#[ fandom: black widow. ( POSER. ) ]

[loveablehands]

also i’m adding red guardian / mcu alexei. lucky? playing a russian cold war soldier / spy with karl marx knuckle tattoos who is a TERRIBLE deadbeat father, plus-sized , in his 50s, and played by david harbour, the reason i bought the movie for 35 dollars like the capitalist pig i am? absolutely. deadbeat father and ‘bad person but also a communist who wants to be loved’ are my two main archetypes for characters i play. #stanalexei . #stanfatsuperheroes . #stankarlmarx .

also tag dump. with spoilers.

[ao3feed-lokiangst]

A World of Monsters

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3iaEDtW

by Orca478

On 1964. Howard Stark first came across Titanus Gojira when the Titan destroyed and Hydra base. This led him to leave SHIELD and fund MONARCH with his partner, Ishiro Serizawa.

Years later, former Black Widow Yelena Belova recruits Tony Stark into the world his father found, and now he must work with Godzilla to mantain the peace and balance between humans and Titans, as the only half breed of both races. As well as defeat both human and Titan threats.

Words: 484, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Godzilla: King of The Monsters (2019), Godzilla vs. Kong (2021)

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/M

Characters: Tony Stark, Godzilla (Legendary | MonsterVerse), Mothra (Legendary | MonsterVerse), Yelena Belova, Peter Parker, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Thor (Marvel), Bruce Banner, Vision (Marvel), Sharon Carter (Marvel), Serizawa Ishiro, Madison Russell, Mark Russell (Godzilla), Kong (Legendary | MonsterVerse), Rodan (Legendary | Monsterverse), Phil Coulson, Stephen Strange, Carol Danvers, T'Challa (Marvel), Skye | Daisy Johnson, Loki (Marvel), Scott Lang, Hope Van Dyne, James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Sam Wilson (Marvel), Clint Barton, Wanda Maximoff, Nathan Lind, Ilene Andrews, Ilene Chen, Bernie Hayes, Josh Valentine (Godzilla vs. Kong), Rick Stanton, Walter Simmons (Godzilla vs. Kong), Serizawa Ren, King Ghidorah (Legendary | MonsterVerse), Mechagodzilla (Legendary | Monsterverse)

Relationships: Yelena Belova/Tony Stark, Godzilla/Mothra (Kaiju), Madison Russell/Peter Parker, Bruce Banner/Brunnhilde | Valkyrie, Christine Palmer/Stephen Strange, Ilene Chen/Mark Russell, Carol Danvers/Skye | Daisy Johnson, Sharon Carter/Thor, Phil Coulson/Melinda May, James "Bucky" Barnes/Loki, Scott Lang/Hope Van Dyne, Ilene Andrews/Nathan Lind

Additional Tags: Civil War Team Iron Man, monsterverse, Tony Stark Has A Heart, Tony Stark Is a Good Bro, Tony Stark Needs a Hug, Protective Godzilla (Legendary | MonsterVerse), Parent Godzilla (Legendary | MonsterVerse), Parental Mothra (Legendary | MonsterVerse), yelena belova needs a hug, not team Cap friendly, Not Steve Rogers Friendly, Delusional Steve Rogers, Thor is a Good Bro (Marvel), I don’t know how long this story will be, This is Godzilla’s World We’re Just Living In It, Yelena Belova Hates Posers

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3iaEDtW

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[loveablehands]

RED GUARDIAN. absence makes the heart grow fonder.

there’s a reason why natasha & yelena knew where alexei was being kept: and it’s not just bc they’re spies and/or because it’s easily accesible information.

alexei genuinely tried contacting them multiple times. to the point of excess. and he succeeded, multiple times, enough to get the information to them about where he is, where they could find him, in a top secret government prison.

did he love them, as children? a good question, as he was not supposed to, was never supposed to. they were girls---and their organization treats girls, especially young girls, as trash that is made useful by becoming objectified murder dolls.

and alexei... he is, at his core, a self-centered, selfish and vain kind of man that often times feeds into the misogyny despite or maybe because of his tankie status. he was born for violence, he was born for great feats of heroism and patriotism and, while he believes in an end to capitalism and that the west is altogether evil---he is prone to chauvinism and violence & wanting glory above justice, action above kindness, immediate satisfaction and validation over true relationships.

melina and him were never more intimate than they needed to be, and he never wanted to adopt children in the fist place---always thought that if he was able to have children (as he too was sterilized by the serum) he would want little alexeis running around with his face & blood, and most of the time he spent with his ‘family’ were literal outings where they would PRETEND to be a middle class american family, doing things he hated at malls and museums and top secret photo studios in yelena’s most treasured memories, but doing much, much less intimate and vulnerable and fun things than that on average.

natasha & melina talk about how the photographs of their holidays in their scrapbook were all fake and there weren’t even any presents in the boxes, and yet natasha still experienced joy at this memory (likely bc while they had little in common and were very little like areal family---melina & alexei’s great senses of humor shined right through and made it fun for their children, and yelena’s childlike joy was infectious, but still). likewise, for the less than three years they were together---every outing and time spent together for milestones and major events was meant to be as empty and american as possible, even if it didn’t feel that way bc they tried to make it seem real and fun for the girls. even when alexei says goodbye to his girls---it is not with his real, true voice, his real, true accent. he is pantomiming an american father. he is not permitted even to tell yelena where she comes from, much less any stories about his own father, his own family, his own pride.

still, alexei and melina were mostly all alone in ohio, in a time before the internet and iphones so readily connected people across countries and borders. they would both spend a lot of time waiting for orders in discrete locations---wanting to hear from the people who raised them---who FELT like family, who FELT like friends. there were other families just like theirs---but spread so far apart, they felt completely alone sometimes, and trapped with each other, trapped with two little girls who they were not TAUGHT to love, who they were not taught to raise. they were forced to deal with the day-to-day aspect of raising them AND training them regardless. and in these moments, melina and alexei and natasha and yelena all found a strange kind of love, a dysfunctional kind of love, a camp kind of love where alexei and melina used their sense of humor to cope with this leave it to beaver lifestyle and made something special and warm about it.

because at his core, alexei has always had the wry, silly dad kind of humor. the kind of dad that sticks his tongue out at babies and infants and makes them laugh like no one else can, especially after an argument. who is thoughtful while still being rude, who is gentle while still being moody.

alexei doesn’t know if he loved his girls while they were truly his girls. not enough to count. not enough to save them from himself and every other man in russia.

but after the events of the opening---he was basically thrown in prison almost immediately after. and he went from having the world at his beck and call, to having only three people to care about and who cared about him---to having no one, no one at all, being a total joke in the prison.

and he just. kept checking up on all of them as much as he could. he would reach out to them almost constantly. mostly melina---to see if she could get him out of there. but as natasha and yelena grew in notoriety----well, he started asking them for favors too, interspersed between telling them how proud he is of them. AND HE GENUINELY IS PROUD of the great things they’ve done for the country, and how those have become his achievements when he COULD NOT make his own achievements. his girls, his achievements. their trauma, his pride.

getting in contact with them honestly isn’t easy--and it hurts, when he hears nothing back, but he shakes it off and keeps trying, keeps listening to tales of their latest exploits, and then, embellishing on them in his own stories. they’re giants in his head, heroes, the avenger and the greatest child soldier ever.

when he says they came! he’s not honestly surprised. he’s surprised they didn’t come SOONER. he never gave up hope, not truly.

bc in his head---they ARE his girls. he’s spent so much time alone, so much time talking about them. he’s grown quite fond of them and the fantasy of a family he has in his head of them, just like the fantasy in his head of beating captain america, of being the red guardian. he has a dream they will become a real superhero family team like the incredibles or something. he’s happy to see them. not sure why they’re not happy to see him.

he’s developed a relationship with them in his head that does not exist, and is too stubborn and willfully delusional to pretend to be normal---pretend that he ACTUALLY thinks he could have POSSIBLY hurt them, pretend that he actually thinks he wasn’t the best thing that could have happened to them. until the end.

they are a real family to him, now. the closest thing he’s ever had to one, and in his head and his heart, he spent every moment with them, slinging around tall tales to his fellow inmates in between tattoos to the point they might as well be real.

and, like a true, real dark bad dad humor fashion, every trauma he’s inflicted on them wasn’t that bad even if it IS his fault, and is, in his version of the truth, actually quite funny! something to drink and laugh about! you’re old enough to drink and laugh now, aren’t you, girls? lets drink and laugh then. you know this reminds me of a time when my father---

(he might not apologize that well for everything, but he’s at least willing to go against the people who put him in prison that he’s devoted his life to, and that’s something, right?)

[loveablehands]

watching bw again: BLACK WIDOW SPOILERS

this time things i notice: [part 1]

-alexei comes home, immeidately grabs a drink, calls nat baby, asks how everyone’s day is but doesn’t listen. he’s excited, but also confused, hurried, a little overwhelmed with the suddenness of so much silence for so long and then THIS.

-loves ranch apparently, and NO ONE ELSE DOES. probably loves fruit roll ups, bc he has them for yelena in the car. this is so funny to me natasha and yelena definitely make fun of him for this later. alexei drinks raw ranch packets when

melina says she doesn’t want to go home, he says ‘don’t say that’ and tells them they’re going on the ‘great adventure [they] talked about’ and he’s smiling with a light in his eyes that seems genuine

he mouths the words to american pie before yelena even starts singing

melina is crying in the station wagon b she does NOT want to go home THAT badly, rubbing her temple and pulling on the skin bc she’s frusturated

on the second watch i know that nat already knows how to fly this damn plane yelena & melina definitely taught her lmfao but it’s still heartbreaking that she’s distracted by the bullets hurting her ‘family’ and she’s relieved when they’re in the air even if she’s fucked up by the time they land

immediately alexeiwants a grand return with his ‘friend’ but his ‘friend’ only cares about his family and the mission

alexei turns off his accent and plays american dad again to distract them. u can argue he really means it when  he says they’re tough but i dont entirely believe that bc i think he would’ve thought america made at least yelena soft bc there’s no evidence they were explicitly training her from the start, tho that would be interesting, and i think he does teach her spy things out of sheer boredom when drunk. 

they are his girls tho, and the way he says natasha is reverent and proud and he knows she’s special BECAUSE she turns the gun on him. and he keeps yelena’s stuffed animal. i wonder how long he kept it. i guess it would’ve been comically evil if he threw it away immediately or too obvious if it showed up in  his prison cell (and i dont think he has a single possession of his own there tbh, that he pretends he doesn’t need anyway bc #no possessions #communism but whatever)

i want threads that turn the american propaganda of this into like, american horror tbh. it CAN be done and well and it would be super sexy and aesthetic and fun.

u can say whatever u want about dc movies but marvel movies dont hit the same way aesthetically, they just aren’t camp, and i just want heightened insanity of this situation in ohio and like, alexei losing his mind is prison craving the sugary foods from 90s ohio and getting all these pop songs from america stuck in his head LOL. he probably rented space jam 1 from blockbuster for yelena