#[ it's okay to feel sad it's okay to cry aflockoffeathers]

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🎶 for all your Raph muses tbe music meme give me all the songs bich you can delete the post but that ain’t gonna stop meeeeeeeeeeed

| Send me "🎶🎶🎶" and I will share with you 1-3 music tracks that I associate my muse(s) with!

*Considering I have playlists for them all I just had to pick three songs XD Keep in mind a lot of these choices are solely based on events in rp on the blog at least stuff that has enough development for me to comment on in terms of songs. Or goes into my protryal of Raphael over all.

We didn't start the fire

Is this love that i'm feeling

Beat It

*When it comes to all my 80's playlists I try so hard to keep the songs in that time frame but I have broken that over time XD but mainly it is still a good 80's mix. Anyway when picking his songs I tried to stick to his time frame. Can't say i'll be as dedicated on the others pft. Anyway time for my pop tart boy.

We didn't start the fire: I picked because it seems like a song reference he would make when it comes to how often him and his brothers wind up roped into situations he doesn't fully believe are their problem to deal with. But end up being their problem anyway. Like don't get him wrong when he feels it is their issue Raph's attitude is different like in the first season when it came to Splinter.

Is this love that im feeling: yes course this gonna be about Casey. Raphael just thought he had no real interest in romance why would he after all? He is a mutant turtle? maybe if there was a female mutant turtle? But even then he had doubts. The only time he kind of liked a girl was when he was hit with a love potion after all. He didn't seem to like girls so he wondered if he liked well men instead? based off his own comments he thought were just jokes. Then in came Casey Jones. Who he fell for pretty quick sure at first he found them nuts but he was attacking his brothers. And it didn't stop him from fighting Casey again later. But didn't keep Raph once they had a more friendship going on to wonder what was there. Turns out it was love its why he changed his tune to like Casey clearly. I also just like it for when he and Casey date. Sure loving someone is enough to date them but dating is how you see if you continue to love them. And that what Raph figured out. Also I like to think this is a song Raph would sign towards Casey uwu

Beat it: I find it funny and clear proof others don't watch the 87's series. Cause they have this weird outlook of Raph not lighting ti fight or being a fighter. And I agree he isn't looking to pick a fight but he is fucking petty and will start a fight. Raph is a very "I didn't start it but i'll finish" it type of fighter in this series. So a good song about throwing down to fight seems fitting for Raph's rude behavior.

*Normally I put 03/07 together but I feel some songs will fit better for some themes in 07 story plots.

1. Hercules

2. Brother

3. I'll be good

+4. Bonus song My best friends Ex

Hercules: Generally I love this song because it really works to dip into Raph's need to protect. It's not just in a physical way either Raph despite calling himself a lone wolf is someone who really just looks out and cares for others. He comes off selfish and uncaring but then you see how he is quick to put others before himself. Down plays anything going on with him but will put more worry into it for others. He loves to have space but is quick to try and reach out to someone else if he feels they need it. His stubborn ass is what makes him so loyal he has so much faith in others. He really will shield others from harm when they can't themself.

Brother: I love this song for TMNT in generally because a brotherhood is just such a strong theming for the series. BUT I'm directing this to his brothers. Raph's heart is one of four, his brothers are his whole world. Anything happens to one of them? and best look out he will die if it meat protecting his brother or getting revenge for them. Raph can seem harsh and distract but in the moments that matter most? he is the one by his brothers sides first. When need be he will step up into leader role so to make sure the rest are safe if Leo isn't around like when Leo left to see the Ancient one and they got attacked by Karai. One thing you don't get between is Raph and his brothers even when Raph distances himself them he knows they have him and he knows they know he has them. Why they count on him and will call out for him when needed especially Donnie.

I'll be good: It's not secret that Raph is his own worst critic. It's why I feel Splinter never got on Raph's case as much as he dose Leo during Leo's emo arc. Splinter will step in if Raph's going to far and offer advice but he knows no amount of scolding is anywhere as bad or deep hitting as what. It's hard for Raph to understand where his anger comes from. He wants to protect his family and it scares him to see how big the world is out there if they stayed in a much smaller area easier to maintain it be easier to protect them. Raphael just feels like he can't do right he fears being the one to hurt his brothers why he has nightmares of him being the shredder. He regrets any fight he has with Leo, the times he went to far with Mikey hell he got regrets with Donnie too. He wants to be good he wants to be more positive like Mikey can be but he just can't he feels something wrong he feels if he could cut into himself deep enough maybe just maybe he can find what it is and take it out.

My best friends ex: I couldn't give up the last three for this song but didn't wanna leave it out XD. Raph and Von's friendship in 03 verse is just so damn good to me I love it I love them being besties so much. It's funny cause I feel you wouldn't see these two being so close. But I think Von just not caring to fall for the image Raph sets up allowed her to get close to Raph. Maybe cause of her background who knows. Just in my mind if Von ever dated anyone outside Donnie they knew/or knew about Raph that friend thats hates them funnier if Raph don't know them he hates them uwu.

Danger to myself

Wannabe

Killing me

Danger to myself: For sure where Raph was at just after Leo had taken off. There was just a lot going on. Raphael hated that they were told they couldn't basically go on with their lives with Leo gone. Raph lost a good source of his distractions because of that and struggled with things going on with himself. Slowly he started to make things worse shut out his family, and pushing away those who he needed most. Donnie someone who always makes him feel a bit more grounded. But Raph lost his footing. Casey someone who always made him feel loved and needed. But Raph didn't love himself or feel he was needed. Night Watcher was so easy for him to hide anyway into. If he was the Night Watcher he didn't need to be anything more.

wannabe: Why this song? how do a spice girl song fit Raph. I feel like each of the adults have had moments where they are watch both Summer and Ariel on their own. Raph's soft for the two on their own as is. When they are together? He might as well be a floor mat for them. Just image them in a classic moment of the girls finding a way to rope Raph into thier antic and feel one is singing along to songs well messing around. Raph can act like he dont wanna be part of thier sleep over antics but I feel Casey walked in and found Raph singing along to the Spice girls with his daughters. XD basically it more a song that just makes me think of Raph in a parental route.

Killing me: May seem a bit misleading on how Im gonna be using this song but this is more meant for when Casey is going though his mid life crisis. You think Summer felt her dad just left? Oh trust Raphael felt the same way. But where Summer can speak on that and express how she feels Raphael will not. No different from how with his own family Raph seeing Casey going through what he was he in part knew that Casey needed to be allowed to. Raph had to go through his own stupid shit for a time. He saw Leo have to as well and even Donnie. But it wasn't easy, Raph had to keep things in home well in order. Had to make sure Summer was taken care of. Seeing Casey not in the right state. In truth I feel Raph reached out to April A LOT during this time. If he could swing it with disguises he of course takes Summer to practice himself. Raph didn't really have a support when he fell apart (he pushed them away that why) so he wanna try and give Casey the room to fall apart too and show Raph is there to help pull him back together like Casey has for him. But even Raph dose feel Casey's absence and it's killing him uwu

Lost

Sharks

Fine

Lost: Some of my favorite scenes dealing with Raph are when they see Splinter get thrown down into the sewers. And in his fit of rage Mikey hugs him to snap him out of it. And again during the space arc when one the angry planet Raph once more snaps and Leo hugs him. What snapped him out of it? Love uwu. Raphael is someone seen as uncaring he is quick to say he don't like ti deal with certain emotions. He is meant to be big bad tough Raphael. Yet, he is full of pain and a feeling of being just lost. Where he should be aware he is loved and needed sometimes he needs that assurance because Raph sees the worst in himself. Raph is hurting deep down and it come out in his anger and he wishes he knew better how to handle it to even understand why it's there so sometimes a bit of affection paid his way helps. Raph isn't bad a kid hes just very unheard. It shows that he can be heard by some and it should make Raph look weak that he dose need that at times. But to him dose. He just lost in the storm always in his mind. Sometimes he just needs to grab on to someone a moment.

Sharks: It's funny how often you can mirror Raph with some of the villains. You got of course his often foil in 2012 Fish face, the more obvious Slash before he was redeemed even being shown like a worse case for what Raph could become. And of course, there is the fact he and Leo are like a new generation of Yoshi and Saki. Often I feel why Splinter is how he can when it comes to Raph's anger and complaints on Raph likes to think he is better because hes good so he should be better he wouldn't sink to their levels. But he has he can even Slash alone showed what would happen if Raph let his anger consume him too much the beast he could become if he didn't have his brothers around? Raph would become so much worse. If he didn't have family he loves and looks out for than what would he have to keep him grounded?

Fine: Raph is the stereotypical character who talks shit about love and romance. Act like he so above his brothers who more open to showing they would like to fall in love. Raph very much that person who just can't understand someone loving him because of his own self hate. And he sort of projects that on the him and his brothers Who would love them. And yet? He wants it he wants to be stupid over someone, he and try and deny how he felt for hockey playing idiots all he wants but he don't want that he wants to also turn and say he's an idiot and he feels those things too. Cause deep down Raph is just a sappy romantic. He wanna just embrace those things too given the chance. So why not go ahead and show he might have intrest in his best friend just a bit uwu

Can't take me down

chills

I like it heavey

Can't take me Down: This is just a feel good song for Raph in general he is very much got this I can't be stopped mind set (boy do I look forward to him getting humbled or shown other wise that he isn't strong enough >:3) This is very much a how I carry myself kind of song. Despite how clearly everyone around him seems to look at him and see him needing some help professional level even or any time someone remarks on him going a bit too far? Raph will either defend it with a look of 'what do you mean?" or blow it off. He goes in loud with out a second thought. You can't take him down and much as they all hoped he thinks that's what will get people to love him uwu

Chills: I just like this for our rasey for mm with your take on MM casey uwu Since we always tend to give Casey the theming of ice. But it also just fits because Raph never been in love before not really something he thought of only to make fun of Leo over. The. Comes Casey someone who gives him litteralt chills uwu

l like it heavey: someone thar is a mutant? Yeah, this start of the song dots alone as is. But Raph himself? Someone who dose have a bit a different taste in well everything from his more violent tendencies to his love for wrestling even to point if hiw he wants to present considering he uses protine powders to help muscle growth. Even his sens of style? Some like it pretty, but Raph likes it heavey. Slightly to play into the sing above this jsut plays into why Raph himself don't think he goes to far or maybe even need help (he dose u_u) he just himself and wants someone who gets that who he is.

1. Hot n' cold

2. Chateu

3. The phoenix

Hot n' Cold: I'm sorry but not sorry hot n' cold os just Raoh generally over all. He can really just shift through his moods swings fast enough to give someone whiplash. Raoh has his moments where he can be sweet and caring and those moments should really speak the loudest to others. But other times? He's a oranry bitch. And he's pretty up front about it.

Chateu: since Raphs known casey the longest in this verse, i feel these two have had a lot of time to be all fuck this place mind set over time. Between Raphs family drama and Casey own. Raph has had Casey in his corner from day one. This is just a very nice song for Casey and Raph in general I feel ;3; they need each other, they make eachnothers hearts bear. Course, there's a reason it took them time to get together, but they been able to give up on some things thiwr hangs up and such cause they got the other ;3;

The phoenix: in truth this song I played on repeat often well playing the game it self xD It just fits!!! Anyway in universe I would say it's because Raphael is pretty goal set in the game. He feel long as they stay together as brothers they will get Splinter back because well he needs to or he will get hopless himself. So he talks uo loving the fights and such and enjoys when they get to certien maps in the game. Honestly the most break in this is when they are looking for Casey he gose from. But he picks himself back up after every loss or miss chance to get thier Dad back. Raphael isn't someone to get knocked down too easily like his fiery rage this turtle will rise back up like. Phoenix

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Tag Drop

Ariel [sister from another mister -aflockoffeathers]

they may be cousins but they are more like sisters they just don’t have the same dad uwu don’t matter if they were sisters they would cause twice as much trouble so its for the worlds best uwu

Donatello [ He wreak havoc get ready for part two -aflockoffeathers] Whats worse than one raph? two uwu Donnie already dealt with Raph growing up and all his nonesense and now hes got part two good thing she’s his niece uwu

Yvoone [ two of a kind - aflockoffeathers]

Considering Summer has to see first hand how hard it is for Raph to try and live  a normal life I can see her holding  aspeical intrest and investment in what her Aunt is trying to do. She dont wanna wait for the futre where mutans like her dad can walk free she wants it sooner u-u

Casey [ watch me shine watch me grow - aflockoffeathers]

Okay so this one I have to [link] the song too cause it seems very fitting for Casey and Summer ;3; and I just really love this song and kind of reflects off the tag you have. Cause Casey standing there at her crib promising everything he was going to do for Summer ;3;

Ariel [ it’s okay to feel sad it’s okay to cry - aflockoffeathers]

SOOOO I stole this from another sitcom I love uwu cause Raph and Ariel’s relationship is likely going to be simllair to the uncle and niece in the show Shes basically gonna be Raph’s little buddy, and like another daughter to him. Considering who her dad is? yeah Raphs will always tell her she can be sad and she can cry to him if she needs uwu even if its about a bug u-u

Ariel [ open your eyes let’s begin - aflockoffeathers]

Okay so one Moana is often refereed to being the opposite of The Little Mermaid so I picked a song from there cause Mikey is often seen as the opposite of Donnie. This is from the your welcome in part cause of the ask where she learned hes the Turtle Titan uwu but also cause you know hes gonna be teaching his niece theres a lot other things to enjoy in life cause her parents are nerds u-u

Splinter (i need to icon 07 XD)

Ariel [ let them pass you and go your own speed - aflockoffeathers] So I kind of stole this from my papa (grandpa) it was something he used to tell me so grandpa advice uwu. Seeing how Ariel wanna be part of the human world wishes to be human and even gets curious about her other grandpa it seems fitt here too

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[07 Kid!Ariel to Raph]

It was late, and the kids were supposed to be fast asleep, but Ariel just couldn't keep her eyes shut long enough to fall asleep. She had upset her Uncle Raphie, when she brought up that Bishop stranger she met. He got upset, and well, he wouldn't have been upset if she never said something. It was bothering her, Ariel really didn't want to make her Uncle Raphie upset.

Huffing, she leaves Summer's room, tip toeing towards the light coming from the living room. Seems like Uncle Raph and Uncle Casey were still awake. Good. Heading straight there, she stood to the side, merely staring up at Raphael for now, silent. She wanted to bring up what happened, say sorry for mentioning 'Bishop'. But that's what made him mad and she didn't want to do that.

So instead, Ariel, wordlessly, clambered up next to Raph and hugged his side as tight as she could, silently apologising for earlier without making it clear that's what she was doing.

| Muse Interaction

"Alr'ight ankle bitters are in bed now" Was how Raphael made it known he got the girls put down for bed for the night. The apartment sure showed signs that they had an additional little terror running around the place. Not like the apartment had been super clean like ever if anything just slowly added more to make a mess of the place. Casey always had some kid with him to watch but Raph was sure Casey cause more mess than any kid could. When Casey asked Raph to properly move in with him as opposed to coming going as he been for a long time. To summer coming into their home which of course met lots of times where they had both Summer and Ariel over. It was something that could be dealt with later. As Raph fell back on to the couch to join Casey. Moving over to rest against his side a moment ignoring any remark about it. Soon growing quite nothing knew there outside the thoughts roaming in Raphs skull now.

It's not like he didn't think about it anymore, hell sometimes he woke up and forgot he only had the one eye to see from anymore. And sometimes there was still a faint dull pain. That he was aware was just phantom pains that meant nothing in the long run. Idly rubbing over the left side of his face. His eye lids just remain closed his masks has the missing side stitched over. Sometimes he swore he was still back in that tub of fluid though. Sometimes he wake up expecting to feel cold metal under him and Bishop looming over him. Didn't matter what was in his system at the time. He was awake and aware enough to know what happened. Thinking it some nightmare he never fully could wake up from.

As he let his fingers run along the outside of his eye, just feeling below his eye lids. He knows pressing against them would only serve to remind him there wasn't anything there. Slowly everything around him just started to fade. He knows Ariel hadn't meant anything just the simple mention was enough for the turtle. The warmth of Casey was replaced by cold steel. The sound of the tv fizzled away into the echo sounds of sterile tools clicking against each other. Bouncing against the walls. Nothing had been really seemed real in this moment. As Raphael sort of stared off at nothing, unaware of if Casey was talking if hockey was playing. His mind was just blank. As if he fallen asleep almost. Was any of this real? Or really happening? His eye was open but he couldn't tell you what he was looking at in that moment. Raphael just hadn't thought about it much since it all first went down. Avoiding maybe? Any time he was mentioned Raphael just did what he always had. Got mad.

Luckily before he could fall to deep into what ever was taking over him. A sudden weight on to himself sort of snapped him out of it.

"uh?" looking down he spotted Ariel climbing into his lap little arms moving to hug around him best she could. As he just offered a slight smile her way. "Oh jus' you Guppie." He shifts a bit to rest back against the couch as he curl an arm around her. "What's up kid? thought I put ya off to bed?" He offers but Ariel had nothing to say.

Raphael was slightly petted over the top of her head before looking towards Casey. Hoping for an answer, but they looked about as lost as they always did. Raphael just quirked his beak a little. Before looking down at poor Ariel. She seemed upset at least. "Bad dream?" He offers an answer but the lack of response dosent fully sell him on if he's right or wrong.

Raphael pays Casey a look before shifting his hold on his niece so he can move to stand up. "Jus' headin' to the roof." He explains to Casey before slipping out the window near the fire escape.

Figuring she came to him for a reason maybe she speak up of it was just them but if not that was fine as well. As he made his way up towards the roof and found a place to rest before looking back at her. Head tilting left and right. "Must been a bad one uh? Wanna know a secret guppie? Not even uncle Casey knows?" He waits to see if that pquied her instrest at all. "Uncle Raphie get 'em too. Was having one before you got to me." He ruffles up her green hair a moment chuckling a bit. He wasn't fully wrong when ever that happened it always felt like a nightmare, at least.

"So thanks ya helped me outta it." Trying to take attention off maybe her own, not even sure if that was the case, bit maybe it help. "why don' we just sit back and relax here for a bit till you feel tried out again? I'd offer the docks but tad far away to give it a shot. Gotta settle for some star gazin' though they ain't too bad, I guess either." Raph continues to carry their converstation. It did help, though. He wasn't there he was right here on the roof with his niece. Casey and Summer downstairs in his home. Sure, one might think he held lingering her towards someone related to Bishop, yet he was taking in the comfort from her instead. Guess you can call that irony at best. Raphael thinks to himself as he focuses up at the smog filled sky and the few stars that manage to break through it. "Betcha know star uh?" He speaks up finally. "Ya Dad gotta told you a few wanna tell me what's ya see? 'Ike what's that one there? They have names when in groups yeah?" He vaguely knew the answer from Donnie blabbering but didn't mean he can't play a little dumb to help change topic for her.

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2k7 Raph Ariel - #

| send me “#” for cell phone headcanons about our muses including

"Al'ight Al'ight let's get 'his over with I guess, sooner ya snoop the sooner I get my phone back. Not 'hat I need it back right away jus' don' want ya all over my business."

- what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone      

"Guppie"

" 've called her guppie since she was a just a little 'hing. Don an' I always took the girls to the beach and she jus' loved to splash around. She really takes to it 'ike a fish. An' Guppies are lil fish 'ight? So she's always been Guppi to me. Still call her that too she never seemed to have an issue with it. Course I don' think I would stop if she did?"  

- what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone                              

[image description ] Little baby Ariel on side of the crib that clearly is Summer from the bit of her hockey stuff bear that can be seen. She covered in the blanket Raphael made for her when they learned about the pregnancy. She Got it all bundled around her clearly one half of the photo to focus on Ariel as you can clearly see another little hand in frame and some blonde hair.

"Eh they were real cute when they were jus' babes, before 'hey could crawl an' walk. Should'a known they be nothin' but trouble afta 'hat. I know Ari and Sum are grown now but eh I jus' can' bring myself to change 'his photo. Was actually the first night Case an' I had both the girl afta' gettin' Summer. These two jus' caught on 'ike a house fire when they met. An' well I know how important it is ta have a best friend so knowin' these two were close from the start? 'm glad they always got each other. I know being a mutant aint easy so havin' someone a lil crazy who won't care I hope Ariel knows how rare that is. She ain't my kid but don' mean I don' worry 'bout the guppie. She small and 'his world ain't always kind or nice especially if ya green. So one place of peace goes a long way."

- what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone                              

Brighter by Patent Pending

Let our eyes show the fire in our hearts tonight Yeah, our eyes show the fire in our hearts tonight Let our eyes show the fire in our hearts tonight Cause you can't stop the fire You can't stop the fire

"Ari' really reminds me of Don it's kind of funny to be honest how much she 'ike my brother. Sure she got some of Von in her too but sometimes it's 'ike being around my brother again. I kinda always thought 'bout Don with 'his song so maybe it makes sense that Ari also fits it to me. I jus' know that see get's ;hat same bright eyed stare when she find somethin' she really 'ikes and she gets the same way Don does when he get into 'hat builder mindset to make somethin' I know poor kids been through shit...I know better 'han most how low ya can feel when ya take it out on ya self too. But I don' think even 'hat will put out her flames."

Fun little fact I actually went looking for a song on my Donnie playlist just for this cause it seem right for a song that raph thinks fit don would for her too ;3;

- my muse’s last text to your muse

[text] Guppie i know Summers with you tell her either i'm comin' for her or she best start walkin

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[text] lay low from the beach humans seem to be cleaning it up today.

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[text] I had extra yarn an' figured since ya stick by the shore it's real cold so I hand off some staff for ya dad

[text] just wear 'em to keep warm okay? getting colder in winter

[text] I may have added to them, found a mermaid charm thing you might like it

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[text] how ya feelin' today Guppie?

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[text] i'm heading to the docks if ya wanna hang out with ya old uncle?

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[2k7 Raph and Toddler!Ariel - try and tell her no Raph I dare you uwu]

Old and familiar mermaid doll tucked under one arm, and a VHS tape held in one hand, she toddled up to her Uncle Raphie. She couldn't talk too well yet, but that didn't stop her from attempting to ask to watch the tape. Using it to, lightly, tap Raph's legs, she got his attention. Tilting her head back, Ariel's eyes were large as she held up the VHS - the cover was faded beyond Hell, but the word 'mermaid' could just about be made out. Safe to say, she had the same taste in movies as her father,

"Unca Waphie?" She speaks up, not quite able to get her words right, not yet at least, "Pwease may we watch the mermay movie?"

| muse Interaction

Raph dropped down into the sewer tunnels, Casey was taking Summer to go see him mom today. And Raph didn't like being stuck in the apartment alone so figured he would take this as a break for some hours. Moving to stand he let his arms stretch out above his head before tilting his head left and right. He would have to wait till it got later in the day before he could have any real fun as he liked to word it. Meaning of course finding some trouble to stomp and stop in it's tracks. Figured he could spend a few hours around his brothers and father. Since Summer came into his and Casey's life he had he sort of moved his life more with his own little family. That only made sense though right? With them being Summer's Dad's and all of course he was going to be with them more. Even moved stuff slowly over time out of his room. There was still some junk in there though? Walking into the lair he found it was pretty quite, only hearing the tv's were playing. From years of growing up with Splinter he knew the opening key tone.

Raphael sort of smiled to himself as he walked on over to the couch Raph sets an arm over the back of it as he leans over to find Splinter on the couch, along him was little Ariel. "playing babysitter pops?"

Splinter turned his head to look at his granddaughter a moment smiling as he pets over her head. Idly saying yes, Don and Von were busy today so he took her it seemed Raph wondered how many damn duffel bags Don loaded off to Splinter then considering how many he gave to him and Casey when she wasn't able to walk around yet. He did see some sitting near by the coffee table but opted out of counting them. Simply rolling his eyes to himself. Ya never change Don is all he thinks to himself. Raphael reached down to playfully ruffle Ariel's hair gaining her attention a moment. "What ya gramps borin' yous with his stories?"

Splinter simply glanced back to his son, Raphael knew the look they were wearing too well. he was often on the receiving end of it as they wave their bony hand now telling Raphael, since he made time to visit he should be productive and finish looking through the stuff fin his room on what to keep and such. Raph hung his beak but moved to push off against the back of the couch. "yeah yeah 'm on it."

Grumbling a little as he stepped away and started to make way to his room. To be fair he had been putting it off for far longer than he should. Splinter wouldn't clear out any of his sons rooms of course, they would always have a home here even if they found a new one. didn't mean they could use their rooms as extra storage. In part Raph could follow the logic, if he kept stuff here it was like he wasn't really moved in with Casey and Sum's. Phone slipped out from his belt as he texts Casey. Simply complaining he got put on clean up duty well checking to see how he and Summer were doing. Raphael, had stepped into his own untouched room as he watched Casey typing back. Told they just to his moms a little bit ago, and Summer was enjoying the time with his mom. Raphael smiled at the picture he sent seemed his mom had decided Summer was staying glued in her hold. One last text telling Casey he would see them when they got home before he put his phone away again looking around at his room.

Mostly it was just his hammock and a random assortment of things he left behind. Stuff he didn't really need but kept hold off like old magazines, some books of his. Hmm maybe take the books at least would like to reread Jurassic park, the movies were fine but he still found the book to be far better. There were some weights, but Splinter and him already agreed on him just making it out into a rec room of sorts. So that could stay he'll keep the hammock up good for naps. Sides still his favorite thing to sleep in. Raph start to walk around and takes a seat on the floor, he'll sort through the magazines. Most were old when he got them so they were ancient by now. Flipping through pages to see if any of them were worth holding on to, he soon felt something tap his leg. Humming he looks to find his niece.

"Whatcha doin' ankle bitter," resting back on his hand so he can lean back to look at her. "Grampa being borin' so ya afta' all so followed me?" He's kidding of course.

"Unca Waphie?"

Looking down ro here he sees that old worn mermaid doll Donatello used to tug around in the same way. Also, in hand, through was another old Donatello momento it would seem. Oh great.

"Not yous too kid."

"Pwease may we watch the mermay movie?"

He looks at her and her large wide eyes and sighs. Raphael counted himself lucky that Summer took to sports over princesses assuming je would never have to see this movie again. Raph moves tonget up and looks over his room a second "I know I had -ah!"

Reaching down to pick her up, "ya lucky I 'ike ya so much guppie." Raphael says as he playful taps the end of her nose with his finger before walking over to his find.

An old TV with built-in vcr player. Crouching down, he holds his niece close as he runs his fingers over the top easily drawing a line in the thick layer of dust that been building up over time. "Hmm" He peers around the back seemed it was still plugged in, so he give the power button a try and to the little girls luck the TV buzzed to life. Great. Raph thought reluctantly as he messed with buttons to get to the VCR settings. "Had to stash a TV in here when ya damn uncle Mikey would hig the TVs." He takes the VHS from here and slips it in. A few second of the vcr spinning the tape before it started to play the movie. "Yup lucky 'ike I said."

Moving to sit down setting Ariel in his lap, he could maybe dip away and leave her be but she said 'we' and Raphael's prettt sure he won't be getting away with not watching it with her with out more puppy dog eyes aimed at him. "But you gotta help me clear later got it, guppie?" He teased again as the old familiar opening started up once again. And he groans a little to himself. "I swear I could dream 'his movie." He idly complains, but he's clearly not moving anytime soon. Reliving all the time, he watched it with his twin, so that dose kind of make him smile a tad.

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[2k7 Teen Ariel and Raph]

Ariel had seen them, briefly, but she knew what she saw decorating her Uncle's wrists. Scars. Many of them. It stayed in her mind for a while, Ariel feeling a sense of...familiarity to them. A sense of relation. She was sure she knew what they were, though, she did not know why her Uncle wore so many. How old they were, how many times he had hurt himself in the way she hurts herself. Ariel wondered if she should say a word, or keep their secrets...

But knowing someone maybe understood. Maybe she could finally heal...maybe.

She was at their home, Summer and Casey out, busy doing something the two mutants couldn't join in on. Ariel fiddled with the sleeves of her jumper, glancing at nothing, the sound of the TV drowned out by her own thoughts. Ariel began to wonder if what she saw was one of the same, if she was about to tell him something she wanted to keep to herself.

But she had to risk it, in hopes of finding common ground with someone. Finding a way to feel less alone.

"Uncle Raphie?" Ariel speaks so softly, hopes he doesn't hear her, but he does, "I can trust you with anything, right?"

Of course she can, and she always will be able to.

"Can you keep a secret?"

Usually when she asks for secrets to be kept, it's because she's up-to-no good. Or knows something she shouldn't. Ariel has her reasons though, she doesn't want her parents to worry or be upset. Ariel had done that already.

Reaching over, she gently takes a hold of his arm, turning it so his wrist was facing up. Ariel doesn't look at him, ashamed of herself,

"You and I have something in common Uncle Raphie."

She taps a finger to his wrist, before letting him go. She holds out her arm, tapping the soft flesh near her elbow joined, trying not to wince. There were fresh ones there, a few days old, still bandages and bleeding lightly,

"We share the same scars..."

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It was an old bad habit of his from long ago, when things got a bit too much. It wasn't uncommon for Raph to take off to the surface and vent out. Not everyone was aware that just hitting and fighting with street punks was the only way he tended to let some of it out of him. The end of his sais, a weapon used for many defensive techniques, blocking or capturing others weapons between the pongs. With how protective Raph turned out to be? seemed fitting but it was also a weapon for stabbing and striking. With his reckless behavior and brashness. But sometimes? the ends of his weapon slice and nicked into his own flesh. A need that would grow and grow, when a tingle came over his wrists when his breath shortened. Anger build and blinded him made him too dangerous. Thoughts would invade his mind eye things he didn't ever wish to act on honest he never would do what crossed over his head. Sometimes it was better to take it out on himself. It stung and it hurt but the moment he felt the cool of his blood over his skin it gave him a release. It could be a lot, too much even. A buzzing in his mind, it was like he had no space even if he went topside, he felt like he was suffocating. It was only a temporarily fix but it helped. It got rid of the intense feelings that rocked his body and seemed to turn and take over him. It felt just like yesterday he used to do that, he thought as he had sort of paused a moment when replacing the wrappings around his wrists. He tended to keep them covered, thanks to the scaring over his wrists. Only let them show to few, it was part of him trying to heal himself, as he had let his fingers trail over the old scars. Wondering if they would even fade. Raph stiffened aware he wasn't alone anymore as he returned to what he was doing. Raph was cover in scars, so seeing another wouldn't be a shock to anyone who knew him, even if they didn't know some were self inflicted. The ones of his wrist were a bit to obvious to tell. For anyone who dealt with what they did it be easy to tell these ones were deliberate, had thought behind the placement.

"Hey Guppy" voice as raspy as ever as he speaks thinking he had managed to keep it hidden still. "ya all packed up?" he follows up with, having her over was pretty common. The girls tended to go back and forth from Don and Von's place to his and Casey's. She seemed like she had something on her mind but soon came back to earth. Hmm odd but she seemed fine by the time he went and left with her once it was safe enough to head back home.

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Friday night was still movie night, it was always Raph's favorite tradition growing up. Choices were made as Case and Summer got ready to head out to the rental store to get the movie, Summer insisting to grab any snacks he and Ariel would like as well. Raph just smiled at her when she whined at him saying he was fine. Summer knew he and her cousin could tag along so anything that would make them feel included. Raph just idly bumped his snout against her nose and it seemed to get Summer to relax and smile. A quick kiss was placed to his cheek before she ran off to join Casey, Raph looked over the back of the couch and gave a wave back as the two humans of his family left, once again. That did always bring a sort of sting but well Raph knew it would be like this.

Turning around he idly rubbed over his wrist for a moment, letting his attention shift over to Ariel. She been a bit quite, sure she was no where near the loud and talkative levels as Summer could be. But, she still was pretty spacey today it still seemed. Looking back to the tv it was just some sport highlights from the week, a nice round up to catch up of what teams were winning and other news going on. Raph quirked his beak when hearing about one of the Rangers still being out due to an injury. "aw come on ya brutes smashed in ta each other all the damn time! tsk bein' a wuss now." Ariel likely was not interested he more spoke to break the silence between them. She just had that look on her face.

A Look he knew Donnie for, the gears in her mind were clearly turning. But her face was still.

"Uncle Raphie?"

He sighs out in relief when she finally speaks, slightly turning to face towards her so to show she had his attention in the moment, Resting his head to his knuckles, offering a shrug of his shoulders as a way to say go on.

"I can trust you with anything, right?"

He hums a bit and raises his brow as he crocks his head a bit, seemed like an obvious thing to him course she could. "yeah, course." He repeats out loud. Ariel may just need that extra push after well that whole Bishop incident.

"Can you keep a secret?"

Oh no. Is Raph first thought because every time this kid had a secret? well it lead to something bad. "Hold up kid hows 'bout you tell me-" He lets his words fall into the air and trail off as he really takes this moment to look at her. There's a reason shes asking if she can trust him, and if he can keep this secret of hers. He can feel that as he takes in how small her voice sounds right now. He knows that voice because, of all the times his own became small when speaking to Casey. Sometimes Don even. She's coming to him because she knows she can trust him with whatever it is she needs to speak up about. So he lets his shoulder fall and slumps back against the couch a moment. He throws up his arm to admit defeat. "Ya know I can' resist those big bug eyes of yas. Go ahead." When she reached out and gently took hold of his wrist though, he dose question what she was up to. He lets it hand limp though so she can turn it over, wrist facing upwards. He still has no idea what shes trying to say but he dosen't push. Raph of all creatures knows how sometimes you needed those extra seconds to collect your thoughts into word or else you simply lashed out when feeling unheard. Which was far from what he wanted to do to her now. He can't explain it and he tries not to think much about the fact it was his wrist she seemed to be directing her focus towards. He only really shown them to one person so, nah there's no way she knows right?

"You and I have something in common Uncle Raphie."

"Somethin' in common?" he muses over, freezing when she taps against his bands that cover over his wrists, and he question her wording twice as much eye widens as he looks at her.

No.

Is all he thinks at first when he thinks he starting to sort together what she is trying to say, that cant be true can it? Slightly moving to sit upright now as she moved her sleeve and showed him her arm. Again she taps her finger like she had tap his own wrist. Bring his gaze to the fresh bandages sitting on her arm, easy to see the blood staining them was fresh.

"We share the same scars..."

"oh" Is all that slip out of his beak, tentatively feeling over the bandages careful not to put pressure when he saw she tried not to flinch from the simple tap she set to her arm alone. "Oh guppy." He adds on as he drew his arm back.

Raph went to undo the wrappings on hist wrist a moment so she could better see them now, sure she only had the glimpse before. From all the scars he carried it be easy to assume they were just from fighting but hey this little kid was risking showing someone what she's been doing. Raph just, he knows she felt a connection there and he wants her to know she was right. As he hold his wrist out to her to better see now. "Been awhile since I done it but well," he shrugs a little, "Aw kid I never want anyone to feel 'ike I do, 'specially not you." He moves in to sit closer to her side now. He knows it gose without saying that he won't tell anyone. he understand more now why she came to him. She had a reason to put trust in him about this. Raph knows how hard that is to do.

Didn't matter if you were a young girl, or a self proclaimed warrior. Fessing up to those voices that are in your head, something that takes root into your heart. The only way it seems able to get it out is to bleed it out from yourself. Inflict that pain and sadly? you find some sort of relief at the pain you cause. Raphael had such a problem being take care of by others so he bared things and bury anything he felt he didn't need to worry about. As if it was never there in the first place. Just another fight Raph dealt with, struggled with, fighting against those fears he wanted to pretend just were not there. He always hated seeing anyone feel how he felt it was not something he wished on anyone, if he could help them? He tried. Letting his arm move around her he tugged her over to his side and he held her tight, arm curling in as he kept her close to his side. What was he meant to say now though? Other then hold her. Say things he knew others would say to him? That he needed to stop doing that? Be told another thing was wrong with him? Another thing that made him broken that needed to be fixed? Shit that damn bastard! his hold around her only grew firm. He bit his tongue and kept his beak shut, heh he should be reward for that. When he was younger he would have just cursed and said their name. Uncaring who was around to see him exploded like he wanted to.

Bishop.

This was his fault, they all knew she wanted to be human. When told she just couldn't it must have. He lets his thoughts trail off if he let them go on he might not be able to hold back. He sighs out again. Slipping his phone out from his belt a moment he sends a text to Casey keeping it out of Areil's sight. Just simply asking Casey to take a bit longer. Maybe stop and grab ice cream at a gas station even for them all. Casey well he knew Casey wouldn't understand why he was being given that request he just hopes the bone head will just do as he always dose. Raph just needed a bit more time was all. He was sure Summer was trying to hurry up so they would be back though.

"Funny 'nough, ice helps." Funny to maybe only Raph. Slowly he reaches for the cup on the coffee table fingers digging out an ice cube as he slightly shook it off before he settled back in and went to show her, as he trailed the ice over once of his scars. "Dunno guess the icy bite helps when 'hat needs comes up." He doesn't really look at her maybe she was expect a lecture, concern, or some positive enforcement. That wasn't Raph's way though. "I usde ta wear rubber bands to, snap my self wit' 'em if I got the need." He offers as another option. "Or ya know my phone always on me, if ya just need someone to listen to ya talk?" he offers to her, leaning in to repeat the action he had done to Summer before. Bumping his snot to her nose, "I'm 'ere guppy however ya need okay?"

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[07 Uncle Raph and Ariel]

"Uncle Raph?" Ariel speaks up, eyes wide and curious, "Can you keep a secret?"

She's sure he can, she trusts her Uncle Raphael with everything. Ariel knows he'll keep his beak shut about this,

"Well, I went out and explored the tunnels today," She says with a smile, knowing she shouldn't be doing so alone, "One led me outside, and there was this guy there in this really long black coat watching the ocean - a-and he saw me," Ariel admits, "But he wasn't scared, he said he knew me and that his name was Bishop and I'm his Granddaughter."

Oh no,

"I don't think that's true but, he said he took your eye and that you know him," She smiles, tilts her head, too young to truly understand the danger she had been in, "Do you know him?"

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Raph had a odd little habit of his it came in handy when they were all tots themselves but also far more so when they started leaving the lair and grew older. Donatello may seem like he was a well behaved child but he liked to bite, he loved to argue and be right, and he loved to explore. Which seemed to have pass on to a little big eyed smiley little girl. With hair as green as the seaweed under the ocean that she just was drawn out to at nearly any given chance they had. Much like how Raph could always find his way to his twin though seemed he could do the same with his niece. Arms crossed over his plastron as he smiled to her once she caught sight of him. it seemed pretty obvious to Raph she hadn't been around the lair. Like some had thought to be the case. Clearly she was trying to sneak her way back inside unnoticed. Hoping to have been unnoticed at least. Raph was gonna love telling Leo he was doing an awful job with his training later. Then again Raph used to sneak in and out himself so he might just be good at telling, nah Leo sucked and he was gonna rub it in his face.

"here ya are guppy." Raph just states as he smirks to her "wondered why there seemed to be a missin' trouble marker at the lair." Raph states as he makes his way to meet up with here now. She might not get he was referring to her dad being one as well with that comment though. "You didn' run into anyone again dija?" Tone growing serious now as he paid a moment to look her over. If any humans tried to hurt here again he swore he would-

"Uncle Raph?"

He stops and simply gives a nod of his head watching how her eyes somehow found a way to grow even larger. Brimming with questions it seemed? well guess that should be a good sign or she be upset again right?

"Can you keep a secret?"

He hums a moment as if hes thinking it over, of course he would keep her secret. Messing with her was just fun is all. "I dunno sound s'ike a tall order guppy but I guess since we're family an' all I can make an exception. Alright what dija get up to now?"

"Well, I went out and explored the tunnels today,"

Yeah, that bit seemed pretty obvious to him.

"One led me outside, and there was this guy there in this really long black coat watching the ocean - a-and he saw me,"

Ariel admitted and Raph froze a bit "What?" he didn't raise his voice of course he had promised to keep her secret and drawing attention their way would mean ears would start tuning into what they were talking about. And look she was fine so clearly nothing happened. So he thought. The detail that this guy was dressed in long black coat though? got to him even more. Part of him knew where this was going, another decided to let denial run his mind for now instead.

"But he wasn't scared, he said he knew me and that his name was Bishop and I'm his Granddaughter."

Fuck.

"I don't think that's true but, he said he took your eye and that you know him,"

Suddenly, Raphs whole mood dropped at the mere mention of Bishop. Worse at the mention of what happened between them, lifting a hand up to the right side of his face. It took a long time to get used to it, relaying on the one eye. Everyone eventually stopped treating Raph as helpless since he focused himself to adapt. In part he had seemed to get better with his sense's since he only had one eye to relay on. Sometimes he joked he could go fully with out either and still kick ass. A way to say he was fine so no one would fucking hover over him anymore. Tried of the idea of needing an 'issue' of his 'fixed'. With the help of an implant or something else, he always blew it off. It was easier that way let it roll off his shell.

Other times? it was like he was stuck there again. Sometimes his mind made him think Yvoone helping him out was something he made up only to wake from a drug en dosed rest.

"Do you know him?"

"what?" He zoned out a moment there looking to her smiling as she simply tilted her head to the side. Right. he chewed over a moment as he rubbed his fingers just over the missing eye. "...yeah I know him all right." Raphael slightly growled when he answered. Raph got mad often in truth Raph was more mad than anything else. From the small minor inconveniences of life to the big stuff. He felt it deeply and anger was how he reacted. But hating something? was far less common for him than one may think. But he knew one thing for sure he hated Bishop. Smiling over him, didn't matter how many drugs they pumped into him that day. Raph was able to tell what had happened to him. The pleasure Bishop got out of it. How it felt to get his eye prayed right out of his head. "An' if I ever see him I'll return the damn favor." Raph grunted a little looking to Ariel a moment. One would think seeing her or even her mother would pay as a reminder. Nah he wasn't that bad. It wasn't their fault for what happened.

It was Bishops and Raphael's.

Flexing the fingers of his free hand a moment a few times as he started taking in where he was slowly. Feeling cold stone under his feet, the smell of Splinters tea was heavy. Must be brewing up tea right now. Ears trained to the sound of soft muffled voices just a ways from them. He wasn't able to fully make out who was talking in the moment, but it was enough. Letting his eye close a moment before dropping his hand back to his side. "Ariel stay away from that guy." The fact he had been anywhere near his niece was bad enough. Turning away from her now "i wont tell you saw him 'em." he had promised after all "but if ya wanna know an' thing 'bout him? ask someone else." He says it firmly. If Raph can keep that guy out of his life he will. Sure run ins were gonna happen didn't mean Raph would seeked to make due on his 'paying back the favor' comment form before.

Lifting his hand up into the hold of his left as he started to rub at his wrists. Handing how it started to shake at the vague memories coming to mind right now. Not here. Not now. Is all he tells himself internally. Starving off the panic that wanted out of him right now. He'll sneak out later tonight that'll help. "Come on Guppy i'm sure someone else will notice eventually that ya took off again." But this was all she would get from Raphael, he was shutting down any more chance for talk about the man she met and saw. She could talk to her parents he figures well seeming to forget who her parents were at the same time.

"Summer wants to see if ya folks will let ya spend the weekend with us by the way" Shifting his focus to his kid did help as he could feel some ease. Thinking about her pleading as if they ever say no, but still was kind of funny. "Wanna see if they can part with ya for a few days?" he offers finding that more soft guff he normally spoke with now.