#@evswiftie

[hollyarmstrong]

Just Another Swiftie Story, est. 2003

Point Pleasant Beach, July 23, 2003

If you’re here, you’ve probably read the story of how I met Taylor. Thank you for reading that! For those who haven’t, I’m including the original photos below. I’m trying to personally thank each of you who shared and left sweet comments for me to read. You’ll never know how thoroughly you warm my heart. Your comments make me smile and occasionally bring out a big, satisfying belly laugh. So thank you, thank you, thank you. I’m so in awe of the force and overwhelming love in this underground Swiftie family.

It may sound crazy, but sharing my photo and my story has always been drenched in vulnerability. Meeting Taylor, for me, was like meeting a friend when I needed one the most. Our actual encounter didn’t last more than five minutes - quick exchanges, excited cheesy grins, and a signed CD. I walked away, wishing she went to my school. However, the story that no one knows, the story that makes all of this a little delicate, is what bonded me to her music for life. A couple of months after meeting her, after starting 7th grade (I think I may have mentioned 6th grade in a comment somewhere - I’m sorry! 🤦🏻‍♀️ That was a typo!), my stepfather started molesting me. 

I used her songs as an escape at first, letting the joy of Lucky You and the longing of Smokey Black Nights ground me. My bathroom door didn’t lock when I was a kid, and that was terrifying. But singing her songs in the shower made me feel strong, made me feel like, as long as I was singing, I was safe. In those moments, those melodies went from being an escape to being a shield. And just like that, her music, her lyrics, and her voice imprinted on my soul. After that, every song that came out was another piece of armor. Her demo CD, for three years, was either in my portable CD player or my boombox. It’s worn, and I’m honestly amazed it still plays. I have diary entries dated back to that time, addressed directly to her. Like an old confidant, she was the only one who knew the dark and twisty of my life and was able to pull me through the deepest of quicksand. It made the secrets I carried a little more bearable.

My story is not unique. Among other things, my parent’s messy divorce led to lots of turbulence (and lots of therapy!). But, all things considered, I had a good childhood. It was filled with joy, challenges, and sadness. I never wanted for anything. Many people have it much, much worse. The only reason I tell you this story is to explain why I’m so terribly grateful for all of the love you’re so freely giving and why I never publicly shared my photo, my memory, before now. 

I’m envious of those who scream her lyrics at concerts, because I usually turn inward. Letting that much emotion loose is a little frightening. I wear a toothy grin, sway, and get caught up in the energy. Up to this point, my relationship with Taylor was a precious secret, something steeped in so much history and yet still so raw. I kept my Swifite-ness offline and chose to collect unreleased songs, magazines, calendars, books, and Christmas ornaments instead. I wanted to hear HER voice - not what others had to say about her. All else was just noise and speculation. Needless to say, some jokes went WAY over my head LOL (Karyn, Becky, 123LGB, etc.).

I’m utterly flattered by the awe you all have regarding my devotion to Taylor. But you know what? I can’t take credit for that. It wasn’t a conscious choice. I am forever bonded to her voice, her lyrics, and her heart. No matter what era, no matter what rhythm or beat or instrument, I will always be here to listen, to support, to escape, and find comfort. Everything else falls away when I add another piece of her musical diary to my suit of armor, to my life’s soundtrack. There are always new wounds, new scars, but I find solace in knowing Taylor’s music is there, every step of the way. She has helped me wear my imperfections with pride.

To the amazingly selfless Swifties who are sharing my story and supporting me in this moment, please know how deeply appreciative I am of the acceptance, validation, and healing you’re providing. So, so much love and hugs to all of you. 

And lastly, to T, I hope this makes it to you. Secret Sessions and Glow-Ups aside, my only wish is that you know how grateful I am for your tireless effort, your sacrifices, and the careful metaphors that shaped my life. You helped me to be fearless. Keep being a badass. @taylorswift

XO, the OG mother of swifties ❤️ 😉 😘

P.S. Thank you to Erica (@evswiftie) for sending me no less than 5 self-recorded videos on how to navigate and post on Tumblr hahaha. You’re awesoME!!!

[pnwswiftie]

remembering almost 2 years ago now when @taylorswift followed me at 5 am while she was in Japan finishing rep tour and I fell out of my bed and called @evswiftie full on FreAKING OUT 🥺 .... ✨simple times✨

[talldrinkofhappy]

One of the most genuine swifties just lost her beautiful mama, Rachel, to cancer 😭 Please pray for @evswiftie and her family!

If you can help ease the financial burden during this difficult time, it’s appreciated! Venmo EricaVarela & PayPal hmhd12 @ yahoo dot com

[varelarachel]

I promise that nobody’s gonna love you like me 💕 mother daughter relationships are so special and no one can take that away. Thank you for giving us something to bond over Taylor !!! @evswiftie

[sheslikeohmygod1989]

Please send @evswiftie so much love and send prayers her way as she just lost her mom. Her mom was the most kind and sweetest woman.

[thetaylorfan]

hi we can’t FUCKING BREATHE

@evswiftie

[dazzlinhaze]

@taylorswift thank you for brining me some of my best friends in the world such as miss @evswiftie 💓💞💖💞🦋

[ofthewholeworld]

Hey, @taylorswift

You’ve followed me for a few years now, since right after I saw you in Seattle, actually, in 2015! I am soooo thankful that you know I’m a human and a fan! I’ve thought about meeting you for as long as I can remember. I have dreams about meeting you and get emotional when my friends ask me to talk about you. I really hope, and feel, like 2018 is my year to meet you! I’m going to four shows (so far!), and honestly, I would absolutely love to meet you at any of them! You have been such a big part of my life for the past ten years! I first saw you at Key Arena in Seattle in 2009 for Fearless, from nosebleed seats that my friend bought for us. In 2011 I saw you at the Tacoma Dome for Speak Now with a friend and we actually got upgraded by some nice girls who Taylor Nation had upgraded! I saw you again at the Tacoma Dome in 2013 for Red, and it was an absolute dream!

In 2015 I was at Century Link Field for 1989 and had the best seats I’d had so far! I brought three friends and dressed up and honestly, you are amazing. You followed me on tumblr shortly after, thanks to Erica, @evswiftie, who you know and love! In December last year, I made an impulse decision to get Poptopia! tickets, in San Jose! I got my sister and I tickets and got even better seats than 1989 in Seattle! Haley, my sister, and I had the best time, I was almost crying happy tears the whole concert before you came on!

This year I’ll be spending four nights with you, which is mind boggling to me! I am so ecstatically excited to see what you have in store for us! If I could ever give you a hug, I would be eternally grateful.

Glendale: section 419, row 12, seats 1-5. My aunt lives in AZ, so I’m bringing her, my mom, my grandma, and sister, and I can’t wait to see you opening night!

Pasadena night 1: section 19-H, row 70, seats 120-122. I’m going with my sister and her roommate, because she lives in LA and I can’t wait to see how you surprise us!

Pasadena night 2: section A6, row 7, seat 10. This will be my first ever concert alone! My tax return came through and I decided to treat myself to another show, what can I say, I love you!

Seattle: Section FLR1, row 12, seats 13(!)-15. Finally, I’ll be seeing you in Seattle again! I’m super happy you’re coming to the west coast first, I feel like usually we’re at the end of the tour. I’m seeing you with two friends, and these are the tickets I bought through the verified fan Ticketmaster program. I can’t wait to see you from the floor with two friends!

I love you, no matter if I meet you this year, in ten years, or never. Thank you for being the soundtrack to my life, Taylor.

--Erin

@taylornation

[kingofmyheartbodysoull]

Some of the GORGEOUS swifties that make being in this fandom AMAZING✨

✨💖🖤😘✨❤️💖🖤😘💖❤️✨🖤💖🎉

@busystreetsandmotownbeats - Chloe✨

@swiftlyfindingmyplaceinthisworld - Kristy✨

@taylorsreputation13 - Naomi✨

@in-her-wildest-dreams - Em✨

@littlegamess - Caroline✨

@poptartswift - Marianna✨

@swiftie-stephanie - Stephanie✨

@kevinlovestaylor - Kevin✨

@the-swiftie-scientist - Lena✨

@evswiftie - Erica✨

@delictay - Marisol✨

@swiftthisway -💖

@swiftofmyheartt - Alexis✨

@alinalovestay - Alina✨

@pnwswiftie - Kimberley

@carlylala - Carly✨

@kelsswiftie - Kelsie✨

@illsingyourname - James✨

@spill-the-tea-swift - Bethanie✨

@kingsofmyheartt - Sarah✨

@starlightmanna - Amanda✨

You guys are actually the best💖✨💖✨💖

[pnwswiftie]

heaven has a new swiftie angel 🙏💔 please keep @evswiftie in your prayers everyone @taylorswift

[asyouwalkthroughthedoors]

BTW IN THE MIDST OF ALL THIS

shoutout to @evswiftie for having been the nicest to me yesterdAY. @taylorswift just go watch her cute reaction videos !!!!!

[varelarachel]

From surgery ➡️ recovery ➡️ working hard and stay positive ➡️ better days

2010 started my journey of the last about 9 years of battling cancer back and forth, it was ovarian cancer almost stage four, I had the full hysterectomy and 18 rounds of chemo, remission for a few years and then since 2015 it’s been off and on. The beginning of 2018 was the worst ever, I had a tumor wrap around and deteriorate my spine and almost paralyzed my legs forever. It was miserable and so painful and emotionally draining. They told me I’d never walk again... but I refused to let that happen. I kept my fearless blanket with me during surgery to remove the spinal tumor. And I worked hard to be able to go to more Taylor shows, the beach and Disney. And that, I did. I got to meet Taylor with my daughter @evswiftie at the reputation tour. I got to go to the beach during the summer and my wonderful job at Olive Garden fundraised money to send me and my family on a vacation to Disneyland. My illness will never stop me from living my fullest life possible. After the surgery in early 2018 I had to take a lot of time to recover to get stronger to handle chemo to tackle the tumors left in my skull, hips and back, but by summer time when we tried the chemo I was found to be chemo resistant. We stopped the chemo and just did all the natural herbs and best kind of diets you can think of to take the cancer away. My oncologist tried to tell me in late summer (2018) she thinks my “time” is coming and to plan my funeral, but I called her crazy and went back to work full time. Lately I’ve been having a lot more bad days then good, throwing up and bad aches, but I keep pushing through and keep the good memories alive with me and dream of the future.“To me being fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death”. Love you to the moon and back Taylor and you really played such a big part in my daughter and my life.

[g0ldcage]

Hey, @taylorswift you probably don’t know me but My name is Allie. I am 26 years old from the rainy state of Washington. I’ve been a fan of you since Tim McGraw. I’ll never forget the day I heard your music playing on the car radio and the way I felt inspired to follow my dreams the way you did. I fell in love with the music and then the girl (you.) after listening to every album on repeat, watching endless tour videos while crying because I begged to go and got turned down everytime and embarrassingly enough - recreating your MV and photos in dramatic fashion... I’m finally achieving my over 11 year dream of seeing you live. Not only that but I’ll be seeing you with @evswiftie in California in the 18th and again in Seattle with @iwishyouwouldcomebackbehere on the 22nd. I know you don’t know me because I’ve been trash at social media but I decided it was time to make friends who appreciate you the way I do so I’m here. Thanks to you I am out of a toxic situation and safe (I was kicked out of my home and long story short Erica - pictured above - took me in a couple weeks ago and is now helping me getting back into my feet. I have lost so much lately - my grandfather to cancer, my family, my home... etc. but I believe I can be fearless and find strength in the fact that these things will change. I won’t be a hostage to my feelings soon and that’s what I find beautiful. You’ve given me everything and I owe you my life. Taylor, I’m not asking for sympathy or for some dramatic gesture but what I would like to ask is if maybe just maybe you could find me at one of my shows and give me a chance to talk to you, get some advice and a hug?? If not maybe include change or so it goes... on the set list one of the nights I’m at tour?? It would mean a lot to me. Even if you don’t do either of Jose things though I’d love it if you at least hug Erica again and meet Lucas or my swiftie soul mate - Morgan @lucaslaescuela for the first time because without them right now I’d be alone and have nothing. They are my hero’s as you have been for me the past 11 or so years. I’d just like to thank you somehow and them. So if you’re lurking my page at all (doubtful) maybe find a way to hug my honeys and if I’m lucky, me?? I’m so excited for May 18th and 22nd!! Highlight of my life is coming and I’m so grateful!! See you soon dear!!

[evswiftie]

Last night was one of the best nights of my entire life. I got to meet Taylor again and this time with my mommy. Since I know I’ll get a lot of questions on how I got in I just want to say Taylor nation asked me not to publicly share how I got into rep room and I want to respect that so I’ll just say how it was to actually meet her 💕

Omg so we walked in and Taylor hugs us all and I point to my mom and say that’s my mom and she was supposed to be in loft with me but couldn’t and she was like oh yeaaa?! What’s your name again and I say my tumblr is evswiftie and then she freaks out and says you’re the one who always makes me laugh and said other words describing how funny I am but I can’t remember them and I literally had my hands on my head pulling my hair screaming no wayyyyy and she’s like I thought you looked familiar! I wasn’t sure if it was because you look so different like your face is different like you’re a woman ! And I’m like jfajfekskdjao omg omg yea I lost a lot of weight !!! And then the called me BEAUTIFUL and then she looks to my mom and my mom just says “ thank you for everything thank you for being you I love you we love you and then gave her a hug 😭😭😭” then she turned back to me and she like pulled on the side of my shirt and said oh my god this shirt is amazing ! I’m like “ you like it !? Omg ! This lyric means everything to me !!” ( is this the end of all the endings ) ! And she says “ thank you SO much” so Allie told her her story then we all took a group pic and hugged and I asked her if I could tell her something really quick and she was so sad to tell me security was gonna push us out :/ like I was like leaving and we were still talking she I’m like walking out and turned toward her like “ I love you!!” And she’s like “ I love you ill see you out there okay !”

So was so happy to see me and she was so sincere and nice as kind and meeting her a second time REALLLY 100% made it feel like we are actual best friends. Like I’ve always said my whole life ( past 12 years) that’s she’s like a friend to me but now it super feels like it like she knows me and called me beautiful and it’s now my fave word I’m obsessed with it. Like Taylor swift called me a grown woman. And to see my mom SO HAPPY SOOO HAPPY was a wish come true. My mom has been battling cancer for so long and tbh we don’t know how much longer we have with her and is so anything to make her happy so seeing that glow on her face is all I wanted. I then had myself a pit ticket that I worked so hard to afford and it was so worth it like seeing her perform so close in front of me like it made it feel like that’s my girl up there ! That’s my friend and she’s slaying !! And it felt like MAGIC!!! Seeing her have so much fun on that stage. And so many of my friends from online got to meet her at before show and after show rep room and I screamed for joy every time I saw them with that paper to say they are meeting Taylor and I even took my friend in pit to find Andrea to help her at a chance for rep room and it was so cool to meet Andrea agin she remembered me from 1989 tour ! And she gave my friend Kim rep room and Andrea thanked me so being so nice to help my friend 😭 I love you so much Taylor and am so thankful for you and my mom says the show was amazing and she had a great view !

[teaparty20]

I love @taylorswift & my Chiefs & my city & I got to meet @evswiftie tonight and my world will keep being great even though the Chiefs aren't in the superbowl✨ Goodnight 🐈

[claysbrice]

Rep Tour Seattle/Meeting Taylor congratulatory message

Congratulations to @taylorishwift @gingyswift @g0ldcage @fearlessswiftie82 @iminthegetawaycar @evswiftie @enchantedwildestdreamsblog on meeting @taylorswift at Rep Tour Seattle! You all have wonderful memories to hold onto. Never let anyone take that special moment with Taylor away from you!