#[ and you said BARGAIN soo just so you know these headcanons will run you 4 dabloons and a box of grape juice ]

[weenwrites]

GREETINGS, 'tis I, who have requested the request about the Backrooms✨️ and I have come to bargain more.. requests!

Which is just one single request, if you don' mind!

Anyways, onto the ask.. what would Optimus Prime, Bumblebee, and Megatron's reaction to a situation where their human charge S/O who is suicidal? Like they have dark thoughts and whatnot, but since they hide it with a cheerful façade, it took quite a while to figure out they were suicidal? Headcanons, please! And thankks!

-🔥🪵

TW - Suicide Mention

A/N: I think I've already done something like this for Megatron and Optimus, so I'll just do Bumblebee.

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He knows what that feeling is, he's heard of a couple bots who felt suicidal or depressed back on Cybertron as the war worsened, but never had they masked it like you had, and that's what makes it hurt so badly. He feels guilty that it took him this long to find out how his friend has been feeling, and that feeling of guilt only worsens when he thinks of all the times he may have caught your mask slip a little. All of those times he's asked if something was wrong while you'd reply with a dismissive "oh yeah, I'm fine!" and he believed you and never pressed any more.

He's not upset at you, per say, he just wishes that you could've spoken to him about it. Now, he tries to encourage you to talk to him about whatever's weighing on your mind, or at the very least he sits and stays with you to give you some form of company whenever you're experiencing any rough bouts. And if you try to deny that anything's wrong, he's become a little more pushy when it comes to asking, but not so much that he's demanding.

Raf once mentioned the suicide hotline, and ever since then he's had that number memorized as well as June's number just encase. He's asked if you've considered reaching out and getting any professional help, but if you try to dismiss him and say that you're not worth it or that you'll be fine, he'll insist that you should seek help for issues like these. They only get worse with time, not better.

[backjustforberena]

SERENA CAMPBELL: LATE 2020 BERNIE HOSPITAL REUNION HEADCANONS

I was getting meta questions and so thinking about Serena and this happened don’t blame me... So, here are my headcanons about Serena “usually found grieving” Campbell and how she finds out about Bernie, how she’s been without Bernie, and their eventual reunion only to find out Bernie’s head to toe traumatised and wooooah it’s a lot more than Serena bargained for:

She’s in Spain, but only just. Renting the villa that turns out to be her home and where Bernie recovers for close to two years. But in that moment, before the call, it’s another pitstop. A nice picture, where Serena has a month by month lease and wonders if she’ll stop feeling like something is missing here, like it was in other places. She’s wandered a lot since Holby, looking: Cornwall, France again, even Nairobi. She worked at Bernie’s NTC for a few months in the hopes it would help.

Serena is called by someone in charge, with authority, that Serena can immediately verify and therefore trust that it isn’t a hoax. Not much is said over the phone due to confidentiality (i.e she was found by a military team, she’s undergone surgery, is sleeping at the moment, asked for you etc etc...). I don’t really have any more headcanons than that because it’s a weird phone call to try and imagine.

Serena gets to the hospital by taxi after the airport. She’d got on the first plane without thinking any of it through, really. Only when outside the hospital, does the sheer ludicrousness of her reaction hit her. The driver has to prompt her out of her thoughts. She passes cash over and gets out, and feels utterly terrified and annoyingly hopeful.

When she reaches the right ward, and they ask her if she’s family. And it just takes Serena a moment before she answers: Yes. Yes, she’s family. It’s the first time she’s said it aloud.

Serena totally and utterly shuts down when she sees Bernie for the first time. Bernie is exhausted and on a lot of medication, so she’s barely conscious. Serena retreats into doctor-mode for various reasons, and heads straight for Bernie’s notes. Barely looks at Bernie, other than the initial look to confirm that it’s really her.

But Bernie manages to say her name and Serena puts the notes down and goes to be near her as Bernie falls asleep. Serena puts her hand on the bed, so close to Bernie’s. Thinks about holding it. It looks so frail, especially with the cannula. She’s so close to taking it, to letting her emotions show... when a nurse enters, and she snatches it back, and it rests on the folder of notes on her lap.

Suddenly, Serena has to get out. She asks for directions to the loo, jaw locked tight, and then walks out of the room, putting the notes back as she does, all the while trying not to run.

Once in a cubicle, she sobs. Lets it all out. All the pain, all the guilt, all the grief. She’s made her choice. Made it even before she entered the building, but now she admits it. Serena isn’t going anywhere. As soon as she can collect herself, she goes back to Bernie. She won’t leave again. Not unless she’s told.

She interrogates everyone that had anything to do with Bernie’s care. It was a lack of information and diligence that meant Bernie was missing/dead for a year. Serena is holding the reins tight now. She wants to know everything. She still won’t know everything though. Over the weeks, new things will come to light or new things will have to be discussed, haltingly and awkwardly with Bernie. It’s such a long road.

A few days after Serena arrives, Bernie develops pneumonia post-op. Bernie diagnoses it herself but Serena chooses not to believe it until Bernie’s consultant confirms. She hates the fact that the first horrible thing that happened to Bernie that she’s actually there for... she still can’t do anything. Just watch and hope Bernie can fight it.

Bernie’s in hospital for about 6 weeks total. Serena is with her for about 4 and a half of those. 

Other headcanons:

As soon as she gets off of the phone call with the hospital, she emails her landlord to ask for a six-month lease. No, she doesn’t really know what state Bernie is really in except what the doctor could offer her, and no, she doesn’t know if Bernie herself has any plans or if Bernie would want to recoup with her or what. But Serena decides on instinct. Bernie will be coming back to the villa with her.

When it is actually decided that Bernie will be discharged into Serena’s care, she calls her landlord again for the villa, to see if he minds being there when a bed frame and proper mattress etc is ordered. Bernie will sleep in the office/library/spare ground floor room.

Serena doesn’t sleep the first few nights that Bernie is in the villa. She’s too worried, watching as Bernie just sleeps so much. She finds it very hard when she feels helpless.

She finds it startlingly okay to agree not to tell anyone else about Bernie. She finds it endearing when Bernie asks if she has to get back home to Holby as well.