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Nyx reads It's Not Summer Without You
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Ok you guys so when I read the first book I read it in a day so that's what I'm gonna TRY to do however, if I don't finish it there might be spaces in between where I sum up everything I read while at school, just a heads up!!
Anyways here's the obligatory warning, DO NOT FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!!! It's just for fun but it might get annoying, I promise it won't hurt my feelings 💀
and of course
SPOILER WARNING!!!!
ok before I actually start
I gotta come clean
AT THIS POINT IN TIME.
I am a jeremiah girl
I have been don't even start he's the cutest shut up
anyways
Conrad isn't bad I'm just saying I like Jeremiah better
AND I did hear conrad ain't good in this book so I mean
ok actually chapter one now
so I read the first book last year
so I have no idea what's going on
but I'll figure it out
OK THAT WAS KINDA CUTE
oh right that happened.
omg I know someone named Cory
he'd do the same thing!!!!
this is literally the first chapter wtf
I'm about to cry
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chapter 2
omg he called!!!
jeremiah still better
I gotta admit they're cute though
and steven slays per usual
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chapter 3!!!
oh I hate Taylor I'm sorry
so annoying ngl
poor Laurel :(
cory seems nice though!!
istg if taylor don't
OMG IT HURTS STOP
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chapter 4!!
JEREMIAH???
WAIT WERE THERE POVS IN THE OTHER BOOK?
HOLD ON
GOING TO CHECK
THERE ISN'T
WHAT IS THIS
who cares it's my fav!!!
oh that's sad.
NOO NOOO NOOOOO
HOW COULD YOU??
I'M CRYING NOW TOO
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anyways
after I chilled out a bit
chapter 5
stop.
I just stopped crying.
stop it.
ok there the tears go again
you guys, we're only on page 31, chill.
STOP. IT.
"And I've been praying, I never did before"
esny has been in my head this whole chapter it's devastating
NOT BOTH OF THEIR DADS
FUCK THAT SHIT
bro. not mtr rn. I'm already crying.
stop it.
CONRAD???
BELLY. NO WAY.
holy shit that was a fucking rollercoaster I'm still crying omg
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alright let's keep going!!!! chapter 6
GONE??
this is actually so sad
I came here for cute summer vibes
not sobbing less than 50 pages in
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chapter 7
istfg
i hate this girl
she makes ME crazy istg i actually
UGHH
ok cinderbelly is really cute though
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chapter 8
uh oh another pov
BUT JEREMIAH!!!
oh we're going back
good cause then I won't cry
they're so taylor swift coded
oh shit ok I lied
I'm gonna cry wtf
it's ok jeremiah I'll love you for her!!!
I feel bad for him tho ngl
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chapter 9
this is so sad wtf
help me please
THE LAST LINE??? I'M GONNA CRY AGAIN BRO
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chapter 10
istfg taylor swift is out to get me
fucking
fucking yoyok??
I'm gonna cry
wonder how many times I've said that
bro I'm already almost out of sad tabs what
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ok so I read like a lot at school and when I say a lot I mean A LOT like I'm now on chapter 29!!!
anyways still love jere, hate mr. fisher, feel bad for conrad, wonder why her dad and mom broke up but that was prob in the first book
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ok we're starting mid 29 (and adding 30)
I'll kiss him for her!!!
also when did they start calling her bells
I mean it's cute but where'd it come from
you're right. you don't have a right 😭
weren't you JUST upset about Conrad?
yeah he doesn't love her cause he loves ME
I'm delusional just go with it!!
NAH NOT ANGIE 💀
how do I remember her but like not half the other stuff help
omg taylor again
I'm sorry I despise her
both of them are driving me insane rn 💀
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chapter 31
DECOMPOSING ROSES 💀
reminds me of andrew's spidey "Let's just get out of here" while shaking his head
I love that scene
he's so cute
but anyways back to the book
bro connie getting on my nerves
FORGIVENESS
CAN YOU IMAGINE
oh belly I'm gonna cry
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JERE!!!
oooh someone jelly
jelly over belly
LMAO
PROVING MY POINT
JERE>>>
I DON'T UNDERSTAND
IS THERE SOMETHING I'M LIKE MISSING OR WHAT
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chapter 33
SHIT I FORGOT HER NAME WAS ISABEL
BELLY.
OMG WHAT
and my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I have a lot of regrets about that
WOOHOO WE GOT HER!!!
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JEREMIAH!!!
chapter 34
ew yellow popsicles
jelly at age 13 bro
AWW HE DID GET SICK BUT BELLS HUNG OUT WITH HIM
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chapter 35
STILL JERE!!!
I feel like this is the first time I remember him speaking badly of his dad
I love him sm you have no idea
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chapter 36
bro
connie gotta think before he speaks stg 🙄
he likes his bacon like my dad does!!
I like my dad a lot better than mr. fisher though
GO LAUREL!!!
FUCK MR FISHER
um girl
that's your daughter
why are you like
yknow what who cares
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chapter 37
JERE!!!!
why is she
ok I got a bone to pick
1
why is she a better parent to the boys than belly
2
WHERE TF IS STEVEN?
oh this is so sad :(
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chapter 38
I am officially out of sad tabs
BUT NO WORRIES
FOR I HAVE ANOTHER PACK!!
look at her being a genius
come back...be here!!!
so taylor coded
I'm adding chapter 39 here too
too lazy to add a divider 💀
omg girl shut up about connie jeremiah is right there
I'm calling him connie cause it's funny and I know he would hate it
like matty boy
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Chapter 40!!!
OMG BELLY FLOP!!!! WOOHOO
there's my cute summer book
I missed you
SEE JERE IS RIGHT THERE GIRL
slurpees!!
Oh NOW he remembers stuff 🙄
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chapter 41
oh jere don't do this to me
scripting out her death cause I can't deal no way
BRO I'M GONNA-
omg good job connie!!
SEE HE REMEMBERS
JERE IS BETTER
COME ON BELLS HOW CAN YOU BE SO PAINFULLY OBLIVIOUS
YES
YESSS
THERE YOU GO JERE THERE YOU GO
WOOHOO!!!!
wish that was me though ✊😔
YESSSSS!!
uh oh connie is back
ngl I'd be mad pissed
CONRAD
I KNOW YOU MAD AND I WOULD BE TOO BUT DAMN
my words shoot to kill when I'm mad!!!
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chapter 42
oh my god
bro
you guys gotta talk this shit out ngl
ohhh not steven don't do that to me
CONNIE BRO
bro istfg if you go back to connie I'm gonna cry again
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43
this is driving me insane ngl
BELLYYY
NOOO THE END??? WTF YOU MEAN A COUPLE YEARS LATER???
excuse me is she leaving a wedding?
um
bro how am I supposed to wait a year
I'm gonna cry
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transssexualheart · 7 years
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Hey b I know you like asks so answer all 200 because I'm just that nice :^)
FUCK THATS SO MANY 
200: my crush’s name is:as if you all don’t know at this point. it’s sarah
199: i was born in:2002
198: i am really:gay
197: my cellphone company is: i’m so fuckin stupid i’m not sure what the question is asking
196: my eye color is: brown
195: my shoe size is:eight and a half/nine
194: my ring size is:i don’t wear rings
193: my height is:5′5
192: i am allergic to:nothing
191: my first car was:never had a car
190: my first job was:never had a job
189: last book you read:hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy
188: my bed is:small
187: my pet:is a beautiful orange cat named danny and i love her
186: my best friend:is lovely
185: my favorite shampoo is:i don’t care 
184: xbox or ps3:i’ve never played a ps3 so i guess xbox
183: piggy banks are:ok??? why are we trying to start piggy bank discourse
182: in my pockets:are trash
181: on my calendar:i don’t use a calendar
180: marriage is:alright?? i’d get married if my partner wanted to
179: spongebob can:?? exist??
178: my mom:is not very nice
177: the last three songs i bought were?uhhh i havent bought music in a while idk
176: last yt video i watched:for him.
175: how many cousins do you have?fuck dude. so many. i don’t know.
174: do you have any siblings?two, a brother and a sister
173: are your parents divorced?well my parents tried to get divorced but my dad died before it actually got worked out and my mom and my stepdad aren’t married and have never been so
172: are you taller than your mom?i believe so  
171: do you play an instrument?yeah, piano
170: what did you do yesterday?not much, just sat around and then walked in circles around my house for hours and then hung out with my siblings in the yard
[do you believe in]
169: love at first site:no, what if that pretty girl u saw on the street is an asshole?? what if she’s racist and homophobic dude u don’t know her
168: luck:sure
167: fate:yeah i guess
166: yourself:haha no
165: aliens:ya
164: heaven:idk
163: hell:idk
162: god:idk!! 
161: horoscopes:idk they’re fun to look at 
160: soul mates: i’d like to believe in soul mates
159: ghosts:idk
158: gay marriage:gay marriage isn’t a fuckinhg cryptid, yes i believe in it i’m gay and i’m gonna probably get married
157: war:god fuck i don’t know
156: orbs:??????????
155: magic:could be real, might not be, who knows
[this or that]
154: hugs or kisses:kisses
153: drunk or high:never been either so
152: phone or online:phone, can text my friends whom i lov
151: red heads or black haired:black haired i guess
150: blondes or brunettes:someone’s gonna get sad when i answer this but brunettes
149: hot or cold:i don’t know actually
148: summer or winter:summer, it’s better than having seasonal depression added onto my normal depression
147: autumn or spring: spring
146: chocolate or vanilla:vanilla
145: night or day:night
144: oranges or apples:apples
143: curly or straight hair:curly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
142: mcdonalds or burger king:don’t really eat at either but if i had to choose, mcdonalds
141: white chocolate or milk chocolate?white chocolate
140: mac or pc:pc
139: flip flops or high heels:high heels
138: ugly and rich OR sweet and poor:wtf 
137: coke or pepsi:don’t really drink soda
136: hillary or obama:man i don’t know too much about politics all i know is that i’d choose hillary over trump any day
135: buried or cremated:man i’m not sure,, i guess i’d prefer to be cremated Please Rid The World Of My Horrible Body
134: singing or dancing:singing
133: coach or chanel:i have like fifty cents do you think i can afford that shit
132: kat mcphee or taylor hicks:who
131: small town or big city:i love the city, maybe that’s because i live in a small town but i love the city
130: wal mart or target:target
129: ben stiller or adam sandler: idk
128: manicure or pedicure:well i don’t want anyone touching my feet i don’t even like taking my socks off around friends unless i very much trust them
127: east coast or west coast:well i live on the east coast so
126: your birthday or christmas:my bday bc we go on vacation for it bc it’s over the summer
125: chocolate or flowers:flowers
124: disney or six flags:never been to disney so six flags
123: yankees or red sox:sport???
[here’s what i think about]
122: war:didn’t another question p much ask the same thing
121: george bush:idk??
120: gay marriage:p much already been asked bud
119: the presidential election:not my president can’t believe u fuckers let trump win
118: abortion:if someone wants an abortion, they should be able to get it. no one else should have a monopoly over that, not even the father, because their body does not belong to him.
117: myspace:never used it
116: reality tv:eh
115: parents:some are good, mine i am not fans of
114: back stabbers:i don’t think i’ve ever really been backstabbed
113: ebay:it’s ok?
112: facebook:don’t really use it
111: work:don’t have a job
110: my neighbors:i don’t talk to them much but everytime we go near their dogs on the otherside of the fence they call the dogs back or pull them away one of the kids went “haha you can’t touch our dogs” and?? idk why??
109: gas prices:i don’t drive
108: designer clothes:can’t afford them
107: college:haven’t been 
106: sports:Throw Ball
105: my family:my sister is lovely, my brother is really mean, and my parents are also p mean like i don’t realize sometimes until i tell something they said and they’re like “??? that’s really not ok??”
104: the future:hasn’t happened yet how would i know
[last time i]
103: hugged someone:earlier today i hugged my aunt because she’s over for easter
102: last time you ate:just ate a tootsie roll a lil bit ago
101: saw someone i haven’t seen in a while:i guess the only person i haven’t seen very recently is spence and the last time i saw him was a few weeks ago
100: cried in front of someone:long time ago
99: went to a movie theater: went to see beauty and the beast a while back but i don’t remember exactly when that was
98: took a vacation: last summer
97: swam in a pool:last summer at my aunt’s probably 
96: changed a diaper:many years
95: got my nails done:i painted a clear coat on them a lil while back does that count
94: went to a wedding:year or so ago?
93: broke a bone:never broken any bones
92: got a piercing:when i was like five
91: broke the law:idk
90: texted:a few mins ago
[misc]
89: who makes you laugh the most:hahah. u
88: something i will really miss when i leave home is:oh man. all my friends, hubbard hall, the school playground, as much as i wanna leave this town i’ll probably cry leaving it behind
87: the last movie i saw:moana!
86: the thing that i’m looking forward to the most:death
85: the thing i’m not looking forward to:school starting again
83: the most difficult thing to do is:tell someone you’re in love with them
82: i have gotten a speeding ticket:never??
81: my zodiac sign is:leo
80: the first person i talked to today was:probably my mom
79: first time you had a crush:seventh grade
78: the one person u can’t hide anything from:apparently you because u always figure me out
77: last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday, spence was talking about how his bf had big hands and i said “u know what they say” and i was about to say “big gloves” but he beat me to it
76: right now i am talking to:i’m not talking i’m typing
75: what are you going to do when you grow up:idk
 74: i have/will get a job:i don’t?? know??
73: tomorrow:is easter
72: today:is not easter
71: next summer:??
70: next weekend:idk man??
69: i have these pets:one cat, two fish
68: the worst sound in the world:chEWING
67: the person that makes me cry the most is:haha
66: people that make you happy:my friends
65: last time i cried:about a month ago
64: my friends are:the best!!!
63: my computer is:alright
62: my school:is the fucking worse
61: my car:is non existent
60: i lose all respect for people who:support trump
59: the movie i cried at was:i cried over the shitty mario movie when i was seven
58: your hair color is: dark brown
57: tv shows you watch:i don’t really watch tv
56: fav website:i dont kno
55: your dream vacation:to go to the beach with friends
54: the worst pain i was ever in was:emotional
53: how do you like your steak cooked:well not burnt
52: my room is:alright
51: my fav celebrity is:does dan avidan count? he still holds a special place in my heart
50: where would you like to be:my answers for these kinds of qs are always so gay 
49: do you want children:used to not want them, but i guess depending on the person i’d have them with i MIGHT
48: ever been in love:ya
47: who’s your best friend:asdgkjgf
46: more guy friends or more girl friends:many of us are nb
45: one thing that makes you feel great is:being loved
44: one person you wish you could see right now:u know, u all know who
43: do you have a five year plan:???????
42: have you made a list of the things to do before u die:1. kiss a girlthat’s it
41: have you prenamed your children:no
40: last person i got mad at:probably my brother
39: i would like to move to:nyc
38: i wish i was a professional:animator
[my favs]
37: candy:sweedish fish and jolly ranchers
36: vehicle:idk
35: president:i only remember obama
34: state visited:idk
33: cellphone provider:also idk
32: athlete:don’t pay attention to sports
31: actor:i don’t freakin know
30: actress:well,
29: singer:wELL,,
28: band:not sure
27: clothing store:idk
26: grocery store:hannaford??
25: tv show:no idea
24: movie:so many good movies
23: website:i think this was already asked??
22: animal:not sure
21: theme park:only ever been to like one
20: holiday:xmas
19: sport to watch:uhh i guess soccer?? i’ll actually understand whats happening so
18: sport to play:also soccer
17: magazine:don’t read them
16: book:carry on
15: day of the week:saturday
14: beach:no specific one i just like the beach
13: concert attended:only ever been to one, it was a top concert
12: thing to cook:grilled cheese
11: food:not sure
10: restaurant:idk
9: radio station:don’t really listen to the radio
8: yankee candle scent:??? idk???
7: perfume:don’t really wear it
6: flower:roses or tiger lillies
5: color:blue
4: talk show host:i don’t know??
3: comedian:bo burnham
2: dog breed:shiba inu
1: did you answer all of these truthfully?ya
i didn’t move the whole time i answered all 200 help me
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colubrina · 8 years
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Same law applies here once I'm 18. And no, mom's not working anymore. Her job as a nurse got too stressful and she wanted a break. She's almost 50. Don't think she'll work again. I suppose I'll just leave (?) when I have enough money? Mom's relatives aren't gonna help. They'll just whinge and whine. So yeah. I'll just have to hold on till I can do this on my own I guess. Thank you so much for taking the time to answer.
Oh also, my psychiatrist was terrible? I went once. Said my suicidal thoughts, crippling anxiety and self-harm habits weren't severe? Sorry, this has nothing to do with that. Just wanted to share. Been a long time since I've told someone and gotten a positive response.
Yes, leave.  You can do it.  Start making plans because even figuring things out will give you a sense of accomplishment and keep you from feeling quite as trapped.
And bad therapists are so shitty.  I quit my last one when he was a sexist jerk at me.  Apparently if he didn’t experience something as a professionally employed father, if I thought I was experiencing it as a non-working mother, I was creating a societal expectation where none existed.  I had another one ‘diagnose’ me as having borderline personality disorder by taking a photocopied sheet of the DSMV diagnostic criteria, tearing off the top where it named the disorder, handing it to me and asking how much of that sounded like me.  (It sounds like me writing a letter to the state ethics board... why do you ask?  I never bothered.  I just found someone else who laughed at the possibility I had BPD and said no, he’d treated his share of BPD patients, and, no, I was not one.)  BUT if you are having suicidal ideation and crippling anxiety and engaging in self harm, it’s worth trying to find one who doesn’t suck.   ANY suicidal ideation should be treated as severe.
WTF, therapist?  Oh, you only think about killing yourself on alternate Wednesdays so no biggie?  Honestly.  
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