#<- lmfao i just checked and i've used that exact tag before

[aliusfrater]

dean comparing sam relapsing after a forced cold-turkey and what he perceives to be sam choosing ruby over him to sam leaving ('ran away') for stanford is so important to me. it's about sam's independence (specifically, from him)

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of lackadaisy i had like another tiny detail thought about the murder mystery i was like "well and maybe i'll have a further revelation about it that would make for a post that says Anything else" lol but so far not yet so. we post anyways

first of all. someone said it in an ask and not like i disbelieved them but it's like ohh my god is "i bet mordecai shot/killed atlas" really that Rare a theory like screamm....like okay we all agree mordecai's going detective mode b/c He's Doing That In The Latest Comic Pages but when it's like "he joined marigold....to investigate them....b/c he wants to find out Who Killed Atlas" i'm like sob okay Please do we remember the page where he & mitzi were like "well We know how atlas died and one of us passed a gun to the other about it" and the more recent page where mordecai is like "well Eye know how atlas died to such a degree that i know Who Wasn't Even There" liiiiike! after going "i Thought until Just Now that marigold Didn't have any involvement w/atlas's death" like okay mordecai having joined up just to investigate them, how does that line up. ugh. anyways and when it's like "lol what if mordecai did it" even as that Hypothesis and the counterargument is like "but he worked for him....loyally....he wouldn't want to. so that's impossible XD" like head in hands therein would lie thee drama & the mystery of Whydunit, not Whodunit....

anyways lord lmfao so. just reestablishing my "mitzi and mordecai were both in on atlas's death" stance. was just thinking about how of course this is all about Character/Story and not about like, the goal of thee mystery out here being like as complex and opaque and surprising as possible, so really just turning to thinking about Character as as relevant a clue towards mystery-solving theorizing as anything else....like how noticing mordecai's silhouetted revolver that atlas gave him on the train and that he seems to be giving mitzi in that flashback are The Same, like, that's gotta be significant not b/c it's Impossible it isn't, but b/c it Would be to serve Story/Character here....and imo even going like "wow the resonance if mordecai, as atlas's loyal employee who doesn't want to, shot atlas w/that same revolver atlas gave him to be shooting other people so mordecai maybe didn't have to die" is like "evidence" for that theory like. yeah that'd be fun & relevant, which Does make it more likely it's accurate

so the character thought i had which can barely warrant a post but to hell with it, was just re: musing on how a total mystery is what tf role mitzi had in the circumstances that plausibly led to atlas's death, which both she and mordecai seem to believe ascribes to her some Fault in his death, even though she didn't kill him herself....and ofc i'm still like, hmm, shrug, but i was also sure just thinking about how like, everyone's in this because the bootlegging seems to be their only option / they feel sort of backed into a corner about Something Or Other and are trying to deal with that....except like, ivy, while everyone else is dropping their head in their hands like We're Not Doing This For Fun, don't invent reasons to be here....but i was thinking about how mitzi has a combination of like, being particularly Opportunistic (like, so far as we know her life didn't depend on marrying atlas; keeping up her band gig was still an obvious option; she was more actively pursuing Possibility than reacting to being in a corner with increasing desparation & decreasing options. even when that doesn't Not apply to her situation, just less dramatically than for many others, and it seems to have been more about being motivated by the Positives than the Negatives) (also shoutout to atlas being immediately described as "an opportunist") and that also like, key to a premise of this whole story as "lackadaisy really ought to just close up shop but it sure hasn't and is trying to open it up even harder" is that mitzi also seems to just take any given avenue in her pursuit of some opportunity far enough to be feasibly In Over Her Head....she's going ham like, still trying to make lackadaisy work at all, for one, trying to pitch investments while people are in the building on an armed revenge rampage until zib & co. help get most people out of the path of that, willing to employ & keep employing rocky in the bootlegging side of things, trying to power through effectively a drinking contest with wick in his cellar and then robbing him via check after getting in brawls on the pavement to keep her pearl necklace and if wick finds out then that'll hopefully not be a life-&-death problem for future mitzi....it's a lot of fun lol & truly apropos for her & mordecai to have some big secret while they're also, apparently largely independently, these like super active characters pushing things along

so in underwhelming conclusion it's taking things from "hmm maybe mitzi did something that had of course unforeseen consequences that somehow led up to atlas dying" to "yeah and because it'd fit if she saw some Opportunity that she decided to pursue in some particular way and not letting up until it's fully derailed and/or other people have helped mitigate the damage or prevent worse"....and since i'm theorizing here that probably also atlas was in on his own death, that could sure be Because for some reason or another, doing so mitigated damage or prevented further, worse damage....sure haven't had any revelations like answers to "ok what could that opportunity she was trying to seize have been" or "and why would atlas dying help" but it just seems fitting if like hmm what if major character traits of mitzi's that make the whole story what it is might be relevant to that [hmm what role did she have regarding atlas dying]

[coulsonlives]

Hi, how's it going? I just saw your post about spoons and how people in this RPC act like you're an ableist asshole over it, and holy shit do I relate, because it's literally happened to me too. Rant incoming, but I thought I'd pass some validation your way... I have a lot of feelings about this.

Like you said, tumblr users have become absurdly brazen with the "you're ableist" accusations towards people with disabilities who are just trying to enjoy a hobby, and trying to ensure their needs are met by making them clear/upfront in their rules. Like, jesus christ... If you have depression or low spoons, and you easily burn out from high partner/character turnover, or if you don't spend a lot of time online, or if you get really disoriented if you log on once a week and see a lot has changed re: your partners' blogs and such, that's a valid concern. It's not being fucking "ADHD ableist" to say you burn out if partners have a high turnover with their blogs or characters, so you prefer to follow people whose blogs and characters are more stable. It's not "ADHD ableist" to say you prefer writing longform posts rather than one-liners. It's not "ADHD ableist" to say you have memory issues, so you can't manage when threads or characters change a lot. That last one about memory is very ironic, because ADHD can literally affect working memory too, sometimes you need to take the exact same approach with it! Anyways, long story short, there's no "right" way to roleplay. My approach to roleplaying isn't going to be compatible with everyone else's, that's just the way it works. But some assholes don't understand that at all, and they throw fists over it, and I just? Stop.

We're not saying "if you roleplay this way, you suck ass", or "this way of roleplaying is better than the rest", or "if you read these rules, you must do as I say because I'm a bossy controlling high-maintenance bitch", but that's literally what the Reactive Outrage Crowd seems to interpret from our rules... Which we've put upfront out of courtesy, before people even interact with us. And I'm sick of it. I've seen it happen to my friends, and it's happened to me, I'm sorry to hear it's happened to you, too, ugh. You can be the nicest person, and you still get shit because people take screencaps out of context or whatever, and they think their disabilities and ND traits give them full license to order us to conform to their own specific needs, which they wrongly believe is the only "right" way to roleplay, so we must conform to them, and them only.

What the hell happened to, "we are fundamentally incompatible as writing partners, so instead of trying to force each other to fit into a mold, which is only going to lead to frustration, let's acknowledge we are too different, and find partners who are more compatible"?!

Honestly, these last few years.

The worst part, in my opinion? How tumblr's RPC is full of petty-ass roleplayers who like to pretend they're inclusive, and understanding of people who are ND or who have disabilities, but as it turns out... They're only accepting if you're the "right" kind of ND or disabled, fuck you if you're anything else.

Are you autistic, and do you have very blunt or direct rules that are formatted in bullet points? Maybe you'll hear, "wow, if I wanted to apply for a job and check off boxes, I'd go on indeed, lmfao" (I wish I were kidding, this has happened). Have health problems and need to explain the specific ways it affects your writing or blog organization, which involves a lot of tag lists and explanations? "Wow, these rules are so long, nobody with ADHD is going to read a textbook, lmaoo." (Yes, I've also seen this.) Prefer not to follow people who are super into one specific fandom, because you don't want to hear about it, or because you don't want a higher likelihood of seeing that content on your dash (due to accidental untagging or something)? "Lmao, this person sounds like a wet napkin".

Are you kidding me?

Some people are so ready to shit on rules and posts that do literally nothing wrong. The only things these rules and posts do is show incompatibility with the person's own roleplaying style, in a totally non-judgmental way. But people equate these rules and posts to ableism and rudeness, because they've gotten it into their heads that their own way to roleplay is the "only way", and then they start stirring up the Outrage Porn mobs. Hey, look everyone, here's the latest in "shitty ableism," let's all stare and wonder wtf is wrong with this person who's done literally nothing even remotely offensive! Like that's not a super fucked-up form of entertainment. And why is it always "ADHD ableist", like you said? I feel bad for the people with ADHD who genuinely don't give a rat's ass about people's rules or finding faults in everything, and who just adhere to the live and let live mindset.

Like… Come on, people. There is nothing wrong with ADHD, or with preferring high-turnover threads or short rules and things... Just like there's nothing wrong with the alternative. Just shut the fuck up with the rules bullshit, regardless of your disabilities, and stop acting like you know what's best for all people and their own disabilities. People who are clearly incompatible with you don't owe you shit, especially if they're not hurting anyone or forcing you to do anything. You need to stop being so entitled and learn how to walk away like an adult. And stop calling everything ableist without it warranting it, because not only are you hurting ND/disabled people more often than not when you use it (sometimes without even realizing it), especially on a website like tumblr, but you're grossly watering down the term, and that's going to bite all of us in the ass one day. You shouldn't be proud of that, you should be ashamed.

Okay, I'm done lol.

(Shit like this is why I don't go on tumblr anymore, for the record.)

This needs to be framed and displayed in the tumblr rp museum of excellence, thank you for saying it