#<- i am totally okay with that because i love hurt/no comfort mwahaha

[simonbrain]

oh my god somehow you made this even better. yes yes yes i agree with everything 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

hmmm something something they begin to notice her lack of scent because of her scent blockers, not that they would ever even see the patches, however, because she now covers up every inch of her skin. they can't even smell the distress on her anymore, and despite how gutting it was to see her mope around base with that cloud of sadness following behind, they'd rather that than this cold barrier she's put up. it's like she's trying to ice herself out, to make herself seem insignificant like she believes they think she is so they'll just finally listen to her and let her go.

and i like to think while they're gone, she just thinks. she's so confused and empty and angry about how this entire situation has snowballed into something so ridiculous, something that could have been fixed in the first place if they all had just communicated, and it makes her heart ache because she's so alone. she misses their nest even as she cuddles up to herself in her own cold, lonely room, she misses being surrounded by the warm, grounding scents of her mates, she misses being doted on and babied.

but around them, she's just... blank, and everyone's stressed, and it's just not a good time :/

Hey friend. I've put off this ask a little while, because I'm sure you're tired of getting it by now, but... are there any updates on the neglected! reader (a/b/o)? I really liked that one, and though I have no issues with the second part not being done yet, a little progress update (if you want to add one) would be very cool! Thanks for writing :)

ugh i know i've been putting it off for a long time but i haven't abandoned it guys! just feeling very stuck with where the narrative is sitting rn 🥲 however, here's a little tease of the beginning of part two, keep in mind it may not be written exactly like this when i post it:

"what?" kyle mumbles, rising from john's lap to grapple with the sudden coldness that overcomes him. no one else says anything, but you can see how your words affect the rest of them: john stiffens in his seat, simon's dismissive glance has turned into a burning glare, and johnny's hand has slipped from where it was resting on his captain's shoulder, a look of confusion and panic twisting on his face.

your anxiety may have dissipated, but that doesn't make this any easier. the air feels too tense, too uncomfortable. you don't like how agitated everyone's scents became the moment you walked in, and it hurts even more knowing they didn't even try to hide it. you don't like seeing them all together here like this. you don't like that you're believing that spiteful little voice in the back of your mind jeering at you that they've been planning your departure, planning how to break the news to you that you're not worth the hassle anymore.

it only makes sense why they're all cooped up in john's office, whispering amongst themselves.

"darling, what are you talking about?" john's voice cuts through your thoughts, but you try not to find comfort in it. he stands from his seat, and you try not to reveal how much you've missed his scent despite how thick it is with stress. your omega has been quiet for a while, but now that you're gathered in one place like this, she's getting restless, simultaneously wanting to hiss at them and cling to anyone who will spare a scrap of affection.

"please, captain, just do it. i don't want to be a burden any longer." you'll beg if that's what it takes; you'll get on your knees and clasp your hands together if it means saving them from unnecessary stress and annoyance and you from further heartbreak.

the earnestness in your voice is so strong it bites at them because how could you even suggest something like that? how could they even consider their pack whole if you're not there?

but hearing his rank fall from your lips leaves a bitter taste in john's mouth and a knot forming in his stomach. it's unnatural to hear you call him that while sounding so defeated and miserable. it's scary to feel so out of control when he's supposed to be your captain, your head alpha.

to know he's let you down so much makes his alpha growl pathetically in shame; how can he even consider himself a leader?