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dutybcrne · 7 months ago

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Though the days blurred for him in Snezhnaya, Diluc could always tell when the day his birthday would come. It felt like a curse, the horrid feelings he’d so associated with that day never once failing to take hold of him, like a beast intent to tear out his throat. On day in particular, he would have honestly preferred that instead.

Even after coming back to Mondstadt, the day is something he loathes greatly. But Adelinde and Elzer, and Tunner and the rest of the staff do make it easier on him. There is always something special implicit in the way they go about their day, but never enough to dredge up the worst of the feelings. Just enough for it to seem like an appreciation of his effort and care for them. He’s truly thankful for it.

#hc; diluc #suicide ideation mention tw #//Almost forgot that tag. ACK #//athe one thing that sours his mood and the day for him every time is Kaeya #//That Kaeya isn’t among those who ‘celebrate’ him; is away; likely in mourning all by himself #//That when he DOES run into Kaeya; the man’s got that flouncy peacock facade on and feels more like a stranger than ever #//There were times when Diluc was tempted to beg for him to go back to the boy he was before; just for that day #//So they can mourn Crepus together; so they wouldn’t be ALONE on such a day #//Because in the midst of a crowd; it always feels so lonely without him by his side as always #//He hates that feeling so much; HATES feeling that palpable distance between them #//He wonders if Kaeya might feel that very same loss #//It annoys Diluc to no end that Kaeya seems to have moved on from their broken bond so easily; leaving him to mourn it alone #//Though times when he can see hints that Kaeya also aches to bridge the gap again set him at ease #//He just wants ONE birthday (and many more to follow) where Kae is back in the dining room with him #//Celebrating with their Winery family; like the good old days #//For now; Diluc is content with dining with his closest staff #//And humoring Kaeya’s antics at the Angel’s Share #//Two little worlds he hopes to bridge once again; and permanently so

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