#;; introducing -> RAYAN r.

[crestfallon]

✦ ・— [ riz ahmed. cis man. he/him. ] || OMG! Was that RAYAN RAFIQ wearing the new Chanel boots? Hard to believe that a INKOGNITO OWNER / FREELANCE MODEL could afford those. Ugh, I hate to say it but they kind of pull it off. When you’re THIRTY NINE, I guess you think you can do anything. They’ve only been in fashion for at least FOUR YEARS and I’ve heard that they’re SNARKY and DEEPLY ARTISTIC but don’t believe everything you read! According to THE WORD ON THE STREET, they’re actually BITTER and UNRELIABLE. Ha! Well, I hope they know a million others would kill to be them. They better be watching their back. That’s all. ||

Their Current Rank: 1 Star - though he personally has found some attention, through social media mostly by freelance modeling && pushing his tattoo career to the next level, guest appearing on specific shows, and performing artistry at conventions, etc, his name is unknown outside the direct, relatively small bubble of the community. he craves more.

basics:

under co still, will fill out the rest later

nicknames:  ray, to his friends.

birthplace: texas, usa.

sexuality: bisexual.

religion:  raised muslim, not really practicing, mostly agnostic, tends to do a little more than he normally would around ramadan.

relationship: in a relationship with owen burr

date of birth: nov 11th.

zodiac sign:  scorpio.

extended traits:

hobbies: drawing (both sketchbook and digital, he loves to do pen drawings), tattooing, spray-painting, sometimes will blow the dust off his old, cracked skateboard and then shake his head no. he likes fashion-related reality tv, coffee in the mornings and a rolled joint to start the day. eating cereal for dinner. photoshoots, dancing, live music, taking pictures and memorializing everything. getting what he wants.

dislikes:

labels/inspo: the deadpan snarker, the artiste, the black sheep, the maverick.

BACKSTORY.

+ (subplot information) i would love for ray to have been involved in the robbery, somehow! possibly as a fence, a buyer, or even as a direct hand involved in the operation. he is willing, and desperate, to do anything to save his shop, his team, his career, and his reputation... and, hey, fame wouldn't be too bad, either. he has dreams, certainly. ADDITIONALLY, if he had to take a side in the suspicion thrown between the rivalling companies, he would loosely side with suberbia, as any/all attempts to get into the haus of red whatsoever has failed, and he may be bitter.. (subplot information ends).

big dream central for ray, honestly - his parents were immigrants from pakistan, and he was raised to work hard, never give up on his dreams, protect his own, and value his morals, above all else. he was taught to live humbly, comfortably, and his parents had little but love to offer their children, and worked long hours. he was the youngest, and the only to be born in the states, americanized from the beginning and always felt a little too large for their little life. none of their dreams seemed to fit his, but they were older, and they let him fly the nest after a few hard years of trying to tame his beast within. he never did allow it to settle, and he blossomed quickly.

full of ideas, of emotion, of thoughts, of energy, of beauty - rayan was everything that could fill a room, and he was every bit as awkward about expressing it. he fit like two left gloves, his dad would say, and he agreed. he just... was odd, in a way, that most others didn't understand. he worked for the year book committee, he loved to draw, excelled in any sort of artistic setting, and struggled with academics, but was relatively happy throughout his life.

jobs, and regular living, were always a bore. he just wanted to create, so create he did. bummed out throughout art school, bounced around jobs for awhile more, slept on couches, lived in a garage of a buddy for over a year, and finally started to figure things out.

when he bought inkognito five years ago, he didn't expect everything to change, but it did. he has a crew he adores, and he found some success on social media through his freelancing, becoming some sort of form of influencer type, tattoo artist personality in a smaller knit alternative industry... but he craved luxury. he always wanted more, so he tried and failed and tried a few more times to get into the industry as a model. or a photographer. or a designer. he doesn't care, he just wants to be part of the world he feels is so far away...

WANTED.

art hoes/creative friends; he went to art school, he hangs out in art museums, he will sketch while on the beach, he has digital art online that has gained popularity, he loves poetry - if it's anything deeply moving, artistic, or alternative/niche, he's there. a little art hoe crew would be a cute idea?

roommate(s), past; he's been a couch surfer before, and would proudly do it again, and has lived all over the place between texas and california, and especially los angeles. i would love a meredith grey/grey's anatomy situation in his life, where it's a revolving door to anyone who is fighting with their partner, needing a crash place, etc.

those rich, network friends; when you have a shop that close to the elite in the industry, and model at times when you get real lucky, you get to know people. these are ray's prized possessions; his ticket in, and in some cases, his genuine friends. others? nah, total marks. he'd use 'em in a heartbeat.

other freelance models/designers/etc; anyone else breaking into the business who he can scheme with, stragetize with, gossip with, etc!! would love some models he has worked with before in passing, or fellow social media budding stars.

exes/flings; he's never been one for commitment before, but he's been in la for at least seven or eight years at minimum, so i imagine within that time, he's tried to plant roots once or twice. probably almost fell in love once or twice, but they never worked out. we can plot why. now he is in a serious relationship for the first time, so maybe there is a chance at mending old bridges and regaining old friends?

[morrisharding]

Honestly, I didn't think I would choose to do another Drake album but I just could not pass up the opportunity to talk about one of the most heartfelt and classic albums that he has ever made.

If you're reading this it's too late 6!

Many people including me say that this could be Drake's best album along with Nothing Was The Same and Take Care. There is just so much to this album that gets me excited every time I listen to it. This is an album that I started listening to recently but some songs on here were very popular when I was in 6th grade. My teacher mme Marianne was a huge Drake fan at the time and we would play Energy off the album sometimes in class. Clean version, of course, the whole class would sing along and it was just such a fun time. I didn't really know anything about Drake at the time except for a couple of his songs that played on the radio and obviously because of my class where half of them were Drake fans. It would only be till recently that I was able to listen to the whole album and I was blown away by how well made this project was.

Over time Drake has become one of my favourite artists and there are just so many reasons for it. I loved R&B as a kid and that's how he started off his career. His success is undeniable, from growing up as a single child with his mother to becoming one of the greatest of all time and inspiring many more. I am just one of the millions who look up to this individual and shows how much of an impact he has had. A lot of Drake's songs relate to me in a way that rarely any other artists do. Especially on this album the song "You and the 6" it makes me feel happy as he talks about his situation with his mother and his father and how his mother raised him all alone to become the man he is today. My parents have been divorced since I was very young and I have had my personal issues and hard times dealing with the situation but my mother stayed strong and took care of me on her own. I will always praise her for the sacrifices she made for me as life could be a lot different. Drake also mentions his ethnicity and how he was teased for being black but when he was introduced to the rap industry he was not black enough. As I am of mixed ethnicity aswell it's hard to see where you fit in sometimes as you are truly your own unique person. This is undoubtedly one of my favourite songs on the album and I wish Drake still made music similar to "You and the 6".

Preach by Drake and PARTYNEXTDOOR is a song that reminds me of the good times riding my bike with friends and going to parties. One time I was biking with my friend Rayan and he introduced me to this song and I absolutely loved it from first listen. From then on I would hear it at parties and other places and it would always remind me of the good old times.

My love for the album comes from the fact that it was one of the only albums where Drake is angry and trying to prove to others he's not just a nice R&B guy but a damn good rapper. Half of the tracks on the album would be rap songs and trap beats while the other half was R&B singles. I can't believe what it felt like for Drake fans at the time when they finally got what they wished for. All the rap songs on the album like Energy, 10 Bands, Know Yourself, No Telling, Star67, 6 God and more had amazing beats and they gave off the feeling of a dark and eerie place which is what he wanted to give off. Lyrics weren't out of this world but enough for the song to be catchy and for people to enjoy it still.

If you have not listened to Drake's If you're reading this it's too late then you are really missing out. Its truly at the top of my favourite albums and even if you are not a fan of rap there is so much more to this album.

Stay tuned next week for another big blog post!!!

[honey-piggy]

happy (i think?) 1 year

Ok so it’s been a year y’all and I have been on a crazy ride this last year. I’ve met some amazing people, some shitty people, some lovely people and some really questionable people 🤔 I have so many wonderful mutuals who I’ve shared so many memes, moments, gifs, fics, recs, pictures and videos with and I’m grateful for the amazing friendships I’ve built on this absolute shit-hole of a website/app. 

Below is a mix of the mutuals I talk to, mutuals whose blogs I love and mutuals who I follow who always post amazing content and bless my dash with diversity, happiness, inspiration, love and colourful things. Even if we don’t talk, just know that following you has been a pleasure so far! This journey’s been great so far so thank you to everyone! Here’s to another year! (If your name is in bold, check below for a special message 💕)

A-C

@afiwashere / @afroarmy94 / @angeljimiin / @awildblackkpopperappears / @dabaddestb-tch / @beekkul / @blksunflowergrl / @canadian-honey / @candiedmingyu / @cherry-bangtan / @cloudyera

D-F

@dearlytea / @emotiadouche

G-I

@gijitae / @gukgalore/ @guksheart / @heinekyun / @icasseopeia  

J-L

@jango-tango / @jour-de-printemps / @juniorgunners / @kainks / @kittenfran / @kuromatoki / @kwkwknsn / @lumochii

M-O

@magiic-shop / @minnpd / @mitaesoroo / @myleejooheon / @nanders-sk / @natazite / @noona-clock

P-R

@polaritae

S-U

@shininjjongg / @soft-hoseokkie / @softstancyj / @some-people-have-lives / @sunflowersinmyafro / @submissive-bangtan / @sunnychims / @sweetheartwonho / @tae-kun / @theangelcafe

V-Y

@wheneverythingslipped / @wonhoneybun / @wonhosflower 

✨ @afiwashere you’re kind and caring and loving, soft and empathetic but that doesn’t lessen your ferocity nor your sassiness. You’re one of the strongest people I know and I hope to always be blessed by your witty words, excellent humour and gentle soul.

✨@cherry-bangtan I had the pleasure of working with you to produce some headers for your amazing works and it’s something I’ll always remember. You were one of the first authors I followed on here and I thoroughly enjoy everything you’ve written. You’re always kind and patient with the people you interact with and such traits are difficult to uphold in such a hostile environment these days. I hope you continue writing masterpieces and I look forward to reading them!

✨ @dearlytea Rea! We haven’t really had the time to speak since you’ve been away on your hiatus but I genuinely love everything about you! You’re funny and talented and write some of the best smut I’ve ever read. Love love 💗

✨ @emotiadouche LEY WHERE DO I EVEN STARTTTTT. I remember following each other really early on and you’ve always rooted for me. You’re a fuckin comedian, brilliant writer and best friend! From whoring out over our favs to asking each other for advice on writing, you’re always there for me, my lil yeetling. Might I also mention your mind is just as filthy as mine and I adore it 😔🙏🏾 needless to say, you’re also a fucking great author and I love you works, I would love to write a collab piece with u. also thanks for ruining my life by introducing me to ATEEZ, I belong to one (1) woman and one (1) woman only. I love you big time, my bbg💘💋

✨ @gijitae minha querida, you’ve been so kind to me and so loving. I love our mutual passion for languages and writing and I absolutely adore the knowledge of cinema you bring to me. You teach me so much and support me so much more, I do not deserve an angel like you. 👼🏾

✨ @gukgalore Rayan, you write some of the best content out there and honestly, you’re so creative. So talented and open-minded and willing to listen to others. Never change, you’re absolutely perfect!

✨ @guksheart Cait, omg :( we’ve been through so much shit, but I can always count on you to listen in times of need and can always rely on you to give great advice. Honestly, you’re a queen and I look up to you so much, you’ve inspired me in so many ways and encouraged me in my writing. From our shared passion for tea and lofi to our undying love for bts and kpop, we clicked from the very moment we messaged. I hope that life is kinder to you than it has been and I hope you find the happiness you undoubtedly deserve. I love you so much! 💕

✨ @mitaesoroo  Bebe! Your timidness and softness is impossible not to like! I know you’re away on a hiatus but I hope you eventually see this. You’re back and I’m so happy! I always have you to thank for sharing amazing tunes with me (your taste in music is impeccable) and for always being there to cry about Monsta x together. I wish you all the best, mon amour 💗

✨ @jour-de-printemps we’ve been mutuals for only a little while but the similarities and things we have in common with each other are absolutely crazy! We’ve ranted together and I’ve enjoyed listening to your stories about the work you do. I also love your writing, you’ve written one of the most heartbreaking stories I’ll never forget and I hope you continue to write more!

✨ @kuromatoki I literally have no words that can express. You were my first follower and the first person I followed and ever since you’ve messaged me asking about CoD, we’ve pretty much been inseparable. Your undying, burning love for B.A.P and dark aes is what I love most about you, along with your soft personality and loyalty to your friends. You are the most amazing person and if it weren’t for the fact we live in different countries, I’d be by your side 25/8. You’ve always been there for me, even when I think I’m undeserving and I hope life grants you eternal happiness. I love you dearly 💗

✨ @minnpd Nova :( I know you left tumblr a while back but you remain one of the most cherished people in my heart. Your writing is absolutely phenomenal and I’ve pretty much read your entire masterlist. I’ll always remember our first interactions and me being intimidated by your status and I’ll never forget the excitement I felt knowing you were about to release a new work. I hope you’ve found happiness and solidarity in life and I wish you the best for the future. I love you! 💗

✨ @nanders-sk you’re such a talented young writer. Your words transport me to the worlds you create and I’m completely lost in every piece. Your writing is magical and although we don’t really speak, I know you have a kind soul. Please never stop writing and doing what you do best. The world deserves to see what an amazing author you are and you deserve such recognition.

✨ @shininjjongg RI LMFJSNS I LOVE OUR FIRST ENCOUNTER, ITS ABSOLUTELY UNFORGETTABLE; who knew two opposing opinions on Dragonball (a.k.a. The Best anime out there) would form such a solid friendship. My Pisces Partner in Crime who never fails to crack me up. You’re always bursting with knowledge about history and it’s so beautiful, your passion. You’re a fierce, determined, take-shit-from-no-one kinda gal and I love that about you. Not to mention you’re really hot too 🤧 I hope your exams went/are going well and I hope to speak to you again soon 💗

✨ @soft-hoseokkie​ Jo! We’ve interacted a bit more recently and I really appreciate the fact you stan underground/rookie/underrated groups who really deserve more recognition for their phenomenal efforts 😔✊🏾 It broadens my horizons and always piques my interest. But! You’re always kind and calm and I love that you’re so open minded. You’re also adorable 🥰

✨ @submissive-bangtan Miss Caro, I’m a little nervous writing this bc you’re one of my biggest role models. You opened my eyes to the domme lifestyle and while I think I’m not really a domme, I can appreciate that aspect a lot more than before. Your writing is sensual and sharp-cutting; thought-provoking and extremely sexy. You’re firm and take shit from no one yet still kind and patient with the people you speak to. You have the perfect balance. Interacting with you has always been a pleasure and I hope to do so more in the future 💗

✨ @theangelcafe Honey, you were my first anon and the way we spoke pretty much everyday was amazing! I know we’ve both been so busy and don’t talk as much now, we still remain close and I always love hearing about your day and your interests! 👼🏾

✨ @wheneverythingslipped Kat, i just, like, love you so much. I remember sobbing over how beautiful you are, your beauty is legit breathtaking. You’re always quick to tag me in things you think interest me and share your passions with me and for that I’m so so grateful. You’re one of the purest souls I’ve ever encountered, you’re so special ✨💕

✨ @wonhoneybun RAE ☀️ We’ve spoken a lot more recently and I think we’ve grown closer. You’re kind, sweet, loving and talented and we share a lot of things and experiences in common. You’ve always been kind to me and always take time out of your day to make sure I’m ok, I appreciate that more than words can ever convey 💌

✨ @wonhosflower Silvia :( you’re so beautiful it intimidates me bshsjsnshhs your passion for cakes and baking is so cute and inspires me to get in the kitchen more often! (Not to mention your love for Wonho & jikook) Whoever gets to wife you one day, will be awfully lucky to have such a gorgeous and talented girl like you 💕

I’m currently away so this is queued but know that I love and cherish you all! 💕✨💕✨💕✨💕✨💕

that’s enough emotion for one day, adeus y’all 👋🏾💗