#// I will do these tmrw if I get any as I'm currently at work ;~;

[serv0z]

RAHHH a drawing of all the sillies currently occupying my brain right now. Funny thing is!! My last LN related drawing was posted almost exactly a year ago!! how funny! Close-ups and yapping under the cut

I'm running on 3 hrs of sleep bc i stayed up till 5am to make this and then i had a neurologist appt at 8 so!!! (i got officially diagnosed with adhd or add we win, i already forgot which one he said but i get my meds tmrw!!) I might take a nap after this im so exhausted. ANYWAYS.!!! i love. flowey and clover friendship no one start yelling at me abt how flowey didnt care!!! theyre best friends to me!!!! and it works out as im a clover kinnie nd floweys been my comfort character for years now. we win. I don't think monsters really had binders at first (dont use bandages btw guys, dont be like Starlo was!!11) I think the first time one fell into the trash dump or wtvr someone picked it up and then once figuring out its uses just!! boom!! business!! figuring out how to safely make more and!!! finding ways to accommodate certain monsters with different body types!! esp with the spikes and such. Ceroba def helped Starlo out with his bandages often before they were able to get him a binder. the one where clovers drawing is !! an idea of revived!clover or clover staying in the underground in hiding. Martlet got him that shirt :)) and obv the bell earring is from Ceroba. sorry to all my cotl followers i STILL have no colored the 5 body refs of both narinder and lambert. I picked the colors here on a whim so uhmmm it's not official!!! not yet anyways!! i do like what i used for Narinders fur tho, so that might stay idk yet i hte coloring BNJKNKSD i colored this whole thing on a wild impulse.. thus staying up all night. I think clover would really enjoy waterfall if they were ever able to visit it after or during the whole soul thing. It's peaceful and beautiful and also one of my fav areas in base game sooo :) i missed my LN kids. I reread Raccoons on ao3 and remembered how much i loved them and their silly lil dynamic. im a #1 six defender btw i WILL throw hands if u say some wrong shit abt her. mono, less so bc i think a lot of people have a good grasp on his character now but six is ALWAYS villainized. Has been for years nd it ticks me off bc?? she was right for her actions kinda?? not really?? ofc both characters made bad choices that lead to it but dont disregard her feelings either? idk its a whole thing i cant get into on THIS post. a lot of the doodles are just random moments like Six in the Maw with their bigass keys and locks, maybe its one of the ones to the kitchen and thats why she's rushing :D? Mono isnt really. he wasnt meant to be in the end game room but i wanted funky lighting so do with that as u will. Silly stuff with RK and Six, RCG I DID NOT FORGET ABOUT U HUN <333 I JUST DONT HAVE A DESIGN FOR YOU YET!!! same for Low and Alone </3 RK with the nomes my beloved <333 nd ofc the last dance based on the animation on youtube!!! do not tag any of the ln kids as ship!!! and do not tag clover and flowey as a ship either!! only two im fine with in this drawing is staroba or narilamb oki goodnight

[hyerinrose]

Ok ok I know, Yan playboy and Yan neko universe ain't the same..

but I wanna know what happened if they met!! :3

Just imagine.. like.. Reader petting Leo until they heard Playboy(I forgot his name｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡) knock the door, and reader Gets up to get the door..

ugsjwhwh my brain is not working

(Anw how are U?? hope ur doing good!)

-🎧

Now 🎧 anon you mentioned a good point there. Some of my Ocs are actually in the same universe, referring to my old works (ie; Anti Hero and Villainous Charm) so it's not completely impossible for Yan playboy and Yan neko to be in the same one.

Im doing good ^^ excited for tmrw. Hby?

•┈••✦ 🎀✦••┈•💌•┈••✦ 🎀 ✦••┈•

First of all, Xavier and Leo meeting would = chaos as the two will fight over you constantly. They're both like tinkerbell in a sense that if they don't have your attention on them, they will die.

Second of all they're also possessive type of yan and seeing you with another person is akin to death sentence for them. Especially Leo since he hates everyone but you <3

Mini drabble under the cut!

It was like any ordinary day, you just had finish hanging the laundry and are currently watching the television while Leo naps on your lap.

Your hand mindlessly scratched and pet the napping hybrid while your mind was somewhere else completely. His sounds of purr filled the otherwise quiet living room.

Knock. knock.

"Who's there?" Leo grunted as you stopped petting him and carefully placed the hybrid's head on a pillow before getting up to the front door.

"Xavi your beloved, of course" The person replied from the other side, you immediately recognize the voice to belong to your non-official boyfriend, Xavier.

"You're just getting more audacious as days went by, Xavi" You opened the door and stepped aside for Xavier to walk in.

"Heh, sooner or later you'll be agreeing with m- AH!" The dark-skinned man jump onto you and hold onto you like a lifeline at the sight of you Neko Hybrid.

"Who's this, Master? And hands off of them, you" Leo glared at Xavier as he readies his claws to attack. They emphasise the you as to make a point that he's not welcomed here.

The two males had a staring contest with Leo glaring murderously at Xavier while the other stares out of fear. Eventually Xavier lets go of you and looked at Leo at eye level*.

"I'm assuming you're [Name]'s pet , Leo. I'm Xavier and I'm their boyfriend, nice to meet ya" At his word Leo turned to you with a heartbroken expression.

"Boyfriend? But I thought I had already courted you, Master.." Their sad face reminded you of a kicked puppy and your heart can't take seeing it.

"He's just delusional, Leo. We're not dating!" You said while immediately going to his side and enveloping him in a hug.

Xavier was ticked off at Leo's smug expression, so this cat thinks he can one up him? Yeah, no way. That day, your house were filled with chaos as the two males fought like cats and dogs over you.

Good thing you only have a Neko Hybrid.

*Xavier is shorter than Leo. He's around 6'1 and Leo is 6'5

[foster-the-world]

And we are off

My husband has the kids at a state nature preserve while I packed and cleaned up the house. All done and enjoying twenty glorious minutes alone on the couch. My Aunt/Uncle, cousin and their two friends are staying while we are gone. NYC rent is too expensive to leave this place empty. My Aunt is so excited. She's had a rough year so I'm glad she'll will get some fun in.

I cannot wait to be swimming at the hotel pool tmrw. For some reason I'm feeling confident about baby boy flying. The flight to California was a true disaster but I think we've figured it out now. Fingers crossed I'm not in denial.

My husband's boss is leaving. They immediately offered him the position. He doesn't really want to take it. Its a big pay raise but will be longer hours at work. He would still be able to leave the office at 5pm but would be up after the kids go to bed working. There is no part of me that feels like either of us have more hours to spare. Baby boy is really draining all of our energy and its still very unclear what supports he will need in the future. At the same time, it will be hard to turn down the extra pay. He is very lucky to get a full pension based on his three highest years pay (thank you govt work in a liberal state). He can retire at 57 - so its not money just for the next few years but for the next 30 + years. I mean this most likely won't be his last promotion but every step upward counts. If he passes away the pension passes to me. Current employees don't get these benefits - he got in right before they changed the rules. He's been there 20 years now. He/we will have the entire vacation to think about it. Nice either way that they offered it to him. He's also had this amazing boss forever. I'm warning him how miserable his life can get if he gets a bad boss.

Baby boys been behaving very well for the past two days. Maybe he's maturing?? Maybe he just has good and bad days?? He is so damn cute. Last night I told him I was taking the girls somewhere. He goes "Oh, okay. You go Japan???" HA! HA! No kid. The next trip to Japan you are coming.

The girls begged to have a pedicure before vacation. I took them last night. Said it was a treat for doing so well in school. Very cute/fun. Bee is so much more girly then I am.

Foster agency is sticking to making us be re-certified. I can't think about it until we are back. Of course, no one has given us an adoption date so no idea when we need to get the trainings over with. Such a massive waste of time.

Baby boys therapies need to be switched from Department of Health to Dept of Education now that he turned three. After a month of pestering, they sent me a list of over 200 evaluation places throughout the city. I called over 20. None have evaluation appts before October. I put us on all of the waiting lists. Will probably try to pay out of pocket for OT, PT, etc until he is adopted and he can go on our private insurance. Its unGodly expensive. Need to figure out what services will help him. A little lost honestly. Weight vests, weighted blankets, crash pads, sensory toys, brush techniques? Will these things help him?? Do we have room for those things (=No). Need to start videoing when he's really unregulated. One-on-one in an OT office is not going to show what we are talking about. Of course, the foster agency doesn't bother responding to my emails related to any of these services. The medical lady used to be the one consistently competent person at the agency. She moved on and of course the new person is useless.

[faint-frankie]

（ 11-15-2024 ） daily post? idk how often i’ll do this.

tw(s) - none. i just have a panic attack / meltdown lolllz

f; Mikey/Frankie - host

— art ; 9:20AM - 10:30AM ( 2nd period )

i'm so behind in this class 😭 im literally an artist but like i just don't pay attention alot of the time.. im trying to get back on it but idk

next period is urban conservation and i'm going crazy because my boyfriend won't be here today and that period (+ the rest of the day) is whenever i spend time with him.. AND HIS PHONE IS BROKENNNNN I MISS MY HUSBAMMDNDND (hashtag bpd struggles i want my fp)

speaking of husband our 2montths is tmrw!!! yay! im peeing with excitement like a dog cuz like 2months???? YAYYYY cant wait for marriage

uodate im not trying in art class rn. i dont care rn y’all im just gonna draw on my own. EFF ZEN TANGLES IM TOO TIRWDDDDDD DUDE 😒

my mom has no money but i want food frm the vending machinr and she doesnt let me get a job (or my permit.) so im just fucked i guess!

ok rn im lowkkey having a huuuuge fuckin panic attack like okay!!!!!!!!! awsum!!!! ahahahababababbaa. can i be okay is that an option

last night i had a dream about being in a psych ward. i’ve had them in the past, usually like a few time a year? they’re slowly getting more personal and realistic and i’m actually so scared that’s a sign.. cuz i’ve had dreams wiht meaning before that come truw :/

im so anxious im DYING!!!!!! my head hurttss... listening to misfits while crashing out is probs stupid on my end so ill chnage it.... :(

— urban c. ; 10:40AM - 11:50AM ( 3rd period )

ugh i actually camt focus :( ill probably just draw i feel lkke shit. walking frm my last class to this one wore me outtt....... :/ i got so fuckkng scared since my safe person isnt here and i kinda thought so.eone would kill me at any moment but ir hasnt happened yet.

oh thank god he went bcak over the answers.... i had no idea what was going on...

f; Khris & co; Johnnie

— lunch ; 11:50AM - 12:20PM ( approx,, )

i'm sitting at lunch with our friend rn! she's like on the phone rn,,, so i'm fucking around on my computer until next period i guesss. i think our bf is hopefully getting his phoen fixed??? god i hope so .. im stalking his location like a freak but tbh frankie showed me it because he stalks him alot... WITH HIS CONSENNTNTT

our friend rly likes andy biersack so she told me abt his tattoos... i sadly know like nothing abt black veil brides but i think its coooll

some kid is shouting abt cishet white men,,, errr like ok i get the hate but cmon. i'm not really eating at lunch im just hangin hereee

someone is talking loudly about their alters, idk how to feel abt that.

i did one assignment in the middle of lunch, its so fucking hot out im dying....FUCKKK IT WAS LIKE 37 THIS MORNNINGNGN

— asian studies ; 112:30PM - 1:45M ( 4th )

i got to class late... by like 1 min tho so its chill. i talked to my friend abt some weird shit which was interesting? im exhausted kinda. im hot but cant take off my hoodie cuz my scars :/

ughhhghghhg i have catch up work to do and suddenly im dissociating this is bullshit

f; Loretta

I'm going to be typing properly, because typing.. however that is, makes my head hurt. I'm currently trying to get some work done while keeping us calm. I want to work on our craft/practice, but school comes first. I have no idea what's happening after school, as our boyfriend cannot text and school ends soon. I'll just plan it out as best as I can in my head? I definitely need us to do laundry. It's piling up very bad.

f; mikey / frankie & co ; loretta

BO9YFRIEND HAS PHOENBBACK OGGOG BOFYRIENDNDDND

i'm so shakey and can't process noise and all that.. everything is so weird im so scared of everythint spsoososooss bruh. time to research the brobecks to soothe myself

— media ; 1:50 - 3:00PM ( last period. )

i feel absolutely horrible. i cant brwathe i reel like im going to sob amd puke i jsyt wannabgo hoke

my mom isnt answrring me like o hate her but lowkey olease acknlwlddmge im habing a panic attaxi

im aboutnto cry in class i cant takehrhjjs. im havjng flashbadks too. i justbwanna go home

im about ti leave school thank fuck. i feel awfuk and just cant think. i keep thinking abt the weird psych ward dream i had.

okay im going to ennd this journal thing here since its longnand boring and infeel like shit

if you actuallt read this, thank you:3

[taegularities]

hi lovely!!! how are uuuuuu

ok, super off topic but what do you do when u have a bad day???? had a shit of a day today and now anxiety is eating me alive 🫠 need something to distract meee

hi sweets!! am currently falling asleep and can't see my keyboard properly lol but im better!! i'm so sorry you haven't been okay :( anxiety is the absolute fkn worst. what i usually do is try and busy/distract myself with things i've been wanting to do for a while — sometimes that means being productive, which is great bc a) you get your mind off bad things and b) get stuff done. i also do breathing exercises a lot. sometimes i paint a picture in my head of what's scaring me and try to think realistically whether it's able to actually hurt me. and if it is, i think of potential solutions and what i could do, should things escalate.

also, sometimes it's just v nice to abandon everything altogether and do smth that you don't need to do much thinking for but that still distracts you or cheers you up — like, i spent the last few days rewatching brooklyn 99 and asmr. definitely do something that would make you happy on any other day — fighting anxiety is tough, but i hope one of these things works for you 🥺 giving you a warm hug and lots of tea and tmrw will be better ily 🤍

[mightybeaujester]

Update if anyone else ever faces the same question: twitch leecher seems to work

Can anyone recommend a way to download twitch videos? Preferably in good quality?

I want to watch the new CR ep on Monday while traveling and won't have any internet

[husbandhoshi]

good morning miss lily! how are you today?

I GUESS WE ARE HOBBY TWINNING!!!! i used to be super into crocheting and knitting a few years ago but fell out of it :( i hope yours goes well!!! i think you’ll like it ^^ and ooooohh tell me how the book is when you finish it; i’m interested ☺️ — i’m currently borrowing On Death & Dying by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross(, MD) from a friend of mine! i haven’t gotten too far into it but basically it’s about how since the major wars in america, we’ve had a lot more people like actually Getting Old instead of dying at a young age like how it used to be; and it’s kind of a little explanation of interview results with elderly people and some other stuff!! and of how in the past few decades we have this new phenomenon of elderly people and their fear of death and how they process growing old, etc etc. it’s kinda nerdy but hey 🤓

anyway;;;;;; no more death talk BSJSH OKAY ABOUT CATCHING FEELINGS… so there’s this guuyyyyyy *twirls hair around finger* that i’ve known since middle school and went to high school with and he was never really my type? we were never friends? had no mutual friends really blah blah blah. around mid-november i started thinking he was really cute but it wasn’t anything serious it was little schoolgirl-y tbh. but then slowly but surely i started becoming more interested in him, getting excited to talk to him, thinking about him all the time, and just really wanting to get to know him as a person. that combined with my Constant Daydreaming about being with him and having fun with him and him fucking my brains out…. blah blah blah so then one day i was thinking about all this and realized “fuck okay i’m like super insanely and impossibly DOWN BAD FOR HIM AND I WANT HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD AND IVE NEVER WANTED ANUTHING OR ANYONE MORE IN MY LIFE” *deep sigh* so yeah……. it’s been four months now and i swear i think i fall for him more and more every minute

i hope you don’t mind my rambling;; is there anything you wanna talk about or that’s been on your mind? i hope your final papers are going well!! i’m sure you’re doing absolutely amazing<3

- angel anon

hello sweetheart! imma put the rest under a cut bc i talk too much haha

i'm good! still working on my final paper LMAO but once i finish tonight i'll be done with the academic term and off to spring break!! i'm going to a theme park tmrw with my friend which will be really fun!!!!

and that's super cool still that you knew how to knit and crochet! i tried knitting but i wasn't any good at it, maybe i'll try again when i have some free time! what kinds of things did you use to make?

AH i've heard of that book! i take a lot of classes on mental healthcare/patient care so it's definitely been in my circles often. that sounds like a super cool read and i'll definitely pick it up when i have time. if you enjoyed that you might also like when breath becomes air by paul kalanithi? it's abt a neurosurgeon who gets brain cancer and he mediates on life and purpose and medicine--another thought-provoking book, but it's so beautifully written!

HELP ur story is soooo romcom! so perfect! he sounds really sweet (and cute obv) and i am really hoping you guys can go on a date or something!!! how often do you see him? how close are you guys? maybe he's into you too :')

and no i don't mind your rambling at all! my life has been pretty uneventful but in a good way! just spending time w friends and family and doing the things i've wanted to do before i graduate from college :)

[faeriesuns]

have anything to distract me or make me feel better about myself? just got really embarrassed to the point of feeling ill and i can't stop thinking about it

Hmmm I'll just ramble if that's okay with you, hopefully it helps 💚

so I'm doing 3 embroidery projects right now and I'm still really new to this craft and it's just. A Lot. I'm doing a llama one for me grandmother bc of an inside joke, I am doing one that says Blessed with flowers around it for my other grandma, and I'm making a hopefully cute project for my best friends birthday. I am using a lot more embroidery thread than I thought it would take

But I really do enjoy it, even though I don't have much time to do so during the day. Luna, my puppy, is still very young and needs almost constant watching.

One of my grandma's is 83 years old and I'm working mostly on her project because I'm paranoid that she's gonna die soon. Hopefully not and hopefully it's just my paranoia, but she is very old and still works a lot. I worry about her very much

Oh I was also talking to my mom and in the fall I am going to go to GED classes and finally get a highschool diploma (≧▽≦) I'm really insecure about being a highschool drop out. But I need to get it done. I wanted to do it last year but covid hit and they were only doing online classes. I hate online classes they just don't work for me, so I didn't get it done last year

Next year my mom and I are moving into my stepdads house and he's been doing repairs and stuff for my room in the attic. I'm super excited to move and be able to paint and decorate my room. I'm just really sick of living in the house we are currently in. It has some bad memories

I am currently thinking about painting the walls sage green and maybe with copper accents (?) and I'm thinking about buying mushroom lights. Idk we won't even be moving until next year and I haven't even seen my room yet so I don't really have an idea of what it looks like. I'm just super excited!!!

Hm....oh I took Luna out back to potty and there was a momma duck and her little duckies following her. I hope she's okay, we don't live by any open water like a lake. I think they need those to survive? Maybe not I'm not sure

I got a new psychiatrist and I don't think I like her very much. The um.. company (?), that handles my meds and therapist are always having people leave or only work there for three months, so I have to repeat my life story everytime I see a new psychiatrist. But she's the only women left so I'm not gonna ask for a different one. I just don't like her vibes. I love my therapist though she's so sweet and encouraging and she's interested in my hobbies and life and I am just really glad to see this women, she makes therapy funny and less stressful. I am a bit sad about not being able to continue seeing her after we move.

Hmmmmmmm......

Last night I made enchiladas for dinner following my mom's instructions and it was fine but my mom's is a lot better. That reminds me, tomorrow I need to clean the kitchen

Oh!!!! Tomorrow I am getting my 2nd vaccination!!!! I am super excited about it, and I have a cute outfit that I'm gonna wear tmrw

I really want to learn how to crochet but I just don't have the time.

Oh I am looking on Etsy and I think I'm gonna buy some hair beads and spirals, I think they are super pretty

Oh!!! I got hair dye so I need to dye my hair soon. The color I'm using is coppery red. It's very coppery I like it

Sorry I think this is all I can say

I really hope I managed to distract you. I hope everything works out 💚

[palajae]

tysm jae <3 i am hoping i'll concentrate on my studies more. but I wanna talk with you too. you are fun to talk with and till today you were the only one who said I would do better.

thank you for believing me, even thought it has been just days since we've been friends. tysm jae!

and can I know what timezone you follow so that I can know when we're free to talk to each other and if you don't mind me, when your bday? mines Feb 23 and I'm fifteen currently.

i hope we can talk more jae but let me just complete my prefinals and maybe I can get some time to talk to you.

one more thing is that I want to read your works but I have no time, so wait I gotta wait until Feb to read your works but I've read heeseung's fic — unfamiliar warmth and I kinda liked the ending.

also I'm sorry if this went long, it's just been a while since I talked to any of my friends nor to people online. so I wanted to talk jae <3

anyways, have a great day tmrw or today for the new year!! hope we can be besties some day or in this year itself T_T

— 🐈‍⬛ (jae's bestie?)

yes ofc you can be my bestie 😚😚 im glad to talk to you too!! i will always believe in you so just focus on your prefinals for now and do your best :))

i follow usa cst and my bday is mar 16!! im 06 liner haha so i believe a year older than you?

anyways you can always talk to me so don’t worry okay?? im glad to talk to you too haha + plus i might be late at responding at times but you’re always welcome to send in an ask ❤️

[gxtsmxt-blog]

Hello 😊 Do you happen to do BTS fluff scenarios? If you do (if not then feel free to change it to smut or anything I'm just a fanfic hoe lmao) could you please do a Namjoon scenario where you're dating and he doesn't realise you're stressed because he's away so often and you come home really drunk one night after an awful day and he tries to take care of you? School is super stressing me out right now and I'm currently living for Namjoon fluff but it's so hard to find with most being smut aha💜

i love you, baby

❛❛Something can be beautiful because there is something horrible. If you can accept that those hard times are part of beautiful moments in life, I think you can truly understand our HYYH.❜❜ - Kim Namjoon

COUNT → 1.360

GENRE → angst | fluff

PAIRING → namjoon | reader

WARNINGS → alcoholism

→ thanks so much for requesting this!!!!!! u literally just sent me this today but i actually was really excited that u asked for namjoon and im on spring break with nothing to do LMAO!!!!!!!! this felt more like a drabble but i hope this is what you wanted. n i hope you feel less stressed soon anon :-)))

You laid your headagainst the cool surface of the dining room table, your phone held in your facewith one of your hands as you scrolled through pictures of your handsome boyfriend,Kim Namjoon. He was the leader of a popular boy group, BTS, and ever since theydebuted, hadn’t been able to come home as often as he had in the past. Becauseof that, he hadn’t noticed how stressed you’d felt lately because of school andyour part-time job. But you had done a good job hiding it from him, too.

At first, you werehappy for him. You wouldn’t be a good girlfriend if you were unhappy about hissuccess in the first place. You were happyfor him, but with him being on tours and on variety shows more and more eachpassing day and not coming home as often, you felt lonely and depressed. He wasso kind and gentle, both as a boyfriend and as your best friend, and you triedyour hardest to hide how you were feeling. It didn’t help that school was starting to stress you out as the time approached for midterms. Closing out of your photo app, youscrolled through your texts with him, the corners of your lips tilting up atthe most recent one.

NAMJOON [12:07:32]: i miss you baby but im coming hometmrw

You had textedback how much you missed him, too, and sent him a dozen heart emojis. He’d sentthat yesterday an hour after you went to bed, but it was a nice text to wake upto. You were determined to keep hiding your stress from him as you sat up andpoured yourself a bowl of cereal.

Unlocking yourapartment door, fumbling a few times from how badly your hand was shaking, youmanaged to finally make your way inside, slamming the door shut. Tears brimmedin your eyes as you thought back to how your boss had yelled at you for messingup another customer’s order. Your head hadn’t been in a good place lately, butno one seemed to cut you any slack or even notice. Not only that, but you got oneof your midterm exams back as well and didn’t even get a high fail; you got thelowest grade in the class. Then, your teacher asked you to stay behind and yelledat you because of it, clearly disappointed in you and your lack of effort. But youhad spent hours studying for thattest.

But you failedanyway.

It seemed nothingyou did anymore ever was good enough for anybody. And to top it all off,Namjoon never came home when he told you he would. Of course, he texted youthat he had to work for a few more days and then he would be coming home, soyou figured you would spend tonight drinking.

Dropping your bagonto the coffee table in the living room, you stormed into your bedroom,looking at yourself in the mirror for a fleeting moment before you marched backout the door.

You had felt toomuch lately but now all you wanted to feel was nothing.

You came back afew hours later after the sun began to set. You left your car parked in thestreet outside of the bar because although you could usually handle yourliquor, the alcohol in your system was too much for you to even focus on peoplestanding directly in front of you. After you hailed a cab, you stumbled throughyour door, leaning against it as it closed. However, you weren’t alone.

Namjoon was home.

“Baby!”he called, clearly happy to see you, but then stopped when he noticed somethingwas off. He stood from the couch and quietly walked over to you, placing hishands on your shoulders. “What’s wrong?” You tried to open your mouthbut he could immediately smell the alcohol. “Are you drunk?”

You waved him off,dropping off your purse on the dining room table, and then stumbling towards yourshared bedroom. The sound of his footsteps following you echoed throughout thehallway, and he closed the door to your bedroom as you sat down with a huff onyour bed. Your face fell into your hands as you tried to hold back the onslaughtof tears. Namjoon sat beside you on the bed, rubbing your back soothingly. Hishand stopped after a moment to glide up your back and grab onto your shoulder,pulling you into his chest, and rested his chin on top of your head.

“It’s okay,baby,” he whispered in that deep voice of his. “I’m here. You’reokay.”

Your handsautomatically wrapped around his chest, as natural to you as drinking waterwhen you’re thirsty. Sobs fell from your lips and you dampened his shirt. Hekissed your forehead, waiting for you to cry until you had no tears left. As herocked the two of you back and forth, you pulled away.

“I’ms-sorry,” you blubbered, eyes irritated from crying. “I know you— Iknow you were expecting something else, not your girlfriend drunk off her assand crying like a baby.”

“Don’t saythat,” he said as he kissed your temple. “Did you have a bad day?Tell me what happened.”

You hesitated fora moment. “It’s j-just school, and work. I failed my midterm and myteacher chewed me out. I kept messing up people’s orders today at the cafe,too. I can’t do any-t-thing r-right.”

Namjoon thoughtabout asking you why you hadn’t told him about it sooner, feeling that this hadbeen building up for a long time without him even noticing, but you didn’t needthat right now.

“That’s nottrue,” he whispered into your ear and you fisted his shirt at that.“You do so many things right. Remember when you tried to teach me how tocook?” You pulled your head back to look at him, sniffling as you laughedsoftly at the memory. “I can’t even cut an onion properly but you were sopatient with me. You’re always so patient with me—me and everyone else in yourlife. No matter what anyone says to you, you never say anything bad back. Youdon’t have a bad bone in your body. You’re so patient and kind—and that’s why Ilove you so much. That and how beautiful you are. Do you know how beautiful you are? I still don’t know why you agreed to go out with me. But you know that, right? How much I love you? I love you somuch.”

“Namjoon…”you managed to say through teary eyes.

“This willpass.” He hugged you to his chest, running his hands through your hairlike he knew you liked so much. “If things are bad, they can only getbetter, right? And if they don’t, I’ll be here waiting for you to make itbetter with a kiss.” To emphasize his point, he pressed a chaste kiss toyour lips. You reached for him but he was already pulling away. “I’m notgoing anywhere, baby.”

“B-But whatabout BTS? Don’t you have to go back soon?”

“We’re all onbreak right now after the comeback, so I’ll be here as long as you want me tobe.”

You smiled softly downat your lap and watched as you played with your fingers. “Forever.”Wiping the moisture from around your eyes, you gave him a hug. “I want youto be here with me forever.”

“I was hopingyou would say that,” he said with a laugh, kissing you on the lips again.

You pulled backafter a moment, something occurring to you. “I thought you said youweren’t going to be back home for another few days? Did something happen?”

His cheeks heatedat that. “The guys knew that I wanted to see you, so they talked to Bang PD-nimand he agreed to let me take the first flight home. Being the leader has itsprivileges.”

You laughed, andit felt like the first genuine laugh you let out in a long time.

“I love you,Namjoon.”

“I love you,too, baby.”

[inktae]

3:33 PM, Sunday. I'm internally debating whether I should or even want to go into town to shop at this retail store that is going out of business, as a birthday present to myself since it's on Tuesday. Half of me wants to go for the hell of it and the other half is too full from lunch to move... My birthdays stopped exciting me after I turned 21 and now I get kinda insecure about my age but I feel like I should at least attempt to celebrate my 25th haha

aw don’t be! I get so excited whenever I find people around my age or older. and I say you should go for it, it is always nice to gift ourselves something nice (also, I know I’m early but happy bday!)

Anonymous said: it's 4:11 p.m. here and i'm looping "change" for the next 5 hours 'cause joonie and wale are KILLING IT. also, i'm dreading going to school tmrw;; pls save me (love you ^^)

THEY ARE. I should watch the mv again before going to sleep :) and good luck with school, I’ll probably spend the entire day studying (with a bit of writing on the side) ily too!

Anonymous said: It's 20.49 and I'm crying because Uni is eating me up and I just want to sleep. 😫

I ghostwrote this ask.. hang in there ;;;

Anonymous said: It's 20:36 and I'm trying my best to not think about tomorrow's work stuff (failing quite miserably). Most of the time I love freelancing from home, but it makes the line between work and free time a bit too blurry sometimes. So I'm also thinking about looking for a "proper" job. But then I distract myself with Tumblr and chocolate and think about how happy I am that I don't have any exams to study for ^^

that’s quite interesting, I never met a freelancer before :) I suppose it can be really hard not to procrastinate. gosh I know I’d fail miserably, so kudos to you!!

Anonymous said: 12:26PM and thinking about how dope RM x Wale's collab Change was and also trying to get inspiration by music :') (and wtf im gonna eat for lunch) - tatertot anon

ahh I hope you had lunch already!! I hope you’re doing well tatertot :D

Anonymous said: It's 1:52 pm and my thoughts are along this line: aaaaaa. I'm so bad at interviews and I'm really hoping someone takes pity and hires me because I'm graduating soon and I need a job :(

whew that’ll be me soon. but don’t worry, companies are always on the hunt for young, recent graduates to exploit lol (at least that’s the case with engineering) so you pretty much have your age to your advantage. good luck sweetie :) 

Anonymous said: It's 1:51 pm and I'm thinking about ways to convince my mom to let me take acting classes so I can stop crying about her yelling at me about the topic earlier.

you should wait until the moment is right - whenever you see her happy looking or if you’re having a nice conversation, try to bring it up. maybe she’ll react differently then!

Anonymous said: It's 19:49 and I think about getting a job for the next holidays rip I'm broke and would actually want to sleep and binge watch anime in my 2 weeks off from school but I need money sighs

HAH SAME I’m currently tutoring this kid but I’ve spent more money than I should, so now I barely have money for a freaking snack, it’s so sad haha. especially since my best friend has this really cool job at uni and he wants to do nice (expensive) stuff all the time *sigh*. I guess I can only learn to save up the hard way. I hope you at least find something that entertains you :)

Anonymous said: it's 7:38pm as i start to write this (not-very-asky) ask :) actually, i'm not thinking about much right now... the upcoming anatomy test, for which i haven't studied yet, is kinda bugging me somewhere in the deepest corner of my mind as i am lying around doing nothing rn lol what are you thinking about mari? ^_^

I’m also getting bugged from all sides omg. I’m thinking about how to organize my time tomorrow, because I want to divide it in writing and revising for two subjects. but now I’m like ‘what if I just push one of the subjects for another day...’ I seriously shouldn’t but the temptation is STRONG. D: