#//i'll try to improve in the future! hopefully.. idk

[glitchy--demon]

After 500 years.. i’m finally done, and it turned out great! c:

This suddenly appeared on my canvas while listening to a Synthwave playlist,,,

without the multiply and add layers:

[lilowoof]

ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

[shadale-s-safe-space]

I don't know much about you as a person, but from what I can gather you've had a long journey with art, but still have the motivation to continue even when its rough. I'm sure you didn't start out making masterpieces, so if its not too much trouble, do you have any advice for a 16 year old artist losing motivation? i feel like im stagnating right now and its awful

Idk man, all I can say is, draw watchu want without the care who's gonna see it or what they gonna say , commit to new ideas and care less about pleasing everyone, because I know that way too well, I started learning by drawing animals, flowers and nature, "you should draw something else", switches to furries " No you must do human portraits", draws humans *no one fuckin cares*, and I felt miserable drawing what I didn't want all the damn time just trying to please everyone and be liked, hell, I still do that sometimes cuz I'm a dumbass. When in reality, when you do your own thing is when you're the happiest, this internet bullshit? Yeah don't trust the likes and favs, people like what they find relatable, no one really knows how much time you've spent on your drawing or how much you love it, when a 5 min doodle you did could do more than a painting that took 2 whole days to complete just to be scrapped in a new speedy record, paint what you love for yourself and you only.

Don't be shy to learn new things, I have tons of stuff I don't post here cuz I know people wouldn't care about it, but here for this post, have this that I practiced when I felt too depressed to think of anything good and wanted to step back from the MD artstyle

You'll see, you'll thrive when you draw what you want, and get yourself a drawing buddy! That way you'll stop focusing on the internet and more on each other, and each other's improvement. Tbh I struggled with that one. Since everyone I had were not into art irl, I somehow managed to find someone after 10 years of drawing alone. I honestly wanted more people to join in and make an improvement circle, but unfortunately that never happened.

I found myself twice as productive now than ever, even though I'm not active here as much I am still drawing and making things, ofc giving you more comics! And other fun things in the future I hope.

If you're struggling to draw something just do it, man commit, i was uncomfortable drawing men and male characters for years, I've wasted so many years being "too uncomfortable" and draw a naked person like yeesh who fucking cares, it's for studying.

And ofc if you feel like you're not improving at all please, please experiment with your artstyle and try something new, please refresh your mind, I was stuck for years doing the same thing over and over, same colors, same 2px brush, drawing like a machine same shit over and over, I felt so stuck and lost, but also afraid to do something new, idk why, I guess I never felt good enough or deserving of it. I also didn't go to art school, I am NOT a professional, nor will i ever be in my opinion. Hell, me feeling like I'll never be good enough left me afraid to try and apply for art school, they were asking for sculptures, different mediums all that scary stuff and I was like, I don't.. know.. how to do those things... I can't build a portfolio in less than 3 months?!?! I don't even know how to use half of what they're asking for!!

In reality at the end of the day, art is what you make of it and no one can stop you, search for inspirations and don't be afraid to try, yes you'll fail fist 2 or 10 or hell even 100 times, but you'll come back with more knowledge than ever.

For ending I give you the most confusing drawing to ever exist [dw he's just sleeping on top of her and she's just ghasping for air but awe romance or sum lol] is it weird? Yeah but I had a fun time making it hahaha

Idk I'm bad at putting my thoughts together, but hopefully some of this helps.

[nonranghaes]

your sweet svt drabbles are such an inspiration to me. I've been getting into writing fics slowly by writing just short ones off a single scenario, and i have too many prompts and ideas coming from my head (which is great !) that i already had laid out but i just couldn't find thee tempo to start. Soo I'm trying to get more inspo by reading around tumblr and to my luck i landed here! i found your writing style an exemplar to how i wanted to write (bonus if you'd like to give some writing tips? 🥹). Your drabbles looked effortlessly written, they're simple yet so expressive and visually evocative. Reading them makes me feel like it's easy to just get the idea off my head and picture it in words OK I'LL STOP HASJB it's literally midnight o clock (when the strong urge to give one of my prompts a shot kicks in)

aaaaaAAA AND IF I START CRYIN????

honestly i dont rly know if i have any solid writing tips haha i like reading a lot since it can teach me a lot abt what i like in writing and what i dislike!! + reading helps u pick up on how other ppl describe things and how their writing flow. idk if that makes sense though. like... book i just finished (a death in tokyo) is very to the point and practical with its writing. it was written in a way that i could clearly envision a lot of things and my mind would fill in the holes since its set in a real world setting. other stuff i read might take care in describing things in more detail, but reading higashino's work kinda made me understand further how just plainly stating things can have its own power and paint a picture just as well--just depends on what you're writing and what kind of vibe it should have, yknow?

like. i wouldn't expect a thriller to have the same writing flow as a romance novel, but the gritty details can still have importance depending on what the topic is. little things like that. genuinely, imo, the best writers are those who read a lot and my advice is rly just to kinda read everything u feel safe w reading!!!

also i think ive said this a lot on wooahaes but ive also been writing since i was like. 11. if not younger lol so ive had a looooootta time to practice and refine and get to where i am now and i'll still be improving into the future hopefully!!!

other than that... hmm...

i'll admit this one isn't something everyone can do (and obvs no shame to ppl who can't!) but i always try to envision the space i'm writing and the people within it.

i think for me personally, i care a lot about the physicality of whoever i'm writing? if they're nervous, are they acting shifty? are they wringing their hands? is this a situation they want to get out of, or are they nervous because they're kinda excited for what's to come? how are they vocally, too? are they the kind of person who rambles when they're nervous, or do they get really quiet? is it obvious, or will it seem normal if they're quiet/chatty?

like... with the mark lee drabble where he's nervously dragging out the question of "what if we kissed?" it was kinda important to me to just kinda have him dragging it out because once he says it, there's no way to take it back, and once he says it, the nerves take over in a "and now i must ramble, lets talk about anything but what i just said, so the aquarium-" where even though we don't SEE mark, we still can tell he's a nervous wreck over it all. its little things like that that just kinda stick out to me?

mmm but for my drabbles specifically... i think i kinda function off the fact that i'm not writing an actual fic here? if i wanted to write something longer, i'd put it on wooahaes (and sometimes i do! i've had a couple fics now i was gonna just post as a drabble but then they kinda ran away from me). i've deleted parts of drabbles before because i felt like they were getting too irrelevant. the point of a drabble, to me personally, is to just kinda give somewhat a quick snapshot of a moment. i think my stuff usually takes place in a single place as far i can remember, because changing scenes makes it feel like a bigger thing (barring stuff where there was a short flashback).

i think it can help to have an idea of what you want to capture if you're writing a short drabble. reader/seungkwan caring for one another, minho teasing reader over the cats, reader trying to get one over on joshua (ft seungkwan). occasionally the more fantasy-ish stuff is like "merfolk reader in love w jisung" and "merfolk reader saving minho" or "android!shua being saved from the facility by reader" comes to me, too. i just kinda write purely by vibes and what i wanna write. idk if this helps but i usually do try to have some idea of what exactly i wanna do!! the times i have opened a post and closed it again bc i had nothing..................................... yeah

(obvs no shame in those moments ksdhfds i just always end up sitting there like. what was i doing again.)

ummm idk what else to say!! i can always try to give advice on other stuff if u ever have specific questions but this is all ive got rn <3 good luck!!!!! i believe in u!!!!!!!!

[ben-10-setting-omnicrom]

Got curious and went looking found a couple of good Omnichip fics!

https://www . fanfiction . net/s/7069714/1/She

https://www . fanfiction . net/s/12725806/1/Time-Lost

https://www . fanfiction . net/s/7183371/1/Soccer

https://www . fanfiction . net/s/6830164/1/Falling-Into-Something-Better

https://archiveofourown . org/works/46513858

https://archiveofourown . org/works/53275801/chapters/134823271

sry, you have to remove the spaces but yeah hopefully you like some of them 😊

Ooooh nice. Hmmm. I can't seem to copy paste any of them unfortunately. Maybe after I post?

Just a fyi in the future so other people can know, imo it's best practices to post the summary along with the links to stories so people don't have to look for it themselves and be disappointed in what they potentially find.

Tho idk if an ask has a word limit haha.

If I'm able to copy paste I'll edit this post to include the summaries of them here.

I'm hoping at least one of these are good lol because there are hardly any fan art of Elena too let alone with Ben which is really unfortunate.

To them, I'm a she. A thing. A being. A body. A monster. A poser.

Ben 10, K+, English, Angst & Hurt/Comfort, words: 350, favs: 5, follows: 2, Jun 10, 2011, Elena V.

Ben loved her once, but the woman who was currently holding the life of his friends for ransom wasn't the Elena he had once known. My take on what might have happened if Ben had been forced to choose between saving his friends, or losing Elena. An AU of Revenge of the Swarm.

Ben 10, T, English, Hurt/Comfort & Drama, chapters: 6, words: 7k+, favs: 32, follows: 19, updated: Nov 25, 2018 published: Nov 14, 2017, Ben T., Elena V.

A series of what can go on with soccer that can lead to that puppy-dog love of Belena.

Ben 10, K+, English, Romance & Friendship, chapters: 14, words: 11k+, favs: 20, follows: 15, updated: Sep 11, 2012 published: Jul 15, 2011, Ben T., Elena V.

She was trying to be the voice of reason, but he wasn't making her job too easy. *Can be interpretted as friendship or romance. Take your pick.

Ben 10, T, English, Friendship & Hurt/Comfort, words: 2k+, favs: 17, follows: 3, Mar 16, 2011, Ben T., Elena V.

It's amazing, Elena thinks, how badly a person can miss something that they never had.

Or, Elena pines and schemes.

Language: English Words: 666 Chapters: 1/1 Collections: 1 Kudos: 18 Bookmarks: 4 Hits: 319

A mysterious virus begins turning Ben's friends and family against him and he finds himself powerless to stop it. Elena, who has recently re-entered Ben's life with promises that she has improved, is the only one left to stand with him.

Together, they must figure out why Elena is unaffected and if her immunity can be replicated. Ben finds himself forced to put his trust in Elena blindly as they race against the clock to find a cure before the effects of the virus are irreversible... Because if they fail, Ben's life will never be the same.

Language: English Words: 19,678 Chapters: 5/7 Collections: 1 Comments: 24 Kudos: 18 Bookmarks: 4 Hits: 437

These look plenty fun thanks for the recs haha

[doctorguilty]

Nice things!

Just got home a bit ago after doing my lunar new year shopping, I'm glad I didn't bother trying yesterday and then being rushed because of all the other errands because like while I had a general list of food ideas, I was also improving as I went based on what was there. There was tons of fruits front and center!! I got tangerines, a pomello, persimmons, and some little lady apples, some other snacking foods and a dried fruit tray, lotssss of veggies and mushrooms, also some tofu and quail eggs because I decided I'm gonna do a hotpot, since I conveniently had bought that single burner for my own use I was like huh. This is very convenient. AND they had a really great price on a big great quality stainless steel divided pot, like I was just gonna use whatever but I was like OH!!! I put aside some of my Christmas money SPECIFICALLY for this party and decorations were almost cleaned out aside from a couple things I grabbed so it was like well spend the rest on this pot and then I have it forever for my own future kitchen ;0; ♡ so I got a spicy broth and miso for the other, and all that is gonna be vegetarian since my brother is vegetarian and also has a shellfish allergy, decided to avoid any seafood, and I know my friends love veggies and stuff anyway! And then I got some uhh frozen buns, pancakes, spring rolls, and dumplings (one veggies one chicken so that's the one meat item), I'm gonna like kinda cook things as I go? It's a lot of people but idk how much everyone is actually gonna be hungry but everything I bought is also stuff I like to eat so it kinda doubles as a shopping trip for myself anyway like even if I have tons of frozen stuff left that's just food stocked up for me! We have plenty of soda and water in the house, so I just got like solo cups and paper plates from the dollar store (and some red steamers to tie the decor I could get together)

A lot of the typical LNY foods were on sale also! And it was busy ahaha like everyone was in there loading up on all the same kinds of things! I felt bad when I was checking out cause I was confusing the cashier a bit with my like multiple forms of payment I needed to use (food has to go on one card, the rest I wanted to do part cash part debit but was unable to communicate that so I just put it all on debit which is nbd I'll just deposit the cash in the bank later) ;;;; since I don't know Chinese and she didn't know English it took a little bit of gesturing and her typing numbers on her phone for me to read orz I felt like anxious after I was finishing boxing my stuff I was like oh I hope I didn't stress her too much she's obviously so busy today and there's a line behind me (that "everyone in the grocery store hates me" feeling snjfmsnfns) but right before I left she grabbed a pack of pretty red cards from under the register and held them up so I can see and then put them in my box 😭❤

(The struggle is so on me though like usually when I'm there the cashiers are some amount of bilingual but I can't always expect it, and I do usually need to use multiple forms of payment so I should really try learning some words and phrases so make it easier ;;; hopefully she knew I was very thankful to her though! That really made my day 🥺)

Anyway yeah that was my trip so! I'm excited, tomorrow I'll likely start prepping things like cutting veggies and stuff. On the day of, I'll take photos of everything to share! Last year I was solo and my family had some decor up to welcome me back from Oregon but it wasn't a whole party or anything, so I'm excited to host a proper gathering (and have friends with me instead of being alone and sad)

[nerdy-talks]

I saw a post on instagram and idk what to make of it. From the sound of things it seems like the OG Obey Me! game isn’t gonna get any more chapters? that Nightbringer is gonna replace it since its ‘better and improved’??

My ask for you Nerdy-sama — what is your take on this info? do you think its true?

I assume you're talking about this post, dear anon?

So, here's my theory :

I know I'm probably just grasping at straws and likely living on false hope... But!

Maybe the devs are going to focus on Nightbringer temporarily to give both old and new fans more background on the brother's post-war/pre-RAD days. Obviously they want to do this anyway to give us insight and info from their past that we are/might be missing out on.

And since we will most likely be witnessing all of the brothers' pain, regrets, and struggles as they are freshly thrust into the Devildom... I assume the devs intend to use that scenario to help us better understand the brother's origins which will ultimately (hypothetically) help us feel much closer to them.

Then, once MC re-forms their bonds with the brothers and basically works their way up to returning to the "present" again, I'm genuinely hoping the devs will then start updating the original Obey Me! game more. In the meantime, maybe the devs will just keep putting past events into Lonely Devil for everyone to get caught up?

Regardless of if I'm completely wrong or at least somewhat on the right track... I REALLY hope they don't neglect the og Obey Me! or worse : abandon it altogether.

I've been playing Obey Me! since the beginning and I seriously don't want to say goodbye to the game I've grown so attached to and love so much.

I know the devs haven't announced lesson 81 or any new news for the og Obey Me! yet... But it still says "coming soon" when you try to advance. So until they officially confirm what they plan to do with the original game, I'll keep holding onto hope for an eventual continuance.

Side thoughts :

Wouldn't it be super interesting if Diavolo's true reason for opening up RAD and wanting to bring demons, angels, and humans together is all because of MC?

I mean... I highly doubt MC is going to be able to deceive Diavolo, a demon who could immediately tell if someone is lying, or even Barbatos, a demon who could see into the future.

So what if they see right through MC's ruse yet allow them to continue helping the brothers purely out of curiosity? Barbatos will know MC isn't up to anything devious, while Diavolo is intrigued to see how this human-in-disguise handles themselves amongst powerful demons who are trying to cope in their new world while also learning how to control their sins.

Maybe MC will be responsible for influencing Diavolo in such a positive way once he realizes that if you remove/ignore race (since the brothers won't realize MC is a human, therefore putting them on basically equal footing), that everyone could co-exist peacefully with one another.

I'm also super curious to see how Satan will be since I assume he'll be born shortly before MC arrives, and even Belphie since he'll be in his prime "I hate humans" phase.

They're just some random thoughts that popped into my head, so I thought I'd share lol

Either way, I'm sure we'll play the role of family therapist once again. But hopefully all of the new info/knowledge we'll be obtaining will become extremely relevant for possible new chapters in the og Obey Me! after everything is said and done.

Who knows... Maybe Michael will finally make an appearance. Or even better : maybe MC will actually have an opportunity to stay in the Devildom with the brothers and/or marry them/officially become their family (in the og). After all, won't MC rightfully belong with the brothers permanently once they know everything about them from beginning to end, both good and bad, inside and out?

Personally, I would love if MC could become immortal like Solomon so then they really could stay with everyone forever. Especially since Thirteen is now on MC's side, so I highly doubt she would have any objections to missing out on MC's soul lol

But again... Just some random thoughts ^^

[unialien]

Hello guys, I'm back after a long while, I know it's been so long because I haven't gotten much attention due to lack of algorithm here idk 🙃💫 But I'm back and hopefully here it's better at least ✨️✨️✨️

Also, to announce for those who don't know... There's definitely a chance that my big project I been working on for months I'll be accomplish this June, so this is it 🔥🔥🔥 I can't believe it's really happening and I'm insanely loving what I done all my effort 💙🔥✨️Glob guys I think I'll be my ultimate greatest ref concept ever 🔥🔥🔥 I'm muffled screaming of excitement guys seriously, the entire sheet it's gonna be full sorta interaction with detailing what is what and everything 🙌🌟💙✨️ As a reminder, the file on what I'm doing the big project it's insanely big! 🔥 I'm talking about more than 1GB of the size since I'm organizing and cleaning and giving some details regarding need quite a fancy presentation that it's in psd 🤯🔥 No worry, I'll be jpeg 🌟However, since every components it's organized in folders, but some are not, the psd I will always gonna keep in conservation in treasure in future if I need to go back and wanna try to drag to a new to work on something 👍✨️ You never know what's come a handy 👀

Here's what I'll post this big project, this I'll be a huge expansion upgraded, improved new, and a better look of my main OC after a few years I haven't updated. If the ref concept sheet it's too big, I'll bring it close up by bringing separate works. It should include models, his expressions from based my previous drawings, some interactions illustrated scifi look shall bring mostly scientific stuffs like anatomies & other stuffs. 🩻🧬🧫 All writings I'll be available at the description in my DeviantArt link & here once I post my big work, due the fact it's a long writing I spend working on. But you guys gonna enjoy so much about my character and anything related to my original species indeed 💙✨️

It's a big one I'll have to say, but this is definitely worth it after a long time been planning 🙌 So stay tuned guys! 🌟

[abd-illustrates]

Not much, but it’s a start!

Took my first shot at recording a lil’ bit of a singalong today – I realized pretty quickly though that trying to hold a tune right after doing a solid hour of voiceover work probably wasn’t the best idea XD

Looking forward to working more to steadily improve  ٩(｡•́‿•̀｡)۶

♫ “I’m a Mess” -  Ed Sheeran

[futuregws]

I love how tom is "so happy in the relationship" that he is having reoccurring dreams of getting a girl pregnant (i.e s*x dreams (we all know how getting pregnant requires) - censoring so you don't get your account in trouble by tumblr, not sure about the guideline but don't want some tomdaya to try to report the account🤣) and being happy to have a baby daughter with her even though its with a random girl! This proves it's PR! Because it shows how desperate he is to be in a stable long term relationship and how much he wants his own kids!

The only thing that is making me still a tom fan is know how he acted before the PR relationship that it is really him and also the astrologer and clairvoyant future wife reading (on faiths blog)! She sounds great, creative, happy, adventurous and down to earth, and i can't wait for that era for tom! I can't wait to see him be with someone who loves him fully and unconditionally! He is so sweet he deserves it! And I can't wait for everyone to support them and for their power couple moments! I just want to see him truly happy, and not the happy he is trying to be on Instagram and infront of paparazzi he called, like really genuinely happy! and not posting things on social media about their relationship and drawing attention to himself to make him trend on insta or twitter, or purposely kiss/hug/hold hands/laugh infront of a camera to draw attention! Just genuinely happy!

I can't imagine him leaving Hollywood for ever, i think he will just take a break and try to find balance within himself and they get back to making movies (hopefully with harry and maybe his future wife one day (astrologer and clairvoyant mentioned that)!!!!) So we can't blame tom because I would just listen to whats in the contract, because as the other anon said sony can either make or break you career and by tom following though it shows that he is going to keep making movies and acting - I think he is just warning us about him taking a break (which is 100% understandable) Also no hate to Zendaya her movies/performance haven't been doing the best and we also don't know what was threated against her in the PR contract! And we will never know! But all we can do is wait for it to finish and then more on!

I'm just not going to follow him during the press tour and take a break! I don't want to see him not acting like himself and having this persona to fit into their PR stunt! So I'm just going to let it go, and when the PR is over I'll support him again! I just don't want to deal with the toxicity anymore! The sad thing is, that him followers is going up due to this but you can see in the videos how much he is trying to act like his normal self - happy-go-lucky, positive, vibrant, chill, funny and energetic self; but he just looks sad, anxious, tired, uncomfortable and depressed (you can really tell the difference between the 2016-pre-PR videos, pics and content compared to the content were getting of him during the PR! I in a way want him to take a break and just focus on himself (not getting in a relationship, work or anything else thats stressing him out), just his mental health! Because when he sorts out his internal issues and challenges his external ones will positively change due to his positively changed mindset! So if he takes months off and goes to a mindfulness retreat where no one can access the internet or goes backpacking across Europe or lives in a small house in the middle of no where - it makes him improve and develop into a better version of himself then h can go as long as he needs🤣

"Because it shows how desperate he is to be in a stable long term relationship and how much he wants his own kids!" Anon you actually have a point specially with that phrase and the whole dream thing I know other people had talked about it but idk if it's the way you worded it or bc I don't have a headache now but it makes even more sense than before like 10x more 🤣

[into-control]

i’m literally at the point where i just feel like shutting down // idk if this will make you feel better or worse but I think that's completely understandable bc we're literally in the middle of a pandemic that has caused major disruption to our lives, and a lot of us have also either gotten sick or known people who have gotten sick or even passed away, and it's all unbelievably stressful. and so it's kinda messed up that society expects us all to function normally

like idk if hearing other people are in similar situations will help or not (I'm sorry if it doesn't, I'm ok at it but I'm not great with social stuff, I'm on the spectrum), but my life is a whole mess right now. I think I'm a couple of years older than you so we're similar ages (ish), and I'm also stuck at home with my parents right now, I'm almost entirely closeted and it's causing some issues atm, and don't even get me started on online classes 😭✋. I haven't even been logging in to half of them, I have a group project that I've not even began, I have a lot of extremely important exams in literally a month, and I have not done anything. I don't even know the content.

I went from being top of the class and getting As and A*s to being at the literal bottom of the class and getting Ds and Es during this pandemic. and it's looking extremely likely that I'll fail the year, which is like £10,000 down the drain that I can't afford, and will mean I'll have to change all of my future education/career plans and do something else instead. I haven't been replying to emails, I've been struggling with other mental health issues a lot, etc. I went from functioning before the pandemic to barely functioning at all. and I'm really dreading going back to physical classes next week. people on the spectrum have a hard time dealing with changes, especially major ones, but tbh, even a lot of NT people are feeling thrown off by all of these changes and stressed and having a hard time

so I think I can understand (sort of) how you feel, even though I don't know your specific situation and only you know exactly how you feel, and it just sucks the way that we all have to continue on like everything is normal. imo places of education and workplaces should be providing more mental health support and being a little more relaxed with deadlines and the amount of work expected, but we're in a capitalist hellhole, so 😞

the way I've been trying to get myself through it is just reminding myself that other people are struggling too bc sometimes you really do feel like it's just you and that everyone else is doing fine. and for me personally, it makes me feel comforted almost, knowing that there are other people who know how I'm feeling right now, at least to some extent.

and I just keep reminding myself that we're gonna get through this. like it's an actual nightmare, and it feels like it's going to last forever, but it won't. it's just a really rough period in our lives, but it won't last forever. it's going to settle down eventually, and then we can hopefully get back on track and try to find some sort of plan to move forward from any damage that's been caused.

and for me, I'm also trying to start putting a lot more time into studying by waking up earlier and making to do lists and daily plans, because right now I've been avoiding things for several weeks (if not months), but I'm trying to fight that instinct and work against it

I'm really sorry you're going through a difficult situation too, and I really really hope you feel better soon. I didn't know what to say really because I'm not good at this kind of stuff and sometimes accidentally make people feel worse (😭), but I am really rooting for you and for me and for everyone else that's finding things difficult at the moment, and I really do believe that we can all get through this. and at least there's a vaccine now and things are looking more hopeful on that end. good luck with everything and I hope things improve for you soon!

this will end, and it's completely ok and normal and understandable that we're finding this hard, but it won't last forever at least 🙏 that thought is the only thing keeping me (somewhat) together right now, but it's true, our situations aren't gonna last. everything is awful and a mess and really difficult at the moment, but we're gonna get through it! ❤️

thank you ❤️❤️ i’m sorry about your grades, mine have been slipping a little bit and one side of me is completely freaking out about it and the other side is really indifferent to it bc i’m so drained but that in itself stresses me out so it’s all a big mess that i really just want to get through. i’m not very keen on losing my 80+ average scholarship and disappointing my parents but we’ll see

[ineedrelationshipadvice]

I've been dating my bf for 4 months, things were amazing the first 2 months, he was supportive & sweet, we had so much in common & want the same things in the future, but things got stressful in our lives w jobs & family, & he started getting angry over really small things, I try to keep my cool but when he gets mad & unreasonable I get upset too. Sometimes after he'll apologize & say hes working on it but it keeps happening. I always have to watch what I say worrying I'll upset him,idk whattodo

Welcome to the honeymoon period! Every relationship goes through this, and you seem like a prototypical example at the moment. Generally, the first 1-3 months of your relationship will be PERFECT. Everything will be sunshine and rainbows, and happiness, and perfection. You have a million things to learn about and experience with each other, and the whole relationship has that "new car smell" quality to it. Everything is new, interesting, and exciting, and you're willing to shrug off a few faults or a few problems for the benefit of a the nice new connection you have.

And then... well, it gets pretty shitty. Maybe that "new car smell" vanishes, or maybe you finally get to know the person, or maybe the excitement over a new relationship just vanishes over time like it naturally is supposed to. But either way, once that glimmer is gone, then you start noticing all the bad things. Maybe your partner is super great, except when he gets stressed out; then he becomes extremely angry over nothing. Maybe when he can't deal with his own issues, he becomes totally unreasonable and irrationally mad. Maybe he has stuff that he struggles with, and he knows he has a problem, but doesn't know how to fix it.

Sound right yet? I bet it does. This happens to everyone, so don't panic. You can work through this. This is usually the hardest part of any new relationship, so if you're willing to be patient and work through the issues you're experiencing now, things can often improve from here.

The first good sign is your partner apologizes. It means that he's aware that what he's doing is not okay and he's willing to be humble for you. He has no obligation to apologize for you if he was reasonably mad; but as you said, he is UNREASONABLY mad, he's self-aware enough to acknowledge that, and he's admitting his fault to you. Good sign, A+ for maturity.

But how do you deal with these issues? You also have to take a mature tone in response to this. It's good that you're able to keep your cool in arguments, and be responsible when he's not able to hold onto his anger. But sometimes that's not enough for those situations, as you can see. Obviously, if he's being unreasonable, then being cool and trying to reason with him won't help.

A good fix in a situation like this is to know when to end the conversation. Again, because he's just kinda flying off the handle with his anger, he's getting really emotional and upset. He's not really thinking with a clear head; he's just getting mad and saying whatever comes to mind. So YOU - the level-headed and reasonable person in the conversation - need to just say, "Look, I think we're arguing. Can we talk about this later? I need some time to cool off."

Look at how that sentence is said, because the order of the words is important. First, you admit the problem: an argument is happening. Like I said in a previous post, NOBODY wants to argue deep down, even if all their emotions are telling them to scream at someone. Acknowledge the problem. Then, you ask if you can talk about things later. You're telling the logical side of his brain (which is still there, it's just not paying attention), that this issue does need to be solved, but not now. You end the discussion by saying, "I need time to cool off." This is important because you direct the issue at yourself, rather than at him. If you just say, "BITCH YOU'RE SO MAD I HATE TALKING TO YOU THIS WAY," well guess what, he's going to get more mad. But if you keep that cool attitude, and say that YOU'RE the problem - not him - then it puts him into a really awkward position. He can either keep trying to argue with you when you've just said you don't want to argue back, which makes him look and feel like an idiot; or he can just stop.

That's the goal: stopping the argument. The topic of the argument doesn't actually matter, and what is being said during the argument isn't actually as important as it'll feel, even if the topic is vitally important; the important part is to end the argument, because if you take a breather, you both can come back with level heads and try to talk without being mad. By redirecting yourself as the one who can't handle the conversation, it's a gentle reminder that the arguments are the problem, and hopefully enough of a push to probably say something stupid like, "FINE WHATEVER FUCK," walk off, have a drink of water or take a few deep breaths, realize he was getting carried away, and then come back, apologize, and have a more decent conversation.

It takes two to tango in arguments! Arguments are NEVER one-way. So when someone actively drops out of an argument, the other person can either agree to drop it, or just keep yelling. Don't get baited into arguments you don't want to have.

Beyond all that, the other conversation you need to have with him is to explain that you're walking on eggshells around him. Let him know that because of his angry and argumentative attitude, you're worried about upsetting him, and it's making you anxious around him. That's bad for long-term relationship growth, and that's literally out of your hands to fix. That's something he just needs to be more self-aware of, and learn to not get so mad as easily. At the end of the day, anger is a negative emotion, and just because family and job stuff is getting bad isn't a reason to take that out on anyone else.

Patience is your key here. Try to remain patient, give him time to work this out. How long you give him is up to you, but if this sort of thing is still going on by your 6th month anniversary, that is when you can much more seriously begin to reconsider whether this is the right relationship for you to be in. And of course, don't accept abuse just to see if he gets better. If this guy ever hurts you physically, or threatens to hurt you physically, GET OUT IMMEDIATELY, no waiting.

[originalcoob]

I've been thinking alot about the future. Where I want to be in life, what I want to do, what makes me happy.

What do I want in a year? I'd like to have my own house, be in a relationship. Still working out, trying to eat healthy and push myself to keep doing better. Probably still working the same jobs. Trying to find new hobbies and activities this year.

In 5 years? Shit I'll be turning 29. I'd like to be married , hopefully have a kid on the way or be trying. I'd like to try to move out of New York at that point if not sooner. Somewhere warm, where I can ride a motorcycle 10 months a year instead of 2. Probably still cutting hair, maybe just part time but definitely not at the same shop if I still live here. Thinking about by then hopefully I'll have a career in mind, idk how much longer I want to work for my dad it's a good mean time but not long term. Find a trade I want to get into or something, idk maybe go back to school.

10 years, idk that's still really far away. I've never been good at planning ahead so I think a 5 year goal/plan is good enough for now. I just never want to stop getting better, constant improvement. Working to build a life that I don't need a vacation from.

I'm feeling very motivated right now.

What's your goals and plans?

[taeyamayang]

heya love, it's me

i hope you've been having a good week. sorry for the delay in response, my mental state had gotten a little haywire the past few weeks and i caught a cold few days ago as well (ntg c word related thank goodness). been trying to recover but alas life still goes on even when you want to take a break 😭

the last thing i rmb was talking abt my major tho i can't really explain what exactly is industry 4.0(bc idk how😭). i can tell you it is part of an industrial revolution with examples like cloud computing, blockchain and vr falling into this category. basically we're trying to improve the industrial side of the internet for the purpose of enhancing manufacturing processes and improving human-machine relationships.

(hopefully that made sense idk am writing on 1 braincell)

biomed engineering is technically science related but more focused on the mechanical side of things and how to fix clinical problems. the reason why i didn't chose it was bc i didn't like bio at all, i was a chem and physics orientated student so biology was way out of my comfort zone/knowledge. i also didn't find any of the modules listed interesting hence why i didn't chose it. nonetheless, parents just want the best for you and so i'll do my best to find a career in this

i do hv 2 cats! both girls and the most annoying yet adorable cats. they were given to us seperately by friends and their age diff is around 2? or 3 years ish. total opposites though, one is hyper and running around the house at midnight and the other is a total drama queen.

how are ur cats btw? ive seen some pics and they're so adorable

talk to you soon, take care bub.

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you don't need to apologize bc i am busy as heck since i only have a two months left before the semester ends and hopefully graduate without mishaps. i hope you are well and thank goodness it's not c that made you sick. drink water and have soup from time to time, i hope you're taking care of yourself because your body deserves to be treated well :)

WOAH okay ngl i didn't exactly get the the specifics but when you stated "improving the industrial side of the internet" i thought your course is cool?? i'm quite the opposite of you. i love biology and i absolutely have zero idea about machines and the internet so you saying those things piques my curiosity!!

yeahhh, our parents just want the best for us but it is also good that you chose your own path in life :) in the end, it will be your future and your career. i'm proud of you for pursuing what you love. i can't wait to see you grow from an under graduate to a professional! (if u let me be heh)

YOU HAVE CATS OMGGG can you... attach a pic next time? 🥺 i want to see them, if you don't mind aahhhh

i hope to talk to you soon!! please don't get sick and have a bowl of ramen i made. take care, love.

[raspberrygyus]

Okay so far I’m loving hold your breathe!

For now I do have a few suspects in mind.

At first I thought it’d be Sunghoon but of course after reading 18 or 19 it isn’t the case. I don’t why but Soobin came to mind, I mean the stalker has to know people that are close with y/n really well, and idk it’s probably the way he told her to not talk to Sunghoon, or he’s just being a really worried friend.

Then Sunoo; I’m wondering if the stalker/ killer knows so much about Y/n and her where abouts why hasn’t Sunoo been given a threatening message from an unknown number and doesn’t show that he’s broken or still mourning over the death of his cousin …. Unless he’s just trying to be strong and keep it together for Y/n and he’s been busy with his concerts and stuff - or maybe that’s an excuse to cover up his doings 👀

Okay and then next is Professor Lee, I don’t know doesn’t show much from his part but he’s just suss. Perhaps he’s actually busy with helping students and teaching, but idk.

These are just my thoughts 💭

Haha, I'm glad you're liking it! The plot was literally getting away from me with every chapter that I write and I hope everything will make sense at the end (or currently, idk)

Soobin is really mysterious, though, isn't he? I think it has to do with the fact that he's a psychology major so he tends to see things more from a cynical point of view. I was hoping he'd be the voice of reason in the group, and relatively protective one ;;

Sunghoon. Hmm. I'll hold my comments him until later. But he's honestly gone through a lot, so.

Sunoo is definitely trying to get it together with Y/N, so he can be the strong fort for her to lean on, I mean, someone has to, right? Poor boy ;; Poor Y/N. There's way more to come so hopefully there will be more sides shown in regards to Sunoo c: I'd like to think he's my favourite (other than Jake) hehe.

Well, Prof Lee is trying to be a good guy, he's relatively young (in his 30s) and I think he wants to help wherever he can? ;;

I love hearing people's thoughts, so it's really nice to hear what everyone thinks so I can hopefully improve the story and use what I've learned in future stories where I can! Thank you very much for reading and the interest c: