#<- well ive never had cider but idk if it sounds good

[orangegloom]

my parents arent letting me have any champagne 😢

[astralgloss]

im a curious meanie so 1-134 muhahaha you get to relive the hell i just went through

etab i haTE U

1: Name

my name is marit lol but please just keep it mar

2: Age

i am 17 but i’ll b 18 in 2 months!!!!

3: 3 Fears

the dark, complete and utter loneliness, and clowns

4: 3 things I love

books, forest fruit tea, the sound of rain

5: 4 turns on

a nice smile that reaches the eyes, a nice smell, having a dog ngl, a soft touch

6: 4 turns off

extreme arrogance, insisting to pay for my meal if i want to pay bc its “what a man should do”, forcing lifestyles on me, not caring about my interests

7: My best friend

she does have tumblr but idk it but hey demi if u ever see this ur the bomb.com

8: Sexual orientation

im bi fam

9: My best first date

my bf and i went to amsterdam to go shopping and he followed me everywhere (even the bookshop even though he hates books) and idk i just love him it was a nice day

10: How tall am I

im 1,65m or 5′4″ but i can and will kick ur ass

11: What do I miss

nothing really??

12: What time was I born

ok so i asked my mom and she said i was born on a tuesday at exactly 12pm but i bet she’s lying

13: Favorite color

yellow!! im basic!!

14: Do I have a crush

well i sure hope so @ boyfriend

15: Favorite quote

to the stars who listen, and the dreams that are answered

16: Favorite place

my bf’s house tbh, specifically his bed

17: Favorite food

pizza, specifically the hot chicken one from ny pizza

18: Do I use sarcasm

nah fam (ofc i do im a little shit)

19: What am I listening to right now

god is a woman by ariana grande

20: First thing I notice in new person

how they look at other people when those people don’t notice it

21: Shoe size

38/39 idk the other size lol sorry 

22: Eye color

its blue but it changes with my mood (oh my god im so sorry im kidding please don’t hate me)

23: Hair color

im a blondie

24: Favorite style of clothing

sth casual but also a bit towards the punkish style, but i also rlly love looking tiny and soft and cute lol

25: Ever done a prank call?

ok so there’s this hotline for kids who have troubles with their parents and families but it was a shit hotline tbh so once i called it up with my friends pretending i was crying and the man on the phone asked me what was wrong so i told him that all my friends had fire type pokemon and i only had grass type pokemon and they kept beating me and i didnt know what to do and then man was so confused it was funny af

27: Meaning behind my URL

idk man i wanted a name that could b easy to remember and i was inspired by ridgeport tbh

28: Favorite movie

the perks of being a wallflower

29: Favorite song

Fav song atm is anything from p!atd's newest album and my fav song of all time is probably train of consequences by megadeth

30: Favorite band

megadeth lol

31: How I feel right now

pretty good but also annoyed bc i have to go to work in half an hour :(

32: Someone I love

my bf

33: My current relationship status

if u guys havent noticed by now im taken

34: My relationship with my parents

p ok

35: Favorite holiday

halloween/christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

I have my ears pierced and thats it lol

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

i rlly want a few bookish related tattoos, like a tiny raven, a little lightning bolt, and the city of velaris and then i also rlly want a sleeve tbh but imma be a teacher and idk if i can :/ about piercings: i rlly want a helix or tragus and maybe get second holes in my hearlobes

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

ok so ive been on tumblr for about 5 years and initially it was bc i was Depressed™ and then about a year ago i found out about simblr and i was hooked

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

tbh i dont even talk to him anymore i dont rlly care about him in any way

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

yes bih

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

hes my bf so yea lol

42: When did I last hold hands?

wednesday

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

about 45 minutes bc im lazy and i keep getting distracted

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

nope

45: Where am I right now?

in bed lol

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

either my bf or my best friend

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

depends on where i am

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

mom

49: Am I excited for anything?

tbh moving out but thats gonna take a few more years

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

*insert bf here*

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

every time im at work lol

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

wednesday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

lol bye

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

nope

55: What is something I disliked about today?

the fact that i have to work a day shift instead of an evening shift

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

my internet friends tbh it’d be cool to meet all the people from my bookish discord or from @booptherat​‘s discord

57: What do I think about most?

what book i should read next

58: What’s my strangest talent?

i can finish a book in about 4 hours

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

not rlly? i hate the whole asmr thing tho ew

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind lol

61: What was the last lie I told?

i dont remember tbh

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

neither lol

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

look im not saying that believing that we’re the only living species in the entire universe is narcissistic, but it is. also dont fuck with ghosts

64: Do I believe in magic?

hell yes

65: Do I believe in luck?

hell yes

66: What’s the weather like right now?

idk probably cloudy and windy

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

fahrenheit 451 by ray bradbury 

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

nah not rlly

69: Do I have any nicknames?

i guess mar?

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

when i was 2 i fell from sth and slammed the corner of my eye onto the corner of a table and i couldve been blind but thank god im not

71: Do I spend money or save it?

both 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

yup

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

post it notes

74: Favorite animal?

doggg

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

reading lol

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

idk man

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

i gotta feeling by the black eyed peas lol

78: How can you win my heart?

give me a samoyed and a 1000 books

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

“a boss ass bitch”

80: What is my favorite word?

fuck?

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

@cubersims​ @imvikai​ @ridgeport​ @cowplant-pizza​ @bloomlet​ @tiptoptab​

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

spend fiddies, pet kitties, hold tiddies

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not that i know of lol

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

the power to choose whatever power i want at any moment

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

“do you like working here?”

86: What is my current desktop picture?

its an august background from @emmastudies​

87: Had sex?

yes

88: Bought condoms?

no

89: Gotten pregnant?

no

90: Failed a class?

yes

91: Kissed a boy?

yup, i’ve been kissing my bf for about 2,5 years now lol

92: Kissed a girl?

yup, i’m living the bisexual dream lol

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

yes

94: Had job?

yes, im working at a movie theater right now!!

95: Left the house without my wallet?

tbh all the time now that i can pay with my phone

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

yea i used to but that was when i was 12 and i’d like to say that i’ve grown a lot in the past 5 years

97: Had sex in public?

nope

98: Played on a sports team?

yes

99: Smoked weed?

nope, even though i live like 20 minutes away from amsterdam lol

100: Did drugs?

nope

101: Smoked cigarettes?

nope

102: Drank alcohol?

yupppp, i love me some raspberry cider

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

nope

104: Been overweight?

nope

105: Been underweight?

nope

106: Been to a wedding?

yup

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

lol all the time tbh

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

yup

109: Been outside my home country?

yup, however never outside of europe tho

110: Gotten my heart broken?

a few times

111: Been to a professional sports game?

yess, i saw the dutch female volleyball team once!

112: Broken a bone?

nope

113: Cut myself?

yes

114: Been to prom?

we dont do prom in the netherlands lol

115: Been in airplane?

yes

116: Fly by helicopter?

nope

117: What concerts have I been to?

k3 (only dutchies and belgians remember this), one direction, megadeth, and ed sheeran

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

yupp

119: Learned another language?

i mean im from the netherlands and im fluent in english thanks to myself

120: Wore make up?

yuppp

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

yes

122: Had oral sex?

lol yes

123: Dyed my hair?

nope

124: Voted in a presidential election?

not old enough to vote :(

125: Rode in an ambulance?

nope

126: Had a surgery?

nope

127: Met someone famous?

nope

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

nope

129: Peed outside?

a few times lol

130: Been fishing?

nope

131: Helped with charity?

yep

132: Been rejected by a crush?

a few times

133: Broken a mirror?

lol yes

134: What do I want for birthday?

some books, money, cake, more books, makeup

[super-fabulous-killjoy]

Tagged by the lovely @bundleofunicorns

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people (eh thats a lot we’ll try)

— What was your last…

1. Drink: apple cider

2. Phone call: Baba

3. Text message: Guy who sends me pictures of his dog when im sad (i love that man and that dog)

4. Song you listened to: Woke the Fuck Up - Jon Bellion

5. Time you cried: earlier today when my extended family drove me to panic

6. Dated someone twice: never

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: havent kissed anyone

8. Been cheated on: never

9. Lost someone special: when my homeboy moved to hawaii and didnt even invite me

10. Been depressed: never

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never

— Fave colours

12. Black

13. Blue

14. Gold

— in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: yes

16. Fallen out of love: maybe? Define love also does platonic love count

17. Laughed until you cried: yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes but not in a bad way

19. Met someone who changed you: i already knew them but my friends did change me this year

20. Found out who your friends are: Mainly just reminded of how much i love my real friends and how much i hate the asshat who wasnt

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: nope

— General

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: idk i got a facebook when i was really little to play farmville and the like i dont use it any more

23. Do you have any pets: 4 rabbits

24. Do you want to change your name: bot particularly

25. What did you do for your last birthday: party bus it was LIT

26. What time did you wake up today: like 9

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: scrolling through tumblr

28. What is something you can’t wait for: The Masquerade, Mashby is gonna FLIP HER SHIT

30. What are you listening to right now: My “songs i think love sounds like” playlist

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ive talked to a Thomas, but idk about a tom

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: anxiety

33. Most visited website: spotify

34. Hair colour: blonde

35. Long or short hair: shortish

36. Do you have a crush on someone: who knows, not me

37. What do you like about yourself: im reaally good on emergencies

38. Want any piercings: not really

39. Blood type: no idea, a i think?

40. Nicknames: bro or hey you

41. Relationship status: single

42. Sign: libra

43. Pronouns: she/her

44. Fave tv show: at this very moment, deception or b99

45. Tattoos: i wish, i want a red feather behind my ear

46. Right or left handed: right

47. Ever had surgery: wisdom teeth

48. Piercings: none

49. Sport: XC/ track

50. Vacation: yes?

51. Trainers: i wear the same pair for everything

— More General

52. Eating: doritos

53. Drinking: nothing

54. Im about to watch: the new episode of deception, if my dad finished black mirror

55. Waiting for: my anxiety to die down

56. Want: to sleep for 4 days

57. Get married: maybe, if i find someone i like enough

58. Career: CFO of a music company, but also probably a chemist

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs

60: lips or eyes: eyes

61. Taller or shorter: taller, tall people give the best hugs

62. Older or younger: same age

63. Nice arms or stomach: dont care

64. Hookups or relationships: relationships

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: whatever the mood is

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: nope

67. Drank hard liquor: once on accident and never again

68. Turned someone down: haven’t been asked out

69. Sex on first date: *asexual laughter*

70. Broken someone’s heart: gee i hope not

71. Had your heart broken: do terrible book to movie adaptations count?

72. Been arrested: nope

73. Cried when someone died: yes

74. Fallen for a friend: so often its a problem

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: not really? Not at this present moment

76. Miracles: yeah

77. Love at first sight: nope

78. Santa Claus: i believe in the concept of him, if that makes sense

79. Angels: yes

— Misc

80. Eye color: blue

81. Best friend’s name: they definitely have one

82. Favorite movie: ummmmmmmmmm memento or the prestige

83. Favorite actor: rn its tom holland

84. Favorite cartoon: miraculous ladybug probably

85. Favorite teacher’s name: Miss T, or Mrs. Walle, or Mashby

WHEW well that was long but fun. Lets tag @sapphic-asteroid @saltbaekei @ivegotthislove @papillonemheliosa @pancake13error @typicalyaoifangirl @kierenrose @kaidad @ylove-bandaesthetics @d3kv @dreamlurkerdreameater @hardrock-mysticrage @just-a-shy-and-depressed-lesbian @justatracersexual @legimus-ergo-sumus @cuddlycryptid @vintageunicornblood @bandobsessed510 and yeah thats all i got. Fun times. You dont have to if you dont want to, obviously, but it was fun! Anyway, have a great day yall

[jooheonies]

nawar lover no.1 aka user shwhyuk uwu

bloodorangeki said: the lady formerly known as hyuccwoo, shreknu if u will,

send me a tumblr url and ill tell you what i think of them!

hhhhhh ok before i eben launch into this full love essay. i jst wanna say tht u truly are the light at the end of my tunnel sejung,,,,u make me so happy !!! Like i remember when i was losing my mind off of like three sips of pineapple cider and i legitimately felt like i was gonna throw up but then i was like … damn i can’t forget to text shannon and tell her about all this. and then i talked to u for a full hour or so while u called me a liddle babie nd i continuously whined…either way you truly have me under your spell you demon!!

okay so not to be. dramatic but youre so dreamy and pretty you remind me of rain and soft kisses on the cheeks and rose gardens and bouquets of flowers and soft sunlight on flower meadows and like! that feeling you get in your cheeks when you smile too much for too long and you get that permanent blush across your face! god that’s probabaly nonsense and not very cohesive but you have the same sort of colors…soft orange and light pink….you’re like a sunset on the beach right at the start of spring when theres barely anyone on the shore and the whole world feels really big and wide but even though youre all alone you don’t feel lonely because it still feels like the whole world(you) is poised right at the edge of your fingertips.

hhhh that also probably made very little sense but i dont care i love you so much and im very bad at expressing emotion (blame my virgo moon who hasn’t felt any feelings in over 18 years) but i still feel like always showering u in that sweet love and affection, despite the fact that im horrible with words and i have absolutely no consistency. I feel like it’s really rare to meet someone who literally changes your entire perception of the world but … damn here we are!! tlkaing to u is literally a part of my daily life its a part of who i am at this point :/

Anyways, friendships don’t really come naturally to me because I have a very weird perosnality where like. im simultaneously suffocating whilst also being very detached and it turns people off so quickly but..god we mesh so well i truly love you so much. i also tend to not write a lot whenever i make these posts bc im the kind of person who continously says how much i love you throughtout the convo (even thoguh ill ghost most ppl for a few days) so whenever i get around to writing these im like :// but what else do i say :// but this time!!! oooo i have so much to say i can never go into full loving hours with you bc you always turn things around and get me to start talking abotu myself and pretty soon we start talking about how i used to raise rocks as a kid instead of talking about how hot you are :/

so anyways firstly . those were just the intro pragaraphs im finally getting into my loving sejung essay :(( helloooo one of my favortie things about talking to you is how easily the conversation always flows ….us talking about shownus asshole and the questionable consumption of expired jello and orbeez at 3 am is most likely the more demonic things weve done while simultaenously being the more tame things…my head still aches when i remember that giagntic bruise i got from looking at that wonho+tentacles/changkyun+black hole sketch u made… god we somehow always go from topic to topic with absolutely no regard for cohesiveness and yet neither of us ever question it…we’ll spend hours discussing absolutely nothing …like that one night we stayed up for like three hours on rabbit talking about all the different mx stans and which member has the most stans internationally versus domestically and why….icons of developing complex sociocultural theories at 2am while occasionally mentioning “oh wow its late u should go to bed >:/” god its just that I always lose track of time whenever I talk to you…its like im so focused on that I Love Her mood that I don’t even realize its been 4 hours until I look down at my pile of unfinished homework and then back up at my laptop like. This was a Valid choice why would I pick ib math when I have a whole entire sejung talking to me. hhhh its just that talking to you comes so naturally and I always tell you all these quesiotnable things to which you always respond by first calling me a demon and then laughing about it and encouraging my stupidity. it’s also so so endearing that ill tell you about the dumb shit im doing and your first response is always to nag at me to be safe and take care of myself as if ill actually listen to you and clean a cut with alcohol, risking legitimate Pain… anyways sejung? queen of making me feel loved and noticed? MORE LIKELY THAN U THINK!!!!

hhhhh ok moving on now I get to talk about how. sexy u are damn….i remember back when we were first starting to talk and you sent me those pictures of yourself in that button up and I literally. I quite literally almost passed out in the starbucks while the barista was handing me my strawberry lemonade I truly almost lost it…nd right before that I was encouraging you to talk to the boba girl nd flirt nd be all spicie…but then u sent me those pics nd I was like for what reason would she have to impress boba girl when im right here … mouth open so wide in love that all the bobas are spilling out of my mouth :( not to be dramatic yet again when I know ive mentioned those selfies before but damn…those were so hot u unbuttoned like two or three of the top buttons and u looked so hot truly. raw me vore me behind each and every single boba store location hewwwooo u look so intense nd powerful im truly putty in ur hands not only would I lose my mind for u, I have already lost it

hhhhh im very much rambling and making very little sense rn bc its. 2:30 am and im sleebie nd I blocked all social media sites so id do homework bt I kept thiknning abt u so I was like hm the universe clearly wants me to write about sejung more even though ill have to post this in the morning bc tungle is blocked until then :// bt anaywas that also means I get to go into all the other thigns I love about u and all the things u remind me of :(( hhhh its so wild that I never actually aunch into full loving shannon mood bt I talk abt u so much w my friends theyre all. suspicious ,,,,

them: nawar u don’t actually like romance and u hate talking about people r u perhaps dating this girl??me, w hearts in my eyes laughing at smth ure saying on my phone: what

HHHH DJHFKSJDHF TAHST TRULY ME,,,,ALWAYS THIKNING ABT U,,,ALWAYS BEING BIG HEART EYES FR U,,,at any given moment I could be reminded of u :( I see a piece of paper nd im like huh I should do work then again is work necessary to live perhaps not but sejung is necessary to live,,,,me thinking abt u as I procrastinate every single thing ive ever had to do :D Like, ive never understood when people say that they hated a zodiac sign at one point, and then they met one person and they were like oh my god nevermind this sign is perfect but truly,,,I love geminis now ,,,I used to hate them almost as much as cancer nd now? geminis are all good ure so wonderful nd loving nd sweet u being a gemini saved geminis collectively,,

ill also neber stop talking abt how now matter how much I whine and demand attention, youre always jst,,,supplying it without any question like at one point people usually get annoyed, no matter how endeared they were by it at first, bt youre always calling me a baby (even though im older) nd giving me that sweet Love and Attention,,mmmmm my libra sun thrives under ur care :( hhhh also I feel it is important to point out I love. all of u,,,,like I don’t even usually care much for peoples voices or anything unless its like so deep it sounds like the grim reaper bc that’s wild u ,,bt anyways the first moment I heard ur voice I was. breathless I was so shocked like ur voice is so soothing nd warm its like. if the aesthetic of sunlight and honey and warm pies had a voice,,,hhhh im also not the type to really believe in things like fate nd destiny and soulmates and stuff bt that’s kind of what u remind me of ? in a? not weird way hhhhh so I feel like youre just so naturally in tune with people like nothing really catches you off guard and you roll with peoples different personalities and quirks and you always jst. mesh so well with everyone ure like the minhyuk of the internet,,,,nd like!! theres smth abt u that reminds me of balance and maybe its my libra sun always seeking peace and harmony in life but I always feel so relaxed nd steady whenever I talk to you its like . idk how to explain it!!! its jst so comforting!!!

I was originally gonna cut myself off at 1k but its too late for that now and im gonna put this under a read more anyways and its 3am now so I feel like. go Big or go Home!!! now im gonna launch into a long analysis of u! and ur smile!! first of all,,,its so rare nd wild to find someone who likes validating people more than being validated,,,,u finding my libra antics cute???hhhhh tahts so wild,,,,I could pout for hours nd u would call it cute,,,validating!!! nd the fact that you’ve read my writing,,,,excerpts from my demonic wips and youre stil friends with me?? you still talk to me?? damn that’s like. never to be expected any time I make someone read that tangerine fic they ghost me for a good month but I sent you pieces of that tentacle fic and YOU FUCKCING SKETCHED OUT THE LOOK,,,,,MY MUSE,,,nd also you tend to always steer the convo around to focus on the other person n dim a FOOL who almost falls for it every time,,,before I remember and make u tell me thigns…god ive told you so many obscure things from my childhood like that time I tried to eat a brick and yet you still,,,,talk to me,,,,who are u,,,,hhhh ure always so cute nd giving nd caring I feel like I could genuinely truly look like shit nd send u a selfie nd you would still be like WOW GORGEOEUS YOU LOOK SO GOOD THAT’S HOT!!! u,,,going out of ur way to make ppl happy :( anyways im a fool in love w u ,,,also not to be like. one of those old white boy text posts from tumblr but ,,,,hey girl,,,ladie,,,wamen,,,did u know? ur smile lights up my world? ,,,did u know? theres no such thing as u being anything less than perfect,,,why? because its impossible to be anything less than the essence of who you are. hhhh that’s the dumbest thing im ever written im cutting myself off that was too much this is like. 2k words so far and in all honesty I could continue but then id get gushier than that last line and nobody wants to see That,,,hhhh

this started out with. somewhat decent grammar like I used periods and I think I occasionally capitalized the first letter of the sentence but at this point its incoherent rambling it’s the inside of my brain every time I see u or hear frm u its like when spongebobs brain was on fire and all the cabinets and computers were going up in flames and all the little brain spongebobs were losing their mind that’s me right now losing my mind over you I wrote exactly 2k words in that whole essay,,,,im so fucking valid,,,,ananywas I love you if you couldn’t tell nd iim . somewhat satisfied at being able to vent all this love,,,smoochie,,smoochh,,SMOOCHIIE

[dirtycreekwater]

lantern | maple | harvest | cider | amber | fog | spice | maize | pumpkin | cocoa |

omg so many i love itlantern - how did you meet your best friend? What were your first impressions of each other?ok 2 best friends 1. Nora. met her in middle school. she was very quiet & kept to herself so my first impression was that she was very shy. i can't remember what her first impression of me was omg. ill have to ask later2. John. met him in freshman year of high school. my first impression of him was basically "ok this kid is weird as hell and i probably shouldn't get roped in with him based on similar past experiences but idk he seems like he could be a good friend i guess??" then we ended up "dating" for like five seconds, hating each other & fighting a lot, and now years later we're practically inseparable siblings lmaaaooomaple - is there a hobby / skill that you’ve always wanted to try but never did?hmm. no cos longboarding is the only thing i can think of and ive finally done thatharvest - what fictional character do you most identify with? Why?probably Virgil & kind of Logan tbh no other character is coming to mind but there's probably a toncider - a food that you disliked as a child but now enjoy?i don't think there is any. if there is i don't remember it. if we turn this around i used to love mac & cheese but now it makes me sick unfortunatelyamber - share an unpopular opinion that you may have.,,,,,,logicality is the worst romantic ship in this fandom. platonic/familial is cute tho ((im sorry lmao)) fog - how well do you think you’d do in a zombie apocalypse scenario?this question always stumps cos idk i think id have good strategies & plans for survival but at the same time my anxiety & depression is so bad id probably just have anxiety attacks everyday & no hope for the futurespice - have you ever encountered a house that you believed to be haunted?not haunted but i believe that spirits sometimes pass through my house and/or follow me. i know that sounds weird like why tf would spirits just wonder through a random ass house but weird unexplainable things happen and then they stop for a certain period of time and ive felt the presence of a little boy in my room after chilling in the local cemetery soooo ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ maize - share the weirdest encounter you’ve had with a stranger on the street.omg this one time Nora and i were walking home or something and these guys in a car driving past us shouted something like "hail fucking Satan!" or something along those lines ((im gonna have to ask her if she remembers exactly what they said but im pretty sure that's it???)) and we were dying it was so fucking funny & out of nowhere pumpkin - do you think that humans are inherently good or bad?hmmm i dunno. i would like to think that we're all inherently good & then environmental factors are what cause us to "turn bad" so to speak but im not entirely sure. if we see things the Catholic way we're all born with the original sin so that would mean we're inherently bad but yeah idk mancocoa - if you could have any type of hair, what colour and cut would you have?probably the super short ""boy"" style i had months ago before it grew out with some shade of pastel (prolly pastel blue) or id have a short ""boy"" style with a curly ish/wavy fringe ?? idk how to describe it lol

[babygirlcastiel]

hi if i have to do all the aesthetic asks then so do u ily 💕

ur gay

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

- today in the car while i belted toto africa 4 times. the minimum quota of times i listen to that song in one day

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

- see theres lots of things about my life i would want to know but most of them aren’t like, gonna be good for me to know. so just tell me what i name my first cat or if my hair is pink when im old idk

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

-being not dead!

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

-yesterday i went on a hike with my dogs !!

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

-other than idk not die probably not

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

-graduate college, get rich, fuck bitches

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

-gay. green hair. but not my roommate, my OTHER gay friend with green hair 

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

-depends on how young childhood is i guess?

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

-LOL last week my life was falling apart and then i ordered the wrong sandwich so i sobbed for 45 minutes straight while driving through denver traffic with all 3 of my roommates in the car and lemme tell you they were shook

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

-hmm bad question i pick all of my friends together huddled on a blanket with hot chocolate and chocolate liquor 

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

-? i do that constantly. isnt that kind of what im doing right now

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

-probably kelsey and shelby and madison, theys my roommates

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

-nope

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

-what kind of question is this?? all eyes are good eyes wtf

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

-THERES TOO MANY. lets go with this last bit of mary oliver’s ‘the summer day’ 

I don’t know exactly what a prayer is.I do know how to pay attention, how to fall downinto the grass, how to kneel in the grass,how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fieldswhich is what I have been doing all day.Tell me, what else should I have done?Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?Tell me, what is it you plan to doWith your one wild and precious life?

this just?? sums up my year of college and my philisophy professor read it to us the last day and cried and it means a whole lot. the whole poem is fucking awesome too, you can find it here!

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

-”fuck”

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

-quarter of it goes to my parents, another quarter of it goes towards making sure i can pay for college/food/bills/and the other necessities  etc so my parents don’t have to pay for anything, next quarter gets me an apartment in denver, last quarter goes to me and my sister for cool shit and concerts

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

-im too forgiving when i need to be harsh and too harsh when i should forgive. 

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

-calm down. kiss that boy, be best friends with his litter sister much sooner, tell your parents you love them. annoy your sister. and for the love of god ur gonna be okay babe just breathe a little

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

-neither. i describe myself as a 2009 scene girl and billie joe armstrong getting lost in an REI and having a baby. im the baby

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

-got two stick and pokes, a septum piercing and a bridge (only one piercing but i’ve gotten it done twice now) and holy shit i can’t wait to get more of both

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

-i wear minimal makeup except for highliter which i plan on putting enough of to horrify anyone who actually knows anything about makeup

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

- SIA keeps be breathin my dude

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.\

- CALM DOWN

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

- uhhh carlos santana, fall out boy x3, panic at the disco x3, twenty one pilots x1, paramore x1, jason mraz x1, barenaked ladies x1, and honestly theres a lot more but i cannot remember there are?? too fuckin many

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

- ghengs khan. and i want it to say ‘eat more pussy’ with his signature at the bottom

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

-not currently but in denver i did and it was very very organized and clean and perfect and beautiful

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?

-well i either shower or wash my face depending on if i showered that morning, then i use apple cider vinegar mixed with water as a toner, olay moisturizer on my face, i clean both piercings, then normally brush and put dry shampoo in my hair, moisturize my tattoos then the rest of my body, then brush my teeth, drink some water, then lay down !!

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

- honestly not much

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

- i would never dye my hair. my natural bubblegum locks are all i could ever ask for

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

- i dont mean to sound like an ass but 5 isn’t enough i have a lot of friends. i choose, my roommates, my emily, my roommates sister and her roommates, carly & The Gang, nicole and jess, my sister, my friend brynna and every dog ive ever met. 

we’d go to a big lake

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

-magic wand that heals all illness, acne, wounds, etc. to fix all of it

-shapeshifting powers so i can be a jellyfish in my spare time

- talk to animals. because no fucking shit

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

-OOH HEE MAMA. i once had a panic attack and yelled at some dude?? i dont remember why all i know is i was in his house and scared and i feel bad about it. also we’ve all puked a lot but thats not exciting.

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

-kill a dog

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

-toto africa because it’s all i listen to anyways and if i could only see one person i’d choose my sister and she’d kill me

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.

-i wish there was a way to type vomiting noises

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

-a) yes i would and b) this is a weird question go away

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

- i would trust legit anyone to order for me it’s not that hard, i normally get a venti iced coffee with room, fill it to the top with half and half and thats it

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

-taking care of myself, petting my dogs, 

[survivorelsalvador]

EPISODE 9 - The Funny Thing About This Game Is That I’m An Idiot - Kai

KAI

I'm really considering taking some disadvantages because if I win immunity they won't matter

I literally have no idea what the vote could end up being tonight, there's a lot of good players left in this game so honestly anyone is a good idea.. last vote was meant to be ashton but then that got flipped by Lily and Austin went home so, I kinda am feeling a little bit 'eh' with Lily right now so maybe her? Or we could stick with our plan from last vote and get Austin out. I 100% at some point need to get Dana out because she plays too hard which could prove fatal to me af the end of I make it there...

JOSH

i'm so fucking stressed i think i'm gonna die but i have to rely on kai to save me here.  i don't think it's going to work but i have some HOPE.  

KAI

"The funny thing about This game is that I'm an idiot. I was trying to save josh and trying to plot a Dana blindside when I realised I had completely forgotten about the fact... I AM SELFVOTING TONIGHT. So now that plan has gone out the window and I'm probably screwed :) "

Okay so I had plan to save josh. I was going to completely blindside my alliance and vote out Dana (my alliance being Lily and Dana). I was going to do this by getting josh to vote Dana, and then hopefully convincing Ashton and Zakriah to do so too. I would then play my vote steal and also vote Dana. If I did math correctly then that should be enough to get her out except I forgot I'm self voting so that plan is out the window and now josh is going home

DANA

"These advantages have me SHOOK. Do I know who has them? No. I'm not even sure which ones my dumb ass took because I drank too much hard apple cider before I submitted my list. I think i'm voting for Josh tonight but IDK. Will he go home? Who can say.

Also Nicholas brought up voting Kai out to me and.... Honestly? On a night when he can vote, I'm here for it. "

LILY

Well. Sorry josh. I know this will be awkward to explain but I will explain it and be honest. I told josh after he gave me idol clues that he had my vote. Well um it's been two votes and josh still hasn't talked to me so obviously I have to move onto greener pastures. I'm voting with Dana willow and hopefully zak as well to get rid of josh. Kai and hopefully chips and who knows who else will vote josh and we will be successful. But you never know with this game. I know I'm going to hold onto my advantages for later because it will take a lot to bring down Dana and her partners zak and willow. I love willow already but I don't think I make it to the final with her. But I like voting josh because it makes a lot of groups happy. But everyone is super worried about Dana which is great for my game. Also no one really suspects that I'm working with/hoping to work with Richie. But Richie still hasn't come online so I get hella worried. I really hope this vote works out. Cause your girl wants FTC.

ASHTON

All hail King Richie! My Savior, I will be forever endowed to him. But also wtf was he thinking voting out Austin. He saved me and then got rid of one of our allies. What the fuck? Either way this vote seems to be flipping on Josh now which is cool with me, I might use a vote canceller or steal but I think I'm safe so idk.

Well once again i'm way scared. I know my name has definitely come up but I've got advantages to save myself if need be. The question is whether i need them or not. Lily says that we have dana willow and zak voting off josh this time but iVe hardly talked to any of those people and have zero trust in them. I just don't wanna go home with two advantage in my pocket.

NICHOLAS

hi im reckless and took all of the punishments! lets see if this pays off!

WILLOW

The doc for confessionals like isn't opening up on my phone so i'm just gonna type it in here. I'm lazy so I'm using voice to text allowed to write this confessional so I don't know if it's going to come out sounding weird. Anyway I'm a little worried about this vote because there's not a clear majority and minority because the thing with the self votes from the last challenge and so I hope it's Josh who goes home since he doesn't talk a lot but I'm not sure if it will be because of the way the numbers are working with the Self votes and stuff

ZAKRIAH

Hi

WILLOW

either everyone is acting weird and it's actually gonna be me going home or I'm paranoid