#<< was for me personally so im taggin just in case

[moonsofmachinery]

Can I ask for karmaflower (saint and artificer) or something simpler solar eclipse (monk and night cat)? I'm sorry for such a strange thing. I really want to see an artificer in the form of a pansexual, a saint in the form of a polysexual, and a monk and a night cat according to your taste and look. You can reject such a strange idea if you consider it necessary. I will continue to observe your beautiful work.

If anything, I'm sorry

you dont gotta apologizeee!!! its cool :}

[iwaoiness]

thank u sm @mania-sama for taggin me on this!! <3 im excited to see how this will turn out omg

𒌋 fanfic write review

— How many works do you have on AO3? —

actually 48 fics in english and spanish, i think its a huge number but then i remember there's people with more than 70 works and then i feel better

— Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes —

¹ orbit return↦ "When they're eight years old and learn in class what the orbit and the planets and the stars and the universe are, Iwaizumi decides that on Oikawa's birthday he will no longer say "happy birthday", but "happy orbit return". And it becomes a tradition. Or: Oikawa is the main protagonist of Iwaizumi's Instagram, especially, every 20th of July."

its one of the cutest i've ever written, i wanted to do something cute and soft for oikawa's b-day and show iwaoi over the years through the pictures but as i have no fucking idea how to draw, i said: ‘fuck it i'll write it’, and so it was born!! i liked it sm i couldnt hold out until july so i published it in octuber lol

² tooru's love life↦ "In wich Oikawa never revealed anything about his private life, let alone his love life. Until he posts a TikTok with Iwaizumi Hajime and everything explodes."

it was a silly thing that crossed my mind after seeing a video on twitter and idk how its in this top2 BUT im soooo grateful that yall liked it so much <3

³ chronicles of a jealous athlete↦ "What Oikawa definitely can't get over and what left him gaping with eyes wide open was the latest viral video featuring Iwaizumi (which Makki sent him just two minutes after it was posted, along with a "loool bro u should’ve come to japan"). And it's not another fancam (he wished it was another fancam, why on earth wasn't it a fancam), but a video of him, back to the camera, giving Ushijima Fucking Wakatoshi a massage. A fucking pectoral massage."

THIS IS MY PRECIOUS SON!! i saw the video on my tl and said: i MUST iwaoing this right now and worte it in one day. i had a great time writing it, i felt like i was 15 again, surrounded by books and being able to read saga after saga every week, totally engrossed in the world of manga and anime, having evolved in my writing style and feeling that i finally could show my full potential and reveal without further walls everything that my mind holds. im very fond of it i swear

⁴ oikawa's problematic phone case↦ "In which Oikawa shows a video to a famous talk show host and (unintentionally) ends up showing half the world the photo he keeps in his phone case. And it would all remain an anecdote if it weren't for the fact that it is a ID photo of Iwaizumi Hajime (27) athletic trainer."

can u believe i just wanted to do a drabble about iwaizumi being the kind of person who doesnt try hard at all and looks SO HOT in the id photo and then this came out lol i just now its something canon

⁵ when the rain falls in summer↦ "It's summer, it's raining, Oikawa is lying on the couch like an invertebrate animal, humming a song because he doesn't know silence, and Iwaizumi can't ask for anything more."

i couldnt be iwaoi's fan without writing iwaoi enjoying the two of them in their flat on a rainy day, all sweet, loving and in love, and with a balcony full of plants ugh i love them with my whole heart

— Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? —

yees!! its my fav part of publish a work, even though sometimes i forget and get months behind, i LOVE responding to comments, it's like feeling more connected to people and an incredible dopamine rush

— What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? —

all i know is my life is gone, well tecnically its all angst not only the ending, but thanks to this i found the joy of writing angst, now i understand people who write an 120k fic of pure angst, somehow its reaaaally funny

i have another one in spanish la paz de akaashi its a bokuaka fic y si eres hispana hermana no sabes lo que me dolió emocionalmente destrozar a bokuto y akaashi pensé que sería soportable pero nO

— What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? —

AAAAAAA I CANT CHOOSE apart from the previous two plus another one that has a bittersweet ending (between alphas if u r curious), the rest of the 43 fics have happy ending, but so as not to leave this blank I will say: little piece of home

— Do you write crossovers? —

nopee, and i dont think im ever going to write it cuz im not really into it

— Have you ever received hate on a fic? —

only once lol when i started in the fanfic world in fanfiction.net with vocaloid stories (dark past don't ask) and i was 12 or 13 y/o ig when one of my shameful fics ended up in a review blog with the top spanish fanfic writers, and they dedicated a WHOLE post to me with a destructive (and a little bit constructive) criticism. actually it wasnt that bad cuz that was my turning point and now i write well thanks to it, and since then i havent received any hate on any of my fics!! (for now lol)

— Do you write smut? If so, what kind? —

another yes thank youuu. i love to write it not too explicit, like leave u wanting to know a lot more and also to be able to imagine it a little bit as u like, if that makes sense

— Have you ever had a fic stolen? —

not that i know of, and hope to keep it that way pleaseee

— Have you ever had a fic translated? —

nope

— Have you ever co-written a fic before? —

nope again

— What’s your all-time favorite ship? —

IWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOI im OBSESSED with their dynamic. its just so freaking good (and don’t even get me started on the fact that childhood friends is my weakness). with these two, there’s literally endless possibilities and AUs u can explore without pushing them into major ooc territory, which, tbh, is a struggle with some ships. like, u want enemies to lovers? fits like a glove. strangers to friends to lovers? perfect. full-blown angst with a happy ending? chef’s kiss. angst with hurt/no comfort? yup, that too. whatever the vibe is, if it’s iwaoi, it just WORKS

and individually they’re a solid 10/10. like, sure, iwaizumi didn’t get as much screen time as oikawa, but his personality is so well-crafted that it feels like he’s been a core part for all 402 freaking chapters of haikyuu (well he's a core part if it wasnt for him, tooru would’ve been absolutely eaten up by guilt for hitting kageyama and might’ve even quit volleyball and that iconic line ‘the team with the better six is stronger’ it’s HIS, and it hit kageyama like a truck) and don’t even get me started on timeskip iwaizumi hajime (27), athletic trainer, he's my roman empire

and oikawa, oh my oikawa, i’d legit have to write a whole doctoral thesis cuz he’s THE character. his development's straight-up apotheosis. he’s one of the best-written characters out there, and if u disagree, go argue with the wall. the man crossed the damn pond for volleyball, became a STARTER on the argentinian national team, rediscovered the joy in the sport, and kept his pride intact through it all. uuugh and at 30 years old, he’s still a total dork but irresistibly handsome piece of man

— What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? —

okay listen to me carefully (or rather, read me carefully) i have a lots of WIPs but for the last FOUR years in my iwaoi doc there has been THE wip that has been going around in my mind but that will probably never come to light and that im going to let a summary of here cuz if i suffer for not being able to write it, as it deserve, yall suffer with me for not being able to read it:

inspired by the music video of halsey's song colors, omegaverse iwaoi, where oikawa (18) is a dominant omega (a real one, who can bend an alpha with his pheromones) and iwaizumi (29) is an alpha. i know it sounds repetitive BUT KEEP READING!!

the oikawas are a pretty well-off family: daisuke (a lawyer with his own successful law firm) is the alpha dad, aoi (a social worker at an omega shelter) is the omega papa, tomiko is the eldest alpha daughter, and tooru is the youngest omega son. tomiko’s married but always stays in close contact with the family, and daisuke and aoi’s relationship is super healthy, making them a tight-knit family where oikawa grew up never lacking love.

but then adolescence hits hard and oikawa becomes ridiculously beautiful, flamboyant, smart, strong, attention-loving, totally into top and bottom dynamics, and most importantly, he LOVES teasing his dad, though daisuke always dishes it right back cuz they’re both stubborn as hell (but his dad really cares about him and only looks out for the best, just like his papa). actually oikawa gets along quite well with the rest of the omegas, but his closest friends are makki (an omega marked by beta mattsun) and suga (the epitome of perfection with a playful streak he rarely shows, and ofc engaged to daichi).

oikawa and hanamaki usually go to the sports club to play tennis because volleyball is not an omegas thing, and with suga he attends the music conservatory where he plays the violin. at the omegas institution, the three of them are in the sewing club (led by akaashi btw) although tooru has no fucking idea how to sew.

so, the story kicks off with makki and oikawa watching a volleyball match at the said prestigious miyagi sports club, where daisuke and a handful of alphas (and mattsun) play. among them is yutaro iwaizumi who happens to be a little bit in love with tooru (and even has a semi-blessing from the oikawas to court him). but, ofc, tooru has zero interest in that iwaizumi. his eyes are on the other alpha iwaizumi who plays volleyball too with his dad, the one who looks at him with those intense green eyes, the one with a dimple on his right cheek when he smiles, the one with a deep, gravelly voice that makes oikawa’s stomach flip, the one with an overwhelming presence, the one who smells like sandalwood and mint, the one with a broken mark on the nape of his neck.

hajime iwaizumi, the big bro of yutaro

AAAAAA DUDE, NOW I WANNA PICK IT UP AGAIN, IT’D BE SO GOOD I WANNA CRY. i wrote three chapters and half of the fourth, and honestly, it was so fun cuz i add humor and build a fun dynamic between the OCs (aka tooru’s parents) and tooru himself. ugh and don’t even get me started on the epic scenes i included, like oikawa getting into big trouble sneaking into an alpha institution just to smash a nut tart into the face of an alpha who’s allergic to nuts for revenge

— What are your writing strengths? —

wow i’ve never really stopped to think seriously about this, but i think im decent at conveying emotions (someone pls tell me this is a legit writing strength before i embarrass myself here), like, i try to make them feel real and almost palpable instead of leaving them just abstract. and maybe creativity too? im always looking for ways to avoid repetition and make everything feel smoother and more fluid

— What are your writing weaknesses? —

definitely describing places, i HATE that kind of description. i try my best, but if it’s already a struggle in spanish for me, just imagine doing it in english, i caaant every time it makes me want to bang my head against my laptop. oh and i feel like cant write long fics to save my life cuz i always feel like i wont be good enough to pull it off or that i’ll mess up squeezing the plot and fucking it up, and it drives me absolutely crazy but but i swear im trying to improve that aspect and one day get a long fic or a 10k+ one shot uploaded without dying in the attempt!!

— What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? —

i think its super funny (u cant comprehend the joy that comes over me when i read fics in english with argentinian oikawa saying dialogues in spanish), although its true that sometimes it hinders the reading a bit if one isnt fluent in the other language, its a good tool that makes the reading more interesting as long as its used well, i see it as another resource to make the reader more involved in the story imo

— What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? —

right now off the top of my head i’d looove to write kuroken, more bokuaka, some oihina, kenhina, definitely atsuhina, kagehina, and tanakiyo from haikyuu. and once i finish arcane, i’m literally DYING to dive into jayvik. also, i love love love kingdom (GO READ IT, ITS LEGENDARY), and i’d be so hyped to write something shin x qiang too

— What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? —

i really hate to choose i swear but the first one that cross my mind its hajime's premature death i had such a blast working on the plot, like driving iwaizumi insane with oikawa rocking a skirt has been soooo enriching. honestly, i think this might just be the most fun fic i’ve ever written

time for tagginggg @vvalllerie @winnterboobear @kingofech0park if yall want to do it, no pressure!! ღ

[rodneymckays]

I know someone will have asked this already by the time I send this, but John Sheppard for the character meme you just posted. XD

BAHAH nope! u were the first <3

favourite thing about them

how he cares so deeply about his friends, but is physically incapable of verbalizing it in any way 😭 his emotional repression should not be this compelling, and yet. i find myself analyzing his every microexpression in scenes because i want to see inside that crazy head of his.

least favourite thing about them

hmmmmmmm. if i have to say anything, i think it might be the way he acts offworld sometimes. we talked a bit about it on the podcast, but when he tries to act charming, it comes off very, uhh, snake oil salesmany. if i were a pegasus native, i wouldn't trust him as far as i could throw him 😂

favourite line

"I'm a worrier."

brOTP

oh, so many. but if i have to pick, i'd say john & teyla. i love that their bonding time is teyla beating him up with sticks :'))) and how, when he's having an emotion, he tries his best to talk it out with her. and even tho he fails miserably, she understands what he means anyway :') oh, and that she calls him out when he's being an ass.

OTP

john & rodney; bing and bob of the stargate universe. “I guess in my own way, I sorta love you,” is the sentiment underlying all of their interactions. also, the taking turns saving each others lives thing. and rodney bringing out the nerd in john. and the way their relationship is so subversive? u would think the nerd character would be panting over the jock, just happy to have a friend like him, but with john and rodney, i feel like rodney has a lot more power over john than even he realizes (thinking trinity and miller's crossing) and i love that.

nOTP

i can't really see john with anyone but rodney, romantically speaking. but if i had to pick one i'd say john/teyla? painting their interactions in a romantic light kinda cheapens their friendship for me.

or maybe john/wraith? i kno there are some cool parallels there and usually im pro monsterfucker, but in this case? just can't do it BAHAHA.

random headcanon

he was raised in a conservative catholic household. this may raise some eyebrows, but i see it in his GIGANTIC guilt/martyr complex. i have never seen a character more willing to die for others at the slightest provocation. also, the way all the alien's that read his subconscious say that he "tortures himself every day" over what he perceives to be personal failures screams catholic guilt to me. that, and his biggest fear is himself. not to mention, that boy does not know how to function when he's being hugged. casual intimacy does not seem to be in his lexicon, outside of actual sex.

also, he had feelings for holland, but was content to go the rest of his life never saying anything or doing anything about it. something to acknowledge about himself once, then bury and try to never think about again. but then holland died. so it didn't matter anymore, anyways. (in vegas, john had feelings for the nurse he disobeyed orders to try and save and PARALLELING THAT WITH IN CANON EVENTS RE: HOLLAND'S BOTCHED RESCUE ARE JUST TOO GOOD TO RESIST)

unpopular opinion

he's not as shallow/boring as he's perceived to be. this is definitely not an unpopular opinion on the sga side of tumblr at least, but of the stargate fandom at large, definitely.

song i associate with them

johnny cash's solitary man goes without saying. but definitely heropsychodreamer by live. oh, and stereo by the watchmen. OH, and superhero by ani difranco. if ur interested in more, u can listen to my sheppard inspired playlists here & here. with another one in the works alksjdhfasfd i know, im insane.

favorite picture of them

i know this is joe BUT. its giving sheppard vibes.

taggin' @alfredspennyworths as well, who also asked for john <3 thank u!! i love talking about him bahah

send me more characters!

[e-uph0r1a]

Challenge: 30 Questions Tag

thanks for the tag @blueside-hobi and @rainbepourin <33

1. name/nickname: Belén, friends call me Bel or Belu.

2. star sign: pisces.

3. height: the last time i checked it was 1,55 but i think that scale was wrong because i was 1,57 all my life so.

4. birthday: february 26th

5. favorite band: The Beatles, Blur, Radiohead and BTS (im bisexual cant you tell i cant just choose one? lmao

6. time: 13:36pm

7. favorite solo artist: Damon Albarn, Noel Gallagher and Lady Gaga.

8. song stuck in your head: ptd by bts (funny thing tho, the lyrics are in english and i’ve only learned the chorus lol).

9. last movie you watched: Mike and Dave need wedding dates (i was binge watching on tv, dont judge me lmao).

10. free space!: hope everyone has a great week!

11. last show: Uchoten Kazoku, im in the middle of the second season and i dont wanna finish it because i love it so much.

12. when i created this blog: this blog last year, but my first blog i had it since 2010 maybe??? i’ve been here since too long lmao.

13. what i post: bts, kinky stuffs, shitposting, personal rants, aesthetic things, funny videos, lgbtiq things and idk bunch of stuffs.

14. last thing i googled: aubrey plaza, because i didnt remember the name of the movie i saw last night hahah.

15. other blogs: nope, the first one i got i deleted it.

16. do i get asks? mmm no, a few sometimes :(

17. why i chose my url? i wanted a bts related url and just like @rainbepourin that’s the song stucked in my head at that moment hahah.

18. following: 761

19. followers: 233

20. average hours of sleep: 8

21. lucky number: i dont have one but i’ve always liked the number 7, 17 and 27 lol.

22. instruments: guitar, a bit of piano and i sing.

23. what am i wearing? black sweatpants, snickers and a sweater.

24. dream job: book illustrator or anything related to drawing.

25. favorite food: pastas and stews.

26. tea or coffee : coffee, but becuase of my gastritis i can’t drink a lot lol.

27. nationality: argentinian

28. favorite song: nope, can’t even choose a fav band you want me to choose a fav song?

29. last book i read: last year i’ve read Find Me the secuel if Call Me By Your Name, but lately i’ve been just reading fan fiction.

30. top three fictional universes i would like to live in: harry potter universe, wonderland and neverland (in case you didn’t noticed i like just fantasy and magical stuffs lol).

i tag: @palpalopaloma @baepsaesbae @maybebi47 @xyoongi @greatbigstorm @lesbianslovebts @tinyhope @rosegaming117 @kingsuckjin (btw if any of you are sick and tired of me taggin’ you on tag games please let me know, i dont want to be annoying. love u all).

[rurifangirl]

aight. here somes the ask lore thingie

tw for ppl readin: mention of mental illness, father mention

firstly, how did rui end up meetin the rest of the gang? did they all have sum sort of run in? did they just happen to meet on exident?

also is the father a villain? i remember ya mention him, and was wonderin

and do they have a specific place where they stay? like in a dormstory, a single house, do they live in a single town, or in completly different places?

do any of them suffer from mental/physical illnesses? if they do, how does it affect their life/relationships w others?

Aight, so here we go, be ready cuz shit's long.

(1st part - The Rui n the gang meeting; The Shou meeting) No Tw

Honestly, I also kinda wanted to do this for quite a long time, so I'm gonna firstly talk about how the gang (w/o really mentioning the others name's since they're gonna get introduced soon) met itself and decided to form, and then I'll individually do It in Lyva's and Shou's case, specifically Shou's since i mentioned that his meetin was somethin id have to take care of in another post, so i will rn.

First things first, w the whole gang. Now It wasn't really casually, mainly because Lyva n Rui did meet up, but It was during a special occasion still, that being a really important manifestation in one of the main regions in my oc universe. (They don't have name's yet so pls don't bash me🤡) Them being primarly the Forest, where Rui eventually lives in after all of his past shit, the near-countryside part, where Lyva was living, a pretty much city living on water, where Shou's currently living, and many more, as such the dunes with which I'll introduce Qiran (hopefully tomorrow/today),The sea itself, some High up places and as I said many, many other more. Other than this brief intro, they meet up where Lyva used to live, but mainly because of problems and out of conviniance.

Everyone had something to take back from, so they agreed to help eachother to reach that end, so it's all really planned. Now i won't really go w Lyva, cuz i explained how she met Rui the first time n how they helped her, so I don't need to ramble more on this. Now I'm gonna go w Shou's part though.

This Is more of a note i wanted y'all to know first, cuz i really like how Lyva n Rui met him the first time (cuz the second time was when the gang then all agreed to form n all that jazz.). Basically, Rui n Lyva were out, n visiting new places as such, to prepare themselves further and to try and search for more weapons, cuz they both knew that they'd eventually get in trouble, and even though they still are good, they wouldn't stand much a chance, n since Shou's Place is known for its production they decided to go. N fun fact, there's many funny shit that happends, for example Rui tries to touch a fish, but gets SLAPPED by It. They're still mad >:[. Ajkskdj anyways, some other stuff happends n they just, lose themselves. They had a map ofc but still managed to do so. But Rui was usin It so, I don't really blame em for gettin lost.

Shit happends n they find themselves pratically in front of his shrine/palace. Shou's servitors (cuz he saw everything happend from afar n gave them the okay) brought em in, but rather than makin em idk some tea n just making them recouver, Shou rather put them under some "tests" w/o tellin em, to see if they were any use.

For example he brought them some cups of tea, but before drinking them Rui noticed somethin unusual in the water, so they gave Lyva a sign to not drink It, n as Shou asked as a reason why they just replied that they weren't thirsthy, leavin Shou in a kind of defeated state. Bitch if i love this part honestly, there's so much fun to seein all of their reactions, but I'm gonna go brief rn. So other of this tests pass later n Shou eventually gets upset cuz they're all winnin n seemingly makin fun of him, lettin him in a weaket standpoint, n a fight happends. Even though it's a 2v1 situation he can still manage pretty well, so It ends in a draw. They get to talk after this and get to understand that they don't have to necesseraly be on the opposite side, though Shou Is still unsure whether to belive in that or not.

After they leave him, pratically almost alone w only a bunch of servitors helpin him. He admits defeat n won't show up until the event and yadayada. (Also it's during this weak time of his he'll meet Qiran which i already have plans w so it's all goin to be said bout their relationship in their post.)

(2nd part, the father mention.) Tw:father mention

So it's true that w Shou i did mention his father, but I'm not entirely sure bout his involvment honestly. In theory he kind of is a villain itself, even because of his devilish nature, so it's true, but im not sure whether to make him an independent villain or part of a group of them. But rather than that yes, i do want to make him some sort of villain in the end, because that's also part of Shou's agreement to be part of the group. I will make concept art for him so he'll definetly be involved. Not gonna lie, mabye that bastards also involved w Rui's cult too in a way or another but im givin in too many details holy shit I'll never get outta this fuck

(3rd part- where do they live) No Tw

They live in their own homes honestly, but It would be no surprise if they'd all decide to sleep over someone in specifical, though they have their own place. I made some concepts for Rui's intern home, which here It Is 😤 (forgive me for the bad quality but it's 2 am rn 🤡) I made this a while ago but only did Rui's, so I'll do Lyva's, Shou's n the other one's too. They live in different places, for the exception of, atm, Qiran, since I'm gonna say that they're more of a traveller n don't have a stable home.

(4th part- the mental/physical ilnesses) Tw: Self harm and Mental ilness mention

Well, this Is gonna be a ride. They all suffer from Ptsd, which Rui n Shou suffering from It the most. It still affects them all, though in different occasions, so Imma just do them in specifical. (Also because i gotta add some shit to shou that i didn't wanna add because i thought It was too much honestly)

Rui-

It affects them really much. They use crystals n gems to avoid anything going w their past or anything remotely related It, as whenever they feel awful about havin those flashbacks when they still were a child. They never want to talk about what happened, n during their moments It gets really, really bad. Both emotionally and physically, as their body sometimes cannot handle anything so it completely shuts down. They never really got any help for It as Rui's too scared to share bout their experience, both because of trauma itself that doesn't make them say anything even if they wanted to and because of the cults influence, so either way they've got to handle It by their own.

Lyva-

Other than havin to deal w mornin sickness, which Is the least for her, she has to deal w her neglectful childood and how desperate she's always been for litteraly anythin, whether it's related about love,friendship, food, toys, anything. She tried to seek for help and semi found It, but as of now she can't keep up w It and has better things to take care of. It's still really bad overall, but she's hoping for things to get better. Spoiler It really won't.

Shou-

⭕Tw for sh⭕

It's... really fucking bad. I'm gonna get outta this w saying something i didn't want to add because it's really triggerin, but im gonna do It now. So basically, I've mentioned them acting feminenly for his own mother, but i didn't say what would've happened if he displeased her. She would just stare down at him and whispering some awful shit or names. This would happen especially whenever he'd slip off that mask of his or revealed even a tiny bit of his devilish essence. Note that he's still a child here. So, best thing he could to was to "punish" himself, which basically consists of him scratching his arms too much and, i don't really want to continue this, forgive me but it's kind of triggering even for me. But...you can guess what he's doing, since he even to this day still keeps sharp nails. I'm sorry for putting this, but it's another way to show how his mother fucked him up and now suffering from this.

I'm sorry for rushin the last part but i'm not personally vibing w it.

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If you want your tag removed, dm me cuz it's 3 am at the moment n i may have messed em up. (I'm not gonna recheck tomorrow so that's why)

[thewheezingbubbledragon]

It has occurred to me that Tumblr can be a void with friends so my problems arent unheard, but they are out I my head

Hey howdy poodle, it's me, snickerdoodle.

What's good my fellows.

Compadres.

Amigos.

Frendos.

Frens.

Howdy.

I am very glad you exist.

Thank you for existing and caring for me.

I love you so much.

Bless you.

Thank you.

I am coming down from a 12 hour panic attack/mental shutdown/depressive episode where I was nonverbal for 8.5 hours, and when I finally started calming down I had to speak with people and stand up and walk and make food for 2 hours. So all in all. Not great.

But better.

Anywho, so There Is A Reason for my inactivity.

I mean, there are several, but theyre all highly personal and meh.

So my fam and I spent the last.. 2 months? Or more? Moving 1800 miles across the country. We have 99% of all our stuff in one (1) storage unit that is still at our old town. (We took 1 suitcase and several bags of our stuff. That is it. For months or maybe even a year. Clothes and stuff included.) I had to leave my desktop BUT I have a laptop.

I mean it's literally held together by tape and can't be unplugged and overheats faster than Satan's flambe kitchen in high summer, but it works and I can write so it's mostly good I guess?

And I have my (bad and outofservice) phone, AND ALSO AN AMAZING TABLET SOME FRIENDS COLLABORATED AND BOUGHT FOR ME AND I CAN DRAW ON IT AND I ALREADY HAVE SO MANY PICTURES I CANNOT WAIT TO POST THEM RKSLDNNFJSLSMJFKSLSKDBJDJSKSNDJPAMAJEK

But.

We... Kinda have been living in a hotel for... What, 9? Days? Bc my parents cant find a place to move to in the city we're in, and the fact I am basically Tiny Tim with art skills and a good leg doesnt help...

Anyways.

Tumblr is a silly fun way to escape reality but I dont have the energy or mental capacity or time to respond to people if they tag me (unless it's 1 sentence or less but that is still pushing it) or write or anything or even post.

I havent been sleeping well, (lol thanks asthma, allergies, depression, anxiety, insomnia, and altitude y'all are doin amazing) and I had to leave my entire irl friendgroup back home. A lot of them dont have Instagram or ways for me to contact them aside from texting.

We moved to my previous home when I was very small, but it took me almost 12 years to finally feel like I was home. And that was because of the people I met and cherished and loved. I finally had a support network.

And then I got the news we were moving 1800 miles away.

I have left the life i've spent 12 years rebuilding. Heyhey, depression when did you get here? 16 years ago? Dandy.

Long story short, i've been through all the stages of grief already but I'm still on shakey ground. (The anger stage was the fastest? Bc I dont get angry? Except at people who are genuinely bad or disrespectful towards their audience for no reason other than petty revenge or ego. I'm talking about Thomas Austruc, in case it wasnt obvious. Friggin Miraculous...) I accepted what happened, and have accepted it since about 2 weeks after I heard. I accept and adjust to things quickly and easily. Doesnt mean I like it, but I can and do adjust my mindset and lifestyle to the winds of life.

Kinda sucks at times tbh.

Bc my brain shoves the whole messy business of 'processing' side to acknowledge and move on.

Anyways, that's not the point.

Point is, I am mentally royally screwed atm. I am not medicated for any I my issues, (ADD, major depression, multiple severe anxiety issues, to name just a few of the 'nom-physical' issues) which means life is about a billion times harder to exist in. So in short: my online status will be steady but my posts? Only time will tell.

I would like to apologize for everyone who follows me @un-romancible-npc for my Chance Maribat MariDami/Daminette AU, I am working on it, but I'm also aware of my own issues right now. And I can get about... 500 words a week at the most? Because we're so busy and I'm studying for my driver's test (several years late sadly but when you can barely afford food every month it isnt as much of a concern. Dont worry, we're better off now but it's still a struggle.) and organizin everything at home, and looking after my 2 younger siblings and my big bro, who is currently practically bed-ridden and puking his guts out. Basically... I am very sorry but I cant work on it. I CAN get a snippet out once I finish the freaking 'Mari meets everyone in the lobby' scene. I havr almost 3k words for that and some stuff that follows but the friggin LOBBY SCENE I SWEAR TO PASTA--

Anyways.

Yeah.

That's why I've been gone...

HEY HOWDY HEY NOW IT'S TIME TO TAG EVERYONE I LOVE VERY MUCH AND CANNOT COMMUNICATE WITH PROPERLY BC I'VE BEEN BUSY BUT I READ ALL YOUR POSTS AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH THANK YOU FOR TAGGIN ME IN ALL THE STUFF I LOVE YOU AND YOU'RE ALL GORGEOUS / HANDSOME / STUNNING AND I LOVE YOU

@rogueinkglitch

@im-here-for-the-content

@kceedraws

@da-tasuky

@lady-charinette

@hetalia-lover-is-here

IF I'VE FORGOTTEN YOUR BLOG NAME I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE KNOW I STILL LOVE YOU I JUST CANNOT REMEMBER NAMES

I WOULD FORGET MY OWN NAME IF PEOPLE DIDNT CALL ME BY IT ALL THE TIME

[sarsaparillia]

author meme oh shit

ooooooo i haven’t done one of these in forever im here for it.

tagged by @kauriart

Author name: sarsaparillia (both AO3 an FFN), and also wordbends (on FFN, which i should really... really update one of these days lmao)

Fandoms you write for: oh god. okay. right now it’s mostly Dragon Age and Oxenfree, but i’ve written for so many fandoms i actually can’t count

Where you post: AO3 andd FFN. i’m uh, pretty bad about posting my drabbles to tumblr, sorry about that.

Most popular one-shot: hm. oneshot? on AO3, probably into the endless night, which is the second part of thunderbird and whale, my absolutely terrible Oxenfree series. on FFN, it’d be spare me your judgments, which is catelyn stark AS SHE SHOULD BE EAT MY ASS GRRM.

Most popular multi-chapter: uh. okay. AO3: once more with feeling, and FFN. um. hm. do i really wanna cop to what my most popular multi-chapter is? god. fuck. blink and you’ll miss me. i’m not linking that, it’s too old, it doesn’t count.

Favourite story you wrote: for my own stuff, i’m really fond of templar!au as a whole, because that’s where i live right now. but honestly, i also really like a lot of the oneshots i wrote for sailor moon half a millennia ago. it’s still good shit, and i am still pretty proud of it! OH also i really love the goddamn rich people au, because i love that verse. for stuff i’ve written with other people (sspecifically @persephonesnow), FUCKING ANKLE DEEP GOD WHAT A MASTERPIECE I LOVE IT.

Story you were nervous to post: i have never been nervous to post anything in my life. i have the confidence of a mediocre white man in my writing ability. also i have ADHD, which means i crave validation, and the rush of dopamine from posting something is EXCELLENT. if i have ever experienced nerves, i forgot about them about three minutes after experiencing it.

How do you choose your titles: i. okay. i can’t start writing ANYTHING without a title and a summary. i don’t know why that is, but it is the unfortunate case! sometimes it’s morphed song lyrics, sometimes it’s bits of poetry, sometimes they’re just words i like in an order that i enjoy the sound of. titles are a Big Deal to me, i have a whole document where i just keep titles i’ve come up with for later use. it is... currently three pages long.

Do you outline: i didn’t used to! but as i’ve gotten older i’ve started to... it’s not outlining, exactly? i don’t outline so much as i just like. write really horrible shitty notes about the things i want to put in a chapter. seriously, they’re awful. i meme my way through outlines, please don’t ask me to post them. i personally think they’re hilarious, but i am also The Worst.

Complete: oh god. oh god please. i have been writing since i was fifteen, it has never stopped. i’ve written a lot of stuff that’s complete, and also a lot of stuff that is NOT complete. generally i don’t post things that i don’t plan on finishing, if that’s any consolation. the one exception to this is fifteen acres of broken glass, which ended up being a photograph of my mental state at... twenty. yikes.

In progress: hm. chapter 5 of cradle my heart is open on my laptop right now? the first chapter of the next part of thunderbird and whale is on the docket, too, tentatively titled keeping it surreal. there’s also a couple of codas to templar!au coming: let’s get this bread (cullen/f!trevelyan + a cat called bread whomst i adore), the last romance (f!hawke/isabela), and dreadfully unsolicited advice (which lmao is just... leandra being leandra at fiona over tea)

Coming soon: that chapter i was just talking about. probably within the next two weeks, so long as my brain decides not to fuck off to bermuda or something

Do you accept prompts: quickfic prompts, sure. there’s no guarantee they’ll ever get done, though.

Upcoming story you are most excited to write: hhhhhhhhh i am so stoked to write let’s get this bread because it’s going to be so STUPID and hilarious i can’t wait bread is the WORST CAT I LOVE HIM

taggin @persephonesnow and @kendrasaunders and @swingsdown aaaaaaandd @chlohoh! ACTUALLY also @swoerdfuecker, tho idk if you write fic, laure???

[shitpeoplesayinsplatoon]

hey! what the fuck!

hey hey hey i missed the Mark(tm) but im here etc etc

i’d been plannin’ on makin’ this post for a while but i’ve been puttin’ it off, so here we go! ive got a bunch of things to say (includin’ “thanks a lot”), but ill be throwin’ most of it under the cut since its gonna get sorta long, so bear with me here cuz im gonna talk about some lil changes n things i’ll be makin’ now that this blogs gettin’ real busy

okay okay okay, hey! i’m mod r, or, as people call me nowadays, apollo! and i thought id clarify a buncha things and talk about some stuff in general, as said above.

as you can see, we’ve gotten a fuck ton of followers n now things are gettin’ busy for us as we’ve been gettin’ submissions (and asks) just about daily. and by we i mean me, because theres only one person runnin’ this blog n it’s me (surprise! i dont know why i keep usin’ plural.) and with that im just gonna start settin’ up a few changes to make things run more smoothly

i wanna say now that we’ve been runnin’ on a queue, and have been for awhile, but with all the submissions im gonna be startin’ to up the daily post count and what not. so as a fair warnin’, the daily post count may change seemin’ly erratically as i manage the queue

another, smaller thing i wanna say is that i am changin’ my tag on here, since i finally settled on a name. i’ll be taggin’ posts (mostly unrelated) made by me specifically as #admin apollo from now on, in case you want to blacklist that

also as mentioned previous, we’ve been gettin’ a fair few asks now and it made me decide that i should probably set up an FAQ for the more technical stuff, so if you have any burnin’ questions that you need answered, nows the time to ask! you can also ask me specific questions, i guess, but theres no promise i wont give you a bit of gentle snark or dodge them all together if i feel theyre a bit too personal.

and since its been mentioned, i’ve been contemplatin’ openin’ mod spaces, but we’ll see about that. other than that, i just plan on organizin’ the blog a bit more and gettin’ things together, but since im having a go at it, i wanted to mention that ya’ll need to make sure to tag things properly when you’re able to (i.e. you’re not on mobile), mostly because im tired of removin’ extra tags or addin’ new ones. please spare me.

so! TL;DR 1. i’m admin apollo now, feel free to blacklist the tag by the same name 2. the queue may be messed with, so watch out for that i guess 3. im organizin’ the blog and settin’ up an faq. send your questions 4. PLEASE tag your submissions properly 5. fuck i forgot to mention this, but ill be taggin’ asks as “splasks (splat asks)” or somethin’ of the like and only answerin’ them on specific days to keep things less cluttered. feel free to black list that tag as well

[softrosyqueen]

5 things !

I was tagged by my gud pal @notpassingfascination ! Thank u randi!! <3

5 Things You’ll Find in My Bag

A notebook/journal

Pencil case full of writin tools

My wallet bc I’m boring?

A tangled up pair of headphones 

Restaurant candies that I never plan on actually eating but I keep around just incase... 

5 Things You’ll Find in My Room

Tripod

Lots o’ CDs

A piles of clothes™

Books I plan on reading but have never read

Sketchbooks/notebooks/journals everywhere literally what kind of a person owns this many things to write/draw in pls stop me from buying any more of these

5 Things I Want To Do With My Life

Make a half an hour long film

Make a feature-length film

Try improv/standup (would be a mess but like!! I want to try ??)

Write! More! Things! (scripts, books, poetry, stories, songs, anything)

Learn how to be more kind to myself and others

5 Things I’m Into Right Now

Paramore’s new album!!!!! AAAAA IM SO PUMPED

Brooklyn 99

SNL

Making things and not caring if they’re incredible pieces of art™

Political commentary within comedy. Aka like, Samantha Bee, Stephen Colbert, John Oliver, Seth Meyers. I just rly appreciate those people right now

5 Things on my To-Do List

Figure out wtf is goin on with my damn brain

Write a screenplay/script for that half an hour long film

Job. Job. Get a damn Job.

Finish VEDIM

Read Amy Poehler’s “Yes Please”

5 Things People May Not Know About Me

I’m like... Kinda unhealthily obsessed with the lonely island for a grown person living in this year of our lort 2k17.... Their snapchat is .... s’good? Send help

I full on thought Brendon Urie and Pete Wentz were the same person in elementary school. I thought p!atd and fob were the same band. I am ashamed

I didn’t like Birdman. Woops.

Fave movie atm is Trainspotting, fave documentary is Casting JonBenet

I kind of (optimistically) believe in karma, and hope that if you do good things the universe will bring good things to you. I also kinda just think the universe doesn’t really give a heck most of the time but, I do hope that if you put good energy into the world you will receive it back eventually. I’m definitely not a master of good vibez though lmao

thanks for taggin me!! i’m just gonna tag whoever sees this and wants to do it :-) 

[parasiempretumelancolia]

Thanks for taggin me love!!!

I was tagged by the wonderful @your-basket-case ♥♥

1. Idek, i procrastinate but i also don't. Maybe being on here?? Or me writing..

2. Emerson, my best friend//writing//calling my little sister

3. Idk, let's hope sushi for dinner????

4. Atlantis

5. I'd like to think so, cause I'm honest and compassionate

6. Not that i know of, no

7. Yes, i think only twice and in my early childhood..

8. Brendon Urie for sure 💙

9. Lol i was actually talking to myself about this yesterday, .... i dont really think so.. like maybe but in terms of finding my bestfriend

10. A day where we have a picnic in a secluded field or beach, and we go swimming and take late night drives to nearby towns!!!🌻

11. I'm v melancholic n moody n shy, which people misinterpret as bitchy and antisocial.. i apparently give out sad n distressed energy???

12. I do get really rude and hostile a lot of times and i also dont let people get close to me.

13. I dont think I've had a 1st love, so no

14. None

15. Holy hell, i have way too many playlists amd daily mixes on spotify.. ig my most recent one i made has around 56?? Idk

16. Idek, my dads a drummer since before i was born so i may have some skill..

17. Ok so on my iPad, about 1,000 something of Panic! , on my phones.. queen and timothée chalamet 😂

18. Egypt for sureeee

19. Scorpio!!

20. Yea it's pretty accurate

21. To me it's finding my inner peace, being with the right mind of friends and connecting with my self in terms of communication and honesty.. spreading love and kindness 💗

22. Yes.. but i don't want to say

23. I don't wanna say, but let's just say I'm taking it to my grave..

24. Idk, any home goods stores or crafting ones???

25. Pro.// i really don't wanna get to carried away but i agree w @your-basket-case. I don't think men should have an opinion, nor should it count and any other woman who isn't supportive and doesnt fight for our rights or votes against this, is a fucking trash person.

26. Nope

27. Uhm Rosalía's album, Amy's last one, and anything upcoming from Lana cause i already know myself 😂

28. It already past, but for next year i want to visit Emerson (lives in Brazil)// be well grounded, practicing self love n growth

29. Idk, probably don't wanna know either..

30. Omfg like 12, 14, and 16.. 😑 (I'm 20)

31. Next to my pillow or nightstand

32. Dude, bro, nítido, rad, groovy, sick, gnarly

33. Probably mid 30s 👀 😂

34. Probably 19..

35. Writer or an artist

36. Classic rock, grunge, just any rock basically

37. Right here or Spain ig?? I need a little bit familiarity tbh so i can feel comfortable and assured

38. Idek, immigrant song by led z., pienso en tu mirá by Rosalía, love her madly by the doors, love is a losing game by amy w.

39. Four or five years

40. Endless possiblities in the next year ig

41. Better listener

42. Cleaning and organizing yesterday, then going shopping all night

43. Piercings, books, journals, and concert tix

44. I'm not in college yet cause of certain things, but last year when i was it was psychology or english

45. 4, cause im really hungry n bored as hell

46. Hopefully bein a succesful writer, living with my best friend or s/o, with animals and a garden.. all is is well and secure in my life

47. Never, maybe from a toxic friendship???

48. Some time in my 30s

49. Writer, artist, chef, and an english teacher.. i always listed it like that

50. Sushi and pure happiness, support, and my bestfriend actually being here instead of Brazil

Y'all im so sorry for taggin u all the time ♥♥ but @lilmuneca, @clancegavinclance, @rysonbran, @peachydeacy, @strawberrysandcigarette 💗💗💗💗💗💗

50 Question Tag

I tagged myself bc I have no life

1. what takes up too much of your time? decomposing into my bed 

2. what makes your day better? nice comments from strangers, nature

3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today? wellll nothing yet

4. what fictional place would you like to go? hogwarts

5. are you good at giving advice? yes, i believe so 

6. do you have any mental illness? well i have an anxiety disorder and probably depression but i don’t like admitting that one

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? NOPE NO THANKS

8. what musician inspired you the most?  QUEEN i could go on for days about this so i’m not even gonna start

9. have you ever fallen in love? possibly? it’s never been reciprocated though

10. what’s your dream date? hmm just something unique so someone i’m with, i think it depends on the person

11. what do others notice about you? umm everyone thinks i’m super outgoing and friendly which is nice bc inside i’m super shy and anxious about everything. i’m also very passionate and dedicated and i think people can tell

12. what is the annoying habit you have? getting really bitchy when i’m in a bad mood (only around my family tho)

13. do you still talk to your first love? nope thank goodness

14. how many ex’s do you have? none

15. how many songs are on your playlist? umm i have a billion playlists with different types of music

16. what instruments can you play? i play cello, guitar, sing, and i can pick up a lot of other things pretty quickly

17. who do you have the most pictures of? umm idk my sisters probably

18. where would you like to go before you die? i want to travel to some different countries first

19. what is your zodiac? leo 

20. do you relate to it? i like to say i don’t act like a leo, but i can 100% tell in certain areas if i’m completely being myself

21. what is happiness to you? succeeding at goals i set for myself, experiencing as much as i can, contentment 

22. are you going through anything right now? yeahh i’m in school over full time and i work and don’t make any money, and my little sister has cancer. my mom is married to a 30 year old and it’s her 4th marriage, they hate me, my sisters love me but blame all their problems on me, my cancer sister’s dad is really abusive and used to be my stepdad and was super abusive towards me and i have to see him all the time so that sucks. BUT ANYWAY ENOUGH ABOUT THAT

23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? hmm probably just being such an asshole of a kid and teenager

24. what’s your favourite store? target..? idk i don’t go to a lot of stores

25. what’s your opinion on abortion? you should not be able to tell someone what they can and cannot do with their own body. (but it should have limitations with terms and what not)

26. do you keep a bucket list? nope it would be too long

27. do you have a favourite album at the moment? any queen album

28. what do you want for your birthday? uhhhh idk it’s like 8 months away. probably a new guitar or bass

29. what are most peoples first impression of you? i have no idea and it scares the shit out of me. i think they just think i’m nice?

30. what age do you seem according to most people? i either get asked if i’m 16 or 22 there’s no in between lol (i’m 19)

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? on my bed, plugged in

32. what word or phrase do you say the most? either ‘umm’, ‘i don’t know’, or ‘dude’

33. what’s the oldest age you would date? actually date-date probably 24-25

34. what’s the youngest age you would date? welll i don’t particularly like people my age, but i’d say 19 i guess

35. what job/career do most people say would suit you? a musician

36. what’s your favourite music genre? classic rock or old jazz

37. if you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? italy

38. what is your current favourite song? oooh idk, a ton of queen songs. maybe i want to break free, but it makes me sad

39. how long have you had this blog for? this blog i’ve had for about a month

40. what are you excited for? my new classes this upcoming semester, but i’m also very anxious about it

41. are you a better talker or listener? i can listen when i need to, but i love to talk lol

42. what is the last productive thing you did? uhhh productive? i’m on break right now so probably nothing. i’ve been tweaking my guitar so maybe that

43. what do you want for Christmas? ehh maybe a polaroid camera or something fun? i have no idea what my parents got me

44. what class do you get the best grades in? i got the best grade in Psychology this semester

45. on a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? meh 4

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years? being a successful musician. well that’s my goal, but my future is a little foggy right now

47. when did you get your first heartbreak? idk if i’ve had a true heartbreak

48. at what age do you want to get married? ehhh if i don’t find the right person i don’t want to get married, i probably won’t

49. what career did you want to have as a child? a musician or a chef

50. what do you crave right now? positive attention

i taaag @lordfartwad @deacytits @i-lovealottbh @ironqueen98 @mycaristheloveofmylife @brain-may @parasiempretumelancolia @factsandfancies  

you don’t have to do this bc it’s super long, but i was just bored