#// i think Kanade’s SEKAI would look a bit like Toya’s Fragmented SEKAI. for funsies.

[kanade-aoyagi-official]

# INFO POST

This AU makes me insane, and you get to read my ramblings about it. Get Kanade’d ‼️‼️

Trigger warnings for:

Harumichi’s A+ Parenting (except it’s even worse here, fuck it we ball, i have problems and i’m projecting them on him)

Kanade not doing well At All (depression + talks about suicide, though it’s referred to as ‘disappearing’ like in canon)

Kanade and Toya having a very bad time overall 👍

If more is needed, I’ll add them 🫡🫡

so it’s a hc but for me Kanade and Toya are cousins

when Kanade’s father passes out after overworking himself and ends up in a coma, Harumichi (Toya’s father) takes her in.

it looks good for the Aoyagis 👍

so… Kanade:

lost her mother when she was young

had her father go comatose (and to her, it’s all her fault if he ended up like this)

and now she’s getting abused on top of it all

truly lucky. she’s totally doing well ← lies

Kanade’s very good at music and she already plays the piano, so that works out well for Harumichi.

Toya likes her a lot too, so he can… play into that to make sure his son stays obedient, you know? for funsies. make them BOTH suffer. (that’s where we get canon divergent - at least canon Harumichi is… trying, i guess)

i had the idea that only one of them manages to get out of this whole situation, and for this AU… it’s Kanade who stays behind. because that was how i could maximize the suffering and the psychological damage ✨

(Toya Tenma is a thing here. obviously. he goes to Tsukasa when he finally escapes this hell, and ends up living with him and Saki)

Kanade’s newly traumatized after all, and she feels guilty over it because she thinks it’s all her fault. so she thinks, "If I just do what I’m asked, then my music won’t hurt anyone again."

besides, she has a savior complex, so her I Want To Save People tendencies means she could view this situation as a "trading places" thing.

she’s not happy, she’s miserable, but it’s okay. she doesn’t deserve happiness; Toya does. that’s how she can make everyone happy.

except…

well, Toya’s obviously Not Happy. he feels incredibly guilty about it because holy shit, the Aoyagis are just doing the same thing they did to him to Kanade. but now, she’s… all alone.

they were suffering together before, at least.

SEKAIs are created from extremely strong feelings, so i think Kanade could make one in this situation.

it could either be like canon where eventually, 25ji is created, i guess, but i think it’d be funky if this was a shuffle AU thing, and Kanade / Toya ended up in the same unit.

(Kanade is like Mafuyu here; she needs saving, and Toya provides it. an interesting idea. i think.)

because, like… Kanade goes in the SEKAI to find comfort. but one day, she just thinks… she could stay there. she already wants to disappear in canon, so this whole mess would make it worse.

Miku finds Toya and she’s like "Please, can you help me? I dont know what to do :("

Toya goes for it because that might be his only chance to save Kanade.

Kanade just tries to get him to leave her alone but it’s not working, and she keeps trying to pretend like she’s okay but shes obviously not, and-

oh.

she starts crying.

and then she ends up bawling her eyes out in Toya’s arms because everything was just hell without him.

Toya just tells her that he’ll help her, that he got out of there, and that she can do the same thing.

and it just… it feels really nice.

it’s been so long since Kanade’s felt warmth.