#;; perhaps even she's GONE for those weeks and comes back and he's just dead???

[kaerinio]

speaking of emp.yrean things. this is my reminder to write a thing about her relationships with drogo and daario specifically, but also with jhogo, aggo, rakharo, doreah, irri, jhiqui, and missandei. i also need to write a thing about how/why she kills jhaqo and mago.

[lazyneonrabbitt]

On the morning dew

Adar x elven reader

You've walked middle earth longer than any other. Now when word of one of the Moriondor sounds through Lindon you set out to find out who it is.

Just fluffy goodness with ancient elf reader, Uruk dad and his children who like to misbehave.

You had walked the lands of Middle Earth far longer than many.

Time was barely a thing anymore for the first elves that sprouted way back then.

You lived your live comfortably among your kind, watching new generations come, and now in Lindon surrounded by people whom you attempted to fill the hole in your heart with. A hole left by one long gone but still feared by many.

All those ages ago, when Sauron was recruiting for his new army, he had so effortlessly taken him from you.

You loved him then, before he had left and after still, and you have never stopped. You had tried to love other since then, but none ever felt the same and the ache never left. The short moments of interesting new relations were never bad, but they'd end in feelings of betrayal and you quickly moved on. Again to wander alone.

A mere week ago word came to Lindon, through the lips of the blonde soldier who you were convinced had left for Valinor. Galadriel. She brought words of chaos in the Southlands, where who she thought to be one of the Moriondor was causing destruction with an army of orcs.

Upon hearing the words your mind filled with possibility. Endless scenes of what might be. Could it be him? Even if it wasn't him, but any of the others who were with him at the time then perhaps they could tell you of him, to at least get closure and move on.

The images plagued your mind for days before your thoughts gathered enough to take action.

You changed your nowadays finest garments for something more suited for travel. Something sturdier and less eye-catching. You gathered your supplies and set out without a word, in your mind already having a million excuses ready as to why you were leaving.

Luckily no one wondered and your departure was a quiet one.

For long you walked leaving Lindon behind you, resting only when the area allowed for it and no creatures lurked. You hid your ears around villages, presenting yourself as a simple traveler seeking an overnight stay or a nice cooked meal for a change.

Forests came and went, dark and overgrown between large stretches of field where nothing stood between you and thr sun. Long winding rivers delayed your travels, walking along miles of shore to reach the nearest crossing.

The woods you had entered during the day, now only halfway crossed during nightfall had proven trouble. Since entering the treeline there had been the feeling of being watched, distant gazes burning your skin during the daylight and torchlight catching trees around it during nighttime, indicating whoever was around still followed you.

It was in the dead of night that your stalkers made themselves known,loud snarls and growling voices speaking unknown tongues surrounded you as a group of orcs set out to hunt you down.

It took running, leaping past greenery and climbing trees to stay out of their claws. Arrows just barely missed you until they ran out, having to rely on their sword and spears to eound you.

You ran until the sky behind the trees started changing color ever so slightly, announcing the soon to come sunrise. With everly last ounce of breath you had left in you you forced yourself past the treeline and into the open field, where the attackers would not dare follow.

As they scurried away you let yourself fall down, rolling onto your back to catch your breath for a short moment, the grass cooling your body in the kindest way.

Leaves rustled beside you, making you sit up and look back into the forest that sat unmoving.

The orcs returnes to their troops, having informed their leader of their failure to capture the elf. It did not bother him that they failed, but still set out on his own to see for himself who was swift enough to stay out of his hunters' grasp.

He had caught a familiar scent on the wind, and felt the need to follow it.

The trail his children left was an easy one to follow, leading him to where he could see past the trees to where a figure sat, gazing at the horizon.

"Quite impressive, being able to outrun my Uruks."

A gravely voice spoke and caught you off guard, jumping up and standing face to face with an elf clad in black. He took in your everything as you did the same to him, silence falling over the moment that seemed to had frozen.

As frozen as the time you stood still as he took a step closer, hand raising to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

His palm rested there, on your cheek as he sought your eyes for any sign of recognition. To him you looked as beautiful as those moments you shared in your first days. Even with your garment and hair disheveled from running he found you the most stunning sight.

To you, it was him before you. His once flawless skin now torn and stitched back together leaving patterned scars over his face, his once ever so bright eyes dulled by the darkness.

Your hand rose, mimicing his action of brushing aside his hair. Only you did it to assess the scarring he aquired during your absence. Webbed skin stretching from his brow to above his ear, a thick, branching line following his cheekbone down his jaw.

"What have they done to you?" Tears brimmed your eyes as you imagined the pain he had gone through and feeling the anger well up inside.

The look in his eyes never lost its softness towards you, and instead of truthfully answering you he held you. I his embrace you let yourself take him in fully, the cold metal of his armor beneath your hands and his clawed glove scratching your scalp ever so softly.

With his hands on your hips he looked you in the eyes. There was a plea in them begging to come out but his lips did not dare to comply. Surely after those ages you must have lost those feelings you shared back then. You couldn't be interested in what he was now, a mess of mangled flesh and mind, no longer elven in body and soul.

You musn't still have feelings for the old Uruk that stood before you.

Your hands snuck between you, and Adar fully believed you were pushing him away for a moment, until your arms wrapped behind his neck to pull him into a kiss.

No words were necessary to share your feelings as you poured them all into him with your lips connected.

You had found him, scarred and aged but he was there with you, and that was all that mattered.

You uttered his name but were quickly interupted.

"Adar." He softly spoke just an inch from your lips. "My name is Adar, lord father of the Uruks of thr Southland." His head rested in the crook of your neck, affraid you'd disappear once he let go. But you never did. Your mouth pressed against his scarred temple as you softly swayed to a tune in your mind.

In the glow of the rising sun you hummed the tune as old as time, one you had danced to many nights before.

Adar caught on, joining in and swaying with you. A smile reappearing on his lips.

Together you danced as you did before, held in each others' arms to a tune long forgotten by everyone except you.

Adar wished for nothing but a home for his children. He wished now for you to call it home, too.

"I wish for you to meet my children." The hand on your hip steered you towards the forest, where a group of Uruks had collected, just out of the sun's reach. They no longer looked at you with hunger in their eyes, instead they presented themselves as a welcoming party.

"We apologise, lady." One of them spooe for the group, a skinnier Uruk wearing a chainmail hood. "We didn't know you belonged to Adar."

"B.. belong to?" You gave Adar a glance but he dismissed it, speaking to his company in a language you did not understand.

As you walked the Uruks fell into step beside you one by one, introducing themselves and asking you all kinds of things while Adar and the others conversed in that same unknown language. The further you walked the more Adar's composure seemed to be cracking, the Uruks cackling and almost tripping over brances. It almost looked like they teased him.

A breathy laugh left you that made Adar look over to you. "What was that, dear?"

The way he put emphasis on the term had heat rise to your cheeks and turned the subject of the Uruks' laughter your way.

"Nothing, Lord Father." You faked a bow with a smile and moved on.

One of the Uruks came back to your side, pressed against your shoulder and whispered you some words in black speech. Useful words Adar would want you to learn soon in case of trouble, and a term of endearment to get on his good side.

You took in Adar's frame from the back where you walked, seeing his fists clenched and steps heavy. He was clearly still unhappy with whatever it was the Uruks shared with him.

You were going to be kind to him, hopping over to his side and taking his hand in yours. "Adar, dear." You spoke quietly with your cheek against his shoulder. "I'm glad we found each other again, sharkû."

He halted every movement then, head snapping your way so quick you surprised he didn't break his neck.

"What was that? Because I hope you just mispronounced something." You looked over at Glûg, who had offered you the word and was now, along with the rest of the party trying his best not to burst out in laughter. "Oh come on. You tricked me! That's unbelievable, what did I say??"

"Called him an old man." Bazur, the one failing hardest in keeping his laughter at bay called over to you before doubling over in hysterics.

Beside you Adar snarled, his clawed glove raised at his children. "Whoever thinks they can teach her any new words better make sure she's taught the right ones."

You looked back at your lover. "But, they're not wrong.. You are ancient, so am I." With raised brows you shrugged.

With a long drawn out sigh he dropped the topic along with his hand, turning back around to continue the trek home. A soft smile on his face the second he was sure his children would not see it.

He was glad you all got along so well already.

[uglypastels]

Logan idea- reader has very similar traumas I.e trained as a weapon, memories wiped, has bad nightmares, slower aging, modified healing.

They find healing with the X-men and get close with Logan because of their similarities the reader is more sunshine to Logan’s I don’t know if pessimism is the right word. They go on a mission, goes missing for a period, and when they show back up they’ve been brain washed and are fighting the X-men but Logan recognizes them instantly. And does the whole this isn’t you sweetheart while taking a beating cause they can both kick ass and that’s one of the things Logan loves about them. He gets the mask off of them cause he realizes that’s part of the issue for them not recognizing everyone and then it’s hurt/comfort them feeling horrible for getting caught and Logan feeling horrible for letting them get caught. And even though they hadn’t been together before just very close friends/testing the waters this brings them together cause they realize they want to be with each other after some healing and Logan be soft with the reader while they heal from the brainwashing fiasco.

I dunno I love the idea of Logan feeling horrible about not being able to rescue the reader and then recognizing them fighting his allies and helps bring them back from the void. I’m a sucker for two people relating to eachother having a friendship that a hard time brings out their true feelings with lots of fluff and healing cause Logan understands that.

this made me think of some of my favourite wolverine scenes from different media so it's all inspired by that i guess. hope you like it :3

warnings: angst. mind control. reader presumed dead. swearing. violence. hospital-setting. guilt.

Masterlist ~ X-Men Requests are Open

‘What the hell are you doing? We have to go back!’ Logan started yelling as soon as he realised you hadn’t made it back to the jet. 

‘It’s too late,’ Scott shouted back at him from the pilot seat. ‘We won’t make it.’ 

‘She won’t make it,’ Logan retorted, already lunging at the cockpit, claws itching to come out. And they would have if it wasn’t for the cold hand touching his skin. He looked up to meet Rogue’s eyes. They were filled with sadness–pity– as she held his hand. He tried to pull out of her hold, but the longer it went on, the more frail he felt. Everything around him began to spin, his vision blurred until it all turned black, and his head hit the steel flooring of the plane.

⮿

Rogue had held on for too long. That much she had realised as soon as Logan had passed out.

It took a whole day for him to come by, but not even her powerful narcosis had suppressed his rage. As soon as Logan had woken up and his senses had felt Scott’s presence, he was on his feet, grabbing the team leader by the collar of his shirt, pushing him against 

‘You proud of yourself, punk?’ he spat in Scott’s face. ‘Got your sorry ass out all safe and sound, huh?’

‘There was no other way. We would have all died if we had stayed, Logan,’ Storm clawed at his shoulders to pull him back, but none of her methods sufficed. ‘This was the only way.’

‘No the fuck, it wasn’t!’ He saw red with anger. ‘We could have saved her.’ He had pulled out of saying that one word at the last minute. I could have saved her. That was the only thing on his mind for weeks. How you still would have been there if it wasn’t for him. 

The plan had been simple; that much had been clear in your face as you suggested it the last time he saw you. But he never should have gone along with it. He never should have let you go on your own. If he had just stayed— ran after you— maybe…

A pitiful portion of him still kept up hope. That one day, the heavy doors to the mansion would open, and you would stand in the middle. Perhaps a bit bruised up and tired, but all there. And he would pull you into his arms like he had wanted to all those times before.

But you never did show up. Days turned into weeks turned into months, and there had been no news, no sightings. Even the Professor had stopped seeking Cerebro’s help as nothing turned up anyway, no matter how hard he looked.

⮿

His heart was in his chest as he raced through the dark corridors of the bunker complex. Logan looked around him for the way out with the least henchmen as chances of there being none were slim. He had already left a trail of bodies behind him and was ready for the next wave of men to beat into a pulp.

He turned the corner, but what he saw was the last thing he had expected.

For a second, he thought he was dreaming; perhaps it was a hallucination brought on by some chemicals they pumped into the air to get to him. It wasn’t possible. His mouth had already fallen open, ready to call out your name, but as you got into a stance of attack, eyes blank except for a fury deep inside them, Logan realised it wasn’t a dream at all. It was a bloody terror. 

It was the hardest fight he had ever been in, trying to block all of your attacks while pulling himself back. He couldn’t het himself to hurt you. All he found himself doing was calling your name, but it was useless. It was you, but it wasn’t. Nothing he said seemed to matter, seemed to take any effect on you. You lunged at him, punching and kicking. 

It was futile to try and argue with you, and so, against every muscle and nerve in his body screaming against it, Logan started to place his movements harder, fighting against you until you went limp in his arms. He cursed himself out as he looked down at your unconscious body, pushing some of your loose hair out of your face. But as he looked at you, he also saw that it really was you still in there. And so he didn’t waste a second thinking about it as he picked you up in his arms and ran as fast as his body could take him. Out of the tortuous underground maze and back to that godforsaken jet that had been the scene of the dreams that had plagued his mind for the past months.

⮿

Everyone had practically stopped in their tracks at the sight of you in Logan’s arms. He stumbled into the jet, nearly falling over, having had, as predicted, to deal with a number more nameless jackasses, but with you in his arms, it made beating them up a bit more challenging.

‘What—’ Storm’s eyes were nearly as pale of shock as they would have been of her powers. 

‘She’s been brainwashed,’ Logan explained before anything else, ‘or controlled. I don’t know, but he’s hostile. We need to keep her down.’ He laid you down on the ground, sitting right beside you, wiping the sweat off his forehead with a deep heave, and only then he noticed the looks of everyone around him. ‘What?’

No one said a thing, but he knew what they were all thinking. For he was thinking it, too. Was it safe to bring you back home? Could whatever they had done to you be reversed, or was he just putting everyone at the school in danger by taking you back? 

‘Is everyone back?’ He just said after no one had dared to say another word.

⮿

Logan didn’t know what had possessed him. Why he had suddenly grown so protective over you, but he could not stand the idea of you being alone in the hospital wing. It took nearly half a week just for Jean and the Professor to understand what had happened to you, and the treatment itself took far longer than Logan would have liked. 

He didn’t know why he came to visit you every night, far outside the regular visiting hours, past when anyone would be awake to see him sneak in and sit by your side, holding your hand, hoping you could feel and hear him as the apologies spilt out of him.

‘I’m so sorry, bub.’ He kissed your knuckles. ‘I should have gone back for you. I should have–’ He stilled as you stirred in your bed. 

‘Logan?’ You croaked out, throat dry and hoarse. In slight shock, Logan said nothing. You blinked and tried to find him in the darkness of the room. ‘Logan? Is that you?’

‘Yeah, it’s me.’ He chuckled softly to himself, squeezing your hand.

‘What happened?’ You tried to sit up, orientating yourself to where exactly it was that you were, but he quickly pushed at your shoulder to stay put. 

‘It’s a long story, kid.’ Never before was Logan happy to be sitting in the dark as the tears he had subdued for months finally fell down his cheeks in extreme relief. ‘You uh– you’d been gone for a while.’ 

‘I was?’ you tried to remember, ‘I can’t recall anything. It’s all—’

‘I know.’ He kept your hand in his, rubbing your skin with his thumb. Logan knew to call for someone as soon as he saw you stir awake, but he needed this moment alone with you. Make sure you are doing alright himself. Besides, the professor was probably already on his way. 

‘It’s okay. You’re alright now.’ He continued, happy you had finally come back home.

the end.

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[ghostchems]

hello my darling. i see your requests are back open… 👀 i've got a prompt for you if you so wish to write it… reader has been dead for decades, aimlessly wandering the halls of the ministry where no one has ever seen her, heard her or even felt her… until one day, she's walking (or y'know… floating…) through the halls and someone is walking towards her. He stops in his tracks and stares straight ahead. Then she realises…

he's staring at her… Choose a papa, any papa! Whoever you would like to write, if you choose to write it! 😘

a/n: almost 1k words of some sweetness. after reading the prompt i KNEW i had to pick Cardinal Copia 🥹 bee. thank you SO much for sending this in. hit me right in the dang feels

Loneliness has driven you to the busy corridors of the Abbey. Despite the clergy members quite literally seeing right through you, their presence around you is enough to alleviate the void inside you. You’ve had to make do over the decades but even after all of the disappointment there is still an unwavering flicker of hope that you’ll make some sort of contact. Who knew it would be impossible for a ghost to be noticed in a Satanic Ministry? Many attempts have been made, ranging from morose to macabre (floating candles vs. severed limbs) but to no avail. Perhaps there’s something wrong with you. Is your spirit not dark enough to be seen? You remember how you died and decide that can’t be the case.

You gave everything for The Olde One. The Ministry was a very different place back then.

You’re lost in the endless abyss of your thoughts until there’s a shift in energy around you. Something new. Someone new. The wisps of your ghostly train curl towards the ceiling behind you and gust of warm air blows your hair out of your face.

Oooh. A Cardinal. It’s been ages since there’s been one here, the last one being in 19—

Is he looking at you?

There’s no way but… his gaze is fixated on the space you occupy, eyes wide. He bears the Mark of The Olde One — just like the Papas, but even with the Eye no one has ever seen you. He picks up his pace, walking to you with such purpose. You feel an excitement you haven’t felt since you were alive but it’s quickly replaced with crippling anxiety. In a fit of panic you poof out of the corridor and reappear deep into the underground archives, far far away from any person. But the new Cardinal saw you. He really did. After vying for this for so long… you aren’t ready for it.

***

You’ve meandered further into more densely populated areas of the Abbey over the last two weeks after taking some time for yourself to come to grips with the fact that he saw you. Problem is now the Cardinal is nowhere to be found. The longer the week stretched the more you began to believe it was over — he must have only been visiting for the day and thus your chance at talking to someone other than yourself for the first time in 55 years has slipped through your fingers. But that same hope you’ve clung to keeps you pacing and wandering day after day, hoping to catch of glimpse of his black cassock.

One late night you find yourself perusing the library, hovering around the new releases aisle (you like to see how ridiculous the names of romance novels have gotten). The further you get down the aisle the thicker the air becomes around you, the familiar buzzing in your ear from the first time you saw him. There’s a dim light coming from one of the nooks. You steel yourself, you’re going to make yourself known like you planned. Glowing brighter than you ever have before, you float toward the light. How can a ghost have anxiety? You’d think all of those feelings would be gone but somehow you feel like you’d throw up if that were even possible. You reach the outside of the nook and suck in a sharp breath before peering around the corner.

His duochromatic eyes are on you instantly.

“Per favore — please, do not run away again.” He sounds quiet, sleepy but polite and he extends a hand out to you. “I was worried I would not see you.” You blink at him as you reveal yourself fully to him, his gaze taking you in.

“You… you really see me?” Your voice cracks, your ghost trail wiggling with how charged you are emotionally.

“Yes. I do.” The Cardinal stands, his hand still out to you. “I, ehh… I’m the new Cardinal, Cardinal Copia. What is your name?”

My name?

“You’re… you’re the only person who’s ever seen me.” Not an answer to his question at all but your brain is broken. All that time you spent hoping for this…

“Oh. Oh, poverino.” His fingertips graze your hand and you jump — he could feel you too? “Ah! I am sorry! Ehhh… what can I do? How can I help you?” Copia shuffles on his feet anxiously, making sure to keep a safe distance so that he doesn’t startle you again. Your guise is crackling, vibrating with energy, more than you’ve ever felt before. He seems… delighted by your prescience and it makes you feel warm.

“H-how? Cardinal, how?” You push in closer to him, wisps brushing against his cassock.

“Non lo so. I’ve… I’ve just always been able to.” He gives you a sad smile. “I eh… had some weird “imaginary friends” growing up. But please, you must… you must have a lot to say after spending so long only listening.” Copia may have the gentlest voice you’ve ever heard. You want to hug him especially since something about this feels deeply personal to him…but you compose yourself and instead take him by the hand as you sit on the corner of his desk.

“What do I even say now?” You laugh to yourself. “I’ve been so worried about ever being heard that I haven’t thought about what to say. What do you… want to know, Cardinal?” Even now you’re feeling shy.

He gingerly rests his hand on top of yours, a warmth spreading through you that you’ve never experienced before.

“I’ve wanted to get to know you since I saw you, fantasmina. Please, tell me about you.” Copia squeezes your hand with a kind smile. Speechless. You take a deep breath and nod.

You’ll tell him.

You’ll tell him everything.

[eyrina-avatar]

Mother's Day

parining: Neteyam x reader aged up and are parents - a mother's day special

synopsis: after the battle of Awa'atlu and with Quaritch now dead, the Sullys are back to living a peaceful life at the forest and Neteyam and reader have a child. Neteyam has a surprise for reader on Mother's Day.

warnings: none, mostly fluff. only a little tiny mention of reader doubting her skills as a new mother but those thoughts are later on squashed.

author's note: do na'vi babies use diapers or just loincloths that are regularly changed? I looked online and couldn't find any info on it. I mentioned about two weeks ago that this was supposed to come out on Sunday, so I know it’s late and Mother’s Day is long gone but oh well, life has been busy. Enjoy!

word count: 2.4k

glossary: prrnen- baby, ma'itan- my son, eyaye plant- warbonnet fern (the big glowing leaves of pandora that looks like a fan- in the right pic of the header), panopyras- the plant that looks like a glowing jellyfish (in the left pic of header). more info can be found on avatar's official pandorapedia and on avatar wiki.

┆彡

You gently moved your baby back and forth in your arms as you tried to calm his crying.

"Mawey, mawey ma'itan," you cooed into his ear as you tried to figure out what was making your less than one-year-old son so cranky.

"What is wrong, huh? I just fed you an hour ago, and daddy just changed your nappies." Your baby began to grow more irritable by the minute, and you had to find a quick solution. The baby was supposed to be asleep; that way you could go out into the forest to gather some fruit and vegetables for dinner.

Your son had now begun sucking on his thumb while crying and moving his head close to your chest in search of milk.

"You're still hungry? Is that what it is?" You adjusted your top to let your son feed on you, instantly calming his crying and fussiness. "What an appetite." You simply shook your head and laughed.

"Happy Mother's Day!" You heard a loud commotion outside of Neteyam's and your shared Marui. You moved the opening of your tent and peered outside, and saw Jake and his kids, Neteyam included, all showering Neytiri with attention. They all gave her a big hug and handed her flowers, rare fruits, bracelets, and a matching headset. She thanked her family for the presents, and you merely smiled at the kind gesture. You closed the flap of your tent, basking in the warmth and tranquility of your child as his eyes were now closed, content with his feeding.

When you were previously an avatar before your permanent soul transfer, you had already learned of Mother's Day and its significance. Though now, as a Na'vi, you grew to the customs of the Omaticaya and have not paid much attention to it until now.

As a mother of a young baby, not even a toddler, you knew not to expect anything significant on the day yet. How would your child know to give you a gift or thank you for being his mother? Foolishness- he was too young for you to even think about that, and you let out a small chuckle at your own thoughts and sighed.

Jake always made it clear to Neytiri on Mother's Day how much he loved and appreciated her, and he always gave her something for mothering their children. Would Neteyam do the same to you as well?

Although Neteyam is a Na'vi, you slightly expected him to know that this day held significance for you as well, especially as the father of your child. Or maybe he didn't know?

But like the rest of the Sully kids, he learned about it from Jake and has not missed a single year to gift something to Neytiri on this special day. Or maybe he didn't think you were such a good mother after all. Perhaps you were just being silly, how could you expect someone to congratulate you on something you’re so new at? You’re Na’vi now, and perhaps you should just get used to it.

You simply sighed again at the thought and placed your child in your frontal wrap as you prepared to go out and gather the food for later.

"What is it? Is something wrong?" Neteyam walked into your tent and gave you a questioning look.

"No, no. Nothing’s wrong." You shook your head and smiled.

“I heard you sighing as if something was wrong.” Neteyam interrogated.

“Oh, I’m fine, Nete. I was just glad that the baby finally fell asleep after crying for so long.” You petted your son’s head as you tried to sell your excuse to your mate.

“I see. Sorry for not coming into the tent sooner. I thought I heard a baby crying, but I was a bit busy at the moment.” Neteyam helped you up as you grabbed a basket for the food you were getting ready to pick.

“It’s fine-”

“No, no, I should have helped you out-”

“Neteyam.” You placed your hand on his, “It’s fine. The baby was just hungry again, you weren’t going to be much help in that situation.” You let out a small giggle.

He simply chuckled, “I guess not.”

“I’ll be back in time to make dinner.” You waved as you made your way out of the tent.

Huh, busy? Simply busy celebrating Mother’s Day and not with you. You rolled your eyes and huffed out. Y/n, get yourself together.

You shook your head in disbelief at your own antics.

I’m sure Neteyam appreciates you, he’s probably just waiting for the baby to get bigger to celebrate Mother’s Day. In fact, maybe he’ll tell your son when he gets older. Yes, that's it.

You smiled to yourself as you came up with a conclusion and decided to drop the topic, knowing that getting upset over something so trivial wouldn’t do you any good.

You contently continued your way into the forest.

Nete, I’m home. Dinner will be ready s-” you looked into your marui and saw no one inside. Maybe Neteyam was out hunting, or busy helping his siblings, probably bailing Lo’ak out of trouble or something. You laughed at the thought.

You placed your still-asleep son in his cot and got straight to cooking as you peeled the fruits and vegetables, and moved the veggies onto separate plates, chopped, and cooked them. With your quick and skilled hands, the food was ready in no time, and your mate was home in no time as well.

“Mmm, what is that delicious smell, huh?” Neteyam made his way towards you. “Is that the wonderful cooking of my cute wife?” He bent down and gave you a kiss. Your tail swished back and forth at the compliment, and you blushed.

“Oh, just sit down.” You jokingly rolled your eyes as you gave him a bowl of food. “Thank you, love,” he smiled at you, and you sent one back.

“So, where were you?” You pried as you ate your food.

“Eh, just helping one of the clan members hunt some meat. No luck today, though.” Neteyam continued eating.

Hmm, strange. He’s all neat and clean, not a drop of sweat. Unless he bathed at the river before coming over? Probably so.

You decided to stop overthinking and just enjoy your food before you soured your appetite.

The rest of the meal was quiet but comfortable.

“Alrighty, done. That was delicious, as always.” Neteyam handed you the bowls, and you set them aside.

“So, anything in plan to do lat-” you were cut off with the sound of crying waving through your ears. You rushed over to your son and picked him up.

“Here, let me help.” Neteyam made his way over to you and took the baby from your hands. “What is my little mighty warrior so upset about, huh?” Your mate gently rocked the child back and forth.

“Shh, shh. Daddy's right here.” He cooed, and you couldn’t help but giggle at the self-given name.

The baby wouldn’t stop crying, and so you took a peek at his bottom. “Oh,” you simply let out.

“What is it?” Neteyam gave you a questioning look.

“He needs to be cleaned.” You took the baby out of Neteyam’s arms and placed him on a mat.

“Look at that cutie!” Kiri beamed as she entered the tent and made her way straight to you and Neteyam’s son. “Aww, don’t you worry. He needs a cleaning, right? I’ll take care of it.” Kiri shooed your hands away and got to work.

“No, Kiri, you don’t have to do that.” You felt bad and tried to stop her.

“Nonsense, I’ll take care of him. Go out with Neteyam and do something. Maybe go on one of those dates or whatever you romantics like to do.” She simply waved you away.

“Thank you,” Neteyam mouthed to her when you weren’t looking.

“Are you sure?” You let out as Neteyam dragged you out of the tent.

“Kiri will be fine.” He assured you.

“Well, where are we going?” You asked.

“Put this on.” He gave you a blindfold, and you simply looked at him confused about what he was doing.

“What?”

“Just put it on, you trust me, right?”

“Yes…”

“Good. Then put it on.”

You held the blindfold over your eyes, and Neteyam tied it. “How will I know where to step? What if I fall?” You asked, giving a questioning look behind the cloth.

“You wont.” Neteyam swooped you up in his arms and carried you bridal style. “You see?” He smirked.

“Well technically since I’m blindfolded right now…” Neteyam lowered his arms down, threatening to drop you. “Alright, ALRIGHT. I get it!” You let out as he swung you over his shoulders and made his way into the forest with you.

“Are we there yet?” You groaned at the long walk to wherever it was that Neteyam was taking you.

“C’mon, just wait a bit. We’re almost there.” Neteyam readjusted his hold on you.

“You said that like 5 minutes ago,” you rolled your eyes behind the cloth.

“You're starting to sound like Tuk with all of that complaining.” He chuckled

“Am not!”

“You see, you’re even arguing like her.” He teased as you swung your tail by his face in retaliation.

“Alright, I’m putting you down. We’re almost there, and you can walk from here.” Neteyam carefully lowered your legs to the ground. “I’ll hold your hand so you don’t fall.” He took your hand in a firm grasp and led the way.

“Alright, just a few more steps, c’mon.” Neteyam led you down a small hill and brought you to a stop at the bottom. “You can open your eyes now.”

You untied the cloth from your eyes and gasped at the view. A beautiful glowing stream flowed in front of you, and a small nearby waterfall fed it as a few hexapedes quenched their thirst on it. Lizards flew around you, and atokirinas gracefully danced in the air as some landed near the panopyras and on the lily pads in the water.

“Nete-“ you were speechless at the sight. This was the spot that made you fall in love with the forest, always so majestic and peaceful, breathtaking, and full of color and life.

“It’s beautiful, I love it! We haven't been here in ages; you know this is my favorite spot!” You gleamed as you faced Neteyam, and he smiled at your reaction.

"Well, what type of mate would I be if I didn't bring you anywhere nice on this special day?" He smirked, and your eyes widened in shock.

"You remembered?" Your jaw dropped open at his comment in realization that this indeed was for Mother's Day.

"Of course I did! How could I forget the beautiful mother of our child, huh?" Neteyam pecked your cheek with a kiss. "Happy Mother's Day, love. And thank you for being such a wonderful and good mother to our firstborn son. I couldn't have asked for anyone else."

A tear rolled down your cheek, and you quickly wiped it away and sniffled as you tried to control your emotions. "Thank you. I love you so much." You wrapped your arms around Neteyam as he embraced you in a warm hug.

"I love you." He responded as he held you in his arms and looked down at your eyes, "I've got something for you."

You simply tilted your head in confusion as he let go of you and walked behind a tree, bending down to pick something up.

He brought back an object wrapped in eyaye leaves and handed it to you.

"What is this?" You gave him a 'you shouldn't have' look.

"Just a little something for you. Open it up, sweetheart." His tail swished back and forth in nervousness as you unwrapped the gift, and your eyes lit up at the sight.

You held up two matching bracelets, both filled with your favorite colors, blue and purple. Those were the bioluminescent colors of the forest that made you fall in love with Pandora, and Neteyam knew just how special they were to you.

"Do you like it?" His ears flickered at his anxiousness.

"I love it! It's beautiful, and they're my favorite colors! Nete, you know me so well!" You ran up to Neteyam and jumped up as you gave him a hug, almost knocking him down in the process. You grabbed his face and gave him small pecks everywhere, his cheeks, forehead, nose, chin, and finally, his lips.

"Well, I'm glad you like it." He chuckled at your antics and put you down. You put one bracelet on your ankle and the other on your wrist. Both fitted perfectly, and you raised your eyebrows at Neteyam.

As if knowing what you were going to say, he blurted out, "I measured you while you were sleeping. You're not such a light sleeper after all." Neteyam smirked.

"Well, however it was that you got the size, it worked. They fit wonderfully and look absolutely beautiful. I love them so much, thank you, ma'teyam." You smiled at your thoughtful mate and the beautiful gifts, mentally scorning yourself for your doubts earlier.

"And these are for you as well." Neteyam handed you a beautiful bouquet of sun lilies, glowing blue with purple outlines surrounding the petals and stems.

"Babe... you really outdid yourself. You know that, right?" You shook your head as you gently grabbed the flowers from his hands and smelled them. "They look great and smell amazing. Thank you." You smiled up at Neteyam as he held his hand on your back, and the both of you sat at the edge of the river, legs now kicking in the water.

"I'm so grateful to have you as my mate, my beautiful wife, and the wonderful mother of our child and hopefully many more to come, if you allow it." Neteyam kissed your cheek, and you smiled at the thought.

"And I'm so grateful to have you in my life, I wouldn't trade you for anything else. You make me feel like the happiest woman on Pandora; of course I would be glad to mother all of our future children." You smiled up at the stars as you held the flowers in your hands as a child, already used to carrying your baby in that position, causing Neteyam to chuckle at the sight.

"I love you," you turned to look at him.

"And I love you." Neteyam held your face in his hand.

"Forever..." you leaned in.

"...and always." Neteyam sealed his love for you with a kiss.

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void in blue (gojo satoru) — chapter one

pairing ; satoru gojo x reader (suguru's sister)

words ; 2.7k

summary ; satoru gojo comes to your door after weeks of silence, with a proposition that will change your lives forever.

warning(s) ; mentions of sex, swearing, gojo clan being gojo clan, mentions of breeding, overall a messy argument, mentions of death

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Gojo Satoru was in bed with another woman when he got the call that he was dreading for most of his life. 

He always knew that the clan would try to pull something like this. They were all meddling in his business whether he wanted them to or not. That’s what he got for being born the strongest in all of the world, with Six Eyes and Limitless all packed into a 6 '3 package with a nice little bow on it, a gift to a clan who spent too much time worrying about the future and what it could hold. From the moment that he was old enough to comprehend the idea of marriage, he knew that it wasn’t going to be his choice. When it happened and who it would be with were out of the question. In some ways, he thought that perhaps this whole mess over the last year and a half would’ve stalled them a bit. It was the least that they could do for what happened, the turmoil being both physical and emotional for so many parties involved. 

He should’ve known that they wouldn’t be that generous. 

Typically, he didn’t like to stay the night for his hookups. It was better to fuck and be out the door within the next ten minutes so that he didn’t have to answer constant questions about whether or not he would come back. He found himself somewhat in a loop, where he would go out during the nights that he couldn’t sleep for fear of plaguing nightmares, find someone to spend his company with, and then leave before the sun came up the next morning. No matter how disheartening the loop was to the others involved, he kept telling himself that it was for the better this way. It was better to not get close to anyone again, for fear that something like Geto would happen again. In some other timeline, perhaps things would be different. His best friend would still be here and they would be teaching the next generation of Jujutsu Sorcerers together. But things weren’t different. Suguru was dead. Satoru was broken. End of story.

“Where are you going?” The woman uttered, her bright eyes finding his own under the dim light of the lamp she had turned on when he began to rustle out of bed. “You don’t want to stay for round three?” 

“I’ll call you.” 

He wouldn’t. 

—

You couldn’t tell if Satoru was trying to be an asshole or if this was something that your rose colored glasses had hid from you for all the years that you considered him your friend. He barely reached your eye when he told you that he had something to talk to you about, looking at you, though more like looking through you. There was a time that you would’ve gone to the ends of the Earth to understand what his facial expressions meant, but you couldn’t find it in yourself to care as you allowed him to push past you into your apartment.  

The silence between the two of you wasn’t even deafening, it was just awkward. Satoru made his way to the island counter, pulling back the stool and sitting on it so that he was eye level with you. He patted to the seat next to him, something that he would always do to you to get you to do what he wanted for all those years before. You refused, instead coming to the opposite side and leaning against the cool granite. He had his sunglasses on, cool blue toned eyes shining against them, right into the core of your very being. Like he was trying to rip you apart with his gaze, ripping through your ribcage and bearing your organs on display for him so that he could see the hidden depths of your emotions. You didn’t allow him to see anything, a stoic look on your face as you raised an eyebrow, pushing silently for him to begin. You didn’t want him to be here any longer than he needed to be. It seemed he was in the same boat, he looked like he wanted to run off as soon as he bore whatever news he had in store. 

“Where’d the pictures go?” Satoru asked, motioning towards the empty walls. You knew exactly what he was talking about, and yet you turned your head to look at them anyway. When you looked back at Satoru, he was glaring at you. 

You shrugged. “Seemed fitting.” 

“Do you plan on just erasing his memory all together? Even the good parts?” 

You could’ve hit him for that. 

You had never been a particularly violent person, always preferring talking something out rather than resorting to punches and kicks. It seemed like that part of you had been taken and stored away somewhere, tucked between the junction of your heart and lungs, slowly being squeezed to death every second your pulse beat. Satoru always liked getting under your skin, something that came with the title of being your brother's best friend. But to do it now? It was like he was trying to make you mad. 

“You tell me, you’re the one that killed him.” 

“Don’t act like you didn’t have any part of that, like I wasn’t doing what was best for everyone.” 

You scoffed. “Oh yes, the great Satoru Gojo. Man of the people.” 

A silence fell, to where you could only glare at him and he could pretend to be hurt. It was clear that he wasn’t able to fool you, to charm you like the rest of his friends into thinking that any of this was okay. It wasn’t. It wouldn’t ever be okay. You wished to live in a world where you didn’t have to think about Satoru, where you could forget all about him and what happened to your brother, to your family. 

However, in some sick way, you could only hope to cling onto him. Whether that be with hatred or disgust or anything in between. He was the only one who could even begin to understand what you were going through, and as much as you hated to admit it, you would never be rid of Satoru Gojo. 

“Why are you here, Satoru? It’s the middle of the night,” You asked. You turned around and turned on the electric stove, putting the water filled kettle on like it was muscle memory. When a friend came over, you always made tea for them. It turns out that the body remembers those types of things even if your mind doesn’t. You reached for the glass container that held different types of tea bags, from herbal to caffeinated, instinctively grabbing the sweetest one for him. Some things never did change.

“There’s something that I need to talk to you about.” 

“You already said that,” You snapped. “Do you plan on dragging this out or would you like to tell me what is so important that you couldn’t wait until morn—” 

“The clan wants us to marry.” 

Your movements stalled, your hand hovering over the handle of the kettle as it started to squeak with the pressure of the steam coming out of the spout. Instead of relieving it and allowing for it to cool off, you stood there, staring at it, as the kettle started to get louder and louder. If Satoru was talking, you couldn’t hear it, the shrieking filling up the walls of the apartment until you decided to relieve it, pushing it away and burning yourself in the process. You couldn’t feel it though, numbness seeping ever so slightly into your entire body as you processed the word he spoke over and over again. Marry. 

Satoru continued to speak. “The clan,” a sigh, “my clan, thinks that it’s in everyone's best interest if I marry someone in order to provide for the future. I thought that they were going to choose someone from their own families, to further some type of political agenda, but they want you.” 

You couldn’t believe your ears. You were sure that your family was blacklisted from Jujutsu society after what happened with your brother. You were the only one left, and you were fine with being shunned and whatever came from that, but to be integrated into it in such an . . . intimate way? It sounded almost comical, like he was making it up. For a moment, you thought about the notion that maybe he was making it up. But as you turned around and looked at him, there wasn’t a hint of enjoyment scattered across the part of his face that you could say. In fact, this was probably the most distressed that you had ever seen him. 

“You can’t expect me to accept this,” You said. “This doesn’t even make sense, why me? They want us to marry, after everything that happened?” 

Satoru nodded, as if it was black and white, like this was the easiest thing in the world to talk about. It made you want to rip out your hair, that he was able to act so emotionless about something like this. Your future. His future. He acted like it was something that could be controlled by people who had no idea what the fuck was going on, people who only saw your lives as something to be meddled in and played with like you were toy dolls. “They believe that it’s the only way to secure the future of Jujutsu society. Your bloodline is powerful, whether you want to admit it or not. They think our union could produce the strongest sorcerer the world has ever seen.” 

You laughed bitterly, shaking your head. You couldn’t believe a word he was saying. “So, this is about breeding a powerful sorcerer? Like we’re some kind of livestock? Do they actually think that this will work? That I would agree to this with no questions asked?” 

“It’s more than that,” Satoru said, his voice strained. “The recent rise in cursed spirits has everyone on edge. The clan elders believe that combining our strengths is the only way to ensure our survival. It’s not just politics; it’s the world’s survival. It’s what’s best for everyone.” 

“I’m supposed to marry you to save the world? Do they really think that a forced marriage will do that?” You scoffed, the bitterness in your tone ever so clear. “What’s best for everyone,” You repeated, disbelief lacing each syllable of your words. “And what about what’s best for us? For me? My brother is dead because of you, there’s no mending that.” 

Satoru leaned against the counter, his hand reaching for your own, which you pulled away before he could touch, going back to making the tea so that you had something to do instead of staying idle and listening to this . . . this bullshit. “They think it’s our best shot,” He replied. “They’re desperate, and desperate people do desperate things.” 

With the weight of his words and the reality of the situation pressing down on you both, you poured the boiling water into two cups, the motions automatic and detached. “You’re actually considering this,” You spoke, more a statement than a question. You felt a wave of anger rising, mixed with sadness and confusion. None of this made sense to you, really. There seemed to be a better option, but when you thought about it, you couldn’t come to any conclusions. You felt as dumb as the rest of the clan was.  “I can’t believe you’d go along with this bullshit.” 

“I don’t want to force you into anything,” Satoru said, his usual arrogance gone, laced with something you couldn’t quite put your fingers on. “But if we don’t do this, the consequences could be disastrous, more people could get hurt. We could lose everything.” 

“And you think marrying me will prevent that?” You shot back, putting the teabag in both of your cups and turning to push the cup towards him on the table. You then crossed your arms over your chest. “Do you really believe that, or is this just another way for your clan to control us? To control you?” 

“This isn’t about control; it’s about survival.” 

“Satoru, I don’t know if you have noticed, but I don’t necessarily care about my survival,” You spat, the bitterness in your voice cutting through the air. You didn’t care if you lived or if you died, you didn’t care what happened to Jujutsu society, especially if the future meant more Satoru’s running around the world. It was all in ruin, and to you, everything could just get worse. Why would you contribute to that? 

Satoru flinched, but he held his ground, as he always did. His expression tightened, his brows furrowing slightly at your words.  “You should care,” He said, his voice low but firm. “Survival isn’t just about you anymore. It’s about everyone who depends on us.” 

You scoffed bitterly, the irony of the situation seeping into your voice. “Everyone who depends on us? Like my brother who depended on you? Look where that got him.” You could almost hear your brother’s laugh through the silence. 

His jaw clenched visibly, the usually composed facade beginning to crack under your words. “I didn’t ask for any of this to happen,” He retorted, a flicker of defensiveness in his tone. “I tried to protect him, tried to get him to see reason, tried to get him —”

“Did you?” You shot back, your voice rising with accusation that was all too familiar these days. “Or were you too busy playing the hero, too blinded by your own arrogance to see the consequences? To see that he was hurting too. That he could’ve been detained.” 

Satoru took a sharp breath, as if your words were a physical blow. “I did what I thought was right,” he said through gritted teeth. “Just like I’m trying to do now.” 

“Right?” You scoffed. “There’s nothing right about any of this.” 

He reached out again, his hand hovering in the air between the two of you as if he wanted to comfort you but knew better than to try. Not if he wanted to have boiling water thrown into his face and cuts from a broken teacup along his pale cheeks. “I wish there was another way,” He said. “We have to figure out a way to navigate this together. Maybe there’s a way we can turn this situation to our advantage.” 

“Advantage?” You echoed incredulously. “There’s no advantage in being shackled to you.” 

“Maybe not now,” He admitted, his gaze almost pleading. You almost felt bad for him. “But if we work together—”

“I won’t be your pawn,” You interrupted, your voice trembling with a raw defiance you had thought you lost the moment your brother died. “Not now, not ever.” There was no world where you would bend to the whims of Satoru Gojo and let him walk all over you. Not him or his clan elders. 

Satoru looked at you with a mix of . . . what? Was it anger? Annoyance? Pity? You were unsure. Perhaps it was unfair of you to be this unruly about it, when he was the bearer of bad news. You knew that this decision wasn’t his deep down, but that didn’t stop you from being angry at him for it. This was the first time that you have seen him in days, since everything that happened, and he was telling you this? He made it seem like you had a choice in the matter. The truth was that you didn’t. “Suguru would want you—” 

“Do not bring him into this,” You said, your stern tone wavering with a mixture of unshed tears threatening to spill out of your eyes. “I don’t want you to ever say his name to me. You don’t deserve to.” 

Satoru sighed, a mix of resignation and determination mixed into his expression. “I didn’t expect you to make this easy. But I hope you’ll at least consider what’s at stake.” 

You turned away from him. “I’ll consider it,” you finally said. “But don’t expect me to agree to this without a fight.” 

“I wouldn’t expect anything less from you.” 

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Gone Mad

Lee Jooyeon Summary: The first time you met Jooyeon you had no clue he was a villain. You didn’t find that out till your second meeting. (non-idol au) WC:905 Warning:none

part 2 part 3 epilogue!

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“So I’m not the only one who knows about this place?” A voice suddenly spoke behind you making you jump. The guy laughs at your startledness. “Sorry. You startle easily?” he asked, taking a seat next to you on the fallen tree. 

“I wasn’t expecting anyone else to be here,” you say. 

“Me either. I like coming here to be alone,” he states. 

“I can go then.” You start to stand up from the tree, but then you feel a tug on your wrist.

“You can stay. I don’t mind your presence,” he tells you. He didn’t mind your presence, however you could feel that there was something different about his. Still, perhaps your better judgment, you sat back down. His grip on your wrist leaves once you do so. 

A silence fell over the both of you. It felt oddly comfortable. This guy was a stranger. You didn’t even know his name and he was probably sitting too close. The tree was more than big enough to have a respectable amount of distance between you two, yet he only sat a few inches away. Despite those things the atmosphere was calm, almost as if you were two friends sitting on a tree in the dark ambience of night. 

You looked up through the standing tree to look at the stars shining through in between the leaves. A sigh leaves your body and your shoulders slouch. 

“Something bothering you?” He questioned. You turned your head to look at him and fix your posture, sitting back up straight. 

“I guess there is, but why do you care?” you asked. 

“I’m a curious guy,” he shrugged. 

“Well there’s this guy,” you started. 

“That never ends well,” he joked. 

“Especially not in this case.” You shake your head. “Anyway there’s this guy. He keeps showing up at where I work trying to pursue me and he is anything but respectful about it. No matter how many times I turn him down he always ignores it. He keeps saying that I’m so lucky that a  chivalrous knight like him has interest in me, but if anything it’s a curse. I wish he would just disappear,” you ranted. 

“Disappear?” Jooyeon’s ears perked and a smirk pulled at his lips. 

“Yeah, I just want him to stop bothering me,” you say. 

“Then hopefully he stops bothering you soon.” Something about his tone was a bit unsettling. 

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It’s been four days since the guy that had been bothering you showed up. Don’t get it wrong you were very grateful, but his sudden disappearance was weird. 

“Maybe he finally moved on to his next victim,” your colleague played as you hung the fabrics out to display. 

“Then I feel bad for them,” you joked too. 

“Or,” she started. 

“Or?” you pressed. 

“Did you kill him?” She raised her playfully brow at you.

“No, I didn’t kill him,” you laughed

“I wouldn't blame you if you did. I thought about doing it for you sometimes. He really pissed me off too,” she said.

“Let’s just rejoice that he’s gone,” you say. 

“Oh trust me. I am rejoicing.” The two of you burst into a fit of happy giggles. 

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As you're walking to your little spot in the woods you walk past a tree that has a wanted sign posted on it. Out of curiosity you stop to look at the sign. The picture of the wanted man just looked like your average man. It literally could have been most of the guys who lived in your village. “Wanted for killing a palace knight”

“They really have no clue what I look like.” A voice spoke directly behind you. You turned around to come face to face with the man you sat on the tree with about a week ago.

“Are you happy that he’s gone now?” he asked you. You couldn’t formulate any words. You froze at the shocking realization. First, the knight didn’t just suddenly leave you alone, he was dead and the guy standing right in front of you smiling killed him. “Is it really that surprising?” he asked you.

“You said you wanted him to disappear. Who else could have done that besides me?” he smirked. The color drains from your face. 

“Y-you made him disappear b-because of m-me?” your voice shook. 

“Although I am quite fond of you for some reason you aren’t that special sugar plum.” He tapped your nose.  “I would have gotten rid of him eventually, but I guess you sped up the process,” he tells you. “Oh, I did feel a little something in my chest knowing getting rid of him would make you happier,” he noted.

Now you realize you should have trusted your better judgment. You shouldn’t have sat back down on the fallen tree with him. You should have left and gone home and shouldn’t have come back to this place either. It used to feel like a sanctuary, a place of peace, but now your heart pounds rapidly against your chest.

“Can you not look so scared of me? It hurts.” He placed a hand over his chest and pouted. “I’m not gonna hurt you, so let’s go look at the stars.” Without waiting for your answer he grabs you by your wrist and tugs you along to where the fallen tree laid.

“The stars are pretty don’t you think?” He turned to look at you. 

“...yeah they are,” you hesitantly answer.

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[crevassier]

the door swings shut behind sylvain as soon as he enters the oddly empty classroom. the calloused palm spread across said door leads up a burly arm and to a pair of green daggers for eyes.

"sylvain."  is seteth's singular greeting—or perhaps it is a eulogy. perhaps it is an omen for all else to follow. because seteth sees and hears all. and what has most recently come to his knowledge does not make him a happy boy.

"a word."  seteth's hands join behind the small of his back. sylvain ought to start clasping his own hands as well. the older man slinks forward with easy, soundless steps, circling sylvain like a snake might coil its mark, circling sylvain like a vulture and not a hawk—because it is the vulture that comes for what is already dead.

"there have been unsavory reports of a certain scoundrel running about the monastery. bystanders attest that, under the ruse of holiday spirit, this fellow has been approaching young girls with impure intentions."  a cant of his head. the footsteps slow to a halt behind sylvain.  "might you know anything about him? he has caused many of these girls unacceptable volumes of grief. i should like to hear your opinion on what disciplinary measures i might mete out for our culprit."

“Seteth- woah, hey…”

Sylvain was well aware he had been roaming purely on borrowed time, that at any moment the consequences for his actions would catch up to him regardless of what he did or said- because that’s how it has always been, hardly a surprise for the red haired boy. This was a game he had been playing for most of his life by now, with or without the mistletoe, the shrub being just a convenient excuse he could use and abuse to his own delight.

However, even if retaliation was familiar and expected, it didn’t change the fact it was still able to knock him off his axis. If anything, if this had gone off as usual- a tearful girl trying to berate him, an angry brother or surprise boyfriend chasing him with a weapon in hand, a group of friends cornering him ready to beat him up, it would’ve been better. Take the beating, run away and hide, let the dust settle. Give it maybe a week and return to the playing field as if nothing happened.

Seteth’s wrath was one of the few things Sylvain wasn’t quite keen on dealing with. This was no upset nameless girl or run of the mill angry friend, this was a man perfectly capable of doing real damage to his future- and not the physical kind.

(Well, physical too if he really wanted.) 

Knowing Seteth, it was best to just put his cards on the table already.

“Look-” The heir of Gautier took a step away, one hand reaching up to scratch the back of his head as he looked around nervously. “I didn’t do anything to Flayn! I just asked for a kiss, but I didn’t actually make any moves towards her! She just threw some fish at me and left, and I didn’t pursue her any more!” As much as Sylvain naturally held disdain for most girls, Flayn was an exception. She was his sweet classmate, cute as a bug- he just wanted to tease her a little bit, but not actually hurt her in any way. "It was just for a joke..."

The corner of his lip pulled slightly, almost as if he held back a wince. “I’m well aware of those…disciplinary measures, I’m passing on the reminders, thanks…I promise I’m not going to approach her like that again. Just don’t cook me alive or anything.” Ingrid and Dimitri were probably already going to do that in the near future- perhaps even his father if word reaches him. Which it most likely will.

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Never Underestimate Alya Ch. 3

AO3/FFN

Alya scowled, grabbing the bars of her small cage. Monarch had left around twenty minutes ago. From what he’d said about “People won’t look for you if they think you’re already dead,” she assumed that he was off to fake her death somehow. With the Fox Miraculous at his disposal, it wouldn’t be hard. 

She looked balefully over at Trixx’s container, still empty. Monarch had made sure to snag her friend on his way out, much to her dismay.

She hoped the process of being sucked into one of those Miraculous substitute rings was more pleasant than the process of being sucked through an Alliance ring. Going through that once was bad enough, but being put through that multiple times a week? That would be unbearable.

What could she even do? She was just stuck here, alone, in this damn cage! And not the pleasant kind of “stuck in a cage” either. No, this time instead of being stuck with a cute, nice boy, she was stuck in the cage by herself, in the dingy, dark lair of a supervillain.

She punched one of the bars in frustration. She didn’t actually expect it to do anything but hurt her fist, but… was it her imagination, or did the cage move slightly?

Hm… Monarch had hastily constructed it with the Goat Miraculous, so maybe…

She kneeled, checking the bottom of the bars. It was as she’d thought. The bars weren’t actually connected to the floor - they were merely resting on top of it.

Standing back up, she gripped the bars, heaving upwards with all her might. She’d have to weight lift with Nora more if she got out of this, this cage was HEAVY.

It budged.

Not much. An inch at most. But it was something.

She let it fall to the floor. She couldn’t do much else right now, it took all her strength just to hold it up… but maybe she could get around that.

She took off her shirt, wincing at the thought of what she was about to do to it. At least she always wore an undershirt, or this could get uncomfortable.

She wadded it up, nudging it beside one of the bars. Then, when she lifted the cage again, she nudged her shirt wad underneath it just before letting go.

The cage didn’t fall all the way down to the floor. Instead, it was stuck an inch off the ground, held up by her shirt.

Which meant that the cage was now off-balance.

She took a deep breath, braced herself, and threw herself full force at the top of the cage on the opposite side.

The cage trembled, creaked, and at last, fell over, landing with a heavy *CLANG*. Unfortunately she fell with it, landing on her shoulder. 

She winced. That was definitely going to leave a bruise.

Stepping gingerly over the bars, she extricated herself from the cage. 

“You got out?!” 

Oh right, the kwamis! Trixx might be gone, but the rest of them were still here.

She grinned. “Monarch needs to stop underestimating me.”

Come to think of it, how was she able to lift that cage? Metal weighs a ton. She looked back over at the fallen cage.

Ah. That’s how. The bars were all hollow. He probably had pictured the usual bars of metal he’d encounter during his day-to-day life, which would often be hollow, instead of the solid metal which would be more practical in this case. Since the inside wasn’t visible, he hadn’t realized his mistake.

Hopefully Monarch had made just as big of an error when it came to the kwamis’ imprisonment. She wasn’t counting on it though. He’d been able to take his time in deciding how best to do so, and if there was some easily exploitable flaw, the kwamis would have found it in the month that they’d been imprisoned for.

Still, it didn’t hurt to try. Perhaps there was a weakness that could be exploited from the outside, but not the inside.

“Do you guys have any clue how I could get you out?” she asked. Hm. Actually… “Is there a reason you can’t just phase through the glass?”

“It has been specially treated to prevent us from doing so,” Sass explained. 

She was curious how Monarch did that, but it wasn’t important right now - she doubted she’d have the expertise to undo it, and she certainly didn’t have access to the materials. “Trixx said something about him feeding you guys pellets. How did he do that?” Maybe she could use the same mechanism to get the kwamis out. 

“He snapped his fingers and the food just fell from the top of the container,” Daizzi answered. She shuddered. “It’s bland and gross, but it’s all we’ve had.”

“Likely from this central hole,” Alya noted, looking at the top of one of the orbs. There had to be some way to replace the lost food. There didn’t appear to be a central tube at the top, so the food must be contained within the sphere itself. 

Which meant that the top of the sphere had to be unscrewable.

She tugged Sass’ orb out of place. It was pretty easy to do, given that it was just hovering in the air. Magnets, maybe? Seemed awfully ostentatious, but then again, this whole lair seemed like typical supervillain overkill. It would make the orbs easy to remove for maintenance, she supposed.

Now… if only… this thing… would open!

She grimaced, panting after trying to untwist it. Nora was the champion jar opener at her house, but she was no slouch herself. 

Maybe it didn’t twist to open. Maybe a key instead? No, there was no keyhole to insert one into. Not that it would do her much good, she didn’t have the key. Maybe she could pick the lock, but she hadn’t learned how to do that. Yet, that is. She’d thought about suggesting that her and Marinette work on learning the skill together, since it could be handy for a couple of superheroes to be able to get themselves out of some scrapes, but reconsidered after thinking about it for a minute.

Lockpicking was a useful skill for superheroes to have. But for MARINETTE to have… well, maybe it was better if a kwami had to agree to help her to break through a lock. She loved her friend, she really did, but sometimes she needed someone to slow her down and make her think about what she was doing.

…okay so maybe Marinette wasn’t the only one who sometimes needed a steadying presence. But hey, things had worked out for her so far! Mostly. She’d gotten out of that cage, hadn’t she?

She shook her head. Focus, Alya, focus!

Okay, so there was no keyhole, and she was beginning to think that the lid didn’t unscrew, either. So how else might it open?

She frowned, looking at the thing that held the orbs. It was almost futuristic seeming, with making the kwami orbs float instead of just having them sit in something. And then there were the Alliance rings, with how those were being used to transfer kwami powers…

Monarch liked tech. Maybe the orbs were controlled digitally? It’d give an extra layer of protection against anyone else freeing the kwamis. 

Dammit, if that was it, she was screwed. Max and Markov could almost certainly bypass whatever this was, but she stood no chance.

“Maybe I should just try to break the glass?” she wondered. It wouldn’t be pleasant for the kwami inside, but she doubted they could be injured by glass shards or sudden impacts.

Sass shook his head. “This is no ordinary glass. An elephant could step on it and it’d be alright.”

“Not like we have an elephant, anyway,” she muttered. Her dad had been hoping they’d get one for the zoo, but it hadn’t happened yet.

Right. So she couldn’t shatter the glass or untwist the lid, though she could freely remove the orbs. If she could just get out of here, she could rescue at least one of the kwamis. 

Unfortunately, getting out of there was the hard part. And getting back to her friends might be even harder, for all she knew. Trixx had said that Monarch’s home was Chat’s home, so presumably that was in Paris, but there was no guarantee that his lair was. He had Kaalki now after all, he could have moved it to just about anywhere. 

Well, maybe not anywhere. She'd probably notice if she was on the moon.

She’d just have to hope that she wasn’t anywhere too remote. Not much she could do if she was.

Hm, come to think of it…

“Are we still in Paris?” she asked Sass.

He nodded. 

“Before Trixx and I were sucked in, he said something about how Monarch’s home is Chat’s home. Can you tell me what that means?”

“Monarch is Chat’s father,” he explained simply.

She sucked in a sharp breath. It made sense, given what Trixx had said, but it was still mind-boggling that someone as awful as Monarch could have a son as heroic as Chat Noir. “Does he know?” she pressed. “That Chat Noir is his son?”

All the kwamis shook their heads.

“He tried to akumatize Chat Noir as a civilian, KNOWING that he’s his son. I dread to think what he’d do if he knew his son was also his enemy,” Sass said.

Ugh. Looked like Monarch was just as awful a person as both a supervillain, and a father. 

Oh, man. If Ladybug and Chat Noir took down Monarch, then not only would Chat have to deal with the knowledge that his father had caused all this pain, but he’d be down a parent as well.

She winced. “Is Chat Noir’s mother an okay person at least?”

Sass shrugged. “I do not know. She died awhile ago. Monarch’s hoping to revive her – at least, that’s his stated goal. I think he lost sight of that some time ago, however.”

That… was a more altruistic goal than she’d imagined for such a heinous man. She’d always thought that Monarch wanted world domination or infinite riches, but wanting to bring back his wife – well, the mother of his son at least, she didn’t know for sure that they were married, but it seemed likely – that was a more relatable goal than she’d anticipated.

“I’m guessing the price of granting such a Wish would be someone else’s life?” she asked. Marinette had told her the basics of how it worked.

Sass nodded. “Monarch would be able to choose whose life to trade.”

Hm… who would he be okay with…?

Oh.

Oh no.

“Could– could he trade Marinette’s life for his wife’s?” she stammered. While she couldn’t rule out the idea that he might be willing to trade his son’s, it made a lot more sense to her for him to trade the nemesis that he wasn’t actually related to. Even as bad of a father as Monarch was, surely he’d prefer to kill a girl he only knew as an enemy, over his own son. 

“He could, if he ever got his hands on both Miraculous,” Sass confirmed. “Though he has not actually said whose life he would trade for his wife’s.”

Huh. She didn’t know what to make of that. Surely he’d at least thought about it. Maybe he hadn’t decided on who he would sacrifice? Or he was trying not to think about it. Maybe there was room to convince him not to go through with the Wish?

She glanced around at the kwamis in their prison orbs and her own overturned jail. 

Nah, there was no reasoning with this guy, he was nuts.

A mechanical *brrrrrr* sound started up. 

“He’s coming! Quick, hide!” Sass warned.

She looked around wildly, her heart pounding. Why couldn’t Monarch have a super messy lair like a lot of other supervillains, instead of this minimalist crap? Like, surely he could have put in some chairs or a sofa or something so he could sit down and rest after a long day of villainy?

But no. It was dimly lit at least, that was in her favor, but there was barely anything in the massive lair. Seriously, this place was at least half as big as her family’s entire apartment, and it was just empty, cavernous space! The only things in here were the kwamis and her cage, what was she supposed to do with that?

Wait… even overturned, the cage’s roof was taller than her, maybe even taller than Monarch…

In a split-second decision, she hid behind her cage, away from the elevator. Sure, hiding from Monarch in a room with such little stuff may be unlikely, but it’s not like she had much to lose. Besides, this wouldn’t be her first time playing supervillain hide-and-seek. First she hid from Monarch when he was controlling the Bubbler, managing to transform, make an illusion, and sneak out to the bathroom right under his nose, and then later she managed to hide and escape from Shadybug and Claw Noir while they were ransacking Marinette’s room. 

…this happened to her kind of a lot, didn’t it?

“WHAT?!” Monarch shouted. She could imagine him looking wildly around the room, trying to find her. 

She tried not to breathe.

“KWAMIS! WHERE DID THE GIRL GO!” he demanded.

“We- we don’t know, we didn’t see,” Barkk stammered.

Ah, the kwamis must have intentionally looked away as she hid so that they couldn’t be forced to divulge her location to Monarch. Clever.

Monarch growled, his footsteps coming closer.

Quickly, silently, she walked to the side, trying to get the timing just right so he wouldn’t see her go around the corner. 

She must have nailed it, because he let out a curse. “She had to have hacked the elevator somehow! If she got into the mansion–”

He let out a sudden gasp. “Adrien! That’s it! She would have gone to his room, she’d be hiding him!”

She stifled her own horrified gasp. Adrien was not an uncommon name, but an Adrien whose father was a dick, his mother was dead, and the whole family, what was left of it, lived in a mansion? She doubted there was more than one “Adrien” who fit those criteria in the whole of Paris.

Wait, if Adrien was Chat Noir, Marinette was Ladybug, and now they were dating–

Nope, not the time for that, Alya. Concentrate on the supervillain now, deal with the ramifications of identity reveals later. There would be pillows to scream into once this was all over.

*clunk* *eeeeeyoooouuuorr*

She frowned, trying to figure out the noise. It sounded almost mechanical? Actually, it kind of reminded her of some of the sounds she’d heard while being transported through the Alliance ring.

“You won’t get away with this!” a familiar voice declared.

Her heart raced. She’d know her kwami’s voice anywhere. He was alright! Well, as alright as he could be while stuck in that device.

“Oh, I think I will,” Monarch said. She could practically hear him smirking. “The girl may have thought that by telling Adrien my identity, that this was all over. I can feel him now, his grief, his anger, his disbelief. Darkness my akuma can feast on.”

He really would akumatize his own son. Sass had said as much, but she hadn’t wanted to believe it. He wasn’t concerned about Adrien’s welfare at all.

Wait, why was Adrien feeling those emotions? Was it because of Monarch faking her death? Could he not tell the difference between those feelings and the ones Adrien would be having if he found out Monarch’s identity? According to the kwamis, the Butterfly Holder could actually hear some of the thoughts of the people they were scanning. How could Monarch make such a mistake? Something seemed weird here…

“Kaalki! Your power is now mine!” 

She heard a *whoosh* sound, culminating in a yell of, “Voyage, my megakuma!”

This was her chance. That portal would lead out of here.

Jumping up, she got her first glimpse of the portal.

Her hopes came crashing down.

It was far too small and far too high up for her to have any chance of getting through.

“YOU!” Monarch yelled, whipping around to face her.

She thought fast. Sure, SHE couldn’t escape, but that didn’t mean everyone had to be trapped.

Without hesitation, she grabbed Trixx’s orb, hurling it at the portal with all her might, praying that all her experience with dodgeball would pay off.

It went through, the portal shrinking into nothingness a half-second later.

Monarch growled, stalking towards her. “Oh, you will regret that, I will make sure of it.”

She took a deep breath, holding her arms in the boxing pose Nora had drilled into her head. She just needed to hold him off long enough for Ladybug and Chat Noir to arrive.

She hoped they didn’t take long.

[cocrante]

Walking the Wire

[SOLANGELO FANFIC]

summary: The dreams at Camp Half-Blood have vanished. Gentle nights embrace the campers in their hours of sleep, but just as the dreams have disappeared, so have the prophecies. For a mortal, this might not mean anything—nightmares suddenly gone, sweet nights wrapped them in the warmth of the sheets—but for a demigod, dreams are the bridge that connects them between the mortal and immortal worlds, an annoying bell that keeps them constantly on alert, and without those to disturb their nights, it was like losing their compass. But not everyone is without dreams, if "dream" this can be called, one is still allowed to travel in the dream world, perhaps out of pity and compassion of the Fates.

note: this is the second part of the fanfiction "I Start Over with You" also quite old and written a few weeks after the release of the third book "The Trials of Apollo" series. It contains significant spoilers, so please do not read it unless you have read the books first. If you decide to proceed, I will not be held responsible.

additional note: the chapters will be updated every Wednesday. If you want to read upcoming chapters of the fanfiction in advance, I invite you to follow me on Patreon. Subscribing is not necessary, these chapters will be added for free on the platform on Saturday. Following me there is just a kind and free gesture to support my work c:

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[PROLOGUE]

BEING A DEMIGOD MEANS COMING TO TERMS WITH A FATE THAT ONE COULD NOT CHOOSE. Every half-blood has to come to terms with that as soon as they step through the camp gates. Each of them has their battles, their own wars to fight, and they're not always against monsters, often the worst battles are against themselves, and there's no retreating from those. You can't run from yourself, you can't hide, you just have to face your fears, face the person staring back at you judgmentally from the mirror.

Nico di Angelo had always faced such battles. He couldn't escape the shadow of his father reflecting in his eyes; he couldn't cling to fond memories because he didn't have any. For years, he had been alone, surrounded by ghosts and shades of the dead, searching among them for his lost sister, to see her again, to receive one last caress, to bid her farewell. He wandered alone through the mortal world, faced the Tartarus with his own strength, survived it, escaped the giants —children of Gaea— and heard the melodious voice of Cupid, which pierced him like a sword. For years, he had thought he was fighting alone, but he was wrong. He had been saved countless times by friends, reaching out a hand, warming him with a smile, standing by him when Cupid himself spoke to him and exposed him to who was a stranger to him. He was so angry with himself that he had to take it out on the one person who was with him that time, who was somehow trying to cheer him up, not knowing who he was facing "The only person who ever accepted me in my life was Bianca, and she's dead!" he yelled "I didn't choose any of this, my father, my feelings—" those words now swirling in his mind. Jason was there that day, the one everyone loved was there to help him, standing by his side, trying to be his friend. Jason had probably been a better friend to him than anyone else.

Yet Fatum in the life of a demigod can also be merciful. It sews small pearls of happiness into the colorful tapestry of life, allowing even the unluckiest of half-bloods a chance to be happy again, and Nico —that happiness— found it in Will's smile.

Will Solace, just one of Apollo's beautiful children, had managed to bring light into the darkness surrounding Nico with little effort. "You could have new memories" Will told him one afternoon at the bay, where they skipped stones across the flat surface of the sea. At the time, Nico almost laughed; the only new memories he had were definitely not the best ones to hold onto at night. Will knew this and was ready to be the architect of those new memories himself. He wanted to give him something to warm him at night, to embrace him in those moments of melancholy. He wanted to be the one, and only one, to bring him back to the light. They spent a month together at Camp Half-Blood, spending afternoons laughing, fighting in the arena, talking about themselves and the future that awaited them outside the camp. In those days, Nico felt like an ordinary boy, relieved of the burden every demigod was forced to carry. Will was a breath of fresh air, and Nico breathed in as much of it as he could: with Will beside him, he truly felt happy again.

Things were starting to go well for him too: he had friends who cared about his life, he had a friend to rely on and confide in when things got heavy, he had found new love, and one December evening he sealed that love with a kiss.

For a week at Camp Half-Blood, all anyone talked about was them, the new relationship between the Ghost King and a son of Apollo. Many bet on a quick end to this strange relationship, others watched with interest and curiosity, only friends congratulated them. Jason, who spent a few days at camp that winter, couldn't help but spill the paranoia Nico had long before meeting him at the bay. Will, with a smile, told the same of himself.

They spent wonderful weeks together, weeks spent getting to know each other, trusting each other, letting themselves cry. It was the first time Will saw Nico cry, and in those tears, there was nothing but the suffering of years spent repressing it, but with it there was also freedom; Nico was finally free to start again, and he was happy that Will was giving him this opportunity.

Slowly, December came to an end—some of the half-bloods had to go back to school, or so it should have been if one day Chiron muttered "The air is shifting" looking thoughtfully at the leaden sky, about to unleash a storm that didn't want to break.

The demigods now had a choice to make, to stay at camp and wait or to return to their homes. Chiron wouldn't stop them.

Nico knew he had to stay. Reluctantly, he informed Reyna at Camp Jupiter that he couldn't return to New Rome at the beginning of January, he didn't even know when or if he would ever be able to return. Then it was Will's turn to decide, it wasn't an easy choice for him either, but his place was with Nico:—"I'll stay" he said those words with the lightness of someone who hadn't had to think about it, squeezing the no longer so cold hand of the son of Hades. All of Apollo's cabin followed their head counselor, and they stayed at camp—if another war broke out, they would need archers and healers.

Most of the demigods stayed at camp to train, to wait for something or someone who would soon enter at Camp Half-Blood.

[CONTENTS]

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[shunshunrika]

Hi, for your recent event, I hope you can consider this request! 💖

FLUFF 7 + SMUT 27 + Gojo Satoru + (no kink specified: up to author!)

₊˚Ꮚ𓂅୨⊹ OBSESSION - GOJO SATORU

warnings - SMUT, afab! reader, mirror sex, dacryphilia, humiliation, overstimulation, recording, oral (m! and f! receiving), facial, dirty talk, squirting, pet-names, not proofread.

MDNI, 18+ only!!!!

a/n: Satoruuu, why are you THAT hot? also, can't believe this is my first toru smut? I'm a toru account..what??

Gojo Satoru, your very own boyfriend, usually known as the man who knows everything, doesn't know about your obsession with him.

Yeah, you have been dating him for a bit over 6 months now and yet, you keep forgetting that you are. You are still in your 'crush' headspace after all this time. Probably because Gojo Satoru is internet famous and a lot of people, like you, are in love with him. It totally gives you an existential crisis sometimes - that you are not one of those fangirls, but his actual girlfriend. That doesn't soothe your tendencies though.

You still steal glances at him and find your cheeks turning red-hot, you find ways to sneak a peek at his naked, steamy form when he's done showering, hell you will even read fanfiction about him and save particularly juicy fanart if you come across it. Recently, you had come across certain pictures of his, drawn by a very talented artist - (bless, you even tipped her anonymously)

Ever since then, it has been the photo that adorns your phone screen. Obviously, you had a different lock screen since you didn't want Satoru to know but you could ogle at this art of Satoru all you wanted in secrecy. Satoru never knew you had this side to you. He always felt you were the more independent one emotionally and he was clingy. Little did he know though. It felt indecent, childish but you loved your little secret all the more.

You had gone a few weeks without Satoru ever noticing until one day, in the middle of the supermarket, Satoru needed your phone to look at the grocery list.

"I put down ice-cream in there, baby. Did you remove it again?" Satoru whined rather loudly. A few women passing by chuckled at the two of you, bantering in the aisle.

"Satoru. We don't need ice-cream every week, okay? Do you love your dentist more than me?" is your rebuttal.

"She's prettier..." Satoru hums to himself, earning a slap on his back from you, making him chuckle.

"Well if not ice-cream, what's left..." Satoru started scrolling through the list until he seemed to have found something.

"Oh, what's this?" he asked, rhetorically. "Wow."

For a second, you feel an ominous air. You stop dead in your tracks and feel the urge to look at what Satoru is looking at. Sure enough, his blue eyes reflect the half-naked art of his own silhouette, vibrant in all its glory right on your home-screen. You almost forget how to breathe when you snatch the phone out of his hands aggressively.

"S-Satoru, I-"

"Y/N, seriously?" he asked, amused.

“Am I your wallpaper?”

“You weren’t supposed to see that!” you exclaim, a bit too loud for a public place. You calm yourself down and clear your throat before continuing. "u-uh. I thought it looked, uh, good...so"

"Y/N!" his face cringed up. "Oh my lord, you love me that much. And here I used to think you found another man because you keep ignoring me!" Satoru pouted quietly, still eyeing your phone. You could sense the onlookers' eyes bore a hole through your back so at this point, you just grabbed Satoru and made a run for the billing line. After you were in your car, you finally breathed a sigh of relief. Satoru still wouldn't shut up about the picture on the ride home as you drove. He had convinced you to hand him your phone so he could look at the picture better from all angles. What he was looking at, only he knew.

You were so happy he hadn't figured out that there were more.

"Huh..."

Another bout of unease. You perhaps spoke too soon.

"THERE'S MORE?" he exclaimed so loud while swiping left and right, you almost slammed your breaks.

"Satoru! Stop that!" you screamed. "Give me back my phone!" you lurched at him trying to get your device filled with his lewd pictures back.

"Y/N, are you really that horny for me?" He asked genuinely.

"You should've told me 4 times a week was still insufficient for you."

"Satoru, please." at this point you were so embarrassed, your eyes were tearing up. You didn't wait for his response, parked and ran straight into your house, kicking off your shoes. He could keep the phone, do whatever. He could think you are a freak, or obsessed, or gross or whatever! You sniffed as you climbed into your king-sized bed and hugged yourself. This was so humiliating!

"Y/N? You cryin'?" Satoru was right on your heels without you realizing. He climbed into the bed with you, dropping your phone on the side table.

"Are you embarrassed about it?" he asked, scooting to be beside you, his arm on your wait and his lips on your ear. "You embarrassed that your dirty little secret is out now?" He said, sliding two fingers up your shorts and rubbing your little nub through your panties. You bit your lip, pressing your thighs together and trapping his wrist there. When he realized that he was trapped, he proceeded to pinch your nub lightly making you yelp.

"Stop teasing me!" you whimpered, your voice breaking halfway through and your vision blurry with tears.

"Nope. I want you to cry more than that, but let's do this a bit differently." he said, getting up and picking you up along with him, bridal style. He was so strong it was practically effortless for him to carry you like you were a doll. He carried you away from the bed and you wondered where he was taking you.

"Let's switch the environment a bit, shall we?" he said, laying you down on the carpet in front of a full-size mirror that lay in the corner of his room. The mirror was large enough to show you and him. You thought he was too tall for it.

"You won't need these." Satoru said, pulling at your clothes. "Off with them." he commanded, stripping himself of his shirt while facing the mirror. You could see the intricate pattern of every solid muscle on his torso and abdomen as he got rid of his clothing and you did too. You noticed how pretty your body looked and how prettier it looked bare, sitting right below Satoru's own bare body. His length hung right over your head, semi-hard already.

"How should we do this?" he put a finger to his chin, pondering.

"W-what are we doing?" you asked frantically, unsure of what was about to unfold other than the two of you having s*x in front of the mirror.

"I'm thinking." Satoru got down on his back and pointed at his face. "Sit on me and face the mirror."

You gulped when you thought of how that would look in the mirror. Your legs spread out atop Satoru's gorgeous face and you having access to his abs and his hard-on.

You quickly followed what he told you and sank onto his waiting mouth, moaning out load when you felt his tongue beginning to explore your insides. Satoru grabbed your asscheeks and lifted you up ever so slightly so you could see in the mirror, how his tongue entered in and out, at a steady pace, before setting you back down onto him. Gosh, that looked so lewd...

"What should I do?" you asked, more to yourself than to Satoru. You started out with tracing his taut abs and you saw in the mirror how your fingers filled in the ridges and crannies. Your hands finally snaked their way to his towering dick. You bent yourself forward in order to reach his dick with your mouth as his torso was too long and it ended up making you lift your ass off Satoru's face. He growled and pressed on your hips to make you sit back onto his face. You struggled to stretch out this was for a few seconds until you found a comfortable angle.

You made eye-contact with your reflection as you licked the tip of Satoru's length softly. His head looked so raw and pink, it was cute. you smiled at it before placing a kiss on it. This made Satoru groan into your hole and made you sigh too.

"Pretty 'toru cock." you commented, taking it in your mouth little by little. You were surprised how large it looked, sheathed in your mouth. It created a bulge on your left cheek as you looked at your lewd, horny self in the mirror - eyes half lidded, saliva escaping from your packed mouth, hair astray. Satoru never let his rhythm falter, as he chugged his tongue deep into your crevices, lapping up every ounce of your juice as soon as your walls were coated with a fresh layer.

His fingers were probably leaving marks on your ass now, but you loved it when they did that. Your plump ass marked with Satoru's fingers. You hollowed your cheeks out, taking in more and more till your nose connected with his pelvic bone. The tufts of fine hair on his crotch tickled your nose as you stayed there, feeling his shaft sit comfortably in your throat, like it was a glove meant just for Satoru. Meanwhile, you swirled your tongue all around his length, paying attention to each vein and the underside of the dick. You brought your hands up to his sack to toy with it - gently rubbing at the twin balls and resisting the urge to squeeze them. He noticed what you were doing and brought his own hand to your nub, rubbing at it fervently.

"Oh honey, you know, you really shouldn't tease me." he purred and you moaned right into his dick, quivering as Satoru made you lose your sanity. This was a competition now, who would cum first. You were desperate to win after how humiliated you felt. You increased your pace with your mouth around his shaft and start pumping the bottom to add to his pleasure.

"Nghh." he groaned out under you, losing focus.

"That's it Satoru." you mumbled with a mouth full of cock, feeling him come closer to his peak. "Put it all on my face, please."

"I want to drink all of it."

That was enough to send Satoru over the edge and you removed your mouth just in time for him to paint your face white. You were so f*cked out yourself that you let his thick jizz go wherever it wanted to, inside your nostrils, back in your mouth, on your eyelids. Some even fell on his hairy crotch which you kitten-licked at diligently.

"Get all of it, don't leave a single drop behind." Satoru told you as he continued his assault on your womanhood from the behind. You looked at yourself in the mirror, deranged looking - face covered in ropes of his cum and your tongue picking up the leftovers from his pubes. What a mess. Beautiful.

"Say cheese, Y/n." you suddenly heard Satoru say as he started humming into your hole. The vibrations and his tongue were enough to push you over and cum monstrously onto his mouth so much so that you didn't notice what he was doing. You cum painted face was contorting in pleasure and you wondered what sort of expression you were making. You heard the sound of a camera flash but couldn't care less, you enjoyed your bliss for a few more seconds with tears rolling down your cheeks, mixing with Satoru's cum, until you finally looked back to see what Satoru was up to.

"Wow. what a masterpiece." he said, showing you the picture, he just captured on his phone. It looked like art. Your face, the scene, the mirror, everything in it.

"I'm going to use this as my wallpaper now." Satoru said mischievously, earning a grimace from you.

"Satoru- you-" you began saying with a sigh, trying to get off of him but Satoru won't let go. He made you sit back down on him and grabbed at your breasts blindly.

"Where are you going, I'm not done with your pretty hole yet." he said, plunging his tongue yet again into your insides, making you screech.

"O-ow. Wait." you hissed, tearing up. "I'm still sensitive."

"Cry it out. You look so pretty like that." he said, pinching and pulling at the erect nipples on your breasts making you hum in pleasure and pain.

"Oh my goodness." You exclaimed and kept exclaiming until once more, Satoru's chin was drenched in your juices.

"Okay, stop now." you said.

"No, princess." he said devilishly. "Not yet."

You were now seriously questioning whether you would lose your sanity. This time, your walls were even dry and yet you felt something bubble up in your abdomen while Satoru's mouth sucked your nether lips dry.

"Oh, oh!" was the only thing you were able to say as you saw yourself in the mirror and a second later, liquid sprayed out of you and straight onto the mirror. You kept spraying the mirror in bursts, with your head thrown back until you were so weak, you fell forward, your face next to Satoru's limp c*ck.

Satoru finally let go of your ass and gently pushed you off of him, inspecting your face.

"Well." he said, getting closer to the mirror and licking some of the liquid off of it.

"If you need a picture of me as your wallpaper, I'll send you nudes baby." he pulled your cheek as you smiled, watching him set off for the bathroom, humming a tune only he knew, as you let yourself drift into dreamland full of naked Satorus.

[ririchanva]

so with izuku in paris, whats going on with kacchan and japan? who gets one-for-all?

//Huh...those are some good questions. Maybe I should write on what Katsuki would be up to by now along with who becomes All Might's predecessor now that Izuku is no longer an option. But...what if it went a darker route? What if this is----

Warnings ahead: Minor character death(s?), major angst, family drama, slight child abuse, violence on a minor.

After Inko cutting off the Bakugos from her and Izuku's life for good and moving away...life just went on.

While Mitsuki has been very upset in losing her old highschool best friend, Masaru comforted her and assured her that maybe one day the Midoriyas will come back and she and Katsuki would apologize to them (and perhaps all be friends again).

That was Masaru's optimism.

But Katsuki was ABSOLUTELY happy that Izuku was gone.

With him gone, Katsuki could focus on the hero track.

However, this also costed him and his mother's relationship.

Not that it wasn't rocky before, given their personalities being the same when it comes to their temper, but this time it was rough.

Mitsuki blamed her son for being so mean to Izuku, to the point that she accidentally slipped on saying "I wish Izuku was my son instead of a brat like you!" which, of course, Masaru had to intervene and try to fix things. But the damage was done.

And Katsuki was twice as relieved that his childhood friend annoying Deku was gone. Not like he needed him in his life.

Fast forward to before Katsuki would enroll in U.A.

Now...we all know the Sludge Villain Incident.

So of course, with Izuku gone, there was no way that the monster would attack anyone, right?

But apparently one of Katsuki's classmates was walking home one day and took a shortcut to the very tunnel where the Sludge Monster was hiding.

And this time, All Might wasn't there to save them.

The villain succeeded in taking over that kid's body, sneaking out of Japan and continuing to do crime in their new meat suit.

Katsuki hears of the news of his classmate dead during a robbery, a hero had not thought of the child that the Sludge Villain had taken over and proceeded to destroy the monster anyways.

Aldera Junior High had a memorial for that student, and Katsuki was even more determined to get into U.A. High.

"What if Deku was the one...?"

Katsuki smacked his own face and growled. No, it was better not to think of a quirkless loser like Deku.

Then, the day U.A.'s Entrance Exam came.

Katsuki was ignoring the stares of people looking his way, seeing his uniform. Whispers of 'He's from that school, right? The one where a student was possessed by a villain and was killed by a hero?' and plenty more reached his ears, making him annoyed.

"This is all a bit nerve-wracking huh?"

Katsuki glanced over a mousy brown haired girl with...pink cheeks?

And he proceeded to walk past her, ignoring her squeaking of surprise and whines of "I was trying to be nice...grouchy, much?"

The orientation with Present Mic went on, and Katsuki felt himself...bored. Unchallenged.

"Woah~ I can't believe I'm listening to THE Present Mic! I listen to his radio show everyday of the week!"

Katsuki almost snapped his head, thinking he heard the familiar voice of...ah, the seat next to him was empty.

"Excuse me! I have a few questions---"

Katsuki glanced over a dark haired tall male with glasses droning on pointless stuff for the exams, and Katsuki leaned back against his chair and closed his eyes. These extras are not on my level.

Even after the exams, Bakugo continued on as normal. Although this time around, he ended up in Class B instead of A.

...

....Was Hero School always this boring?

Katsuki managed to do school fine, mostly doing the work and acing most of his physical classes and more.

He never went back home for the semester breaks. Anything to avoid his parents.

Although he did hear rumours about Class A.

Apparently they had gotten a run in with some villains during their training in the U.S.J. and a few got injured. From the rumours, he heard that some student name Asui got majorly hurt...and is now forced to be in the general studies.

Heck, even some kid named Mineta dropped out from his class after that incident. Something about not signing up to die. Katsuki snofted and thought of him to be a coward. Cut out the weak, Katsuki would think.

Bakugo never made any friends in his class. Although he kept being annoyed by some guy named Monoma a few times, but Bakugo just ignored him.

What he thought was going to be the best time of his life...it felt strangely empty.

Life went on...but Katsuki sometimes did have thoughts:

"...I wonder how that stupid nerd is doing?"

[cavalierious-whim]

A Knight's Tale (Neuvithesley)

Wriothesley swears an oath of old, sealed with his blood, and a bite mark against his shoulder.

'oath of the water'

5.3k

knight and emperor au

set in the same canon as 'my rock, my shield'

Read here on AO3. You can also, follow me on Twitter and Blue Sky.

--

Wriothesley is thrown away as a child more than once. 

He doesn’t remember the first time, told that he was a babe left on someone’s stoop. The old man who finds him is kind enough to share a few meals, but unequipped to raise him beyond that. The people that he is given too are not kind; they are devilish instead, with insidious motives driven by greed and money. 

Children are resilient and observant. Wriothesley grows like a weed and notices the signs that something is off but ignores them. How can he not? Those who foster children who aren’t their own are blessed with kindness and fortune. Surely no one would put such effort into rearing lost causes for anything else than the love of it. 

But Wriothesley is unlucky. Or perhaps lucky—depends on the day he’s asked. One late night, one glass of water, one glimpse at something that he wasn’t supposed to see; Wriothesley leaves the next day for fear of his future, carrying his life in a threadbare bag that an older sister had left behind. 

He doesn’t think about what happened to that sister. 

The streets become his playground as he bumps elbows with others. It’s dog-eat-dog but he learns. There are rules here too, just like anywhere else, and while they may not be things like ‘keep your back straight and your head down’, they’re just as important. 

It’s all about survival. Don’t trust others, don’t share your food. The young ones will always come back for scraps if you give them a bone, and you have to keep those too because who knows when you can steal another round without getting caught.

Wriothesley is good at stealing. He’s quick and nimble on his feet, and those in the market have given up calling the guards on him. These are the best and worst years of his life. Best in that they taught him lesson after lesson. Worst in the eternal hunger gnawing at his gut, in the fight for clean water, for shelter, for basic needs. 

There are stories of how dogs go back to their abusive owners, desperate for a shred of love. Wriothesley is loyal like man’s best friend, and when he’s a little older and taller, he drags himself back to that stonewashed mansion brimming with children. And like desperate owners who lost their best friend, Ma and Pa welcome him back with welcome arms—

At least until they are found lying dead one night soon after. 

He is a teenager now, and though he’s learned a lot, Wriothesley didn’t know blood could be so red, or that it could stain wooden floors so easily. 

When the guards arrive the knife drops to the ground and he puts up no resistance. He’s shackled and taken to prison. He sits in a cell and has square meals twice a day for the first time in years. 

It’s a cold day when he awakes to a stranger. She is crisp-looking, sharp like the knife he’d saved up for, the only purchase he’s ever truly allowed himself. Cat-eyed as she watches him carefully, pacing back and forth across the filthy floor. 

“They’re thinking about a trial for you,” she says to him. “Even though you’ve confessed.”

Wriothesley blinks, too tired to do much else. 

“Do you want a trial, boy?”

“No.” His voice is hoarse, having gone unused by however long he’s been kept here. Days? Weeks? It’s all bled together, and he sleeps the hours off huddled in the corner of his cell. 

Her gaze turns curious. “Why not?” she asks, genuinely. Like a cat with cream, he realizes. She’s stalking him in the same way the older kids stalk the fresh meat on the streets. 

“It’s obvious that I did it,” he says dryly. “And, as you said, I confessed.”

The woman taps her chin thoughtfully. “The argument is that it was warranted. The guards found a mess in that home. Traffickers—your foster parents. Did you know?” Wriothesley’s jaw clenches, and she looks at him as though she’s backed him against the wall, right where she wanted. “You have a good case. The means outweigh the end, they say. What are a couple of deaths when it saves dozens?”

“Your point?”

She stops her pacing and leans close to the bars. Wriothesley can just barely make out her pale hair in the darkness of the room. “If you go to trial, you may not win, even with the odds in your favor.”

Wriothesley doesn’t care. Wriothesley has done his one deed that’s worth something in this life. At this point it matters not where he finds up. 

The woman’s gaze washes over him. “If you were let go, where would you go?”

“No where,” says Wriothesley. It’s oily, thick in his gut. That thought. Wriothesley wants somewhere to go, but there are no homes for the destitute.

She hums. “I had thought your work was petty revenge, but it wasn’t, was it? No, you are a selfless boy, so quick to throw away his life for the sake of the others. Tell me—do you think yourself unworthy of a good life?”

Wriothesley’s tongue is thick in his mouth. “I don’t… there’s nothing left for me so it doesn’t matter. My work is done.”

“Is it? Sounds as though you are perfect for the House of the Hearth.” The woman’s eyes shine with a conspiratorial glint. “Listen boy, I come here with an offer. Fontaine has a need for boys like you. Her Lady the Archon would boast about chivalrous intent, but that does not a good guard make. No, it’s all about guts and survival. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen a boy say such a bold lie when his eyes show that he wants to survive.”

“The guard? The Royal Guard?”

“Well I don’t think you’d make a good spy,” she teases. “You’d have a roof over your head, meals, clothing, and even a stipend.”

“At the expense of being fodder,” spits Wriothesley.

The woman does not deny this. Wriothesley sits there and thinks about it, working his jaw.

Finally, she says, “There are worse things. Think of all the little siblings you could save in the future.”

Wriothesley does. He thinks about others, children, the elderly, the infirm. He thinks of the guards who’d chase him into alleys only to turn a blind eye because they knew he had nothing better. The slaps on the wrists instead of losing fingers and knuckles. The coins that were pressed into his palms, or the last bits of ale left at the edge of a table with their faces turned. 

The guards have always been nice to him. Even when they cuffed him at his home, it was with care. It was with pity, and he knows they’ve been sneaking him extra rations even now.

Wriothesley swallows and says, “Alright then.”

The woman’s mouth spreads into a wide smile. There is something strange about it, something off. Wriothesley has long learned how to read people and though this woman brings him an offer gilded in gold, he has the distinct feeling it will not be easy. 

Still. Shelter. Food. The alternative is death, even if they let him go. Winter will be here soon and Wriothesley’s worn through his only pair of boots. 

“Alright then,” the woman repeats. “I am called the Knave, by the way. But you can call me Father.”

#

His experiences can be counted by the scars that are notched in his skin.

The rest of Wriothesley’s teenage years pass by in a flurry of training, conditioning, and harrowing outings that test his resilience. Father is neither kind nor cruel, Father just is. Wriothesley keeps his head down, does as he’s told, and learns to loosen up. 

Comrades come and go, in and out, around and around, like those fancy revolving doors he once saw at a hotel he staked out as a child. As an adult he travels more than not, but he rarely steps foot into those old spaces he used to haunt. 

He rises in the ranks. He’s gifted titles and awards, and fanciful ribbons on his uniform. But even with his ranks and commendations, he goes to bed at night empty and forlorn. Loneliness seeps into his sheets, into his bones, and he tries to warm up with a companion of the week. 

And then there is Monsieur Neuvillette, a courtly man, the Chief Justice. He doesn’t look at Wriothesley with pity, like he’s some strange street rat who’s been polished up for entertainment. He just looks at Wriothesley. And talks to him, and shares tea with him.

Conflict in Fontaine comes and goes, Wriothesley comes and goes, but Neuvillette is always here for him, waiting, a friendship carefully cultivated through the years with nothing expected in return. Wriothesley clings to it, and the warmth that floods through his chest, pocketing every subtle smile that Neuvillette shares in his presence alone. 

A decade passes and Wriothesley wonders if twenty-five is supposed to be so exhausting. Another five years are gone in a blink, and he’s granted a Vision for an unknown reason. Celestia would not favor him, and yet it gleams in his palm, frosted at the edges. No one notices. Except Neuvillette. It’s pinned crookedly to the coat of Wriothesley’s uniform, and he reaches out to adjust it. 

That touch burns through Wriothesley but he wills himself still. 

“Congratulations,” says Neuvillette so quietly that it’s a hymn for Wriothesley alone. “I see that you have found something to protect.”

Because that’s what a Vision is, right? Divine power granted by Celestia herself. Neuvillette has never cared much for them, his nose wrinkled in distaste at the mere mention. But this one—this one must be different. It feels different even, crisp against his chest like the Cryo it breathes, but warm when held in his palm as it beats like a heart. 

Neuvillette smiles at him. Wriothesley’s heart skips a beat and he knows, then, that Celestia didn’t grant him this power, it was borne of something else entirely. 

Shortly thereafter, Wriothesley is brought to Neuvillette’s personal chambers. 

It is late. Neuvillette is dressed down for the night—far more casually than Wriothesley has ever seen him. He sits in a chair and flips through edicts. A glass of crystal clear water sits on the table beside him.

He sees Wriothesley’s hesitance and calls him forward. And he goes, caught like a puppet on a string,  flitting across the floor and feeling awkward in such a personal space. 

“Focalors,” begins Neuvillette, but then he pauses, unsure how to continue.

Yes, their Archon. Wriothesley has never disliked the woman but her theatrics certainly cause the Royal Guard quite the headache. 

“Has she been needling you again?” asks Wriothesley with humor. 

Neuvillette’s face crinkles around the edges. He sets his papers down across his lap and lets out a long-suffering sigh. “That would make this easier, I would think.” His tone is rueful and tired, and Wriothesley wonders if this just might be a coup in the making. 

It is not.

Neuvillette rubs his chin and then says, “Focalors is not the Empress.” Wriothesley blinks, not quite comprehending. When Neuvillette continues, his voice is small and hesitant. “I am the Emperor,” he says, “and this is a carefully guarded secret, for if those out there knew that the Sovereign Dragon of Hydro was, in fact, still alive, chaos would ensue. Do you understand, Wriothesley?”

Wriothesley understands. And then he does not. “Celestia…” He trails off. He’s read the histories. He knows that Neuvillette knows what he’s about to say. The Authority of the Seven Sovereigns was stripped eons ago and war broke out. Thousands upon thousands of years Fontaine has worked underneath an Archon instead.

Neuvillette’s expression is strained. “It is a ruse, one carefully crafted and known by none.”

“None,” repeats Wriothesley. “Father—”

“Your Father is not privy to this.”

“Then who is?”

“Myself,” says Neuvillette, “and Focalors.” And then a wrinkle of his nose. “And Miss Sigewinne.”

A beat passes. “And now me,” finishes Wriothesley. And then: “Why me?”

“Because I trust you,” replies Neuvillette evenly. He stands and glides across the floor, and suddenly his ethereal grace makes sense. “Because you care for me.”

Wriothesley feels ensnared at that moment, caught in a trap of Neuvillette’s making. Neuvillette watches him with a serpentine gaze, pupils slitted, irises glowing blue in the low candlelight. There is no judgment, though. His expression is soft, tender even. Neuvillette reaches out and cups Wriothesley’s cheek, tracing over the arch of his cheekbone like he’s a treasure. 

“Monsieur—”

“I have need of a knight, and who is a better choice than you?”

“It’s a risk to tell me this,” says Wriothesley. “What if I were—”

“I care for you,” cuts in Neuvillette as he leans into Wriothesley’s space. This is the closest they’ve been in all their years spent together. Neuvillette smells like a crisp, mountain stream, like the air right before a storm. “I care for you in ways that are entirely improper.”

Wriothesley is ensnared again but for entirely different reasons, heat curling in his gut. “Improper,” he repeats, voice tight. 

Neuvillette grasps his chin between a thumb and forefinger. “Focalors did not like the idea of it, but she is nothing but a puppet. I hold the true Authority here in all matters, and so I will do as I wish. I would not have asked were I not sure you’d agree.”

It is a simple answer. Of course, Wriothesley will say yes. It’s been a long time since his heart started beating for this man instead, and he will happily be his sword and shield. 

“Wriothesley,” says Neuvillette then, guiding their faces closer. “It is not an oath made lightly.”

“I love you,” blurts Wriothesley, rather stupidly. 

Neuvillette stills. And then he smiles, wide and genuine, unfettered affection blooming across his face. Wriothesley has never seen such a look on him. “Yes,” he replies, “you do.”

He does not need to say it back. It is as clear as a warm day. It’s in the way that he cups Wriothesley’s chin, in how he leans closer; it’s in the way that he clumsily kisses him, unpracticed and unused to such intimacies, and yet Neuvillette chooses to explore this with Wriothesley. 

That night, Wriothesley lays himself open. He lets Neuvillette crack open his chest and explore, flaying him alive as they lose themselves to their needs and lust. It is a quiet and all consuming thing. Wriothesley lies in the aftermath, sweat-slick and glowing, and it’s Neuvillette who tends to him, who combs his hair, who whispers the sort of sweet nothings found in books about lovers. 

Wriothesley enjoys reading, and he’s drawn to tragedies because that is all that he knows. This feels like romance, and he wonders if there is a good ending in store for a tired, broken-down, criminal-turned-knight like him.

That night, he sleeps in a soft bed plastered against another, a little too hot, hair in his mouth, but it’s home. It’s home.

Which is why the next morning Wriothesley swears an oath of old, sealed with his blood, and a bite mark against his shoulder. 

#

Wriothesley still cannot find it within himself to truly relax.

The bath does wonders to ease his bones, and pains and aches, but it’ll always be there, that flicker of awareness, that ever-present hyper awareness. Never sit with your back to the door. Sleep with one eye open. Lounge casually but always with a knife close enough for a quick grasp. Even as he sinks into the water, eyes slipping closed his ears strain for—

He jerks, eyes snapping open. “Oh,” he mutters, rubbing at his face, mildly embarrassed.

“Always at attention, aren’t you? What is the purpose of allowing you the use of my private bath if you’re wound so tightly?”

Wriothesley winces slightly. “It isn’t—”

“I tease, Wriothesley.” Neuvillette is usually so stiff and proper that seeing his mouth quirked into a subtle grin is still so… strange. It’s been years, at this point; years of watching that mouth learn how to emote properly and Wriothesley still finds it odd at times. Or, perhaps it’s because it’s directed at him. 

Neuvillette watches him for a long moment, standing there outside of the bath’s perimeter. He is dressed down as expected, for these are his personal baths, and Wriothesley allows himself to leer for a little too long, his gaze raking across the length of him.

“Wriothesley,” he starts, his tone dry.

“I’m just looking.”

Neuvillette’s expression tins with amusement. “Look all you want, but I will still ask—”

“If you can get in with me? The answer is yes.”

“—if you are alright.” Wriothesley stiffens. Neuvillette sees it and sighs. “If the recruits are still being a bother—”

“They aren’t,” reassures Wriothesley. He drags a hand down his face, rubbing at it. “I’m just tired, is all. You’ve seen the current reports, I’m sure.” Neuvillette’s expression falls. “Yeah, that. That’s how I feel.”

Neuvillette pads across the tiled floor quietly and shrugs off his robe, hanging it across the back of a chair. Wriothesley stares, unabashedly, as he steps into the pool, hissing softly at the heat of the water. And then he scowls. “Bath oils—”

“My bath time, my indulgences.” 

Wriothesley grins at the grimace on Neuvillette’s face. He’d prefer crisp, clean water—cool, even. He has only just begun to enjoy hot baths which are Wriothesley’s preference, but he still hasn’t come around to the bath oils. Soap, yes; Neuvillette enjoys being clean, and he lavishes his hair with the finest of shampoos and lathers, but the oils, he claims, cling to his skin. Which is the point, but Wriothesley has never bothered to argue much about it.

Neuvillette sinks into the water, his hair fanning out around him. Wriothesley’s arm opens up as he drifts closer, a silent invitation. Neuvillette notches against his side and relaxes entirely. 

“Bad day?” teases Wriothesley.

“Focalors…” Neuvillette pinches the bridge of his nose. “I am at my wit’s end with that woman. Her eccentricities have helped over the years, but it is to the point where she is hard to reel back. I’ve allowed her too much latitude. In the throne room today—”

“Oh, I heard.” Wriothesley lets out a long whistle. “It’s rare for Morax to pay visits to neighboring countries, but I’ve also heard that he’s pretty easy to get along with.” Neuvillette’s expression sours and Wriothesley’s eyebrows rise. “No?”

“He is—” Neuvillette shudders, his jaw tensing. “It doesn’t matter. What does matter is that she cannot make such rash decisions—”

“You always get to overrule them.”

“Yes, but there are some things that are not so easily adjusted without risking…”

Ah, yes, that, the elephant in the room. Wriothesley hums and tilts his face to press a kiss against Neuvillette’s temple. “I’m not saying that you should take your throne back, but—”

“But you are.”

“It’s a fantasy. It’ll make you feel better, imagining all the ways that you’d get to be in charge again.” Neuvillette snorts. “Really though,” continues Wriothesley, “Morax—”

“Must you call out the names of other dragons in my presence?”

Wriothesley gives him an amused glance. “Is this like when cats get all territorial?”

“No. I merely dislike having not only an Archon in my lands, but another—”

“So it is like a territorial cat-thing.” Neuvillette looses a long-suffering sigh and Wriothesley laughs. The bath is big enough to swim around slightly. He breaks away and floats to the side, turning to face Neuvillette properly. “How angry is Morax?”

“He is not… angry. But he is suspicious, and that is cause for concern. He is the oldest of the Archons, older than even I, and he is well-learned. Focalors was quick thinking in her response to his aide for help but I am unsure that we can risk the manpower. To fall back on such a lofty promise…”

Wriothesley hums. “We’ll figure it out.” He crosses the difference, leaning into Neuvillette’s space. “Do you want me to wash your hair? Pamper you a little?”

Neuvillette relaxes slightly, his shoulders losing their tension. “It is too late to have wet hair.”

“You can flick it away with a wave of your fingers.”

“Yes, but—” Neuvillette reaches out to grasp Wriothesley by the chin, and even now, years later, it makes him think of that night they first shared a kiss. “I would rather wash yours.”

“Scandalous,” says Wriothesley. “Unbecoming of an—” He pauses, looking around the room dramatically, and then whispers: “Emperor.”

“What’s more scandalous is his knight sharing his private bath.”

“Not his bed?”

“I do think that the servants are used to that.”

There is little use in hiding it anyhow. Mortals may not pay attention but the Melusines who attend to matters in the palace can see his claim all over Wriothesley. It’s amusing until Sigewinne sees him and turns up her nose. No, Wriothesley and Neuvillette are darlings of the court, which comes as a boon when masking the truth of Neuvillette’s nature. 

Neuvillette ducks close and presses a short, sweet kiss against Wriothesley’s mouth. “Allow me this indulgence,” he requests, politely as ever, and Wriothesley finds himself caving at that quiet, affectionate tone alone. 

Wriothesley turns his back to one person and one person alone. Neuvillette knows this vulnerability of his, and so he warns before he touches, and is gentle with every sweep of his fingers. He lathers the coarse strands of Wriothesley’s hair. His claws scrape against his scalp, dragging a soft moan from Wriothesley’s lips.

The pampering lulls him into a comfort found only in the arms of his mate. “I’m tired,” he says.

“I can tell.” Neuvillette’s hands travel down the length of Wriothesley’s neck and across his shoulders, squeezing at the muscle there. “You’re tense.” His hands are followed by a quick kiss, and then Neuvillette dumps a liter of Hydro over Wriothesley’s head.

Wriothesley yelps at the sharp sting of it. “Did it have to be cold?”

Neuvillette laughs against his temple before guiding him to dunk beneath that bath’s surface. When Wriothesley comes back up, an apology is already falling from his mouth. The tension is massaged away by those old and ancient hands. Neuvillette does not treat him like he is something broken to be fixed, or like glass threatening to crack. He treats him like a treasure to be loved with quiet praise whispered against his ear, and kisses down the back of his neck. 

He stills when he reaches the meat of Wriothesley’s left shoulder. His mark. That beloved thing that brands Wriothesley as his own. Neuvillette presses his face against that spot and inhales deeply before kissing it. Then he says, “The bath is getting cold.”

“You know these waters don’t cool.”

“I could cool them, then.” Neuvillette rests his chin in the crook of Wriothesley’s neck as his hand sneaks underneath Wriothesley’s arm. He drags his fingers through the water, making it dance in lazy circles. That one spot cools, and the cold begins to seep outwards.

“Sweetheart—” Wriothesley can feel the frown against his neck in response. “—if you want to retire to bed, you can ask.”

“I wish to have you in my bed,” says Neuvillette then, his voice dropping into a sultry baritone. “Were I permitted to do so.”

Oh. Oh. Always so polite even when he knows that Wriothesley wouldn’t dream of turning him down. Wriothesley turns around in his arms and shoots him an owlish grin. “Oh? Does the Emperor need his Consort?” A well-loved tease that makes Neuvillette’s rhinosphores tint with a subtle glow. “Is this old dragon aching and needy?”

“Wriothesley.”

They meet eagerly, like crashing waves, like the tide licking at the shore. Neuvillette tilts Wriothesley’s mouth against his, letting his forked tongue flick at the seam of his mouth. It is heated and passionate. Despite the late hour, and the tiredness of their bones, they suckle at each other's lips, tongues, teething, seeking out warmth. 

“Tea,” murmurs Neuvillette. “You taste like tea, you always—”

Wriothesley laughs against his mouth, combing through his hair before pulling away. “Out,” he says, tugging Neuvillette to the edge of the bath. 

And Neuvillette goes, like a moth drawn to a flame, looking at Wriothesley like he’s the whole damn sun.

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They fall into the silk sheets damp and needy.

Neuvillette insists on taking care of him again, and Wriothesley chooses to let him. “A vision,” he says, hanging over him, regarding Wriothesley as if he’s hung the moon. He traces every inch of skin, every pock mark and scar that’s etched into his body. Neuvillette likens him to a canvas, a painting of learned experiences, of adventures, and he traces every moment with his tongue and teeth. 

And when he takes Wriothesley’s cock into his mouth, it’s graceless and with need, choking gently as he slides down the entire length, desperate to feel it against the back of his throat. Those hands wander again as he moans around him. His fingers dig into the meat of Wriothesley’s ass as Neuvillette presses his thighs back. 

He pulls off, suckling at the tip of Wriothesley’s cock, swirling that inhuman tongue around the crown like he’s savoring a delicacy. It’s nearly too much. Wriothesley arches in the bed and does his best to not force his cock deeper. Neuvillette smiles around him as he takes his cock back into his mouth, encouraging him in a way that he should definitely not.

A quick bob of Neuvillette’s head. That damned tongue of his slides against the underside, curling against sensitive nerves and driving Wriothesley mad. And then the heat of his mouth is gone as Neuvillette licks across his hole next, moaning at the way it twitches.

“That’s—that’s—”

Hydro makes the glide of a finger easy. Wriothesley bites at his lip, yielding easily, readily, forcing it deeper. Another slips in and Neuvillette purrs at how easily he opens, spreading his fingers wide, watching at how his rim swallows them deep. Then his tongue joins, lapping at his hole, suckling at it as Neuvillette eases him open, fucking Wriothesley on his fingers with a too-slow, too-languid pace.

“Neuvillette,” he cries, only for it to be ignored. 

Neuvillette maintains the lazy pace, scissoring his fingers open, prying him apart. Wriothesley is laid open and bare. He writhes in those sheets on one, two, three fingers, hissing out Neuvillette’s name in a plea to get a move on. 

Even now, he’s too empty. Wriothesley needs more than just his cock, he needs Neuvillette’s weight against him and those sweet praises pressed into his ear.

Neuvillette’s patience runs its course. He pulls those fingers out and Wriothesley groans at the loss. “Easy there. Take a breath.”

Wriothesley does as he’s asked, sucking in sweet, clean air as Neuvillette settles between his thighs properly. 

“Like this,” he says, hanging over Wriothesley. “I crave your closeness tonight.”

Yes, thinks Wriothesley. Yes, yes, yes. But, he always craves that closeness, regardless of what Neuvillette chooses to give him. Wriothesley is a needy, greedy thing, desperate to be suffocated by his warmth.

Neuvillette forgoes the Hydro and tips over a bottle of expensive oil into his hand, the smell of Romaritime Flowers filling the air. He sighs as he slicks his cock. Then, for good measure, Wriothesley’s loosened rim, his fingers dipping back into him for a second. 

His cock sinks in with one smooth, measured thrust. The cradle of his groin meets Wriothesley in a sickly sweet grind, and they both moan as they fall into each other. Wriothesley is deliciously full. Neuvillette’s cock carves its way home, sliding through his insides, dragging across that bundle of nerves with every eager stroke. 

He clings to him, holding Neuvillette close. Neuvillette more than indulges him, he leans into it, melting against Wriothesley’s heated, flushed skin. “Beloved,” he murmurs, their foreheads pressed together as they share words, praises, every breath that puffs between them.

Wriothesley will not last long. He didn’t realize how keyed up he was, how little it would take to drag him to the edge. He curses, trying to reel it in, trying to hold it back, but the pleasure is too sweet, too sharp. He arches, his cock twitching and aching. 

All the while Neuvillette praises him with sweet, soft, my beloved mate’s, you feel so good’s, and such a good boy’s. He drowns in him too. Neuvillette. He drinks up everything that Wriothesley gives him, pocketing that trust and giving it back with the full force of all his power.

That’s what the mark on Wriothesley’s neck means; it isn’t a one-sided blood oath but a promise between the two of them, steeped in the white-hot love that carves through his being.

Neuvillette thrusts into him suddenly, sharply, and Wriothesley comes untouched, going taut in the bed. He clamps down as all that pleasure in his gut releases, leaving him a mess. “Yes, yes—” And then he cries Neuvillette’s name, his given one, a gift that he’s only allowed to Wriothesley. This is the secret of all secrets, and Neuvillette’s breath hitches as Wriothesley tilts his face against his ear and begs for more with it.

A soft grunt. An exhalation of a name that isn’t Wriothesley, but something older, something nearly forgotten, something that said by anyone else would curdle the blood in his veins. Even with Neuvillette this name is rarely allowed but in that moment it’s perfect, wrapped in warmth, in comfort, in deep, heady arousal. 

Neuvillette comes after several unsteady thrusts. He grinds deep as he spills, claws pricking at Wriothesley’s thighs. 

Wriothesley is a mess in the sheets, his stomach coated with his spend. He whines softly, feeling Neuvillette’s cock begin to soften. 

“A moment.” Neuvillette’s lips brush his temple. “Allow me a moment as I clean you up.”

He could leave it. Wriothesley wouldn’t mind, loose-limbed and taffy-like in the bed. But Neuvillette would mind, so he sighs as he’s taken care of with gentle, sweeping touches. 

“We should have more political snafus,” says Wriothesley when he drifts back down from the heavens. Because if that is the result… well. He wouldn’t complain. 

Neuvillette has already slipped back underneath the covers and plastered himself against Wriothesley’s back. “I would rather not,” he says, but Wriothesley hears the humor that colors his words, and smiles into the covers. 

“Damage control tomorrow?”

“I do not relish the meeting I will have with her. You, however—”

“What about me?”

“Our dear, sweet Archon has promised Morax’s little guard dog a show of your prowess. You’re set to spar with him at noon.”

Wriothesley groans, burying his face into the pillow. But then, an idea. “Will you be there?”

Neuvillette smiles against his neck. “What better way to spend a mid-day water break than watching you show off your skill? Mhmn, yes, I think that I will attend and watch. And when you’re done, I’ll whisk you away—”

“For something untoward?”

“A tea break, as you like to call them.”

Oh, so definitely something untoward. Wriothesley knows Neuvillette and his tendencies of being hot and bothered under the collar. 

Teasing aside, it falls quiet. Neuvillette’s chest rumbles against Wriothesley’s back with a soft purr. “You’re thinking,” he says, gently probing.

Wriothesley thinks a lot. He thinks of the days of old and his present now. Once, he’d called himself fodder before a woman who wanted to mold him into something useful. Father has treated him well—but it is Neuvillette that has given him reason. 

Wriothesley doesn’t answer. Neuvillette doesn’t probe further, he just nuzzles at the mark on his shoulder, kissing it with a lingering touch. 

He may get that storybook romance, perhaps. Their ending isn’t yet written.

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No Puppet Strings Attached 6

Summary: When Katsuragi brings a puppet back to Tatarasuna, saying that he found him wandering the shores, the village and blade smiths took him in as their own. Something about the puppet struck a young girl's heart. Despite him not having a heart of his own, the puppet felt something that would seem to be impossible for someone like him to feel.

Pairings: Scaramouche x f!reader

Warning! This chapter contains mature themes, view at your own risk.

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Tatarasuna was in ruins. The blame of what happened fell onto Katsuragi’s shoulders, he did this so that Nagamasa wouldn’t have to take responsibility for what happened. In turn…he was executed by Nagamasa himself, by the very sword that was crafted for him.

A divide fell through the village, and many left to protect themselves from the remnants of the tatarigami. Others were still sick and passed it onto others. The cycle continued until there was no one left in the once peaceful village. All life had been eradicated, either through death or migration to other lands. 

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Y/n felt cold. She felt cold, tired, and thirsty.

When she first opened her eyes, she didn’t recognize the place she was in. She laid on a cold table, the kimono she wore was stained with dry blood, Niwa’s blood.

Remembering what had happened, tears formed in her eyes. She looked around, there were test tubes, chambers filled with liquids and all sorts of contraptions filling the room.

She slid off of the cold table and walked around. Her bare feet stung on the cold floor, as if they had been dragged through thorns. The longer she walked, the more fear set in. The last thing she remembered was seeing his face, the face of the man that killed her brother.

Her breath hitched for a moment. How long had she been out?

It could have been hours? It could have been weeks. Niwa was dead…he’s dead. Her only brother…gone.

And what about Kabukimono? Where was he? Did the estranged man tell the boy that she did not truly love him? Where was he…

More importantly, where was she?

Tears began to slip out as she hugged herself. Having no one to console her but herself, she tried to provide as much warmth as she could, but nothing could stop the shaking.

She stood still for a few moments longer until she heard footsteps coming down what sounded like stairs.

“You’re awake and walking already?”

She knew that voice.

Her body spun to face the man.

“You… It’s you.” The fear washed away and was replaced with anger. Her breathing heavy and fists clenched.

Dottore said nothing, he just walked closer.

“I’ve been waiting far too long for you to wake up. Perhaps the anesthetic I gave you was too strong.”

His hand reached out to stroke her hair, but she slapped it away.

“Where am I? What did you do to me, where did you take me?”

She began to shake again, but this time she wasn’t sure if it was out of anger or fear.

“You’re angry?” he was so nonchalant, acting as if nothing happened.

“Angry? I’m furious! You killed my brother, you bastard! A-and you’ve taken me to a place that I don’t even… Where am I?!” y/n screeched, her voice bounced off of the walls, but there was no one around to hear it.

“Somewhere very far away from home, but it’s only been a week since the events you last remember.”

“Take me back, I don’t wish to be anywhere near you. Go to hell!” Y/n brushes past him, trying to head towards the way he came through.

“I can’t do that, little dove,” Dottore follows closely behind her, until he has her cornered, “You’re far too precious to let go. Besides, if I do let you go, it’s only a matter of time until you talk about what happened.”

“You think I’d let what happened be a secret? You’re a murderer, not only of my brother, but those poor people who you infected with the tatarigami!.”

“I don’t think you understand what position you’re in…you’re mine now. Your body, your mind, everything is to be used by me.”

Y/n felt disgusted. Her being soaked in her deceased brother's blood, and now the very man that killed him now had her cornered. She bit her lip, and Dottore began to move closer again.

She latched onto a glass beaker behind her, gripping on tightly, she smashed the glass onto the side of his head. Catching him off guard, she pushed him away and ran. 

She ran up the stairs, out of breath, her footsteps echoing throughout the walls. Along with her heavy breath, she was still crying.

She found herself in a whole other laboratory, this one bigger than the last. She looked around but was confused, there didn’t seem to be a door anywhere, just where was she? 

She heard footsteps on the stairs below her, Dottore was following her. And seeming, by the steadiness of his steps, he wasn’t in a rush. 

In a panic, she hid behind something, hoping that she could calm herself down before having to face him again. 

“I must say, you’re not at all what I expected. Heh…how disappointing, I guess we'll just have to fix that.”

Her hands clasped over her mouth only seemed to make things worse, she couldn’t breathe.

“Let’s play a game, shall we? If you manage to evade me, I’ll let you go…but if I catch you, well we’ll just have to see what happens.”

She hears his steps grow louder, he is close. She got onto her knees and crawled in another direction to hide underneath a table that was blocked by books.

Dottore began to hum a tune. She knew that tune, it was the one that Kabukimono and her sang whenever they wanted to let the other know that they were close by.

He was mocking her.

“Your heart must ache hearing that tune, correct?”

Y/n looked down at the ground, wanting to ignore his words.

“It reminds me of what songbirds sing. They remain together for life, you know…unless they are separated by force.”

Dottore stops right next to the table she crouched under. Her heart was beating out of her chest, she was sure he could hear it.

“Would you call yourself a songbird, separated from each other…locked in a cage, by me.”

Dottore knocks over the table, the tower of books coming down with it. He notices her shaking form. He gives a pitiful clock of his tongue before crouching down, level with her.

His hand wipes away the tears that were staining her cheek. The consolation only lasted a few seconds until he forcefully gripped her cheeks and brought her closer to him.

“Judging by your expression, you’re still confused, so allow me to say it one more time. You are mine, in body and soul. I will use you as I please, and I’ll warn you that not all will be pleasant. That’s just part of the fun now isn’t it…”

Dottore covered her eyes and brought her into another room. It looked like a bathroom. A single bathtub in a corner, with other trinkets in the room.

“I’d hate to leave you in these dirty robes. You’ve been soaking in your brother's remains for far too long. Wash up.”

Y/n remained still, she didn’t want to move, and she wasn’t sure if she could.

Dottore clicked his tongue once more. He turned her towards him and slid off the shoulders of her kimono.

“You’ll learn, under normal circumstances I wouldn’t let you off the hook like this, but unfortunately I’m in a hurry today.”

He reached for the silk obi that was tied around her waist, and the simple touch made her spring into action. She swung at the man, right in his face. She continued to attack him until he gripped her wrists and forced her back towards the bathtub. He dunked her into the water.

It was cold, how long had the water been out? She was struggling to breathe, but continued to resist him. She struggled until she couldn’t, inhaling the water and choking. 

Dottore kept her submerged for a few moments longer until he brought her up. She coughed and heaved out water every second, but Dottore didn’t care.

“Wash yourself, I’ll come to get you later.”

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Y/n remained in the cold water. It’s not like she was given a towel to dry herself with, nor spare clothes. He had taken the bloody kimono with him. It sounds disturbing, but she wanted to keep it. 

Who knows what Dottore had done with Niwa’s body, if it was given a proper burial, or did he just toss it into the ocean.

The last one seemed more reasonable.

She looked at the reflection of herself in the water. She looked like a mess. Her face is puffy from all the crying, cuts and scrapes all over her body. She still hadn’t eaten, and it felt like her body was shutting off.

Closing her eyes, little by little, she dozed off until her head hung on her shoulders. She just couldn’t keep herself awake long enough to fight.

Dottore walked back in not too much later and saw her sleeping in the bathtub. Despite her being asleep, y/n managed to feel a presence next to her, which allowed her eyes to flutter open. Seeing Dottore staring down at her exposed form made her flush, she covered herself with her arms.

“No need to worry about that, we’ll be bound to cross that line one day,” he set down a white gown on a chair nearby, “put this on, you have but 5 minutes to do so.”

“I don’t have a towel.” she replies somberly.

He smiles and ventures to a drawer and pulls out a towel, throwing it onto the white gown on the chair.

“Hurry, little dove, we have a lot to do.”

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Once she was dressed, she sat down in the same chair where the clothes were placed. These clothes felt foreign, they felt uncomfortable. It’s as if she was stripped of her identity.

While she was lost in thought, Dottore walked back in. He looked pleased that she was being so compliant, perhaps this wasn’t going to be as hard as he thought.

He guides her down to the laboratory. It wasn’t one of the two she had already been in. Just how many rooms did this place have?

He has her sit down on a similar cold table she woke up from. He rustles around, but she doesn’t pay any mind. Honestly, she didn’t listen to a word of what he had to say on the journey down to the lab.

She wonders about where Kabukimono could be. Is he still in Tatarasuna? Are Katsuragi and Miyo still taking care of him?

“Oh, and I regret to inform you, the man you called Katsuragi was executed by Mikoshi Nagamasa.”

His words snapped her out of her thoughts. She couldn’t believe it for a brief moment. Why would Nagamasa do such a thing?

“Now, don’t look at me like that. I know that’s what you’re thinking about, wondering if there’s a way for you to go home, but there is no home for you to return to.”

“No…you’re lying…”

“His wife on the hand succumbed to the remnants of the Tataragami…and the boy you were so involved with…he left. Didn’t say where he was going, not that it matters-”

“It matters to me!” she jumps off of the cold table, “I love him, I still do! It doesn’t matter if you keep me trapped here for the rest of my life, I will continue to love him until I die.”

“Well…that’s exactly what I’m going to test.”

Dottore brings out a syringe filled with a gold, bubbly liquid.

“What are you talking about…”

She backs away from him as he walks closer.

“This is a tube full of some archon residue. Not the kind that is commonly related with malevolence, rather this is their life force. Remnants of what kept archons immortal.”

He stares at the syringe for a few seconds before looking over, a smile spreading across his face. He couldn’t possibly be thinking of injecting that into her…right?

“Don’t bring that any closer, stay away from me.”

Y/n continued to try to evade him, but there were only so many places she could go until he eventually cornered her back to the cold table.

“Don’t make this harder than it has to be, if you comply, I promise it won’t be as painful.”

“Please…please don’t do this. I-i won’t tell anyone-PLEASE!” one final scream before Dottore gripped her neck, slamming her upper body down onto the table.

“Your disobedience is truly trifling. I understand that it’s difficult for humans to realize the position they’re in until it’s too late, so I’ll go easy on you. Would you like me to release you? Only if you obey what I say.”

He applies more pressure to her neck, making it impossible for her to breathe. She gripped onto his hand with hers, trying to find any possible form of release, but he was dead set on making her suffer until he got his answer. It wasn’t until her legs began to jerk due to the lack of oxygen that she violently screamed a ‘yes’.

Dottore let's go immediately. The hand that gripped onto his immediately went to her neck to console it, loudly coughing and heaving, trying to get as much air in as she could.

“Lie back, it’s time we start.”

She complies this time, afraid of what he may do if she doesn't.

Lying on her back, she stares at the bright light on the ceiling of the room. Dottore was gathering some more items needing for whatever he needed to.

“Little dove, lay down on your stomach for me.”

Stomach? Where could he be injecting that requires her to lay on her stomach? But again, out of fear, she did as she was told.

There was a zipper on the back of her dress, he slid it down, exposing the majority of her back.

“Y-you’re putting it in my back?” she asks.

“Your spine, to be exact. It’ll absorb much better this way,” he takes the safety pin off of the syringe, then wipes down a small area of her spine with an alcohol wipe.

“It will hurt, but you will get used to the pain after the first few times.”

She could feel the point of the needle on her back, and just that small touch made her wince. Her breathing became faster, and as she felt the needle be inserted, she began to whine. Her nails clawed at the table underneath her. God knows what would happen if she were to try to tell him to stop.

After a few seconds, Dottore pulled away the needle and wiped down the area once more. He placed a cloth bandage over it.

“All done, it wasn’t so bad.”

Wasn’t so bad, he wouldn’t be saying that if he was the one who was being injected. Of course, she didn’t say that out loud, she just remained face down on the table.

“Why…do you feel the need to do this to me?” she whispers.

“Why? For research, of course. I am first most a scholar, and I continue to advance whatever ideas I may have.”

“But, why immortality? Where did you get the archon residue…”

“Not even I can live forever, but that’s the very reason why I want to break the laws that were placed down on mortals. What better way than to test on a mortal, test what may be the key to immortality.”

“But I don’t want to be immortal.” y/n whimpers, lifting herself off of the table. 

“I don’t think you really have a choice in the matter, little dove. You will be with me throughout this journey. Every year, decade, century…and even millennia if we get there.”

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This routine would continue. Once a week, she would be injected with the archon residue, before that she would have to take a bath. She despised it, especially since she didn’t feel anything different.

However, things started to look up. Once a week turned into once a month, and once a month turned into once every 6 months, then every year. Dottore was smart, there wasn’t much archon residue in the world, so he had to use the amount he had very carefully.

It was 4 years into injections when he stopped. He hadn’t injected her in what seemed to be over a year.

During a yearly physical, she brought it up.

“Do you not have any archon residue left?” she asks, watching him draw blood from the vein in her forearm.

“I have plenty, why do you ask.”

“You haven’t injected me in so long, what’s the hold up?”

Dottore laughs, placing the vial of blood in a test tube container.

“Haven’t you noticed, little dove?”

She raised a brow, confused as to what he meant. Dottore walks her towards a mirror and tells her to look closely. She couldn’t see anything different about her, she looked the same as she always does.

“I don’t see anything.”

She noticed Dottore grin from looking in the mirror.

“Precisely,” he places his chin onto her shoulders, “You’ve stopped aging.”

“What…” She whispers.

“Why do you think I do these yearly physicals, it’s to check your progress. I’ve noticed that in the past 2 years, there haven't been many physical changes. Within the past few months, you look the same as you did when you first began the injections.”

“So your plan worked?”

“I suppose, we will have to keep testing to see if it’s truly possible.”

“What do you mean? I’ve already stopped aging, is that not enough for you?”

“Do you really think stopping the aging process by a few years is enough? Certainly not, I don’t want just a few years, I want centuries, I want more.”

Y/n continues to look at herself in the mirror.

“So…this will continue for centuries?” 

“I’m so glad you’re quick to catch on. Now, how about we get you back to your chamber.”

She couldn’t move for a second, but eventually she followed him. Her ‘chamber’ is a cell with a bed and a nightstand. It isn’t much, but he insists that it’s much better than whatever the rest of his human experiments have. She doesn’t know how to feel about that, the fact that he has other people he abuses and toys with.

He swears that she’s his favorite out of all of them, after all she will be the key to his everlasting immortality. His favorite test subject.

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[mariamariquinha]

Versos de Placer (Colonel Carrillo x f!reader) - Twelve

Summary: Javier thought, brutally honest: the fuck you think you’re kidding?

Word count: 6.9k

Warnings: Brief allusion to sex, dead bodies (kinda gore), violence, torture, angst, feeling of inadequacy, people smoking, gun mention and... cop work? 🤷‍♀️

Author’s Note: In the middle of a lot of shitty things, I was able to finish editing. Am I happy with this? Maybe. I know that at some point I looked at what I was doing and liked it, so I decided to not change my mind because I’m not that reliable these days - when it comes to accept by achievements. There’s a few political comments, mostly my opinion, so beforehand I warn: I hate captalism. 

Oh, and that gif was a choice because... Yeah. It’s small, discreet, but that interaction will do some good in the future. Keep that in mind!

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!

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You were a cynic - that was both a curse and a relief. A relief, yes, because with that lifestyle, the best way of going through most of your shit was being resilient, added to a big dose of an anesthetized sense of reality. A curse, yes, because it was like you became a numb thing, acting by intuition even in moments where you should just be more… normal. 

It wasn't like you could blame your father, but it sure as hell wasn't something that came from your mother's side. She would definitely have a more genuine and less furtive response to whatever happened inside that office, even if you knew exactly what Carrillo’s words meant.

Because Carrillo used to talk once. 

With deliberate honesty.

You wish you could speak to her, rely on her. Suddenly it had been so long since you walked to her house, talked about your day and the plans for the weekend. Suddenly it all felt too much to handle - the violence, the traps, the long nights, the responsibility. In your moments of calm, spaced and almost non-existent, there were figures that hovered in your imagination and that, despite being equally disturbed by what that life had in store, still made you more innocently accommodated.

Running on the beach. Drinking that good coffee from across the street. Repeating the same things to Mrs. Jackson because, again, she thought you were that girl who used to sell her cigarettes during the 40s. 

It was as if all the control that kept you from smoking your cigarettes or the patience for your morning jogs had gone down the drain, just because Carrillo assumed a truth that made you as afraid as if Juan Marcos had put that knife in your jugular. 

Nobody talked about it. You went back to that room as if nothing had happened, lit a cigarette and went back to your papers; Javier and Steve maintained silence for nearly an entire hour, perhaps deciding whether to keep things as they were or whether to be more combative. Your head went back and forth with the sound of Carrillo's voice saying those things, all mixed up with the jumble of useless information that you had to review because you weren’t fucking paying attention. No one wanted to open up a hornet's nest of problems for an unofficial case in that environment so inhospitable for such indulgences.

You looked up at the sound of a glass being placed on your table - Peña poured three fingers of whiskey and that was as close as the three of you came to a resolution. Silence, then it would be. Temporary consent, in other words.

You couldn't be more grateful for the team you had there.

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“How are you feeling?”

Murphy was always comfortable being in the background as a listener - he knew himself well, he knew he needed to preserve as much stability as he could for Connie, so he avoided getting mixed up with Javier's shit or your shit, unless it had to do with work. Still, that day, a couple of weeks after that happened, Steve waited for the right moment to make his notes known, before Javi could arrive for work or anyone else entered the office.

At that moment, everything was a complete mess. Things were nothing short of heated with all that hunting for the golden eggs, with a lot of people dying and even more dead ends. Your father took your peace. You readily offered not to attend meetings with Carrillo if you could avoid it, and you even got offensive to Messina in one of her bureaucratic inconveniences. 

“Well, if you’re so worried about it, you should ask him. I’m not inside his head.”

And you remembered how Javier and Steve hid the urge to laugh, even though they were equally worried about the consequences of that comment. Fortunately, nothing happened, and afterwards it became a reason for relaxation between you. 

Which wasn't the same with Horacio.

He lived up to his word and wouldn't make your presence more than a mere inconvenience to his routine. At cluster meetings, he gave direct comments about the work and it was strange not to have any bickering sessions between you two - even if that didn't lessen the discomfort. Sometimes he would flex his fists when he heard you talk and stand back while watching you show him something on the satellite maps. Javier would look at you from the corner, Steve would watch Carrillo; sometimes they switched.

You didn't think any of that was fair. In the letters, you mentioned this to your mother and she said that it was up to you to make that decision: about how you were going to take it all forward and whether you could keep the man in his own torture. She knew, however, that it was also torture for you. That you missed the nights you spent together, the escapades at work, the way he touched you. It was too soon and too pathetic to mention feelings like 'love' or 'infatuation' or… whatever. You two were too skeptical for that. The company made everything more bearable, just as Javier had the girls and Steve had Connie. You and Carrillo didn't have anyone; or at least you didn’t. Juliana was still there for him. Always have, as it seemed. 

Maybe, deep down, that was what bothered you the most - knowing that he had a past connection and that it was easy, in a way, to take the initiative to go for the easier, more comfortable side. You couldn’t provide him that. None of it, to be honest. 

“... It happens, right? With the best and the worst of us. In the end, this is all kind of fucked up.”

You knew that in other circumstances (maybe in another life) Steve would be more reticent about this, more traditionalist. He was the type. So you didn't show much more than muttering under your breath and taking another drag on your cigarette as you continued to sit on that cheap leather couch, the morning sun scorching your back a little.

It took you a moment to answer something - when you did, you saw that he looked uneasy, as if he wanted to say something else.

“I’m fine.” 

“You just make it sound like it's a sacrifice.”

And it wasn't really a sacrifice - in that kind of profession, there was a fine line between just choosing the best and giving things up. Addictions went hand in hand with lucidity, just as the withdrawal from a normal life distanced you from the fact that not having a gun in your belt was like walking naked. You knew yourself; like any human being, you clung to the smallest moments of comfort, stability, joy and pleasure that arose. You were weak for the good life, tired of the constant resilience and warning signs that went off in your head every single day.

Again, you almost left him unanswered. Steve noticed your uncertainty, though. It scared the shit out of you.

“... It’s complicated.”

“Not that I want to be a bitch or something-”

“I know.”

“-But it’s a surprise. 

If he still had the innocence to believe in the system that governed their lives, Steve would be indignant, be the church boy he always was. But no, that wasn’t the case - at least he didn’t show it. He had seen the real world too brutally to fill it with more moralism; otherwise he would ignore it, be rational, move on. Then he blew the smoke that was stuck inside his mouth, shook his head and smiled, all the while staring at the ashtray on his table.

“You two used to hate each other.”

“Yeah.”

“Is it some kind of kink? Love-hate stuff?”

You scoffed a laugh, shaking your head and mirroring the smirk he threw in your direction. 

“At least it wasn't on my table,” Steve teased, as if coming to the realization just seconds before. “Isn’t that fucking considerate?”

As usual, you both laughed with an almost hopeless acceptance surrounding what little humor you shared. Not that it was fun, or worthy of such genuine laughs, just… That. Rational complicity. And you didn't want to ruin the moment, but inside there was another reason for your amusement - when you and Carrillo were making out in the building back in the day, maybe you bumped into something or other on Steve's desk, and you almost broke his desk lamp.

Rational complicity then, you decided, averting your gaze from Javier, who entered the office with nothing more than a grumbled ‘good morning’. 

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The landscape became more arid, spaced out - at the very least, isolated. You stared at the bodies splayed out on that cave, trying to somehow decipher what could not be deciphered. There was a morbid but equally cold atmosphere surrounding this discovery; you watched five Carrillo men taking one by one out of that hole, placing them side by side for further identification. The youngest of them was nothing more than 20 years old; at some point, you just turned your head to the side because the ones with more time there were already smelling. 

You stomped to a distant spot and, making sure no one was looking, you threw up. Years of experience or all the circumstances of that job didn't always make you have such a strong stomach. Later that day, you found yourself in your apartment just to brush your teeth - that led to a few minutes of a shower you thought would clean all of those images inside your head. 

Again, you sat alone in the office with more than enough whiskey inside a cup and a third cigarette ready to be lit between your lips. Steve rushed home to Connie; Javier had a puzzled expression on his face when he noticed that you would stay, but you assured him that it was okay, that nothing would happen. For the first time in days, you felt sure of something. 

“Stechner will follow Juan Marcos' lead.”

You turned your eyes from the mountain of papers in front of you, brows raised at the sudden intrusion - out of politeness or not, your father didn’t ask what you were doing there. At worst, he took the cigarette out of your mouth and made you tsk.

“He can be more persuasive than the rest of us, I suppose,” You said nonchalantly. “Or just more than me.”

Again, if he noticed the way you eyed him up and down, probably too full of bitterness, your father decided to keep it to himself, both hands behind his back.

“You agree, then?”

“That's not a question you associate with someone like Stechner.” It sounded almost like a warning, a subtle message of how your ‘soft spot’ used to lead your conceptions and moral judgements to a place way more complicated for that line of work. 

He hummed. Nodded his head. You thought that the conversation was over, of course, but you always should know better than to believe your father could be less than suffocating.

“I figured we could have dinner. I know a place nearby, still discreet enough.” 

“Trying to make me feel better?”

“We're past the stage of understanding that this is your mother's job.” 

The blunt honesty with which he said it made you consider the possibility more; it would be more than enough, spending some time with your father, to understand that there were people in life who knew how to make moments more bitter - or bitter enough to distract your mind from the worst. 

So you accepted. 

Frijoles Rancheros, he said with the best accent he had. 

“Didn't you stop with that?” He said, again, this time without the flirty smile to the waitress or the good Spanish of his.

“Tried to,” You shrugged, cigarette finally being lit and the smoke flowing through the air. 

“Not tryin’ anymore?”

“I needed to keep my list of disappointments with you,” With a smirk, you leaned more comfortably against the chair you sat at, legs crossed and eyes with that devilish spark he hated so much. “What brings you here? Stechner missed you licking his balls or something?”

“... We talked.” He said in a low, stern tone. “Apparently even the CIA knows how to recognize your work around here.”

“So you talked about me.”

“About your achievements, that is. Too emotional-”

“Of course,” You scoffed, dragging more of your cigarette with sarcasm dripping from your tone.

“-But efficient. The one raising your voice to the stubborn Colonel Horacio Carrillo.”

The mention made your stance falter, but just for a moment. You gave him a side-eye, then got back to look at anything but his face - not wanting to fail in your attempt to not show how affected you felt. It sounded like a sin, the fact that your father would use such an indifferent manner to talk about Horacio. How it was so easy for him, a man with so many flaws, to talk about Carrillo as if he was just as insignificant as… Anything. You grew defensive. The guy could still have that way of his, but you didn’t act (even before) like he was nothing. 

“Is it supposed to be a bad thing?” You decided to ask instead, watching him sip his beer faster so he could answer. 

“Have I already told the story of Cúcuta?” 

Probably, but you didn’t pay enough attention back then and wouldn’t pay there. Still, he kept talking. 

“We had discovered that some communist groups were regrouping and we took the National Police guys there. You know, for fact-finding.”

Or killing. Whatever he called it to make him lay his head on the pillow every night. 

“We stayed there for two weeks. Maybe Carrillo was involved, I can't be sure,” But then he got quiet, as if it was the end of the story. After a few beats of silence, you made a face.

“And…?”

“Ah, well, I didn’t know he had that in him to become what he is now. Not the most remarkable cop, but committed to the cause. Very Catholic, however, he called his mother every day. It amazes me that he has come as far as being on the front lines to catch Escobar. It takes a certain obscurity to be good at this job.” 

You considered it silently, watching your dad's grimaces as he just talked about the situation like it was a normal thing. Maybe it was after all. Reality was lighter if you took it as a routine, using conformism as a shield. You wondered if he knew about what happened with you that afternoon - if Carrillo, once, was the type of guy who would throw up because of it. You even wondered, with the space your father gave while simply not paying attention to you, what it would be like to meet that version of Horacio and whether he would make the same decisions, or think that this would be his future.

“I'm sure he has his own demons just like anyone else,” You said out of nowhere, taking in the way the man just watched your motions. “No one gets away with this kind of shit.”

“This shit is catching a communist pig like Escobar.”

Communist, you almost laughed, but you didn't argue. You couldn't even count the number of Americans involved in the lists of secondary cartels in the States, nor how many white-faced people who signed Republican votes negotiated with these 'communists', which only made you more skeptical of the idea of ​​what you were really doing there or the kind of person you had the pleasure of not being raised by.

Under the circumstances, Carrillo's revulsion was understandable.

“You know, you really look like your mother.”

“Conscious?”

“Naive. Maybe not all the violence in the world will make you realize that we are not always the villains.” 

“... No,” You puffed out more of the smoke, arching an eyebrow. “Sometimes you find a shallow ditch full of bodies and it turns out to be Escobar's fault.”

Because everything, from the bastard son who was hidden in the bowels of that country to the resistant hands of Juan Marcos against your neck, had a finger of the communists. If the pain you felt earlier or the pain you felt in childhood with his absence existed, it was because of the communists.

Damn communists.

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You threw the other two packs of cigarettes in the trash that same night, as soon as you got back to the office.

With effort, you would remember to look for nicotine patches or anti-smoking gum in the morning.

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Carrillo was familiar with the feeling of self-repression, and for some reason, he too deserved the strict discipline. Never a hair out of place, but that same hair wouldn't be styled any other way than the way he saw fit; short, practical, that was not an interruption but also a form of imposing.

This discipline made him learn that the way we present ourselves says something about us. That's why he really didn't understand why he saw you with a subtlety that definitely didn't exist in that job and, consequently, in you.

That day, you were at one of those reunions. The atmosphere was tense, as always, but Carrillo watched you climb on a small step to gain access to a higher part of the discreet shelf in the corner of the room to reach a cup, all the while laughing at something Peña was saying. It wasn't just the way your thighs flexed in the material of your jeans or the way everything felt tight enough that you had the flexibility to move; your manner changed, your modus operandi. There were no delicate mannerisms in your posture, nor in your approach - the harsh parts made you look like a hedgehog, even with that smile on your face.

If the whole situation had hurt you the way it seemed to him, if… that moment, inside the office, had a similar meaning, he didn't know, but he understood the mystery. There was so much going on and suddenly you had your dad and your issues and your life; Carrillo knew better than anyone that neither he nor you would want to bring up yet another drama. 

He valued that effort, was familiar with it. As at other times when Horacio had to be the rational figure, the loneliness of being dedicated to a discipline was something he knew well how to live with.

Carrillo also knew your frustrations about your father were bubbling to the brim. You tried to cover it up as best you could, always scratching the back of your neck or looking away when a CIA decision interfered with the DEA's. It was obvious that hanging out with guys like him could be like idle work - he, of all people, knew that being here on the ground following more archaic strategies wasn't your style. Or worst: that his presence there meant that he was almost always a flawed tool of a plan he was never fully a part of.

For him, watching you was like watching all the energy that walked beside your manners when you arrived disappearing because, in the end, it sounded as if only he, Horacio, saw the full magnitude of your achievements and efforts. Like an awed spectator of a hungry muse, all teeth and claws for what she believed but cutting off by… the others.

“You know that’s bullshit, right?” You said then, sitting at the edge of the table after serving a good amount of coffee. “I remember seeing you there and I’m pretty sure the night ended really differently.” 

“Well, we didn't say goodbye on my doorstep.”

Carrillo frowned at the suggestion, especially at the way you two seemed to forget he was there too, watching Javier using that natural flirty personality with you. And then you turned to see Steve walking in with Trujillo, away from the commotion, and when Horacio decided that it was his sign to stop staring at you, he saw Peña himself sending him a curious gaze. 

That day, Horacio discovered that Javier had been measuring the situation like a scientific project.

“No tenemos tiempo para esto.” We don't have time for this. 

Was all Carrillo said as soon as the reunion was over and they were walking side by side down the corridor. 

“No se de que estas habl-” I don’t know what you're talking ab-.

“Tu sabes.” You know. 

They both stopped in their tracks, interrupted by the Colonel's gruff voice and the way he jerked him around with a shoulder pull. Javier frowned, tried to understand where that all came from, then raised his eyebrows at the realization. He sighed, looked around and put his hands on his hips.

“¿Alguien te ha dicho alguna vez que no eres la persona más sutil que hay?” Has anyone ever told you that you're not the most subtle person around?

Horacio kept quiet. Caught. 

“Su padre es un gilipollas, quizás uno de los peores con los que me he cruzado. Ha dejado muy claro que quiere la oportunidad adecuada para sacarla de aquí.” Her father is an asshole, maybe one of the worst I've ever come across. He's made it very clear that he wants the right opportunity to get her out of here.

And for a moment, Carrillo almost understood those motivations. If he was a worried parent, he wouldn't sleep easy knowing his only daughter was putting herself in front of bullets or curled up in the arms of a fucking narco, nearly suffocated to death. He himself didn't like to imagine what would have happened if he hadn't gotten there in time. 

“... No estaba coqueteando con ella, si eso es lo que te preocupa. Nunca saldríamos bien, esa mujer es una diabla.” I wasn't flirting with her, if that's what you're worried about. We would never work out, that woman is a devil.

True. So true. 

“Pero es mejor que decidas qué va a ser de eso, porque está bastante claro que te estás engañando a ti mismo.” But you better decide what's going to become of it, because it's pretty clear you're kidding yourself.

Javier didn't elaborate, and despite not being the most sensitive of men, Carrillo knew when he was being put up against something he was avoiding. As Peña walked away with a frustrated posture, he wondered if that was the effect he had on you, of disappointment at being… him.

Of course, he didn't openly mention this to anyone, nor did he feel able to do so; to the fullest, he reinforced his serious expression when he saw you leave the operating room and look for someone. You looked one way, then the other, and saw him standing there. Something must have gone through your mind with the way you swallowed hard and clenched your fists - Carrillo wondered if it was the same memory of that night in your apartment, when you were still fresh from sex and with other perspectives.

For an instant, just one, he felt it. Like a replica of that same night.

When he was the first to look away, smothered by the idea and tempted by the sensation you offered those days, Carrillo knew he was probably letting you down again.

As he should. 

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You felt frustrated. You'd been having that feeling for a while before the whole Carrillo situation, but it wasn't like you could deny that that disappointment had lessened dramatically once you'd spent time in his bed.

They began to monitor letters sent by employees exported from the States. Peña always walked around with an even more frown on having the letters he sent to his father being invaded in this way and, as much as Steve didn't complain while having Connie there, he complained about the intrusion just like Javier.

You felt suffocated. 

That’s how you ended up getting fucked inside a restroom stall, legs attached to the sides of the hips of a guy named Carlos and dress hiked up to make it easy for him to access… you. Or your decency, if such a term existed at the moment. There was an effort there, though. Carlos made the time well spent. When you went home that night, maybe you really were more relaxed, your shoulders less rigid and your spine relaxed.

But there was a reason you couldn't sleep a wink that night.

Carlos was Carlos, not Carrillo.

Perhaps, you tried to justify, it was because there was a greater reason than just the attraction with the two of you. There was an almost paranoid fear that the days were uncertain, the daily stress of a job that seemed to be failing and the frustrations - Carlos was Carlos, not Carrillo. The kisses, the touches, the look; two opposites. You would close your eyes if you were Horacio, you would sleep like you haven't slept in days. Surely you wouldn't wash yourself so vehemently after sex either if it was him. 

It wasn’t though. It was Carlos. 

So when the phone rang around two, you got up without difficulty and answered it on the second ring. There was no need to rub your eyes to chase away sleep because it didn't exist, even if physical fatigue made you massage your shoulder while listening to a brief recorded message from a woman saying it was a private and recorded call.

“¿Es usted responsable del caso de Juan Marcos de las Puentes?” Are you responsible for the case of Juan Marcos de las Puentes?

The voice was too Latin to be Javier's and too different to be Carrillo's; even if it were one of them, they wouldn't use Spanish or act like they didn't know you. Your first reaction was frown - and the second, unconsciously, was to look around as if the answer to the as yet unspoken question was in your living room. 

“... Sí. ¿Quien habla?” Yes. Who’s speaking?

“Soy Frances Tenorio, directora encargada del Centro Especial de Detención de Medellín.” I'm Frances Tenorio, director in charge of the Medellín Special Detention Center.

The last time someone called you this late at night, five years ago, was when the family found out that your grandmother had passed away. Your uncles, two other men who lived in the South, asked if it made sense for you to help them with the funeral arrangements - not that there was any intimacy to it, but because she would like to be treated with a delicacy that none of the three had. You took responsibility because you knew your father wouldn't do it out of hurt. He never had a good relationship with his mother.

Still, all that cold commitment to ensuring that the body was well treated and the ceremony well organized, such as the mass that took place seven days later, did not compare to the coldness with which you reacted to Frances' words.

There was no clarification and you didn't ask; just requests you weren’t so used to having, but obliged anyway. You listened to the instructions, hung up, got dressed - gun in the holster, badge on your belt. When you left, you locked the apartment door as usual, walked down the hall, got in the car and realized that the radio was still on a specific station, at that time of night repeating romantic songs. You didn’t turn it off. 

Your mind hesitated to do the call - you didn’t want to. Circumstances did not have an exact logic in the chronology of the facts that you knew. Juan Marcos wasn’t supposed to be there, least in Medellín. Whatever the fuck Stechner tried to do wouldn’t be placed there for obvious reasons. There were at least five people who received that kind of information before you, and suddenly the director of a place you didn't even know was part of Juan Marcos' punishment had your phone number. It was statistical to know that no one died like that at a time like this - the guy was a bull, healthy from head to toe, with at most a late tetanus vaccine.

Then, all of the sudden-

“As I said, dead.” 

Frances didn't have the best of English, but the heavily accented words made a lot of sense in your ears, even if they didn't make sense on their own. His office was poorly lit, and generally speaking, you had a lot of questions, but you just stared at that death certificate with nothing but open confusion on your face. Perhaps it was the way you lagged to say something, because Frances kept talking.

“The National Police was already warned about-”

“The National Police?” You abruptly raised your head. 

“It's the norm. Rules. I couldn't let another gringo into my jail alone.”

Before you could ask what he meant or process the information, you noticed someone entering the door and, of course, it needed to be Carrillo. The National Police. He looked at you with a big frown, then at the officers behind and Frances - mad. 

“¿Desde cuándo es este un protocolo aceptable?” Since when is this an acceptable protocol? Horacio asked in a harsh tone, standing right beside you. Looking at the door again, you spotted Trujillo, confused and a little taken aback by the sudden situation. 

“Llegaron los gringos y tenían orden de interrogatorio. Eso es protocolo, tú lo sabes mejor que nadie.” The gringos showed up and had an interrogation warrant. That's protocol, you know that better than anyone.

“Que gringos?” 

The silence that followed, short but helpful, was like an obvious answer to an even more obvious question. You faced the early death certificate, then Carrillo, who didn't express any reaction. You, by yourself, couldn’t express any reaction.

“I want to see the body.” 

“Qué?” What?

“Do you think that’s a good id-”

“Quiero ver el cuerpo. ¿Ahora me entiendes?” I want to see the body. Do you understand me now?

Carrillo wasn’t combative with your interruption, nor with the way you were snappy with Frances; otherwise, he nodded in approval of your request, as if none of that hadn't already been the same as everyone in that jail dropping their pants for the CIA's threats, as if they needed just Carrillo’s approval. 

At some point in your education, you learned about the special rooms for political prisoners during the communist uprising and the government's quiet work of putting down Sierra Maestra-influenced guerrillas. 64, the formative year of half the men inside those halls and, arguably, the golden memories of that Frances Tenorio. With the 'peace sealed' by right-wing groups, you knew that many of these rooms became normal interrogation spaces or, as in the case of that institution, an improvised mortuary that looked more like a shallow spawning pit.

Fractured skull from a fall, the obituary said. They were opening an internal investigation into a possible gang rebellion.

Juan Marcos was a man nearly six feet tall, with truly thick arms, long legs, and robust from head to toe. You knew his weight, strength and physical skills like no one else. The hands, you noticed, did not bear a single mark of retaliation or defense. You would know if he had; moreover, healed from the clash with you months earlier. Looking from there, with nothing but a pale, lifeless face, motionless, you noticed that Juan Marcos looked no less frightening or dangerous or… Well, the face of a criminal. 

You wondered how many guys came to do the job. Two to tie, one to intimidate - maybe one more to watch. They used to had this one.

“Is your father in Medellín?” Carrillo asked in a low tone, not daring to disturb the intense staring you’re giving the guy right in front of you two. 

“Nn-nn,” You shook your head slightly, then turned to Frances. “Stechner.”

“Protocol.” Was all he said, already turning to leave the room but probably standing still on the other side of the door. 

Three fingernails had been torn out and there were electric shock marks on his nipples, groin and mouth. The face was disfigured and torn by what looked like blows; if you turned him on his side, you probably would see the marks on the backs of the knees just as you saw them on the wrists and heels. The corpus delicti examination, still unsigned as well as the obituary, only recorded the head injury that didn't really exist - done with a typewriter that probably came from the office you had come not so shortly before.

When you raised your head, Carrillo was watching you carefully, measuring every reaction that could come out of your neutral expression. He knew how it was. He did it himself. You could see that, probably, he was just mad that he wasn't responsible for it. Maybe you were too, just a little - deep down, better saying. 

“I need a cig.”

The conversation must have lasted ten, fifteen minutes? You only managed to finish the first one, leaning against the hood of the car and alone in the side parking lot of the prison. The nicotine patch must have been lost somewhere in those hallways and his arm was still marked by the glue. When you went to take the second cigarette in your mouth, you saw Horacio approach and also the way your hands were shaking. He chose not to be at your side, but in front of you; as soon as you lit the cigarette, you kept both elbows resting on the car hood behind you.

No one said anything for a good minute. When you dared to give him a look, just once, Carrillo was lighting a cigarette for him - something way stronger than yours, as always. 

“What was it?” You broke the silence with a single question, one he just shrugged at first. “I’ll give it an hemorrhagic shock.”

“I’ll give it a fractured skull from a fall.”

“Please,” You scoffed, raising the cigarette to your lips again. 

“The CIA put in their report that the last operation didn’t suffer any casualties. I had to sign two letters of removal and I almost signed one of death. So yes, a fractured skull from a fall. ” 

It was difficult. You knew it was. When you started to get close to him and understand a little more of what was there, under the skin, you could see that his biggest frustrations were in the fact that the potential of his work was limited. There would always be a Stechner, a CIA, a DEA, a bunch of outsiders with funny accents and shitty Spanish. That he, as a man and as a professional, always had the cards in his hand but would only play them if someone from above said so; that when he started to overcome this hierarchy, he was banished to Madrid and then back with a freedom tied in very loose halters, under conditions that you didn't know, out of sheer whim.

Carrillo knew those marks and those consequences - many had his name transcribed. And he could say it was hemorrhagic shock or whatever the fuck fucked up Juan Marcos' life, but you both knew that outcome held particular satisfaction for him. At least enough to accept it unchallenged.

“... He was my suspect,” You said in a defeated tone, blowing smoke in the air. “It's pretty stupid of me to think they'd at least consult me ​​first, right? To say they would come here to destroy the guy?” 

“Yeah. But you’re smart all the same.” 

“Not enough to not do the math on why my dad pretended he wanted to have dinner with me.” 

“He wanted?”

“He did it.” You responded vehemently, tapping your thumb on the end of your cigarette to knock out more of the ash. “I should have known better when I saw him there in the office so late at night. Talking about Stechner taking the lead as if he wasn’t already planning on killing the motherfucker.”

“And do you think it would have made a difference if you had known?”

“... No.”

You didn't say it was because you were witnessing what your father could do for the first time and that it scared the shit out of you; they were childish thoughts. After years of paddling against the tide, seeing him miss his own mother's wake and even all the disappointments he could’ve caused you, everything was more tolerable when his stories were just that: stories. You also had your share of lives under your belt: one guy in Compton, one in South Beach, one more in a warehouse during a drug traffic operation. Still, you learned to live with them because it was your job. Yours only. And sometimes you could forget that someone who was supposed to give you a little more petting reduced you to one more small obstacle to doing his.

Again. And again. And again. 

You felt stupid. Naive. Again.

“It’s like fucking Hotel California,” You muttered, eyes closed and fingers massaging your temple. 

“Like what?” He asked in sincere curiosity, making you look at him in time to spot his own cigarette mid air. 

“Like the song. On a dark desert highway, cool wind in my hair…? Nothing?” Your hands gesticulated. 

“Too gringo for me,” Carrillo inhaled on his cigarette and pretended (pretended) he was keeping a straight face. You rolled your eyes.  

“Your friend Frances must agree with that.”

“By your time here, you should know that not everyone trusts you.” 

“There’s a few exceptions.” You defended. 

“Yeah, some people might lose certain opinions for one person or another.”

With another drag on your cigarette, you let out a low 'huh' and shook your head, but when you glanced back at Carrillo, you saw that he was watching you with a very wide gaze. Again, measuring your reactions, as if trying to send a message with his silence. You did the same. 

It's been a while since you've been like this, with time to observe each other and capture details that captivated your encounters. He was more tired, visibly fresh out of his static spot in the office on the upper floors, probably with a couple of glasses of whiskey in his system. Damn pretty, you could add. Prettier than Carlos - poor Carlos. 

He broke eye contact first. 

“You’ll talk with your father?”

“Well, at least to know if it was hemorrhagic shock.”

“I don't know if this will make you sleep better.”

“Nah,” You shrugged, tilting your head to the side. “Just looks like I forgot the guy can be sadistic as fuck.” 

“Habit.”

“Personality.”

Again, silence. This time though, you were the first one to break eye contact, mostly because that thing got into a place you wouldn’t like to go. You didn’t tell Carrillo, probably wouldn’t, but your mind was building scenarios and creating perspectives about something you really preferred to forget. 

Your mom always knew better - you wished you weren't so curious as to choose the same career as your father to know what kind of shit he did.

“You’re going back to the office?” 

“Yes.”

“Mm,” He walked in your direction, but went straight to the door to open it. Before he could do it, though, Carrillo turned to you. “I would do the same.”

You nodded. 

“I know.”

“And you too.”

“Not with the same motivation,” You looked at him nonchalantly. “I have personal reasons. The type I could understand.”

“He don’t?”

“Well, we’re not the same,” Another shrug, this time dragging more of the cigarette before blowing the smoke out the side. “Perhaps I’m more different for not being adept at this, but is it really that different? I don't feel guilt, but I do feel angry that he disappeared with a guy who could give me information. Screw his life, right?”

“... Sometimes this type of life makes us forget that we are humans. You're not Gandhi or any shit like that, you're you. Flesh, bone and a gun in hand, ready to fire at the right time. I would do it, because I know what he's done to other people, but I've also seen what he's done to you.” 

He took a step closer - just one. And when you instinctively backed away with your eyes closed and a hurt murmur coming from your throat, Carrillo froze in place. 

“We don’t need to talk-”

“I know.”

“But stop playing with me, Horacio. Stop.” For a moment, he looked confused, then noticed something that perhaps even you didn’t and nodded in defeat. “Don’t be like him. Not now.”

Don't be opportunistic like him, don't be selfish like him, don't be capricious like him, don't use you like he always did. That's what you meant. That he shouldn’t pretend he didn’t say no twice and approached you later with some kind of warm conversation because it seemed convenient. You didn't need it - what you wanted and what you accepted he denied too quickly.

“... I’ll be back in the office.” You said after a time, eyes on the floor right where the cigarette landed and hand brushing your left eyebrow. “Body identified, death certificates and stuff like that. It's just, isn't it? Do you proceed from here?” 

Carrillo gulped, considered your face like a brave man and said a simple ‘yes’ before insisting on opening the goddamn door for you. And you let him, even when he stood there, the door now closed, staring at you through the open window. 

“Good night, Colonel.” 

“... Good night.”

He tapped the opening twice, took three long steps back and inhaled on the cigarette which, as you had barely noticed, was still lit in his hand. You watched him through the rearview mirror, just for a moment longer, and after that split opportunity you also stared at your own eyes - coming to a conclusive revelation. One you already knew, in fact. 

Carlos was Carlos. Carrillo was Carrillo. 

And damn you for always choosing the complicated ones. 

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