#[ 🎭 ] the unloving god talks

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How some people found out Ajay was an Emanator, explained badly

The ( only ) one who found out normally -

Crocaval: She literally just asked Aven and Ratio. This probably happened during the custody chaos. "The swarm is my friend" she knows what they are and it's not traumatized. She also probably asked because everyone assumes it's common knowledge and she wanted to let them know that the knowledge was not common for everyone ( No, this information did not help calm her nerves when she found out Ajay died!!!! )

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The ones who found out from getting their asses kicked -

Boothill: The only one to find out before their story arc even began. Twas a normal heist, including see the weird kid. He didn't listen to the child when they told him to leave because something something vengeance grrr. The price he paid was a Genshin Harbinger kick straight to his stomach that sent him flying. From then on he knew they were Emanator. Crocaval still doesn't know what dented his abdomen because he refuses to admit that it was an 8 year old

Yanqing: Now in his defense, he probably would've asked had someone given him prior warning but Jing Yuan actually forgot. He and Ajay are on the same level when it comes to battle prowess so it should've been a fair sparring match. Except about 5 broken swords and a kick to the shins later proved him wrong. He learned many a lesson that day, mainly that he's not talking to Jing Yuan for the rest of the month

Sunday: Their yo-yo's got stuck on his halo and it was over for him, face meet floor. Whether or not that was on purpose because of what went down on Penacony is still in question

Luka: He fought them in the wardance, it was wraps 😔

Skott: Literally everyone beat his ass before Ajay so "do you wanna see a magic trick :3" was inevitable

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The ones who just knew -

Fu Xuan: Self explanatory 🥴

Jing Yuan: Also kinda self explanatory, but in a funny way. He met them when they were like 4 and fresh out of the lab, but no one had to tell him. Divine Foresight aside, the child made buzzing noises at him and almost ate a Jade abacus because it was shiny, he knew that kid was an Emanator. He then proceeded to forget for like ten years

Welt: Traumatized old man from a different world go brr or something. His "Emanator level threat" instincts went off when they hung from the Express ceiling for no reason and he had to tell Ratio to tell them to come down. He categorized them as "Emanator level child", which might be worse

Herta: Also self explanatory 🥴

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The ones who found out the funny way -

Yuuki: Yeah he saw them launch a star at someone when they were kids and has been chill with that knowledge ever since. Mostly because he was a child and only questioned it when he was older, but at that point he was too use to the weirdness to really freak out about it a normal amount ( "Blows up fajitas with mind" "my fuckin fajitas-" )

Aventurine: Okay he found out the lore impactful way, but watching a 6 year old stop the Swarm from nesting and then just dealing with it is funny. He categorized this as "the day they accidentally became important at work". He is also team Forgets.

Ratio: The gremlin started summoning Stings when they didn’t want to do their homework so he started summoning pillars and patience. He acknowledged that they're an Emanator, he acknowledges their strength as an Emanator, didn’t stop him from making them do their homework though

Jenny: Someone probably told her at some point and she either ignored it or forgot. She remembered the second she watched them launch a pebble at an IPC mech at lightning speed while teaching them what vandalism was. She remembered again when the metamorphosis occurred. She keeps forgetting because of the damn ":3"

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Because anyone else becoming or wanting to become a god would be narrativly funky, you becoming a god is just funny so suck it up

Why do I have to become a God, why can't it be literally anyone else, I don't even have a motive for this wtf

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Dipper and Yanqing would be friends me thinks ( Fellas who constantly get ridiculed for not getting social cues on the first try and getting scolded more when they get frustrated )

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Thinking about making a fake album playlist for PJO!Ajay specifically because of Disease

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"Under his tutelage, you have never experienced true failure."

Apyra really just told this teenager that every talent he thought was his own was only an extension of Jing Yuan's, and that if he every tried to fight a battle on his own he would lose and die because no one ever let him fail before and therefore he has never learned

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"The simplest solution to Mar and Shoutos problems would be to just get rid of Lucinda and Enji. Then those two would be gone forever and my big siblings would feel better, right? Yeah, that's how that works."

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Apollo, upon finding out Ajay's backstory: And you've just been coping with... all of this???

Ajay: ...

Ajay: Opens an Iris call

Ajay: Hi Mr. D

Mr. D: Hi traumatized child number 3

Ajay: Am I coping?

Mr. D: Nope!

Ajay, turning back to their dad: Nope

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Shifting the "happy Ajay" title to Windbreaker!Ajay ( that's the last time I ever fully type that out ) because at least they're happy while they and their little sister are fighting people with their comically large hammer

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Horrifying realization that a part of Aelius's personality was unconsciously inspired by Junko Enoshima, in shambles

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Yoinking the "PJO!Ajay has connections to Helios" thoughts and putting them into the fanbook because I do enjoy them, but they're already complicated enough so it's going somewhere else

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Just remembered I have to re-do all 100+ of HSR!Ajay's voice lines because I completely overhauled their backstory and ( somewhat ) personality.............. ough

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I'm once again thinking about how Ajay's upbringing affected how they see love as a whole

As an emotion, they see love as something vile and twisted. To them, love it's an emotion that drives you to do horrible things to people you care about because the reason their guardians harm them is because of love. To love someone is to want them to be loveable, no matter what it costs them

As a concept, the see love as terrifying. Love causes nothing but pain, anguish, and loneliness and to endure it is to prove that your worthy of love at all. To be loved is horrifying because that means they'll have to endure more damage than they've already taken, but to love is be the reason someone gets hurt

Anyway, they're afraid of love and loving and it's all their guardians fault‼️

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Ajay: Younger sibling I am, no longer, now I am 15 :3

Yanqing: And I still have a 33 year lead on you, you're a baby forever so don't even try it

Ajay: We'll see how you feel when I'm an adult before you hit 17 :3