#//He rlly does try to avoid this with genuine partners of his; bc they don’t deserve to be taunted into hurting him like this | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lustbcrne · 1 month ago

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There are times when Kaeya does deliberately do or say things to genuinely aggravate someone he is sleeping with, all with the very intention of having them really put him through the ringer, particularly when he’s extremely upset about something or the ache in his body is beyond a tolerable level and he desperately wants something to distract him from it

#//Less than pleasant hc time; he we go #hc; kaeya #//In the latter case; it is v counter-productive #//Bc afterward he has to deal with the chronic pain AND then the sex injuries they’d inflicted upon him #//But in the moment; he’d be happy to get knocked around just to focus on the pain from that instead #//He rlly does try to avoid this with genuine partners of his; bc they don’t deserve to be taunted into hurting him like this #//Esp if they are the type to feel guilty abt it; to blame themself for the aftermath; even if he was the sole cause #//But there are times the bad habit rears its head; even with his best efforts to avoid it #//His acting flirty one moment then almost ornery and spiteful with the same inflection is a decent sign at it #//Its intent to stir up trouble; while making the person more & more aggravated & keeping an innocent front himself #//Goading them into being the angrier party; into acting rashly and lashing out in ways he KNOWS will hurt him #//Theres meaner things like taunting how good they are/that he’s feeling bored. Also mentioning sb else’s name during & doubling down if it #got him a particularly angry reaction he’d been ACHING to provoke out of them. And so much more. He’s terribly creative when this desperate #//Again; its not usually smth that usually happens with definite partners; he tries to internalize things more for them #//But yeah; sometimes things w contacts of his get Messy at the flip of his mood. & he RLLY ends up paying the price for it #//Emotionally; he tends to feel absolutely awful in the end; mired with guilt & esp the Drop from all the adrenaline spent before #//Physically; he does feel more relaxed—running so high on adrenaline among other things that. But then there’s also PAIN #//&not the good comforting or pleasurable kind; just PAIN he’ll be tentative to even get treated at the church bc theyll ask Questions #//These provocations tend to actually be a secondary resort—he tends to ASK ppl to knock him around on purpose/no restraint beforehand #//If they cooperate; he’ll keep encouraging to the point of injury and then some; let them get too caught up to realize til too late #//If not; THEN he breaks out all this to provoke them into hurting him anyways #self harm mention tw #//Bc this is a v destructive behavior of his #//It is no longer such a worry if he and his partner have ample trust and communication tho #//Bc with sb like that; he can actually work through shit much more healthily #//And if they are still down to knock him around for physical needs fulfillment; rather than use grounding pressure or smth #//At least he will be much safer in their hands than in that of sb who doesn’t have his wellbeing at the forefront of their mind

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