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this-machine-runs-on-coffee · 3 months ago

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IT CUT OFF HALF OFMY TAGS NOOO

me: *reads over symptoms of autism once again* “see but i don’t get upset over changes in routine, we change the routine all the time and i’m totally okay with it!”

also me since i was a kid: *gets irritated, stressed, angry, aggravated, and depressed for the rest of the day after something is switched to another day* *gets angry, stressed, and depressed, and has a breakdown when i find out we have to cancel plans, even if i didn’t really wanna go to wherever we were planning to go* *gets aggravated and is easily upset and is depressed the whole day after i get to cancel something that i had been planning for but also are relieved that i don’t have to go since i really didn’t want to* *is depressed, angry, irritated, and stressed after we cancel plans that i had zero feelings for up until that point* etc.

#<- I have to say that some of your tags were honestly heart-breaking near the end because I absolutely don't want to ignore you #<<< thank you for being willing to helpme it was not agiven and i'm genuinely sorry they were heartbreaking #and there was the possibility you'd ignore me also because i randomly started telling you things about me without asking if you were okay #with it or giving you a choice whether to listen to me or not in the beginning. i just started saying things so yeah #In fact #If anything #I was terrified that I was being too blunt and that you would hate me for it #<<< no no i wouldn't hate people for being blunt we just communicate differently sometimes but i'm often blunt as well #would never hate people for being blunt instead thank you for the help you're offering me #I am going to try to answer your questions in as much depth as possible and to the extent of my knowledge #Honestly #As I do more research on neurodiversity I will try to keep you updated because I think that might be helpful for you #<<< thank you you're a very kind person genuinely thank you #Also #Apologies for the delay in responding to this but I was trying to answer some of the asks on my main about Greek Mythology and it got late #Not me randomly typing out a whole entire essay on one of my major interests past 11 pm in just slightly more informal English than usual #<<< don't worry i completely understand that i sometimes do similar things as well lol plus people have things to do it wouldn't be right t #ask them to be online constantly. if anything it would most likely be harmful to be online constantly #<- Okay that is absolutely fine #I will try to explain it as much as possible #Masking is common with many neurodivergent people and it essentially involves acting more neurotypical #Ergo hiding some of the person's symptoms which often means that the person would not have to face continuous disrespectful comments #Such as 'you're so loud/annoying' or things more like 'you only ever talk about [your special interest (s)]'#Often #Masking is not even something that someone does on a concious level #Sorry I don't know if I am explaining this very well but masking often does lead to burn out because it tends to take a lot of effort #<<< oh okay thank you for the explanation!#If I were you #I would try and look into examples of (autistic) masking on a platform like Pinterest #This would include things such as forcing eye contact and sometimes ending up staring

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