#[ ones trash is another's treasure -aflockoffeathers]

[ducknotinarow]

[I had to xD also, i feel if Mikey heard this he'd be offended Von didn't go to him for advice for this u_u]

"Raph, should I wear the red dress or the black dress?" Von huffs, "I need an opinion, but Don's being a pain in the ass and just not answering."

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Raphael had his feet kicked up on to the coffee table remote in hand as he was clicking through the channels giving each a few second at best before he flipped to the next one there wasn't really anything on that he had seen that caught his attention as he continued to surf the channels. Mikey was hanging behind the couch arms resting just a bit by Raphael's head. Clearly had wanted the TV for themself but Raph beat Mikey to it so they were left to see if Raph found something they might like to watch as well or that Raph would give up and give over reign of the living room to the youngest. Sadly though it seemed Raph found something to watch in the end. His free hand held on to the handle of a sai, as he was using the end of one point to pry at something they had gotten wedged in between his teeth, as if it were just a tooth pick.

Suddenly, he sat up pulling his feet off from the coffee table "Ohh yeah!" Raph grinned happily the second the announcers on screen started to introduce the wrestlers coming out to the stage before walking down to the ring. And Mikey groaned before dropping his face into the back of the couch. Defeat admitted as he could hear Raphael already rooting for his pick between the pair of wrestlers. Mikey quietly started to debate over waiting it out or going back to his room and reading comics. He wondered if he could ask Casey about getting his hands on one of those hand hold game systems instead. For times like this.

Though Raph wasn't in much better luck himself just as the match was really starting to get good a real tussle between the two wrestlers there was a sudden attack from a third out of no where. Really getting the crowd and by extension Raph hyped as well just as he was taken away from the hook of the current match by Von's huffing voice.

"Raph, should I wear the red dress or the black dress?"

Mikey was the only one to really look her way, as Raphael kept his own attention focused to the screen. "Why?" he asked showing she had his attention just split, but hey that was more than he sometimes would even give Casey when he was this engrossed in something.

"I need an opinion, but Don's being a pain in the ass and just not answering."

"Jus' kept sayin' your look fine in anythin'?" He breathes out a slight laugh. "Yeah sounds like Don, wear black looks better red makes you look 'ike a real bitch Babe." Raphael offers his thoughts. Before anything thanks could be given however Mikey let out the best offended sound he was able to muster. Actually breaking Raph's attention on the TV screen not even Von was able todo that. "what is your damage Mikey, 'm tryin' to talk to Von."

"Exactly!" Mikey soon exclaimed as he slammed his hands on the back of the couch ignoring how close he got to smacking Raphael and the warning growl the red banded turtle gave out as a warning. "Why would you ask Raph?" Mikey whined as he looked over to Yvonne. "Just look at him, look at whats he's watching! How he picks at his teeth with his sai, or throws his feet on to the coffee table. Hes got toe cheese bad! we put out food there! hell look who he is into even? And you think he has taste? you trust it even!" Mikey rants on ignoring the angry 'what' Raph let out off the string of insults that Mikey just went on about. As he moved away from the couch and made his way over towards Yvonne.

"When I actually know what works best together or clashes! I can see asking Donnie, not just cause you are a thing together. He'll at least give a somewhat decent answer though its all based on the practical reasoning so he totally ignores the major issues like how colors will clash! So of course he won't see that the red dress would be too much red because of your make up! Leo? I could see asking Leo even. Not that he any help he be worse than Donnie. Somehow! And Donnie clearly just wants to say whatever he thinks you want to hear cause hes a lock sick idiot. But to think you go from Donnie right to Raph of all of us. Over me!" Mikey's plea was cut off by the feeling of the remote flung at the back of his head.

"Yeah and clearly Von thinks your opinion is trash!" Raphael states as he stood up and wasted no time in tackling Mikey to the floor. The two struggling. Mikey trying to keep Raph from being able to hit him well Raph was left to focus on over powering Mikey so he could hit them properly with his fists. Minor insults tossed back and forth between the pair. About whose taste was more trash between them before Raph finally got a good hold on Mikey and pinned him down. Well timed with the sound of the bell from the match he had been watching. "Besides I get best friend 'ights. That trumps girl friends anytime." Raph states smugly as Mikey can do nothing but pout and accept the punch in his shoulder. "But yeah black looks betta' Von go wit' that." As if he and Mikey hadn't be fighting that whole time he continues the conversation even giving her his full attention. "What you getting dressed up for anyway?"

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Von: Hey what do you think? Red Dress or Black dress for tonight?

Don: Oh i don't know you'll look beautiful in whatever you decide

Von: Aw, well thank you. But i'm actually having a hard time deciding so I was hoping you could pick.

Don: Either way you're gonna be the prettiest one there! I love you so much

Von: Okay, I love you too. I know you think i'm beautiful and this isn't a test I just. Which Dress do you prefer to see me in tonight

Don: I prefer you just the way you are

Von: Oh my god, Hey Raph red dress or black?

Raph: Black, red makes you look like a bitch

Von: thank you

Raph: no problem

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🎶 for all your Raph muses tbe music meme give me all the songs bich you can delete the post but that ain’t gonna stop meeeeeeeeeeed

| Send me "🎶🎶🎶" and I will share with you 1-3 music tracks that I associate my muse(s) with!

*Considering I have playlists for them all I just had to pick three songs XD Keep in mind a lot of these choices are solely based on events in rp on the blog at least stuff that has enough development for me to comment on in terms of songs. Or goes into my protryal of Raphael over all.

We didn't start the fire

Is this love that i'm feeling

Beat It

*When it comes to all my 80's playlists I try so hard to keep the songs in that time frame but I have broken that over time XD but mainly it is still a good 80's mix. Anyway when picking his songs I tried to stick to his time frame. Can't say i'll be as dedicated on the others pft. Anyway time for my pop tart boy.

We didn't start the fire: I picked because it seems like a song reference he would make when it comes to how often him and his brothers wind up roped into situations he doesn't fully believe are their problem to deal with. But end up being their problem anyway. Like don't get him wrong when he feels it is their issue Raph's attitude is different like in the first season when it came to Splinter.

Is this love that im feeling: yes course this gonna be about Casey. Raphael just thought he had no real interest in romance why would he after all? He is a mutant turtle? maybe if there was a female mutant turtle? But even then he had doubts. The only time he kind of liked a girl was when he was hit with a love potion after all. He didn't seem to like girls so he wondered if he liked well men instead? based off his own comments he thought were just jokes. Then in came Casey Jones. Who he fell for pretty quick sure at first he found them nuts but he was attacking his brothers. And it didn't stop him from fighting Casey again later. But didn't keep Raph once they had a more friendship going on to wonder what was there. Turns out it was love its why he changed his tune to like Casey clearly. I also just like it for when he and Casey date. Sure loving someone is enough to date them but dating is how you see if you continue to love them. And that what Raph figured out. Also I like to think this is a song Raph would sign towards Casey uwu

Beat it: I find it funny and clear proof others don't watch the 87's series. Cause they have this weird outlook of Raph not lighting ti fight or being a fighter. And I agree he isn't looking to pick a fight but he is fucking petty and will start a fight. Raph is a very "I didn't start it but i'll finish" it type of fighter in this series. So a good song about throwing down to fight seems fitting for Raph's rude behavior.

*Normally I put 03/07 together but I feel some songs will fit better for some themes in 07 story plots.

1. Hercules

2. Brother

3. I'll be good

+4. Bonus song My best friends Ex

Hercules: Generally I love this song because it really works to dip into Raph's need to protect. It's not just in a physical way either Raph despite calling himself a lone wolf is someone who really just looks out and cares for others. He comes off selfish and uncaring but then you see how he is quick to put others before himself. Down plays anything going on with him but will put more worry into it for others. He loves to have space but is quick to try and reach out to someone else if he feels they need it. His stubborn ass is what makes him so loyal he has so much faith in others. He really will shield others from harm when they can't themself.

Brother: I love this song for TMNT in generally because a brotherhood is just such a strong theming for the series. BUT I'm directing this to his brothers. Raph's heart is one of four, his brothers are his whole world. Anything happens to one of them? and best look out he will die if it meat protecting his brother or getting revenge for them. Raph can seem harsh and distract but in the moments that matter most? he is the one by his brothers sides first. When need be he will step up into leader role so to make sure the rest are safe if Leo isn't around like when Leo left to see the Ancient one and they got attacked by Karai. One thing you don't get between is Raph and his brothers even when Raph distances himself them he knows they have him and he knows they know he has them. Why they count on him and will call out for him when needed especially Donnie.

I'll be good: It's not secret that Raph is his own worst critic. It's why I feel Splinter never got on Raph's case as much as he dose Leo during Leo's emo arc. Splinter will step in if Raph's going to far and offer advice but he knows no amount of scolding is anywhere as bad or deep hitting as what. It's hard for Raph to understand where his anger comes from. He wants to protect his family and it scares him to see how big the world is out there if they stayed in a much smaller area easier to maintain it be easier to protect them. Raphael just feels like he can't do right he fears being the one to hurt his brothers why he has nightmares of him being the shredder. He regrets any fight he has with Leo, the times he went to far with Mikey hell he got regrets with Donnie too. He wants to be good he wants to be more positive like Mikey can be but he just can't he feels something wrong he feels if he could cut into himself deep enough maybe just maybe he can find what it is and take it out.

My best friends ex: I couldn't give up the last three for this song but didn't wanna leave it out XD. Raph and Von's friendship in 03 verse is just so damn good to me I love it I love them being besties so much. It's funny cause I feel you wouldn't see these two being so close. But I think Von just not caring to fall for the image Raph sets up allowed her to get close to Raph. Maybe cause of her background who knows. Just in my mind if Von ever dated anyone outside Donnie they knew/or knew about Raph that friend thats hates them funnier if Raph don't know them he hates them uwu.

Danger to myself

Wannabe

Killing me

Danger to myself: For sure where Raph was at just after Leo had taken off. There was just a lot going on. Raphael hated that they were told they couldn't basically go on with their lives with Leo gone. Raph lost a good source of his distractions because of that and struggled with things going on with himself. Slowly he started to make things worse shut out his family, and pushing away those who he needed most. Donnie someone who always makes him feel a bit more grounded. But Raph lost his footing. Casey someone who always made him feel loved and needed. But Raph didn't love himself or feel he was needed. Night Watcher was so easy for him to hide anyway into. If he was the Night Watcher he didn't need to be anything more.

wannabe: Why this song? how do a spice girl song fit Raph. I feel like each of the adults have had moments where they are watch both Summer and Ariel on their own. Raph's soft for the two on their own as is. When they are together? He might as well be a floor mat for them. Just image them in a classic moment of the girls finding a way to rope Raph into thier antic and feel one is singing along to songs well messing around. Raph can act like he dont wanna be part of thier sleep over antics but I feel Casey walked in and found Raph singing along to the Spice girls with his daughters. XD basically it more a song that just makes me think of Raph in a parental route.

Killing me: May seem a bit misleading on how Im gonna be using this song but this is more meant for when Casey is going though his mid life crisis. You think Summer felt her dad just left? Oh trust Raphael felt the same way. But where Summer can speak on that and express how she feels Raphael will not. No different from how with his own family Raph seeing Casey going through what he was he in part knew that Casey needed to be allowed to. Raph had to go through his own stupid shit for a time. He saw Leo have to as well and even Donnie. But it wasn't easy, Raph had to keep things in home well in order. Had to make sure Summer was taken care of. Seeing Casey not in the right state. In truth I feel Raph reached out to April A LOT during this time. If he could swing it with disguises he of course takes Summer to practice himself. Raph didn't really have a support when he fell apart (he pushed them away that why) so he wanna try and give Casey the room to fall apart too and show Raph is there to help pull him back together like Casey has for him. But even Raph dose feel Casey's absence and it's killing him uwu

Lost

Sharks

Fine

Lost: Some of my favorite scenes dealing with Raph are when they see Splinter get thrown down into the sewers. And in his fit of rage Mikey hugs him to snap him out of it. And again during the space arc when one the angry planet Raph once more snaps and Leo hugs him. What snapped him out of it? Love uwu. Raphael is someone seen as uncaring he is quick to say he don't like ti deal with certain emotions. He is meant to be big bad tough Raphael. Yet, he is full of pain and a feeling of being just lost. Where he should be aware he is loved and needed sometimes he needs that assurance because Raph sees the worst in himself. Raph is hurting deep down and it come out in his anger and he wishes he knew better how to handle it to even understand why it's there so sometimes a bit of affection paid his way helps. Raph isn't bad a kid hes just very unheard. It shows that he can be heard by some and it should make Raph look weak that he dose need that at times. But to him dose. He just lost in the storm always in his mind. Sometimes he just needs to grab on to someone a moment.

Sharks: It's funny how often you can mirror Raph with some of the villains. You got of course his often foil in 2012 Fish face, the more obvious Slash before he was redeemed even being shown like a worse case for what Raph could become. And of course, there is the fact he and Leo are like a new generation of Yoshi and Saki. Often I feel why Splinter is how he can when it comes to Raph's anger and complaints on Raph likes to think he is better because hes good so he should be better he wouldn't sink to their levels. But he has he can even Slash alone showed what would happen if Raph let his anger consume him too much the beast he could become if he didn't have his brothers around? Raph would become so much worse. If he didn't have family he loves and looks out for than what would he have to keep him grounded?

Fine: Raph is the stereotypical character who talks shit about love and romance. Act like he so above his brothers who more open to showing they would like to fall in love. Raph very much that person who just can't understand someone loving him because of his own self hate. And he sort of projects that on the him and his brothers Who would love them. And yet? He wants it he wants to be stupid over someone, he and try and deny how he felt for hockey playing idiots all he wants but he don't want that he wants to also turn and say he's an idiot and he feels those things too. Cause deep down Raph is just a sappy romantic. He wanna just embrace those things too given the chance. So why not go ahead and show he might have intrest in his best friend just a bit uwu

Can't take me down

chills

I like it heavey

Can't take me Down: This is just a feel good song for Raph in general he is very much got this I can't be stopped mind set (boy do I look forward to him getting humbled or shown other wise that he isn't strong enough >:3) This is very much a how I carry myself kind of song. Despite how clearly everyone around him seems to look at him and see him needing some help professional level even or any time someone remarks on him going a bit too far? Raph will either defend it with a look of 'what do you mean?" or blow it off. He goes in loud with out a second thought. You can't take him down and much as they all hoped he thinks that's what will get people to love him uwu

Chills: I just like this for our rasey for mm with your take on MM casey uwu Since we always tend to give Casey the theming of ice. But it also just fits because Raph never been in love before not really something he thought of only to make fun of Leo over. The. Comes Casey someone who gives him litteralt chills uwu

l like it heavey: someone thar is a mutant? Yeah, this start of the song dots alone as is. But Raph himself? Someone who dose have a bit a different taste in well everything from his more violent tendencies to his love for wrestling even to point if hiw he wants to present considering he uses protine powders to help muscle growth. Even his sens of style? Some like it pretty, but Raph likes it heavey. Slightly to play into the sing above this jsut plays into why Raph himself don't think he goes to far or maybe even need help (he dose u_u) he just himself and wants someone who gets that who he is.

1. Hot n' cold

2. Chateu

3. The phoenix

Hot n' Cold: I'm sorry but not sorry hot n' cold os just Raoh generally over all. He can really just shift through his moods swings fast enough to give someone whiplash. Raoh has his moments where he can be sweet and caring and those moments should really speak the loudest to others. But other times? He's a oranry bitch. And he's pretty up front about it.

Chateu: since Raphs known casey the longest in this verse, i feel these two have had a lot of time to be all fuck this place mind set over time. Between Raphs family drama and Casey own. Raph has had Casey in his corner from day one. This is just a very nice song for Casey and Raph in general I feel ;3; they need each other, they make eachnothers hearts bear. Course, there's a reason it took them time to get together, but they been able to give up on some things thiwr hangs up and such cause they got the other ;3;

The phoenix: in truth this song I played on repeat often well playing the game it self xD It just fits!!! Anyway in universe I would say it's because Raphael is pretty goal set in the game. He feel long as they stay together as brothers they will get Splinter back because well he needs to or he will get hopless himself. So he talks uo loving the fights and such and enjoys when they get to certien maps in the game. Honestly the most break in this is when they are looking for Casey he gose from. But he picks himself back up after every loss or miss chance to get thier Dad back. Raphael isn't someone to get knocked down too easily like his fiery rage this turtle will rise back up like. Phoenix

[ducknotinarow]

03/07 RaphVon - [🎁] our muses exchange holiday gifts

| SEND AN EMOJI FOR A STARTER ! ↳ winter season & holiday based

Leave it to Mikey to somehow get Von and Don to agree to the baby shower idea. But hey did go all out even though at some point it seemed he forgot that it was meant for the mother seeing how the banned had to have Don's nah scribbled out and replaced by Von's. Idiot. Was Raphael's main thought as he been hanging back during most of this thing. Mikey manged to pull a few of the invited parties into the games which just seemed dumb to Raphael. He purposely said 'baby' near the start and gave his pin away to whoever was nearest to him and sort of hung towards the back of it all. The baby shower wasn't really his thing.

When he noticed Von as some point seem to take a moment to rest well Mikey had another of his game ready to start up. Raphael took it as a opening. As he made his way to sit beside Von. Holding a gift bag near his side just enough to keep it from Von's sight as he joined her. "Hey least Mikey invited you to your own baby shower in the end 'ight?" He smirks a little her way paying a second to make sure Von was fine. Offering to help her sit down if she needed it. But of course like Raph expected she was handling the whole being pregnant thing very well. But that was Yvonne for you stubborn to the bone.

Raphael's attention turned back to the party they were currently bobbing for pacifiers everyone Mikey got to go along with it had a bowl of water before them and had their hands set behind their backs. The goal was who ever got all three in their own bowls first won and Mikey manged to capture all of his before anyone else. He could just feel the flash backs to the Battle Nexus showing before his vision. Great that was going to be something to look forward too, man he is for sure staying with Casey tonight after this. "Though somehow I 'hink this turned into more for Mikey than either of youes." Raph points out.

Which took him back to his reasoning of sitting beside her now, away from everyone else, he knows they all had a gift to give for the baby coming. They were sure of the gender yet but a baby still needed anything they could offer. Or in some cases make. It was a sort of secret and not a secret. In that no one under any circumstances was to ever mention the fact that Raphael knew how to knit. But it wasn't like no one knew about him able to do so. Splinter had had him take up the habit in an effort to help Raphael with that ever burning flame the fueled his temper. And he found comfort in the repeated action. Splinter was the first to ever receive a gift made by Raph. And slowly everyone did. Sure it wasn't really for Von but thats how these worked the gift was to the mother for the baby. Von was just much more a risky gamble because she liked to push that whole deal when it came to fact about Raphael.

He still grabbed at the gift bag and held it out in front of her. Looking far off to the side not even towards the party, selecting a random brick in the wall to focus his gaze on to. "yeah I know were doin' gifts at the end but 'm gonna try ditch soon as I can. So wanna make sure you get 'his is all."

Raphael expresses only turning to face her again when he felt the weight of the bag leave his own hand. Slightly peering over to watch her look into the paper shopping bag, Peering in and it was clear to see right away that there was a purple knitted blanket in there. Bands of two shades purple and near the top right corner was a small fish done in a even dark shade of color. It was clear this had taken longer and more time to make compared to most of the other knitted gifts Raphael had ever given. Sort of outing a few more thing about this little hobby of the rough and gruff turtle. It was thanks to some help, outside help from a Ms. Morrison that he may have learned a bit more he could do.

Raphael wouldn't explain it but he did put a lot of thought into the look of the blanket he know both Don and Von had a liking for the color purple so course it was going to be those similar shades they both wore. The fish in their own shade of purple. Part of him wanted to try and make it look like the usual silhouette look of Ariel from the move Don just loved to death. But it had proved to be too hard for him to really do at the time. Besides? who was to say their kid would also like the movie? Pretty sure they would one way or another actually. So a fish seemed fitting in the end. Von like to sit out by the docks same as Raph after all and it tied back to the sea that Donnie loved and wanted to explore the depths of. Raphael felt it worked. And made sense and glared a dagger at Casey every time he sat down to work on it at the apartment. Or when he tried to ask for his partners thought about it because of how much thought he was expressing was going in towards the creation.

"I see that look on your face Von." Not really she was on his right side after all but he didn't need to be actively looking at her to know she was in fact making some sort of expression that would likely annoy him right now. "Kid needs a blanket 'ight? well should get a new one and not 'ike we can really come by that so easy." Okay sure Casey or April could help with that but then it was more a gift from Casey or April and not Raphael. Which is why he opted to making one himself. After all he knew how to do it.

Raphael finally sighs and givens in feeling better to get it over with as he twists a little to better face her. "What?" He says it like a warning, it was pointless Von was never really deterred but the tough act. Didn't stop the red banded turtle from giving it though. Even if he knew she wouldn't be thrown off by it. "Get it over wit' ya ya Raph made a blanket for the baby whatever ain't a big deal." He says doing his best to keep to his act. "Knew I shoulda jus' left with out givin' it to you personally." yeah right he wanted it know he had done it even if it meant dealing with this now.

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Raph: is that a hickey?

Don: no its a mosquito bite

Yvoone walking into the room: hey guys

Raph: hey mosquito

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[2k3 Raph Yvonne]

"My father, John Bishop, took your eye?" Yvonne knows the answer, he just...needs to hear it be confirmed to her again. All fingers curl into fists when it is, "I'm going to kill him. I'm actually going to fucking kill him Raphael."

Her voice is too calm. This was a deep anger; not explosive and short lived. No...no she was being serious. Taking a deep breath, she offers a smile, forced,

"Heyyyy, mind if I borrow your Sai? For you know, reasons that have no relation to this conversation what so ever," She lies through literally gritting teeth, "Oh, and while I'm at the EPF base, again, totally unrelated reasons, want me to try and find your eye? Maybe we can reattach it or something - worth a shot, isn't it?"

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The Drugs had been long flushed out of his system his head was clear again after the fog that had settled over it from how much had to keep pumping into his system. Raph may have been captured by Bishop but he made sure taking him down was one he'll of a task for them. Just didn't come out in one piece. Took his eye like some damn prize. A permeant scar he was used to scars he hand many. This was different he never noticed how much he relied on his sight till half of it was gone.

It started off small, just annoying little things. He needs to turn his head further to look at someone properly. Forgetting his eye wasn't just close when first waking up. When he biffed it trying to get on Casey's bike and no teasing followed. Dropping a mug full of the pots last bit of coffee only to hear prolicen brust. And no remarks were made only concur for Raph. When Mikey stuttered and tried to back peddle on a joke about Raph aim being bad when he missed their head. Leo taking it easy on him in training.

Just be normal! He wanted to yell and shout he knew it was gone but he wasn't broken because of it! He refused to loke Bishop be a reason he was broken! When his Sai slipped out from his hold because he missed catching it Splinter suggested they go out. And it just got worse.

They kept Raph between them, someone making sure to be right on his blond side if he tried going faster to get away they wouldn't let him shake them off. He growled under his breath tried to understand they dropped into an alleyway, and one of them grabbed his wrist because he was still out in the open. That was the final straw after two weeks of this a decent record for Raphael the hothead of the family.

He knows they were just scared and worried trying to look out for him. Trying to give him the time to heal. But Raph felt like he being cradled, he felt weak, powerless...vulnerable. and he wasn't good about being any of that. He protected them. He watched thier backs. So he torn his hand away not even sure who grabbed him at the time. He was blinded by rage, ironically. It could have been Leo, Don or Mikey he'll it could have been Casey even. He didn't care so he hollered and yelled till his thoart was raw. Everything he wanted to saw for weeks that he held back because he knew they were simply worried. But he had enough he felt like walls were closing in on him. Suffocating grasping fir air. Felt loke he was blond by a light, strapped down, a scalper to his eye. So when Bishops name suddenly left his beak? He took off.

"My father, John Bishop, took your eye?"

Raph opened his eye and titled his head to the side to look to Yvoone now. Brought out if him mind when she spoke. Why it was her he ran to he wasn't sure. Maybe because despite thier fight she saved his shell. Maybe because she always offered her home as an escapse and fuck did he need that more than anything. Maybe he just missed his sister. He came to make amended and was lucky to be let in and offered something wram to drink and get out if the rain. Slumped on her couch as he let his head rest. She asked about what happened she saved him far as he was concerned. She had every right to at least know what she saved him from.

"Yeah." He simply answered wishing to keep Bishop standing over him pushed out from his thoughts.

"I'm going to kill him. I'm actually going to fucking kill him Raphael."

He can tell by how clam her tone is that she's beyond angry over this. Was it out of protectiveness for him? Or just being passed at Bishop for going against her whole set up. He hope the latter he was so fucking tried of being treated like he needed to cared for by his brothers he didn't need her to do the same.

"Heyyyy, mind if I borrow your Sai? For you know, reasons that have no relation to this conversation what so ever,"

Raph offers a faint smirk watching how her teeth clamp down one row over the other. How the corners of her mouth froce into a tight then line smile.

"Oh, and while I'm at the EPF base, again, totally unrelated reasons, want me to try and find your eye? Maybe we can reattach it or something - worth a shot, isn't it?"

And the he laughs.

Arms moving to hold around his middle as he just laughs louder. Letting his shoulders shake in the wake of it, he wasn't laughing at her persay more just over what she said. "Yeah sure babe go on ahead. Take my sai, storm up to dear old dad of yas, and take my eye. pfft sure it'll just simply go right back in. Maybe get the rest of them to shut up if they can see the white if both of them." Despite the laugh, it was lined with bitterness and hurt, but it felt good to let it out as he leaned forward, letting his head hang between his knees a moment. She acknowledged it at least even if it was out of anger a need to get back at her old man maybe even he didn't care at least she wasn't avoiding it, making out as this awful tragic thing not to talk about!

"Think that sick fuck got it on display?" He chuckled a little over. "Do me a favor when ya go? Just bust it out and throw the bitch out a window then no one can 'Ave it."

Taking a moment to breathe, just breathe, though. Something he has been needing for a good while now.

"Von ya smart, how long do it 'ake to get use'ta missin' parts?" He was so tired of feeling like he needed his hand to be held. Running his hand over his face, feeling just around the side of his face. The right side he knows his hand is just in front of the socket but he can't...see. "is it normal for there to be pain there? It's gone what there to still hurt?" It was the most he'd been able to talk about the obvious fact that it was gone! The most normal conversation he's had in two weeks. He loves them he dose but he hates then hovering, hates them walking on egg shells around him all he did was lose a fucking eye. Make stupid jokes, scold at him still, come at him with all they have. Don't...don't treat him like this.

He's so bad about accepting that care.

He's still Raph.

Can't anyone see that?

He wasn't broken. He wasn't a busted weapon.

Still the angry shirt temper guy. Sure he'll miss a petty punch to mikey here and there just laugh and make him mkre mad.

He might misjudge his hold and drop things scold him! Get annoyed he broke your favorite mug!

Don't treat him like he's fragile and can handle the training.

He's not broken.

He was a lot. Angry, so fucking angry he never can explain what was wrong with him. Why taking it out in himself felt so good lime he deversed it. He knows there's something wrong with him, the moment he dropped it let some carefree take over him through he was given a grim reminder.

He needed the normal.

He needed anything that would ground him get Bishop out of his head. They needed to treat him like before. Not watch out for him not protect him tend to him like he was busted. Being that is what got him in Bishops hands. Suddenly his shell felt tight like someone was stepping in his plastron adding pressure under thier foot.

He needed to still be Raphael. He was still Raph to them right. Shaky hand slipped a sai out from his belt and held it out to Von, took everything not to nick himself just then and there. Peeking over to her smiling he needs her to keep doing what she was it was helping he could breath.

"I mean got four hands sure ya can handle one weapon uh then again?" Flipping the pongs to fave himself as he lifted it to his mouth slightly picking his teeth with it. "I dunno if I want ya messing with my weapon might not treat it right." Said the turtle using it like a tooth pick.

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[2k7]

"Raphael please for the love of fuck reassure me I'm not overreacting to Leonardo's little crush!" Yvonne exclaims as she enters Raph's and Casey's home, "I mean can you honestly BELEIVE that moron right now?!"

Looks like news was getting around fast, considering both Yvonne and Donatello looked furious, and were carrying their own bottles of alcohol. Seems like even Don wasn't all too pleased with what he had heard. Don didn't tend to join in with Raph and Yvonne's weekend drinking bitchfest, but exceptions can be made,

"Ariels' with Splinter tonight, she needs a good grandparent looking after her," Don murmurs, no longer happy with the idea of Leo being her babysitter whenever needed.

Trembling with her own seething rage, Yvonne hands one of the bottles to Raph, the shaking obvious,

"Raphael, be a doll and open that for me would you? Mama needs a drink but she's about two seconds away from losing it completely," She speaks through gritting teeth, "Ah, but if we're upset, I can only imagine how pissed off you are," Yvonne quickly snatches the bottle back before he can open it or hurt himself, "Sit sit, you and Don talk while Casey and I sort the drinks out - something tells me we're in for a very long session."

It was, especially with all four of them going at it. They were going to need more drink.

| muse interaction

Raph's knuckles still kind of burned from when he sucked punched Leo. Far as he was concerned they basically asked for Raph to hit him after all. Still working the anger out of his system but he had to admit hitting Leo did seem to help him a little bit. Not a lot but it did something in the least. He retreated back to apartment at some point after leaving the lair. Leavening Leo behind like that, Raphael hadn't bothered to look at the expression they wore when he did it. It they stumbled or fell after he hit them. Raph was just in such a blind rage at the time. He took it it all out on Leo, trying to recall if he did look back at them at all. Part of him wishes he did but Raphael knows better, he knows he hadn't he wanted to hurt them. Dish out some pay back towards them.

Wasn't like hitting some purse snatcher, or dipshit dragon. A heavy sighed expels from his shell smoke floating into the air from his cigarette he idly tapped the build ash off from. Only to soon feel it torn out from his hand. A smirk tugs at the corner of his beak when he hears his daughter cursing and muttering a lecture about that nasty habit, she fixed him with a look as she shoved the cigarette in to the ash tray Raphael had resting on the rail of the fire escapes. A look over her a moment, she had her hair hung lose a slight different get up on. A band shirt from one of her many hand me down and a pair of black ripped jeans. Outside the Raiders jacket she always wore. And her prized guitar resting on her back, he reached for the strap and playfully tugs it. "headin' out?"

"Oh uh yeah, I uh was gonna." Summer tried her best to think of a cover for where she was heading off to, clearly needing to stop Raph from smoking seemed to get in the way. "Sneak out?" Raph snorts a little as he watches Summer question her self just now, he give shrugs of his shoulders. It's not the first time she took off after all.

"stay outta trouble?" Is all he asks she smiles and nods before making her way down the fire escape to take off. Raph moves to climb back inside now ash tray in hand as he just sets it off to the side. About to call out to Casey to let the big worry wort know Summer had dipped out for the night, but Yvonne's voice breaks through the air first. Slightly sighing Raph wasn't really in the mood for company. Sure, drinking and having his bitchfests with Yvonne was something he look forward to at times but he just wasn't feeling it. To late now. He should have escape with Summer.

"Raphael please for the love of fuck reassure me I'm not overreacting to Leonardo's little crush!"

Raph turned to find the pair of them making their way into the apartment now, Yvoone's voice was loud and pulled his attention mostly her way. Seemed any chance of getting away from this whole situation was gone, as she made her way over him. Sure Von was more expression at times compared to Don, but like Don she could keep things under wraps. So it was always a tad amusing to the red banded turtle watching how expressive her usual tried and worn face could become. Not that he had much chance to give any sort of response her way, women was on a war path.

"I mean can you honestly BELEIVE that moron right now?!"

Honestly Raph kind of didn't even stop to think or consider how the rest of them were going to take this news themselves. He knows it was part of why he got pissed off about this all when he overheard Leo's and Splinter conversation about the matter. Slightly looking past Von as he looked over to Don in the moment. Raph didn't need to see their expression to know how they were feeling. It was like having gasoline thrown on to the fire that was already burning in his own veins. Don was far more quite but he seemed to be on his own edge, Raph eyed the alcohol they were carrying. That much more than he and Yvonne ever went through just the two of them. Guess Don needed to join in a bitch fest himself.

"Ariels' with Splinter tonight, she needs a good grandparent looking after her,"

Raph eye widens just the slightest hear how his twin spoke, sure leavening his kid with Splinter wasn't new it was more the hidden message being delivered there. because Leo was normally the designated baby sitter for the little guppy. There is a slight pang in his shell, guilt. For the fact he hadn't once considered going to find out if Donnie knew about the whole thing. If anyone was likely to be effected by this most well it was these two. All things considered, once more any chance of talk is cut off when Yvonn'es shaking hands shoved a bottle into his hands. He focused on just how fast the motion was from her, she could cover he words a bit easier but seemed her body was the real tell on how she was feeling right now. And now that pang grew a bit more. He really should have checked in on them, he had sort of focused more on himself. Eh that wasn't anything new.

"Raphael, be a doll and open that for me would you? Mama needs a drink but she's about two seconds away from losing it completely,"

Damn if she gritted her teeth any tighter she make start cracking them. Raph tried to recall how he smirks hoping he's doing it right as he lets it tuf at the corner of his beak "Sure babe-"

"Ah, but if we're upset, I can only imagine how pissed off you are,"

Yvonne stanched the bottle back quick from his hold leaving Raph to blink a bit speechless. It truth it was nice that Von seemed to in the least acknowledged that little fact. Of course he was upset, but well Raph was always upset so it wasn't like many were going to notice. Least Von seemed to pick up on it, just sort of twisted his stomach a bit more. She was shaking she should be left to open a bottle she might hurt herself after all.

"Sit sit, you and Don talk while Casey and I sort the drinks out - something tells me we're in for a very long session."

"..uh thanks." Shit did Casey know? Some reason Raph wasn't sure about that either? Slightly shifting how weight left and right between his feet as he turned to look at his twin. Observing every little detail about them, how they held themself, how their expression was setting. Mulling over his own thoughts as he paid a glance toward the kitchen likely where Case and Von were now before he stepped over to his twin. Heavy hand landing hard on to their shoulder as he gave them a bit of shake trying to get Don's attention on to him. Raph was going to do what Leo was not, well at least not with him.

Kind of what was getting under his shell the most if he was going to be honest. Leo was yeah the leader of their team. Thing is they weren't just a team they were family. Leo wasn't just fearless leader in blue who's word he would sometimes follow. Leo was also his older brother. He was Don's oldest brother. That seemed like an awfully obveios statement in the moment but still. So was that Don was also his younger brother. Eh sure Don might be older or whatever but Raphael always like to insit he was older. So he should do the older brother job. Hm no wonder he was so upset with Leo right now sort of made sense.

"I can push the couch outta way." He says suddenly to Don, "think ya need get that snapping goin' instead of just keeping tight lipped." Trying to encourage that old biting habit out of his brother now. "Might help?" Letting go of their shoulder only to make a fist and punch them square in to it again. Nothing compared to when he had hut Leo. Nah this was sportsmanship it was rough, because that was who Raph was. But, playful trying to egg his twin on. "Come on ya know I can tell how pissed ya are?" A second jab at them now "just let it out Donnie."

[ducknotinarow]

Yvonne : I am a responsible adult!

Raphael : *raises brow*

Yvonne : I am an adult.

[ducknotinarow]

2012 RaphVon - "Just say it!" - Topic: Donatello

| My muse struggles with the truth... Send "Just say it!" And my muse will confess to something they don't really talk about.

Bonus: specify a specific topic and that's what they will talk about!

Raphael was strolling right on in to the lair with out a care in the world, a half lidded gaze and faint warm smile to his beak, as if no one would be able to tell what had him in a current good mood. The clear remains of black and white face paint smeared on his own face and hints of some lip gloss as well from when Casey added some on after the first round of making out in the alleyways. How was Raphael meant to not kiss Casey when they added on that shiny crap on? If it weren’t for the fact Casey had to go to class early the next day? Well Raphael would either be heading back to Casey’s or tugging his boyfriend along with him to make a quick run towards his bed room. He wished it was one of the day’s Casey had the later class or no class at al now. But he was just grateful they got a chance to hang out at all. With Casey’s new school schedule since going to college and all.

Maybe Raphael would just hold out till Casey was begging?

He wondered to himself as he made way into the kitchen. No where near tried at all, more worked up if anything. And morning training would be in a good few hours anyway. Might as well get a head start on breakfast before the crank bitch comes in. One might think he meant Donnie but in truth he meant Leo with that thought. Him and Don were still on rocky ground. So even playful jabs were a bit off the table right now.

So go figure the only other person in the kitchen was Don’s girlfriend. What was her name again? He tried to recall it as he just eyed her from behind. Wasn’t the first time thy were meeting. No, that was when Donatello was being a stupid idiot and nearly died because apparently taking his medicine for his diebeties wasn’t fucking important. Raphael wanted to be mad at him for so much still. But it was hard to really pick what. Mostly? He was just pissed off with how things were between them he guesses. Man what was her fucking name again? During all the worry and panic he’s not sure he ever actually got it?

He just made his way to the fridge, all he could remember about that night was that Don apparently spoke about him a lot? Was it good? Had to be something decent if she went looking for him and not Leo or even Splinter. Raphael felt guilt drop in his gut over that. Even with how things were between them Donnie talked about him? To a point someone he never met felt he was the one to get to help? Why was things so messy with them right now? Grabbing for the carton of milk as he set it down on the counter and went for a bowl and cereal next. Of course, all the noise he was making was bound to draw the girls attention his way. Raphael soon sat himself down at the table putting together his bowl of cereal aware of the eyes on him. Man he really couldn't recall her fucking name.

 Mildred? eh no, maybe Diane? hmm Rachel? Ariel? nah none of those it started with a Y he thinks? She must be expecting it from how she was staring at him. Raphael just let his brow knit in. As if he could glare enough to get his answer. Than again a girl who clearly been mutated? Likely wasn't going to find Raphael all that scary. Soon he sighs and slams his spoon to the surface of the table.

"What?" Watch her gesture to her own face, Raphael had no idea what she was doing. She could talk he was pretty sure of that. "Uh?" Was all he offered before she pointed to him then her face again. Slowly it start to click as he used his spoon as a sort of mirror. Able to easily make out the smuggling of black and while clearly covering his beak and a bit of his cheek. Raph slightly huffed annoyed “Fuckin’ Casey and his stupid face paint.” As if Raph slamming Casey down to the ground to kiss him was somehow Casey’s fault earlier. As he rubbed at his face till he got the paint off and just wipe it on to the table. “Uh thanks, Girl I don’t know the name of.” She didn’t seem offended by that but did offer it “Yvonne? Hm sounds familiar. Maybe ya did tell me before”

He didn’t speak on any more as he scooped out a heaping serving of cereal into his spoon and shoved it in to his mouth speaking around the mush it started to become when he did. “So whatcha’ doing out here? Ain’t ya like ya know.” He waved his spoon around as if Von would understand what he was trying t say without saying it. In truth Raph wasn’t all to sure what she was to Donnie? He assumed they were dating she watched TV with them once befor after all and they seemed cozy?

“Just say it”

“With Don?” He just went with and she looked well annoyed seemed fitting to say at least. “Pfft what that idiot ditch ya for April again or something?” She looked defeated by the comment. Raphael dropped his grin at the physical response. Now he kind of felt bad only kind of after all but eh at the same time? He can get it. After all how many times did he get upset when seeing how touchy Casey was with his team mates? Thinking so many of those were just a them thing. “Ya know” Raph speaks up suddenly. “The him and April thing? That’s over pretty sure he tells you more than he shares with her. She only knows about him needing that medicine cause well her and her dad helps us get it for him. Pretty she he never tel anyone if not or that. But he told you. Heck even talked about me with you and not sure which shocks me more.” Raph expresses a bit not really elaborating on the reason why he felt that way about it. “He’s just an idiot, April’s the first human friend we ever had and his first friend ever as well. April’s lived with us and gone on missions with us as well. She’s always gonna have a special place with Donnie but it ain’t that sort of special. Trust me I know, my own boyfriend had a thing for her too. So, I get it.”

Raphael expressed because yeah he often once thought about how he was maybe Casey’s second choice something he worked over long ago thanks to Casey. But he can understand how that can feel. Likely better than any of them could. He moved from his seat and moved to sit next to her. “He’s also a jerk at times, I’ve roughed him up could few times for it myself. So if he’s being a dick? I’ll hit him for you. Ya seem cool to me after all.” Raphael stated lowering his voice now as the reason for him moving in the first place.

“But, Don’s really not all that bad if you give him a chance sometimes ya gotta just tell him how you feel and he will try his best to fix it sort of his thing. He’s a idiot but he doesn’t mean to be he just ain’t smart when it comes to people. If you were a hunk of metal? He understand you better.” Raphael jokes a bit then moves to sit back up right as he takes another large chomp from his bowl of cereal. In time for his brothers to all make way int the kitchen now. Smirking at Don’s expression seeing him with Von right now.

Eh he knows they have issues right now still but? “Careful Don, I might steal ya girl if you don’t give her better attention. Even for a bug I gotta say he’s kind of pretty.”

[ducknotinarow]

MM Raph - Family Meme; all that apply uwu

| Talking about family

"Really right now? I'm on my way to practice." Raph states fixing them with a look of clear annoyance before rolling his eyes. "Look I know were like the talk of the school an' all but seriously you could have picked a better time to bug me. Fine let's just get this over with I guess."

TOTMNT gave me more on my Boi uwu

Send 👔 for my muse to talk about their father

"Dad? Well hes a giant rat that wears glasses and WORRIES way too much. He's getting better 'bout letting me and my brother just like live our lives and such. So thats cool. He's more cool than might think he tries a lot for us and ...maybe I could I dunno show I appreciate that more. Even when it comes to my anger he don't...give up on me when maybe he should."

Something I really love in MM/TOTMNT is that they do call Splinter Dad or refer to him as Dad and I feel it really shows. Splinter is just so damn patient with his sons. Raph seems to try his best to not take his anger out towards Splinter. Unlike past versions that could snap at or around Splinter. Raph tries to keep it more contained even having ways to work it out which ties in a lot to why he likes having excuses to work out his anger like fighting or wrestling even. When Splinter grounded the boys Raph was clearly upset but Splinter seems to hold some understanding to least see yeah my son is going to be upset which makes Raph not feel a need to burst out an over reaction just to be heard.

Raph dose listen to Splinter because of that and will even try to follow Splinters advice on how to go about his angry like mediating which seems to work but he's still very prone to exploding if ticked off enough and even then Splinter doesn't outright scold Raph since he can see him try. Which I feel shows a lot on why Raph has a good relationship with his Dad.

Send 🤜 for my muse to talk about (one of) their sibling(s)

"Eh my brothers are all just sort of dorks in their own ways. Mikey alway all hhhnn talk to the bad guys instead of beating them up, Leo's always being such a dweeb when it comes to the speeches and wanting to be the leader and then Don? Well he is the biggest nerd of them all always going on about anime and tech stuff jeez put a sock in it already." He grows quite for a moment.

"...I might complain 'bout them but..I dunno what I do with out my brothers either. I'm no good on my own but if I can't do enough to protect them?..I dunno I just really don't know."

Raph talks one way about his brothers but it's clear he loves them and cares about them a lot. MM Raph seems to be a bit more gentle towards the younger half his brothers well being out lashing out more towards Leo. Felt needed and not needed since he will still shift blame on Leo and even take out frustration towards him XD Yet you can see he really loves being around his brothers happy to play around and joke around with them really shows off the usual siblings being your first set of friends.

Of course, Raph is closest to his twin Donnie uwu cause I say so uwu

I like to headcannon that Raph actually likes some anime a few he's watched with Donnie he tends to be more interested in sports and Shonen anime being lame and not owning up to it of course because he can't say he likes anime thats for nerds like Donnie and Von not him he just happens to go into Don's tent when hes watching one of the few Anime he happens to like uwu Raph also has a habit of snagging thing for Donnie if he can recognize its from a show Donnie likes.

I also feel despite Donnie not being good with emotions and such Raph just likes being around Don the most and can easily be stated as being Raphs first best friend before he met Casey. If Raph feels he can't talk to Casey about something he usually goes to Donatello. He may not really talk though but more just hang around Donnie even if he's with Von Raph will hang in the same space. He just don't need to really talk when it comes to Donatello.

He didn't mention her but to be fair he don't know her too well at this point. But Raph dose already see Von as a sister as well mainly because of the whole homework thing Raph and Casey for sure beat up all the kids who took advantage of Donnie XD Hes just happy that Donatello has a real friend himself now even if he thinks Vons weird as all hell he still gives glares at kids who might speak about her badly.

Send 🎣 for my muse to talk about (one of) their aunt(s)/uncle(s)

"I mean I don't really have any but I do see Rockstead and Beepbop as my uncles? And I think they are cool they sort get how I feel when it comes to be angry all the time after all. I work part time with them here and there too as a way to earn some cash."

I just love Rocksteady and Beepbop XD So Raph having a chance to be close to them? I am all about it. I know they see the other mutants as cousins and all but some of them seem much older so I can see them coming across more like uncles/aunts. I can just see Raph palling around with the two of them when they do come around and even hyping them up. Of course, he loves his Dad and all but it's nice for him to have some adult figures in his life that are more in line with himself.

Send 🤛 for my muse to talk about (one of) their cousin(s)/niece(s)/nephew(s)

"Oh boy..I mean it's cool we got more family and the other mutants can be cool even but ugh there is just so many of them when they are over at the lair it just feels so packed and I can't go anywhere without bumping into anyone. I usually got and hang with Case but if I'm stuck home? Its...it's too much."

As someone who comes from a huge ass family and has often had many living situations where I was with a lot of family outside my own unit? yeah it can just become to much you love them and all of course but it sucks feeling you can't have any scrape of space to yourself.

Raph seems closer to Beepbop and Rocksteady of course, since they seem to share in his anger issues and being more rough and tough mutants of action like he is himself/ But he seems to be fine with the rest of his expansive family now as well. Likely sharing in the sentiment of enjoying not feeling alone as the only mutants in the city. So having like the best of both words in a sense so to speak. I feel Raph is gonna see them more as extended family though not too close to any one of them like Don and Wingnut or Mikey and Mondo but hes happy to see them he just isn't likely to hang out with them outside like tv or meals.

Send 🐾 for my muse to talk about (one of) their pet(s)

"....i might be a dad now?"

XD he really don't this is me joking but I mean why not let MM Raph have a pet turtle like 12 did?

XD if I just let him have a pet turtle likely gonna name it in reference to wrestling since he is very into it. Or make it Spike xD

[ducknotinarow]

03 Raph Von - Fatal Blow Meme

She knew getting Raphael out of her father's house of horrors was going to be difficult, but she didn't expect things to go so terrible so fast. Yvonne didn't even realise there were this many agents in the building! There was bullet casings everywhere, but it's not what Yvonne was caring about right now; Raphael had taken a hit, a hit for her, and she needed to tend to him.

Raphael had already gone through so much.

Huddled away, Yvonne had her hands on his wounds, a string of curses leaving her lips as she scrambled to patch him up, even if she knew deep down, it was a failing battle,

"You're not going to die Raphael," Yvonne sternly says, almost demanding it, "Do you understand? You are not dying on me."

She managed to find some fabric, but there was so much blood, the injuries far too deep. And after God knows how long of her father's torture, she knew he would be weak. She knew he was already on deaths door even before this.

Yvonne kept as serious as she should. She can feel a tremble to her fingers and a swell of sadness in her chest. Yvonne was a realist, the writing on the wall. There was nothing she could to do safe him, but Yvonne would get him home, no matter what it took,

"Keep talking to me," Yvonne tells him, "Just keep talking," She goes on, trying to do whatever she could, "Focus on getting home; back to Donatello, and your brothers, your father...focus on getting back to Casey."

Anything to keep his mind distracted, anything to make this easier, because...because she knew she couldn't save him. She knew it was a lost battle, and she had failed him.

"...Let someone else protect you, let someone else take care of you for once..."

Yvonne carefully moved her arms beneath him, forcing it up. She would carry him out of there, the least she can do is make sure he doesn't die here in the EPF,

"I'll get you home," Yvonne spoke softly, her voice cracking, wavering, not bothering to hold back the tears now, "It'll be okay babe," She lies, "You'll be okay..."

| Fatal blow meme

Everything felt so disconnected, disjointed at best Raphael's memories were foggy at best. He couldn't tell what was real some of it felt more like a dream. A vague thought in his head that he could recall but couldn't fully understand as happened. Bishops voice, his face. A smile a sadistic smile thick black lenses that easily covered his eyes but Raphael didn't need to see those eyes to know the look that was in them. It was laced in Bishops tone whenever he spoke. This wasn't personal persay. He didn't seek Raphael out out, Raphael just happened to be out and about. Why? because of some dumb petty fight between him and Von. That had him staying away from home. In his mind he thought he was giving her that space it didn't seem right even in his anger part of him kind of understood that Von might not have else where to go. So he was staying away from home unknown to anyone where he had been staying. Sure sometimes he stay a night or two with Casey. Nice to have a bed to sleep in. But he could fully take advantage of Casey's extension of warmth now could he? He should have.

He was with Casey when he got taken but if he had been staying with Casey till things calmed down? It felt like it was just minutes ago when he was caught in that net. But it wasn't was it? The drug in his system meant to test. That's what he hated the most testing him seeing what he could handle. Raphael was full of fight but..where was his fight now? Only a small spark come forward when he was getting released mistaking Von for Bishop. Funny how he never thought they looked the same before. Having a hard time understanding why she would stick her neck out for him. Not just because of him for a moment thinking she was snake just playing them all. Pulling a ploy to get close to them just to betray them all later. But because of what he had side to her. So why come for him?

Why let him lean against her when he could barely use his feet. Needing to relay on her a bit as they tried to get out together. But the place was swarming with the agents. Every corner seemed to just have more and more. They seemed to be near endless. Finally they had a second to catch their breath Raphael watched Yvonne even through the fog that seemed settled over his brain thanks to all the shit Bishop had pumped into his system. He could still tell though she had that thinking expression fixed on her face from how her brown kitted up in thought. Von was smart if she thinking that hard? She's really trying. Why though? Why risk her neck after what all he said to her? How he lashed out at her even. Here everyone feared his actions when they should been worried about the sting his words held instead. Raphael had been staying away from home assuming she was there but if she was here? Hell he even chased her away from Don? And yet here she was trying to save him. A drugged up turtle, who could barely walk. Hell he was better off blind than how he was now. Yet here she was despite it all.

"Von" Raphael manged to speak gaining some control over his beak again when more gun shots sounded off likely had been waiting out for any sign of them being near. Raphael manged to will some movement as he slammed his arm back to keep Von behind him, standing up in front of her. His vision was half at that, not that understood why in the moment assuming he just couldn't get his eye to open. Blaming it on the excessive amount of drugs in his system. "Stay back!" He barked out the order no reason she had to get hurt for him too. But before anything else could even be said he found his breath literal cut off. Something punched his throat he thought but no one was in front of him? He staggered and swayed left and right a moment, trying his best to breath when he felt something trickle down his neck. Reaching up he manged to feel against his neck and see the blood that covered his palm. "Fu--ck" Trying to talk made it worse.

As he stumbled back against Von, who seemed to gather what happened and tried pulling him away to somewhere to hide once again. Raphael could do nothing more than follow with her. All to aware a bullet got him. It had to be a good once to break through his tick skin alone not to mention the dense muscle. Fuck.

"You're not going to die Raphael,"

He's not so sure about it himself, even once finding somewhere to hide away. He moves to sit when guided to. He knows for sure the bullet didn't make the cleanest of trips. Must have cut through some important parts as he swears he can feel the blood filling up his his throat and trying to cough it up? wasn't working. He wasn't like Don, he couldn't tell you the parts of his neck. HE recalls the word wind pipe thought? That might been one thing that got hit. Would explain why he couldn't breath. Even as blood sputtered out from his beak, it was just finding anyway out that it could. Or he might..

"Do you understand? You are not dying on me."

Raphael hissed in pain when pressure was added to his neck, Praying his eye open as he tried his best to focus on to Yvonne right now. He felt so weak though so drained even before he took that bullet hit. Some dumb part in his brain felt like he could mange if not for that. He knew it thought he can tell he's not sure how but he just knows he wont get out of this. Looking around where they were. A stairwell? Von should be able to get out of her. If they jam the door handle with one of his sai? Give her the other just in case? Hell tie his mask around his neck to buy a few moments and he could run out that door and draw them away.

"Von," he coughed up more blood still trying his best to sit up straight, as he held on to the railings behind him.

"Keep talking to me,"

"Ya" Fuck for someone who never knew when to keep what he had to say to himself was some funny karma keeping him from talking now.

"Just keep talking,"

"Gotta" every word just seemed to take away what ever last bits of air he had left in him, as he let the blood pour out from his beak no matter how much he manged to get it out it just kept filling up his throat.

"Focus on getting home; back to Donatello, and your brothers, your father...focus on getting back to Casey."

Home? The sewers the lair. A place he could walk around with his eyes closed. A place he could so easily picture now in fact. He wished his last seconds could be there instead. Donatello..his brothers. Fuck he always did wrong by them uh? More trouble than he must have been worth. Pointless fights with Leo that just didn't matter now. He wished he could tell Leo how much he counted on him to just be there and handle the shit he could. How he wished he could hear one of Mikey's stupid jokes right now. Wished he could just feel Donnie's shell pressed against his own for just a last moment of comfort. Splinter. His dad. His least favorite son he knew that so well he wished he done better by them. And Casey. So much left unsaid he wished he told them he loved them more recently.

"...Let someone else protect you, let someone else take care of you for once..."

He can feel her trying to get him to stand up again, he did work up to his feet a hand to the rail behind him as he manged to get himself to look back over it. It hard to tell how many level of stairs there was.

"I'll get you home,"

"No." He knows he isn't going back home, he can't recall the last time he saw any of his brothers. What he said to any of them. Was it least not too assholary of him? will their last memory be decent? He's pretty sure he snapped at Leo before finding out about Von. How he ended up outside on his own for Bishop to give him the news. He blew Mikey off uh? He wished he just indulged Mikey once. He might not have even said a word to Donnie. Maybe made a remark about his bikes energy to them but that was..weeks? Days?

"It'll be okay babe,"

And Von? Looking at her, they both know its just a lie as he stumbles as if trying to lean against her for support. He wanted to say sorry, to apologize for everything he said.

"You'll be okay..."

He wasn't going to be okay. Eye focused on the door in front of them, how long could he buy? How long would he last? Bishop had drugs pumping in his system for days straight and it took a fuck ton for that to do anything for him. Well he had enough anger to drive him now. He wasn't going to be okay but he was going to make sure Von would be. As he reached up and tug off his mask, The mask that basically identified who he was for years. Tattered, red fabric. It was the color that made everyone think of him. What he hid behind, what he let Casey take off to see sides he didn't even show his family. Things Splinter knew about him with out needing be spoken. He looked at his belt seeing his Sai. A blunt blade it took a lot of force to stab them through, because that wasn't what they were meant for. But they were given to him from his father Splinter saw something in him to find the sai the right fit. They should go back to his family. He didn't need them. He pushed off from the railing away from Von, as he handed her the only items he really ever owned in his life. That made him stand out from his brothers. The hot head that would do anything to protect his loved ones. And that was how he chose to go out. As he handed them over into her hold. So much left unsaid that he wont be able to take back. Remorse in his gaze. "Von, go and don' turn back" He manged to say as he got back through the door slamming his whole weight against it. Stubborn women she was he knows Von would try to come back and grab him. Tell him he was stupid, why he gave her his things. So she would have to leave and give them back to his family, As he let his shell rest to the door he sees more agents. If he is dying least let him go out how he wants. The gun shots rung out even Von would know better to run by then. When he can't hear her voice he figures hes right. They only wanted him. Adrenalin was a hell of a drug as he pushed off the door and run forward.

And that was the last thought in his mind.

Sorry Babe.

[ducknotinarow]

[07 RaphVon - i feel like out of everything she could ever say to him, this is the most insulting u_u also im just in general looking for things to send you when i found this xD]

Yvonne stared at him for a moment, before muttering - "You sound like my dad."

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Von was more for wine her self but Raphael? he insisted wine was for wusses. He preferred the harder liquor himself sure he tried wine here and there with her but eh didn't do it for him Mikey might like it more though. Through somewhere between the fifth can on his own and who knows the cup of wine for her. That preference turned into some weird curious needs. Casey may have reason to hold some form of jealously still when it came to Raph and Von, course it would never be for the reasons he once mistakenly assumed years ago. No it was because Raphael always said Von was his favorite person to have a drink with. To better illustrate Von was his favorite person to get drunk with.

As he was sitting down now in her and Don's place. Don was at the lair with Ariel actually something about needing something or another he forgot and didn't care. Summer was off at practice for the night meaning Casey was there. To keep an eye out on this Aspen kid. And Summer to of course, have to support their daughter at hockey after all. Neither parent was truly okay with the apparent start of dating, and liking boys! and worse what comes with that! And who better to talk it all out with than his favorite person to drink with. As he sat and tried his best to settle the bottle of wine on top his can of beer.

The neck kept of course filling with wine so Raph would hand it back to Von to drink some more. No time for glass only wine it seemed. Before he took it back somewhere in his fogged over mind thanks to the alcohol buzzing in his system he felt this was the best way to mix his beer with her wine. Not that Von seemed to point out that a cup would be better. Lining up the neck of the bottle over the opening of his can slow to tip the bottle over so it could flow down and into his can. Finally getting it right as he set the bottle down and cover his can before he started to shake the can a little trying to mix the two together.

"I don' care if it normal for her to start 'noting boys' or whateva" Raph grumbles picking back up the conversation they were in the middle of now as he turned to face her, brown jacket and knitted hat still on because he was only meant to be dropping by and kept saying he be leaving but its been a good while since then. "I get the crush thing jus' fine sure whatevea' she bound to get a crush 'ere an' there an' she's a great kid so sure kids 'ike this stupid punk are bound ta 'ike here to. That's one thing. An' Casey the nut case he is gotta accept that too." Ah yes cause only Casey wasn't handling this well, though to be fair Raphael wasn't the one constantly ready to throw hands with the kid. "But I know what happens next" soon pointing his finger out towards Von. "An' so do youes!"

Moving to take a sip of his little mix he grimaced a little clear he didn't like it but he wasn't going to waste it as he finished the sip before slamming his empty can back to the coffee table now. "The touchin', an' the kissin' and worse! an' my Bug is an angel!" there was a bit of pause well Raph seems to think his own statement over. "Well she more a hellion if anythin' BUT MY POINT STANDS BABE!" Raphael continues on with.

"She ain't allowed to 'ike boys, especially gross boys." It was kind of unfair to Aspen both Casey and Raph knew of the kid he been on the same team as Summer for a bit all he did was commit the crime of liking their daughter and try to date her. Now he was enemy number one, he may beat out Hun and Shredder for them each respectfully for it alone. "No she should..she should stay at home only! not outside influence at all! cause 'han no boys can come 'round her and try nothin' with my baby girl." Raphael continue to speak acting as if that was a very ration statement to be making. Catching how Von was staring at him Raph looks at her annoyed as he rolled his eye behind his mask before tipping his head back and giving a wave of his arm before him.

"I can tell ya got somethin' to say here babe so go on ahead spit it out."

"You sound like my dad."

Raphael let his beak hang a little at that "Excuse you!?" Raphael near about shouts even with how she muttered it he heard it clear as day just then and he couldn't not accept those words from Von.

Considering who said 'dad' was. Bishop of all people to go and compare Raphael to just then and there. Raphael has had a million insults thrown his way over the years of his odd life. BUT this? oh this took the cake he had to admit. Nothing had ever cut or burned him so bad not even Bishop taking his own fucking eye was near as painful as what Von just said to him. "I am not!" he goes on to continue his statement letting his brow furrow up and beak settle in a firm frown over such a thing. "I jus' wanna keep her locked up in the apartment forever so no one can-" okay he starting to under how bad that sounds now.

Of course, he would actually do such a thing, he was honestly glad a kid he and and Casey had was human so they could be out in the sun and such unlike himself. Able to enjoy life so open and freely. So no he would lock her up somewhere where she couldn't well be as she lived now. It was just that damn protectiveness getting the better of him, "I jus' don' 'ike the idea of some creep being all over me kid." He huffs a little turning away as he mutters himself "don' want here gettin' hurt either." Because well that did also come with the dating world. He knew a bit from Casey's stories for one hell his and Casey own had some pains ingainged.

"whatever" He soon states moving to stand up as he looks down to his can he goes to push over, it was empty so nothing split out but he felt it got his point across. "I ain't nothin' 'ike that bastard father of youes babe!" He snaps with as he goes to make good on earlier statements from behind. Straightening out his hat and making sure his jacket was straight so he wouldn't freeze on his way home. He have to walk the streets in his state.

" An I don' gotta stay put and deal with youes tallin' lies 'bout me! Next time I drink it's with Casey!" he maturely tosses out before making his leave.

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[SF RaphVon - no shame uwu]

Yvonne was the first of the two to wake up, the girl yawning, half aware of how messed her hair and make up was. Looking back to the sleeping turtle, Yvonne smirks to herself. So worth it. Clambering to the edge of the sewer tunnel, she pops her head out, glancing around.

Would it be wrong of her to sneak out without a goodbye? Probably...

Though that idea immediately is cut short, when she see's someone else up and about. Another turtle, with a nice red mask on...oh! She recognised him. Lifting a hand to her lips, Yvonne used her fingers to whistle, getting the other's attention. Fingers removed, she waves to him,

"Yoo-hoo!" She laughs from her perch, "I saw you last night up on the roof, with that human and Donnie-dear," Yvonne giggled, "Don't you worry, Donnie and I have worked out all our kinks - and conversed, as well."

She smiles down at him, tilting her head a little,

"I'd like to thank you, Don mentioned it was you that suggested we meet up and 'talk'."

And talk they totally did. Yvonne looked around, frowning when she couldn't see a few of her items. She soon looked back down to him,

"Oh, hey, if you see my jumper, lemme know, Don threw it somewhere last night - cheers!"

Yvonne shuffled back to go and start getting dressed, only to quickly scurry forward with some realisation, as she yelled back down,

"I'm Yvonne by the way!" She tells him her name, "Don didn't tell me yours and the other guys names though - feel like letting me know?"

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Even after Casey explained about maybe the fourth or fifth time around Raphael just didn't fully understand what the fuck had happened back there in the slightest. Like sure he understood Von was this pretty mutant lady they seemed just as stubborn as his own twin was. Who despite what he thought or claimed was clearly no better than Raphael himself. They were there for a fight. Why else would have taken Raph's suggestion on letting Casey and him tag along? Casey seemed to finally give up trying to explain as they went about their own night instead.

Having gotten far to caught up into the trouble they found to put a stomp down on. And not to mention Casey themself, he had forgotten all about what happened between knocking in skulls and knocking Casey back against a wall when watching them kick ass got to him enough to need to kiss them hard. Kicking the dragon loser who was dumb enough to complain about having to see that, with a kick to the side of their head. Raphael didn't want to put an end to to the night well he did just not in the way it ended. That kiss alone before they had to part ways. Casey off home and Raph dropping down into the sewer tunnels. Texting Casey to let him know he made it home safe before he slipped his phone away.

The lair was still pretty quite it seemed. The tv wasn't on so Mikey must have gone off to bed, Leo wasn't up just yet so wasn't that early still late enough it would seem. Guess Raph got lucky on his end not having to deal with hearing about being out to late once again. Darn he had the excuse the sun wasn't in the sky just yet ready to give even at the moment. A roll to his shoulders as he slowly tilted his neck to the left and then the right. Feeling bone given and pop with the pressure given, helping to lossen him up after a night of straining his muscles. As he was ready to give them a rest and head for his own bedroom his hammock sounded liked the perfect place to just drop dead into then and there. But a sharp high pitch tone caught his attention as he looked back towards where it came from.

"uh?" was his only real reaction as he offered a tilt of his head even with eyes trained to see in the dark he was having a hard time understanding what he was seeing here.

"Yoo-hoo!"

The laugh that follows is enough to tell him that yeah he is at least seeing correctly as he makes his way over towards the opened pipe Donnie used as his well more his bed over a full room. Any space he could claim his own tended to go more for a work setting over a place to rest. One word Raph knew that Don didn't at least.

"I saw you last night up on the roof, with that human and Donnie-dear,"

"Oh" Raphael simply stated kind of no recalling eailer in the night but that left even more confused than he been before as he let himself try and think for a second here. How did she? "Uh why ya up 'here?" He let his thought continue out past his thoughts.

"Don't you worry, Donnie and I have worked out all our kinks - and conversed, as well."

Raphael slightly quirks his beak at that, no so much her wording or let along phasing more over he isn't sure how much he likes sharing the nickname with someone he doesn't know to well. But well he guesses he can't really stop her from using it that be more Don's say? He might not like it much if Casey used his nickname but wouldn't say they couldn't call him it either? Somehow it doesn't phase him that if she was using it seemed thing really had sort of gone in a different direction then they had planned when arranging their met up after all.

"I'd like to thank you, Don mentioned it was you that suggested we meet up and 'talk'."

"Nah I said fight." Raphael is quick to correct, moving to fold his arms over in front of his plastron. Feeling it was important to make that statement clear. "Why fight 'ith words when action can talk for you." Similar to what he told Donatello before when making the suggestion to his twin. He notes how she changed her attention else where seemed to be looking for something. Maybe her glasses they weren't on her face after all. The state of her hair and make up was pretty bad as well, hair was flaying out in many directions and make so smeared Raph only now seemed to understand it wasn't actually part of her face.

April would smack him for that line of thought. So he lower his gaze to see if he can find them. And maybe a mirror so to warn her of the mess she looked at the moment. Another smack would be earned seeing his thought that followed was to tell her as much.

"Oh, hey, if you see my jumper, lemme know, Don threw it somewhere last night - cheers!"

"Jumper?" he asks "Why didja bring cables 'ith you?" Raphael innocently asks, not his fault this women spoke a different language them he did.

Letting his arms drop he dose try to see if he can spot out a set of jumper cables. Assuming since she was smart like Don maybe they were working on something together? And that was why she was up in his bed. He didn't follow Don's who thing with the portals, them still wishing to understand how they worked. Leo didn't feel they were really done with the whole ordeal even after getting Splinter back so Don's obsession hadn't ended just yet. All he did find on the floor was a sweater so he grab that and looked it over. Pretty sure she had been wearing it before right?

oh!

Well now he understood why she looked like a mess, trying to cover his beak with his free hand. "Oh I gotta tell Case 'bout this." He said to himself. Once things seemed to click and fall into place now. How you go from claiming to hate to making out he still didn't understand but making out to fucking? Oh that part he understood but oh he just could not get over this reveal. Don literally boned her the first chance he had. Recalling how frustrated Don became over hoe pretty she was alone just made it worse. For Donatello that is. Moving to stand when she poked her head once once again.

"I'm Yvonne by the way!"

"Yvoone?" he repeats it back, as if he didn't understand and in part well he hadn't he was pretty sure her name was Twitter this whole time after all. "Uh, well I 'ike that betta 'han Twitter." He idly remarks not giving an explanation on his own end.

"Don didn't tell me yours and the other guys names though - feel like letting me know?"

Raphael just smirks at her, "Raphael, the bozo in the mask is Casey." he answers with as he holds up the sweater her way "Didn' find that cables but uh here 'his." He offers letting go once she had it in her hold. Shifting his weight on his feet as he crossed his arms once again. "Ya know should really tell Don there if he gonna have company ov'a lest he can do is make sure ya decent before anyone else comes to talk to you." He teases a little it was clear Von didn't feel an ounce of shame nor embarrassment on what happened between them. But Donnie wouldn't.

"I mean jeez only one of us only gotta met ya" he smirks a bit more "Ya know still kind of late, the other will be up soon. An' I know my brother Mikey won't mind cookin' for one more. Hows 'bout stickin' around a tad longer? Sides' 'm sure The other 'ike to learn you an' Donnie got along afta meetin'" He gose on to suggest because what was worse than Raphael knowing what happened? and by extension Casey since he told them everything. Than the whole family finding out what Don's little conflict resulted in the end?

[ducknotinarow]

2k3/7 Raph Yvonne - #

|send me “#” for cell phone headcanons about our muses including

*if any information has change over time i'll make mention of it

"Askin' 'bout Von? ehhh 'ight I guess 'hat's fine not sure what ya gonna get outta it though."

- what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone

'Babe'

"Same as the nickname I jus' put her in as babe in my phone, course some people took 'hat to 'hink. I was either Datin' Von. Which ew. Look nothin' wrong with Von she's pretty I guess but ehh ain't really see her 'ike 'hat shes my sister. Even when we had 'hat fight still thought of her as my sister. I know I sort stopped talkin' to her afta Leo left but wasn' nothin' against her. I was jus' bein' a major ass to everyone back 'hen. Neva did change her name in my phone though. Even if people think it's Case at times. Pft nah I don' 'ike usin' Babe for 'em." He chuckles a little recalling when Casey got jelous over the nickname.

"Yeah sure might be weird we call the other babe, only cause its a joke between us. 'Hink she was jus' tryin' mimic back that I called her toots or somethin'. She's kinda dumb 'ike 'hat as if she ever look even remotely threatenin' "

- what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone

[image description] it's a picture of him and Von actually. He's on the floor clearly to drunk to walk and Von's off to the side sitting on the floor seems like she was in the middle of laughing. It's not a very flattering photo of either of them but it is a favorite of Rapheal's. Hasn't changed it not even after he lost his eye to bishop.

"Von's basically my drinkin' buddy. Sure I drink with Case but that tends to turn to other things. With Von? Jus' us havin' a need to vent 'bout shit. Normally I gotta start cause Von too much like Don and she don't say much less given a push. Course Don and Case both hate it afta. I guess we do sorta go to hard at times, and they may have had ta chase us 'round the docks more 'han once." Raphael admits but simply shrugs his shoulders after.

 - what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone    

*Im ignoring the fact this song didn't come out till 2010 i just think it's funny

Last Friday Night (T.G.FI) Pictures of last night ended up online, I'm screwed Oh, well It's a blacked out blur, but I'm pretty sure it ruled Damn

"Cause Von is a riot when shes drunk, really come's outta her own shell ya know? Sure most time 'm drunk too but been a few times I walk over an' she got a head start? She kind of funny to see 'ike that. Even if she get mad cause she thought I was Don at first." He chuckles cause it's happened a few time and she always get upset. "Nah 'ike I said she like Don. Not very open 'bout shit. Less ya asking her a question 'han she can go on forever with explanations. But once she drinks a bit guess she aint as closed off so she opens up a bit more not so much in stuff buggin' her. But ya 'hat shit too. But she ain't as impersonal I guess the word I want?"

 - my muse’s last text to your muse 03: [text] Hey Von guess who scored some good shit?! :D

[text] Leo's bein annoying so imma go to your place cause he'll think i'm with Case instead. Be less likely he'll find me I don't wanna see fearless >:I he's beeing a dick again. 03: [text] Hey...I need a place to hide. And well we need to talk it fine if I drop by? 07:

[text] Hey uh Von? Been some time I know just

[text] I've done some real stupid shit lately need some one smart to talk to

[ducknotinarow]

[2k3/2k7 uwu]

Just because it was said in anger, said a while ago, didn’t mean it stopped hurting. Words am did far more damage than any bruise - perhaps that’s why Yvonne wished Raphael had attacked her as opposed to said what he did. Those wounds would’ve faded by now.

It wasn’t the comment about her being spineless or whatever that hurt. It’s when he said she was like her father. A man she strived to prove wrong at every turn, to be completely different from. A man she kept her mouth shut about, and, well, look what it led too.

She’s not going to keep quiet about things anymore.

Yvonne’s quiet as she sits next to Raph. Things may be patched up but there were still things left unsaid. Well, she believes she has things left unsaid,

“I’m sorry,” She says calmly, “For not telling you about Bishop; it’s not that I didn’t want to, honest, I just wasn’t sure how or when would be the best time, clearly I ran out of that by the time you did find out,” She explains, “I should’ve been the one to tell you, and I’m sorry it wasn’t, and I’m sorry that I kept it from you at all - you trusted me, and I should’ve trusted you to understand.”

She had wanted to apologise for a while, of course she did, the remorse genuine behind her words,

“There is… something I need to ask you though,” she isn’t sure what answer she would prefer, “When you, understandably, blew up at me at the docks, did you mean what you said?” Yvonne asks him, “‘Like father like daughter’, ‘spineless’, ‘you may be a butterfly but you’re acting more like a snake’ - that’s what you said.”

Don’t get angry. Don’t get visibly upset. Ignore the pit in your chest and breath. Ignore the way your voice wavered in that moment. Your silence hurt you both before, do not let it happen again,

“I’m not looking for an apology for what you said, I simply wish to know if you stand by it,”She feels like she’s setting herself up to be hurt again, “It’s okay if you did mean it you know, I suppose, selfishly, I’m asking for clarity on where we stand - that’s all.”

Well, it wouldn’t be okay, not for her, but she’d force herself to accept whatever opinion he had - even if it did hurt in the end.

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Raphael was still getting used to everything, going away with Casey to the farm house had been in truth him wanting to run away. That wasn't really Raphael. He claimed running was a coward move after all, but he needed it. Wanted to run just so tried and annoyed by everything feeling like he was going to snap and loose it. Because all Bishop did was tell the turtle he was only one thing. Angry. Hell that's why he flipped out on Von right? because he was angry? Always so fucking angry. Don't matter.

There was nothing more to the turtle than his anger, and hot it roots itself into every nook and cranny of the turtles being. Those few between moments when Raphael is clam and feels at peace. When hes reading and Donnie's near by. When hes watching tv with Mikey. When he and Leo go out to the surface together and decide to race back. When Casey and him sit up on roof tops together. When he goes to Splinter's room and drinks tea with them in silence. All it is is keeping it all at bay isn't? Raphael wasn't one to handle so many thoughts in his head, it kept him tossing and turn in his hammock till he decided to give up on sleep for the night. As he rolls out from the side and lands hard on his feet. Takes a bit longer to let his eyes adjust to the darkness i his room. Mask loose and left to hang around his neck. as he makes his way out from the room and heads for the kitchen.

He could slightly pick up on the sounds coming from Donnie's lab as he walked past it "Coffee?" he asks with a yawn he was pretty sure he heard an answer. Well if Don didn't he was sure the smell of coffee brewing would lure his brother out. As Raphael continued to the kitchen he was grateful his brothers finally backed off, and were letting him breath with out any of them basically stepping on his feet after all that happened. Raphael was getting use to holding things on his left more now, he was getting used to turning his head over more. There had been talk about finding a fix but his whole eye was removed. Cause Bishop couldn't do a half assed job it seemed, there was just nothing left to even try to help restore the vision. Sure he could get an implant if he wanted but, it would just prevent the option at all. Raphael hadn't wanted to think about it much more than he had to. As he moved away from the coffee pot now, letting the water start to heat up and work out to filter through the grounds of coffee. As he moved to sit down at the kitchen table. His eye hurt, which made no sense it wasn't there. But sometimes it felt like there was throb around the missing right eye. When he heard someone come in to the kitchen he assumed it would be Donnie. Okay he was hoping it was Donnie. So the way he paused and sort of just stared at Von was because his brain needed a second to understand this was someone else. Well more this was Von. He had no idea before but guess she had been staying away from the lair as well. Yeah he went and told her sorry and they made up but this had been the most he been around here since all of that.

"hmm hey Von, didn't know ya were around. I dunno how ta make it cold but Coffee up for grabs once it's done." Raphael states, as part of him wanted to stick around to see if Don would come out soon but well no offense to Von but her being here too would sort of ruin that little thing with him and Don. Still not tried maybe he could go up top? maybe just crash at Casey's the rest of the night? Before he can fully think on what he wants to do though Von moved to sit with him. Raphael titling his head and quirk his beak a little as he looked at her curiously. "yeah?"

“I’m sorry,”

"Accepted?" Raphael offers trying to think about why she was being sorry in the first place. Von's more clam demeanor doesn't help to give him an idea on what this was all about though.

“For not telling you about Bishop; it’s not that I didn’t want to, honest, I just wasn’t sure how or when would be the best time, clearly I ran out of that by the time you did find out,”

Oh this. Raphael moves to sit up a bit well she speaks, blame it on him being tried or blame it on the fact he knows they are still well working on things between them. But he keeps his beak quite a moment. Honestly he hadn't thought about that much since everything that happened. he saw it was water under the bridge compared to everything else Von lying to him just didn't seem like as big a deal as he made it out to be before. Or Bishops words were just that loud in his mind.

“I should’ve been the one to tell you, and I’m sorry it wasn’t, and I’m sorry that I kept it from you at all - you trusted me, and I should’ve trusted you to understand.”

"Don't worry 'bout it babe." Raphael tosses out moving to rub the heels of his palm against the missing eye. Needing to press in against the side of it. That throb was getting worst right now. Part of him wonders if he ain't just thinking about it to much however, "yeah it took me through the ringer when..he told me. Yeah it pissed me off cause well ya my friend Von. But we ain't gotta say sorry every time we bump into each other now. I get it okay. Ya got cold feet on tellin' me. Timing was all off." thinking about it he's sure she never said sorry herself before uh? eh whatever. Moving to rest his head against the palm of his hand he can just tell there is more she wants to say.

"Ya gonna keep starin' at my good looks or ya gonna open ya mouth?" he teases hoping it prompts her just a tad so he will shut up.

“There is… something I need to ask you though,”

Raph doesn't even hold back the sigh that he goes and lets come right out from his beak "Okay? and what's 'hat?" he swears this better not be some weird family connection guilt. Raphael couldn't stand to deal with that on top of everything else right now.

“When you, understandably, blew up at me at the docks, did you mean what you said?”

"uh what part? I kind of said a lot 'hat night Von." in truth he didn't recall most of what he said, it was all this blind blank moment in his own memory. He just remembered how he felt not so much what he said. He recalls bits enough to know what he said was all in anger and a need to get her away from him. But sometimes a temper was funny, it let something out that you were keeping to yourself.

“‘Like father like daughter’, ‘spineless’, ‘you may be a butterfly but you’re acting more like a snake’ - that’s what you said.”

Raph physical grimaced at what she repeated. Regretting that he made it out that he himself didn't even recall what he told her. Yvonne on the other hand? Seemed like she had been carrying everything he said with her like scars. Reminders that never fades away and had yet to truly heal over. Worse Raphael couldn't even act like he wouldn't say those things ever. That is exactly what he dose.

“I’m not looking for an apology for what you said, I simply wish to know if you stand by it,”

"Von," Raphael tries to interrupt in a want to drop this whole thing. Now he wished he stayed in his hammock. That's selfish of him. Raphael just didn't want to do this. As childish as that was, but sometimes you got to.

“It’s okay if you did mean it you know, I suppose, selfishly, I’m asking for clarity on where we stand - that’s all.”

"ya know, ya remind of Donnie sometimes and it fuckin' annoying." There was no bite behind his wording there is a touch of fondness to his words. He caught how her voiced wavered when she spoke he can see how she's trying to hold herself together. Raphael hurt her, that's what he sees. He could lose the left eye and he still be able to see that. Rubbing at his temple a moment. The best thing he can do is give her a good answer, not sugar coated no one where he thought it over. He guess so he respects and cares enough about her to show he can be serious. "I only meant the spinless comment. Maybe a bit on the snake bit too but 'hat was me jus' baring my teeth at best."

Raph isn't sure if thats good or not dropping his hand now, he can push the pain away for a moment, turning to better face her right now. "Ya know Leo and I fight so much it jus' annoy Mikey and Don?" Raph can assume Don has complained about it before Mikey even since he liked hanging out with Von on those 'girl nights' of theirs. Why bring this up though? "Leo says some shit that can kinda hurt me more 'han well even losing my eye." He offers a bitter chuckle, it's easier to bring attention to it around Von though. "But Leo don' back down from me, he don' bottle crap away either, don' need me to confront him nether." Raph explains "Tell anyone 'his an' I swear I will prevent ya from getting a drop of coffee for days."He is quick to snap or some threat the first that comes to mind, messing with ones coffee is the only thing he can think of seeing how pissy Don gets over it. He waits to settle back to where he left off with "But I respect that 'bout Leo. Leo has never held back on me, if I piss 'em off I know trust me I do. I feel most usedta the harsh shit I say but trust me Leo can be worse. Sometimes I 'hink 'bout how fire when it's real hot it's blue ya? 'hat's how I think of Leo." He explains a bit "jus' no matter what though I can count on 'hat."

He's quite a moment "it's why I look for 'hat in others so much." because of the trait he respect most in his eldest brother. "I rather people be straight forward wit' me." Raph tries to explain, "I don' care they gotta say. If its painful or not I got more respect for someone 'hat can jus' be honest with me. I rather they jus' come out an' say it sure but even if it's take some push 'hat's fine. Why i wish Don wouldn' keep his beak shut all the damn time. Or you with this." reaching up now to rub over the back of his neck.

"Sure I can' say 'd have taken it well, sure I might still snap at somewhat. Maybe accuse you of bein' a double crosser. But 'hat jus' be me freakin' out 'hat if 'hat were ture. It been my fault somethin' happened to the rest of 'em. An' 'hat would kill me." Raphael knows better than anyone losing any one of his brothers would kill him but if he was the cause? yeah be worse. "But ya not jus' any one to me Yvoone. Ya important ta me too, i love bitchin' about shit with you. I love how fuckin' snarky ya can be. I love 'hat ya put your self into danger wit' thinkin' 'bout ya self. 'Hat no one can tell ya what todo ya gonna do it. An' I know ya someone I would put my life on the line for." He feels the need to point this all out before he speaks further.

"I can tell ya those thin's I haven' said to most ever. But ya can' tell me you were related to Bishop? How else would I 'ake that? Von. Someone I care 'bout a shit fuckin' ton, and would try and do whatever I could for if ya needed me to. But ya couldn' look me in the face an' tell me 'hat? Yeah Splinless. Even if I can bet I still wouldn' have taken it well cause well fuck it's Bishop. I can' stand that Matrix lookin' ass freak."

'Hat was the thing I didn' mean I jus' said it cause I dunno I freaked. I was pissed off an' i wanted ya away from me. Still think it was spineless of ya to keep it from me, but i guess i get it as well. But I am sorry for sayin' 'hat " He pauses a moment reaching over to set a heavy palm on to on shoulder. Raphael felt there was really only one thing to end this off on. "But ya ain't Bishop. Aint even close to him." he soon offers a smile her way "Got better fashion sense so least that ain't passed down to ya 'hat's somethin' yeah?"

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Raph was not someone who could cook he left that to Mikey. Heck, the turtle could barely make toast well. Somehow, he managed to burn and leave parts raw. Don't get him started on the toad in a hole either! That egg was a whole ass mess. If Mikey or Splinter hadn't cooked, he tended to stick to eating anything he could just rip out from a box like cereal. Even if he had a habit of drinking the milk with it straight out from the carton, but that was about as close to a cook he would ever be. He thought a nice gesture would help him and Von patch things up between them, though in all fairness, Von might feel things were fine between them, and only Raphael felt he still needed to fix things between them. Sides she seemed to get along fine with Casey and Casey surprisingly seemed to as well. So Raphael figured it be nice if the four of them could just be well chill with one another. But the only way that's gonna happen is if he don't near about kill the poor girl, well or anyone in general but that was a issue for another day.

But he had a secret weapon Casey. Casey knew how to bake and not to brag but Raph was in fact bragging about it his boyfriend was a fantastic baker. In truth he bragged about it lot when he brought a brownie home from Casey's before. Still not the point here but he figured with Casey maybe he could do something better than his bad attempt from before that made her sicker than a dog. But he was staying away from specif British foods that was for sure. Their food was waaay to hard to make. So why not something sweet this time? That would be just find and maybe safer route to go. After a tad or looking into it he thought maybe a tart would be fine it was like a pie right? Well least in the picture it looked like it be nice didn't have many steps or ingredients needed either? A Strawberry rum tart. It sounded good at least and luckily April was willing to help with getting him what he needed as well.

Though he was a bit surprised? He didn't know you could put alcohol in to food? or cook with it either? How did that even work? Could you get drunk from eating the tart or like too much of it? Only real thought in his mind when he was setting stuff into the lair's kitchen. HE was waiting for Casey to drop by later to give him a hand with this. After pressing the poor guy about helping him and openly pleading because well he still felt awful for making her sick. He knew Casey would pretty much agree the second he maybe asked but a little begging doesn't hurt. Pulling out the rum he looked the bottle over curious still about how it was needed for the dessert. And curious for the taste.

"Well we don't need too much of it anyway" was the last thing he said to convince himself it was a fine idea. to give the wine a little taste. Grabbing for the closest to a shot glass he had. And filled it up for his quick taste well he waited for Casey to come around. He wasn't expecting the taste to be so smooth going down. Kind of sweet taste to it as well? Guess it was just going to be for flavor then? going ahead and filling up the glass once more still under the excuse of simply tasting the stuff.

Easily fooled by just how light it was compared to what he normally drank and well the sweet smooth taste didn't help or make him think twice about it besides they only needed like 1/4 of cup so if he drank like a few more shot glasses worth? It wasn't going to take away from what they were going to need. Shrug of his shoulders given was still going to be sometime till Casey was able to come around as he stepped away from the counter bottle and glass in hand he sat himself down at the table in the kitchen and got another glass filled. But was going to hit him more than he was expecting when he slammed down the shot glass after about his maybe sixth shot?

"heh okay maybe shoulda stopped like a paragraph ago."

Raph states as he went to lay his head to the table a moment his body felt like it was humming from the alcohol in his system it was kind of a nice feeling buzzing in him as he just started to hum out to himself no even sure what tune he was trying to mimic when he did so. Foot steps into the kitchen got his attention right away. "Baby girl!" he exclaimed full of delight in his tone seeking to find Casey in the door frame but hmm no one was standing there? He was sure someone was walking in, eyes lowered further down from where Casey would be standing. Soon eyeing purple antenna his gaze sort of stuck on that a second narrows his eyes confused by why those were there Casey didn't have those? Little lower finally looking to Yvoone's face his beak scrunches up and he audibly huffs at her appearance. Dropping his head to the table clearly not happy to see the butterfly mutant in that moment.

"You're not baby girl." Raph soon grumbles out under his breath as he gives out another huff of annoyance. Only then did it seem to click in his fogged over mind who this was sitting up right away near about knocking the bottle of rum over able to just about save it as he held it up against his plastron for dear life. It was for dear life Von may never forgive him! Though he isn't sure why she was mad at him? Wait was Von mad at him at all? he's having trouble gathering his thoughts in the moment. "I mean you maybe could be baby girl don't get me wrong." he trys to recover his blunder from before but now it sounds like he's saying something else? "Not mine of course I only got eyes for Casey he's my baby girl. And the most baby girl to just ever be ya see..oh FUCK!" He suddenly yells "Ya didn't hear me call them that okay?"

Suddenly feet press in against the floor so he could push himself away from the table, Still hugging the bottle of rum close to himself he didn't want to risk spilling a drop of the stuff. As he made his way over to Yvoone. "he gets all upset about other knowing I call him that." Raph smiles a bit "he shy like that." He happily explains thinking about Casey well when isn't Raph thinking about Casey? Soon he eyes Yvoone more closely then needed.

"Like I guess objectively? ya cute Von. I mean you are short and short girls are always cute. SO you got that going for you, at least, right? And you wear glasses well. Irma says glasses make a gal cute, at least? I wouldn't know, see, i'm gay." As if she had no way of knowing this before. "But like I can tell when a girl is cute, at least. And you are cute, Von. I mean you your hair looks done, and wavy frames your face well. And your glasses are cute. At least Irma says girls that wear glasses are cute?" Raph tries to explain. "Guess make people look at your eyes, which are nice too kind of like gemstones, ya know? But eh, I gotta say personally, no offense, not cute to me." Not that Von had asked.

"Wanna know cute? Casey, of course, who else would I mean? He's all big and tall, but he's just so cute, and it's very unfair. Got way better hair than you, and I know don't put in effort. And his eyes? Well I can't say to much since he wears his mask but the shore line is way prettier than some gemstones." Raph contuines on with.

"Oh but they look nice Oh you Von." Only now aware of how rude that all sounded. "I mean your like a five ar best but Casey? He breaks the scales see? So it's unfair to compare you might be cute but compared to Casey? Never stood a chance he's Bodacious after all." Raphael happily ends his point on. "Why were we talking about thar though? Von you know I'm gay so asking my opinion is silly." Wait wasn't there a reason he wanted to see Von?

"The tart!" He explains suddenly rushing to the counter now sreaching for the pre-made tart shell. He figured in his sober state it be easiest that way. "Don't go no wheres!" He suddenly explains as he works in a panic.

Bottle of rum finally set down to the counter as he works to pry open the tart shell, a small piece broke off but it was fine. He stared at it a moment trying to get his brain to function here and work with him. Ripping open the bag of sugar and pouring it into the shell, he followed the lead with the next set of ingredients thicken creme, butter and such all careless thrown into the shell as he tapped the side of hus head tryingnto recall what else he need for this mess. "Oh right the rum!"

Raphael exclaimed and pour it right top of everything else. Noting mixed or preped as it was meant to soaking the shell right threw even as clumps started to form even but he still grabbed it and prouded walked his mess over to the butterfly mutant. "Look for you!" He happily presents it her way feeling he did an amazing job considering the time crunch he didn't need Casey after all clearly.