses her lips “no I’m pretty sure this was my fault for not noticing” she makes a funny face which makes you smile “I love you so much Dani” she blushes “I love you too s/o”

Karl Heisenberg:

This man now was taken away from his family when he was a child so he never grew up with affection. I think he would struggle with comforting you at first but he definitely gets better because he doesn’t like when the only thing good in this shit hole is depressed.  So expect him to just glomp on you and stay there no matter what. With this he would be patient no matter what, you getting annoyed for him just staying there but you soon realize it’s just to make you feel better. Kisses and sweet nothings are a must. He encourages you and makes sure you know you are everything and more. 

You were out and about at the village collecting necessities for you both. A group of men started whispering amongst each other. You didn’t mind it at first and continued shopping until you noticed that they were everywhere you were. Following you with judging looks. You shiver feeling the daggers stabbing your back. You sigh just wanting to get this over. The men started to get more bold and getting up close and acting like they were looking at the items. In reality they were giving you side looks. You continued to ignore until a burly musty man growled and shouted “I don’t know why were taking so long to get to the point!” You stop and look at him afraid now really wishing that Karl was here. You start to shake by how nervous you were. I mean imagine a group of men circling you and shouting at you. The men start getting too close and grabbing you and yelling in your face. Profanities are thrown around, degrading you for being who you are, manhandling but it all stops when 3 lycans come from nowhere and start attacking the men. The big burly man who started it tried to fight but figured out he didn’t have the proper tool to kill the lycan so he dropped the stick and ran for his life only to be stopped by Karl himself with more lycans behind him waiting to kill. The man bows before Karl. Begging for his useless life. This man was far over the edge to be given mercy. You hurriedly run to Karl tears falling. “K-Karl” he signals for you to go behind him. You quickly comply lycans coming up to you and rubbing their heads under your hand to which you pet them to calm your shaking self. Karl makes some sort of signal to which the lycans stopped attacking the men and leaving. Other villagers stopped breathing and watch this all go down. A woman comes up “Please please please forgive my foolish husband please!” she starts begging like her pathetic husband.  Karl snorts looking at her “Your husband and his fuck buddies need to pay for starting shit my sweetheart.” the wife starts to cry and looks at you “please please stop him. PLEASE” she starts to rush towards you only for Karl push her back so she falls next to her husband. Karl starts sucking his teeth “see now you shouldn’t have done that” he turns and hold your shoulder and starts walking away lycans making a path for the both of you. Hammer on one shoulder you on the other. He lifts his hammer into the air and lycans starting howling?? and rush towards to villagers who screamed and run. You get one look back to see the man being mauled to death. “Keep looking forward darlin. You don’t need to see that” You nod and lean you head against him sniffling. Once back at the factory he throws the hammer somewhere and the basket of stuff you bought on a table. He picks you up with ease and rushes off to relax with you. You spent the rest of that night being loved on and speaking about anything other than that. “I will always protect you buttercup” he whispers are you slip into sleep. 

Donna Beneviento:

Ok so I don’t know much about Donna but I know she is a quiet, shy and seems to be pretty insecure about herself specifically her face hence the face cover. So you too are struggling to support each other. But also trying to the best of your abilities. Like making sure the other is not lacking in an everyday things. I see Angie also trying to keep the spirits up by joking around and pushing you guys to do more. Also I think Donna craves for touch but to shy to ask. When she’s feeling insecure Angie will make sure to tell you so then you can go and hug her and love you. When its you who’s feeling insecure she and Angie will put a little something together with the help from other dolls. She surprises you by shyly giving it to you and waiting for your reaction. 

Donna hands you a box, gift wrapped any everything. Lately you haven’t been feeling thee best but you continued living. You had looked in the mirror recently and just watched. The way you looked. Moving your stomach around to how you wished it looked and smiling when doing so but when you let go you stop smiling. That kind of feeling. You look at her confused to which she gestures for you to open it. You start unwrapping the gift and open the box to see 2 puppets. Cloth ones. They looked familiar? Then you turned them over and realized it was you too. A little Donna and Y/N. You giggle at how cute it was and also realized that they were holding hands and the puppets looked so peaceful and so happy. You looked up at Donna who was playing with her hands. You put down the dolls and giver her a big hug to which Angie and the other dolls start cheering because they had work so hard thinking and putting this gift together. You carefully lift Donna’s face cover and warmly smile. “Thank you my dear. I love them” she blushes and slowly works up the confidence to make eye contact with you. When she finally does she gives you a nervous but happy smile back. You cup her cute face and give her a kiss on the lips to which she returns quickly loving the affection. Once you pull away she hold onto your wrist not wanting to stop holding her face. “I’m glad you liked it love” and for the rest of the day was spent cuddling and doing things together with the puppets sitting on the middle of the bed. 

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Note: This was not edited yet so excuse me if there are any words missing in a sentence I tend to think faster than I can type. Also I hope you liked this and more coming soon!!

[gaykey]

I hope I don’t make you uncomfortable when I say that I feel less weird when I see Shawols that still have a emotional attachment that is romantic or even sexual towards Jonghyun. They make me feel like I’m not alone having those feelings and that I shouldn’t be ashamed of it. That was why at first when I got back into SHINee, I was so scared to say that I love him like that until I saw other Shawols calling him sexy which made me blush knowing that I’ve been thinking like that for the longest time.

Thank goodness I make stories (like bias like fan hahah) and some art (kinda) so I could express in my own words about all the things I would do with this man if I could, but I feel like if I did, I would waste your time too much since we would be here all night if I have to 😭

It could just be me being a teenager since I could be very hormonal, but those fantasies are very strong and consistent. If there are any more Shawols that do have those feelings, I’d be happy to know!

— 🥋 (I decided to add my emoji at the end so you’d know it’s me if you don’t mind)

hello anon

it's completely normal to to have those feelings towards jonghyun, especially as a teenager.

he was a beautiful, talented, sexy, thoughtful, and loving individual, so, how could you not? don't feel ashamed about finding him hot. he'd appreciate it lol.

also yes, it's nice to see that people don't surround his memory with sadness and tragedy, or treat him like he wasn't a real person? does that make sense? like, seeing his sexiness and talking about it, is a part of loving and remembering him.

i mean, i'm not gonna look at a shirtless fancam of jonghyun and pretend i don't see his glistening abs xjhdjsksskl.

in regards to sexual y/n type fanfic though, ahhhhh, that kinda stuff makes me uncomfortable regardless of the members it's written about.

that's fine for you if you like to wrote it, anon. it's just not something i enjoy, or really like seeing in the tag.

but, yeah there are definitely plenty of other shawols that feel the same way you do.

[wildernessuntothemselves]

I really doubt Taehyun would kill oc. He says he would and based on his moral standards it would make sense. But he also said she was free and that he would let her go whenever she wanted to if she wanted to... and then when she said wanted out he clinged like hell and did not accept her wish. He kept that "I'm not begging you to stay. If you do it's on you." discourse for as long as he felt confident that she would stay, or as long as he was able to maintain the facade of confidence, but as soon as he took off his ego mask she showed some cute vulnerable stuff but also started throwing tantrums and saying anything and everything to convince her to stay. He is not so sure of himself as he tries to sell himself to be. He would bend and break the same way he has before.

About Kai and Wonyoung being an item. I feel like it wouldn't really have a lot of long term potential for family rivalry reasons. But while she was at the castle? They both pretty, they both single, they both stressed, they both had the same momentary goal of getting oc out of there, they both had life experiences in common that probably no one else could relate to, they were staying at the same place for a while with nothing better to do... so why not? Very convenient. Like medieval version of a summer fling. Cute shit.

Oh, and as much as I am team Gyu I kinda want to see one more Taehyun smut scene. Just because in all of his smut scenes he was still pretty basic and formulaic (which make sense for both his persona and the general climate in the relationship at the time) in bed. I wish we could have one last desperate fuck where he just let go and let pour out every hidden kink he was too ashamed of acting out with her before. I don't know... I just feel like they never went past "I man, you woman, my stick, your hole, my pleasure, cum out, baby in (failed), optional bonus blowblow".

Or... we could have Beomgyu hold Taehyun prisoner at one point somehow and force Taehyun to watch him pleasure oc ~properly~. Imagine the utter shame and disgrace that Tyun's moralistic ass would feel if he came untouched on his pants, while chained to a wall, from watching his wife go wild for another man's dick. Oooh that would look interesting. Let them tease him for it and make him beg and confess his fantasies and shameful thoughts while drowning in tears, over the fake promise of them offering him release.

I am on a mean mood today. Emotions temporarilly turned off I guess. Keep feeding me, please.

~♡anon

i would say that it's a bit different now because she's his wife and can't just leave but yes you make an important point about how he chose to go about it. he wasn't like "fine go but know that you will be punished for it" no he broke down and clung onto her. but again with someone like taehyun that instability could be dangerous. he may seek to kill her so he can prove to himself that he doesn't care, the same way he did with jaeyun and kai. he feels not in control rn and he feels like he was made a fool of so he may retaliate harshly

exactly! the kai and wony thing is a background thing at most. yeah it probably serves no plot purpose and could be taken out without causing any issue but like it makes sense if this was real life.

honestly i'm not sure tyun even HAS kinks lmao boy is hella repressed and doesn't really allow himself to think of those things, but maybe i did miss out on giving them a desperate, emotional fuck :') i just wanted to get the chapter out and wasn't ready to write a whole proper smut scene for them lmao

fuuuuuck that idea is so sexy and I could technically do it and gyu is definitely petty enough to do it but idk man that would crush tyun even more and boy has already suffered so much 😭 but like the idea of tyun getting to see how oc wanted to be treated and how he missed out on it because he was so stubborn and prideful and then having to contend with the fact that this actually turned him on and he wanted to cum even though morally and logically he hates it so much 😭

i'll try to keep feeding you babe and i hope you feel even a tiny bit better ❤️

[alaskasmonsters]

(Divine) Dog Cuddles | Fushiguro Megumi

the divine dogs aren't just useful in a fight against curses but also when faced with emotional battles.

pairing: fushiguro megumi x gn!reader

w.c: 1.592

warnings: reader being sad? other than that none

a.n: this one is kinda bad (just lowering the expectations beforehand lol) but i still hope you enjoy it!

There was a soft knock on his door and when Megumi opened it he found you standing in front of it, nervously shifting around as you fiddled with your fingers.

You looked cute, he noticed.

Your hair was disheveled and your face clear of any makeup. You were only wearing an oversized hoodie with, what he recognized to be, pikachu shorts underneath.

Yes, you looked cute.

He opened the door a little wider and you scurried inside, face lighting up when you noticed the divine dogs were already summoned, sitting in front of his bed. As soon as they saw you entering they had started wagging their tails and you smiled happily.

He didn’t know how you had done it, but they liked you. Megumi had never seen the dogs so excited to see someone. They were usually nonchalant, not paying much attention to the general humans as they were fixed on curses. With you there was a difference.

He couldn’t help but ask himself if maybe that was because of him, if they could pick up on his feelings for you and liked you because of that.

You were already kneeling on the floor and eagerly patting the dogs heads and they happily rubbed their heads against your hands, panting.

Megumi sat down on the bed behind you, eyes watching you with fondness as you started talking to his dogs in a baby voice and caressed their fur and scratched behind their ears.

He hadn’t asked why you had wanted him to summon the dogs, he felt it was inappropriate and out of place after you pleaded him over text, the desperation clear as day. The humor all your interactions naturally included had been missing.

You were a person that hardly took anything too serious.

In the beginning he wasn’t too sure what to think about that, or you, for the matter. You’d joke about everything, no situation deemed too serious or professional to not make humorous comments.

That was probably why you got along with Gojou-sensei so well. Both of you were utter crackheads at times, hardly ever responsible with the words you were spouting.

In every area, that was.

When you had started making comments about being attracted to the King of curses, and how absolutely “hot and sexy” his “tatts” were... the bluntness and insolence your words held, it had shocked him.

You were always upfront and naively honest about everything that went on in your head, and despite your silliness he learned to respect that about you.

He also realized rather quickly that your humor was part of your charm and that despite mostly cracking jokes in any given situation you were well aware of the seriousness of the matter. When push came to shove you could put aside your penchant for humor, although never completely and get the work done.

He liked that about you.

Megumi had grown quite fond about all the little behavioral traits you exhibited, that made you you. While in the beginning, when the two of you had just met, he hadn’t thought much of you, now you belonged to the very few people he respected very dearly.

So much, he had reconsidered questioning you about your reasons for wanting to see the divine dogs this late at night, when you messaged him. He had decided he could still ask you when you arrived at his door, but then he’d seen your messy appearance and it had thrown him off guard.

And now you looked so peaceful with your hands buried in his dogs’ fur, that cute little smile on your lips. You were so content in that moment, he’d feel bad if he interrogated you now.

He almost decided to just let you be, lie down and pretend to read a book so he could watch you subtly without it seeming creepy.

Then white dog licked over your cheek and for some reason it seemed to trigger something inside you, because the next moment you suddenly buried your head into the dog’s furry neck, clinging to him tightly.

Megumi watched in surprise.

That was a little too affectionate, even for you.

Only then he noticed your shoulders were shaking with every breath you took and the almost inaudible sound of sniffles that reached his ears. You were crying.

Black dog, who had noticed as well, dropped his head into your lap and although he was a little surprised on how well adjusted they were with the emotional depth of a human, he was feeling a little useless in comparison.

He wanted to help you, as well.

“Y/n...” he started, deciding that if he wanted to comfort you as well it was better to do it now, “are you feeling alright?”

Despite the attempt to keep his voice as calm and monotone as he could, he still feared the question alone had been crossing a line.

One thing he had noticed about you was that although you seemed to be perfectly aligned with your emotions and fine with others knowing about your state of mind at any given moment, considering how naively honest you were, you were actually very private in that matter.

You were often honest about the superficial feelings you experienced in situations and weren’t ashamed of crying when it seemed appropriate, say when dealing with a sad movie (a story about dogs...those seem to always get you), but what you showed to others was only the surface of it all.

You chose carefully what you wanted to share with the rest of them all, and to Megumi’s disappointment you never came to him or anyone else when you were experiencing serious sadness.

Well, you hadn’t been until now.

At his question you had pulled back slightly, just enough so Megumi could hear you, but still too hidden by the fur for him to see your face.

“Yeah, sorry...i...i’m just feeling a little emotional that’s all,” you replied softly, voice strained from tears.

If he was a little closer to you he would have deemed it appropriate to hug you, but he knew that the both of you weren’t on that level, yet.

“May i ask why?”

You chuckled, probably at his choice of words. That was okay, though, it seemed to cheer you up a little.

“Just haven’t been feeling all too great, missing my family a little bit,” you muttered, one hand reaching out to pat the head of the dog lying on your lap as you kissed the top of the white dog’s head.

Megumi hummed, encouraging you to continue talking. He wanted to know what made you feel this way and preferably how to make you feel better, if you’d only let him.

“I...you know dogs, when you pet them you release all these happy hormones? Like serotonin, oxytocin and prolactin. It calms you down, that why dogs are often used as emotional support animals, too,” you explained in a quiet voice, unusually shy about what you were saying.

Megumi couldn’t figure out why.

“I didn’t know that,” he admitted, because he hadn’t.

He never had a dog, an actual one, or known anyone with a dog and although the divine dogs may appear similar to the animal, they weren’t real dogs, either.

“Yeah...i know it’s not really the same but i thought maybe your dogs would have a similar effect and petting them would make me feel better,” you continued, before hastily adding, “I’m sorry, i am totally exploiting you for selfish reasons.”

Megumi couldn’t help but shake his head at your remark, partly fond of how you were concerned about him, partly confused why’d you even come to that conclusion.

“I am happy that I can help you feel better, if only through my ability to summon the divine dogs.”

That was the first time you turned to look at him since you’d stepped into his room and the smile you were giving him was absolutely blinding. Your red eyes seemed to sparkle at his comment, too.

“You’re too kind, Megumi.”

He returned your smile, hoping it was just partly as reassuring as yours was.

The both of you sat in silence, Megumi racked his brain for a way to distract you even more from thoughts of homesickness and cheer you up but his mind came back blank.

He wasn’t really the best when it came to ted talks, Itadori would have been a much better candidate for that, or Gojou sensei, who was specialised at distracting others with his silliness. If only he were a little more competent in one of those areas.

“I think they like you.”

He didn’t know why he had said it, it was just the first thing to come to his mind.

You looked up in surprise, the white dog nudging you into your side when your hand stopped moving though its fur. Your eyes fell down at it in confusion and then a wide smile broke out on your face.

It was beautiful. Blinding.

“You think so?” you ask happily, turning back to look at him for a second, before resuming to pat the dog in your lap.

Megumi watched, smiling softly at the exchange.

“Yeah.”

You hummed in content.

Maybe he wasn’t too bad at it, judging by your lightened up features and the soft upwards curve of your move as you continued coddling his dogs.

Anyway, if you asked him, he’d summon the divine dogs for you anytime if that gave him an excuse to have you around more.