#[ incomprehensible. thanks theta ]

[mmxstrangers]

Okay I know he's not officially there yet but. I gotta do it: 🔥, Muse A is Theta, Muse B is my Zero

@melodic-mayh3m

[ Multimuse Grapevine Ask Prompt // Accepting! ]

"Ugh, really? You want me to roast him? Why do you guys keep giving me hard ones tonight? I can't really say anything that'll get a reaction out of him. But-- Yeah. Sure. Fine, I'll give it a try."

"His 1337 skibidi autistic rizz is too epic and awesumsauz for me to comprehend. He and his Onceler-level gyatt would make the Tumblr fangirls go rawr XD. Someone make a goth edit of him like they do of Disney Rapunzel and Elsa but with him mewing because he's that kinda bitch. I bet he's the guy who man door hand hook car door."

"If he reads this and it confuses him, then good, it confused me too. But hey, I can say I tried to describe him with lingo from his time period. He's either a boomer or terminally online and that's a bad look either way."

"If you'll excuse me, I'm going to wash my mouth out now. I think I just threw up a little."

[raviollies]

i love how you portray theta!

1) the way her appearance is so bright and colourful, *almost* distracting you from her sinister nature as a hag. it’s kind of like those plants that lure insects in to eat them.

2) her other form as the cycle of life. the animal carcass as an avatar of death and decay and yet life still manages to find a way, in the form of moss and the blooms on her antlers. could she possibly also have mushrooms?

3) the cycle of abuse like you’ve mentioned in an older post when talking about her relationship with blythe, and the implications it has. given enough time, will blythe’s own sense of identity erode because of the power gifted to her? will she remember her old life, or will it also become a haze that she dismisses with a wave of her hand because why does it matter now, when she’s so *powerful*? will she eventually believe that theta was right in turning her? will she eventually do the same thing to another woman and perpetuate the cycle?

AAAA thank you thank you!!!! It's so nice to see people pick up on what I write and find it interesting, it warms my heart.

Long response below

1) Yes! I purposely tried to make her very bright, colourful as a contrast to Blythes dreary palette. I was unaware of plants having a similar thing but I was thinking of how "bright colours = danger" in a lot of wildlife. I also took inspiration from The Shimmer/Zone from Annihilation to emphasize the downright incomprehensible nature of Fae, unpredictable and bound to laws unknown to mortals.

2) She definitely has mushrooms!! I have always been entranced by the dichotomy of life and decay, and that cycle. I love love love the presentation in Princess mononoke, with plants blooming and rotting within the presence of the spirit

3) Yes, that is the worst ending for Blythe. To perpetuate the cycle and become a Hag uncaring for the feelings of others for her own whimsy. To eventually become intoxicated with the power she obtains and believes rules no longer apply to her.

However, she has people in her life to urge her to break that cycle, to keep her grounded. To put others over her own selfish desires. To break a cycle of abuse you often need help, we are a social species. Her companions and friends are meant to be a representation of that. A way to overcome the generational abuse - and maybe later. She can look back and realize Theta was a victim too. That she once was a woman, who did things she thought were loving but hurtful never the less.

I think acknowledging that the perpetrators are often victims themselves is important in your own healing. It helps you process and curb any negative behaviours in yourself, as well as see people as human.

I often struggle with the way I was raised juxtaposed with how much my parents sacrificed to give me a better life. How much they worked, how much they gave so that I can be in Canada instead of Ukraine, juxtaposed with the way I look back on my childhood and am filled with anger. Both of these things are true; and I feel as though it helps me move forward. I've treated some people badly in my life, lashing out because of my own treatment, and I feel ashamed for it, but it doesn't negate that fact. We're all human, we all have impacted someone's life negatively at one point, you just have to do better.

Obviously this doesn't apply to everyone's experiences, some abuse is much more heinous than others, but this is my experience as an elder daughter in an immigrant family.