#//How much his own love and disregard of personal risk festers & acts up

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Kaeya being influenced by The Curse to an extent and thus having inhuman strength like the Abyssal monsters is canon here to me, bc that allows me to envision him treatin’ an enemy the way Gojo did Jogo and his arm this JJK ep, and I-

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FC: Matthew ClavaneAt one of the boards I RP at, the admin asked me to make a little brother for her character. It isn’t his time to come in yet, but when he does, his name is Morgan. He’s a mycokinetic (fungus control) from Ireland. I see him as moody, sullen, sensitive, and starting to suffer the effects of hereditary chronic depression, though he doesn’t know that’s what it is yet. He has a pervasive, wistful emptiness, and doesn’t really know what he wants out of life, or have any real talents, though he does do watercolor pour paintings and watercolor marble painting, in sea and moor tones,  and decorated his room with tiny seashells he’s found and strung upon thin colorless plastic wire.He's got a demeanor that can come off as sad, dreamy, or just plain distracted to many, but when it comes to emotional matters, he's very focused and perceptive. His biggest strength is his emotional intelligence, which is exceptional for a teenage boy. Which is to say, nothing special, but better off than a lot of his peers. He's good at understanding and managing his own emotions (again, for his age) and working out the feelings of others, and responding to them well. He's not perfect at it by any means, but it gives him a decent set of social skills and a talent for empathy, active listening, and taking care of himself emotionally through his bad times when his as-of-yet un-diagnosed depression flares up. But for all his sensitivity and emotional perception and all of that, he can still be moody, bratty, self-righteous, myopic, and uncharitable in his perception of others. He considers himself compassionate, understanding, and open-minded, as these are all qualities he admires, but in actual reality, he can be quick to judge others if they act in a way that really bothers him, and to dig his heels into maintaining this belief. He may or may not voice it, but he will harbor it, and he will let it fester and grow. If he forms a negative perception of someone, he tends to stick with it, disregarding new information, even when he picks it up himself, particularly if they're still behaving in ways that grate him even if he comes to understand more about WHY. He'll just let his problem with somebody sit there, rather than speaking up, and let it build, just avoiding them, and never working things out like an adult. He doesn't want to risk the argument, he doesn't want to do the emotional labor, and he doesn't want to feel like HE was the one in the wrong or that HE was being the unkind party. He'd rather just endure their shit and then sulk about it internally.One of the things that bothers Morgan most is the judgemental attitudes of other people towards harmless pleasures. He swears he sees more hate towards celebrities for being "shallow" than he does towards actual hate groups. What does it matter if someone likes fake tans or partying? It doesn't make them fake, or shallow, or stupid, or less of a human being. And he notices that the people who do this seem to think themselves and their interests are somehow smarter and deeper and more genuine, but you don't get to sneer at a girl for dying her hair blonde when you dye yours black. He also notices that they seem to take pride in how against-the-grain they are for hating the "popular" thing even though the stuff they hate is typically actually very popular to hate---everyone seems to love taking potshots at man-buns, vaping, and Justin Bieber fans. And why? Just another way to feel superior, it seems to Morgan. But but he's also a hypocrite in this because there are certain hobbies and interests that can immediately put him off someone else, namely anything to him that seems needlessly destructive or focused on violence. If it involves someone saying "hold my beer and watch this" he probably hates it. If it involves a preoccupation with how to hurt someone, even in a video game, he probably doesn't want to hear about it or be around the person who's into it. People who take pride in how much they can hurt other people are not people he wants to know. Morgan is the opposite of a perfectionist, always settling for “good enough” even in tasks he’s truly enthusiastic about, like his paintings. The good side of this is that he takes defeat in stride, and accepts loss of any sort as a part of life. The bad side is that it means he lets a lot of error happen, both his own and other people's, without moving to correct it. He won't ask for someone to fix his computer or toilet or clogged shower until it's truly beyond functioning, he'll indulge constant social faux pas from others without telling them they're putting their foot in their mouths, he'll turn in papers that could have been so much better with just a few rounds of editing, he'll do the bare minimum in any task given. He just does what's needed to get by, and in doing so, he robs himself of any chance to shine...not to mention fucks over anyone he's been paired with for a task or assignment. He also doesn't speak up unless he deems it absolutely necessary, unless he thinks it's actually worth it, unless he thinks his words can actually do something and won't cost him. Similarly, is always kind in small ways---letting someone in the lane ahead of him during traffic, returning stray shopping carts, giving a dollar to a homeless man or five bucks to a charity---but he doesn't do big kindnesses. He's not about to run off and dedicate his life to stopping whaling ships, or picket outside city hall for mutant rights, or do anything else that requires real time, energy, money, and/or risk. He's not a hero. He's not one of those people. He doesn't think it'd be fair to call him "selfish" but he's not the kindest, most selfless person ever either. He just does nice little unnoticed things if he can, but keeps out of anything larger, even if it's something he agrees with. Similarly, he's not a person who will "do anything" for a friend. He's a decent friend, a good one even, he'll listen and be empathetic and you can call him at 2 AM crying...but he's not a "ride or die" friend. He is not the friend that will bail you out jail or help you hide a body. He's got limits, and he's got boundaries, and he's not apologizing for that. Okay no, he will say sorry, but he's also still not budging on it.He is equally attracted and repulsed by bright happy energetic people. He admires their light, he loves it, he longs for it, he wants to tag along after them like a moth, but they also wear him out and he doesn’t feel he can be himself around them lest he bring them down or ruin the mood. He's frequently tired for no reason, physically or emotionally, and just detached, disconnected, and worn out, like he can't CARE about anything. But Morgan is determined not to make his problems anyone else's, because he's seen people who wanted to make theirs everyone else's. he's NOT going to be the whiny party pooper that rains on everyone's parade or demands everyone feel sorry for him. He's not. If he's got one goal or point of pride, it's this. He might not always be successful---he's a moody teen boy--but he's got a hardy self-awareness that he's far from the worst-off person in the world, and that other people have better things to do besides getting bogged down in sympathy for him because he feels bad or bland sometimes. He has a gray cat named Easter.