#[ the inauspicious ] (noel)

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You know how they turned Maya's brother into a monster in B.O6 zombies? (I speak as if all my mutuals knew of C.OD zombies but shhh humor me) That's Noah's fear with Noel, because you'd best believe Hyles has kinda indirectly threatened him with that (and he definitely has tampered with his body instead of searching for a cure).

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@dollhidden the last gif is definitely Death to No-el if he forgets his manners again I swear, lmao!

Park Hae Soo as Lee Chan Woo in By Quantum Physics: A Nightlife Venture (2019)

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[ Extracting Transmission from { DEATH (@dollhidden)} ∗ 39﹕ sender is caught following receiver . ]

It's almost morning. Almost dawn, he feels it in the lingering dew of the grass, the way he knows the pavement is still cold, the sun's rays are yet to be seen, but the light approaches... Just as someone approaches him.

No. That's not right. He is being followed. But it's not just any kind of following, this feels different. He thinks to ignore it, but doing so felt even worse. So, he stops and turns over. When was it that he had noticed the presence there? Why, it felt like he had been feeling that person's aura all his life...

When he turns, it's a chill that runs through his spine, threatening to break it as he stares the woman down. The day feels colder, despite the slow approaching light of the sun. The sky is dim.

"Why?" His voice cuts before he can form a full question. That lady unnerves him – would make anyone uneasy, he is sure. It's like he is staring at someone he should not. "Why are you following me?" Asking that question makes his skin crawl...

It was almost morning. Almost dawn...

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Noel is definitely better at handling his emotions than Noah is.

It's a little ironic since Noel is the one having to deal with his terminal illness and the abuse over at the labs. He is being contorted into a monster while being promised that he is making progress and might be healed, in the long run. He's at a point where he doesn't really believe it, but these people have a tight leash due to the grip they have on his brother and vice versa.

On the other hand, not only does Noah have 115 fucking his brain constantly, despite not making his body sick, but he also has a lot of pent-up frustration that makes him volatile and even more unstable than usual. The leverage his higher-ups have over him, among those his brother's safety and the promise of a cure, is enough to drive him insane and he feels he has no one to rely on with this – he can't put that pressure on his brother, and he doesn't have any real friends.

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Okay but... this sort of besties for Noel? More than half the time he is locked up at the labs but like... he is subjected to sadistic trials mainly inside the labs but we can make it work... Like, do you see the vision with this scene? I NEED BESTIES connecting by trauma and whatever. Like it could be a scientist, a nurse, an innocent bystander whatevs. Maybe they see the effects of his experimentation and such, a little monstrous outburst. They get ready to defend themselves when he seems not to respond to them, but instead of hurting them, he manages to protect them? Idk idk something something besties like this for Noel pls I beg, he'd love the hell out of them.

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[ Extracting Transmission from { DEATH (@dollhidden) }: i don't know why god does a lot of things. ]

"I know why," No-el responds as if he were waiting for this moment his whole life. It was something he himself had thought of before, because he lived in that strange limbo of believing and also not believing in God. He debated with himself about it, because no sign was truly ever enough. It was Death who made him think that, maybe, there really were bigger things at play.

"It came to my head when I was being pumped full of this one stupid drug that fucked my body real bad. I was in so much pain I almost begged to be killed. Hah, it's almost silly how pathetic I must've looked, how easy it is to strip out values, beg to everyone and everything for the pain to end – even things you don't really believe in. I wondered then why god, if he existed, would allow such a thing..."

He is sitting on a couch – laying down, more like, after having another coughing fit. He barely remembers the question that prompted such an answer out of her, or if he ever even truly asked anything, but it was somewhat of a relief to know that she didn't know... She is unreachable, but this did make her feel a little closer, he doesn't understand that feeling, but he accepts it.

"It's boredom. God does most things due to boredom. He created us to his image, he is just like us. Most of the things he does, he does out of sheer boredom. Pure boredom. You could ask him next time you meet to confirm, yeah?"

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[ Decrypting New Transmission for @wakingdrcams ' Nijah ]

"Aghh, I really fucked up this time..." No-el doesn't even know how he managed to reach the nearest garage without the motorcycle toppling over and breaking completely. He was so out of it that he hadn't even realized where he had ended up... If anyone asked, he'd say he just had a minor crash, but his ribs – and his spinning brain – begged to differ.

His first thought was to get the motorcycle back in shape. He approached the establishment with a slight smile, despite internally feeling not only bothersome pain, but a lopsided worry about the damn vehicle. It's fine, No-el, they can fix it, he repeated to himself as the motorcycle practically screeched and pleaded to stop being pulled into the place. The man stops and, once he tries to look for aid, despite making contact with what seemed to be an intimidating man, his eyes widened before he smiled.

"No way! Big Brother?" The nickname rolls over with ease, taken from old, but fond memories. He rushes over to him, with an excitement no different from that of a puppy.

"Oh man, this is great, my luck is turning around! I am in need of your help! ...Just like old times, right?" There's a glow to his gaze as he watches this piece of his past live in his present.

The No-el back at the orphanage would've thought about it at least three times before trying to ask for his help... or anyone that wasn't his brother. Now? Now he had turned a new leaf, trusting others more – maybe a little too much, even. It's only now that he has Nijah in front of him that he realizes that maybe he should've appreciated the man's efforts a little more, back then. He should've tried harder to keep in touch.

"I take it you work here now?" His smile falters a little as he states the obvious question, unsteadiness rising. Where was he again...?

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I got something akin to sleep paralysis yesterday and I was anxious about taking a nap today despite how tired I was (I eventually took it anyway, thankfully), so I'm just putting that situation on Noah as if he doesn't have other problems with sleep to deal with already.

But also, let me take this chance to say that Noel has vivid dreams, but they're really bizarre. Despite that, he doesn't really notice it's all a dream until he wakes up. Coincidentally, he wakes up a lot during the night, whether it is due to bad dreams or no real reason at all.

Also, also... sleeping alongside someone else they trust, though? That might help them out with at least having a good rest, for a change.

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No-el had been anxious, nervous, and overjoyed. He leapt over to the savior of the hour once he successfully fixed the car. It was like a culmination of all of his emotions. After all, he was convinced that anyone who laid eyes upon John would instantly develop a crush on him – just like it had happened to him. When he steps away and John speaks, he can't help but laugh, his cheeks flushed. Yeah, maybe he had taken this sudden chance to get a kiss, and yeah, maybe it wasn't the right time, but it seemed John wasn't complaining about it at all.

"I'll make sure to go to you every time a car needs fixing, then." And there he was, staring right back at him, bright as the sun. It's only Maeve and Annie's voice that cuts the moment out as he turns with an apologetic expression back at the two girls and then returning to John and glancing at his bleeding forehead, eyes widening.

"Oh, shit! I mean, wow– I... are you alright? That does not look like just a scratch. Here, give me a second! My brother is a physician, so I've been watching him stitch people up here and there... Let me take care of you, yeah? I should have a kit in my bag." No-el offers quickly before extending his hand to John. "Let's get back in, I'll treat you quickly."

16. a desperate kiss to your wounded muse (reverse so Noel does this to Homie 🥹) @detnu-a-h (gasp!! I love No-El!!!!aaahh!)

The kiss came out of nowhere yet is a pleasant surprise, a moment he’s trying to gain his stand and the next his arms are full of Noel, kissing him naively and fast on the lips. John’s brain stops working, he stumbles backward so they won’t topple over by their weights collide “woah!” he’s breathless, feeling his cheeks burning “didn’t know fixing the car has this much of effect on you! I’d do it sooner..” still smiling down at the boy like an idiot not an idiot, you’re just hopeless romantic! That he is.

“yeah yeah, we had enough of John saving the day, now, get back in the car you two!” Maeve says from the driver seat of the van, her girlfriend, Annie, pokes her head out from the window “you two okay?”

John, still with his arms around Noel “yeah! Was just a little scratch!” his forehead still bleeding though.

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Noelcore... Baby boy. Gentle, friendly, approachable.

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Noah & Noel, in that order.

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[ Extracting Transmission from @dollhidden's Dong-kyung -> No-el: can you close the blinds? ]

Concern is quick to write itself along his features when Dong-kyung speaks up in a tone that is barely perceptible. First, he does as he is told, running to close the blinds of the room, pulling the curtains hastily. Then, he is rushing towards where she is laying down.

"Is it getting bad right now? Do you want some water?" For all the experience he thinks he has from his own illness, he is still at a loss as to how to take care of the girl. Well, their illnesses were different, and they were different people, it was bound to be a challenge.

No-el is inclined to want to surpass challenges. So, here he is, being as attentive as he can, almost like a drone hovering over here as if she were to fade if he didn't keep his eyes on her.

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😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

💧 DROPLET - random angst headcanon

☁️ CLOUD - a soft headcanon

( for No-el! )

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

Oh man, No-el is a softie! For serious things, it's definitely pain but also hurting his loved ones. He's such a crybaby when any of those happens. But also, put him a sad novel, TV show, song, you name it, he's probably going to shed a tear because of it. He cries easily when it comes to sad things, for sure. Tears of joy are harder to come by, for him.

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

Surprisingly, yes! He says that's why he was born first, because he is an early riser. First thing he does is definitely stretch. He gets a little fatigued at night and his sickness does make his muscles stiff when he doesn't move much, so his body feels exhausted in the morning and one of the best ways to jumpstart it is with stretches.

💧 DROPLET - random angst headcanon

Apparently, my angst brain is not on, so I am drawing blanks but... When his sickness starts getting worse than usual, his defense mechanism prompts him to try and cut out the relationships he has formed. He is scared of making people feel bad if he were to die, so he desperately tries to cut ties. He's tried it a bunch of times with No-ah, but his twin knows his intentions and does not allow it. But he has cut off some friends and even potential boyfriends just because of his fear of making them suffer when he is gone, or even thinking of them having to deal with taking care of him. He doesn't like seeming weak or forcing others to care for him in that way. It makes him suffer a lot because he loves being sociable and cutting ties always sinks him into a rough depression, but he usually can't sustain many of his friendships for too long because of his fears.

☁️ CLOUD - a soft headcanon

Again, on the subject of friendships, No-el is a great friend (aside for when he tries to distance himself). He is a desperate people-person. He initially was very reclusive, only connecting with his brother and vice versa, but as time went by, he tried to form friendships aside from him and he liked it. He goes above and beyond for the people he loves. He'd give anything for them – he even tries to keep tab on the friends he left behind. Though he's not the best at gift giving, he does like to give gifts here and there, send little messages like "good morning" or "how are you?" at random intervals just to get to share with people. He's usually the one to begin conversations both online or out. (I need to learn from him lmao) He is an even better boyfriend (material) kind of, but he really needs to regulate his level of dedication, sometimes. He can get very love-bomb-y which can be concerning for some, but he really does it out of a place of love and not manipulation. (But if Hyles has taught me anything, it is that even things that come from a place of love can be quite detrimental... so there's that.)

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[ Extracting Transmission from @dollhidden 's Ji-su -> No-el: “I wasn’t crying.” ]

No-el's head tilts naturally the moment she replies. Eyes squint, scrutinizing the answer, waiting for more, as if she hadn't finished the sentence. And he waits a little longer... Just a bit more...

Nothing.

"Hey... It's bad to lie, you know? Not only will it lead you to purgatory, but it'll also make me cry. So, please, reconsider." That's it, that's all he says, crossing his arms, leaning to see her closer, see if he can convince her to open up.

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When I was brainstorming to make them, I feel like I assumed that No-el would be the more problematic/inherently crazy of the twins, but as I've developed them... No-el is animalistic by circumstance, while No-ah is animalistic by nature and that's crazy to me. Like No-ah actually might be the real deranged one out of the two, and not just because of 115 messing his brain up... It probably just enhanced it.