#;daggervents 🫀

[dix0nvix3n]

sorry for venting like always but I feel like i should just give up on writing. all of you are so talented and i'm not. every time i try to touch one of my wips i just get upset at myself, i'd like to be more active as a mutual and as a writer but i feel like nobody wants me around and that's why i don't talk a lot. i just wish i could be good at something and it makes me so mad i'm not good at writing, i have so many fucking ideas and i just can't form them into words and when i do it sounds bad, nobody would like my writing.

[dix0nvix3n]

Sorry I haven’t been active again. Will try and work on catching up to replies soon. Birthday in 9 days and not happy about it. Each year I get older my life gets worse. Not excited for 22 :/

[dix0nvix3n]

sorry i stopped talking again,, will work on replying to stuff again soon. real bad mental health day today. i feel like a burden and that i'm unloveable. just trying not to cry right now.

[dix0nvix3n]

small vent i guess. i feel so useless in the fact i can never finish anything for you guys. i have five different fics i've started since i've gotten into writing and can't finish a single fucking one, i basically just get stuck and move on to the next idea. what makes me think i can start a series if i can't finish one of those. and i so badly want to write my series i have the whole actual creative part down like the actual story line and plot points and my brain is world building galore but when it comes to actual writing... i don't have that talent. i've never been good at any hobbies i try and all of my friends are so talented but repeatedly never being good at anything makes it seem like writing is unachievable for me. whenever I get into anything no matter how desperately I want it, I never achieve it. i just wish I could be good at something. yet again, i post a vent on here instead of fucking finishing something.

[dix0nvix3n]

having a really bad night. card declined at the grocery store and idk why and i had to put everything back which was so fucking embarassing and i literally have no food in my dorm... could you guys please send me anything about daryl or scud to distract me. just ask me different questions about them or give me your thoughts. i'm really just trying not to cry right now and i need something to distract me. what fucking sucks is i'd been putting off going to the store forever, i barely have the energy and of course all that fucking effort goes to nothing.

[dix0nvix3n]

Having an even worse day. Need Daryl to hold me so bad. PTSD sucks. That’s all I’ll say on that.

Sorry I haven’t been active again. Will try and work on catching up to replies soon. Birthday in 9 days and not happy about it. Each year I get older my life gets worse. Not excited for 22 :/