#;Questions and Queries || Asks

[patchs-muse-hub]

I remember we stopped being friends two years ago due to my own former toxicity and my “immaturity”.

Now I’m grown and you seemed to have regressed, using your disability as a scapegoat to deflect the blame anyone throws your way. I had problems and changed, while you’ve cornered yourself and can only point at others.

I’d say wish I never met you, Shiloh, but you introduced me to people who I still care about. Got me interested in things I’d never considered. Hell, you shocked me into maturing and becoming a better person.

You were my hero, Shiloh.

Now, you can’t hurt me anymore.

The fact that you think this is mature at all says more than you think.

If you genuinely were the grown, mature, healthy adult you believe yourself to be, this would not feel necessary to you at all. Healthy adults don;t go around to those who they perceive have hurt them and rub their 'maturity' and 'healing' in their faces. The need to prove yourself as 'better' is inherently childish.

I have left everyone alone. What few people had not yet blocked me were sent my final apologies and goodbyes, and I have departed willingly and moved on. I mention none of the people who wronged me by name anywhere on here because I feel like calling them out would make me a hypocrite.

Why message me? Why send this cruel, scathing, hurtful message if you are so much more 'mature'?

The truth is, you idolizing me as some kind of 'hero' was only ever going to get you hurt. I am a flawed person. I am emotionally fragile, I am mentally and physically ill, I am opinionated and obnoxious, I am provocative and even problematic. You thinking I was some perfect hero and placing me on that pedestal is your problem. Not mine.

I'm sorry I hurt you. I take accountability for that harm. I hope that your life gets better and that one day, the hurt I caused you no longer affects you.

But this message just proves you haven't changed at all.

[fallensxvior]

I feel like I failed you.

But you also failed me, ya know?

I guess I deserve all your wrath, don't I old friend?

Heh, here I am talking to myself again..

♱

"That isn't true, Richard. I promise, it isn't."

His voice was soft, but not hard to make out amongst the chatter- warm like sunlight on a cat's fur, soft and gentle and perhaps even timid.

"I wanted to help you, to stop this... I wanted to intervene, but.. "

But Eluhim, savage that he was, would never allow it. No, Dude had been a Catholic, he was Father's possession, not Yeshua's- he couldn't help him no matter how much her begged. So many flock so very out of reach by merely a whisper....

"I know the things you have done, Richard, and I can only apologize for not being able to help you. I can only beg your forgiveness for what has transpired, I... I am so so sorry..."

[sxverana]

"You know, I like a girl with a bit of bite~" ♱

from: @martyr-of-paradise-az

"Cute. I bet you think you're the first human to make that joke."

[bookwyrminspiration]

i'm sure i can guess, but. thoughts on the kotlc smut debate? do you think it's appropriate?

I'm not interested in getting into discourse, so I'll try and keep this short and sweet (also, none of this is angry or targeted at anyone and I’m fine talking about it—I’m just not interested in senseless, unproductive arguing!!)

As the subjects are fictional, I don't care. They aren't real people. Smut written about them does not impact or hurt them in any way.

What someone chooses to write about and why is not my business. If it's smut written by teens about teens as a means of exploring sexuality, if its a means of processing experiences or abuse, if its for fun--whatever it is, that's their business. Including for adult authors. They can have just as valid motivations, not that they need to justify themselves. They literally cannot hurt these characters

As for real people, such as fans, no one is forced to read it. If you find yourself in the middle of something that makes you uncomfortable, you can stop reading and walk away. And yes, there may be initial discomfort as you realize--for which I am sympathetic, but it happens and that is on you to manage, not the author.

Authors are also not responsible for rule breakers who access sites they're not old enough for. We're responsible for tagging and adhering to the rules of hosting sites

Also, smut as a whole is a valid form of writing/creation. Sexuality is a normal (note: I am not saying it is the ONLY normal. ace here), widespread part of life, and sexual gratification and enjoyment are morally neutral

Am I personally gonna write any kotlcrew smut? No. Am I gonna read any? Probably no. Not my kind of kotlc fic. I by and large don't enjoy it. But fic writers who chose to engage with the subject here are not writing about real people, and not responsible for real people's comfort with their work beyond tagging.

Smut is always going to exist. It is safer for all parties if it is freely allowed to exist so no one has to disclose potentially very personal justifications (e.g. processing abuse/experiences), and so it can be properly tagged and avoided by those who want/need to--otherwise individuals will not tag appropriately in the interest of not being taken down, and that helps no one.

and since this was brought up last time: this is my stance. I can't tell you how to think, and I don't decide for anyone else what is right from wrong. i can only share my reasonings

Oh also: I don’t hold it against anyone who’s disgusted or uncomfortable with it! That’s fine. I don’t enjoy it either! Valid! But that doesn’t mean we can say it shouldn’t exist or harass people who write it (not saying anyone has, this is just addressing the broad question)

[aritany]

just finalized the query package for my novel and i start querying again on monday??? who is ready to get absolutely Brutalized by the publishing industry with me this summer

[bloodbathfortwo]

Nigel and Alex have their rare moments of intimacy behind closed doors. Lingering touches, and blazing warmth.

[stealingpotatoes]

evolution of your art

bad > less bad > good

[elysiumcalled]

Next time somebody at work asks if I can help I’m just saying no idfc anymore

[yameoto]

Wait you guys actually generate more then one reply at a time???

sure! its helpful. if an ai misses something in your original response, usually asking for a continuation of their reply will hit the missed mark. also helpful when you get a reply that takes you off-guard with the prose or humour or the raunchiness but doesn't forward the plot! continuing the bots response usually shoves things along while letting you include aforementioned thing.

warning though: i don't like doing this for more than two replies, because ai definitely needs continued user input. it cannot carry all by itself. alone, it'll get dull and repetitive fast. its why some people will experience roleplays that are lacking/can't beat the filter. you really do have to take the lead!

[creation-help]

Which song(s) remind you of your oc? Why?

[patchs-muse-hub]

I'd say just turn off anon at this point, let them either waste time making blogs or come and say it to your face. Either way, whoever is doing this has proved themselves to be just pathethic and loud - they have the emotional maturity of a child.

Yeah.. At this point it's the only real choice.

Anon will now be turned off permanently.

[fallensxvior]

"Wouldn't it be AWEsome if we just- FLOODED THE EARTH again? FLOOD THE EARTH! FLOOD THE EARTH!! Get that Earth pussy wet as fuck- YEAH, yeAH, yeeeeeah-!! Anyway, what'd you have for lunch?"

"What's got you so excitable today, Adam?" He tried to stifle the chuckle, but something about his son's utter mania was so infectious. It was hard to be anything less than energized with him in the room.

[bookwyrminspiration]

so we know unicrons and alicorns exist in the kotlc universe but like. are there pegasi??? i feel like logically there should be since an alicorn is a mix of a unicorn and pegasus but we never get any mention of them???? are there just no pegasi???? im losing my mind why are there no pegasi. this feels unbalanced.

victor I need you to stop being wrong it's hurting me </3

anyway there canonically are pegasi! mentioned at the very beginning of Exile in comparison to Silveny:

It wasn't a pegasus--she knew from the books she'd studied at Havenfield that those were smaller and huskier, with deep blue spots and midnight blue manes. (Exile 13)

We just haven't revisted them like ever, which is a shame. We've got Stina as the unicorn girl, Sophie as the alicorn girl. Now we need another girl whose name starts with S to complete the horse girl trifecta.

[taxes-and-laundry]

Good news I broke ChatGPT by trying to force it to pass the Turing Test.

[jkrockin]

Um hi yes big big big fan of yours if you have any lil tidbits to share about the grinder prank scenario or the amnesia scenario I would be so pleased and grateful okay byyyeeeeeee

First: I kiss you so gently on the forehead. Mwah. Thank you for reading and engaging with my fic.

Second: I've posted some snippets of the amnesia fic here and here and here; this was going to be my Steddie big bang fic, but I had to drop out, as they wanted us to have 50% done by the second check-in and I only had about 6k and had guesstimated the eventual wordcount closer to 20k. C'est la vie. I have 7.8k of this and a full outline with most of the beats roughed out, and will, I hope, write more actual words on it someday.

Third: the Grindr prank fic. Look at this post. Now imagine this as Eddie Munson's grindr profile. I did that, went into a fugue state in @tw0-ravens' DMs, and when I came to I had 1.2k of intro to kissless virgin Eddie/grindr slut Steve in a gdoc and an outline for the rest of it. Let's see if I come back to that at some point!

[smol-blue-bird]

it's absolutely astonishing how useless Google has become