#//Doesnt mean the processes didn’t hurt like a Bitch tho

[dutybcrne]

Fatui!Kae thinkings, he’d prolly have a ‘favorite’ Dottore segment and was deffo pissed when he was destroyed, send tweet-

[sukirichi]

— 💌 ; a love letter from @kyriaan

long post below regarding broken records. cw includes adultery, physical assault, toxic relationships, broken records spoilers, and mature content

[ from the ask ] BROKEN RECORDS ; track 005

Okay! I finally had time to actually sit down and properly read chap 5 cause ill be damned and burned if i dont pay special attention to one of my favorite series here! Rather drown or be sting by bees slowly 😒

🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙃 I for the first time don't even know where to start so allow me to be all over the place cause my emotions are also all over the place with this chapter ✌️

Ill start by y/n's dad caN GO FUCK HIMSELF? Like okay sir you might have fallen in love with our mom (ill give him the benefit of the doubt regarding his feelings) BUT SIR YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN HONEST? FROM THE BEGINNING? ALSO BRUH YOU KIDDING ME??? SIR YOU LEGIT ABANDONED YOUR OTHER DAUGHTER AND THEN YOU PROCESS TO 'LEAVE US' I- YOOOOO I WOULD BITCH SLAP HIM I SWEAR!!

Also ALSO ILL SCREAM FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK NO KID HAS EVER TO BE BLAMED FOR BEING BORN!! Y/n mom's line: 'we have to atone for our sins' its legit BULLSHIT it wad NOT y/n fault her DAD COULDNT KEEP HIS DICK INSIDE HIS PANTS NOR ITS Y/N FAULT THAT HER DAD CHEATED!!! ATONE FOR OUR SINS MY ASS!! the father is the one that has to take responsibility for all this shitty situation we do NOT nor any kid out there in this situation has to be taken accountable by this!!

And now Suna 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 bruh im just gonna cry... Everything he does just makes me heart swell i feel so cozy when i read his parts like how sweet and present he is I- bruh I never had that... Actually seeing y/n breaking up with him when shes clearly falling in love with him just breaks me cause Girl for real Suna would be there for you... I get it shes afraid and shes acting on that fear but girl... Pls he truly loves you deeply not everyone is like your dad. There are happy endings. There are good people Sunas one of them pls 🥺🥺🥺 also MY LOVE TSUMU BEING A SUPPORTIVE FRIEND EVEN THO SUNA GOT THE GIRL BRUH TSUMU I FUCKING LOVE YOU MY CHILDISH YET ADORABLY SMUG BOY 😭😭😭😭😭

Nagisas a bitch btw ✌️ so far i see no redemption not excuse in what she did so far. I get her reasons but that does NOT excuse her behavior. She has to lash out at her cunt of a dad not at a innocent woman who was also a victim all along. Nor even her half sister. I get her mentality behind this but doesnt excuse her behavior at all- its basically the same as being a victim from a bully and playing bully after aswell.

Overall YOU MADE ME CRY AGAIN SUKI! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS BUT ALSO UGH MY HEART SUKI!

[ from suki ] 

BROKEN RECORDS IS UR FAVE SERIES??? babe pls you’re gonna me cry !! nah nah fr his dishonesty caused all this mess. YEAHA SAKLAA tbh I love mama lucy but her words of ‘atoning for their sins’ or her mindset of ‘we don’t deserve to be happy when we’ve hurt others’ really messed up YN. she was only 21 and vulnerable with all the shambles happening in her family + the sudden assault from nagisa, that when her mother said those words, she struggled to let go of it. to her, it became like a final verdict that dictated how she lived her life.

SUNA URGHHH PLEASE GIVE SUNA A CHANCE HE HAS PURE AND GOOD INTENTIONS BUT I CANT BLAME HER EITHER AHSJAKA. and the comparison of nagisa being a bully’s victim only to become the next bully is true. nagisa should lash out at their shitty excuse of a father. ALSO AAAAHH THE NEXT CHAPTER (007) IS WORSE AHSJKAAL

[ from the ask ] BROKEN RECORDS ; track 005

I know shins attractive I mean mans perfect?? Does he even have any flaw?? And the way he cried when he got his jersey MYGOD FHDHFHFJSKS but I still look at him and im like.... Hmmmm nah i wouldnt date him its just not my... Do i dare say type? Cause i dont think i have a type ghfhfisofbd but like I just 🧍‍♀️

I love him i just dont love him i guess

The makeout scene tho ill give you that 🥵🥵🥵 made me bark (i would still walk out next day like was a good fuck kita byeeee🚉🏃‍♀️💨)

... More drama regarding mari... And you said this will have like 10 chapters... And from 8 on will be angsty.... 🙂 *traumatized noises*

[ from suki ] 

YUUHHH KITA IS PERFECT HERE AHSJKAA IDK MAYBE ITS MY SIMPING FOR NAOYA CONVERTED TO KITA ALREADY BEING PERFECT AS HE ALREADY IS AND I AMPED IT UP BCOS THE SIMP MODE IS ACTIVATED AHSKAA. the make out scene !! pls sir i’m on my knees spare some love in ur heart AAAAAAHHHHHH. also. i assure you. businessman! kita got game. he’s gonna make you walk funny if you give him the chance HSJKA

yeah i just finished writing the outline for track7 right now and the drama is HSJKAA it gave me a headache sobs 

[ from the ask ] BROKEN RECORDS ; track 006

I want to give you my usual thoughts on the new chapter and at the same ahm...

I just saw myself on Suna... Deeply....and it kinda slapped me harder than i was expecting...there were too many things from him giving himself to mari/treating her like he wants to be treated... To deleting his best friend from social media thanks to his girlfriend... And it really hurt me ahah..

I would vent but.. Yeah

But yes this chapter i saw myself in suna and i had to take quite the long breaks cause it was getting to me 😅😅😅 also if anything i learned from my experiences is that MARI SCREAMS RED FLAGS and even Osamu can see that pls

I would honestly end Mari there, i wouldnt even bother to just retort i would walk my way into to the damn apartment and fucking take Suna for myself cause Mari does not deserve him. Shes manipulative, and in a way abusive.. Not allowing him to keep contact with his best friend his a total redflag and o know its because Suna had feelings for y/n and vice versa but Suna never gave het a reason to distrust him.

The moment he said he was best friends with y/n and was single she immediately clinged himself to him and for what? To then dump him like he was trash...

He gave himself to her, he proved he was there for her he even took her back this boy deserves the fucking world and its not Mari...

I kinda want to say it's not y/n at this point either cause the way she broke his heart was kinda the same Mari did.. Y/n disregarded his feelings and just broke it up.. Mari disregarded his feelings abd broke it up... But y/n stated from the very beginning that she would eventually break up Mari just shrugged and didn't care so i can in a way forgive y/n i cant forgive mari

Besides y/n was supportive from the beginning while Mari was obsessive and controlling.

Another really insanely well written chapter as usual (albeit this one making me ball my eyes off harder because yeah) but yes~ eagerly waiting for the next one~

Take your time tho 😌🙌

Mari can go fuck off 💗💓💞💕❣️❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍💯💝💖💋💅

Suna x y/n pls

Y/n deserves to have a healthy love life with someone she loves (hence why npt Kita) and loves her back

And Suna deserve the fucking world and be treated right

[ from suki ] 

NAHHHH cuz when you said suna was treating mari the way he wanted YN to treat her... that’s right. on point. they’re all so complicated sobs. MARI IS A WALKING RED FLAG THAT OSAMU CAN SMELL FROM A MILE AWAY. ALSO yes mari is manipulative and borderline possessive when it came to suna. like yeah, let’s be real, she could tell a long time ago that suna was in love with YN and it made her insecure / jealous, but the whole time, YN kept her distance. she was supportive over their relationship from afar as to make mari comfortable. suna also did everything he could to make sure she was well cared for. for three years, he was focused on her and only her. he gave love a second chance despite being brokenhearted. suna never mari a chance to doubt because he, too, was sure he could be happy with her.

until mari left him.

and now suna is back with YN because they will always have each other. but honestly,,,if we think about it, if mari never broke up with suna or at least gave him the chance to explain himself - if mari didn’t do the exact thing YN did to suna years ago - he honestly would’ve been really happy with mari. they were going well. like yeah mari has always been toxic by pushing suna’s boundaries and asking him to unfollow his own best friend on social media, but he did it anyway. because he trusted their relationship. he wanted the best for them. 

also yeah, the parallels between mari and YN were intentional !! 

HEHEHEHE THE KITA X YN SHIP everyone loves them im so happy about that bcos kita is so amazing in my eyes. PREACH FOR THAT THO !! SUNA DESERVES THE BEST. SUNA DESERVES TO BE TREATED RIGHT. HE DESERVES THE WORLD AND SO MUCH MORE

thank you for taking the time to send me this, kya, it means a lot to me and it motivates me to work harder on the future chapters !! <33

[benhardyisdaddy]

Say It - Part 1

MASTERLIST

Description: break up sex between you and Roger.

(this is my first ever smut piece so if u judge me for my shitty writing i will personally fight u oKAY dont make fun of me im sensi ti ve. i do hope u rog thots enjoy it tho. my hand hurts from typing lmao ily all GN ps i thought of ben!rog while writing this, but it doesnt matter)

WARNING: smut, smut and some more smut (duh), talk about cheating 

Word Count: 3,173

Breakups are horrible. Everyone can agree on this. Especially when the breakup is with Roger Taylor. You can guarantee that your face will be plastered all over magazines now. Nosey paparazzi trying to get every detail of ‘the power couple of the century’ as they had called you.

But now that was over. And all over a stupid fight you and Rog had a few days ago. You were both home and he was standing in the kitchen cooking something for dinner. You had just gotten a unexpected phone call from Fred. The two of you talked for a while when he shared to you some news you had not been informed of yet. You’re taken back by it and say your goodbyes before hanging up.

You stare at your phone, a slow creeping feeling of anger runs through your veins. You harshly toss the phone on your bed and you make your way to the kitchen. Roger’s back is turned from you as you stare at him.

“When were you going to tell me?” you whisper.

Rog turns around and raises a brow, not understanding.

“Tell you about what?” he asks.

You roll your eyes and walk to the living room. He follows you close behind.

“About what?” he asks again. You whip around and the look on your face makes his freeze. You were angry. More than angry. You were beyond livid.

“You’re leaving in four days, Roger! For six bloody months! And you didn't even tell me!” you practically scream the last part.

He looks down and shrugs.

“And the worst part,” you continue. “Is that Fred told me, Rog! Not you!”

He shifts his feet as he looks back up to you.

“I was gonna tell you, okay? I just didn’t wanna upset you.”

You roll your eyes and dramatically laugh. You place your hands on your hips and squint your eyes.

“So you thought not telling me would make it better? So what? When the day comes and you have to leave, were you just gonna go and not say anything?”

Rog’s eyes go wide and he takes a step forward, shaking his head.

“No! I would never do that! You know I would never do that!”

“Oh,” you shout. “Just like I knew you would never cheat on me, huh?”

You instantly regret the words that came out of your mouth. Rog’s jaw tenses up and he closes his eyes. You take in a deep breath.

“Is this what this is about? You’re still thinking about that? Still holding that against me?” he asks, his voice low.

You run a hand through your hair. You were so angry that you wanted to cry, but you were fighting that urge.

“I will never not think about that. It’s in the back of my mind 24/7. It’s all I can bloody think about!” you yell.

“It was one time!” he shouts back.

“You act as if that’s a good thing! ‘I only cheated one time so it doesn’t count’.” you say, mocking him.

“I didn’t mean it like that.” he says, his voice lowering.

“You never mean it like anything!”

“Well at least she didn’t bitch at me like you do!”

You gasp. You take a step back and stare at him. His eyes open wide, this time he’s the one regretting what he had just said. You tense your jaw and feel tears fall down your face. Your heart stung at those words. The way he said ‘she’, as if she actually meant anything to him. Or maybe she did…

“I’m… I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that at all, baby. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about me leav-” he goes to say, but you quickly interrupt him.

“I hate you.” you whisper.

He looks up quickly and shakes his head.

“Please don’t say that.” he whispers back.

“I hate you.” you say a bit louder.

“You don’t mean that.” he says as he takes a step closer to you, only resulting in you taking a step back.

You turn and speed walk to your room. Roger follows behind you and keeps apologizing. You grab a bag and start throwing random items inside of it.

“What are you doing?” he asks.

You ignore him.

“Y/n, what are you doing?”

You turn around and walk back into the living room. You grab your purse and keys. You walk towards the front door and Roger grabs your wrist. He turns you around and your harshly slap him in the face. He gasps at the sting and you’re shocked by your sudden actions.

“I deserved that.” he says looking to you. You wipe away some tears and the thought of smacking him again crosses your mind, but you don’t.

“I’m leaving.” you whisper.

“Okay, yes. We should calm down and-”

“No,” you say, shaking your head. “I’m leaving you. I’m moving out.”

Roger blinks a few times, trying to process all of this.

“You’re just upset right now. It’ll pass.” he says, fast.

“I don’t trust you anymore, Roger. You’re right, I’m still angry about what you did,” you hiccup. “How will I know that you won’t do that again to me?”

He reaches forward and grabs your hand. This time his eyes look glossy as he searches your face.

“I won’t. You have to believe me. I love you. I’m so sorry.”

“I know. Me too.” And with that, you walk out.

___________________________________________

It had been three days since the last time you’ve seen or talked to Roger. He had called you repeatedly, but you ignored him. He had called Fred and even showed up at his house demanding to see you, but he never did. It broke your heart to do this, because you loved him. But you love yourself more.

“Are you sure you don’t want one of us to go with you?” asks Fred, watching you grab your car keys.

You smile and shake your head.

“I’ll be fine. I promise. I’m just grabbing a few boxes that Brian missed, then I’ll be home. Okay?”

Fred nods and pulls you in for a hug.

“You should slap him again.” he says in your ear. You lean away and can’t help but laugh. You say your goodbyes and head to Roger’s place.

You arrive there and walk up to the front door. Should you knock? You still have a spare key. It was going on 11 PM, you were hoping he’d maybe be out. There didn’t seem to be many lights on. You use your key and slowly open the door. You walk in and shut it behind you. You look around and walk in the living room. The two boxes Bri had missed were stacked in the corner. You walk up to them just as the living room light flicks on. You jump back and turn around. Roger was standing in nothing but some pajama bottoms. His eyes were swollen and his hair was a mess. You awkwardly smile.

“I’m just grabbing these.” you say, picking up the boxes. You turn back around and look to him then to the door. You turn and walk to it and open it, but suddenly it’s slammed shut. You gasp and take a step back. Roger’s look on his face is a look you’ve never seen before. His eyes are hooded and his brows are slightly furrowed, but his eyes are dark.

“You’re really leaving me?” he asks, voice emotionless.

You tense your jaw and look down.

“Yes,” you whisper.

“All because I fucked another girl?” he asks.

You look up and roll your eyes.

“Get out of my way, Roger.” you say as you go to open the door again. It’s slammed shut.

“Just say it.” he says, looking at you with pleading eyes.

“Say what?” you ask annoyed.

“Say that you don’t love me.”

“I’m not saying that.”

“Why not?” he asks, his voice raising.

“Because I don’t want to you idiot!” your voice matching his.

“Because you still love me!” he shouts.

“Of course I still love you, but I also hate you!”

“Well good! I still hate you too!” he says.

“Well good!”

“Good!

And with that his lips crash against yours. You drop the boxes you’re holding and tangle them in his hair. The kiss is harsh and fast, his tongue slamming against yours. His hand reaches down to your bum and squeezes. You let out a soft moan that drives him wild. He backs you up and slams you against the wall. He slowly grinds into you and you can feel his bulge growing by the second. He reaches down and picks you up as you swing your legs around him. He slowly leads the two of you to the bedroom and throws you on the bed. Your breathing is fast and heavy. He stands above you and looks you up and down. You bite your lip as he hovers over you, his lips on yours again. His hand presses down on your crotch and you moan at the pressure. You already feel how wet you are as you squeeze your thighs together. Rog leans away and places his hands under the hem of your shirt and pulls it off of you. He reaches behind you and unclasps your bra. It lands next to your shirt.

He leans down and kneads your breast as his mouth attaches itself to the other. His tongue licks and swirls around your nipple as he nips at it. Your back arches as you let out a moan. His hands find their way to your jeans as he unbuttons them. He leans back and pulls them off. You laying on the bed in nothing but your panties is driving him crazy. He scoots down to be nearer to your crotch as he starts rubbing you through your panties. His fingers graze over your clit and you let out a loud hiss.

“Ah, fuck. Rog…” you whimper.

He smirks and leans closer to you, kissing your inner thigh. He slides down your panties and leans himself back up to you.

“You talk too fucking much, you know that?” Just then he shoves your panties in your mouth and smirks.

“You’re so beautiful.” he says as his finger reaches down to stroke you. “Already so wet.” he moans. His finger traces over your entrance before he shoves two fingers inside. You moan and close your eyes at the sudden feeling of him. He gave you no time to adjust to him when he starts pumping in and out of you fast with one hand, while the other grabs your wrists and holds them above your head. He leans down and begins sucking on your nipple again, while his thumb begins grazing over your clit. Your back arches as you slightly yell out a muffled moan. He leans down and licks your folds. His fingers are removed from you as he begins sucking on your clit. A loud, wet sucking sound makes you groan loud. Pleasure rips through as he adds a finger in you as he sucks and twirls his tongue around. You scream out his name and dig your nails into your hands. He smirks against you as he picks up his pace, curling his fingers just right to find your sweet spot. It takes him a moment, but he finally finds it. Your whole body jerks as you cry out in pleasure. He continues his movement until he knows you’re close. Your legs begin shaking and he stops. He removes his fingers and you whine.

You watch him as he sticks his finger in mouth and tastes you. You shiver at the sight. He smirks and grabs your waist and harshly flips you over on your stomach. You squeal and giggle. Rog slaps a hand across your ass hard and you gasp, leaning your head back. He spreads your legs open and situates himself between you. You feel his tip tease your entrance as his hand wraps around your throat.

“Say it.” he says, before slamming into you. You gasp and squeeze your eyes close, your hand reaching up to grab onto his hair. Rog pulls away the panties from your mouth and returns his hand to your throat.

“Say it. Say you love me.”

You gasp as he harshly slams into you fast, his grip on your throat tightening a bit.

“I… I love you.” you say, stuttering your words.

Rog squeezes even tighter, almost cutting off your airway and then stops. He pulls out of you and you make a noise of disapproval. He flips you back around on your back and kisses you, but this time more gently. He lines himself back up and slowly enters you. You pull on his hair and he moans into your mouth. He picks up his speed he grabs your leg and flings it over his shoulder. He angles himself and thrusts into you. He hits your sweet spot and your eyes squeeze close. Your hands fall to your sides as they grasp onto the sheets.

“Say you love me.” he says again loud.

“I love you!” you cry out as he repeatedly slams into you. Your hands go to his back and scratch down it. He hisses and brings his lips to your neck.

“Say it again.” he whispers.

“I love you.” you whisper back.

Just then Roger puts his arms around you and lifts you up so that he’s sitting upright on the bed, as you straddle him. You moan at him still inside of you. You put your arms around his neck as you begin moving up and down. His eyes flutter shut as his mouth parts open. He sneaks a hand between your legs and begins to rub tiny circles against your clit. You lean your head against his shoulder as a tight buildup in your stomach makes your legs shake again. Your gasps turn into loud whimpers. Roger’s other hand digs into your hip as he picks up his pace. You ride him fast as you hear him curse under his breath.

“Oh fuck, fuck, fuck,” he whispers.

He’s close, you know it. His hand sneaks up to your hair and grabs a fistful. He leans his forehead against yours and looks into your eyes.

“Say,” he closes his eyes and moans as you swirl your hips around. “Say it again.” he breathes out.

“I love you.” you say again. Just then you feel yourself about to explode. Roger’s head falls back as he repeats your name like a prayer.

“Oh, Rog,” you moan. “I’m gonna…”

“I know baby. Me too. Cum for me.” he says as he returns his finger to your clit. This sends you over the edge. A knot fills your stomach and you start to see stars. Your whole body trembles as you try to catch your breath. You cum hard and shake profusely on him. It isn’t long after you that Roger cums. You feel his hot wetness fill you deep inside. He bites down on your shoulder as he shutters under you. He jerks a few more times and then stops. The both of you are panting hard and leaning your head on the other’s shoulder. He’s still inside of you when you slowly lift up to lie back. You both groan at the emptiness. You fall back on the bed and feel his cum slide down your leg. Roger falls next to you, his breathing still fast. The two of you lie there for what feels like forever. Roger turns to face you.

“Stay with me tonight.” he says.

You turn on your side and look at his eyes then his lips. You nod your head and he smiles. He leans in and gently kisses you.

“Say it.” he whispers once more.

You close your eyes and feel them begin to sting with tears.

“I love you.” you say as your voice trembles. Rog smiles. You run a hand over his face and turn so he could spoon you and also not watch you cry. You fall asleep with his arm around you and his hand in yours, just like before.

_______________________

The light of the sun peeks through the windows blinds. You yawn as you slowly open your eyes, adjusting them to the brightness surrounding you. You blink a few times and turn your head to look at Roger. His hair is in his eyes and his mouth is slightly parted. His breathing is deep and slow and you can’t help but smile. You could stare at him for forever. You reach over and lightly stroke his cheek. He stirs a bit and you freeze. He turns his head to the other side and you look over to the clock on the wall. 6:48 AM. You lay your head back down and rub your eyes. It’s way too damn early to be up, but you had to go. You look back over to Rog as you slowly sit up. Your legs fall over the beds side and you stand up. The cold floor against your feet makes you shiver.

You creep over to where your clothes lie on the floor and scoop them up. You walk to the corner and hurriedly throw them on. Your body aches because of last night. You can feel it in your muscles as you slide your jeans on. You look back over to Rog and wipe away a few tears. You walk to his bedside table and slowly open it up. You grab his pad and pen and look at him once more.

When you walk back into the living room, you pick up the boxes where you had last left them and turned to look around the place you had once called home. Your chin trembles at you begin to silently sob to yourself. You place a hand on your chest as you try to calm yourself down. You open up the front door and step out. You look back and smile.

“I love you,” you whisper. You shut the door.

_________________________

Roger stirs himself awake as he rubs his eyes. He looks over to your side of the bed and sits up when he realizes you’re not there. He looks around and then to the place where your clothes once laid. They’re gone. He looks on his bedside table and a note is laying on it with his name scribbled on the front. He unfolds it and immediately realizes it’s your handwriting. He knows right away what it’s going to say. Tears pool in his eyes as he chokes back a sob. He didn’t want to lose the love of his life. His best friend. He begins reading.

By the time you read this, I’ll be gone. I’m sure we’ll bump into each other again soon, but this can never happen again. I did love you, Rog. More than you can ever know. What you did destroyed me, but don't ever think for a second that I don’t love you. I do love you, Roger. More than anything in this universe. Which is why I’m gone. You were the best thing to have ever happened to me and I will miss you more than anything. Just promise me one thing, will you? Every time you think of me,

say it.

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[harfblarf]

more rick and morty nonsense-- this time, rest and ricklaxation

i havent seen any posts outright pointing this out so: we know that toxic morty contains a lot of morty’s insecurity-- “I don’t want to be on camera I’m ugly”, “my voice is annoying”, so on-- and that he’s scared he’s gonna be in hell, but he also outright states that he "just want[s] to die”. Also that he’s in pain. 

Other things Toxic Morty says:

“I believe you” to Rick, with no hesitation-- Morty’s occasional blind faith in his grandpa is viewed as toxic? Healthy Morty certainly doesn’t just play along with Rick’s ideas

“*screams*”-- panic

“yes rick, i-i agree rick”-- stutter, capitulation, submission, avoiding confrontation

“i think my voice is annoying” in response to rick asking what morty thinks of him discovering electricity-- vaguely self-centered in a depressive way?

“i dont like confrontation”-- yeah no kidding

“i-i dont like this, this is scary” fear, aversion to violence

“i’m a piece of shit but I got the tank” obedient, self-hating

leans on dash much like healthy morty did, looking resigned

“jesus christ it hurts”-- unlike healthy morty makes no effort to reassure others

Toxic Rick :

“you can die when I say so”-- controlling

“why am I bragging about that, I have nothing to prove”-- insecurity

“I’m surrounded by inferior pieces of shit and--” *looks at morty* LOOK IM NOT SAYING HE DOESNT VIEW MORTY AS AN INFERIOR PIECE OF SHIT I’M JUST SAYING THERES AN IMPLICATION THAT IM CHOOSING TO READ INTO. YES HE FINISHED WITH ‘TOXINS’ BUT COME ON that pause tho

hey where did toxic rick get fucking glass test tubes

*destructive tendencies*

“I’m gonna rip your throat--”-- violent boi

“you little sociopath/okay shut up morty”-- considers healthy morty a sociopath, doesn’t want to listen to morty talking about people hating him (did not shut him up previously, only now)

“don’t negotiate with that little turd, you’re the rick, you need to show dominance!” insecurity, desire for control at any cost

angry when his plan goes downhill, angry about remerging

“I got a lot more use out of that thing than he ever did” considers his sexuality a toxic thing, bound to his anger and irrational attachments?

“fuck you summer” no respect, no apology

“alright fuck this time for plan b”, but leaves beth alone

fucking throws healthy morty out of the ship. not his morty, not his problem, i guess?

brags at a very uncomfortable toxic morty

“trapped in your brain... with delusions”

“relax, quit your bitching, you’re gonna be fine... grandpa’s here”-- that same arrogance that makes him call himself a god, is what assures him that he can help toxic morty

“just do it you piece of shit!” angry but resigned to the only solution he can see (small picture)

Healthy Morty:

“mind if i put on some music?”-- considerate, nonpresumptive

the whole “one song a day” thing-- optimistic, planning, looking to the future

“if anyone could [calculate happiness], Rick”-- deep respect for Rick, respect for intelligence, flattery

“thanks rick. I love you”-- affection for his grandpa, appreciation

“if we’re all bored, wouldn’t the common denominator be you?” this is a clever joke, but it’s mean. cleverness/humor is prized above consideration and kindness

“I knew you could” and the rest of this montage-- uh so Healthy Morty provides the confidence Normal Morty is missing to a bunch of people. if that’s not symbolism idk what is; plainly Morty considers supporting and helping people Healthy

“*doesnt react to being called a loser, not even to deny it*” I wonder if this is like, self-acceptance

suave but still in an awkward way? like he drops a pickup line on jessica with an awkward forced laugh

“happy to help rick”-- but no surprise, no real emotion. like it’s forced

“bad phone, chuck it”-- acceptance of simple answers

“if something’s worth saying, it’s worth eye contact”-- considers reliance on technology unhealthy? interesting especially considering his interactions with Rick and all his tech

“you shouldn’t have to deal with that, man”-- curiously, despite making it his job to stop other people from being in pain (helping all his schoolmates), he advises against helping the Toxins

“I think i know what to do. *snaps phone in half*” destruction of property, choosing simple solutions

“things are good... taking that away from me? that wouldn’t be healthy.” manipulation, selfishness, self-preservation

“world’s greatest grandpa, for reals” more manipulation

awkward chattering, spouting shallow wisdom

“pronounce it however you want, words are just things” lack of judgement

“please, thank you, we’re having a conversation”-- shoos away the waiter to make jessica less awkward, being rude to the waiter in the process. singleminded, simplistic solutions

extended metaphor of jessica to a planet, including some like very specific shit, “what’s the equator, what are the holidays”

“talk to me.” demanding, assertive

really... loud? and aggressive, and awkward and emotive; very little self-control

lacking attachments, passions, “life is a highway”, “no sparks no damage”

...really long metaphors with stacey too. u ok morty?

“bad parts of us, which includes our dishonesty” (emphasis mine); morty has no question that deceit is bad. of course, that’s what a manipulative little shit who believes in lying “for good reason” would say, too, so.

stacey will “do anything for you morty”? weird, probably more evidence of his manipulation. quickly earned her devotion

“kill him rick!” morty considers his violence and willingness to retaliate “healthy”

bites toxic morty-- willing to use unfair/dirty fighting techniques just like toxic rick did

also grinning while he attacks him

casually stops and leans on the dash, blank-faced, when beth appears. again, no passion, no emotion at all

also healthy morty was in the driver’s seat and only settled once he was in control

“we gotta stop him”

the one to explain why Healthy Rick shot Toxic Morty again

“you’re a better man than me Rick, I’m healthy enough to admit that”-- healthy morty to regular rick. what does it say that both toxic and healthy morty view rick as superior? man, that’s kinda fucked, even if healthy morty’s actions here are totes dickish

“have I ever lied to you? that’s right, and ask around, I never do” manipulaaaaaation

uses jessica as yet another extended metaphor

draws attention, revels in it, offers falsely specialized attention to people to earn and keep their affection (the wink, the friendliness with “dwayne”)

“red pill or blue pill”

“totally understand dwayne, you’re the boss”, then cuts to... jargon that makes his coworkers happy. i strongly suspect at least part of a lie here, or an omission of truth

the boy is really obsessed with organic carrots, who knows why

“is that how long it takes for rick to trace my location” but he’s smiling, not scowling, he’s... at best amused, at worst unbothered, i guess?

“you miss someone that loved you so much you never had to love ‘em back” holy shit morty

“you didn’t hang up”--”huh. how ‘bout that.” then to surprise into mild consternation when the fucking voltron drones show up

“do what you gotta do”-- despite not wanting it, recognizes the inevitability of rick getting him to remerge

apparently healthy morty told his girlfriend that he was “capitalizing on his lack of conscience by becoming a stockbroker”. interesting

Healthy Rick:

“heheh, this universe”-- considers the universe impressive/beautiful/awe-inspiring (compare to ‘the universe is a crazy chaotic place’)

“that is an interesting concept... listen to me, trying to calculate happiness over here”-- respectful of others’ ideas, still brilliant and trying to improve on them, recognizing that math/science isn’t the solution to everything

“here’s something no science could measure: i’m real proud to be your grandpa, morty”-- pride in his grandson, acknowledging the limits of science

“morty, a moment of your time?”-- so polite hot damn

“what if the toxic parts of us have their own identities-- their own will to live?”-- inherent respect for the value of life

“i’m accountable to my toxins”-- considers responsibility and facing it healthy

“locked ‘em in a cage *hits it while smiling as toxic rick swears*” my guy what the fuck; theoretical emotion, no actual immediate empathy

upset, sad about toxic rick’s deception

“sorry summer” considerate, apologetic

“summer get out of here, go”

“we can resolve our issues, we don’t need to resort to over-the-top--”

“just leave her out of this”

“it’s okay girls, i’m so sorry” takes the time to be reassuring and apologetic when danger is still afoot for the world, offers to cook??

“not our right to stop them”

“your morty”/”i know you give a shit dummy, because I know I don’t”-- i think this is again about “not my morty not my problem”, and that Healthy Rick doesn’t care about Toxic Morty

“merge with me and you’ll know how to save him”... except once they merge there is no saving him, is there? just preservation to merge him with Healthy Morty

“I had all my problems removed-- my entitlement, my narcissism, my crippling loneliness, my irrational attachments” -- things healthy rick considers unhealthy are identified, but he’s still doing this in part because healthy morty insisted it was the right choice, and he’s still proud to be morty’s grandpa

“you’re literally incapable of seeing the bigger picture” so large-scale thinking is considered healthy?

“if i ever gave you the wheel, we’d be dead in five minutes” and isn’t that true, because toxic rick is willing to sacrifice himself for morty, and is too arrogant to think anyone is a threat to him? he would get morty AND himself killed if toxic rick was always in charge. no, letting toxic rick guide him is inevitable, but being controlled by him is unacceptable

Regular Rick: 

“man i really overthink shit when I’m angry”

“now it’s time we re-merge your little ass” interestingly his priorities were a) fix planet (what morty asked him to do), b) remerge morty (save toxic morty)

“that kid is a real piece of shit” (about healthy morty only)

“part of me really wanted to [save you], toxic morty. part of me really wanted to.” 

“tiny american psycho”

“kept asking ‘did you get a new morty yet?’“/”because you kept drunk-dialing me and crying about it!”/”I WASN’T CRYING” /in the background “I didn’t care” (what a liar)

Conclusion: as funny as most of this episode is, it strikes me that what Rick considers unhealthy, Morty considers healthy. Healthy Morty is violent, lacking a conscience, manipulative, domineering, sexual, and lacking in passion and attachments (he does, after all, abandon his family, not just Rick, for three weeks). Yes, he’s also less of a coward, not suicidal, and helpful, but compare to Healthy Rick. Healthy Rick is similarly lacking in passion and attachments, but he’s nonviolent, honest, less arrogant and less willing to impose his will on the world, nonsexual, and calm. Everything Healthy Rick isn’t, Healthy Morty is. It’s a fascinating insight into how Rick’s lies and denial are fucking up Morty’s perception of what is “healthy” and what isn’t. He has come to view violence, foul play, manipulation, lack of emotion/conscience, and dominance as valuable skills, even necessities, instead of the shameful attributes Rick views them as.

[grubhivemind]

-- primadonnaTartuffe [PT] began pestering obliteratedEmpath [OE] -- 

PT: tell me where youre at cuz im coming to see you.

OE: oh boy. 

OE: I'm at the skaia resort. penthouse.

PT: alright here i come. 

RYAN: -and there she goes, off to the resort and up to the penthouse. it's a strange feeling... all the emotions swirling around inside her gut that... actually seem to be processing through her mind with amazing clarity. there's just something about climactic moments such as these that are, appropriately, sobering.- 

RYAN: -knocks SOMEWHAT aggressively on the door when she arrives.- bitch lemme iiinnnn.

JINJIN: -It's probably inappropriate to be in the lap of luxury after what has occurred, and yet here Jinjin is. She was still very raw with the entire situation.- 

JINJIN: -Ryan isn't knocking for long before Jinjin opens the door, looking back at her cousin like welp you found me-

RYAN: -she isn't sure what to say now that she's here... so for a second she just stands there looking over at her until she's letting out the uncertainty with an exhale.- 

RYAN: jin... whatd you do that for?

JINJIN: I....-She looks down, around, anywhere but at Ryan before finally settling her gaze on her.- 

JINJIN: I don't know? she hurt you, hurt our friends. I guess she deserves to be hurt too. I didn't mean to actually HIT her, but...

RYAN: -fixes her with a stern look. stern but... very worried.- yeah okay sure. 

RYAN: but thats not like you. 

RYAN: i mean sure everyones capable of going off the deep end but!!! that shit doesnt happen for no reason. 

RYAN: so whats the reason?

JINJIN: she just...so easily fucked it up, fucked you up, fucked everyone up. I'm supposed to just sit by and let that happen? I'm supposed to just let her sit up there and get buddy buddy with joel while she's just laughing about stirring up all this shit for you to clean up? no! fuck that. maybe I can't actually help you with this mess but her I can do something about, I can...did make her hurt, make her maybe feel what everyone else was feeling....

RYAN: -expression softens as she listens to her.- baby... please. 

RYAN: so much of this mess i made on my own... long before nona was ever in the picture. you know? 

RYAN: what she did was fucked up yeah. but... it made everything... more real. it made me realize things i hadnt before... 

RYAN: you always did so much for me. maybe you feel like its never been enough but fuck. you shouldnt have to be proving yourself. you dont have to pick fights standing up for me. 

RYAN: youre enough just being you... and being my family. and my best friend. thats always... made more of a difference then i ever knew how to show.

JINJIN: -She's quiet, listening to her and sniffling a little. She hasn't done anything for anyone. All she'd ever done in her life was shut herself away smoke herself stupid. It was unbelievable that she'd EVER been, or done enough. - 

JINJIN: -She wipes at her face a little.- 

JINJIN: it's okay ry. you don't have to say all that. I mean, I really appreciate it but I don't think I've ever really done much for anybody least of all you. all I ever did was get high and stay in my room to escape my powers, I've never been...there. I don't know. I'm sorry ry.

RYAN: well shit jinjin... i know how it is. 

RYAN: maybe we both have things we gotta answer to cuz of our escapism. i dont wanna deny theres consequences. 

RYAN: it never helped me... i know i shouldve done more for people. even if people dont want me to feel responsible for it... that guilts still there. -tries reaching out to her to pull her into a hug.- 

RYAN: but we love each other. right? you broke a bitchs leg for me... if theres ever i time i felt sore about you being off on your own how the fuck can i possibly feel that way anymore??? thats the dopest shit anyones ever done on my account.

JINJIN: -SNUFFLE, but she's pulled into a hug and DON'T MAKE HER LAUGH 

RYAN. Hugs all this cousin.- 

JINJIN: I guess more of my parents rubbed off on me than I thought. I'm sorry ry...no more broken legs, I promise.

RYAN: -smiles a little up at her.- oh i feel it... 

RYAN: thanks tho i appreciate it. broken legs are more trouble than theyre worth. :weary: