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unsteadyfiction · 4 years ago

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“to be okay”

it came out of nowhere

it started at a stoplight

that song came on

and i thought about all the shit that happened when i used to play that song on repeat

pull up to the curb

“ill be inside in a second” i told him

turn up the volume

heart rate rapidly rises

choke on my breath

scream in my head

no sound comes out

rest my head on the steering wheel

taste the salty tears on my lips

fumble around for something sharp

try the glovebox, the center console, my backpack, my purse

all i have is my keys

pull them out of the ignition

scratch my forearms but they didn’t bleed

need something more

that’s when i found it

the bottle

hear the pills bounce against the plastic container

grab it and unscrew the lid

five

there were five in the bottle

not enough to do anything

shit

not enough to do anything

should i tell someone?

i should tell someone

i told someone

over a fucking instagram dm

but i told someone

do i have a drink in here somewhere?

shit

i hate dry swallowing pills but here i am

one

two

three

cough

four

cough

five

cough

and then there was the knock on the window

they cared about me

they were worried about me

but it wasn’t going to stop me

coping skills?

fuck no

im gonna do it

im gonna kill myself

i can’t fucking do this anymore

you held my hand

your hand was cold

or maybe mine was hot

but i let your fingers slip out of my grasp

look you in the eyes

remember that i am human

that i have something to live for

but it wasn’t going to stop me

tell you i am okay

and that i am going home

you told me to call you and keep myself on speaker as i drove home

“okay”

turn on the car

pull away from the curb

four way stop

turn right

gas station

“can minors by OTC drugs in missouri”

yes

okay

pay with cash

unbox the bottle

one

cough

two

cough

three

cough

“are you there?”

“yeah”

“how far are you from home?”

“im almost there”

“what street are you on?”

“cherry”

lie

liar

stop lying

pull out of the parking lot

turn right

now im actually on cherry

four way stop

home is straight ahead

if i keep going i can’t turn around to go home

turn right

parking lot

its empty

put the car in park

one

two

cough

three

cough

four

cough

swallowing pills with a dry mouth isn’t easy

“paige?”

“yeah”

“where are you?”

“in a parking lot”

“we called the police”

“what?”

sirens

i can hear them from here

shit

shit shit shit shit shit

i don’t have a choice

i have to go home

put the car in reverse

turn left

four way stop again

turn right

this is it

i couldn’t do it

i couldn’t fucking do it

im never good enough

im not smart enough

or pretty enough

or normal enough

i need to go

i need to go away

i can’t fucking do it anymore

pull into the neighborhood

see the ambulance

see the police

see him in the driveway

see them in the driveway

mom

shit

see mom in the driveway

she’s so disappointed

she’s angry

she’s not gonna talk to me for days

she doesn’t come talk to me

she can’t even look at me

she’s so disappointed

get out of the car

police

ambulance

EMTs

so much going on around me

but im numb

emotionally numb

emotionally exhausted

emotionally dying

physically alive

physically here

here in my driveway

here on a stretcher

here in an ambulance

watching my house fade away

watching him fade away

wanting myself to fade away

not thinking about consequences

oh shit

consequences

they’re gonna send me back to inpatient

i can’t go back

i can’t go back to inpatient

i can’t do it

don’t make me go back

i can’t eat hospital food

i can’t sleep with fluorescent lights on

i can’t write with a stub of a pencil

i can’t shower in that cold tile bathroom

i can’t

i can’t do it

i can’t go back

don’t make me go back

now im at the ER

empty hospital room

nothing but a wooden bed and a chair

a tv, but no remote

no clock

no window

IV full of water

blood test

drug test

psych eval

EKG exam

never felt less human

take a nap

sit around and wait for doctors to come and go

dad prays for me

mom glares at me

all i want to do is see him

and hold his hand again

and hold him

him

fuck

whats he thinking

he’s got to be worried out of his mind

who’s gonna help him if i can’t

i need my phone back

i need to call him

i need to tell him that im okay

i need him to be okay

to be okay

tears

screams

breaths

lies

to be okay

i get to go home

i get to go home?

holy shit

i get to go home

its a miracle

text him

hes not okay

to be okay

hes not

he needs help

i couldn’t be there for him

shit

i couldnt be there for him

his parents are probably angry

and upset

and confused

me too

i just wanna go home

the drive home feels like forever

get home

eat dinner

listen to the new rules and boundaries

fuck

i shouldn’t have done this

now i don’t get to drive or see my friends or sleep in my own bed

fuck

its my fault

that’s what i get for being so fucking sad

to be okay

its all i want

but at the same time

i don’t want to leave this headspace

i feel comfortable here

this is what i know

i don’t want to be happy

this is who i am

i don’t want to be okay

to be okay

fuck

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

cry

scream

breathe

cry more

scream more

breathe more

this isn’t me

im not me

this isn’t who i am

who am i

who is in my body right now

its not me

im not me

im not okay

okay

emotional exhaustion

not okay

suicidal

really not okay

so fucking sad

im really not okay

to be okay

will i ever be okay?

maybe

maybe not

oh, to be okay

-p.h.

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abdlstories122-blog · 7 years ago

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“When you aren’t expecting to be caught wearing a diaper, never mind, one with hot pink sides and princesses all over them.” Parent: why are you taking so long in the bathroom? you: hold on! i’m almost done! Parent: i’m coming in. you: (thinking to yourself: shit! i forgot to lock the door.) No You’re NOT! Parent: creak, goes the door. you: (trying to hide your diaper, you just finished taping on) throwing a towel over your legs. parent: oh my! why are you wearing that hideous pink diaper with ponies and princesses on it??!?!? you: i...can...exp- parent: never mind that question. you: huh? parent: YOU ARE TO GO DOWNSTAIRS...NOW! AND DON’T TRY TO HIDE OR COVER YOURSELF! UNDERSTAND? you: whatever! parent: DON’T YOU DARE DISRESPECT ME! AND FOR DOING SO ANYWAY, I WANT YOU TO DRINK A GALLON OF WATER...RIGHT NOW! you: what the fuck! parent: FOR DISRESPECTING ME, AGAIN, YOU ARE TO DRINK HALF A GALLON OF MILK...RIGHT AFTER THE WATER IS FINISHED! you: fine. ----------------45 minutes later--------- parent: where are you? you: going potty. parent: not what, where! you: in my room. parent: you better finish up and come back down here, before i get up there! you: hold----on------(grunts between words) parent: hurry up! im almost up here. you: starts to sob. parent: oh, did my baby go poop in their diaper? you: (still sobbing) parent: oh its ok. you: no its not; i not only peed in my diaper, but i pooped in it. parent: don’t you worry, i’ll change you. you: ok. (sniffles) ------------------10 minutes later-------- you: i wish i never bought all of these diapers (looks in the closet and sees all of the 200-something stock pile of pink diapers that you bought) parent: don’t worry. it’ll only be a few weeks. you: if i can only pee a tiny bit every 5-6 hours, it’ll be a few months till i’m out of diapers. parent: not really, you’ll not only pee in them but poop in them too. you: true. parent: well you best be taking a nap. i have shopping to do soon. you: can i stay here? parent: no you: i have to go with you? parent: yes. and be sure to pack all of your supplies, and at least 25 diapers. you: huh? im already wearing one... parent: make that three. and i don’t want to change you every few hours. you: (looks down and sees that you are indeed wearing three princess and pony print-covered diapers.) and then realize that not only can you not put on anything to hide them, cute as fuck, diapers, you won’t be needed to be changed till at least 12-15 hours from now... parent: are you going to just stand there? or are you going to pack your rash cream, lavender-scented baby powder, lotion, diapers, change of clothes, changing mat, as well as a bag for your used diapers... oh whatever, i’ll just do it. you:----- parent: and for not doing as asked of you, you’ll be wearing only your diapers, an extra short tee-shirt, and suck on your hello-kitty pacifier. you: you wouldn’t dare! parent: just wait till you see the shirt you’ll be wearing! how adorable is this? (looked into your box of “games” and found your sleeveless onsie that has hello-kitty on it; and your pacifier.) you: whatever. parent: you better not disrespect me! you: what are you going to do? make me--- parent: (smacks your diapered ass.) and says, say it again, and likely to make you call your friends to meet you and i at the mall, so they see what a little sissy you are. you: liar! you and i will both be embarrassed! parent: not me, you! ------------little while later------------- In the car, you feel like your life is ruined. parent: is my little sissy wet her diaper yet? you: no. and don’t call me a sissy, just because i like hello-kitty. parent: then why did you buy the onsie and paci? you: i like hello-kitty and---- parent: you like hello-kitty and that’s why you’re wearing the onsie and sucking on the pacifier. you: are we there yet? i have t--- parent: have to what? go potty? why bother asking, if you’re wearing diapers? you: because i want to be independent. parent: oh im sure you’ll be independent, just as long as you go potty in your diapers, for mommy, ok? and not only pee, but poop, as well. you: i don’t need to poop. parent: well you’ll just have to eat some chocolate. you: huh? ok. parent: good sissy. you: now remember, you’re wearing diapers, and you’ll be expected to use them, to their full extent. you: you mean, soil all three diapers? parent: just be polite and eat this chocolate. you: tastes good. parent: yes, exlax chocolate is quite tasty. (sarcasm) you: well, i better quit eating the rest of this. parent: no you won’t. you: oh ok. ------------10 minutes later------------ you: (keeps squatting and trying to hold off the urge to go #2 and then your parent decides to pull you up, and in doing so, right as you managed to fight off the pain, swatts your behind, so hard that you ended up falling on your stomach and releasing all of your bladder AND bowels at the same time.) parent: get up, or else i will make you wear your soiled diapers till we go home! you: (gets up and sees that not only did you manage to soil the diaper closest to yourself, but also your second and third diapers.) parent: let’s get going! you: ok!!!! i’m getting there! parent: faster! you: i’m trying! i can’t walk as fast as you, when i’m wearing these soiled diapers! parent: well, you better find a way to hurry! it’s not like you soiled all three of your diapers, already. you: (unsnaps the crotch of the onsie, and shows everyone around, that you certainly soiled all of your diapers, completely.) parent: you’ve completely soiled yourself. well i best find a bathroom right now. unless... i let you walk around for another hour, before changing you. you: what? these are super full and they’re not able to hold much more! parent: well, maybe next time, don’t buy such thin diapers! you: they’re not thin, they’re just as thick as 4 soaked goodnites! parent: well that’s not as thick as 7 overnight diapers, now is it? you: no. parent: lets finish shopping, and then i’ll change you. you: i can’t wait that long! i have to go again, and most certainly, another 3 diapers won’t do. parent: i’m not changing you yet. you’ll just have to wait. you: whatever. parent: when we get home, you’ll be going straight to bed, and will wear 10 diapers, just so that i won’t have to change you at 3 am! -------------hour later-------------------- you: i’m about to let it out.(as you’re squatting to avoid the nearly impossible. right as your legs get sore, you feel your body shaking, and you carefully sit on the floor of the food court, you hear someone say, is that you, sweety? startled by the girls voice, you let out a small stream of pee, then as the girl approaches, you let out some of your poop.) girl: oh don’t hold it in, let it out. you: (looks up to see your cute, sexy, diapered, girlfriend) parent: oh my! girl: it’s ok. i’m his girlfriend. parent: you’re wearing a diaper too! girl: yes i am. and a matter of fact, i am wearing this diaper because my little guy here, has been asking me to support him and i gladly accepted to support him. and don’t worry about changing him, i can do it. parent: just so you know, he’s soiled all three of his diapers, and i don’t want him to be changed just yet. girl: just so you are aware, he has just finished pooping and so i’ll change him, right now. parent: i’m afraid you’re not prepared to change him, since your only diaper is around your hips. girl: i have my own diapers in my bag, at my table, so just back down, before my little guy here, decides to pee himself out of fear. parent: whatever. just hurry back. girl: i think i will take him home, pack his things, and move him in with me. parent: how will you get in if neither of you have a key? you: i have one. parent: do not. you: yep i do. i won’t tell you where its at, cause you don’t care whether or not you go through my stuff. girl: lets get you all cleaned up. (grabs your diaper bag and takes you by the hand, into the mens room.) you: do you really have your own diapers? girl: no. i just snuck over to your house, and saw on your TV that your mom got mad at you for wearing a diaper, so i grabbed one and put it on, just so i can support you, just the way you asked me to. anyway, let’s change you, shall we? you: thanks for saving me. girl: no---prob--lem you: you ok? girl: i’ve felt the need to poop for about 10 minutes, now, but i thought, why not let it out?, there’s more than plenty of diapers and changing supplies for the both of us. you: go--od poin--t. girl: you go poop again? you: yeah. well my mom tricked me into eating an exlax bar, just so she could make me go in my diapers. girl: lets hurry and change you, before your diapers leak. you: sure. ok. girl: before we do though, can you promise me that you’ll keep this diaper wearing issue, a secret? you: yes. i promise to keep this issue a secret. girl: good. lets clean you up now. --------------25 minutes later---------- you: do you want to be changed? girl: i think, i’ll be ok. you: ok. girl: lets head out before your mom gets home, so we can pack all of your 200-something count diapers, ok? you: sure. ----------5 minutes later---------------- girl: ok we are here. you: in your glove box is a small box with a set of 2 house keys. one for me, and one for you. girl: uh, you have a bit of a problem. you: huh? oh shit! mom’s home! girl: i’ll run in, as you’ll stay here. so your mom doesn’t try to keep you inside, ok? you: ok. I’ll lay down in the backseat, so she won’t see me. --------15 minutes later---------------- girl; sweety! open the door, so i can start to put your stuff in the back seat. you: sure. ---------------10 minutes later--------- girl: after we get the rest of these diapers in the car, we’ll head out to my place, ok? ----------------45 minutes later-------- you: alright, i think that’s all of them. girl: yep. By the way, your mom is sleeping in her room, i don’t why though. Anyway, lets head out. you: i’m so glad you helped me today. girl: you are probably wondering, how did i see your argument, with your mom? well i used the old tablet you gave me last month, and i was able to hack your mom’s profile password, and got into the security system at your house, and not only did i shut down the system, i reported abuse of user agreement, to the company, so they’ll be here tomorrow, to take the system. you: how did you shut it down, if i couldn’t even remotely access the system, via my mom’s phone? girl: simple. i not only did i get access to the system, but i was able to use a series of codes, to strip the account of any hidden features, unlocked the sub level account that managed all of the notifications of the system, turned them off, then i sent in a virus disguised as a “SAFE” protocol from the main user account. you: good thinking. but how will you be able to prove that you did all that, without getting charged with violating the law? girl: simple. filed a violation of custody orders, and got approval to basically save you. now before you go inside, you’ll need to either take off your diaper, or put on some more age appropriate clothes? got it? i’ll go in now, to buy you time to change, so my mom won’t ask you a bunch of questions about your outfit? alright? see you inside. you: i didn’t see any clothes packed in the car, but i’ll look. (you then get up, but then realize that your diapered butt will be in view of everyone close enough to see you. so you end of crawling into the backseat, and that’s when you see the only other clothes in the car. a pink shirt and brown short-shorts. you then decide to put them on, but think, what about my diapered butt? so you get ready to take off your diaper, but soon feel the need to go, and not only pee, but poop as well. i’ll use the tablet to let her know, i’ll be out here for a bit. I need to either go or hold it and run inside, with the brown shorts over the front of the diaper, to then run upstairs to go to her room. And that’s when you see her coming back out, with your set of clothes you left here from the last visit.) girl: you ok? i got worried that you either got too shy to come in, or you had to go #2 again. you: yeah. well you see, you grabbed the only pair of my short-shorts, and another hello-kitty shirt. girl: just come in, no ones here till 10 pm. you: great! girl; but i plan to have some other friends come over, so you must stay up in our room, ok? you: alright. girl: are you going to just sit there? or come in? you: coming. i just had to fight to hold back my poop. girl: don’t worry, i’ve changed you before, remember? you: yes, but this may be worse then the three full diapers episode. girl: oh. well you can hurry to the toilet, if you want. you: i jus----t, nev---er mi-nd. i just went in my diaper. my tummy hurt too bad to hold it. girl: alright. lets get you upstairs, to change you and have some alone time. you: you mean,-----? girl: yeah, no. not sex, just you and me time. you: oh. got it. -------------a little while later---------- girl: do you want to see something i have been keeping hidden, just for you? you: um sure. (still trying to understand how your girlfriend has saved you. and can really rock the whole hello-kitty onsie and really loves to wear diapers, just like you.) girl: let head down to the playroom. you: ok. girl: here is your new room! it has all of the basic needs of a diaper lover. plus, you’ll be able to stay in here, since my mom has asked to have you stay here so we can get to know each other. Will you accept this arrangement? you: absolutely!!! but if there’s a catch, like i must wear my diapers 24/7, or wear a onsie all the time, then no. girl: i understand that you think you’ll be made fun of, for wearing diapers, but honestly, my family isn’t like any other family. For an instance, when i was about 12, i still wet the bed, but outgrew the regular size of girls goodnites and so my mom bought a whole bunch of these. (pulls out a large box of ABDL diapers out of the closet.) girl: i know it may sound like i didn’t wet the bed for much longer, but this box was number 6 of all the diapers she bought for me. she used this room for me and let me go around and wear the diapers, until i finally quit wetting the bed...honestly i still wet the bed, from time to time. so i will put one of these on just about every night since my dad passed away. i didn’t wet the diapers that often, but when i did, i soaked them till they were brown. that’s how i ended up feeling bad about the way you were treated. you: oh my! girl: what? you: your diaper is soaked, right now. girl: i just let it out. and i could’ve left the room to go, but why bother wasting a perfectly good diaper, when i already pooped in it. you: may i change your diaper? girl: i guess so. i mean if you want to, that’s ok. you: alright. let’s clean you up. girl: may i go number two? one last time? you: be my guest. girl: (grunts and grunts, then finally lets it out.) you: oh my! did you really have to go? or did you make yourself go? girl: i put a muscle relaxer, up my ass, just so i could go. you: wow! girl: you’ve never heard of butt supositories? you: no. it’s not that, you really let it out! girl: well, yeah. I really enjoy going pee, but never really knew what it felt like to soil my diapers, so i thought, since you’re here, i would at least try it. you: well, if you want me to, i will change you. girl: na. let’s enjoy some time together, first. you: ok. girl: how full are you? you: just a little bit, why? girl: let’s get you all cleaned up, so you can try your best, to out poop yourself, compared to me. you: alright. well, do you mind if we don’t wear any onsies? girl: nope. i don’t care. ----------------10 minutes later-------- you: how are you? girl: great! i feel so much more relaxed, after pooping in my diaper. you: good. cause i need to go poop now, and thought, you could watch to see how full, i fill my diaper. girl: sure thing. let’s go at the same time! you: ok. girl: 1...2...3...GO! ---------------10 minutes later--------- you: wow! you must have taken another muscle relaxer...cause you out-filled me...again! girl: yep! i sure did! do you want me to give you some diretics, to make you pee more, without feeling when you have to go pee? you: sure! girl: let me grab some. brb. -------------------5 minutes later------- you: thank you! girl: no problem. it’s time to take a nap, down in the nursery, you ready? and before we lie down, lets get out of these diapers, before they end up leaking. you: sure! girl: let’s change our own, so we can assess how much we went, and if we should put on more than 1 or 2 diapers? ok? you: alright. ----------------15 minutes later-------- girl: you ready? you: yeah...i think so. girl: let me make sure your diaper is on tight enough, cause if not, you’ll need to either tape it on tighter, or put on another diaper. and btw, i put on 5 diapers; you sure your body won’t expell more than one diapers worth of pee/poop? you: no... i think i’ll put on a few more. girl: how about 4 more? you: you really think i’ll pee/poop more than 2 diapers worrth, in 45 minutes? girl: no. but we’ll be napping for an hour or more. you: oh, ok. girl: let me fix your diaper and put 4 more on you. you: alright. girl: as i have been changing you, i noticed that, you get nervous about, something; is it that i’m your girlfriend, and i know your secret? you: well, yes. girl: i can fix that, if you want. i can make sure that i am the only one who’ll change you. you: sure, why not? girl: and to be sure you’ll be needing a change, after 2 hours, i would like to put 3 muscle relaxers up your butt, and have you drink 4 full glasses of diretics, is that ok? you: i think that’s a great idea! ---------------5 minutes after being changed, you sit down, and drink all 4 glasses, and let your girlfriend put 3 muscle relaxers up your, soon to be soiled and wet diapered,butt. ------------to be continued-----

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townnightwalk · 8 years ago

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REWRITTEN BEGINNING: INTRODUCTION OF NEW CHARACTER.

17/05/2017

- under the cut is the rewritten introduction to the story, and with the inclusion of a new character. This was a significant choice than ultimately changed the entire story and plan for the characters. It includes the main characters older sister who is increasingly hinted to be dead through the later dialogue, and this stems into the entire story arc and all character arcs.-

Index

- M = murphy, Prues sister

- P = prue, main character

- S = Sybil

- J = jones

- ? = unknown voice

- ITALIC: internal dialogue and narration

- Blue text: notes, not in actual piece

FIRST SCENE

- Starts with introductory prose

Sometimes, memories are hazy,

Like lines of heat on a distant horizon,

Wavy and uncertain, tricking you

Sometimes the haze is heavier

Like white noise and static on an old tv

When you turn the dial on your grandparents set

All you see and hear is a deafening mess of white and black

Sometimes, you can find places like this

Liminal spaces, wedged between real life

But very much real, although they feel like a dream

These spaces can confuse you, scare you

Consume you

Beware of those who live there

Scene shown is a warmly lit room, where the main character wakes up to calm music and her sister. They clean the room, talk, and then prue discovers shes actually still asleep and wakes up a second time to be in the car with her friends. In scene 1 prue thinks she has woken up, wakes up again to discover she was still dreaming, and then is knocked out by the car crash. This constant loss of consciousness is intentional, and it met to fit the tone of liminal spaces aka spaces between dreams, where you feel half awake and uncertain of what is real because of this.

? "hey sleepy head"

P "huh?"

? "are you going to help me with this or what?"

You turn to a familiar face, lit by the warm glow of the soft lights around her.

Shes tall, and grinning, and she looks like you.

Shaking yourself out of your dozy haze, you stand and start to help her collecting the plates from the dinner table.

M "about time doofus"

P "are you 10 years old"

M "I thought using doofus made me sound like 80, not 10" its not much to clean up, but you turn the tap on and let it fill the sink anyway. As you plunge the plates and your hands into the hot water, she turns and starts folding up the blanket on the couch. You're a messy sleeper, even when you nap, so she starts to readjust the cushions as well.

Dialogue decision

1 "how was work?"

2 "did I miss anything?"

1 M "pretty average, no one threw anything at me this time"

P "wait what"

M "remember? That old lady who thought I was hiding her size?"

M" she threw a fit, and also a heel"

P "damn, I totally forgot about that"

P "what a bitch"

M "eh, she's just an old weirdo with bad aim"

2 M "you missed dad, he was here for dinner"

P "good"

M "left an hour ago for stevens, I would be in your room when he gets home"

P "nah, lets go out"

M "ok, but lets finish this first"

M "hows life"

P "fine"

M "hows school"

P "fine" M "hows friends?"

Decision

1 "absolute shit"

2 "totally fine"

M "I guessed as much, you look like hell

P "well fuck thanks a lot"

M "whats going on"

P "just some drama, sybils been pissing me off a lot"

M "well, we'll be seeing her tonight"

P "you are not performing an 'intervention'"

M "we'll seeeeee"

M "you're a shit liar"

P "you're a shit listener"

M "what? I listen"

P "but you forget to keep to the listening part, you'll end up making me write her a letter or something"

M "psh, worked last time"

You finish off drying the dishes and put them in the drawer beside you, then you put some glad wrap over the leftovers and place them inside the fridge. The bench is clear, and the kitchen tidy. She smiles and playfully shoves your side.

M "thanks, wanna go get ready now?"

P "its not for another hour"

M "it's 8 dummy"

P "oh fucking hell"

M "want me to do your eyeliner wings or nah"

Decision

1 "only if you can do it while driving"

2 "do you think he'll be pissed if we borrow the car"

M "that’s why I have two hands"

P "that’s a disappointing amount of hands"

M "hey, im still developing here"

P "still developing at 24 years of age, and I thought it was sad enough youre living at home this old"

M "dunno, he probably wont notice, hes getting dropped home late"

P " I wanna stay late"

M "well… we can cross that bridge when we get to it"

P " I guess"

you hang up the teatowel and grab your phone off the bench, starting up the stairs to go and get ready. Before you reach the top, Murphy calls out again.

M "Hey Prue"

P "yeah?"

M "do me a favour"

P "what?"

NOTE- at this point prue is waking up from this dream, she can hear another voice that isn’t her sisters-

? "Prue?"

- Music stops

? "we have to go, wake up!"

NOTE- the scene changes to indicate that she has woken up, she is now in a car with her friends on the side of the road.

your vision blurs and so does she, before you can hear the request, its all gone in an instant.

you're confused for a moment, but it doesn't take long for you to remember where you are.

it's late, you wish you could return to the dream that's been stolen from you

but your friend shakes you again, and you look at her with a frown.

S "c'mon, we gotta leave."

P "hmm... what? Why, I'm tired... I'm really tired."

S "look. Jones saw someone over there,

I think we should park somewhere else."

The car dashboard is bright in the dark of the night,

so bright you have to squint.

You reach out to turn a dial and the music fades away

decision

1 "fine, we'll go.":

2 "who did he see?"

3 "jones is a jumpy wimp"

You turn on the engine and rub your eyes, letting out a comical yawn mostly for effect and turn on the indicator.

S "who the hell are you indicating for"

P "your mystery man, he could be anywhere"

J "har har. I really did see someone"

P "well now he knows to stand back while I pull into the street, safety first"

S "how the hell should I know"

J "it was just someone, I don’t know, does it matter?"

J "I don’t want to meet whoever is stumbling around at 3am in the dark"

P "fine, whatever"

J "call me what you want, I don’t want to deal with some creep in the middle of the night"

S "- and in the middle of nowhere"

P "I didn't say I didn't trust your wimpy attitude, im just saying"

Its obvious he's ticked off, but you're too grumpy and groggy to feel like apologising, so you wait in the short silence until he speaks up again.

J "lets get out of here, ok"

P "ok"

- If 2 or 3 jump to a copy of 1-

You turn on the engine and rub your eyes, letting out a comical yawn mostly for effect and turn on the indicator.

S "who the hell are you indicating for"

P "your mystery man, he could be anywhere"

J "har har. I really did see someone"

P "well now he knows to stand back while I pull into the street, safety first"

The street is deserted, matching the lifeless houses lining it. The only lights you see hang overhead and stand out as beacons to follow blindly.

S "where do you think we are?"

J "well, we drove a good 7 hours."

P "who cares, it doesn't matter as long as its far."

S "true, love feeling like a nomad, just following the road to nowhere. s "especially cause im in a car and don’t have to walk or be cold"

J "we should plan what to do next in the morning"

P "I have a plan"

Decision

1 "step one: sanctuary

2 "step one: steal

3 "step one: wreck shit <NOTE: BIG DIVIDE 3, RENEGADE

J "happy to hear we arent living in a car"

J "god sybil don't look like that. We are not living in a car."

S "we live in a car, we live in the getaway vehicle."

P "we live in a car, we learn to live with shady toilets in parks and fast food places"

S "damnit. You got me."

Jump to safe branch

P "I have to empty dads bank accounts before he realises I took his cards"

P "if he cancels them we're screwed"

S "fuck yes, holy shit let me cut the cards I've always wanted to do that"

S "off the grid, out of the system, cash only, no trace"

J "we should've done that sooner, he can trace the atm"

S "can you just

S "enjoy this"

J "you said no trace, I was just-"

Sybil reaches back to press her hand against Jones mouth before he can finish the thought. She does it hard enough that his lips are pulled back to expose his teeth, leaving him with a true grimace of frustrated acceptance.

S "please. No more"

Jump to safe branch

Sybils eyes widen, as does her threatening grin.

S "I love the new prue"

J "what would we be doing exactly"

P "Cutting all ties. Taking all the money on my dad's account, and ditching this car."

S "wait what"

P "the license plate and car model, the police will be looking for it at some point"

S "and?"

P "we're finding a replacement, and losing this one."

S "prue"

S "if you don’t tell me what you mean by 'losing it' I might lose my mind first"

DESCISION WITHIN DECISION

a burning it

b selling it

C driving it off a cliff

P "he gas lit me all my life, why not do it back"

P "In a way"

J "because its arson"

J "and if there is one place I don't want to sleep more than this car"

J "its in a cell."

P "I mean, it's not as clean cut, do sales people run plates after they buy a car?"

J "I have absolutely, no fucking clue."

J "I feel like we need paperwork or something"

P "guess we just need to find someone really seedy?"

S "boo, what a boring option"

S "still, money."

S "and disguises"

J "no disguises"

P "she can have one"

S "FUCK"

S "YES"

Jump to safe branch

J "you cannot be serious."

J "what cliff? Into where? The ocean?"

S "prue as soon as its legal"

S "I am marrying you"

P "I just want to destroy this thing"

J "you are serious"

J "god. Ok, lets sleep on it."

S "well… if we are intent on wrecking it…"

S "no point in keeping it pristine now."

You grin back at sybil, and jones stares in horror as you change gears and lurch everyone back by slamming on the accelerator.

NOTE: this scene leads to the crash

#writing #progression

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I don’t feel like sleeping

What are the initials of the last person you made out with? CIT

If you found out you were pregnant, who would be the first person to know? Well probably the father for sure, and then my mom and my best friend.

How old were you when you had your first kiss? 18 years old. Late bloomer lol

Is it awkward when you run into your ex? no, but i havent ran into him actually. he moved away :)

Are you afraid of falling in love? No..i only hate the “restarting” thing when you have to get reclose with someone. But Im already in love

Does it bother you when people smoke around you? If theyre doing it in my face, yeah.

Your ex is walking next to you, with their new partner, what do you do? Smile probably say Hi, and then walk away. I wouldn’t ignore him because it would jsut make it awkward.

Are there things in your life that you’ll never be able to get over? Probably my assualt and my best friend leaving me

Who was the last person to kiss your cheek? Connor

What country are you from? Canada

What’s the second language of your original country? French

Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now? Connor

Is there anything you are trying to teach yourself? Editing

Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober i believe

Do you remember who you liked in grade eight? Cole. Oh god. He turned into a drug dealer

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? eh, kinda. I usually just date people who have the same interest as me, but all my exes have been extremely different.

Were you intoxicated the last time you threw up? I think so..

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left? Yeah my ex best friend. we had a horrible fight, didn’t talk for 3 months, got to beign friends again and she said she would talk to me more about stuff and then she left. oh well.

How much effort would it take for someone to become close to you? Not a lot. Just show you care i guess.

What was the first thing you said when you woke up today? “damn i woke before my alarm clock”

Who is your most recent ex? Tanner but he was short term. like a month, but we were really close. Dylan would be th second recent

Do you think the last person you kissed is a player? No

Has anyone of the opposite sex hurt you emotionally? Yeah, actually.

Are your eyes the same color as your moms or dads? my dads.

Where is the last person you kissed? at his place. either sleeping or gaming.

Has the person you last kissed took their shirt off in front of you? yeah duhh

Single, or taken? Taken.

Have you ever broken anything because you were mad? Kinda.

Have you ever kissed someone in front of your parents? not really.

Person you last sent a text to? Sasha

Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with? Yeah you can. Its called being an adult.

Is there anyone you don’t wanna lose? yep

Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? Nope.

Can money buy happiness? No, but it can buy you things that make you happy and feel secure/safe.

Ever been so drunk someone else had to carry you? No

How many people have you kissed who’s name started with an M? none

Had sex in a movie theater? how the fuck

Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it? Not today

Would you change your eye color to blue? No i hate blue

Are you a heart breaker? No. I have hurt people in the past. But i don’t go out of my way to hurt them.

Who was the last person who left your life and hurt you? Morgan. we were best friends, really close and he just was turning into a complete cunt. especially when he started to date his new GF.

Has anybody ever told you that you’re too young to be in love? Yeah

What was the last thing you looked up on Google? a image

Do you have a lighter on you? yeah.

Do you “blow kisses” often? no

Weirdest rumor you’ve heard about yourself? That I was engaged, but thats it.

Ever kissed a smoker? weed smoker

Have you ever painted each toe/finger nail a different color? no

Do you have any inside jokes with your parents? not rly

Honestly - have you ever written something on a bathroom stall? yeah

Do you need to “break up” with a friend?

What is your natural hair color?

Brown.

Are you the oldest, middle, youngest, or an only child? Oldest

What is the longest relationship you’ve been in? The one im currently in. 9 months.

Have you ever felt pressured to do something you weren’t ready for? yeah.

What does your last outgoing text say? “watch her not see it”

Have you ever been hit on the head with a brick, rock, wooden block or bat? no

How often do you wear skirts? I used to wear them a lot.but not so much anymore. I wear them in the summer

Have you ever seen a fat girl wearing really tight leggings? yeah

Have you ever worn skinny jeans that were yellow, purple, blue or pink? yeah, blue like bright blue. Back when I was 12. Grossss.

Who was the last person that you talked with online? sasha

Who was the last friend you hung out with? Kyra

Is there someone you want to fight? ehhhh.

Are you married? No.

Are you a high school drop out? No. I’m in college.

Do you look like anyone famous? no

Do you have a criminal record? No.

Have you ever been hit on by somebody 10 years older than you? try 20

Have you ever gone to a strip club? no and never will

What would you look like with an afro? i dont wanna think of that

Who’s the last person to really piss you off? connor haha

When’s the last time you did something you knew was wrong? I dunno.

What’s your relationship with the person you last texted? best friendssss

Do you think that you’re a good person? im a bad bad bad bad person.

What was on your mind mostly today? Just some personal things, connor, and my friends

Have you held hands with anyone today? No.

Is a best friend/boyfriend/girlfriend or ex pissing you off at the moment? my boyfriend was but not overly. Just annoyed.

Are you in a good mood right now? sore.

Last person you told a secret to? kaylie i think

Who was the first person you talked to today? sasha maybe

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? No were dating

Is there something right now that has you worried? A bit, I guess.

Ever been on a golf cart? No.

Have you ever slapped someone in the face? Not really.

Last person you took a nap with? Connor

Are you embarrassed by anything you have in your bedroom? yeah...

Does seeing your mother cry automatically make you feel sad as well? yes

What is one stereotype associated with your race that is actually true? that we think mustard is spicy.

What color shirt are you wearing? black

The last person you kissed needs you at 3 AM, would you help them? obviously

Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you? yeah

Do you care if people hate you for no reason? I do, i need a reason or it will bug me.

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them later? Kinda. when connor and i first dated back in 2015 for like 9 days (LMAO) and then we stopped talking for 2 weeks and then we were hanging out afain for a week and then eventually I just stopped and I thought we would never talk again, and then 4 months later we were hangingout and since then we had been dating lolol

Do you have a lot on your mind at the moment? YEA

Do you do something illegal on a regular basis? no

Did you and your mom ever have a big fight that caused you to move out? no

What grade is the last person you texted in? no grade

Do you think someone likes the same person you like? If they do they better step the fuck down cus hes mine.

Do you think you’re wasting your time on the person you like? no

Do you think its cute when someone kisses your forehead? yea

Is your last ex currently in a relationship? I dont think so

Do you think more about the past, present, or future? future and past

Ever liked someone whose name started with a B? Brad when i was 10

The person that you miss right now, what does their first name start with? J

Do you think true love ever really dies? it can die.

Do you think the last person you kissed has feelings for you? Yes.

Have you ever been punched in the face? No.

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? yeah, i liked this one guy in senior year and it was a waste, we never mounted to anything and we still talk but we both were in love with eachother but he was just too pussy to date.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with? many times.. but the same guy

Have you ever kissed the last person you sent a text message to? no.

Ever get hurt by someone who promised they wouldn’t? yeah

Are you good at hiding your feelings? yeah

Is there someone you would enjoy hitting right now? Probably.

Do you plan on ruining someones life right now? No lmao

Are you a good liar? No.

What does your current Facebook status mean? I saw a post that said suicide is just angels who want to go home and so i made a post about how suicide isnt to be romanticized

Could you go a month without cursing? I could but it would be hard.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?

yea

Do you care deeply about others? Many others, yes.

Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed? Smoking weed......

Do you like it when people call you babe? i do when my bf does

Have you ever kissed someone who was over 21? yeah

How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 27

Would you pay someone to kill the person who hurt you a lot? No. Id pay someone to beat the shit outta him tho

Have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy? Yes.

You see the person you fell hardest for. What do you do? kiss him probs

Will you have sex tonight? tomorrow.

Are you bi-sexual? No. I find girls cute but im not attracted.

How many times have you gotten into a argument with the last person you kissed? we have only had like many 2 fights. we dont argue. we bicker sometimes but thats it.

Has anyone lied to you today? i dont know

Have you recently lost someone that means everything to you? not recently

Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret? depends who they told....

Would you ever get a tattoo with someone’s name on it? no unless it was my dads name because he died.

Would you ever get your nipples pierced? no

Have you ever thrown a shoe at someone? yeaaa

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever? it needs to change.

#survey

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