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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years ago

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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

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sammygender · 2 years ago

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listened to three episodes of mabel (the podcast) yesterday. SO good, holy shit. i’ve been meaning to listen for years and i get it immediately. just the first episode was so good. turns out i’m not actually that hard to get into podcasts i just haven’t been finding the right ones…

#i KNOW wtnv is meant to be good. i know i know i know. and the vibes are on peak!! i loooove the energy!!’#But nothing happens. bro. nothing fucking happens. not yet at least #im sorryyyy i need stuff to grip me!!! i enjoy wtnv when i listen to it but i can never listen consistently bc i never ever find myself #wanting to know what happens next #i mean sure i’m only a couple episodes in #but #is the whole show like this?? or does it get more….. plotty? character driven?#it’s got such a huge fan base on here but then again this is the site that can turn anytning into a fan base #same applies for. like. the penumbra podcast. idk i think i tried to start it and i was just like… don’t care. sorry #i have such an I don’t care. issue with media in general. i don’t tend to watch tv alone because i WILL just switch it off. i gotta pick #something and CHOOSE ok i am watching this for the next few weeks! and then set designated times to watch it with my siblings #its just like mehhhh. idk. im picky and i can take mediocrity and find gold in it but i have to be submerged in the mediocrity for that to #happen #but like anyway. wolf 359 is one of my favourite things ever and i thought it was funny and a cool concept at first but it probably would’ve #ended up like every other podcast if i hadn’t told my brother about it and he hasn’t immediately binged the first season #told me it was fucking amazing #and therefore motivated me to speed through until i got to the endish of s1 and went Oh yeah this is some GOOD SHIT.#so maybe i just gotta do that with more stuff???#but anyway. mabel is reaaalllly good #mabel podcast #oliver talks

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despisydraws · 4 years ago

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Les Amis have a game called "Bromance or Romance" where they each say a thing Bahorel and Feuilly did and the others have to guess if it happened before or after they started dating

#I was just about to drift off to sleep but now Im wide awake again #Yall should have seen the way I shot up when that thought entered #There was no build-up to this whatsoever #The whole concept appeared as one #That game is probably unbeatable #Cause their behavior changed not a single bit only that they kiss sometimes and say shit like 'Ive seen your dick bro'#Idk what happened here Im sorry #Ill leave you with this thought now #Have fun with it #Les miserables #Les mis #les amis de l'abc #Bahorel #Feuilly #Bahorel/Feuilly #Bahorel x Feuilly #Bromos #I guess thats the only more or less official ship name there is for them #My headcanons

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taniushka12 · 2 years ago

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watch venture bros where this fella

appears only two scenes in the whole show w/o saying one single word and the two biggest and serious theories i saw so far for who they are is that its either one of the main character's future self coming back in time for some reason or its the titular venture bros(hank & dean)'s actual mother that moved to new york and became a serial killer idk, and now is watching out for her boys <3

also this character's name is Scare Bear which is just funny

#blood tw #knives #like in their second main appearance they rescue hank who was bleeding from the head & all alone in a blizzard #and then takes him to the place where his girlfriend just cheated on him w/ his brother dean! who then take him to the hospital ofc #like.... im partial to the 'scare bear is just some rando' theory but if they were then WHY would they do that? ALL of that?#lets suppose IF the time travel theory is true. ive seen people say its future hank but idk fellas! im leaning for future dean here!#like what if hank DID originally die there in the blizzard like almost AT THE SAME TIME that the whole affair happened? that'd fuck up dean #he already wrote down a list of 100+ things he never got to say to hank while in coma just IMAGINE if he accidentally caused his Last Death #like time travel AND cross timeline travel is established canon sooooo likeeeee #tani's personal shit #venture bros #on the other hand the 'scare bear is the twin's mom' is funny bc yeah. everything abt scare bear is funny in an unnerving way #also i saw someone say its brock or sgt hatred and im sorry but thats just dumb :/

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katierosefun · 4 years ago

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i have not been the same ever since i learned that darth maul is apparently like 2 or 3 years younger than obi-wan kenobi

**EDIT: okay so apparently, maul is three years younger than obi-wan, so in tpm MAUL’S LITERALLY 22 WHEN HE DECIDES TO FIGHT OBI-WAN I--

#caroline talks #bro this is hitting me RIGHT NOW #i'm on a deadline this article is due in 20 minutes but what am i doing? WHAT AM I DOING?#thinking about the fact that maul and obi-wan are THAT close in age #i always thought that maul was OLDER than obi-wan by SO MUCH #but NOOOOO i learned through some other friends that maul is YOUNGER than obi-wan and i HUH????#HUH??? EXCUSE ME????#also it's not lost on me that maul is 23 when he makes his grand appearance as a sith apprentice #and anakin is 23 when he starts his sith apprenticeship #idk man i guess something about being in your early twenties or something #THAT'S A JOKE--#but i....HUH??? THEY'RE LITERALLY 2 or 3 YEARS APART???? WHAT??????#im sorry but WHAT #// edit: OKAY BUT LIKE....22???#THAT'S WHEN MOST PEOPLE GRADUATE COLLEGE #IM SORRY HOLD ON IF YOU TOLD ME THAT NEXT YEAR I'D BE ENTERING THE WORKFORCE BY #DUELLING A 25 YEAR OLD TO THE DEATH #I WOULD JUST SIMPLY RUN AWAY #lol this isn't maul apolgetism but lowkey IS #im sorry but this just goes to show that when you are. raised. by. hell man. this is what happens #no but im genuinely sad now???#imagine being 22 years old and this is what happens.#no now im actually genuinely sad.#bro.#@ star wars: u realize whenever you have a character close to my age i am going to feel sad for them right

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yioh · 4 years ago

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when cheoljeong said he'll love bong regardless of whether or not he understands them.... because its their nature, their existence, that he likes.... the reason why he fell for him in the first place is Because of the complete jaw dropping confusion that he feels whenever bong says or does anything outrageous so nonchalantly, he loves him because he's him...................

#mr queen #im so sorry but i cant get over the fact that the main couple in this is so fucking gay like #it just . yeah Yeah #they get it #esp when ur confused and questioning #idk how to word it but this drama was definately for the gays dkagaosh #also im using he/they pronouns for bonghwan but i still dont know if it feels right 😭😭😭#what i mean by this post is that cheoljeong didnt fall for soyong because shes the queen he married and she just happened to be there #at the right time #cheoljeong fell for bonghwan regardless of their political marriage and because of the fact that bonghwan is bonghwan #idk its insane bro

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tealfruit · 3 years ago

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#nerd alert #i dont wanna vague abt my friend and i dont want it to sound like im just bitter bc i have feelings for him BUT.#i think if ur partner stops speaking to u for 3 weeks and starts sleeping in a seperate room and stops being intimate with u #and starts calling u their roommate instead of their partner for 9 months that means u are no longer in a relationship with them...#like bro please at least talk to them abt it. hes really like 'oh idk. idk what we are i figured theyd bring it up.'#buddy........please #i think he perhaps might be susceptible to the sunk cost fallacy. bc hes like oh the last 4 years everything ive done is for them #and im like bro thats romantic af and im sorry that this has happened to u but i think maybe u should reexamine where u are now #i dont wanna b pushy abt it esp bc he knows i wanna date him. i do but even if i didnt i would b able to see that this situation sucks #and im like. oh u should talk to them abt it. but in my head im screaming and spinning wildly

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the-pigeon · 3 years ago

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just joined a discord server and they immediately deleted like half of the channels i am So Terrified right now

#pigeon talks #BRO?#idk whats happening #they just deleted general what do you want me to do #im so lost what is going on #sorry im. whsttt #what

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eggothefan · 3 years ago

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Thinking about Loser's first elimination compared to his second and I'm sad

#idk im also conflicted #like I guess they did give Loser more flaws and maybe depth in post-split bfb #(he's seemingly dependant on his fans trusting and loving him)#but like. what happened to him being a genuinely nice and caring guy #his speech makes me emotional every time bro what happened #idk. I dont really like post-split as much in general so I havent gone back to it #so maybe I'm forgetting details or getting things mixed up #although I guess if split didnt happen he'd just be eliminated but like. idk man #also sorry for not posting as much I'm not really that into bfb right now

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dspirmic-a · 3 years ago

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@chosenfuture asked: “ face it, i know you better than anyone else. ” [also Izuru]

“Well, that’s a bit presumptuous, isn’t it?” Eishi commented, smirk already curling their lips and this time? It wasn’t staged for Izuru’s (and their own) benefit. They were genuinely amused, genuinely curious as to what knowledge Ultimate O.P believed he had. Brows raised, hand gesturing out towards them as if inviting them to go on.

“Come on, then. Tell me what you know. Or what you think, because my guess is.... everything you think you know is what you’d hear from my show, right? Pick out some phrases and diagnose me on the spot. Hell, chances are I could do the same thing with you by a little read through of Frankenstein. You’re both similar enough. And that’s surface level info. The basics, and believe me when I say that probably doesn’t encapsulate you the same way a few sessions of me chatting away doesn’t tell you shit about me.” Smirk has faded by now and whether Eishi’s acting had improved greatly since they last talked or they’d actually have Izuru believe that.... No. He didn’t know jackshit about them. And to even humor the thought that he might....? Well, they just couldn’t have that.

#chosenfuture #bro im sorry they just RAMBLED and idk what happened-#;GET WHAT I WANT 'CAUSE I ASK FOR IT NOT BECAUSE I'M REALLY THAT DESERVING OF IT. (interactions)

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asexualjedi · 4 years ago

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Making big life choices really is hard huh.

#i reallt do just need to sit down and take the time to start planning what i want to try to do/my plan for when my mom doesnt need me to #take care of her but im also like idk shes getting a little worse with some symptoms like memories and sleep related BUT there is promising #new medicine out and my dads going to retire soon so he will be able to take care of her and. idk this has just been kinda what ive been doi #doing for 2 years and like i knew hopefully like i wouldnt be doing it forever but it did put a lot of my plans on pause for after grad #*graduation so idk. like. and also with covid happening and everything jts been allt and its hard to plan with covid still happening lol #i have time but i also shout oht to my bros for offering to let me move in with them #ignore me #sorry for this infodump #but yeah need to have a big think when i can make the time

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dirt-grub · 4 years ago

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i wish i had another version of me that was just the personification of all my anger like in the movies lol

#this is a conversation that happened over dinner lol #i was just too tired to respond #once i reacted to what happened like a full minute later i was like hm i am going to yell in my head #sorry this sucks lol i am in fact tired #altho the person talking to me irl actually was much meaner #but i was just like hfjhksdjfhfb #cOLLeGe iS eAsY iTs jUsT pArTyiNg #i am taking. 23 credits. sorry but some of us cant afford to drink until we pass out every night its not the fucking 80s anymore dickhead #candy doesnt cost a fuckin nickel anymore now does it i gotta make some fucking bread #every time i say words hes like I WORK SO LONG EVERY DAY okay bro i get it #and like i spend just as much working on my schoolwork as you do at your job #and do not TELL me you could EVER do the shit i do #i seem to recall you trying to go back to college once and who did all your homework???? oh yeah me and my brother #IM TAKING. 23 CREDITS #I passed two college classes and two ap classes while in the HOSPITAL #get on my fucking level bro #vent post sorta lol #connor talks #should i make more comics??? idk theyre kinda fun #idk how to draw myself tho lol

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corset · 5 years ago

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god you have to like...earn the right to be encouraging and nice to me in a friendship im such a difficult bitch i’ll be like talking about my problems or some shit and someone will have known me for a short while and they’ll be like “ohh i love you so much im here for you” whatever whatever and i’ll be like massively uncomfortable lmao <3

#also it just feels so patronizing and pitying to me even if it isnt cause that shit happens to me so much sorry love you #and like even practicing empathy here and putting myself in their shoes i understand there isnt much you can say when someone #shares personal shit with you or whatever #and i guess me attempting to bridge that gap by even sharing in the first place should be a sign of emotional connection at a level #that signals to them that we're At That Point or whatever #but like i said im a difficult bitch i cant even begin here #anyways this is just me throwing thoughts into the void or what have you about me #bro i fuckin hate when strangers talk super familiar with me or like throw their opinions at me too like #idk #word. i didnt ask #love you though #this is Such a bitter post im gonna get blocked

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chrisbangs · 4 years ago

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idk i just dissociated in the middle of a game idk what's going on

#talents .. i have them #i literally just stopped playing #and then my friend over djscord was like are yoh okay??#and i like ??? was like idrk what just happened but yes im fine #idec 😭 im so ???#im so miserbanelenekdkdox #i wannannans call a help line this is so not gamer !!! <3 #maybe i should really call .. im !!.&&.@#my mom saw my hand and she saw the scar and she got so 😐 ad nsnskssms and i wa s like i scratched it on my bedside table no big deal bro !!!#NSNSSKDMSMDKDMD #im usually able to handle myself even when im doing bad whennim with ppl #this is like the first time in a LONG time i ever did that while around others #i feel so garbage #i wasnt even helpingnmffkkdkd </3 #sorry 2 the person who was carrying me i really dont knownwhays up!!!'#i wanna cry #i feel so bad lmao 😭#jesusjsjsks kts almost 1 maybe i will call someone </3 i feel llokekekekdoxkkd #i had a nightmare last night and then i only slept a little bc i was so scared to sleep #and now im just so anxiosusiosdkdk idk what to do if i try to sleep im gonna have another nightmare but i have classes tmmr #whwnsndkdmodofpdof #im literallylt LOSING it !/:'kxolxkdo&(99?9(9(9(#i cant believe im this messed up ... <3 good for me .. trauma really made me who i am baby !#i texted one of my only friends who knew abt what happened to me and he mentioned how during that period how much i just didnt talk at all #and iwas going crazy i was like ?$&@@@)9)@(9(9(?(((?!!?$!(!(&& like did i really just zhut down emotionally i didnt notice ♡#i feel so sick rn i wanna die bro ♡

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soonhoonsol · 4 years ago

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can't wait to grow up and finally buy a house of my own

#personal #too bad i have to wait till I'm 35 #cuz for some reason single people under 35 can't buy a house #where's the logic? idk #I can't stay in this house anymore lile i will seriously go insane #im tryna be a good person but sometimes I can't keep it up and i just turn into this hateful depressed piece of shit that you see now #i just wanted a nice lunch with my grandma today #but no my mum gotta talk shit about her own son WHILE HE'S SITTING THERE HEARING THE WHOLE THING #and my grandma acts like she's fine but i can see wanna escape from my mum too #and great news! she did. she went home. good for her that she can escape #but what about me #it's so selfish to talk agout myself but fuck im so tired of being my mum's punching bag when she's upset #and im supposed to also be the middleman and solve the conflict between my mum and my bro #but both of them dont respect me at all and never listen unless it pleases THEM #and im exhausted of being a people pleaser #I can't even tell them what they're doing wrong because they wont see my perspective #they just assume im out to destroy them or smtg by calling them out on their actions #and i am so so tired im so sorry for this rant #i don't have anyone to listen willingly and i cant keep everything bottled up forever #idw to knw what will happen when i snap...i may do smtg i regret #conclusion: my mum thinks she's always rihht #*right #my bro has no regard for anyone who disagrees with him #and im caught in the middle torn between fixing relationships and trying to distance myself #thanks for reading...if u dod #*did #cheyrants

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katierosefun · 4 years ago

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when will taylor swift put out right where you left me and it’s time to go on digital so i could add it to my ahsoka and anakin/anakin and obi-wan/ahsoka character study/anakin character study/obi-wan character study playlists >:(

#caroline talks #FRIENDS GET BORN FRIENDS GET MARRIED #STRANGERS BORN STRANGERS BURIED #like im sorry but these songs hit SO DIFFERENT when you apply them to disaster lineage #'you left me no choice but to stay here forever'#idk. if you think about anakin still standing and waiting around for ahsoka to come back #like. 'did you hear about the (boy) who got frozen time went on for everyone else (he) won't notice'#'HE'S STILL 23 LIVING IN HIS FANTASY'#'break ups happen every time you don't have to lose it'#:(((((#okay and YET on another level. i see this as like. sad anakin and obi-wan vibes.#'i'm sure you've got a wife somewhere kids and christmas but i'm unaware'#like. bro. i know the lyrics mean one thing but im twisting them because i just wanna be sad about disaster lineage being SAD #on the other hand #can you imagine obi-wan and ahsoka being the ones who are like. a little frozen.#because they're both running over the last events and being like 'how did it go wrong what did we do wrong'#there's just. so much stuff here.#i know i know i am WAY too feral over this song #like to the point of 'caroline u good'#no im not okay this song just hits on WAY too many levels but UH #okay but the quiet sadness of 'you're sitting in front of me at the restaurant when i was still the one you want'#LIKE. CHILLS.#'if i loved that young i CAN'T BEAR WITNESS' / 'i loved you' / 'my older brother taught me'#LIKE. I HATE IT HERE SO MUCH.

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