#; it's ugly formatting but at least we can cut it after LMAO

[distopea]

As he felt the strong palm on his brother, his soothing and joking voice, Mads slowly understood that a limit had been crossed. He could feel that Mika’s hand wouldn’t leave him, and despite the lack of strength, it was also a way to anchor him to the ground. He couldn’t believe that he had snapped once more, his mind broken and the cracks full of demons that were whispering awful things. He couldn’t if it had been five minutes or two hours, and suddenly, there was nothing but a large pit of despair under his feet. When… When would he be free from this torment? Would it ever stop? If Mika wasn’t here… He could have… 

“I’m definitely the one ladies talk about in my village.” Mika bragged again, and Mads could feel that he was analyzing the whole scene too. “Got a few wedding proposals, but I thought that running away from all responsibilities with that big head of my brother was funnier.” He had to lower the tension in the room so he would be able to get back to sleep, his voice definitely weaker than usual. Mads felt guilty to force his brother into a state of consciousness just because he couldn’t control himself, and at some point, he began to pat his hand laid on his shoulder. It was fine… He had to rest. He didn’t need to parade like this; he had to heal first. 

And then, Nezumi showed a rather brave behavior by squatting in front of him. Surely, it would require Mads to wiggle a tad to ever reach him, but still, he had just faced a form of danger and threat and it was admirable or foolish on his side to be so close. Mads looked back at him, the expression of his face perhaps betraying his own fear. He had never been compared to those horses before, but a part of him could definitely understand why. They had put down so many of them after the war; they were running erratically, terrified by everything, sometimes neighing in the middle of the night, their hoofs kicking the air as if there was something in their box. 

The soothing tone of Nezumi was reaching back his ears as well. He was glad that his attitude was forgiven, but now that he was out of the pot, he didn’t know how he could accept his presence either. Mika was certainly ill, but there was no reason Mads could stay around like this while he was one of those soldiers possessed by the demons of war. He tried to offer a smile, but it was only a bit mechanical. He was responding to Mika’s laughter behind his back, cut off with a few heavy coughs. This one would probably brag in the future that he was the smart brother and he had always known it for sure. 

“I’m alright.” He managed to answer, while he massaged his face for a second. “I’m sorry you had to witness that, though. I’m really sorry…” He paused for a second, his eyes falling back on the reassuring features of Nezumi. “I have been to war myself. I guess… She made it home with me as well.” 

He sighed before he eventually sensed that Mika had removed his hand. He slowly started to get himself back up, stretching his long legs before he eventually had a look on his brother. “This one is chatting way too much for his own good.” Mika rolled his eyes, his curly hair falling back onto the pillow, as he offered a tired wink. Mads made sure to smooth his black hair over his skull, looking back at Nezumi, as he noticed he was still wearing the same skirt. Oh… He felt embarrassed now. He seriously hoped his brother hadn’t been awake during the entire morning… 

“If we stay… Can you show me around?” Mads eventually asked, as he was certain that a bit of fresh air could do good right now. 

distopea​:

The discomfort within Mads was growing to an extent he had never experienced before. It wasn’t because he was ashamed of who he was, nor the fact he had practically touched another man a few seconds before and lost himself there, but it was the whole context. Since yesterday evening, he had been chased by the police for ugly crimes, rescued among new folks who were so eager to protect them that he felt utterly and profoundly unshaken. Why? Why would they all act like this? He had perhaps committed murders; he was perhaps a deviant – he quickly brushed that thought off his mind – he was… nothing but a threat. A man who had stormed in with weapons, and yet, whether it was Safou and Nezumi, they kept demanding him to stay.

He was aware of people’s animosity growing over time, and their ugly schemes when safety and money was at stake. Wary, he thought that they might use the upcoming offered reward to gain better life conditions. They had probably smelled a good opportunity. Who would be able to blame them after all? Two men were dragging both mud and problems into their homes, it wasn’t physically and mentally possible for Mads to ever believe the fact they wouldn’t have bad intentions in the end. It was anxiety talking for sure. A deceived and wounded soldier was always on his guard, even more when the damages were invisible to the eyes. He felt suffocating, all of a sudden, putting himself right in front of his brother.

Protection, action, protection, safety, PROTECTION, ACTION, DANGER…

He gazed at Safou yelling at him with a blank expression, his eyes deeply lifeless despite the genuine atmosphere beneath her venom. Nezumi was laughing, mocking her harsh words and her attitude, but Mads felt that laughter piercing his skin and mind like a ring. No, no… He couldn’t believe this. It was a trap and the two of them were in danger. He looked at Mika, watched how his brother was sweating and hardly breathing. It was a trap. It was just a scam. Nezumi had lured him in, and now… Now Mika couldn’t leave. After all, his conditions had suddenly become so bad when they had entered this trailer.

Mads watched Safou scolding the two of them while his heartbeat was erratic. Flashes were clouding his vision while he stared at the various items around the room. The hints were right there! Divination, tarot cards… He had seen those gypsies when he was a kid. They could curse people. It was a trap! Mads inhaled harder, clenching his fist to the point it became colorless. He could carry Mika. They would run away and find another place, far from people… Far from their schemes. He watched Safou’s back – exposed. He remembered he had a knife in his boot.

He breathed harder and harder, and when she slammed the door, he thought it was his timing. “Nezumi… You…” You lied to me, he wanted to say. He wasn’t even thinking there – he was just acting. Like an enraged beast following its instincts, and the voices whispering in his head. But before he could do something regrettable, he felt the wet palm of his brother strongly – if he ever could – catching his sleeve.

“No… Mads… Calm down… We’re fine.” Mika muttered. Mads felt his foot stumbling. He shuddered and looked aside, only to be caught by the piercing color of Mika’s sapphire eyes. He was losing his mind again. He was… He wasn’t himself again. The demons were awake. Mads swallowed thick and slowly sat down, right on the ground, near his brother.

“I heard what the lady said.” Mika chuckled from his bed, and waved at Nezumi, yes, he was alive. Mads was staring at the ground, trembling. Mika had pressed his hand upon his shoulder. “Mads… He’s just not familiar with people’s kindness, forgive him. He’s a bit of a bear I think.” Mika was clearly distracting them both. He was still strongly holding Mads. “I’m too comfortable here to go anywhere, so we’ll accept the offer.” Mika coughed, and offered a reassuring smile to Nezumi. “I don’t believe Mads will ever chase after whores… But I can’t make the same promise on my side.” He joked.

Mads looked up, his expression still blank, but colors were back on his cheeks. He looked at Nezumi, swallowed again. Now, he was shameful.

The mood shifted in tandem with Safu’s hasty and loud departure.

Nezumi hadn’t paid enough attention until the signs were glaringly in his face. He had his guard down, drunk on success and a false sense of safety, and it would have been his own lack of awareness if Mads had attacked him unexpectedly.

The signs had been there, Nezumi knew. The signs always were. It was his responsibility to pick them up. He was the one who brought Mads to the camp, and thus he was the one who ought to answer for Mads’ actions and behaviour. He understood that Mads was dangerous. He would be arrogant to think that a dangerous man was no danger to his people if he felt threatened. He wasn’t a fool enough to think that Mads was incapable of hurting others—especially in a high-stress situation. He didn’t think Mads was violent, but he knew better than to disregard his ability.

Sensing the aggression, Nezumi’s shoulders tensed and then relaxed into an easy combat stance. He readied himself for defence—and defence only. In a split of a second, he was ready to react to Mads’ attack. He felt a cool wave of vigilance wash over him. He knew where the knives were stored in the trailer. He knew where he had a stash of itching powder. He didn’t intend to hurt Mads, but he wouldn’t hold himself back if it came to subduing him.

He was ready. His mind cleared out.

There was no success or failure—only this moment.

The momentary tension broke when another, hoarse and exhausted, voice spoke up. Mika had reached out from the bed and held his brother’s sleeve.

Nezumi looked at Mads, then at Mika again, gauging whether the soothing worked, and when he saw that Mads eased and his hostility ebbed, he let himself follow suit.

“Ah, so you’re the ladies’ man between the two of you. I’ll remember that,” Nezumi joined in on the jokes, quick to let the momentary lapse in his and Mads’ judgement slide. It had been a long night, too long to hold grudges against a frazzled man.

Seeing the palm on Mads’ shoulder, Nezumi decided to give him space. Surely, it was fine for his brother to touch him, but the two of them were still strangers———despite the heated embrace in which they were mere minutes ago.

Nezumi shook his head. “There is nothing to forgive.” He shifted and squatted in front of Mads. Just about the length of Mads’ arm. He would be able to brush his fingertips over Nezumi if he reached out but would have to move if he wanted to seize him.

A smile and Nezumi held eye contact. “We have horses who are like you. They had been cast aside by war generals and labelled as useless. Sometimes they are sold for meat, but we don’t eat them. They’re young and have a good soul. Lots of love to give, too, if one knows how to approach them.”

“I’m sorry that we frightened you,” Nezumi amended and offered his bare wrists, showing that he held nothing in his hands but the honest truth. He spoke in a soft, soothing tone he would use for rage-tormented animals. “You needn’t feel shame for wanting to protect your brother. I won’t fault you for having your guard up. It’s clearly the way you’ve lived, and it would be unfair to ask you to change that overnight. I will only request you follow your heart and trust your instincts—,” he paused and smirked. “And maybe listen to your brother; he seems to be good at hearing even when he sleeps.”

Nezumi withdrew his hands and glanced Mads over.

“How is it now? Better?”

[julystorms]

lol how do rp? i made an rp blog for an unrelated fandom from you but i've been way too scared to post on it or get involved

Hope this advice helps you! I’ll start with some things you should have in place before starting to RP, which might boost your confidence in actually getting started!

1. Don’t use a sideblog. It’s a pain in the ass for everyone, including you. Always make your rp blog its own separate blog. (It’s not hard to go and make yet another gmail account.)

2. Pick a username that doesn’t suck, by which i mean: make sure it’s easy to spell and not hard to remember. It’s easiest if it relates in some way to the character, and originality doesn’t matter too much. For example, my Hitch blog is @hitchisms. Avoid dashes in your username too, as tag tracking doesn’t work well with them. Here’s some other RP urls I’ve had for characters:

Hange: exhaustedresearcherMike: secondstrongestAnabel (Pokemon): @remembrancelessGelgar: notdrinkingonthejob (now just @gelgar lmfao)Dita Ness: poeticsoldier (one of my headcanons was that he loved poetry since originally Charlotte’s name was translated into Shallott and I thought how cute it would be if he liked “The Lady of Shallott”!Akane (Psycho Pass): @clearlyunclouded Lin Beifong: bitterloner

Basically, you don’t want anyone to be confused about whether or not you’re RPing a canon character or not, and you also want to make it easy for people to remember you even if you’re an original character. In the Pokemon fandom it got to be hard to keep track of all of the original RPers due to all of the sun/moon urls.

3. In your description be CLEAR about who you’re rping!

You should also put the tag you’re tracking in there if your url is a canon url. You can see I didn’t do that for my Gelgar blog, but sometimes it’s useful to have there. I usually list the tag I track in my rules, though.

And speaking of that, because my next point is related to this: FOR GOODNESS’ SAKE PLEASE USE A THEME THAT ISN’T HARD TO READ.

The point of RPing is to write, and the point of writing is to be read. If people can’t read your writing, what’s the point of any of this? How is RPing fun if your blog is a minefield to navigate? I grew to hate those fancy themes with random stars and shit as links because I just can’t see well enough to find them anymore–but most of the time, I know it’s not my vision that’s impaired lmao.

Aesthetic should NEVER overcast actual functional purpose. You’re there to write characters you love. You want people to be able to read your description and rule pages.

4. Make some PAGES.

This seems daunting, but it’s not that bad. Really, all you absolutely need is some kind of “about” page. Sometimes I throw other pages in there, too, though, to give people more information. And sometimes I’m just an asshole.

My muse page (which is an “about” about the character, since she would be considered my inspiration for writing and therefore a muse) is literally just this:

I suggest looking at other people’s profiles in your fandom to see if there is any kind of pattern. I personally do the same kind of profile for most of my muses:

I try to keep things short and sweet in the sense that there is a lot of information on the profile page, but it’s not, you know, anything I describe with a lot of text. At the bottom of this (you can read the full page at my Anabel blog link up there), I include a “brief history” or rough outline of a history.

You also kind of need a rules page. If you don’t have one, people may not want to follow you, but you have options: you can keep it simple or you can be elaborate!

Shorter is probably better, but I implore you to be honest with yourself and include things there that may be a problem. As you can see above, I had to include warnings for content that my Hitch blog could run into. It’s better to be safe than to accidentally hurt someone. My Gelgar blog always had a very short set of rules because I started RPing him for fun and didn’t feel that I needed to be selective about who I RP’d with.

I usually break up my rules pages into various categories just to break up the text. A lot of general rules apply across most RP communities but it doesn’t hurt to be clear about it.

Now, the rest is really up to you. As you can see from my above “pages” images, I like having a few different kinds of pages.

Verses aren’t always things I include; it really depends on the character. For Akane, I wanted the option to be able to RP at any point in her career that I wanted to, so I made two verses: one where she’s still a newbie, and one that takes place after the newbieness of season one came to a close. As you can see from the text below, I was considering adding a possible enforcer verse: probably an idea I cooked up with @daantooine.

Relationships pages aren’t strictly necessary. Anabel doesn’t have one because she has so few canonical interactions that I mostly included her information in her profile page. Someone from SnK, however, probably will have many (even if casual) connections in the military and it’s useful for other RPers to kind of see how your character may currently view theirs.

As it says at the top of this page, though, relationships may change; my Gelgar had a very different relationship with two very different interpretations of Lynne! His relationship with Auruo and Hange were both based 100% on RP interactions I had with other RPers; we established a rapport and I drew from that.

Lastly, I think a page I enjoy having that others may not? Threads.

This makes it easy for you to re-read your RPs if you want to. I’ll admit, it can be a pain to remember to add things to the list, but it is worth it if you get really attached to character interaction (as I did with this particular Lynne). Thanks @hairjel! Rest in pieces @momtaku.

5. Make sure everything is updated how you like it: your muse page, about pages, headcanons, rules. If you use icons, have them ready to go. (No bigger than 100x100 for heaven’s sake.) Decide on a posting format.

Tiny text? Bolded dialogue? Fancy lettering? It doesn’t have to be fancy. My Gelgar threads never were formatted much.

Here are my Hitch threads and one from my Anabel blog, too.

In recent years I started using small text & bolding the dialogue. It sounds silly, but it makes it easy for another RPer to respond to the dialogue portion. It’s not always the most important part, but during a conversation it’s awkward if something doesn’t get responded to. Some RPers in the Pokémon fandom quite liked it and also adopted it!

6. Cutting posts. This is important because threads get long and ugly as they get reblogged. There’s an x-kit extension called Editable Reblogs that lets you cut out previous replies to the RP, leaving you with the above format so that when you type in a tag for the thread/chrono, it shows them all in chronological order and you can read straight through with no repeated bits!

7. Tagging. Always tag your posts with the other RPers url. everything else is up to you, but from my tags pages (on Hitch in particular) you can get an idea of the kinds of tags I use. Just remember that consistency is key.

From this point forward it’s all about networking and throwing yourself into the mix. Find other RPers, creep on their blogs, find out people you might like to RP with, and when you feel your blog is ready, follow them. Typically when someone followed me, I’d go check out their blog. Some people require you to send in passwords to prove you’ve read the rules, so be aware of that. That seems to be a very fandom-dependent thing, though, so it’s not prevalent in all fandoms.

Once you’ve followed all your blogs, or at least a few, make a “promo.” Here’s a link to a bunch I reblogged on my Anabel! In the Pokémon fandom, promos tend to be short, and many of them just use one icon. Having a promo allows people to kind of “network” your blog–pass it around to encourage other people to follow you/interact with you.

After this, most people do a “starter call” which is essentially just a post like this:

Most people put an icon in there, but since I don’t typically use icons, I didn’t use one here.

Making a starter call does put the pressure on you to start a thread and fling your writing out there, but it’s less daunting if you have other examples of your writing floating around: for example, the about/muse page we talked about earlier.

If you want advice on how to start threads and how to write good starters for your partners, or any other RP advice/questions that aren’t clicking for you, just hit me up and I’ll try to help!

[watermelonhighs]

1-50

this was long and i’m not formatting it like i normally do skdkfkf its under the cut

1: Do you ever wish you were someone else?

always baby!

2: What is your full name?

jean nehja [redacted]

3: How old are you and how old do you get mistaken for?

18 and most of the time like 13ish

4: Have you ever dyed your hair?

yeah i actually did it this year but the color did fuck all on my hair

5: What’s your eye color?

dark brown

6: Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it

people say it’s nice but i honestly hate it like there are so many things i would change

7: Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

i have my both helixes done and i have my lobes pierced. i should be getting my nose pierced soon and i’m probably gonna get a tattoo when i get to college and go with my friends that are out there

8: What would you say is your best quality?

i think i’m really caring and that’s food!

9: What are you really bad at?

keeping up with deadlines

10: What talent do you wish you had?

i wish i was better at the arts! like i wish i could act, sing, write, and play instruments!

11: Are you nice to everyone?

i try my best to be if i haven’t been nice to you i apologize

12: What do you think about the most?

my friends and going to college

13: Things you like/dislike about yourself

i dislike everything but how much i care

14: What is your least favorite word?

tbh i don’t know dkkdkfkf

15: What is your favorite word?

i have no idea actually

16: Are you more like your mom or your dad?

i have no idea?? probably my mom though

17: Would you ever smile at a stranger?

always! i feel like it can make someone’s day!

18: A reason you’ve lied to someone

my friend got an ugly haircut that she was in love with so i lied and said i like it dkfkkf

19: Are you lying about anything right now?

on this no

20: Have you kissed someone older than you?

:/

21: Do you believe in love at first sight?

idk i haven’t had a situation like that’s happen to me

22: Do you believe in soulmates?

yes! and they don’t always have to be romantic either!!

23: Are looks important?

if i’m gonna be honest nope! bc like i feel like you fall in love with personality or maybe that’s just me but looking back i have had crushes on people who aren’t that attractive

24: Opinion on relationship age differences

i don’t think anyone 18-24 should be with anyone older than them by 2-3 years

25: Would you date someone off the Internet?

yes! ;))))

26: Have you ever cried over a boy/girl?

yes and i would slap past!jay if i could

27: Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

yeah have you seen calum hood?

28: Anyone you’re giving up on right now?

;) yup but i’m keeping that to myself

29: Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

nah i don’t think so

30: Have you ever liked your best friend?

yup and i think i’ve regretted it everytime!

31: How does someone win your heart?

being kind and funny and just have a good heart and a level head on your shoulders man dkfkkfk

32: What turns you on?

i do not want y’all to know how kinky i am so i’d rather not! but one big thing is looove love looove when someone is really into me and it shows yknow

33: What turns you off?

gross stuff like poop and pee for instance

34: Do you get jealous easily?

nope! i used to though! i mostly get friend jealous bc of my abandonment issues tho

35: What is your definition of cheating?

getting intimate with another person/acting on romantic feelings while you’re with someone else

36: Do you forgive betrayal?

it depends on how bad it hurt me dkfkkf

37: Have you ever been cheated on?

yeah :/

38: Have you ever cheated on someone?

nope! proud to say that

39: How often do you listen to music?

every day

40: First concert you attended

i like to say it was jobros bc i watched the 3D concert experience but realistically it was 1D during the where we are tour

41: Last movie you watched

miss congeniality

42: Favorite type of movie

tbh i mostly watch disney ones so like maybe comedy or romance???

43: Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

44: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

i feel like i am but i’m probably not lmao

45: Do you fall in love easily?

i don’t think so?? like i have no idea if i do

46: Do you think people say I love you too much?

i don’t think i love you can be said too much if you mean tbh like let the people you love know you love them!!

47: What’s your favorite holiday?

halloween!!!!!!!! i already have what i’m gonna be this year i’m doing three different costumes

48: Are you a forgiving person? Do you like being that way?

yeah i think so and no i hate it because i’m constantly giving people multiple chances when they don’t deserve it or i’ll see a picture of them and i’ll be like hmm should i start talking to this person again and then put myself back in that bad situation

49: Where’s the most magical place on earth? anywhere the beach is tbh but to be a cunt i’m gonna say disney

50: What’s your “type”?

someone that is really funny and caring and passionate and i want to be able to share what i care about with them yknow like they don’t even have to like it but when someone takes the time out to actually listen to me when i talking about all the random things i’m into i know that they’re like someone worth going after??? does that make sense?? also i tend to love dark eyes and dark hair