#// GO FISH WITH YALL PROF

[himbo-beel]

Fun fact: I have held exactly one sick in my life and it was even human

[yeonjunszn]

so sick ! — 10

pairing: idol!lee heeseung x non-idol!f!reader

summary: when your boyfriend of almost eight years cheats on you your senior year of university, you decide that you’re done with anything and everything to do with love. that is, until you meet a guy who sings love songs for a living.

��� FINALLY GETTING IT OUT jeez.. i’m not 100% satisfied with it but it’s okay !!!!!!!1!1!2!! i’ll make up for it i hope

— more after the cut!!

ten: stuck together (1.3k)

so far, you’d been having a fantastic morning. you woke up right when your alarm went off, gotten out of bed to freshen yourself and get ready for your classes and then ryujin suggested getting coffee.

the only thing threatening to ruin the great day you were hoping to have, was the looming decision of who your assigned partner for english would be. you were a friendly person, the epitome of sweet and kind, so you knew you’d do all the work on your own without complaints if you were partnered with someone who didn’t care about their academics.

you arrive to the campus starbucks with ryujin, felix and beomgyu waiting for the two of you by the entrance. the brunette smiles widely at the sight of you, waving almost shyly. you reciprocate the expression, your group going inside to order your drinks and morning pastries.

“can i get a vanilla iced coffee and a croissant?” the barista, who recognizes you and ryujin immediately, nods at your request.

“is that all?” she asks.

“y—” you’re interrupted by beomgyu, who slides his hand between you and the counter.

“i’ll get an iced americano. ‘s on me.” he says, pulling out his card to swipe when the light on the keypad turns green. you stand there beside him like a fish out of water for a moment until he moves you so your other friends could also order.

“gyu,” you pout as you sit and wait. “what’d you do that for?”

“consider it a good luck gift. just in case you get a shitty partner in english.” he grins, reaching across the table to pat the top of your hand. you feel your cheeks warm, smiling in appreciation.

as much as he denied that he still had feelings for you, you knew the jokes he would make had a hint of truth to them. when he confessed to you freshman year of university, there was so much emotion behind his words they brought you to tears. and because of that, you had an inkling that that kind of love just doesn’t disappear. maybe in another life, a life where you hadn’t been irrevocably devoted to siwoo for four years (at that point), you’d be with beomgyu, your caring and charming best friend who’d give you the world if given the opportunity.

ryujin and felix join you at the table a couple minutes later, the blonde sitting next to beomgyu. “so n/n, do you know what the project is? or will you find that out today, too?”

“oh! my professor told us on thursday. since it’s a replacement for our final and we’re supposed to work on it for the rest of the semester, he said he wanted to make it something both fun and fruitful— to show what we’ve been learning.” you answer felix, your eyes following beomgyu when he gets up to retrieve your order from the counter.

“ooh, that sounds exciting. what exactly do you have to do?” ryujin asks, tilting her head to the side.

“we have to pick one of the pieces we’ve studied and turn one of the major parts into something different. it can be a visual or audible recreation, if that makes sense. some of the examples he gave were writing a script and acting it out or making a song. stuff like that.” you graciously accept your breakfast from your friend as you finish explaining what your project entailed.

“i see i see, that actually does sound kind of fun. my english prof sophomore year fucking sucked. he just had us read novels and take tests on the material every few weeks,” ryujin deadpans, running a hand through her hair. “which was hard for me because yall know i don’t read.”

you snicker, tearing off a piece of your croissant to eat, offering beomgyu some as a thanks for paying. “i’m happy with my grade right now, and i’m hopeful it won’t change drastically by the end of the semester, so even if me and my partner have a messy project, i’m genuinely fine with it. just as long as i don’t get stuck with someone who’s gonna put all the weight on me.”

“if it comes down to that, we’ll help you. it’s no biggie.”

ryujin coughs into her fist dramatically. “simp.”

felix glances away to stop himself from laughing, while she sips at her drink nonchalantly, as if she said nothing at all. beomgyu’s cheeks change to a light shade of pink and he avoids your eyes. you’re about to say something when you catch a peek at the time on your phone.

“i gotta go guys. class starts in twenty and i’m on the opposite side of campus. i’ll text the group chat after and let you know how it goes!” you rush out, quickly gathering your belongings. you still had half of a croissant left so you slide it over to beomgyu, ruffling his hair. “thanks again! love you!”

with your coffee in one hand and the other gripping onto the strap of your backpack, you hurry across the quad to the english and language building. for some reason, you thought your chances of getting paired with a decent student were higher if you got to class earlier. your logic was a bit off, but you couldn’t blame yourself for the effort.

you settle into the seat you’ve designated as your own since the beginning of the semester, placing your backpack on the floor and your coffee on the surface in front of you. it was the second row from the top, due to the fact that you preferred being further away from the board and the professor. instinctively, you fix the headband on your head, smoothing any flyaways after fast-walking from starbucks to the lecture hall in record speed.

unbeknownst to you, the green haired boy sitting behind you was bouncing nervously in his seat. he adjusts his bucket hat for the umpteenth time since getting dropped off on campus by his manager. he felt like his breathing was heavier, especially because he had to wear a mask to conceal his identity as much as possible.

he had to inform the staff that he’d have to participate in this project in order to get the full credit from the course, which meant his probability of being discovered would go up immensely. he’d have to meet his partner regularly outside of the comfort of the lecture hall, a form of contact with another person he wasn’t used to anymore. had this happened pre-debut, it would’ve been no problem, but now that he’s an idol, he’s forgotten what it's like to interact with other people who aren’t employed by hybe and belift or his group members.

at the front of the room, your professor clears his throat, explaining that once partners were revealed, the remainder of the class could be spent getting to know each other. he understood that working on such an important assignment for two months with a total stranger would be challenging. he also decided against announcing them for everyone to hear (per heeseung’s privacy) ((at least he wasn’t a sadist)), so one by one you went down to get a sheet of paper from him, which had the name of another student and your own written on it.

when you returned to your seat, you unfolded the paper, furrowing your eyebrows at the name. to be fair, you didn’t really know any of your classmate’s names, though they all seemed to know yours.

just as you’re about to venture to find your partner, there’s a tap on your shoulder from the row behind. you spin around, greeted by none other than cute mysterious guy. he gives you a wave and a gentle smile, that you notice even with his mask on thanks to the crinkles beside his eyes.

“it looks like we’re stuck together for the next couple of months.” he says, a smooth voice akin to honey filling your ears. he extends his hand for you to shake and you take it firmly. “i’m lee heeseung.”

“l/n y/n.”

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[shytiff]

Jan 2021 Wins

ive “journaled” for 6 months now. it started as small ___ wins because when you feel rly empty, even doing the bare minimum feels like a win. written down some of the wins. i think until now i’d like to keep the “win” part. a win against my shadow sometimes. a win in life. some things to be grateful for. a win for remembering it later in the future. i know some days im just basically doing nothing.  there are a lot of wars not won by me. but im still tryna ✨manifest✨

1 - woke up. watched bts’ 2021 seasons greetings. read trap city. afternoon nap. pupuy’s mbah passed away. i got DOMS in my body even though i did the barest of exercise yesterday (frail, i know). shower, matcha latte.

2 - the x banner atikah and i sent for racil post thesis defense has arrived lmaoo. mom made delicious (and sweet) fried banana. did some studying (more than usual, bcs the bar is on the floor)

3 - ate muesli, 3 risols. Kopsus coklat at flavola. Stayed there from 12-ish to 17:30 lmaooo. weekly bahas soal w/ fi. Rapat nemo

4 - first day of collab module. Barely cicil ukmppd. My mood is normal-ish but i hardly have the will to study. Dinner is fried fish with mentai sauce, potato wedges, and saladdd by mom

5 - collab module, qa presentation for rsui reps. finished reviewing tryout 2 solid. did padi pretest (got 66,5). ate chicken porridge, a bit of muesli and vsoy, tan ek tjoan bread, matcha latte, fish and chicken and potato wedges and salad, fried banana. i ate well today lol.

6 - slept during collab webinar, went to clara’s place to study osce and attended padi together. i ate well at clara’s placeee lol. ate nastar, kusuka, white kwetiaw with soup (?), and lele goreng. went back home @ 9 pm. i feel refreshed. even though we’ve half studied half mukbang all day. human interaction rly does heal me. i need human interaction more than i think. at night i dreamed about going to bali, to waterparks, seeing sea creatures, watching a movie displayed on a concert-like stage and screen at the front row. 

7 - woke up at 07:55, finished my part for collab group work. felt a bit tired today. the rest of fam went to DM, and when they were on the way back i HURRIED my way out, not even taking a shower lmaoo. got pistachio matcha latte at starbucks dm. now im more skilled in searching the best spot in a cafe to distance myself from people lmao. the matcha latte is served with some sort of pistachio cream and sprinkled with nuts on top. its like when sbux had taro matcha latte and it had purple cream on top. the pistachio taste is quite strong. reviewed TO 1 padi, sent proposals for nemo sponsorship.

8 - did syndrome try out and padi 2 web try out. studied for osce and padi @ clara’s place. wanted to order pizza since clara bought me food before, but she insisted in ordering lmaoo. so dinner is pizza hut

9 - woke up at 11.00 lmao. havent had breakfast. lunch is muesli with the brand new delishhh chocolate granola and cimory banana milk. did one shot try out, got 71. had a google meet with Prof Agus (that ethics book ghostwriting job from a year ago is not finished until now huaaa) that went from 20.00ish and finished at 22.30,,,,, reviewed syndrome try out along the way. havent made my collab self reflection hhhh. i also need to study for osce. also havent edited article for bukang solid. and there goes my saturday nooo

10 - i swear i keep waking up late lmao. Flavola w atikah, racheel later came with wawa. Kopsus coklat and ukmppd class w dr yudo. After class i just talked at flavola (and ended not studying osce at all for sunday). Went to racheel's to pray and talk some more. Hurriedly went back for booty call with fi, watched konser dies natalis first. Tryout and sum study with fi and clar that went from 20:30 to 00:10. Powered by left over kopsus and 2 snackit pia. Rip my sleeping schedule

11 - woke up at 10:30 ish, the lack of meal and horrible sleep pattern (for my standard) produced stuffy nose during the day and a bit of headache that went away for a bit after i ate. Late bfast is muesli, drank protein, ate tan ek tjoan, plus 2 brownies in the evening. Tht coaching w dr niken. Did self reflection for collab. Had dinner without rice, as usual. Ukmppd class w dr ayu. Finished reflection at 21:30 lmao (deadline is 23:55). Tryna sleep and my nose is still itchy and i sneeze a more often. i hope it goes away 2mrw

12 - DV coaching, scele tryout, took a nap before padi cause my head kind of hurts. Les padi while drinking matcha with vsoy less sugar and no added sugar. I can withstand the horrible sugarless cy matcha taste bcs theres a taste of soy. Didnt do anything else. Havent studied osce on my own until now. Astagfirullah

13 - my head still kind of aches. Its goes away when im eating. im eating so well during the weekdays that i gained 2kgs lmao. lazed around the first half of the day. padi. finally tried saint matcha and damnn its an amazing upgrade from Cy matcha. the green color is super different yall. Cy’s green looks sick and tired compared to saint matcha. the taste? immaculate (although coco deli is more fragrant). caffeine? hits. awake and feel normal? yes. messaged an ao3 author and got replied and turns out she’s making a sequel for my fav fic of hers. yay

14 - osce practice w ara ren ness. bedah and anak osce coaching. had 3 of mom’s cinnamon rolls and matcha latte for the afternoon. cicil osce DV. edited some pld articles. did nothing else basically

15 - wasted my day, didnt have the courage to study osce (i feel like i procrastinate on it bcs it feels overwhelming to me), TO FKUI 2, hurriedly reviewed to 1 before, les padi. i feel like this is the least focused im being in a les. maybe its the too few matcha powder.

16 - woke up at 9 am. breakfast is muesli. reviewed to 2 fkui w apa salahku (finished at 12 pm, there goes half of my saturday). tried fried chicken master. its good and tender but i still prefer moon chicken. 

17 - breakfast is muesli, banana and 2 martabak tahu. snack is keripik pisang aduuu wenak (and picking bits of meat cooked by mom). went to devi’s place w/ racheel silvi. brought RJ to be wrapped. we watched okay madam and its super fun, hilarious and full of twists anddd a bit of cutesy romance. just the right balance to enjoy and let the stress out. late lunch is moon chicken yay!! went home after maghrib, did to padi 6 w/ fi and matcha latte. talked about a senior’s wedding and eating healthier til 22:30

18 - To fkui 3, wasted my afternoon playing my phone, finally mustered some will to study after ashar. My progress is rly slow today. Watched hilarious jessi interview with eric, heechul. Im telling u, i thought tiktok is the funniest internet content but i was wronggg. Seeing heechul flustered is hilarious. Tried to study again at night but only learned 1 disease hiks

19 - had no idea what i did before dzuhur lmao. went to racheel’s to surprise atikah. actually napped at her place lmaoo why do i feel so sleepy. gifted rj to atikah. we ate fried chicken master and pempek on a small green table and talked. its like korean movie lmao. we talked while im simultaneously listening to padi lol.

20 - woke up at 8, chicken porridge + muesli and low sugar vsoy for breakfast. arrived at clara’s @10am. to fkui 4. reviewed it. reviewed general physical exam. finished up to padi 7. tried bombo donut. studied osce. i felt sooo dumb in osce (and clara is already super smart). superrr motivated to learn after going back home (arrived at 7) but i ended up opening youtube and drinking protein lmaooo and its suddenly 9 pm

21 - matcha latte at starbucks dm. Studied osce. Obgyn coaching w the super kind dr ilham. Les padi. Read angel buddy and played with my phone til 12 pm

22 - to fkui. padi as usual. had low motivation, so i did the tryout that day close to the actual course.

23 - left home at 06:30 to study together in capitol. had breakfast in mcd first. thank god i ate rice + chicken and breakfast wrap cuzzzz. studied osce together w ara, ical, kelvyn, dio and kak ilonka til about 2 pm. WALKED to bk bcs my parents are there. apparently simply driving to capitol is too much for them. immediately ate muesli at 4 pm cause i didnt eat anything in capitol. did nothing else after that. did not pray maghrib together lmao somehow mom had mercy on me and let me sleep som more. mom bought sate padang but i didnt eat it. i cried in bed because as yoongi said, “this is the real you and this is the real me”. did not shower/wash my face at night bcs i felt like shit lmao rip my face (its a week before bukang photoshoot)

24 - i feel tired, lazy, and just wanted some sleep. like all that’s in me is drained. ate muesli with strawberry milk. tried fitmee beef. its better than i thought. because the noodle is chewy you spend more time to chew. also ate fried chicken and daun singkong. usually i cant wait to go to flavola but even at 12 pm i just feel like laying down. finally mustered the will to shower and go out. its raining a bit on the way. colddd. 

25 - to fkui 6, osce briefing, covid lecture (that was actually for ppds), padi

26 - spaghetti for brekkie, coaching neuro and ophthalmology, cicil osce

27 - cicil osce, the second to the last padi omg. the fastest padi ever

28 - obgyn osce practice at kak ilonka’s place (that nice kosan at forkabi) with ara, ren ness, kelvyn, dio with mannequins from og dept, tried meokja salemba that serves bulgogi rice. quite good. after arriving at home, studied neuro together with menno til about 20:45 an and i just dont have the energy lmaooo so i gave up and slept

29 - today is bukang photoshoot at bintaro. put base make up on the way. even put glue on my eyebrow. got eyebrow, eyeshadow and blush done by renata. took lots of photos. nebeng om coro afterwards to bxc to meet mom. we ate at genki sushi (renata ara kris mendel oca regan geordie eka). i missss road trips hua. did tryout fkui on the way back home. after shower and prayer proceeded to review TO with apa salahku. Last padi (havent done the questions beforehand so i sprinted it out while on the actual course). Muhasabah osce with kak widia afterwards lmao. Studied osce with clara

30 - studied osce with ara ren ness @ merra. I ate eatlah, moms muffin, kemplang, tango. I ate so welll. Its a productive sesh, neuro and infectious disease. At home i studied osce w clara til abt 22:15 ish. I feel like i miss my me time lmao its been 3 days. I can still go on w clara but i dont wanna get myself sick

31 - simul osce in the morning. Osce study with clara almira. Cicil osce alone. Played my phone at 10 pm even though i still have mental clarity post matcha latte -___-

[chillihansol]

Wedding Date pt. 2 ; W O O Z I

[ college!bestfriend!jihoon x fem!college!reader ]

word count: 1658 genre: angst&fluff a/n: //mark’s voice// uh, and that’s a long ass ride. yES ppl. this is the last part of wedding date. omg. i may or may not post smth related to this soon so stay tune for that ;) you’ll have a lil hint in the ending. i hope yall enjoy this xx

3: “I was wondering if you like me.” 73: “Yes, I’m jealous and I hate it.” 94: “I need you to be my boyfriend.”

In a room filled with Jeonghan and his spouse’s colleagues and family relatives, Jihoon kept you secured in his arms.

The both of you decided to skip the actual wedding. Wedding vows are not your cup of tea, so as your best friend, but receptions are different subject. Other than attending this for the sake of showing off a mask in front of your ex-lover, you and Jihoon were mostly hyped for the buffet.

It was nothing but a small intimate wedding. They had it limited to few people that you slightly recognized including their families and some of their close friends. You had exchanged a look with Jeonghan’s mother who loved you truly. Thankfully, both of you didn’t hold grudges and had moved on from your terrible break up with his son. She had told you before how she saw you as her dream daughter-in-law, unfortunately, Jeonghan didn’t see a future with you. But right now, you are beyond happy for him and his beloved, and if you were the one who knelt in front of the altar, you wouldn’t have developed your hidden feelings for Jihoon.

You were sharing a table with your colleagues, namely Soonyoung, Wonwoo, and Jun. Their eyes adverted on Jihoon’s arm around you by the time you came to join them, then exchanged confused looks to each other. You consciously caught Soonyoung raised his brows at Jihoon who just gave him a smug grin.

“What? You guys are a thing now?” Wonwoo huffed, crossing his arms over his chest. 

You are a terrible liar, and Jihoon knows it, so you ogled to the chandelier hanging on the ceiling.

“How could you ask something so obvious?” Jihoon replied in retort, making Jun crack up from the seat across. 

“No, for me it’s kind of a show.” Soonyoung shook his head, leaning back on his seat. “These two tend to block their evident feelings for each other, so they couldn’t just show up here and look like their dating since forever.”

“Yah, is it our fault that we are not awkward to each other?” 

“Jihoon’s right. And besides, they’re basically together 24/7 so there’s no doubt that they’ll end up being together.” Jun laughed. “I wouldn’t be surprised if we receive another wedding invitation next week.” This made you turn your gaze to Jun who gave you a wink.

“Ah, Jihoon, how was that essay you were writing for Y/N? What was her reaction?” Wonwoo leaned on the table, smiling excitedly at Jihoon. 

You felt your heart jumped from Wonwoo’s question. Jihoon was writing an essay for you? Jihoon’s grip suddenly froze around you, making it obvious that he himself was surprised too. You caught a glimpse of him gulping before turning to you. 

“Y/N, do you mind if you ask for a glass of water?” He asked, looking at you sternly.

You nodded your head quickly before standing up. Eight pairs of eyes laid on you as you leave the table to make your way towards to wherever you can find the glass of water Jihoon asked for. As you caught the sight of a random waiter, you immediately scampered on your way to him.

“Excuse me, hi, can I have a glass of water?” You smiled politely at the waiter before he nodded his head to you.

You bit your lower lip, tapping your fingers in rhythm on the long white clothed table as you wait for your request, but you were caught off guard on you felt a finger tapped your right shoulder.

“Y/N?”

When you turned around, Jeonghan was smiling dearly at you. 

“Jeonghan,” You breathed out. “Congratulations.” You shot him the same smile he’s wearing. 

“Thank you, and I’m glad that you made it.” He chuckled, fishing his hands on the pocket of his white slacks.

A very happy smile was plastered on his face, hinting how grateful he was for his wedding. Jeonghan is one of the mature guys you’ve met, along with his best man Seungcheol. Having a little talk with him meant nothing for the both of you since you’ve already forgotten and accepted about your past. 

Without noticing the time, your little talk with him turned into a reunion. You both talked about your life, including your graduation next year, and his future family plans. It was nice having a conversation with him, but from a distance, Jihoon has been glaring at the sight of you and Jeonghan together.

He couldn’t help but to feel a little possessive to you, although he knew to himself that you weren’t actually dating, that in the end, this was all an act.

“Are you seeing someone right now?” Jeonghan grinned at you.

Jihoon suddenly popped in your mind, and you realized why you were here. You forced a smile to Jeonghan. “Uhm, I’m actua–”

“I’ve been looking for you.” 

His voice rang your consciousness. Jeonghan’s eyes passed by you, looking at the figure behind. A warm hand was suddenly placed at the small of your back. You knew it was Jihoon, and you found yourself wrapping your own arms around him. 

He looked at Jeonghan confidently, but the newly married felt a little awkward as your best friend’s presence changed the ambiance between the three of you. 

“Uhm, Jeonghan, this is Jihoon, my boyfriend. You know him, right?” You shyly introduced.

Jeonghan nodded, still looking very uncomfortable. “Yes, of course I know him. He’s your best friend.” He let out a shaky chuckle.

“Her boyfriend.” Jihoon corrected from the side. “If you don’t mind, I’ll get back my girl.”

“Oh, yes, I don’t mind.” He replied, still chuckling.

“And you don’t want your lovely wife to feel very suspicious from talking with your ex.” He gave him a grin. “Thank you for inviting us, it’s an exquisite wedding. Congratulations as well. We hope you’ll bloom a healthy family in the future.” 

“Thank you, Jihoon. I wish the same for you and Y/N.” Jeonghan gained a little confidence this time.

“We’ll actually get going now.” Jihoon said, glancing at his watch. You shot your head to him with a confused expression. “You know, we’re still in college and we have classes tomorrow.”

“Yeah,” Jeonghan laughed. “Again, thank you for coming. Have a safe trip!”

“Thank you.” Jihoon replied. He looked at you before speaking, “Let’s go?”

“Yeah,” You nodded your head, going with Jihoon’s flow. “Thank you, Jeonghan.” You said one last time before turning your back, leaving Jeonghan and the glass of water you asked for.

The engine of the car died down as Jihoon parked it in front of your dorms. No one dared to talk, so you let out a sigh before facing him.

Fiddling the dress you were wearing, you spoke. “Thank you, Jihoon. I didn’t know what to do without you.” You lightly snickered. He didn’t say anything, his grip still tight on the steering wheel. So you continued, “You were good, I didn’t know you have it in you. I felt like Jeonghan believed it. I was wondering if you like me for a second. I almost believed it too.” Little did he know that you actually hoped that he likes you. “I felt like you were jealous too when I was talking to him.”

“Yes, I’m jealous and I hate it.” His jaw clenched. “Y/N,” He blurted. “Did you forget about my condition?”

You did. The fact that Jihoon just confessed that he was jealous became nonsense to you when he spoke about his condition. This condition of him went out of your mind. You opened your mouth in disbelief. “Shit, yes I did. What was it?” 

“Open that.” He pointed at the compartment. 

Without hesitation, your fingers trailed the opening, pulling it down to see a piece of paper folded neatly inside. You grabbed it, looking at him with furrowed brows.

“Read.” He said.

You carefully unfolded the piece of paper. His neat handwriting welcomed you.

One of my professors told us to write an essay about the person we adore the most. I couldn’t think of any at first. I thought of my mom, my dad, and even our dog. So I looked around, and felt stupid for not realizing your existence. You are the person that makes me happy, but I couldn’t tell you that because I know how much you value our friendship. I told myself to keep this feelings for you, and how I would get over you someday, but I didn’t. Y/N, I couldn’t show you my essay because my prof hasn’t returned it, so consider this as a summary of it. There’s just one important sentence on that essay and it’s funny how it’s composed with only four words. I love you Y/N. Can we make today our first day?

Your heart burst with confetti’s and rainbows with what he wrote for you. Happy tears started forming in your eyes as you finished reading it. You were more than happy, in fact, you couldn’t describe what it felt like.

You looked back at Jihoon who has a very nervous and anxious expression. 

“Why do you look so nervous?” You laughed, wiping away your tears. He tried uttering words but none made sense. “You didn’t have to make this a condition. My answer would still be the same if you asked me anytime.”

“What answer?”

“Yes, of course.” 

He grabbed your left hand before placing it on the top of his lips, feeling the softness in his touch. And you thought that if it weren’t for Jeonghan’s wedding, he wouldn’t have the guts to confess his valuable sentiment for you.

[fortnegrita]

first few days in chile, first few thoughts.

(Photos: a pic of my leaving Atlanta with two book bags and a reusable grocery bag and my fanny, my zero waste gifts to the Chilean women of our research group, my food from my flight to avoid waste, the food I had to throw away because Chile is very strict about foreign food coming into their country, the sign for my living areas, dope AF drummers!, a sign at a cooperative grocery store in town and the co-op’s community garden.)

My first few days in Chile have given me so many thoughts about everything really! There so random so I will share them in list form, also if you haven’t figured out why I’m in Chile read my last post.

1.       Valdivia is extremely beautiful, sometimes I wonder if Valdivia is so beautiful because it’s in another country or if it truly is beautiful? Valdivia is situated in between rolling hills of dark green pine trees, and if you go north, west of south enough you are bound to see one of their major rivers the Calle Calle, Cruces or the Valdivia River. There are so many species of birds here, for instance, there is a particular species of falcon that spends a lot of time walking on the floor like a pigeon, unlike many falcons that spend time in high spaces. In the downtown areas where fish is for sale, there are many birds waiting for fish heads and guts to be tossed aside by the butchers.

2.       Chile is a one of the South American countries with the least amount of Afri-Latinos, and the ones here mostly live in Arica, one of the most Northern cities of the country, Valdivia would be consider a part of Southern Chile. There are very few black people around, with the exception of Haitians, who are actually moving to Chile at high rates right now, especially in Valdivia where the line for visas isn’t wrapped around a building. I sometimes feel isolated without the sight of people who look like me, especially since I get funny looks, considering people think I’m Haitian at first glance. Which is cool with me!, but I can feel the judgment and distaste, and it don’t feel good. It’s nice to see Haitians in passing, and I’m also interested in where they live, where do they buy their black beans for souspoi, and can I get a plate?

3.       It is sunny forever here; the sun doesn’t go down until about 9:30pm. Days are long and there is a lot to take advantage of.

4.       Some Spanish words here are different for instance, avocado, which is aguacate in other Spanish-speaking countries, is palta here, and beans which is frijoles in other places is porolotos in Chile.

5.       Even though the country has a huge GMO-influence, the agroecologia movement is resilient and alive. Some of the students at the university are studying agroecology as a sustainable alternative to conventional farming practices, and in December there was a conference on agroecology, put on by La Manzana, the cooperative grocery store.

6.       I haven’t met any of the indigenous people and I don’t want to seek them out per se, but I can tell by the feeling of this place that they are made of iron, warm and comforting like a bonfire, lively like two-year-olds and wise like 700 year old trees.

7.       I see elements of Africa in Chile. I heard some drum on the second night I was here, and so I walk to find the drummers. Watching them I could hear sounds of Africa in their movements, rhythms and calls. However, I also understand that we all have the same blood running through our veins and that it’s not a copy of African, but rather great minds think alike. (yes, yes, I know about the maroons and Mansa Musa, etc., etc.) It makes me appreciate the black and brown connection even more. Considering we all created sacred monuments (Nubians, Teotihuacan, and Hopi) that line up with orion’s belt. Something we couldn’t call each other about millions of years ago to say, “Hey, we’re about to build some era-lasting structures that line up with those three stars.” “Lit, we are too.” Lol

8.       The hydrangeas  here are POPPIN’ rich purples and blues. I’m curious if I take a piece to propagate, if they will come out that bright.

9.       I am having one of the greatest times of my life, and I am extremely grateful. It’s surreal when i think about how I got here. I’m humbled, and motivated by the universe which is always in my corner; kicking me out of my comfort zone and rooting for me all along the way. Much gratitude to everybody that helped to get me here. My parents, the love that created me, yall whipped up quite a human being. My siblings, who have known I was super weird since day one, and are never shocked by my shenanigans and how they have shown me how to love unconditionally. All the grams/gramps, who have no idea what I’m doing but are highly supportive. Aunt Kendra, reminding me to roar. Aunt Bernie, that one person that prays for you even when you are not praying for yourself, also for all the hand-me-downs, they’re always on time. My nieces and nephew, top-notch motivators. Ari, the ultimate cousin-sister-friend. All my extended family, loving on me from afar. My roomies, Eva, Jas…. Tia, lol for the support, foundation, sisterhood. Z, for perfect timing with everything and for being the visionary. Alsie Parks, for showing me how to always land on my feet. Drea, the matriarch, the Madonna, don’t fight it, own it. Jamal, my spiritual and emotional guide, and for reminding me I belong to the universe, home is anywhere my feet touch the ground. Teena, reminding me to stay anchored. Myriah and Nadirah, for being an ear and understanding me, knowing how to support a strange girl in a corporate world. Nadirah, them leggings are CUTCH AF. Tash, for our journey in making things work the way we want it to, NOTHING LESS. Chelz, for reminding me to carry Atlanta on my back, and that quartz baby! Nene, for giving me to words to use for the things I feel passionate about. The notorious A.V.R.Y.; our neo in the matrix. TRIBE! all the well wishes, encouragement, gifts, favors (rides), food, clean-ups, dancing, sweat. Bercy, GAHH! Lifelong rider, thank you for teaching me how to navigate fearlessly. Yewande, your personal pursuits have been a baseline for me to study, thank you for being a sister-friend and accidental mentor, and for reading all my papers since the Journey days. Best Friend, A1 since Day1, the most loyal thing I know. DR. JOHN E WILLIAMS, you already know, see you at a future faculty meeting. Bridge, CRAWFORD, for loving me and letting me be me. Xion, meet me at the tree. Tanza, you got the map gurla, and thank you for sharing your Grandma, the first time indigenous knowledge clicked for me was in her backyard. Dr. Hankins, Prof. Ritchie, Mr. Curry, David Iwaniec for holding it down in academe, and all the recommendations of course! Downey, reminding me in the best ways to do your best and not give AF, at the same time.  And anybody else that’s been rooting for me, sending blessings my way, opening doors for me; I love you all!

[dfosanctum]

sanctum and cooking

Ariano

[12/19/2016 2:22:54 PM] Ariano: me trying to bake [12/19/2016 2:23:12 PM] Racky: ME [12/19/2016 2:23:40 PM] Racky: meanwhile gradpa treb and his baking [12/19/2016 2:23:56 PM] Treb: damn straight man [12/19/2016 2:24:09 PM] Shig: Meanwhile shig and his friend Korean kredit kard [12/19/2016 2:24:16 PM] Ariano: k k k [12/19/2016 2:24:17 PM] Shig: What cooking [12/19/2016 2:24:18 PM] Ariano: reported [12/19/2016 2:24:22 PM] Shig: LOL [12/19/2016 2:24:35 PM] Racky: treb is like the prof of advanced university science class [12/19/2016 2:24:37 PM] Racky: that's like [12/19/2016 2:24:40 PM] Racky: IT'S NOT THAT HARD [12/19/2016 2:24:54 PM] Racky: when ti comes to cookings vs the rest of us failing plebs [12/19/2016 2:25:02 PM] Shig: Well [12/19/2016 2:25:06 PM] Shig: I can try to cook [12/19/2016 2:25:16 PM] Racky: we can all try [12/19/2016 2:25:28 PM] Shig: Just that this is coming from a person that has failed to make instant noodles [12/19/2016 2:25:28 PM] Racky: but as our grade show trying doesn't mean succeeding [12/19/2016 2:25:35 PM] Racky: oh man [12/19/2016 2:25:42 PM] Ariano: its k shig [12/19/2016 2:25:48 PM] Ariano: an old coworker burned ramen [12/19/2016 2:25:51 PM] Shig: NOODLE INCIDENT PLZ NO TALK FAM [12/19/2016 2:25:51 PM] Treb: man instant noodle failure [12/19/2016 2:25:53 PM] Racky: i'd say something but i'd prob fail to make instant noodles too [12/19/2016 2:25:54 PM] Treb: oh my goodness [12/19/2016 2:26:07 PM] Racky: i tried to back cookies [12/19/2016 2:26:09 PM] Shig: YALL PLEBS [12/19/2016 2:26:16 PM] Racky: it took my 4 hours for a 30 minute recipe [12/19/2016 2:26:17 PM] Shig: BACK COOKIED [12/19/2016 2:26:37 PM] Ariano: ??? [12/19/2016 2:26:38 PM] Ariano: how [12/19/2016 2:26:53 PM] Racky: because it took a lot of mixing [12/19/2016 2:27:15 PM] Racky: my arm was so sore from all the mixing [12/19/2016 2:27:24 PM] Racky: but at least the cookies were nice [12/19/2016 2:29:24 PM] Shig: Still prob better than my attempt at making fish n chips [12/19/2016 2:29:33 PM] Shig: I toasted the fuck out of my fish [12/19/2016 2:29:35 PM] Racky: oh man [12/19/2016 2:29:44 PM] Racky: why did you even attempt it tho [12/19/2016 2:29:47 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: I gotta teach you gentlemen how to properly fry [12/19/2016 2:29:48 PM] Shig: Like looking like charred cod [12/19/2016 2:29:53 PM] Shig: Also kyuby [12/19/2016 2:30:04 PM] Ariano: sounds like an anime shig [12/19/2016 2:30:04 PM] Racky: like instant noodles are like boil some water and put noodles in [12/19/2016 2:30:08 PM] Shig: If you get a Eugene pet [12/19/2016 2:30:11 PM] Shig: Name yours travis [12/19/2016 2:30:23 PM] Shig: Man ari [12/19/2016 2:30:23 PM] Racky: why would you try something even harder [12/19/2016 2:30:23 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: Okay, sir henry motherfucker [12/19/2016 2:30:26 PM] Racky: man [12/19/2016 2:30:30 PM] Shig: This isn't shougeki no soma [12/19/2016 2:30:42 PM] Shig: Trebs naming his Eugene touchdoen [12/19/2016 2:30:44 PM] Shig: Down* [12/19/2016 2:30:45 PM] Racky: kyuby teaching the rest of us old plebs (except treb) how to cook [12/19/2016 2:30:49 PM] Shig: So we can go the 3 meme [12/19/2016 2:31:02 PM] Shig: Travis touchdown and linebacker touchdown [12/19/2016 2:31:03 PM] Racky: and the real amercian tradtion of deep frying everything [12/19/2016 2:31:09 PM] Shig: MAXIMUM MEME EFFICIENCY [12/19/2016 2:31:26 PM] Shig: Tell us your deep fried chicken secrets [12/19/2016 2:31:51 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: Like you want legit tips? [12/19/2016 2:31:54 PM] Shig: Also bring us your chili cause iirc cincy has some notable chili places iirc [12/19/2016 2:32:05 PM] Shig: Double iircs are necessary [12/19/2016 2:32:11 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: It does [12/19/2016 2:32:27 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: gold star, skyline, price hill, chili time We're known for putting boiled meat on meat [12/19/2016 2:32:29 PM] Shig: Aren't there like a few local chains or something? [12/19/2016 2:32:31 PM] Shig: Yeah [12/19/2016 2:32:34 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: Or really just anything tbh [12/19/2016 2:32:48 PM] Glorious Wheelchair King: Boiled meat on spaghetti French fries Cheese Meat [12/19/2016 2:33:15 PM] Shig: Man [12/19/2016 2:33:21 PM] Shig: Meat on meat [12/19/2016 2:33:24 PM] Shig: Meatception [12/19/2016 2:37:55 PM] Racky: Meat on meat