#[ rpers? who play CONTENT? its more likely than u think ]

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in other news: hitting inno ex enrage at 4%

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GOD it drives me insane ppl who get defensive when we complain about a lack of f/f content in fandoms are always like "waaah why are u forcing people to write about/be attracted women!!" like ??? no one is saying that. literally no one. i couldnt give less of a shit if youre not attracted to women. its not about yall. but fandoms have a lot more wlw and bi/straight men than you think, and these are the people that id assume would have a lot more interest in f/f shipping not... yknow... gay men and straight women

on a similar and more cherp-specific vein, it drives me insanely that a lot of the f/f or m/f content you CAN find on cherp is wildly hypersexual, and/or very misogynistic. not that theres anything inherently wrong with smut but it reallyyy seems like most of the userbase who even bothers to write or roleplay with female characters only sees them as (often completely flanderized) sex objects. m/m shippers complain a lot about there being too much or not enough of a certain m/m ship they like, but at least yall have prompts where your favorite characters are still treated like people :/

Lords above I know that the treatment of female chars, esp. lesbian ones, on Cherp is horrendous. Just. LHGDKHFGKLDFG. There’s a reason I’ve stepped away from playing female characters, ngl.

But yea. Like. F/F RPers are allows to complain about there not being enough F/F content. They’re not saying you have to make some. Same with M/F RPers. Unless someone specifically comes up to you and starts saying that shit, no, no one’s targeting you. 

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I think we all agree that I'm jumping on a bandwagon here. Regardless, here's my very first Follow Forever for this blog. I've reached a milestone, one I'm cleverly not expecting. While I'm here to thank the people who had made the past year an enthralling experience to behold, I'm also here to admit that 2016 was not entirely the best time for me. It was in fact the worse I've been through as a person and a human. My mindset had been challenged a lot during the past few months and I've somewhat tripped over there.

I've hurt a lot of people.

I've done bad things that I regret. I've said things I didn't mean and perhaps I did but never felt bad about it. I want to apologize to the people I've thrown under the bus in my way of getting here, in my way of being somewhat accepting of who and what I am now. It had been a rough moment and honestly could've gone better but I am happy with how everything is right now. I wish to thank people who had given me a chance. Who had taken their time to get to know me in spite of knowing how bad I could get and saw me beyond who I was trying to be on the surface.

So here's to you.

Here's to everyone who made my year enjoyable both as a writer and as a person. While I haven't included everyone in this list, do know that I appreciate every single one of you nonetheless.

@chivalrybled @fxtalwinter @hcnterhcnted @rasaxyana @blostm-mera @best3star @bandxids @destructionpersonified @womaninsuit @ladydiaochan @hisrequicm @viciousharem @motherfuckingflatescardos @bcbyfct @porteur-of-arondight @seduire @sacreddecree @moonhacker @cfdualities @arcturias @sxlais @motherfuckingprincessofknights @sweetpsalmist @knightbled @lmperiality @vormond @grand-order-girl @motherfuckingshadowoftheheir @elegxntwish @motherfuckingredsaber @pharaouhai @masterlost @motherfuckingsonofsurya @arihiime @motherfuckingsanechaldeamaster @safiirimaagi @todesarie @kcguya @chaoxtheory @avengerangramainyu @culannsvicioushound @motherfuckingincubusmage @chimericlunarmagi @sesshosekiii @bowofbenbulben @scathanna @verdegenesis @ask-ishtar @motherfuckingcattlequeen @motherfuckingkendoteacher @the-little-german-mage

And here's my personal messages to people I'm very fond of.

@rosaxui - the light of my life. the sweetest and strongest person i know. thank you for being there for me more than anyone. i'm grateful to you up until this day and know that it will never be forgotten. thank you for allowing me to be weak without making me feel that i truly am. you've been my shoulder for a long time already, ten months to be exact. we've come a long way, hina. i'm glad you let me stayed when i was willing to run away and never come back. i love you to bits, u pupper.

@leternelle - nat the amazing!!! such good jeanne. 10/10 would talk about the lord with. anyway, jokes aside, i'm glad i became your friend. now we don't talk often outside of rping and i wish we could change that but all in all, it had been a pleasure and i hope it stays that way.

@septemus - what can i say? your ability to roleplay complex characters astound me and it always takes me aback at how knowledgable you are with them. for sure you've done plenty of research and i admire that. i also admire the fact that you're not afraid to voice your thoughts aloud. stay brave, kouhai.

@solisnumen - a longtime kouhai of mine, hell! longer than anyone. ren, i cannot be any more proud of you than i already am. from the first time we've met and then to be reunited for accidental reasons was??? such a blessing. our friendship is one living proof that fate is kind. look at how good of a writer you've become! so splendid and so talented.

@ridehercrop - ches the ultimate sinner but also the most laid-back person i know. thank you for being so accepting of my ailill and i'm happy that you enjoy the ship as much as i do! hopefully we can develop it more and have more threads because hell, it's always a roller coaster to write with someone like you

@thecutestarcher - my kouhai who never fails to make me fall in love with all his muses. starfish, you are a blessing and your writing? i love its depth and i still remember you writing me a poetry when i was in my worst mood. that stuck to me so much. i'm so glad we've met and we're apparently salty about similar things. what a blessing

@inverted-iris - dear kouhai of mine who never fails to make me smile and always make sure i'm alright and comfortable. scarfy! there are no words to describe how good of a friend you are to me. i always want to return the same favor and although i'm still struggling with that kind of approach, i hope you can allow me the time to return the same treatment because you deserve it just as much as the other people you've been there including me.

@magnificentgoldenking - mags the god-tier gilgamesh. you and sieg had contributed a lot in my uplifting last year. if it weren't for you and him, i wouldn't know where i'd be. thank you for being a talented writer and an admirable person in general.

@pinksaltfreckles - 2016 had been a sucker for us, you especially. i hope this year is kinder to you and your health, both physical and mental. you're a strong person sieg and i know you've faced more difficult feats and for that you are worthy of admiration as well as with your writing and overall just being a true friend to me. my dash wouldnt be complete without you and mags around.

@arthoria - im love u. the king arthur of my heart and the prince noct to my ignis. arty we haven't been friends for a long time but the talks we've had from last year up until now is something that i cherish especially that one heart to heart talk we've had. i think i've gotten an inkling of what you are as a person not just an rper by spending time with you though short each moment may be. im love u!

@actuallycuchulainn - ayy the wonderful cu! we don't talk a lot but you are such a cool person. i've seen you a lot in my other blogs but having a talk with you as a mun directly somewhat made me feel relieved. thank you for being accepting of my ailill as well and enjoying his character means a lot to me. hopefully we can converse more because woah i really adore you and your cu!

@lancerofclay - jp the worst!!! THE WORST BECAUSE U MAKE ME CRY SO MUCH I HATE U WHY DO YOU ALWAYS GIVE ME GILKIDU FEELS i didnt sign up for this pain! but i also secretly enjoy it because gilkidu. the number one clay enthusiast and im so glad so blessed so moved that i can be the gil to your perfect enkidu

@venatrixarcum - i'm not sure if you still remember that one time you messaged me on my karna telling me that i shouldn't be affected by what others think of me and keep his blog. tbh i still regret up to this day that i didn't believe in you but i'm also contented on where i am now. thank you for that solid advice. im beginning to think of other's opinion less and gained enough confidence to remain here.

@honcrous - mari!!! the grand deer mud. from your graphics to your writing, what more can i say that people haven't told you already? regardless, i still wish to say it myself that you are a gift to this world not just because you're playing a hot bara chivalrous dad or a really angsty teenager but because you've stayed with me despite the ups and downs and im so, so, so grateful for it.

@revolutionaiire - earl. one of the many people i've lost and somehow by miracle gained back! you know me better more than anyone in this list. you also know how bad i could get and you've witnessed how rubbish i was in the past few years. even so, that did not regress you from allowing me to be a part of your life again. thank you so much. you make being born in this kind of world not so bad.

@small-waifu - hey bae! we don't talk often outside of rping but i want you to know that i truly enjoy your writing and in fact i've gotten really sappy when it comes to writing with you. i find myself being excited about it because woah, that details and that characterization is just?? wow. i'm amazed, truly. you're awesome. i just wanted you to know that.

@lapxus - lola!!! my gahd. we've been rping for a long time! talked about random stuffs and have rped with different characters but here we are still! and you remain as the grand writer with prose i'm envious of. i like the flowery details and how it's so deep and meaningful without it becoming purple prose. you've made staying on this side a lot of times bearable for me and i haven't told you that enough. thank you!!! and also bless you for writing the best female characters